#hauntingmyself

[jsydbrantley]

#hauntingmyself #jsydspoetry https://www.instagram.com/p/CUJxzIeA318GSpycRp6VAz8Exf_pwgm5H42uWI0/?utm_medium=tumblr

[sghost]

EL DIABLO. 2001 By BRIAN SZENTE. One of my larger paintings, covered in matches and wax underneath. I burned the hell out of my hands making this piece. I tend to drag this around with me. #brianszente #slowghost #acrylicpainting #waxpainting #matches #eldiablo #lucifer #devil #occult #notaluciferworshipper #fallenangels #sonofthemorningstar #theageofaquarius #hauntingmyself #drwhoscarf #contemporarypainter #contemporaryart #contemporaryartists #dcartist #dcartists #contemporarymixedmediaart #dcpainter #oddideas #thingsthathaunt #thedevil (at Washington, District of Columbia) https://www.instagram.com/p/BvEOGLolTJp/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=u48r0janucra

[brob912-blog]

I'm sorry.

@hauntingmyself

I know that I hurt you the most anybody could have hurt you. It was horrible. I told you I didn't want you anymore. I can't even believe I meant it at the time. It was the truth. It was the full blown truth. I didn't want you. I didn't want to try anymore. I gave up on our relationship. It was too much for me. Then I realized I totally fucked up and I couldn't take it back. I just couldn't. You were already done and gone. All of this just hurts. I just want you to know that I will always love you with the bottom of my heart. I know we can't be together. I don't want to believe it. But we can't. I'm not taking it well at the moment. I can't even be near you it hurts so bad because I just want you in my arms and I never want to let you go. But I know I have too. You'll probably never read this. And that's okay. I don't expect you to after the way I have been treating you lately. All I wanted was another chance. Another shot to prove my love to you and I would never let you go. If I don't get it. I understand. It kills me on the inside every night knowing you are so close but so far. You've moved on and I have to accept it. I'm sorry for everything I did to you. I changed you into a person that you never wanted to be. I fucked you up and it was the worst thing that I have ever done in my life. I tried to show you that I could change for us. That I could make us work. I guess we'll never know. Thank you for everything you have ever done for me. I'm sorry.