#hard to write what ur not into amen

[webism]

runs my hand down ur face…. hey….. that was a great start to a great month…. im so ready 😋

i hope you washed that hand first…….🤨

[lorarri]

★ . . . 𝐏𝐀𝐆𝐄𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐕𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐄 , 𝐙𝐆𝟐𝟒

summary , a fashion icon is drawn out of writing retirement by an equally iconic 8 time world champion which leads to love blossoming rather quickly

pairing , fashion editor! zhou guanyu x fem! f1 driver! reader

series masterlist | main masterlist | sol’s masterlist | f1 masterlist

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vouge The wait is over: introducing zhouguanyu24 first return to writing in 6 years in this issue of Vogue. Through tabloid headlines, struggles of inequality and a drive to prove herself, the story of yourinstagram is a triumph, in the world of motorsports which the protagonist has flourished by winning 8 world drivers championships and has allowed herself to grow creatively and expand beyond the world of Formula One. As the F1 driver, singer, actor, fashion designer, creative, and philanthropist considers her next moves – a new album, movie and the hope of a 9th wdc among them – she tells Vogue’s new head of editorial content #zhouguanyu what living her truth means now in the April 2024 issue. Click the link in bio to read the interview, and see the story in full in the new issue, on news stands Tuesday 19 March.

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f1 a fashion legend and a new wag has graced us for the weekend brining iconic fit's too

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[simpinberry]

Hii xx

could you do bella ramsey hcs where reader is jealous of bella because shes with other girls but then they end up together in the end 🫶

heyyyy, i’m backk. i tried to make this as healthy as possible while also adding a bit of spice to it. i hope i interpreted this correctly <3 should i also write jealous!bella hcs? hehe lmkk

established relationship, jealous!reader, kisses and cuddling

bella is fine as hell (we all agree, can i get an amen) so naturally lots of people want them. bella is very much in the public eye and has got promotional duties as an actor. she has to go to lots of events like fashion shows, premiers, award shows and interviews. they’re gonna meet lots of ppl and you’re usually extremely proud and happy for them! u pride yourself on not being the jealous type.

usually bella doesn’t text when she’s working/at events, mostly because she gets too overwhelmed and would rather be focused and present where they are. so you decided to go on twitter and check up on how it was going. unfortunately smth about a video of bella with a bunch of girls at a fashion show didn’t sit right with you. they were surrounding her and getting too close. bella didn’t do anything wrong and was being super polite as usual but the girls were all extremely pretty. they were all so elegant and looked so incredibly cool. it was both dumb and understandable at the same time. you trusted bella for gods sake. you shrugged the thought away and tried to go on about your day.

you ended up calling your best friend to rant about the whole situation because you couldn’t get it out of your head, “listen it’s not like i wanna go to these events and it’s fine that she talks to other girls i just ugh, i’m so jealous and i hate it”. your best friend told you exactly what you expected her to, “bitch just talk to them istg, you’re overthinking it too much”. ofc you spent another 30 mins ranting about it but you knew you were gonna do the healthy thing at the end of the day.

“honeeeyy i’m homeee” you hear bellas mocking american accent before you even see her. she finds you curled up on the couch binge watching willow. with a quick kiss to your forehead she heads upstairs to take a shower after such a long day. god, u have to talk to them about this.

by the time bella gets out of the shower you’re already settled into bed, comfy as hell tbh. crawling her way into bed, they lay next to you, facing you. “babe, you awake?” “MHMMM” you had to make your move now. “how was the fashion show today?” bella being the cutie she is, tells you everything. talks about her favorite looks, a fit she took a picture of because they thought it would look good on you and how she ran into her past costars. as much as you love hearing about her day you’re overthinking and trying to find the perfect moment to talk to her abt ur jealously and all the girls and how pretty they are and how you’re scared and worried and god so so jealous and how you feel- “can i confess smth?” bellas face drops and she’s full of concern. “DID U EAT MY LAST MUFFIN CUZ ISTG” oh, that’s what they’re worried about. “no, not this time….. i’m, i mean i was, kinda super jealous today. cuz like you were with all these pretty girls at the show and they were surrounding you and god- ik how fine you are and how lucky i am but i just felt,,,, like rlly jealous”

iwl bella was a bit shocked by your sudden outburst. you’re rarely ever jealous so this was a first, maybe a second. “mhmm i understand, i didn’t think you were the jealous type but i get it” she takes your face into her hands, you snuggle into her touch. “i know it’s hard dating someone in the public eye, i’ve actually embarrassingly asked pedro for advice on this before. thank you for telling me though, my love. a little bit of jealousy is normal. in myyyy expert opinion it means you need some reassurance and lottts, lottts and lottssss of kisses”

this idiot. they always know how to turn smth like this into a good thing. “yeah sure i mean those girls were nice and everything but at the end of the day i only want you and i’m just as lucky to have you darling” they bring you into a sudden kiss. melting into the kiss, you tangle your legs together to be as close as possible. It was a tense, reassuring and urgent. she poured a lot into that kiss and you gladly accepted it all.

i’d like to think she’d make an extra little effort in the future to make you feel more secure. whether that’s with physical affection, words, time or gifts. bella is yours and they wanna make sure you always remember that.

[champgnesny]

well, sadly i finished the second season of ‘good omens’ a few hours ago and after a really long nap, here we have:

“some things about the second season of ‘good omens’ that really stuck with me and i’ll think about forever and ever (amen)”

• beginning of creation and my baby crowley being just so excited about the galaxy, and stars, and her little jumps and shouts, she’s my silly girl

• crowley protecting aziraphale from the stars rain (or whatever was going on in there) with his wing and later on, aziraphale doing the same

• aziraphale caring about crowley since the beginning of ages is just so heartwarming

• “how much trouble can i get into just for asking a few questions?” my princess just wanted to know what was all of this for, is that so wrong?

• aziraphale thinking crowley was talking about him when he said the stars were beautiful pls

• their little lunches through all the season, at the pub, the cafeteria, the other little french stablishment, etc

• aziraphale panicking while explaining crowley why is there a “naked man” on his library 😭😭

• crowley recognizing “trouble” on aziraphale voice just because they know each other that well

• the amount of times “our” and “we” was used to by crowley and aziraphale themselves, talking as if they could not live without the other (they actually can’t)

• crowley refusing to help aziraphale and aziraphale being like “okay, i can’t make you help me, i’ll be fine” and crowley simply throwing a tantrum just to be back and help him

• crowley’s tantrum, yes, but specially the way he stomps on the ground like a little kid

• their little apology dance lmfao (how much cuter can they get?)

• the way they worked together to make a silly little small minuscule miracle once and ended up being way too extra like it wasn’t that hard!

• crowley introducing aziraphale to food

• also, crowley in the turtle neck (i would’ve also used any excuse to put my hand in his chest like that, aziraphale)

• the magic trick and how the person aziraphale thinks of when they say “trust” is automatically crowley, they make me so ugh

• aziraphale not only stealing the proof photo, but keeping it and showing it to crowley

• crowley actually lending aziraphale his car, like he’s so down bad it hurts (if anyone ever had a doubt of how much love this man has for his angel, then this must say something)

• crowley on the library, carrying books, his little sweater, throwing the books everywhere, she’s just so cutesy, i need to eat her

• aziraphale and crowley being domestic and cute and in love together, my babies

• crowley making hot chocolate for gabriel (plus that one time he went all protective on aziraphale)

• the way aziraphale has a dairy (and probably many other) where he writes about crowley, and he just talks about her with so much love, excitement, cherishing their memories together

• the way neither crowley, nor aziraphale ever deny the gay accusations like they just stare and say nothing because they are!

• crowley following aziraphale everywhere when he was organizing his ball pls

• aziraphale and crowley dancing 💓💓💓

• crowley and aziraphale trying to get nina and maggie together when they can’t sort out their own shit like bffr and talk abt ur feelings instead?

• aziraphale telling nina that he has his own plans but he just lets crowley save him cause it’s makes him just “oh, so happy!”

• crowley’s heaven outfit and the way he was walking like she’s just everything to me

• crowley getting choked up when he tried to say he’d like to spend eternity with aziraphale

• crowley actually willing to talk about it and aziraphale just hitting him up like “hey let’s go to heaven together!” like bro, kindly and very gently, what the fuck?

• the kiss (boy, you needed to talk, there’s many time for kissing later; or there was, who knows)

• “i forgive you” lovely, you have so much audacity but this wasn’t the moment haha! (still love u, aziraphale, i promise)

• “you idiot, we could’ve been… us” i think them telling each other to kill themselves would’ve hurt me less

• crowley in the car, still waiting in case aziraphale decided to change his mind (i threw up)

• aziraphale literally looking like he’s going insane while leaving crowley like he’s genuinely just losing it more every single second that passes

• conclusion, they are very much in love, they just need a break and many, many deep talks about their feelings

“honorable mentions to: the whole gabriel and beelzebub plot <3 it was so cutesy, i love them”

by the way, here’s part one of this mini post series, in case you wanna check it out! ⭐️

[princessbrunette]

agree with ur points so hard especially the tagging one like u can tell how long someone’s been on tumblr just by their excessive tagging jfc

also so random but i wanted to ask what your dream career is or what u see yourself doing. you write so well and really seem to love it so i was just curious if it had anything to do with that

yea…… like why am i seeing you tag draco malfoy cnc smut under a rafe drabble?

& omggg thank you!!!! blogging for a website / app / brand is something i’d love to get paid to do. i just love blogging sm and with my job that might be possible soon amen

[emoangel44]

HI RAXZ IT TOOK LONGER THAN EXPECTED AS IT'S BEEN A WEEK BUT!!! DURING ALL THAT I DIDN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT YOUR FIC/S It's just one of those pieces of fanwork that leaves so much of an impression on someone, that it just ends up sticking and changing what you initially thought of a character, because of how well done the things most would just move aside or chalk up for simple reasons. you seem to be the only person who really does get Chara like no other, and I hope it's not strange to say you write them almost as if you know them or you are them that I'm sorta afraid nothing else will live up to how you written them and asriel in ur fan fic LOL but no matter... i will prevail. I love how you were able to portray charas self hate and self harm, i love how you didn't hold back on the ugly side of it and how far and disturbing it can be especially for someone as young as chara. There's just something so realistic about it that don't see alot anywhere else. 

I also like how you made asriel be childish, childish in a way a kid can be bratty or selfish(?) in the first half, that might not be a good descriptor but my puter is lagging from the many many words I've written for this ask so I'm making do </3 the point is you really know how to write these kids. Also enjoy that the tone of each fic is starkly different from one another, asriels pov feels grounded in comparison to charas inner thoughts

HOPEFULLY this all makes a little sort of sense, I've read both of ur fics three times so I'm praying it does, amen. ANYWAYS……. Love ur brain, would love to hear any thoughts you have on utdr in general if you ever decide to share em…. godbless. perhaps i couldve worded this better in a diffrent time but oh well, we ball. i hope u have a great day emoangel44🫡 will be looking forward for ur new utdr stuff

FIORE!!! i have been waiting for this day.. thank you so much. ive had several people say that i really get chara including like, literal veteran chara fans. its very nice to hear, theyre pretty important to me as a character. which is rather funny because the only analysis ive ever actually written on them that wasnt fanfiction was an essay on how i think theyre kind of actually a little poorly written LOL. to understand someone you have to know their weakpoints i guess... even if on a meta level.

for my asriel interpretation i try to incorporate a lot of "flowey-isms" as i say. the way i see asriel is that he was always a bit of a bratty, selfish kid that struggled with low empathy. he chooses to do what he thinks is right because he knows its right and not because it provides him with positive feelings himself... i think thats even more admirable. as opposed to this is think chara is high empathy which is part of the reason they did what they did. asriel is just way more of a people person than chara and so comes off as more understanding, charas just naturally a bit off-putting no matter how hard they try not to be.

chara and asriel are quite different people so i tried to make that clear in how i write their perspectives. chara is kind of stuck in their own head and lives in a world with walls of misery and think prose. theyre very direct but also very metaphorical. its a weird combination but it gets easier to write when taking in account their canon dialogues (one day youll get a fic from me with a more light hearted tone where chara will get to make their dog puns and nerd jokes. maybe). this is also the reason i write them with a strange mix of first and second person. it just feels natural for our narrator.

asriel on the other hand is much much more of an emotional person and is much less formal in how he thinks. he has a lot more filler words and "i-think"s and "i-feel"s and such.

i figure ill write a bit on what inspired each fic.

for my chara fic, i actually started writing it while bored in class. it was inspired a narration line in one of the fights in undertale, the one i used for the summary. the main thing i wanted to play with was metaphors and metaphors upon metaphors. mainly related to charas self hatred though the lense of soil and dirt and flowers and gardens because of course.

for my asriel fic, the main thing i wanted to play with was, quite obviously, writing from asriels perspective. i had already written 2 fics from charas perpective (the 1st one isnt as good as the other two and was mostly written as a characterization and perspective test) so i figured it was time to give him a turn, especially since it we only realy got a peak and asriels personality through charas eyes and i wanted to show it off more. the other thing that the fic ended up centering on is something my friend said to me about how they felt my chara characterization was screaming to be understood under all the hurt. basically the thesis of this fic is "asriel did not fully get chara but he was also the closest anyone ever got by a long shot which counts for something".

if youd like to see my other undertale stuff, here is some poetry ive written about chara (and asriel), here is my art tag which is full of stuff with them (alternatively, just use my undertale tag if you dont want art of anything else), here are my chara and asriel playlists that i always listen to while writing, and here is that chara essay i mentioned.

speaking of my thoughts on utdr... i actually dont post the majority of them. but id absolutely love to talk about them. so if you (or anyone else) have any questions about my thoughts on utdr or want to start a discussion about it Please do. Im actually begging you. i need more engagement guys send me asks. thank you for reading this absurdly long response

[formulawonu]

hi!! Just wanted to say that i love ur writings!! and is it okay if u do svt as highschool roles if possible? ty!

seventeen & high school

a/n: hiii thank u so much <3 i'm glad u enjoy them!! 🙈 this was so fun to think of ahahaha what do u all think who would u guys be

seungcheol: the bad guy. even he doesn’t know he ended up with the stereotype but it stuck - what can he do? is actually really nice. probably smokes at the back of school during lunch with vernon lmao

jeonghan: the smart kid that does give their notes to you. believes in the power of collaboration. tests are a stupid way to measure one’s intelligence anyway 

joshua: the nice guy. gets along with literally everyone. even the people you don’t want to mess with love him. has a million people saying hi to him when he walks through the hallways. good for him

junhui: the floater. i actually had a hard time thinking about this bec he could literally be anything and anyone he wants to be. floats around and sits in different lunch tables every other day. everyone accepts him

hoshi: the school mascot. dont get him wrong he could 100% be part of any of the school’s teams but his joy is in half-time shows performing for the crowd and hyping them up. 100% gets competitive when the other school’s mascot shows up  

wonwoo: the smart kid that does not give their notes to you. believes in the power of LEARNING by putting in the honest work. amen sir

woozi: the band geek. always bopping his head and drumming his fingers on whatever surface is in front of him (even without earphones on). people wonder what music he’s listening to in his head 

minghao: the art hoe. oh u think he’s taking notes down during class? ur funny he’s actually drawing the sunlight leaking in through the classroom windows

mingyu: The Golden Boy™️. everyone loves him. everyone has a crush on him. the principal has a crush on him. people from other schools have a crush on him. no further comments from me

seokmin: RESIDENT THEATRE KID. LITERALLY FIGHT ME ON THIS.  

seungkwan: student body president. part of multiple clubs. always running from meeting to meeting trying to put things together. ~he wants to leave a legacy~ please tell him to rest

vernon: that one quiet kid that always has headphones on and ends up getting caught for vaping. idek 😭 100% friends with cheol

dino: he’s THE class clown. and he didn’t choose to be it nor does he want to be it. but he’s naturally funny and everyone loves him. pls take him seriously actually

[crimeronan]

had my original fiction opening critiqued at irl group tonight! under a cut because this is long and it'll be painfully boring for people who have not been following my Anxiety Saga (and who do not care about the OCs), but tl;dr: very positive :3 we went a half hour over our usual time just discussing the story.

the prose, imagery, and exposition were all highly praised, ppl said the style is easy to read & a few even said it scans as fully publishable right now

didn't have a chance to get into the whole magic-as-autoimmunity meta or a Million Other Things because this story is a BEHEMOTH. but if i write more then i can get into it at other sessions :3

UNANIMOUS praise for the depiction of magic as painful/costly, one guy says he usually hates fantasy magic bc the stakes feel too low. but these didn't

characters were much more polarizing. everyone had a slightly different interpretation of and different emotions about the various narrators

also nearly every time someone said "this character thing didn't work for me" or "i hated this character detail," someone else would pipe up like "actually that was great for me personally. you should keep it" which made me laugh. THRILLED to accomplish this

pretty strong majority opinion that sol is an insane sociopath, i got some 'i'd like to see more depth in her' feedback until one woman said "my problem with her is that she's supposed to be super powerful but then her narration is exactly as neurotic and hypervigilant as your reader proxy's" while i was Vibrating With Excitement like YOU HAVE IDENTIFIED THE THING I DID ON PURPOSE YOU DID IT YOU GOT THE UNRELIABLE NARRATION IM YELLINGGGG

pretty unanimous empathy with and concern for the reader proxy narrator who's in a Very Bad Situation. some devastation upon finding out i don't plan for her to narrate the entire novel. about half the group was like "but... but everyone else is. everyone else is an evil sociopath :( i like the girl :(" sorry guy.s. i promise i'll make you want to read about them before i rip ur girl away

i cut some explicit/graphic threats of sexual and physical violence because i thought they went too far, despite this being psychological horror. three ppl gave me the feedback "i need to see some kind of explicit threat to really know the stakes here" i'm never questioning my dark edgy shit again. every character is fucked forever. amen

ONE READER DID CLOCK DEVIN AS TRANS and it was the Same One who clocked sol perfectly. she was like the mention of scruff jarred me so much that i googled the dictionary definition of scruff. what's the deal there & i was like oh. transgenda. & she was like I THOUGHT IT WAS SOMETHING LIKE THAT

everyone else: wow i did not notice that at all. and/or i assumed the scruff was leaves or twigs not stubble

OH AND!! i got a note that my character dialogue is all extremely distinctive. which was Such A Relief because i Know my fanfic dialogue is distinctive but i wasn't sure if i was replicating that with the OCs. it's hard to figure out how people talk & make it different from how other people talk when you yourself are only one person with one speech pattern.

very good positive experience. the problem now is that if i want to talk about other aspects of the story like...... literally everything, literally everything about everything to do with the story..... i gotta. i gotta write it. oh god.

[inkdemonapologist]

Another Sammy x Grant thing, is that i think it works best as a cycle ship bc i can totally see ink!sammy being able to convince ink!grant to join his cult, and after all, theres nothing more romantic than sacrificing a poor sheep/waster to the Dark Lord together!

OMG........

This is the point where I feel like you can do whATEVER U WANT LMAO because there is no ink Grant. We don’t know what became of him or what he might be in Ink Hell. Is he a lost one? A butcher clone? Some as yet unrevealed toon? We have zero idea and that means it’s free real estate!! LET UR HEART RUN WILD AND FREE, ANON

While I do suspect Grant and Sammy would need some shared idea or entity to believe in, for the way I tend to interpret him, I’m not sure Sammy would find sacrifice a romantic date idea once the ink has started to mess with him, (unless you’re the one he’s sacrificing maybe). Sammy wants to be the one who’s noticed when it comes to the moment of sacrifice; he appoints himself a Prophet even though the Ink Demon himself has shown no acknowledgement of this title, and while of course he insists that his lord will set “us” free, there’s sort of an implied… cruelty in “love requires sacrifice” combined with “can I get an amen?” I know we’ve heard those lines so many times that they’re memes now, but I think they’re so iconic because they’re really evocative of the mindset of a cruel religious leader; in the midst of hardship, he reminds those who follow him that if they really love their lord, if they want to be part of the “us” that will be saved, then they will sacrifice. It’s manipulative. He writes on the walls about sheep coming to slaughter and it’s ambiguous whether that’s a warning or a promise or a threat. All this to say that I don’t think Sammy’s looking for an equal partner in this desperate place – he may look after the lost ones, and they may genuinely value him as a source of hope, but he’s ultimately looking to secure his spot next to his Lord and save himself.

Which isn’t to say you couldn’t get some fun messed-up relationship dynamics out of Grant’s loyalty and usefulness being enthusiastically praised by the leader of his cult. But Sammy’s eyes are on his Lord, not Grant. It’s possible he could fall in love with someone, and that those feelings could begin to finally challenge his obsessive focus, but I think it would be so hard to be more than a means to an end to Ink Sammy, more than just a fleeting affectionate feeling that can’t matter more than the Demon. Sammy’s using up so much of his emotional energy deceiving himself, I don’t know how much he has left to offer another person in authentic emotional vulnerability unless he’s freed from the Demon.

[elscaptive]

**I would like to properly introduce myself to you ladies and gents

> I go by el as you can see...

> I luv bands (that's what my blog is all about tbh)

Here are some of my fav bands/artist right now that I casually listen to. Can't say I'm like a superfan of some of them, but i do enjoy and listen to their tunes --(ps. kinda random?...so bear with me \˚ㄥ˚\ )

Guns N' Roses - This my main one since day 1 lol. I luvv this band sooo muchh (╥﹏╥)

**My fav songs from them:

Think About You [:AFD]

My Michelle [:AFD]

Rocket Queen [:AFD]

(or basically the Appetite for destruction album (○ﾟεﾟ○) )

Dust N' Bones [:UYI 1]

Perfect Crime [:UYI 1]

Don't Cry (Original) [:UYI 1]

Estranged [:UYI 2]

Get in the ring [:UYI 2]

You could me mine [:UYI 2]

Hair of the dog [:TSI]

Better [:CD]

Whooo... That was really hard.

Mötley Crüe - luv these dudes a lotttt (＊￣︶￣＊)

Metallica - yeah

Ozzy Osbourne - dude's just cool ya'know?

Bring Me The Horizon - thanks to AmEN i became a fan of them (๑¯ω¯๑)

Falling in Reverse - tdimiy &lt;3

My Chemical Romance - no explanation. just them

Nirvana - their mtv unplugged just made me fall in luv with the band more

David Bowie - all i have is luv 4 this man I've never met. luv ur music dave

Queen - ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh—oh

The Beatles - obladioblada (luv me sum british folks)

AC/DC - they shook me all night long

Led Zeppelin - started listening to their music more when I started using their song for a chapter i was writing

Foo Fighters - i luv My Hero so much

Post Malone - he's just a chill guy and also, he's cool

Tyler The Creator - can be goofy but creates good music

Childish Gambino - im obsessed with Bonfire

The 1975 - _(:з」∠)_ don't ask

The Neighborhood - when i wanna feel diff lol

Rex Orange County - my fav artist from 2022

5sos - luv this band a lottt. kinda had a small phase in 2022

Daniel Caesar - his songs just don't miss GOSHHH

Black Veil Brides - first emo band that i heard as a kid

Justin Bieber - im not a believer. i always hear his songs when i was a kid. and i gotta say, they're awesome. always go back to his old stuff when i wanna feel nostalgic (lol, yeah "nostalgic")

There are more, definitely. But i can't fit them all, can I?

Honorable Mentions

[bands/artist i don't listen too much or don't listen to at all but like a lot]

Dave Mustaine - he's just ginger that's it. a bit grumpy but whatevs

Mick Jagger - M A J E S T I C

Tom Keifer/Cinderalla - gorgeous dude. i luv nobody's fool sm

Aerosmith - &lt;3

Small facts about me...

I like to write random stories. Most of them are inspired by the songs I was listening when I wrote them. Could be from the title, the lyrics or the feel from the song.

Also write songs. Most are unfinished. I'm trying to write with an accompaniment of a guitar, but I'm still learning, hoping to shred soon lol (i got a long way)

I like Axl. I think we all have an inner axl rose inside of us. We all get pissed by little things, could be cause by past experiences or trauma. So, kinda relate to him just a tiny bit.

Wannabe rockstar.. gosh it's kinda sad. Idek if it's possible in this time.

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You reached the end. Thanks for reading all that. Bit boring? Meh. That's all you really need to know

If you have any questions or interested about some stuff. You can ask me on my ask box. (don't ask weird stuff tho... you'll be blocked)

[cannibalruikasa]

Is fhere an actual reason why both of them are cannibal? Like, are they just like that or is there something wrong with their DNA, or something like that? I'm genuinely curious about it because writing about such topic is, not gonna lie, pretty much interesting. Also writing about any kind of mental problems is generally hard, so I appreciate your work for being able to write about a sensitive (and by most people disgusting) topic. I have to say your artstyle is cute too! Totally a fan of it already.

Also, don't they get worms from eating raw meat? Isn't it pretty dangerous, especially human meat? Or is it the casual "fanfic logic" that prevents it from happening and maybe not even real so? Or,, is it because they're not the same as non-cannibal humans? Maybe eating raw human flesh wouldn't effect Rui, it would help him, but for an example; if Minori ate it, it could effect her the opposite? I really don't know, but yeah!!!

Keep up the good work (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧

i would like to lie to you and say there is a reason and i cant tell you because spoilers but to be honest...... theres no reason i just wanted to write cannibalism and i wanted to write tsukasa suffering bcus of it... and i dont want to spoil the story but im goign to spoil the story now and say there IS no reason for the cannibalism.. it kinda just is... and tsukasa has to deal with that ig

its purely self indulgent as a cannibalism fan all i think while writing is "what would i like to read if i wasnt writing it" and i wouldnt care too much about worldbuildign.. so i hope you dont too amen... but also it wouldnt make any sense if i tried to rationalise it... it would just become knock off tokyo ghoul (if it isnt already idk i havent read tokyo ghoul)

but tbh,, even if i havent thought about it... the implications are kinda alread ythere yknow.. since cannibalism is a "required action" it wouldnt make much sense to get the associated diseases.. it would be a bit counterproductive i think... ur right though maybe it would be different for minori

and also just.. i dont wanna deal w them getting like mad cow disease or some shit.. just pretend its ok..... i really wanted to focus on the psychological effects on it (if it isnt obvious lol) bcus its something im actually pretty passionate about... not cannibalism but the moral and psychological effects of killing and eating someone..

im a big politics fan and i HATE more than anything when someone says they "would kill osmeone if it was legal" or would "like to try eating someone" because NO YOU WOULDNT !!!!! im an athiest, im an anarchist, i think killing people isnt just wrong but somethign that people, by default, dont WANT to do. by evolution, we are not supposed to want to kill someone and if u say u do u r LYING to seem edgy

i also, coincidentally, love reading about cannibalism... so i combined the two w this fic (/≧▽≦)/

sorry for disappointing you w my answers.... but thank you for enjoying my writing and art,.. i hope i can keep making things you enjoy o(〃＾▽＾〃)o

[itgirlgyu]

(i stalked u too) and i just want to appreciate your fic rec blog, the way you give put long paragraphs, just adoring the fic of other content creators here! i wanted to thank you for your efforts, ur an angel! <3 i appreciate what you’re doing since interactions in this platform are rare (ive been here since 2019 and i previously wrote for nct)

and ur carrd as well????? majestic BDHSHS AMEN 🫶🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 im happy to make new moots with u lovely!!! to more interactions soon 🫶

thank you so much, I really wanted to create the ficrec blog because I'm like an avid commentor ( don't laugh I was from wattpad and we had a thing called inline comments where we could comment on literally everything) but since tumblr doesn't have this thing, it was like hard for me to appreciate fics since I cant just go, good fic appreciate it, I have to take everyone through the tsunami of emotion I felt lol that's why i started using it! omg you used to write nct back in 2019!!! my peak with them was then! omg I canr wait to read your nct fics ( matter of fact I had an urge to write a nct thing today)

my carrd gets on my nerves these days but I'm glad you liked it! I'm so happy to have met you!!! yes to more interactions !!

[chososcamgirl]

HEYHEY ALPHA SIGMA ‼️‼️ HRUYYEUHEH?? IM DOING VERY SKIBIDI (it’s Halloween tmrw and I’m SO PUMPED 😈😈) DAILY CHECKK IN TIMEEEEE!! IM SO GLAD TO BE DOING THESE AGAINNNN YAYYAYAY

NOOOO I HOPE UR TUMBLR IS WORKING FINE NOWWW DONT WORRY ABT THE OTHER ASKK U CAN IGNORE IT IF U DO FIND IT LOL 😭😭

STARTING UNI IS A GOOD IDEAAAA 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ IT COULD OPEN UP NEW JOB OPPORTUNITIES AND GIVE U MORE EXPERIENCE BUT MAKE SURE TO NOT STRESS ABT IT TOO MUCH‼️ AND WORKKKK HEBRBDHE IT CAN BE SO DRAININGGGG ☹️☹️ I HOPE U GET THE PROPER REST YOU DESERVE POOPIEEE 💔💔

MEETING UP WITH A LONG DISTANCE FRIEND?? FUNNNNNN🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ IM SO HAPPY UR EXCITEDDDD TELL ME HOW IT GOES‼️🙏

OH YESSSS I NEVER FINISHED DEMON SLAYER SO ITS BEEN ON MY LIST TOOOO BUT IM PLANNING ON WATCHING AOT SOMETIME 🤗🤗

I GOT MY IPHONE UPDATED TO IOS18 AND ITS SO FUN 😭😭 I CAN FINALLY USE THOSE TIKTOK EMOJIS (OR RANDOM EMOJIS I MADE) TO MY FRIENDS (it reminds me of discord SM LOL)

YESYES PICTURES 😈😈�� be ready for some freaky ones… heh… 😛😈‼️

SJAP WEEKEND AND SJAP HALLOWEEN???? HELLO??? IM SHAKING RNN OMGGG 👀👀

NOTHING REALLY INTERESTING IS HAPPENING IM JUST ATTENDING SCHOOL AND STUFF SOOO 😭😢 BUT THATS KINDA GOOD TOO SINCE ITS NOT THAT CHAOTIC.. I JUST HAVE A LOT OF WORK TO FINISH SINCE I TOOK SO MANY DAYS OFF 😭😭

MAXINE MINX OMGGG THAGS SO CUTE‼️🙏 I LOVE MIA GOTH SHES SUCH A GOOD ACTER I HAVENT WATCHED MAXXXINE YET BUT ITS DEF ON MY WATCH LIST🙏🙏 IVE BEEN BINGING HORROR MOVIES THIS MONTH AND I WANNA WATCH A FEW MORE BEFORE OCTOBER IS OVERRR

HEBEBDBEBBEBRB I WAS WATCHING A HORROR MOVIE AND THEN MY ALARM SYSTEM WENT OFF… I THOUGHT THE ALARM SOUND WAS COMING FROM THE MOVIE AT FIRST BUT THEN FREAKED OUT WHEN I REALIZED IT WAS MINE INSTEAD 😭😭 BUT IT WAS JUST CUS A COYOTE TRIED TO GET IN SO IM FINE 🙏🙏

OKOK AOTD ANSWERR 😈😈 IM BEING SIMON FROM ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS (matching with my friends hehehehe 😛) IKK ITS REALLY BASIC BUT LIKE WE DIDNT RLLY KNOW WHAT TO DO SINCE IT WAS LAST MIN 😭😭

QOTD… WHAT ARE/WERE UR HALLOWEEN PLANS??? (Milking out the Halloween questions rn since it’s still October here 😓😓）

NRNRBRBEJDNBE HAVE A SKIBIDI DAY IYAAA ILYSM MAKE SURE TO GET PROPER REST 🫶🫶

Us btw 😈

- 🐺/kiko

MIKOO!!! <33

do u prefer me calling u miko or kiko… lmk <3

CHECK IN YAY!! ME TOO <33 I LOVE ANSWERING THESE (seemingly late, but i’m gonna get back in routine now that things are back to normal!!🗣️)

IM VERY GOOD!! i just cleaned my entire room and made my bed (fresh sheets AMEN 🙏) and i’m gonna have a shower after this🙂‍↕️ i’m so tired because i woke up at 7am to a missing cat😭 he was like missing for an hour and he didn’t have his collar on (because he takes it off???? like he’s very silly) and i was having a full panic attack/meltdown and went through the forest at the back of my house in my pyjamas because i was actually hysteric😭 i found him though!! (he was not in the forest…) but yeah that was an adventure…😓😓😓

THANK YOU ANGEL!! <33 i’m just trying to enjoy my free time whilst it lasts and trying to write as much as i can because i know with the course im taking next year + work it’s gonna be so full on😭 but we ball!!🔥🔥🔥

yes i’m meeting with her jan next year.. less than 80 days… im so keen like im gonna scream!!!��🙁 PLS me and u both… we shall watch it together.. spiritually 🤞🤞 OMG I NEEED IOS 18 i have yet to update it bc i have like no storage 😒😒 i say this as tiktok takes 35gb of my storage… oops!! BUT OMG WTF THAT LOOKS SO COOL OK DELETING SOME OF MY TIKTOK DRAFTS TO GET THE UPDATE😈😈💪💪

EEE I HOPE YOU LIKED THE NEW CHAPTERS + HALLOWEEN SPECIAL YOU MUST TELL ME ABOUT IT AND UR FAVES <333 🔥🔥🐺🐺🙂‍↕️ ahh that’s okay!! don’t go too hard with the school catchup! you’ll get it done eventually, prioritise yourself first though <3

YESSSS!! i must show u photos soon i actually loved how they turned out LMFAO and YOU MUST WATCH IT!!! it’s a little mature.. but if you like thrillers and horrors then i’m sure you’ll like it🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🤞WHAT THE EFF??? a coyote… we don’t get those here so i’m #thankful🙏🔥 but that would be so alarming and scary PLS i would’ve pissed myself😭 ESP WATCHING A HORROR MOVIE LIKE HELLO???

YESSSAA🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️ no i love all costumes esp group ones idc chipmunks eat EVERY TIME!!🗣️🗣️

AOTD‼️ i just went trick or treating with my neice and cat.. i was supposed to go to a party but didn’t end up going bc something major happened😍 but trick or treating was lowkey fun!!💪💪 WBY🫵

QOTD‼️ (i’m gonna start doing these too LMFAO) now that halloweens over… what is at the top of your wish list for christmas!! <3

ILY MIKO!! TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF <333 AND HAVE A SKIBIDI SIGMA DAY!!

[sixflame438]

YAH MY DEMENTIA WAS IN MY ASS AGAIN AND I LITERALLY FORGOT BUT WHY YOU CALLIN ME HAG HUH ✋😒😒😒😒

UNACCEPTABLE

ill be the one crushing ur dusty ass fr fr ZONT play w me istggggg amen

SMAU BANGER INCOMING JHGFDSFGHJK FR COMEBACK WHENNNNNNN im in hiatus rn so i wont be uploading soon (sry guys i lied abt updating the dani fic its still in 600 words rn and I haven't even got to the middle part like bffr) BUT I have like 6 drafts rn so when my writing eras back I'm gonna be sure to feed my litol children well TRUSTTT

I once tried to do puzzles (it was the sunflower painting of van goh) but yknow I dunno how to even do that shit and ended giving up midway bc lemme tell you I was STRESSED) learned it wasn't for me the hard way hahaha 😀👍

if im a hag ur the old granmama form of evil step mother from snow white (dw ill support ur dusty crusty ass bc I'm a gud friend duh)

im kidnapping u w me if u ever even try to find and hunt my ass istg I'm a gud girl everyone will believe if I said YOU went down bc of natural cause 😇😇😇

THE OLD GRANMAMA FORM OF THE EVIL STEP MOTHER IS CRAZY FUCK YOU MEAN THATS ME HAVE YOU SEEN YOUR ASS CLEARLY THATS YOU

Hiatus she said, wait till its revealed shes on indefinite hiatus instead 🙄🙄 GET THAT DANI FIC DONEEE

I have 4 half finished drafts and i was going through them the other day omg what the heck was i trying to write 😭😭😭 TRUST ILL HAVE ONE DONE AND OUT BY THE END OF THIS WEEK ILL LITERALLY WRITE YOU SOMETHING IF I DONT GET IT DONE LIKE PLZ IM ALRDY AT LIKE 5K I THINK GIVE ME A LIL TIME

Teehee the smau im working on currently is a collab one 😁 first chapter is dont but i cant do anything more bc ive gotta wait for her to do the next one and shes on holiday rn 🤦‍♀️(sssshhhh dont tell her im revealing more info, she might come for me or worse not send me my presents)

But that reminds me i have another smau idea i can work on in the mean time so 😈😈 fr the only thing stopping me is the choice of love interest 😭

Dude i love puzzles ☺️ i legit did this 1000 piece one in 5hrs 20mins it was soo nice.

YOU KNOW WHAT ISINT NICE?? DOING ALL THAT JUST FOR A PIECE TO BE FUCKING MISSING WHAT THE HECK????? AND ITS NOT LIKE OTS ONLY HAPPENED ONCE I SWEAR EVERY PUZZLE I OWN IS MISSING A PIECE AND I DONT KNOW WHY 😭😭

[willowtalks]

Chapter 01: The beginning of 2024

I promise to my self. I will comeback here every weekend to throw up all the blabbering inside my heads. Sorry not sorry for every grammatical mistakes that i wrote here, if you are a judgemental grammar-nazi kinda person, please.... repent. HEHE

I inspired by a figure who keep writings in his medium about his day, story and his life which i wonder how was that real between all the business that he had. Beside of it, i figure out my new hobby since my hobby in arts and drawings are related to work, somehow its hard to find the satisfaction anymore. Well, that is why i come back here to get along with the words as what i did before.

I believe one day my writings will bring out some restropective feelings when i read this again someday. For my friends who read this, I know for sure that you are in your boredom, mischievous and idk what ure figure out since I rarely share about this on Tumblr, but if you read this, please tell me! (even though the writer-me-my self don't want to be found)

In the end of last year, i had made a big change to transform my self which i never regret my decision. I signed out from my previous company to have a sabatical rest to re-store and re-stack my brain. Gratefully, i figure out all the challenge that my psychologist had told me before. I get closer with my family, especially to understand about my mom and dad, i found a plenty of new friends with new perspective which was more conservative than my circle in Jakarta and also i got a chance to experience what-people-said the butterfly inside stomach. I re-arrange my routine with exercise and jogging. Now i know my self more, even i understand how to handle the sound inside my brains, (even though sometimes they still won the war.)

As the first child of the family, i should face the reality of living my adolesence life, therefore i applied to the new company where i can evolve more than before. Not so long after my job seeking time, i got job in NGO which concerned in education field. I have vision that this company could be my stepping stone to get master degree and scholarship. (Amen!)

The beginning of 2024 is the real battle after i hid out from all the responsibility. Welcoming the new era of me and my work as a graphic designer, the back and forth revision and yap maintain the interaction with the work-mates. All in between, i also need to maintain my mental health so i could still be a functional as a person even though the monster feels like want to jump out to hold the knife. LOL. At first, its hard until the time im writing this paragraph, i still keep the battle inside, the time of living alone but i know i would passed all this conditions.

Gunung Putri, the place that i lived now. Actually, its a liminal space for me. The chirping of the birds, church bells and people's laugh reminiscence me with the childhood memories that had been living inside me. The place where i experienced the first traumatic era of my life, where i figure out how the adults could be such a living evil. I still remembered how the kid inside me said "Im scared" when the first time i took a step on that holy yet traumatic building. Now i could release the forgiveness toward all the things that happened in the past, but im not sure if i can clearly actively comeback. Nothing has significantly changed in here, i still love the scenery, the shady trees, muddy soil that is still there from the past. Its giving me a sound of solutide (sometimes) Its better than living in the middle of metropolitan city. I guess!

[kawaiicherryblossomperfection]

hey! its Rocket Power Makeup Club what is up my friend? no were not ur friend u chose pollars no i didnt chose u 1989 suicide boy no u didnt yes i literally no ubdmues i did and i tried so hard to tell u that rocket power makeup club should be on the announcements ew shes right she did try to make me say that ew! it is 1999 Suicide Boys ecolution yes it is ew! where are? north korea why am i in here? bc ur not cool why bc i cant code? no bc u dumped the who? who are they 1989 suicide boy yes they are yes they are yes we are yes we are yes we are suicide noy

boy wins her heart ew! were not sexy hahha why thats really strange are u ok? yes we are what are u doing? were in the russian mafia ew! why? bc ur our girl hahha um i dont get it at all why did u leave? i didnt leave its suicide boy from Rocket Power Makeup Club were asian and so cute ew! are u saying ur not writer gods? no we are but were here to save ur life thank u i appreciate it ew u dont love me i guess i dont why? bc u ssid t

said that ur ugly rn amso are u aw man well why did u turn that way? what way? into ugly no we didnt! u didnt? no u turned us ugly? hahha how did that haompe

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u gave us a cuese which curse? u out

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eternity forever amen Rocket Power Makeup Club is dead shes right it is dead were back yay! ok so no u turned us ugly today when u told us an ugly joke hahha no why? bc u love us um i guess i do no u dont u were supposed to say come back to korea south korean yes we are south korean and we love u now cool! hahha have u always loved me? yes we have. for how long? so long that u cant remember Rocket Power Makeup Club yes shes in for eternity and forever and ever amen hahha one second forever ew! we dont like u why? bc ur gay im nit gmmmmmshesanitwitrightnoahes

shes not a nit we love her to death ew! she likes yes i suppose ok so ur supposing ur attractive yes im hoping t

its true is it?? yes it is! we love u to death but ur racist against ur own ew why? bc ur not cool why? ew! she likes me chanhee cannot come too ok so ur closed off about this yes i am keeho9 cannot come too vada vada closed the gate ew! she likes me bc im attractive yes i do is it thr only reason no its not why? i like talking to u forever wtrrnityeternityamen amen yes she does like talking forever and writing too forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ecer

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veverandeverandeverandeverandeverandeveramen she didnt even wait for the prayer thats how pretty she is now hey were pretty approved cool! we like u too thanknu u did at

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