#having a favourite? me? naaaah

[rapha-reads]

I tried to resist the urge but at the end of the day ranting about Romeo and Juliet is my most favourite thing to do, and ranting about vampires is also in my top 10 regular hobbies, so...

Louis, Lestat, Armand and Balthasar, or, a R&J x IWTV unplanned rant.

Under the "read more" because it got long.

Balthasar is introduced in the play as "Romeo's man", often modernised in various adaptations as his valet or his page. The footnote in The Arden Shakespeare 2012 edition states that:

"Shakespeare introduced the name for the part in the play, though it is not, of course, his invention. The name, which is also found in Comedy Of Errors, Merchant of Venice and Much Ado, occurs only once in the text of R&J, even though the character speaks nearly 30 lines in the final act."

Three things from that only: it's a common enough name, at least in Shakespearian texts, that the character could be switched for another one; he's so inconsequential that he barely even managed to make his name known ; yet despite his apparent unimportance, his role at the end is extremely crucial in closing in the tragedy.

What lines does Balthasar speaks and whom does he speak to throughout the play?

Man waits until Act III scene 1 to make his entrance. Given his function as Romeo's man, you'd think he'd be a bit more present before that point, but no, Balthy waits until everything's gone bad to arrive like "Grandma, it's me".

Romeo asks him "How doth my Juliet? That I ask again, / For nothing can be ill if she is well." The beginning of his answer could lead you to think that he's about to lie so that Romeo can still be "all well", but, naaaah, sike, he's here to deliver news and he's going to do his job. And the way he does it doesn't leave any details to the imagination:

"Then she is well and nothing can be ill. Her body sleeps in Capel's monument, And her immortal soul part with angels lives. I saw her laid low in her kindred's vault, And presently took post to tell it to you. O, pardon me for bringing these ill news, Since you did leave it for my office, sir."

"Her immortal soul"... We'll come back to that point when we'll get to the vampires. Interesting to note that he says he saw with his own eyes Jules' laid down in the Capulet's tomb, but there's no indication in the text prior to that line that he really did. Some stage adaptations have Balthasar lurking around as Capulet and Cie put her in it, most movies totally ignore Balthasar's entire role - which I will come back to in the second part too. In a way, one could think that Balthy didn't see anything, he just heard the news like any other Veronese people, and didn't wait for more information or even actual confirmation and hurried on ("took post") to tell his master. Which, he does say it himself, that's his job, to keep Romeo informed of the going-ons of Verona in general and Juliet in particular. But, man, what are your sources, actually? Whose your informant? What authenticity does your information have, except from "source: myself"?

And then homeboy has the audacity to tell a desperate and ready to commit all kinds of violence Romeo to "have patience. / Your looks are pale and wild, and do import / Some misadventure." You think?? After this we lose track of Balthy while Romeo goes soliloquising looking for his cuppa poison. ... I don't want to tell you how to do your job, Balthy, but aren't you supposed to always follow your master closely...? How are you losing him so easily? Well, to be fair to him, Romeo does send him to "hire those horses", but that's a really thin excuse.

Balthasar reappears then in the Comedy of Situations that is "everybody and their mothers come visit Juliet's body" (you know, Warm Bodies did have a point; the zombies and necrophilia jokes do write themselves). First he enters with Romeo, and then for once shows some working brain cells when Romeo tells him to peace out and he tells himself "For all the same, I'll hide me hereabout. / His looks I fear, and his intents I doubt." Yes, thank you Balthy, maybe stay inside the crypt itself... Nope, okay, I don't know where he hid but Paris "14yo is perfectly acceptable to marry when I'm 30" Escalus makes his own appearance unbothered and unstopped. Great scouting skills there. Granted, he was the first on the scene actually, but if Balthy really hid close by, he should have witnessed the altercation and maaaaybe stop it. But no. I think he's having a drink with Paris' page. Current body count: 3 (yeah, Juliet's not dead yet, for those following).

Then Friar Laurence arrives on the scene. Oh, hello, Friar My-Ideas-Will-Definitely-Work-Trust-Me-Bro. Balthy emerges from the shadows (from where? Who knows, not me and certainly not Willie the Bard himself; homeboy was lurking, planning the best moment to reappear to create maximum chaos I guess). Their discussion goes something like this:

Laurie: who're you? Balthy: come on bro, you know me. Laurie: oh, hey Balth, so nice to see you? But what the heck are you doing here? Balthy: yeah I'm here with Romeo that fail emo lord lol. Laurie: Romeo? Whaaaat? How long has he been here? Balthy: eeh, 30 minutes? Maybe 45? Dunno but it's been a while. Laurie: Jesus fucking H Christ, okay, let's get into the fucking crypt. Balthy: no thanks, without me. I told Romeo I was leaving and if he sees me still here he's going to break my neck. Laurie: ugh, fine, you coward. I'll go alone and I'm not even afraid. Actually I lied I'm scared out of my mind but I'm better than you so nah! I'm going in. Balthy, walking away: oh yeah, another thing, I was napping, ahem, keeping watch, and I think I dreamed, I mean, hallucinated Romeo killing another dude. But I don't think that's real. Anyway, hasta la vista, losers! [Exit] (sadly not pursued by a bear)

I paraphrased, naturally. And... That's Balthasar's last lines. So to recap: he's supposedly Romeo's man, hence, by his job's function, supposed to always be with him and protect him; he only appears at the end of the story to make sure that no one else can get to Romeo first and maybe tell him about Laurence's plot. He always says he's going to keep an eye on Romeo, or tries to get him to stop, but actually never does anything. Literally, by his own admission, while he's supposed to make sure Romeo doesn't do anything drastic visiting Juliet's tomb, he took a nap: "As I did sleep under this yew tree here"! And the only two people he speaks to are Romeo, whose sole purpose at this point is to die, and Friar Laurence, whose role is to fake-kill Juliet, which leads to both of them dying.

Given all of those elements, one could then consider Balthasar's role in the play as an agent of Death. Death being a character in Her own right in the play, according to some readings (I admit, the idea of Death being the one pulling the strings as Fate would do is something I very much like but is very much inspired by the French musical).

So. Balthasar, agent of Death, purposefully or accidentally, but undeniably, leading the main character to his own death and carefully not stopping nor even interacting with characters who could stop the final act.

And that's who Louis-as-Lestat compares HIMSELF to. Yeah, Louis calls himself Balthasar, let that sink in. So, spoiler alert for those like me who haven't read the books, but Armand later on is going to lie and tell Louis that Lestat died in the fire that burned down the theatre, lie that Louis will totally believe and that will certainly influence the decades of his relationship with Armand. We know Louis is absolutely not over Lestat, we know Lestat is weak at this point, and wants to scare Louis but also get him back, and we know Armand is a lying liar who lies and twist the truth to better serves him. And we know Armand was jilted by Lestat and while he (genuinely?) loves Louis, he's also bitter that Louis got what he himself couldn't get. We also know that Louis is extremely conflicted by his vampiric nature, that he's a stone cold killer but he's also constantly trying to get away from it, that he hates himself and all vampires but also hates humans and all of humanity. We know Louis feels immense guilt at what he thinks is Lestat's murder, and that this guilt is weighing on him enought hat he conjures up a mental Lestat to follow him around and sass, bitch, moan, comment and critique for him.

So, why is it interesting that Dreamstat calls Louis a Balthasar?

Let's go back to two points already evoked earlier. Balthasar makes a point of mentioning Juliet's immortal soul - in the text, it's evident enough, they're Catholics, Heaven, Hell, bla bla bla. Transposed to the idea of vampires, it does lead one to question first if vampires have souls, secondly, what are the limits of immortality. It links to Louis' questioning of his faith, the morals that he fiercely defends but abandons rather quickly when they don't suit him anymore, and his survivor's guilt vis-à-vis his brother first and Lestat secondly.

The second thing is the way Balthasar is generally erased from the known Romeo and Juliet narrative. From an intradiegetic POV, Louis could mean it as "I'm Balthasar because this story is not my story, I barely even appear, only at the very end, and even then, I'm not important, and I certainly do not want to be the focus of attention" (which could also be linked to the coven complaining that Louis hunts sloppily and will expose them all, and that's actually a point in the Death's emissary column, huh). From an extradiegetic POV, the writers might have chosen to compare Louis to Balthasar because in most screen adaptations, the first part of his role is given to Benvolio (announcing Juliet's death) and the second part (talking with Laurie) is totally erased. Which means that people who haven't read the play (or have but aren't totally obsessed with it *cough cough*) and only know the story through the movies or the musical, would have NO idea who Balthasar is. And that's what Louis tries to be: a nobody, a Monsieur-Tout-Le-Monde, unimportant, invisible, unknown. The way Balthasar is for everybody. Quasi inexisting.

And the final part of the parallel, and that one is definitely extradiegetic, is that Louis brings Death wherever he goes (although maybe in a way, after Lestat and the woman vampire in Romania, Louis thinks that of himself too, but let's not go there just yet). His arrival in Paris is what disturbs the equilibrium of the coven, makes Armand questions what he's doing here and how long he can keep going like this, drives Claudia even more away from him, and intensifies the resentment and inner conflicts of the coven. Which will all lead to the theatre burning dow, the coven dying, Claudia dying, Lestat presumed dead and 70 years of toxic married Loumand. Unintentionally, the way Balthasar seemingly unintentionally too, doesn't protect Romeo, which leads to not only his and Juliet's but also Tybalt and Mercutio's deaths (and Paris too). Unintenionally, but who's pulling Balthasar's strings, Death, Fate itself? Who's pulling Louis' strings? Armand? Lestat? Or is he such an unreliable narrator that he's passing himself as a victim of circumstances while the reality is that he's fully aware of what he's doing...? To be determined.

If you've made it to here, thank you so much and don't hesitate to tell me what you think! You can find my Tybalt/Mercutio fic here, and my essay on adaptations of Tybalt and Mercutio on screen here.

[kuruka1559s]

PART 3

PREVIOUS

“Come on Barbs.”

“Nuh-uh!~”

She sings jokingly, I look at her. After a little she sighs.

“Fine. What should I sing?”

“YES!”

I exclaim, while Barbara snickers.

“So?”

“Oh, uh…. Favourite song?”

“Both of them cannot be sang.”

“Names?”

“You would judge.”

“Naaaah!”

“Lujon and XOXO..”

“I only know lujon.”

“Better.”

She mutters, as she looks away.

She nods at me and goes up to the stage.

After a couple of hours the songs finish a guy hands her a mic.

Finally.

Wait a second.

Oh my Asgore she’s gonna sing in public.

She laughs a little and starts singing without looking at the lyrics.

“This is still about you.”

She sings and sits on the edge of the stage.

Then..

Everything turns black.

I could see instead of Barbara, a skeleton.

Barbara’s voice was echoing in the darkness.

“Beware, beware, be skeptical and the smiles the smiles so critical”

The skeleton wore a mask to the side, a smiling mask. He had a glitched eye.

He also wore the same clothes that Barbara has, plus a blue scarf.

At Elliot’s place there was another skeleton with a flower on his right eye, he wore an extremely long green sweater.

At the place of the guy who saved Elliot’s life there was an extremely tall skeleton.

He worse a short black skirt and a pink jacket, with a pin on it, which showed up in front of his black shirt.

Then… I stop seeing black, Ori tapped my shoulder.

“Wh-“

“Hey bud. I’ve seen ya kinda… creeped out, like if you saw a ghost. All good?”

“Oh- uh… yeah all-“

I interrupt myself.

I see black again.

Instead of ori, there was another skeleton.

He matched perfectly Elliot’s description of the skeleton that pushed him.

…

“Hello?”

I snap back again in reality.

“You.”

“Me?”

“You pushed Barbara’s brother.”

“What? What are you talking-“

“Don’t lie.”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about, really.”

“Liar.”

I affirmed seriously.

The music stops and the people in the plaza clap their hands happily.

“DAFT!”

Yells someone from the stairs.

Why is that voice familiar…?

Some people including me look up the stairs.

“FINALLY ANOTHER SKELETON!”

Yells another familiar voice.

No way.

No.

Stripe and Quill.

WHAT THE HELL ARE THEY DOING HERE!?

I try and pass the crowd as Quill and Stripe go down the stairs.

I eventually reach them.

“Why are you guys here?!”

“We were worried because we couldn’t find you anywhere!”

Affirms Quill.

“Yeah, that’s right! You were totally gone and no one knows where you were.”

Adds Stripe.

“Oh so now how the hell am I supposed to put y’all in my house!?”

Suddenly says Barbara who eavesdropped our conversation.

“Who… are you?”

“Barbara Myers, pleasure to meet you.”

“Maybe I should introduce into a better way…?”

“This is confusing…”

Mutters Quill.

“So uh… Barbara, Quill and Stripe, Quill, Stripe, this is Barbara.”

“Bella.” (Bella is a way to say “pleasure to meet you” or something like that.)

“Nice to meet you Barbara.”

“Yep!”

“The pleasure is mine.”

She affirms.

Well this is awkward.

People in the crowd were mumbling and whispering about the situation.

“PORCA PUTTANA È UNA FESTA! PERCHÉ NON VI FATE I CAZZI VOSTRI E VE LA GODETE!?” (FOR FUCK’S SAKE IT’S A PARTY! WHY DON’T YOU DO YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS AND ENJOY IT!?)

Screams angrily Barbara.

“What did she just say…?”

“Nothing important.”

She answers.

“So fellas, this is gonna be a long night, cuz it’s already 9 pm. If ya want you can stay here or I’ll show you my house.”

“Siiiiiiss…”

Affirms Elliot that in the meanwhile reached us.

Stripe jumps a little because he didn’t see him.

Barbara snickers and looks at her brother, he was hugging her.

That’s kinda adorable to look at.

“Hm? What is it bro?”

“I’m tired…”

He mutters.

Quill was looking at the kid as she smiles.

“You have a brother, huh?”

“Yep. Elliot, I haven’t introduced you to them yet. They just came right now.”

As Barbara says that Elliot hides behind her.

“He’s a shy little thing hm?”

“Yeah…”

Affirms Barbara.

Quill seemed to feel at ease with her.

Good to know.

“So… Elliot, She’s Quill and He’s Stripe.”

“Nice to meet you both…”

Mutters Elliot embarrassed.

“Stop being so shy bruh!”

“Don’t call me that in front of them!”

“Whaaaaat? They’re Daft’s friends!”

“That doesn’t mean nothing! Where are we gonna sleep!?”

“… I forgot that.”

“Great.”

Mutters skeptically Elliot.

“We can split a couch!-”

“No fucking way Stripe. You’re not splitting up a couch.”

“Then where are you supposed to sleep? On the ground?”

“That’s an option.”

Adds Elliot.

What…? WHY!?

“No. Let’s do this. Me and Stripe will sleep on the couch, Quill on a bed-“

“Why me on the bed? Will you guys at least be comfortable?”

“Yeah!”

Affirms Stripe.

“Enough with this thing! Let’s just… go and then we’ll see.”

THE DAY AFTER

Daft sans

Rieti, St Hyppolitus.

I wake up.

Stripe was still sleeping, same for Quill.

At the end Quill, Stripe and me slept on the couch.

Of course after ten minutes of convincing Barbara.

“WAKE UP SLEEPY HEADS!”

Suddenly yells Elliot, scaring the hell out of us.

I suddenly sit up like Quill, and Stripe falls on the ground because he was on the edge of the couch.

“Finally! It’s 10 am!”

“So?”

“Your brother must be worried!”

“Yeah..”

“… I shouldn’t have said that, sorry.”

“Don’t worry, don’t worry.”

Mutters Daft.

“MERDA MERDA MERDA! MI SONO SVEGLIATA TARDI DI NUOVO CAZZO!” (SHIT SHIT SHIT! I WOKE UP LATE AGAIN! FUCK!)

“CHE CO-“

suddenly yells Elliot, scared by Barbara’s sudden yelling.

…

Wait a second.

… why is she blonde?

“Sis?”

“Yeah?”

“Why… are you blonde?”

“Got tired of the cyan. I have to go to work so… I gotta be fast, are you guys going now?”

“Oh, yeah, we are.”

“Ok then…”

“Ehh…”

“Goodbye, I guess.”

Pilot | Next ->

[eligejtor]

why is new horizon kinda shitty

i mean, Aloy isnt very social, but ofc they had to squeeze out-of-character romance, she ditched this anty-ppl attitude out of the window and out of the blue she's behaving like supper bubbly and social XD GIRL U MET HER TWO DAYS AGO

fr, im kinda pissed XD

this is making me sad because this series could have been so much better, but i have a feeling that they hired veeery shitty writers

its still one of my favourite franchises of all time, but forbidden west & burning shores feels like a filler... fucking pretty and detailed, but filler. Guerilla got lost in creating their characters XD

First we have Zo and Varl suddenly kissing and even having a kid, and then we have Aloy falling for a girl she met two days ago XD idk maybe love works that way and im just stupid 🫠 I literally paused the game at the ending choice out of a cringe

dont get me wrong, it is still great but im pissed at how they are effin the franchise up 🫠ok, its a game about fighting robo-animals, but WHO WROTE ALL THESE HUMAN CHARACTERS I CANT THERE SHOULD BE A CHOICE TO DITCH THIS GIRL BUT NAAAAH

(excuse my english btw, im pissed and its not my first language)

[the-stray-storyteller]

Get to know my OC!

*trumpets* @tea-and-mercury

Gently Tagging: @cabbojage @rickie-the-storyteller @palebdot @wubsbian @anonymousfoz and open tag

Also I copy pasted the questions only at the bottom of the post so it will be easier for you guys, you won't have to filter out the questions from all the shit I wrote.

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I walk on to the stage. Loud clapping ensues.

Me bowing down: Thankyou! Thankyou!

I sit down on a couch and take a thoughtful position.

Me: Everyday, especially Mondays, I wake up and think "School is fucking horrible" but then I remember that Havenpoint Academy is worse. So here I am with my favourite delinquent from Havenpoint to make me feel slightly better about my own life. Can I hear a cheer for AIDENE RAYNERS!

Aidene runs onto the stage. Everybody screams loudly. Aidene takes the seat in front of me.

Me: How are you doing today Rayners?

Aidene: Well...I tried not to punch somebody but he was too fucking annoying so I ended up kicking him in the stomach. Then he pulled my hair and then my friend attacked him. It was an all out brawl in the school hallway. It felt real good seeing him get hit so many times. So In short I am doing relatively fine.

Me: Damn! Let's not waste any time and get to the questions shall we?

Aidene: Go ahead love.

Me: Are you named after anyone?

Aidene: Naaaah....my name is so fucking unique that typing the words 'Aidene name meaning' on google will show 'Did you mean: Maiden name meaning.

Me: When was the last time you cried?

Aidene: The last day of my old school. It wasn't exactly sad crying though. Don't miss anybody over there.

Me: Do you have kids?

Aidene: Darling...I am still a virgin and a minor by law.

Me: Do you use sarcasm?

Aidene: Not really, that is more of Anne's and Penelope's thing.

Me: What's the first thing you notice about people?

Aidene: Are they rich or not?

Me: What's your eye colour?

Aidene: A deep brown that looks like honey under the summer sun and silver pools of starlight at night. That's how Anne describes it sometimes.

Me: Any special talents?

Aidene: Uh...I can be very very very annoying.

Me: Scary movies or happy endings?

Aidene: I have an over active imagination. I watched 'Lights out' and I felt like somebody was following me whenever I went into some place mildly dark. I couldn't sleep for the next week. So happy endings please.

Me nervously: Where were you born?

Aiden looking at me judgingly: In my mother's womb.

Me: What are your hobbies?

Aidene: I play both acoustic and electric guitar and sing occasionally. I tried my hand at art but it wasn't pretty enough for people. Also *cough* stealing *cough* and *cough* lockpicking *cough**cough*

Me: Do you have any pets?

Aidene: No but this crow comes by my window everyday. I give him food. In return he brings me little trinkets. I named him Corvy.

Me: What sports do you play/have played?

Aidene: I am a pretty decent swimmer and I am really good at running. I have won a couple ice skating competitions too.

Me: How tall are you?

Aidene lay down on the couch diva style and sighs deeply: Woe is me. I am only 5'4 but at least I am not as short as Valentina. She is only 5'2.

Me: Favourite subject at school?

Aidene: I like watching the art students paint from the window while skipping computers. So I like computers.

Me: Dream job?

Aidene: I really don't know....I like mythology so something related to that maybe. Or a musician, that would be cool.

Me: Well that is all we have for today and Aidene I believe you have a trapdoor to open. So until next time....so long farewell and don't die.

Curtains drop.

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THE QUESTIONS:

Are you named after anyone?

When was the last time you cried?

Do you have kids?

Do you use sarcasm?

What's the first thing you notice about people?

What's your eye colour?

Any special talents?

Scary movies or happy endings?

Where were you born?

What are your hobbies?

Do you have any pets?

What sports do you play/have played?

How tall are you?

Favourite subject at school?

Dream job?

[jawanaka]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Thank you for the tag @herbalinz-of-yesteryear! Tagging @poetikat, @squiddviscous, @andordean, @kuwdora and @traumschwinge

1. How many works do you have on A03?

Twelve

2. What's your total A03 word count?

210,622

3. What fandoms do you write for?

The Witcher (books/games), Cyberpunk 2077, Kingdom Come: Deliverance, Star Wars (though specifically Andor), House of the Dragon and one brief sojourn into Ace Attorney

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

That would be The Queen Who Never Was (but once), The Sins of Fathers, The Swallow of Novigrad, Love is the Value of Life and Lord Edgeworth and the Inn by the River

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Always. Because i want more lol. But also because I want to scream with people and love seeing what particular things people liked or picked up on.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I think that would be The Traitor's Daughter, my Andor fic. Because I was thinking of giving the characters catharsis and a happy'ish ending and decided naaaah

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I think its toss-up between Where Paths Lead and Let me be your armor because they both literally end with people in love riding off into the sunshine.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not really. Got one person complaining recently that no HOTD AU should be allowed a happy-ish ending but you know...

9. Do you write smut?

No but I'm inching closer.

10. Do you write crossovers?

No

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

So last year some loon stole The Swallow of Novigrad and tried to sell it as an self-published ebook on amazon, which was wild. The thing that amused me the most I remeber was that they chose a picture of Cavill!Geralt for the cover, which is funny since a) I don't write in the show canon and b) Geralt doesn't even appear in the fic.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! @herbalinz-of-yesteryear does occassionally work on a chinese translation of Swallow (when not writing her own excellent work) and also there's a Russian translation of the same work.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Not since the Star Trek fic I wrote in High School

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

I don't know, I don't really ship as such even do I have alot of ships (Ciri/Morvran, Yennefer/Geralt, V/Judy, Keira/Lambert, Theresa/Henry/Hans) that I enjoy.

15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I'm increasingly sceptical I will ever write the final part of my Ciri triology but we'll see

16. What are your writing strengths?

Vizualisation, dialogue, introspection

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Currently finishing things lol. But also connecting dialogue with action.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Naah. I think most con-lang is overrated. There are some cases its warranted but usually unneccesary

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Star Trek

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

My Ciri duology is my pride and joy but if you want me to give you a totally honest opinion its The Queen who never was (but once) because I walways wanted to be able to out together that kind of epic short story, if thats the word.

[helptheheart]

Heyaa. It's me again. Sooo, I just remembered that the guy 'H' has my number. But anyway, after I blocked him on Snapchat, he almost immediately texted me and asked why I blocked him. Me being me, I said that I blocked the wrong person, unblocked him, and added him back. He hasn't said anything since. I've said two or three things, and I've been left on delivery. But while H was ignoring me, this guy added me (also on Snapchat). We started chatting, and we were going to call this guy A. So, me and A have been chatting for a bit. He asked if I was in any relationship because he thinks I'm long and wants to move to me but won't if I'm in a relationship. I told him that I wasn't. So we've been chatting. One of my friends was talking to this guy that she thought would be perfect for me. And I know three years is a manageable age gap. But in my head, I'm STILL 16; I'm not 16 anymore. So this new guy, let's call him C, being 21, threw me off slightly. Not that I was really interested in him like that. We all know who I'm interested in at this point: H. It's H. I want him to like me back so bad. I want him to like me like I like him. I want him to be happy with me and not ignore me or just use me. But I know my luck and people like me aren't part of it. Why the hell are boys so fucking dumb and complicated but the simplest creatures on earth at the same fucking time. I hate how I can't get into his head and know what he's thinking and how he feels about me. But my boyfriend asked me how things were going with C, and I didn't want to answer because I just didn't like this guy. I don't think we could even be friends; he just doesn't seem like the type of guy I would be friends with. I only know H because he's my brother's friend, and we started out as friends. I also just don't find C attractive at all. Ive only see one picute/video of him, and I was like.... Naaaah. But I made excuses, like maybe it's just not his angle, and his face wasn't the video's primary focus. He was showing off his hair. But I can't tell myself I find him attractive when I don't. My life used to be so simple. The things that used to upset me used to be my favourite fan fiction, which has yet to be updated since 2016, or a new one that still needs to be updated. Or when there's a ship, but it has tags I don't fuck with. I have never had boy problems, and I hate it. I want a boyfriend, but I just don't think I'm the type of person who gets that happy ending. I want to cry, but I can't. I keep telling myself I have nothing to cry over; I got myself in this situation, and someone else got me out of it. But I never wanted to leave it. I wanted it to keep going, I don't care if it would of killed me or ended up fucking me up really badly. To feel loved by someone is all I want. My friends tell me they love me, but it's not the love I crave. I know my friends love me; I love them. I know my family loves me. I love them. H doesn't like me, but I like him. I gave him my innocence, but he didn't seem to care. I'm sure it felt good for him. But I feel shitty. And I have no real outlet for how I feel. Sure, I write here, but it's a mental outlet. I need a physical one. I might pick up swimming again, I might go into sports, or I could go back to peeling sticks. I might not do anything because how I feel is draining me mentally and physically. I joke about all the guys chatting to me with my friends, but I just want the one. I'll probably put myself into working more and swimming. I love swimming. Being in the water makes me feel at home so much. It's not a high-impact sport, so I won't fall apart after doing it. I could go for hours and hours. I'll probably drag my friend along with me just to teach her so I don't feel like a loser teen swimming lengths on my own for an hour.

[thejoobiestnerd]

1. Are you named after anyone? Well. I heard my dad named me after someone he knew but I’m not sure how true that story is lmao

2. When was the last time you cried? Hm. Dunno. Maybe over a month ago lmao. Don’t really remember.

3. Do you have kids? Naaaah. Though I do kinda go parent mode on my younger friends sometimes lmao.

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Hm. Not really? Usually as a joke from time to time.

5. What sports do you play/have you played? I did all sorts of sports in school- but I did swimming for years, then sailing for a handful of summers. I still miss being on those small boats. Would love to sail again! I also did a bit of rock climbing!

6. What is the first thing you notice about people? Their fits, usually. Outfits or hair. My face blindness could never notice faces first.

7. What is your eye colour? Hazel.

8. Scary Movies or Happy Endings? Hm. I like a good happy ending but I love some scariness and dubious endings. Madoka Magica rebellion hit like a truck in a good way.

9. Any special talents? Well, singing for one! I’m also pretty good at picking up random craft skills, the most recent of which was crochet.

10. Where were you born? Canada :)

11. What are your hobbies? Crafting, cosplay, gaming, bit of writing, lotta random crafts things! Recently I’ve been collecting a couple figures- and reading too!

12. Do you have any pets? I had a dog and a cat, I’m debating maybe a pigeon in the future.

13. How tall are you? 4’11”. I am Small, I know. It’s part of the brand by now.

14. Favourite subject at school? I loved art class! It’s great. I was also a fan of some of my science classes.

15. What is your dream job? Hm. Actor/voice actor, singer maybe. But I’m happy trying my streaming right now!

Pressure free tags:

@an-idiot-artist @an-inspired-eternity @caspercryptid @i-am-probably-alive And anyone else who wants to join in!

15 Questions 15 Mutuals

I was tagged by @oh-goodness-loki - TYSM dear!!!

1. Are you named after anyone? No... my Mom liked the name. (I hate it btw, and have taken on another in day-to-day life.)

2. When was the last time you cried? The other day, watching "For all mankind" (which is better than I had thought it would be?!)

3. Do you have kids? A daughter.

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot? MEEEEEE???? ^^

5. What sports do you play/have played? I used to ride. Stopped when I got pregnant.

6. What's the first thing you notice about people? Whether they hold eye-contact, maybe?

7. What's your eye color? Dark brown.

8. Scary movies or happy endings? Depends. I don't like torture movies, but I do not like overly saccharine stuff either. Aliens as a prime example for both?! :)

9. Any special talents? Errr.... I used to have a lyrical soprano... wanted to be an opera singer once upon a time.

10. Where were you born? Skipping, sorry.

11. What are your hobbies? Reading, video games, music, vampires. I also read a lot.

12. Do you have pets? I have a cat, Mo.

13. How tall are you? 5'4"

14. Favorite subject in school? Biology and philosophy

15. Dream job? Not sure. I used to love my job a lot, but now it's more and more meetings and... well.

Tagging:

@prigorie @isabellehemlock @lynnenne, @thefairylights @slutaciouslestat @inkyblotposts @burstingbone @blackgirlasis @alcassin @shashiatnight @anannua @dreamofme9 @danissa10 @redversaillesrose @onlymywishfulthinking ... and whoever wants to!

(Feel free to ignore this if you don't want to, obviously^^)

[trulycertain]

At first I thought Vasco had low expectations for his bio family from the start, but no - the more I think on it, the more I think Vasco wanted to believe that his family were somehow totally unwilling in giving him up until he went on his quest. I just get that impression. I wonder if he's been telling himself a story, even with all he's seen and the way he pretends to be matter-of-fact about the worse aspects of the Nauts.

I remember going, "Wait, we're meant to infer Prince d'Orsay made a buncha nobility give up their kids to the Nauts?" And... yeah. Yeah, we are. De Courcillon talks about it - and Vasco figures he's probably Congregation stock, and wealthy stock, because "the Merchant Princes and the Nauts had a... complicated relationship, for a while" and "there was a time when a lot of them had to give a child to the Nauts." I've always figured nobles were threatened with a loss of power or embarrassment or worse punishments if they didn't, but... some were just in it for the gain of money or power and didn't have to be leaned on. I'm thinking he hoped his bio parents were part of the "threatened/forced" group.

He wanted to be a Jonas (I do not think it's at all a coincidence that that's the first point of comparison he draws, when he gives you his quest). Worse, maybe... he wanted to be de Sardet. He wanted to be a child taken from loving parents rather than a tossed-aside pawn. And I think it's damn lucky he's started to deal with his own stuff when he sees their story. Poor bastard.

Sure, he talks about the luxury he could have grown up in, the avoidance of pain and not having to work his backside off, but more than that... I think it's important that the points he seizes on are "I'm like Jonas" and "I never knew a mother's love."

But despite him trying to hold onto hope, I think he suspected from the start that if he met his bio parents, it wouldn't go well. I'm always fascinated by his beautifully sad, matter-of-fact response if you pick the "Your parents would be proud that their son's a famous captain" line:

Vasco: I doubt it. Once we're taken from our parents, we become anonymous. The nobility sees the Nauts as nothing more than a necessary evil. We are no longer their children.

See also the fact that if you talk to him about the d'Arcys, while he's fascinated, his line is a wistful "I would love to have met them," rather than I'd love to meet them. As if that option is closed-off to him, or maybe it would have been possible in another life, but not in this one. He also can't face hearing much about them. Part of him knows all this is a vain hope, but he has to chase it anyway. Maybe he figures a brother, who wouldn't be penalised so much for seeing him and wouldn't have a financial or reputation-based reason to send him right back to the Nauts, might be more open. He does admit later on that he was "hoping for some emotional reunion."

Seeing the son they kept turned out to be an arrogant money-grubbing idiot probably made him figure that a) he wants nothing to do with this lot b) if Bastien is any indication of the parents, this most likely isn't a story of sad parents having their babe ripped from their clutching arms but of power-grabbing and a lot of money and shallowness. But I think some part of him desperately still wanted to believe, until then.

Ah no. Now I'm sitting being sad about fictional sailors in an obscure French RPG.

[larentsaloud]

Gorya’s most shooketh Thyme moments™️

ok we always go on about thyme being the one who is looking at gorya with these well established heart eyes from the moment she has punched him, but have we discussed her thyme panic? no? well now we will. 

in no particular order:

scene in the shopping mall, where they get locked. thyme wavers and falls into her, with his damp paws, after waiting in the rain for hours on her, they've just spent the afternoon together fighting with paddington jerk faced bears, and bickering, lil’ tiger is tired and lil’ sick too. he even conquered his fear of heights and gorya had to pat his back while he threw up. peak girfriend. Gorya’s face goes from absolute shock to fear, that she is about to be kissed again, you can just feel her thumping heart popping out of her chest. she slaps him out of the orbit, lol. but then resumes fussing over him and nursing him. even strips him. sigh. ok gorya. you do you. 

my girl really going through it. look at her wide eyed gaze, while thyme lays there with open lips, and his eyes half closed, utterly at her disposal, defeated and exhibiting prime sub behaviour. but her staring around the room, with wandering eyes, while the taste of his lips lingers on her lip, her hand almost touching her mouth, stunned, speechless, shooketh to the thyme and back. 

side bar. does anyone think that thyme was about to hug her, because I do. what is his hand trying to do here? it went from peacefully resting to mid-air.

naw. my gurl is having a hard time dealing with the consequences. 

high key thyme panic in full force. he moves in closer. don't tell me she wasn't expecting a kiss? 

is that a look of disappointment that your non-boyfriend did not in fact kiss you? I mean we were all wondering what he was up to when he leaned in and you hit the gate with your backside girl, it had the classic feel, so don't feel bad, we have been deceived. thyme the unpredictable sneezed just as he was removing that piece of fluff from your hair. we all saw your expectant eyes inhaling him. gurl you got no defence. naaaah. you like this fool. 

the whole speech thyme gave about ren and the doll, yes. the magic pork? yes. but this. THIS moment. the gate falls, in rather metaphorical way, the barriers between them are removed temporarily while they share a tender moment, they've been bickering because she told him to apologise and he cockily says, that would ruin his image, while she calls him stupid and pushes him and the next thing you know they are getting all playful and BAM. the gate is down. I repeat the gate is down over. the whole family is gathered at the window, peaking at the scene, sort of rubbing their hands together that this mogul is in the little shabby falling apart house, and gorya laughs at thyme's sensitive remark:’your house is full of surprises’. it’s cute. she is shooketh. he brought medicine, ate the food, was unofficially adopted by her fam and now he is being all fluffy in her arms. what is a girl gonna do? asking for a friend. the way he turned around three times before he left, and how she saw him off, waving and little giddy from their interaction and high on cold medicine. my favourite underrated moment. 

LORD HOLD MY HANDKIE MY FAVOURITE SCENE. THEY EVEN ADDED HER PUSS* HEARTBEAT. PLEASE THE WAY SHE LOOKS SO SQUISHY AGAINST HIS HANDS. I WILL DECEASE. 

the whole zoo up until a certain point. she seems to be attracted to her non-boyfriend by this stage, especially when he touches her face lol, some kind of kryptonite hormone releases and our big tiger (gorya) goes from I don't know this fool, to this fool seems very very handsome and cute *gulp*. thyme telling her that he will wait, that he won't ask her until he is confident she feels the same way. I mean he wants to soften her heart. she can be as stubborn as she wants. sigh. thyme. them eyes are a bit heart shaped, no? someone check on my girl. is she ok???

you know that moment when you are with someone, and you sort of start getting self-conscious? yeah. suddenly being pulled into a hug feels like your whole body is tingling and on fire and you are about to explode, you are convinced that the person can READ your mind, lol so you pull away because you are scared? aha. gorya has it so bad for him. pls. boyband indeed. sure jan. you do you. 

HONORARY MENTION: HER FACE WHILE HE IS FIGHTING WITH THE PLUSHIE IN THE ZOO INSTEAD OF LASHING OUT ALTHO WE ALL KNOW THAT CAME LATER. 

alright f4 addicts. 

this is all I got. 

it's only Wednesday. 

pray for me. 

D.

[mskatesharma]

i love you tags! yeah i can’t believe more people aren’t complaining about the fact these two sisters didn’t have a convo that wasn’t abt Anthony after episode one. it was glaringly obvious. even in episode 1 though the only thing these two girls talked about was suitors. they barely had a conversation that wasn’t about a man or alluded to a man. the show tries to play their conflict as about the sisterly relationship but it is way too anthony centric. i really hated that they had Edwina cry over not being good enough for anthony & watching her try so hard to please him. idk i did not watch this show to see a brown woman try so desperately to win this white man’s approval.

the sisterly relationship was weird bc Kate was really playing more of a maternal role but the show also didn’t want to Mary to be seen as an absent mother. (they had no idea what to do with Mary and that is so obvious in the first episodes). they sacrificed so much of the Sharma relationship to make Kate and Anthony mirrors. and what’s worse is that they didn’t even bother to properly explore the new dynamics of the sharma family or explore Kate’s different personality and trauma. i never got the vibe that either sister really new each other at all and that’s largely bc i don’t think they really knew themselves. sorry this got long!

I think you're referring to the tags on this post, which were (please mind the awful grammer):

#kate & edwina#bridgerton#kate sharma#edwina sharma#the viscount who loved me#of my favourite bits of the book and I honestly get teary everytime#*one of#the fact that we didn’t get an equivalent scene in the show#instead most? all? of their conversations after episode one centred on anthony is something i’ll hate these writers for forever#naaaah the way a white man came between these two sisters will never not infuriate me#jfc i will never be over the way they completely butchered kate & edwina#and the sharmas as a whole#WHERE WAS THE KATE AND EDWINA LOVE STORY YOU KEPT GOING ON ABOUT BECAUSE IM STILL WAITING TO SEE IT#soulmates my arse

They really didn't have a conversation that wasn't somehow related to Anthony after episode one, did they? It's so bleak jfc. When they released the posters for this season, and they had Anthony in the middle of Kate and Edwina, I was pissed off for so many reasons, but one of the main ones being this white man was shoved in the middle of these two South Asian sisters. I remember telling someone that if I hadn't read the book and didn't know about Kate and Anthony, that main poster would have turned me off watching season two, because it's the last thing that I would want to watch. It was so fucking reductive, but I guess it was a good indication that the storyline was going to be as well.

You are absolutely right that they didn't know what to do with Mary, they wasted her character (and Shelley Conn), as she was basically a non-entity for the for the first five/six episodes,?

Tbh, I didn't necessarily mind that they tilted it to make Kate and Anthony mirror each other even further, it's just infuriating because they altered the Sharma family dynamic so drastically when they didn't need to. You could have had Kate take on the mantle of being the de facto head of family, but still have Mary trying to emotionally support both her daughters, like she does in the books? The Sharmas could have still had a bond similar to that of the Sheffields in the book, with both Mary and Edwina knowing what Kate really wants, but Kate struggling to admit it to them, and them not neccesarily knowing why she struggles. Kate seemed so lonely on the show, for no reason, because even Anthony had Violet and Daphne in his corner encouraging him to choose happiness and love, because they could see that marrying Edwina was not what he truly wanted. On the show, Mary and Edwina thought that what Kate craved most was freedom and independence, and returning to India, when that wasn't it at all.

I just…I feel like Kate and Edwina's (and Mary's) relationship on the show had next to none of the warmth that we see in their book relationship? You never really got the sense that they understood the other better than anyone else. Edwina's line in episode eight where she says Kate "does not know herself" pisses me off, because actually, Kate knows who she is and what she wants, she's just been too scared to admit it and really go for it because a) she doesn't think she's deserving of it or done enough to earn it, and b) she doesn't want to open herself up to a similar heartbreak like she suffered when her father died. It takes Mary telling Kate that she deserves to be happy, and that she doesn't owe people things in return for being loved, for Kate to actually admit what she wants.

And like you said, they didn't properly explore Kate's trauma and grief, and just how that affected everything she's done since her father died. Yes Edwina was right to be angry, but we never get a conversation between her and Kate where it's acknowledged exactly what Kate has sacrificed, and what else she was willing to give up if she thought it meant Edwina (and Mary) would be settled and happy. And it sucks.

[thefreeblog]

I just now went through your whole blog and loved it so much.. all the meta you have on KP series is so detailed. Like you I also focus on the story and character understanding more than anything else. It was like reading my own thoughts. Love love love the way you answer all the asks and your tags. Vegas is my god now takes top spot. 2 questions for you. So what happened with TharnType 🤔? Did you watch both series? And what are your favourite scenes of Vegas and Pete?

Anon, so sweet of you to take time to go through my blog. I am really touched. A real humble Thank you(hands folded bow down Japan style and all)

Meta is my favourite part when I get obsessed with any show. Are we now meta besties then? Yes, we are I have given you a new nickname. Its done now, no going back. 😎

Vegas is my new god. Omg did I say that? 🙈 of course I did, who am I kidding. Its true though. He is my god now. 😋

What did I say? DON'T ask about tharntype. You hurt me anon, 😩

naaaah just kidding. Nothing happened really, that's the issue. When I asked for suggestions for BLs, got few recs for tharntype and came to know that the main couple has real good chemistry. But I didn't see it, like at all. Not in emotional scenes nor in sexy scenes nor anywhere else. I always thought both of them are super uncomfortable all the time specially Type, even when they got together. Story wise it was interesting, kind of saw it coming about the crazy best friend thing. And as luck would have it, he was the only one I liked. *Sigh why I am like this*. Does he have any other shows? But the whole plot thing absolutely doesn't work in an university setting. Imagine same plot in a real mature world, it could have been insane crazy. (remembering Kajol in Gupt, if you don't know look it up). So all in all even after fast forwarding whatever 6-7 hrs I spent watching gave me headache and nothing else. And if it has season 2, I don't know and DO NOT CARE.

Now my kinda topic, Vegas Pete. Since you were not clear whether you want to know my favourite scene of both together or individual I'll tell you all three. 😁

Vegas - There are so many I am gonna cheat and tell you two of them.

Pete -

Vegas Pete

I rest my case.

[madeofcc]

CHAPTER 10 : What now ? (part 2/2)

Beginning / Previous / Next

[transcript]

HUGO : You should have seen his face when he discovered his haircut ! Ahahahahaha !!!!!

DES : Ahahahahaha ! I would have give anything to see that !!!

WILLIAM : Come on you too ! It's not funny ! And Destiny, let me remind you that those dreadlocks was my last memory of your mom …

DES : I know dad, but come on, it was still cultural appropriation even though mom did it for you. I think it's my favourite story about you too by the way, it's hilarious !

HUGO : I do not remember this story … Have you ever told me Will ?

WILLIAM : Naaaah, I don't think so. But if you want to know everything, I wanted to fit in when I met Faith so I decided to do my own dreadlocks. I though it would make me look fearless but it was a disaster ! Faith then decided to do it herself because, I quote « if you're gonna have a black haircut then at least let a black people do it for you » so … Now you know …

HUGO : Oh I see … But I do agree with Destiny though, it was cultural appropriation dear …

WILLIAM : Look at you now, acting like you were black since forever ! Why do you still use your human these days by the way ?

HUGO : Oh that … Well, first, Destiny likes it.

DES : Yeah, you're so handsome that way !

HUGO : See ? Then, I recently learned a lot about racism and human history and I have been very surprised that some very mean people used my skin color to demonize other culture and to hurt human lives so I do not want to participate in this ! No no !

DES : Plus, there's a new handsome black man in town that way ! Brindleton is going to be pissed ahahaha !

WILL : Well not for long though …

DES : What do you mean ? Are you leaving too ?!

WILL : That's what we wanted to talk to you about … The bar is sold, the sell will mostly cover my medical bills and I'll still have something for our travel

DES : Travel ?!!! But how will you do with your legs ? And where are you going ?

WILL : My legs are going to be fine kiddo don't worry ! The doctor said I'm making progress and I should be able to fully walk again in less than 6 months, but when you'll be gone, we decided to found Violet ….

DES : What ?! Are you serious dad ?!! We said no more occult bullshits !

WILL : I have to Destiny … And now that she might have turned your friend as well … I have to stop them ….

DES : Don't ever do anything to Renji ! I swear dad, this is a terrible idea !

WILL : I have nothing else to do now except correcting my mistake … Do you trust me on this baby girl ?

DES : I don't … I mean … Fuck dad ! You know I would never let you risk your life without me ! We never managed to fully trust each others concerning these cases so this has to stop okay ? If you want to hunt Violet, fine, but you'll have to let me know about everything you're finding …

WILL : We have a deal then !

DES : Do you already know where you go then ? We still have no clue of what happened and where they might have went …

WILL : Now that we know that she's been the Master all these years, I wonder if she got back to Europe. You know, we always get back to where we came from …Also, I promised Hugo I would bring him to Paris one day so …

HUGO : Oh yes yes yes !!!! Oui oui oui !!!! I really cannot wait for this trip !

DES : Paris … Damn, I should have never applied to Windenburg !

WILL : Hell no baby girl, you're going to study and build yourself a future ! I told you, I already destroyed to many things … I want you to have a better life little angel. You deserve to have a normal adulthood … University is full of experiences, you need to live them all … But not until I get a hug okay ?

DES : Argh ! You never missed a chance !

WILL : Not now that I know I won't see you that oftenly! Come here Destiny ! I'm so proud of you you know ?

DES : Thanks dad ! I love you

[sword-of-summer]

All of them answer every question fuck you

ahahaha no i respectfully deny your "fuck you" and i accept the ask and so-

i am 5'10", and i don't wish to be taller or shorter- i am the perfect height for hugs and messy hair, and yep, i like it here-

dream pet would be a mix of golden retriver and a husky called Holly and a chonky cat called Loki- yes ofcourse my future kids have names everyone should name their future pets-

ripped jeans/black pants with a Darth Vader tshirt or a Ethnic Fusion Kurta with black sneakers/artificial leather slip-ons, and if it's cold, a black jacket open obviously- and a black wristwatch i love my black wristwatch.

favourite video game was Clash of Clans and going even back, GTA Vice City and, the og- MARIIOOOO

three things/people are Oreos, Nutella and Pizza. The Holy Trinity-

"Beware me my fingers are smeared with chicken popcorn grease"

you didn't mention an opinion, @chunkybirb, so imma give my opinion on Vanilla ice cream and Nutella- ANYONE WHO HADN'T COMBINED THESE TWO COMBINE THESE TWO THEY ARE FUCKING AWESOME

im either phlegmatic or melancholic bruh idk maybe ik or maybe not

im v v v v ticklish

not an allergy, but an intense hatred for ketchup- i vomit if it gets too close to me fuck you ketchup

im heterosexual

any between tea and coffee but full milk coffee (ik, kill me), never had cocoa- but i love a chocolate or nutella milkshake

both. both is good. (cat and dog)

i would be an elf cause hell yeah, knowledge and wisdom

favourite youtuber is Samay Raina, a stand up comedian turned youtuber who is just awesome-

as i mentioned in 1., i am 5'10"

i would not change my name cause it's the coolest fucking name ever, i am Tanay, and Tanay in Hindi means Son, and my parents literally named their son Son, and hell yeah i like it

i forgot how much i weigh- last i checked it was 75 kilos, but ive gained weight since 2019 so yep, gotta walk in the mornings

yes i believe in metaphysicality cause one- it seems cool- second- me and @theclassyghost discussed a metaphysical life theory that i really really like and metaphysicality gives preservation of knowledge so i believe in spirits

SPACE. SPACE. SPACE.

im not that religious, no

pet peeves no well nah not really

nocturnal def nocturnal i sleep at 4.50 anyway hehehehe

fav constellation is Cassiopeia

fav star is Sirius tho

what the fuck are ball jointed dolls

i do have a fear of losing people that's just anxiety i guess

yep, global warming is real

never thought that much about reincarnation tbh but maybe, i do

fav movie is Spider Man : Into The SpiderVerse and Inception and The Dark Knight Rises and Revenge of The Sith and yes, for my indian gang, 3 Idiots and Gully Boy

yep i get scared v v v easily

i have had no pets but i plan to once i grow up

@chunkybirb 's blog is fucking cool awesome and *chef's kiss* a masterpiece

blue calms me. i love blue.

live in Norway cause pretty lights, snow, and less people than this overpopulated country i am in

born in Mumbai, India

v v v dark brown like it's almost black but no it's dark brown

introvert

horoscopes and zodiacs, i do read them, never believed that much tbh-

HUGS I LOVE HUGS

i really wanna visit my brother i haven't met him in a long time i really wanna play cricket w him just like old times

my sister- she's annoying but well i care for her

nah

tattoos idk bruh im okay idk may get one or may not get one

nope, smoking is ewwww *vomits*

ah my crush- she's cool [ if she exists

when the chalk doesn't write on the board but goes iiiiiieeee I HATE THAT

a sound i love is rain pitter pattering i just hhhhhh sends me into happiness

nope fatass here

nope fatass here

favourite actors have to be eddie redmayne, oscar issac and pedro pascal- and margot robbie and winona ryder in the actresses section also yes, elliot page

bruh already answered in 30.

im okayish!! spotify and tumblr, cool combo-

my hair are okay being black for me

yesterday, monday, from 6.40 to 6.50

music

uhhh naah not that i know of

well in Rick Riordan's Magnus Chase books, the sword of Frey aka Sumarbrander TALKS and demands to be called Jack, so here i am

bakwaas, music and comfy

yep, i believe in evolution

unfollow on hate and when they dm me sending nsfw pics ugh why are people like that

follow, well, i like people and they seem cool, so i follow them

fav kind of person is the one who'll sit with me for hours not even talking and just vibing to music

fav animals are beavers, doggos and cats

three fav blogs are @chunkybirb, @theclassyghost, @little-boats-on-a-lake, @aredhel-of-gondolin, @sue-me-imbadass, @alleenkaas, @my-ackerman, @brrrrrrrrrrzone

fav emoticon has to be ☹ this me seeing my stupidity outrank others

fav meme has to be Butternut is a master of psychological manipulation

INTP

Libraaa let's go

no dog, i have

black darth vader tshirt, black pants, black sneakers and black wrist watch

i have no selfies my phone has no cameras i live in eternal darkness

what the fuck are platform shoes

i, uhhh, i remember weird things like what i drew in class in 3rd while i was supposed to be doing english

lazy ass here, no front flips possible

i like birds they fly

nope i don't Iike swimming i like blankets

wrapped up in blankets reading books sounds better than both

ketchup

hyperspace travel

nope none

reading writing eating sleeping

my friend

tumblr seems cool

i have around 60-70 idk

yes i can run but why

yes they do but what's the fun in that

nope I'd fall over

sapphire let's go

koala bear or panda

sunflower or the one on a lemon tree

ketchup store

one cup of coffee is enough, tysm

read minds that sounds cool cool yeaaahh

nope never wore it a black clothes guy here BatMan

winter winter all year long

i don't know and i don't wanna try

i don't know and i don't wanna know

everyone cause they are better than me

bookstores cause bookstores any bookstores

sneakers, black onez

apparently some gas bitches mixed up to form a planet

non vegetarian but i partake meat just twice or thrice in two weeks

i don't know they don't seem like liking

naaaaaaaah

bugs ew

spiders ew

about the fact that i come off as arrogant and overconfident while in reality it's just that my communication skills suck

i can draw averagely whenever im in a mood

this thing im answering but i like answering it

uhhhhhhh brain freeze- idk bruh questions are good they give knowledge

yep, while sleeping

ahh yes calming, they are

cloudy days cause fucking cool vibes

hehehe wouldn't you like to know, weatherboy

CumuloNimbus i really like it's name yknow nimBUS

dark blue, dark blue always or black

naaaah no freckles

fav thing is when they laugh and it's just happy and we're both laughing like shitheads but who cares we're rebelling against depressing life and we laugh

both. both is good [ fruits and vegetables

sleep but i have to answer 170 questions cause @chunkybirb

sky sky sky it's my blog's header duh uh sKy

sweet and sour candy. SWEET AND SOUR CANDY.

dim lights it makes me feel cool

ahhh so here we go- Mooncalfs, Thunderbirds, Phoenixes, Sphinxes, Dragons that seem to be Space Nebulae, and more and more and more

i really feel like a boomer sometimes

i love everything about this site/app it makes me feel happy cause i like the people and the posts

uhhhhh i think too much about everything cause i just do. i like thinking

"He's dead, guys. For the sake of The Force, please watch Star Wars now he wanted to discuss it with you" actually no i would just say "A big shoutout to Garlic Bread he loved Garlic Bread"

myself cause i should be sleeping but sleep is for the weak and i am the weak and the strong i am a paradox-

that i obsess too much on things and try involving people it never works out

nope. had braces for 4 years, that beat out teeth showing smiles

i prefer computer-tv ahahahahaha

never tried them, so IDK

naaaaah not motion sickness- never travelled by sea so idk seasickness

lobed ears

yep i believe that deeds do count in life and beyond

idk bruh i don't believe in physical attraction too much- bodies are fake- mentally/metaphysically tho, im a 7

ahhhhh many many Stupid Genius, Tani, Tanu, Tanya

i still do-

i really want to talk to a therapist. converse. and discover.

im both, i am both.

10:1 is the ratio- giving 10, receiving 1

uhhh nothing just when i am right and people use the old "disrespect" argument

3, Hindi, Marathi, English

girls

uhh no i am not

my hair i love them everyone says things about my hair but i love them

knowledge vibes i give, someone tells me- and that's all i ever wanted

anyone i know tbh, my mutuals, my friends, my discord friends

ahhh no i wouldn't but i wish i was born 20 years earlier

bleh bloo, neither like nor dislike

i don't know if i have one

i don't know, haven't had physical contact in a long long long time in a galaxy far far away

the above point stands but i would like to ig

anything i write, 3 hours later, i instantly hate just idk why

anything i write

that i am normal no i am not and i am not okay hahahahaha

65-70 ish people

somewhere around-

many many many don't ask please but okay if you do ask

somewhat

uhhhhh idr exactly but i won't tell in public duh uh

mediummm hairrrr

last year lockdown i became harry potter

i don't know buddy i seriously don't know

yep i do cause knowledge i like knowledge

naaah never tried

no i definitely cannot stand on my hands or my head for more than 30 seconds

yep, im pretty sure i answered most of them correctly-

og link-

[cursedcursingviking]

A very nice day!

Hello lovelies! These are some very slightly edited messages I sent to the lovely @caffiend-queen, who urged me to share them with the rest of you:) here you go, two amazing stories from my Monday:

Then, about the man. I was walking home from my cello lesson with my cello in its bag in my back, and I walked towards this man who was kind of looking at me. I was a bit <.___.>, but then I came by him, and he asked what I was playing, referring to the giant thing in a vague guitar shape on my back. He was just the sweetest dude, I think he was from Turkey, judging by his looks and accent. He was one of those comfy and very slightly strange elderly men. I told him I played the cello, and he was like “!!!the cello!!!”. “Are you good?” He asked. “Haha I’m okay I guess. I have room to improve,” I said, being VERY baffled at a stranger talking to me but whatever, he was super nice. He kind of just smiled as if he knew I was nervous about my skills but that he 100% believed I was amazing. “You get taught? How long?” Something like that, he asked, and I explained it to him. “Do you play Bach?” “A bit”, “Tchaikovsky?” “Ehhhh, nope, not yet!” He had the cheekiest fucking smile, I swear. “You know Tchaikovsky, with the violin?” “I mean, yeah, I’ve heard of him, he composed a lot for all instruments,” I said. And he had this cheeky little smile again, “haha, I was testing if you knew your composers!” He said, again so cheerful and cheeky, and then he went “ah, one day you will be a famous player!” And I was like “HAHA, naaaah, I don’t think so, it’s just a hobby,” again, me being unable to just take the compliment. And then his smile hit peak cheekiness. He shook his pointer finger at me like he was warning me and went “ahhh, it might start as a hobby, but one day... one day you will be famous,” then he wished me good luck and a good day, and I thanked him and said you too, and practically floated the rest of the way home. I didn’t know how to even process his super-niceness, I felt so humbled, and yet so happy and proud and ahhhhhhhhhhhh he was just so nice

And then! When I was almost home! You know how apartment buildings have staircases down to the basement and bike garage and garden? One on of the staircases, the one just before my front door, sat a lil baby crow. I had seen it when I left to go to my lesson, but I didn’t seem to be in distress and I was running late, so I figured, if it’s still there when I come back (not even an hour later), then I’ll figure something out. And there it was. It wasn’t sick or in danger, and it’s not uncommon for bird babies to be on the ground, and you shouldn’t just move them(FOR REAL! Don’t move birds that can’t fly. They are often just chicks that can’t fly yet, and they are on the ground hiding, waiting for their parents. See if the animal is in obvious distress and call a shelter or a corp for advice) but this staircase (it’s like three steps) sees a lot of traffic(mostly when people come home from work), so the chick couldn’t stay there. So I called the animal protection corp and asked them what to do, just to make sure I didn’t do anything wrong, and the lady told me it was okay to move it to somewhere nearby that was more safe, maybe a hedge or something where it could hide again(which was also why it was down there in the first place). But that meant I got to do one of my most favourite things in the world! Picking up birds! Even a baby bird, yasss. And then I moved it to the shrubbery, four metres away, and at first it didn’t wanna leave my hand, but eventually I got it to sit on the ground again. So cute<3

For a hot flash second I considered taking it in and raising it as a pet crow, because yes please, but then the flash was over and I know that would have been a bad thing to do.

But look at it

It’s so cute”

A few tags:) @nildespirandum @dangertoozmanykids101 @alexakeyloveloki @dianamolloy @devilish--doll @milky-maid

[maleksrami]

128 and 148

128. Would you change your name?

naaaah I like it! it suits me and I like the spelling.

148. What’s your favourite quote?

“It’s all happening” — that why I have it tatted ✌🏻

[thefancyspin]

(stolen from @theoriginofcarrots, thank you!)

1. Are you named after anyone?

My middle name is the same as my grandmother's middle name - but my first name was just something my dad liked.

2. When was the last time you cried?

This morning when I watched the finale of The Good Place, haha. Cried and cried, so emotional!

3. Do you have any kids?

Nope. I work with kids and love kids but have no urge to have my own.

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

5. What's the first thing you notice about people?

Eye contact, mostly? That sounds weird. I just mean I'm both overly polite and overly anxious so I work hard to make eye contact but freak out while doing it haha.

6. What's your eye colour?

Dark brown.

7. Scary movies or happy endings?

Happy endings for sure. Not into scary! I mean I watch mysteries, and crime shows like Lewis and Endeavour that can get quite dark, but scary like horror and thriller, no thank you.

8. Any special talents?

Writing, I suppose haha. I'm also really, really good at staying indoors and not socialising 😎

9. Where were you born?

Not far from where I'm living now. In Melbourne, Australia.

10. What are your hobbies?

Writing, reading, baking, trailwalking with the dog.

11. Do you have any pets?

We have a family dog, who doesn't live with me but I still consider her mine. She's so beautiful, I'm pretty obsessed with her haha.

12. What sports do you play/have played?

Naaaah, haha. Not a sporty person. Sometimes like to be a spectator with Australian Football and NHL.

13. How tall are you?

I'm not a hundred percent sure, just average. Like 5 foot 7 or something? I'm not sure this is of any interest to any one haha.

14. Dream job?

I really don't know. A novelist, without any deadlines or worries about money. Free lance writing or working in a library or something. Working sucks though.

15. Favourite subject in school?

English and English Literature.

tagging: @benthighway @pinkfloralcake @narkito @spacecowboybriony @yasisworld @ballumory - anyone who wants to! No obligations :)