#he also one time entirely unprompted said 'i wasn't suicidal or anything!' about it

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waiit what do you mean noel's "brush with suicide"?? 😭 omg

it's more extrapolation than anything truly concrete, but he had a pretty nasty breakdown after the infamous meth incident gig at the whiskey a go go in LA, wrote a dire emotional note of some kind to liam, quit the band, ran away to another city without telling anyone, hid out with a girl he'd just met for a few weeks, came out the other side with a shaved head and a painfully sad beautiful song, and to this day claims to not really remember anything about the whole incident (probably a lie, but who knows). obvs we don't know exactly what sort of severity of emotional distress was going on that whole time, but it seemed pretty extreme, significantly worse than at any other point in his public life, and liam in particular was very upset and scared by his behaviour and worried for his wellbeing. it might or might not be true to say he was suicidal but he sure was having a rough time and there was a real element, in other people's description of his behaviour and speech afterwards, of wanting to quit/end/run away from everything