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penisbilt · 8 months ago
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the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now
#latimers parents not mine!!!! i am NOT moving back to florida LOL#really hope that the changes will be good for my mental health. this apartment is toxic to us#ive been on the verge of meltdowns Kind Of A Lot lately. imnot doing great#extremely dependent on substances. just to reach a baseline level of functioning. but even that isnt working as much anymore#the only things i do on my phone or tablet these days is like. 2 mobile games. and skirting past my dms to check latimers blog#its too overwhelming to even open discord these days yknow. everything on earth is too much for me right meow#i havent been drawing i havent been social online OR irl i havent been cooking or creating#i havent been keeping up with personal hygiene like at all im particularly ashamed about that one#i've been really bad about doing my T the past few months which is a HUGE shame because im SO fucking hyped to be on it#theres just. too many obstacles in getting it done half the time. and the other half of the time i just forget#anyway. anyway.#our lease ends in july so between now and then we're just gonna try our best to tolerate our living situation enough to get by#there's a light at the end of the tunnel. and its called 'i only have to be in charge of like 2 rooms at most. and not a household!'#we're gonna try to slowly comb through all our things between now and then so the process of moving wont suck as bad#cuz listen. its pretty fucking bad right now#maybe not for other people. but it is for me. and its okay to let myself come to terms with that#im just. so relieved. still very stressed! but theres at least light at the end of the tunnel and its only like 2 months away#ill be able to draw guilt-free again. ill be able to just EXIST guilt-free#i dont think ive felt guilt-free for just existing the way i do since like. turning 20#i know my mom wouldve loved if i stayed home forever. and im sad i cant be there for her#but ever since i had a fight with my dad at 15 or 16 it just really felt like he didnt want me there more and more#maybe as the youngest he was resenting that i was preventing him from becoming an empty nester or something. i dont know#because all the other kids had been moved out and on their own at least once but i had never left home before#i dont know if he'd be heartbroken or not to hear that i feeling like he was resenting me. but thats the energy i was picking up for years#i dunno. i dont know#anyway. back to housing. for now im going to try to relax and store energy for the moving process#the huge pile of things by the kitchen? i dont have to worry about that becoming permanent because we're leaving in 2 months#the general discord of the state of our possessions? we have to go through everything to pack it all anyway. we can move in RIGHT this time#when we moved in here we didnt have a car or license so we were dependent on latimers 3-hr-drive-away parents to help us move#just /across town/. and we had a whole month between leases! but it still had to be done in a weekend
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hartxstarr · 7 months ago
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every so often i go through old posts on the manga blog and add/fix tags. and. i guess. i have to fix their names huh <- someone who just started rereading shikimori
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crockdotpot · 3 months ago
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i like the part of posting on tumblr where i say "im gonna post more!" and then Dont ramble in see more
theres a catch though!! i HAVE been posting on tumblr. unfortunately it is solely hetalia art (7 year long interest, forgive me) on another blog. if you like that stuff, check out @crockdrawshetalia hehe i havent drawn gabriel in so long... i missed him so much... id like to draw some more ultrakill art soon but no promises. i got really burnt out from drawing ultrakill every day and im slowly finding the strength to get back into the swing of things, haha. thanks for sticking around during my phighting art o7 ill probably post more (theyre so fun to draw) eventually in all honesty, ive been drawing a TON of sona / oc stuff lol- i might make a long post with a ton of them if anyone is interested :-) or just for my own enjoyment, hehe. anyway! thanks for reading! if you have any requests feel free to send them! always looking for ideas and prompts :-D
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silly-lil-scribbles · 9 months ago
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Introduction post!!
FREEEEEEE YEEHAW
status: getting ready to leave the house 4 the 1st time in 5 million years
lyrics that fit the current vibe: the only thing i havent done yet is die, and its me and my plus one in the after life
current chance of a response if you dm me*: 0%
* does not apply to mousie cuz its my emotional support friend
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- My name is Finn! You can also call me scribbles, soup, or really any dumb nickname will do. it/he <3
woah look at that.. its me.. on another website!! slight flash warning for spacehey btw ^^
if you havent read this in a while, i would suggest reading again cuz i update it a lot <3
- faggy but in the most aroace way possible
- as far as gender, boy-ish
- I MADE A JAIL ACCOUNT SO IF IM JAILED I MIGHT BE OVER THERE ‼��� @soup-has-been-imprisoned-noooooo
- I POST ABOUT BUGS A LOT! if you dont wanna see that …. sorry? i always tag if op didnt but just proceed with caution yk
- i post about the magnus archives/protocol and my chem frequently, though I also just reblog a ton of random shit. may be nsfw. Also I forget to tag for spoilers a lot so just know that there are magpod spoilers in general on my blog.
- music artists I like: mcr, arma angelus, fob, lemon demon, will wood, dazey and the scouts, cavetown, mother mother, nova twins, that handsome devil, noahfinnce, qbomb, gum disease, sparkbird, mischief brew, poppy, be your own pet, pierce the veil, specimen, faetooth, the mechs, rabbitology, scene queen, she/her/hers, femtanyl, leathermouth, baby queen, pansy division, the spook school, the crane wives, the used, and slutever
overall i really enjoy a lot of punk and emo and dark cabaret
- Shows/Podcasts/Other Media i enjoy! DANGER DAYSS, Malevolent, The Magnus Archives, Stranger Things, Welcome to Nightvale (though I haven’t finished it yet), the Osemanverse, Nimona, Adventure Time, Gravity Falls, ATLA, LOK, It, Hilda, Camp Here and There, Radio Rental, warrior cats, the silt verses, dead end: paranormal park, the saw franchise, the thankskilling franchise, invader zim (just now getting into it im only on s1 rn), arcane, happy tree friends, also im a big fan of horror movies so id love suggestions
- my blog is super messy so all of my art is under the tag #scribbles draws a thing and my original text posts (not the short personal ones typically, just the one i actually want people to see) are under #scribbles says shit.
- my body hates me very much (in other words im physically disabled)
- surprise, my brain also hates me very much! And yes this is also undiagnosed!
- tone tags are appreciated <3
- i post a lot! if you left an anon ask please check my #scribbles asks tag if you cant find it, sorry ‘bout that
boundaries n stuff:
- not ok with sexual or romantic comments
- platonic flirting is ok if we’re moots
- feelings on sex fluctuate a lot but im usually pretty indifferent, same for romance but usually averse
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- i have a tmagp fic i just starting writing! If you wanna know more, posts related to that are under #electric desires have unraveled all my wires :(
- I have 4 cats and a dog, also a gecko
- i have a queerplatonic partner!! hes awesome and swaggy and writes so much. so. much writing. wow. not saying wow in a bad way im just genuinely impressed. chou if ur reading this i love you <3
- SURPRISE i have another queerplatonic partner too!!!! its super fun and cool and pathetic /vpos. my favorite excitable soggy cardboard box ilysm <3 (if ur a regular around here im sure ur familiar lol)
- i love them both so much holy shit guys aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
- coyotekin therian !!
- i love bugs!!!!!!!!!!! please show me bugs!!!!!!!!!!!!
- My favorite colors are hot pink, cyan, neon green, and red
- I love interacting with mutuals and getting asks! plspls send me random shit in asks im begging
- I’m creating a cartoon called Catlantis (still in progress)
- I have a love hate relationship with writing but i do it anyways so oh well
- Frogs.
other tags i use a lot are:
#soup poorly draws gay people out of obligation; my series of promised dyhard drawings.
#soup gets pathetic about friendship; me when im a sappy bitch about my friends or partners
#objectives list; save file for when i say im gonna do something so i dont forget about it
#catlantis save; hoarding info for catlantis
#insomnia induced rambles; i cant sleep and im making it your problem
#our lady of sorrows; not the song, my mcr inspired goddess i made up for my dnd character to worship
#scribbles asks; asks
#info save; good to know
#scribbles liveblogging tmagp; exactly what it sounds like
#art save; resources for doing art
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kaylathebitch31 · 9 days ago
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I JUST CHECKED PETERS BLOG bc I usually post these there AND I HAVEN'T MADE ONE OF THESE IN OVER A YEAR???? ILLEGAL
Friendly reminder that I do play favorites even if I don't RP as regularly anymore and haven't replies to things/rped with some of your in forever, and in mostly random order they are as follows
@billyktothemax / @txkethefall / all of Noodles blogs
@fyr-rphub (you make it so easy by having a main, I only have to tag one lol)
@pretty-isnt-pretty-enough / @nomatterthecost
@bludhavenbirder
@behindtheireyes
@winloseorcharmed
@brokenandlonelysouls (WE HAVENT RPED OR TALKED IN SO LONG BUT YOUR STILL ONE OF MY FAVS 😭)
@themagnetprotectingstarksheart (I know you have another block but I can't for the life of me remember the URL) (NVM I went and found it) @manyimaginativemuses
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t4transsexual · 6 days ago
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i wrote a whole large update post and tumblr eated it lol. anyway what i said was, dont argue with transphobes in my mentions. i know theyre saying stupid shit but if they had any sense or motivation around logic they wouldnt not be terfs or transphobes. im recovering from top surgery and am not checking tumblr often enough to block all terfs/transphobes as they come. dont argue with them, i promise you you will not get far
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anyway heres me feeling myself in my medical binder because my chest hasnt been this flat in literally like 10 years. my girlfriend has been taking care of me (physically and emotionally) which has been a little difficult for me because i actually dont really have any experience being taken care of when im sick because i come from an abusive family, so its been a little uncomfortable but thats by far the worst thing about this surgery. my pain has been mostly a 2-3 out of 10 and today was a 0-1. i havent needed any opioids (i try to avoid them because i used to be addicted to prescription pills). ive had no complications as of now. my girlfriend took me to waffle house and has also been all over me as much as she can while im recovering from top surgery, so if youre a transphobe praying on my relationships downfall, try again lol. shes also been controlling all my medication times so i havent really had to worry about anything. i should get my drains out on the 7th so we'll see if i feel like blogging then.
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cassi-pokeblogging-hub · 6 months ago
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Pokepark - Shout out a Pokemon IRL blog you really like!
ill do you one better i have A LOT to shout out lol. its very hard to like articulate ALL my thoughts in just like one paragraph cause i dont wanna drop a masive ESSAY for each blog so ill try to keep it brief but do check all of them out if you havent yet!!
@lovenpeace-pkmn - anthea and concordia are,, surprisingly forgotten about pkmn characters so finding out there was a blog for them a few months back was like. insane for me. i love the blogrunners characterization and its just generally a fun blog to scroll through and interact with on occasion!
@thatfailedpokemontrainer - sprite an interesting critter fr. theres something wrong with them and i love it. every once in a while something goes down on the blog and im just in the discord chat with friends like omg look at whats happening on tumblr RIGHT NOW!!! also as a dedenne best pikaclone TRUTHER i am obligated to promite this blog lol
@battle-subway-ghost - is also a really fun blog that im always like GUYS LOOK AT WHATS HAPPENING OVER THERE!!! honestly i could probably link ALL the blogs linked to this one and thatfailedpokemontrainer but i dont wanna decimate a buncha peoples notifs with me @ ing them all on the same post lmao. but like. something up with paris fr and his relationships with other characters are so fun to read. also i love rattatas so any blog about characters that give love to the rats get a good grade in my book
@wingsofachampion - tropius is such a fun character and bench plays her so well!! pokemon like tropius are sososo underrated compared to a lot of the like. anthro/more humanoid pokemon and pokemon that are just cats or dogs so seeing one about one of these more underrated pokemon so good to me. bench (blogrunner) also has a ton of fun pmd lore that builds off the canon stuff on this blog and a few of their other blogs so if you love pmdstuff you should REALLY check them out
@psn-stalling - i could list A LOT of the bbablr blogs because theyre all some degree of something up with that guy fr but atlas is one of the first blogs that popped up on my dash p often and is what got me to check out a ton of the bba blogs. atlas and his relationships to other characters are so fun to me and tbh atlas is just a fascinating character in general. top ten guys of all time i hope he beefs with even more of his classmates in the future
@viridian-rat - OKAY SO. TURT (the blogrunner) IS MY FIRNED SO PERHAPS THIS MAY BE CHEATING BUT RAT IS SO SOSO SOMETHING TO ME. 12 YEAR OLD OF ALL TIME. turt plays rat like an actual 12 year old and its so refreshing because a lot of people DO NOT KNOW HOW CHILDREN ACT AND ITS INSANE. also turts been putting so much effort into a whole ass animation for this blog thats almost done so you guys have to follow the blog before it comes out so you'll see it.
@harteofthehart-ayyy - harte is another character on pkmn irl thats a guy of all time fr. fascinated by him and everything that is revealed about him. whatevers going on with him and his roommate has captivated me. this is also another blog where i REALLY like the art thats posted on occasion, and i just find it funny to follow. also its just a REALLY fun blog to interact with. like some blogs are just awkward to reply to because theres like way too little to actually grab onto but harte's mod is really good at giving you stuff to actually reply to
theres sosososo many more blogs but some are just escaping my mind rn or i dont know how to like properly articulate anything than this blog good. id like @ my entire following list rn if i could but i do not think people would be happy with the amount of notifs
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reductionisms · 5 months ago
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okay hi. how are you! you mightve noticed me liking and reblogging millions of your gintama posts. to which i say... teehee gomen? ;^__^ just wanted yo say i love the way your analysis and also the gintama math posts?!!!??!!! not saying im getting everything because im not (<- studied math for 3 years but not in english so i dont understand some of it) but yeah its was a nice approach. and im saving them to read later again when its not 2am
now for the ASK: have you thought about making a pinned post of all your analysis/the gintama math series? i would love to have them in one place
and the second ask: i noticed you and another blog (joleetwo i think?)(im planning on stalking all their gintama posts too. when it's not 2am) talking about gintoki = shouyo. would you explain it a bit? or if you already have, can you send the link?
THANK YOU!!!
hi!
tyyy, you flatter me too much... tbf even though i study math im pretty bad at it so i dont get everything either& half of what i write is abuse of notation lol
as for mathematics posting, unfortunately ive been sick on and off for the last 3 months and also very busy, so i didnt get to continue the tama series (im hoping to add it eventually, but right now its just the first installment). my other misc gintamaposting, including math posting (everything is math posting to me even if it isnt), is under “goose tag” in my archive if youd like to check it out. there’s also this compendium* i made of things i think are gintama math posting from other gintama mathematicians i love and admire. (*from early 24 so not updated since then- so not comprehensive)
as for shouyou=gintoki, i havent written on this specifically since it’s just something i carry with me always… in the first, in 519-20 when takasugi sees shouyou in his eye, in the next panel he sees gintoki in that exact position. to me, the first time i watched that, it just sort of clicked.
philosophically, gintama has this theme of what makes someone human. i feel like humanity here must be given to you by someone else (you have to be Named by them)— and it sort of aligns with the passing of promises (4devas, coan flashback)— that is, the passing of someone’s will. jirocho promises otose’s husband to protect kabukicho, which is otose’s husband’s will, and then gintoki promises jirocho to do the same, etc. similarly, gintoki upholds shouyou’s promise to protect their friends— which i am inclined to think is at least partially constitutive of shouyou’s person. that is, shouyou strove against utsuro to love and protect humans, which is what differentiated him from utsuro and eventually made him human (through gintoki, who makes him human). so gintoki receives shouyou’s promise, which is shouyou’s self (“a samurai is one who disciplines their weaker self”—follows this promise—self tied to promise), and on the cliff he acts it out. ie, by participating in shouyou’s will gintoki becomes shouyou. as do many people in gintama. and none at all. anyways unfortunately im sick and low energy so this is a bad explanation but hopefully that makes sense? Im sure joelle has written on this as well, as a heads up id just check with him to make sure he’s okay with spam notifs before going through his blog.
ty for the mathematics love since i love mathematics posting, & have a wonderful day!
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speak-now-girlies-unite · 8 months ago
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hi im ava!! welcome to my blog <3
sorry it took so long to make this whoops
🎀stuff i make !!
i just made a separate acc for my art and stuff, but i dont post on it much and until i get everything on there, my art is currently on this acc tagged as “my art<3”
my ao3 is piper_grace. i dont post much or very regularly but its there if you want to check it out.
🎀fandoms !!
stranger things 
ride the cyclone
the raven cycle
percy jackson / heroes of olympus
deadpool and wolverine (kinda?)
youll probably see mauraders at some point
and youll see the occasional the goldfinch post <3
i post about taylor swift sometimes so if you dont like her you should def block her tag
🎀tags !!
i post random stuff about my life a lot, you dont have to interact with it (you can, but dont feel obligated to) you can ignore it lol. mostly itll be tagged with “personal” 
i also have recently started posting about my life but in a less serious manner (ex. “i havent drawn in a while” or “thinking about rereading percy jackson”) those will be tagged with “ava yaps”
all reblogged art should be tagged with “art i like<3” although sometimes i forget😭
i also post lyrics i like sometimes, thats tagged with “lyrics <3”
i had a j name situationship beginning of the year, things that relate to him are tagged “the j name saga continues”
also! not a tag but my bsf’s name starts with an s, so anytime i mention s thats who it is.
im basic as hell and super cringey, tumblr is my safe space so im not gonna filter myself
if youre rude im going to block you <3
most importantly !!!! 
i want this blog to be as postive a space as possible and i wont hesitate to block people who cant maintain basic human decency. dont like, dont look, if you dont have anything nice to say, dont say anything at all, etc etc you know the drill. be nice
have a nice day<3 love ya 
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phoenix-before-the-flame · 2 years ago
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hewwo ! im vv new to fairy tail (started watching it w my bff maybe a year or so ago bc its her fav (then i only got super attached like a month ago)) and i wanna follow a bunch of ft blogs so i can fill my dash up w it! but i havent found many :(( any suggestions? artists especially would be great
Hey hey hey, Sorry it took me a lil bit to answer you, i've been uh, ive been havin one heck of a week.
But ya know, welcome to FT 👉😎👉, glad theres still new peeps jumping into it still.
I can't give you a super definite list, but i can give you a few peeps off the top of my head:
@kiliinstinct <- i gotta of course, plug my good good comrade, my braincell homie. They mostly write (current fic of focus is Flame's Desire, check it out 😏) but they also draw from time to time! And theyre gettin better every day
@pencilofawesomeness <- Pencil's blog is a bit multi fandom but! Their FT art tag has got tons of good stuff in there and i got a particular fondness for how they draw Natsu tbh. (Also they write fic as well, How To Raise Your Dragon Slayer which is their ongoing one *wink wink*)
@silken-sails <- Silky, nother good comrade (even tho theyre british rip😔). Super unique n stylized art style tbh.
@grayseyebrowscar <- Milo my insane comrade. 'Nother combo fic writer and artist. Their fics lean a lil more to silly good times which is always fun lol. Fun fics, fun art (its very shaped) . Win win 👍
@oryu404 <- Stingue expert with top notch colouring 👌👌👌
@celestialrayna <- Another Sting and Rogue expert, has a rlly cute chibi style.
@acnologias-ass <- probs one of the cutest art styles out there.
@zai-doodles <- literally god tier FT character redesigns
@heartonxions <- gajevy and just a team shadowgear afficiando overall. They keep giving Gajeel more piercings and i love it lol
@crowind1 <- the blog for Acnologia art.
Also, of course, I gotta plug the blogs i help run that can help you find other FT blogs easier:
@fairytail-redraw (where lotsa artists take a shot a redrawing the prompts of the month)
@ft-reboost (blog that reblogs art and fic to help give em more love)
@theguildawards (fandom awards event that you can skim through and see the lists of past nominees and winners)
But there's only so many blogs i can remember off the top of my head 😅
So if any other FT artists or fic writers wanna promo their own blog or you got some FT blogs you wanna reccomend as well feel free to reblog this and promo em 👍
It's all about that shameless promo babeeeeyyyy
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ant0on · 28 days ago
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I'm sorry if I'm poking into the wound but I'm never afraid to ask a question and get an answer.
I just watched the entire Antoons Drama Remastered (4 yrs late, I know, slowpoke me) and I've noticed that char that I really liked. Mosquito Bee. But... Now that I'm searching for "mosquito" in your blog and it seems like she did something you still didn't forgive her for.
I've been living under a rock so I won't mind if you'll get mad at me for asking this question but...
What happened?
first of all, congratulations for making it till the end of those vids lol, its a long saga. And I should be making part 3, as now most of all channels are dead, those that went after me I mean. So Daft Pina (who changed his brand entirely, and barely gets any views), Creepshow art channel is deleted cause of some copyright stuff, Just a Robot destroyed his career with some insane takes he made about one drama which was a self-destruct of his channel. Harley TBS is barely active last time i checked, and his channel is barely getting any clicks now. Hopeless Peaches went insane and destroyed her entire channel, its deleted. So really, the only people left from that drama are Just Stop and Izzy I think, but I havent seen what they are doing in years, so who knows, and I dont really care . Its just funny to see scummy people get a taste of their own medicine. I dont mean Just a Robot though, as he tried to be more neutral during the whole antoons debacle, though he did end up taking Harley’s side which was pathetic kinda, as he was afraid to be cancelled for siding with me lol
But anyway, sorry to go on a rant like this, I just wanted to update you on that drama. About Mosquito bee, she was another mentally unstable terminally online girl who ended up doing some NSFW art of minor I think or I dont really remember, I just heard it from other people, so after she had left our server. One takeaway from all of this - art community is 99% wacky, and artists or those orbiting the artists are bound to end up in one drama or another because art requires emotion, so the online art scene has plenty of that. And I speak from experience when I was an art teacher and being an artist myself, its very tricky to handle strong emotions for anyone creative, thus we all end up in trouble all the time. Some of us are addicts, which is super common, others are degenerates like the furry groups. But at the end of the day, normies can get a show out of all this art drama when they look at us from the outside so thats all good.
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yoonia · 6 days ago
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Found your tumblr accidentally but found youre the author of my favouritie fic and oh my god,,
I havent read fanfiction in YEARS but very recently started again and.. Chance encounter made me FEEL. Idk if this is mad to say but even as a male reader i was able to relate to the mc so easy and was giggling and kicking my feet at every silly little thing oml..
You made me fall for this version of Ian BADLY.
GIRL IM AM SO EXCITED FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER- Absolutely zero pressure to rush though take your sweet time please!!!
Just wanted to tell you to keep it up because when i say your fic was living in my head 24/ goddamn 7 for at LEAST a week straight,, im not even exaggerating.
Definitely gonna check out some of your other works 🙏🙏
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omgggg hello 🥺🥺🥺🥺
I'm so glad you found me!!! Gaaahh thank you so much for loving Chance Encounter! trust me when I say that I'll be kicking and giggling when I'm writing it (I'm doing it now reading your message! lol)
I've made it my goal to finish that series as soon as possible. I'm trying to finish until the final chapter before I start releasing the updates again because I don't want to leave everyone hanging between chapters for too long (also bc I have another series for Ian to write soon *coughs*)
Thank you for your patience! I hope you'll get to enjoy some of my other works before we can continue Chance Encounter!
Oh, and welcome to my blog!!!
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5-htagonist · 2 months ago
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god damn im so happy rn... ill stick it under a readmore bc its about food and my appetite idk if it would be triggering also this turned into more of a diary entry than anything lol My Blog My Rules though
i made curry last night and im really happy because ive been having a lot of trouble eating and Making myself eat, on top of being really erally really broke so we havent had much food in the house thats just Ready To Go consistently.. like, we always have oats, but we dont always have milk, and i cant eat them with water.. or we have ham but we run out of bread, or all i want are fruits and leafs but we cant really keep anything except apples/oranges/grapes because they dont go bad before we finish them, or bananas cause they arent really ruined if theyre overripe you just throw them in the freezer. so we cant get salad materials.
if i try to just shove calories in my body and i dont like it i wont finish it. like i will feel full until i stop trying to make myself eat it. and this isnt even just when adderall affects my appetite.
then, on top of all that, i know if i eat i have to do dishes. my husband usually does them, but hes been going through a really bad time for the past couple months too, plus we only moved out july 2023, and before that his mom had been Divorced outta the house earlier that year iirc plus id been living there since july 2022, so his brain and nervous system has felt safe enough for the ptsd recovery stage for nearly 2 years. and he gets hit really hard with seasonal depression, and he has adhd too. he typically does dishes, i typically do laundry. the problem is its easier to wear the same clothes for a few days, or rewear laundry that isnt rancid, or wear ill fitting clothes that have been shoved to the back of the dresser, but its hard to wash a dish when the sink is full and the kitchen is overwhelming.
so, to avoid having dirty dishes, i wont eat. whats worse, is i was insanely stressed over school for like 3 weeks. all the stress i should have had this semester hit me really bad all at once. when im that stressed, i cant think about anything relevant to maintaining myself-- especially not maintaining neutral-positive self talk and constructive self esteem. which means i shut down if anyone needs anything from me real or imagined. which means i cant be there for my husband and make sure he eats and check in on him. so all this stupid shit just feeds into itself. ive had more s/h urges than ive had in years i think, and not even in response to anything extrinsic.
my goofy ass got drunker than i usually do super quick the other night, it wasmy husbands birthday party. i cleaned up the apartment super nice since mostly my stuff was strewn everywhere and did the dishes. i didnt eat all day and i think i had like, one inadequate meal the day before. so i was exhausted after cleaning, our roommate ordered pizza and i ate and passed out for 3 hour nap. by the time i got up everyone was already at Least buzzed. my brother in law got a mom call and my husband (drunk) was like Hey. Give me the Phone.. tell her i wanna talk... because she LOVES being upset that her kids are having a good time and feels the need for Hour Phone Call when and where she wants it, and my BIL is an adult but they dont treat him like one, so hes still really deep in feeling trapped in these trauma responses.
this i think is what really got me, other than not being on my full dose of adderall so my emotional abilities were compromised lmao. i was tryingto tell my husband i love him, because i was leaving to weed store, and he was getting triggered while drunk, so he was annoyed i was interrupting the call and i didnt get my byebyehugnkiss. not to mention they were being really loud earlier. so now i feel bad. i get back immediately down 2 shots (3 shots is where i am Comfortably Drunk) and share a j actually post cancelled kendrick just dropped. the point was that i got too drunk and started hitting myself on the head and crying in the kitchen floor lol but who cares about that KENDRIIIIIIICKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
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cake-by-thepound · 11 months ago
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OMG I told myself i would come here and leave a lil msg even if you might not see… what a nice surprise to see you posted things! Richonne really bringing everyone back 😭😭 Havent been on tumblr in fifty leven years but all the towl posts on twitter made me want to check what‘s going on here. And I thought of you cause you and your blog was such a big part of my viewing experience. Loved coming on here and see what everybody had to say after an ep. And I wanted to remember all those good feelings cause tbh it got annoying on the bird app real quick lol. Got to enjoy all the content for about 3sec before all the real life shippers came back with a force. I genuinely forgot that‘s a thing. And when they brought the Tony/Fitz comparaisons I was like yeah i’m out. I’m not touching that one 😂 Anyway I just really came to say that i always loved your blog and the space it provided for richonners and I‘m absolutely delighted to see you here 😘
🤭 I love this so much! I kinda had the same experience and just happened to check my blog because of the premiere, and I was shocked to find an ask waiting for me. The power of Richonne! 🤌🏾
I totally agree with you about Twitter. It’s too public! Too many people with too many opinions. I didn’t realize how much I enjoyed the bubble you can essentially shroud yourself in on Tumblr until I needed it and it was gone. 😂
Anyway, I’m very happy our faves are back and so are we! I always said we’re here for a good time, not a long time, but it really is nice for it to be good again!
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unexpectedbrickattack · 1 year ago
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Hey, I think your art is so wonderfully done! How you draw the Pizza Tower cast and your headcanons are so cute! I wanted to ask if you had any other socials or any other art accs? Oh! And do you do commissions ever? I didn't see it listed and I was curious if you might be bc I would DEFINITELY comm you if you did Have a good day :)
OUGH…maybe i should make a comm page for this blog….ive only been taking furry comms bc my art (on my furry blog) attracts the kind of people who will commission things similar to what I already draw. But im in a bit (alot) of a pinch AND im more confident in my art now than i was when i started comms like 2 years ago so I should try to broaden my audience 🤔 If you ARE interested in commissioning me, you can dm me and ill send u a link to my comm page and google form :)
As for socials:
My main is @squishybons. I have had this blog for a LONG time but its a sideblog, so youll never get notifs from there (youll get it from @dissociative-kittens; a FAR older blog that is completely inactive.) Its my reblog blog heehee its mostly stuff i find funny n cute :)
@samarecharm is my rpg blog. I havent posted in a while; i was in a bit of an art block for months and then pt came out and i obsessed over it here, so that blog is a bit neglected. It has p5, kh, and ffxv content on it but i may jump back into it if i decide to play ffxvi….
@cinnamintkitty is my furry blog. Its 🔞+ but it has both completely sfw stuff and cropped saucy stuff. I hardly check notifs there; i just post my art and dip lol. I was thinking of making a furry reblog blog recently; how funny to get this ask in this moment heehee
I have an FA (also 🔞); CinnaMinniKitty
And i have a furry twitter but um. Im not focusing on it rn…and besides, whatever i post there is going to be on my furry art blog AND/OR FA so ur not missing anything dw :)
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the1312daysofchristmas · 4 months ago
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HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYY 🎉🥳🎁 hope u got to eat cake (or something else if you don’t like cake lol) and listen to fob all day <33
thank you!!!! i baked myself a coffee cake using a recipe i frankensteined to get it just how i wanted it, and i just logged off of a birthday party with some friends over on discord! we played jackbox and codenames and watched my favourite episode of tng so far (elementary my dear data, which if you know anything about me and star trek or follow my fandom blog should check out) and then watched monty python and the holy grail!! it was so fun :] my sister called earlier today too.
most of all im grateful for how peaceful its been for the most part. the week of my birthday contains quite a few big painful anniversaries so i wanted to make this birthday special but lowkey, so things couldnt go super wrong. oh and im also going to get sushi this weekend with my girlbestfriend who i havent seen in YEARS because shes been at school in morocco.
its been a good day :)
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