#hauntgab

[haunt-self]

Thank you @batshaped for feeding us halo head stickers and with them a new avenue to play with your characters like dolls

[roboriders]

I love speedrunning so much

[haunt-self]

Tynk in da void

We will send Tynk to your house. And... Well, she won't do anything specific, but, do you really want Tynk in your house?

[haunt-self]

bat shoe wings and the fingers have a barb wire pattern is this anything

[haunt-self]

LMAO WHAT MY HANDLE IS IMMORTALIZED IN THE HALF LIFE GNOME STREAMS BECAUSE I DONATED SOME BITS

[haunt-self]

it really is something else looking at really old art I made in like 2013 and there are so many random pieces where I genderbent my self-insets or made OCs that I didn't have the words to properly describe but in hindsight were very blatantly nonbinary ect.

it's a little funny but also sad thinking about how it was there the ENTIRE time and went over everybody's heads including my own to the point where my egg only properly busted open last year.

better late than never and all that i guess but it does kind of suck being 29 and thinking I could have maybe even started transitioning years ago. it's a bad way to think but in some senses I feel like I already missed the train.

and with how fucking scary things are getting in america (and especially the Deep South) I'm not even really sure if I want to start HRT ect. which sucks! because that's exactly what the facists want! but fuck me, what is there to say? I'd like to transition, yeah, but I don't know if I want it bad enough to lose my career and get hunted for sport.

I don't know what to do about it and I already feel like I'm out of time.

[haunt-self]

wynne can be anything

[haunt-self]

skirts are so nice I love wearing them so much

how can one piece of clothing possibly feel this good to wear

[haunt-self]

today's mothers day so I get to sublimate from the true self (haunt) to the half-truth (owyn) to the marketable funko pop version of myself (j****h)

[roboriders]

I really do feel like I owe ortiel one for coming up with a flawless litany against self-doubt. whenever my brain is being mean to me and throws out "what if all your friends hate you" or "you're actually bad at everything you do" "what if those strangers think you look stupid" I think "what if the world was made of pudding" it's an unbeatable strategy

[haunt-self]

I was looking up references to draw my cast boot and in the process found out I’ve been wearing mine wrong for over two weeks...

[haunt-self]

it will be a miracle if I can keep this blog up for more than a couple months

but I will try