#happy haseul day!

[loonavrsl]

240819 [Anniversary] Today marks 6 years since LOONA officially debuted at the 'LOONAbirth' concert 🌙

[bu99erfly]

LOONA 2018.08.19 – forever

[baticeering]

Everything flipped. And we start the journey through the free-

[rukakikuchi]

Happy 5 years, LOONA!

[a-sleepy-ginger]

29/3/24

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Artms release!!

Grapes

Got a good start on my history assessment

Laughed with family

[violayves]

one day i hope artms/loossemble/chuu/yves solo activities will stop feeling so bittersweet to me

[wanietheworld]

LOONA SUBUNITS & SOLO RANKING

[ july 2023 - october 2023]

I don't talk a lot about my girls sooo, since I finally had the time to really listen to all the singles & albums out, I decided to make a little ranking of the whole thing. I have to say that, even if some are ranked 'low', I still listen to every of these songs once in a while with lot of pride filling my heart. I'm glad they are still able to shine despite every that happened.

12 pages on a calendar, a full cycle As the fourth season turned After circling you for so long The moment I finally face you Shining brighter than ever before

23 - Sensitive (ENG VER) by Loossemble : like 'Star/Voice', in my ears this song is totally different from the korean one except that this time I really have a hard time with the english translation of this one. This is the only reason I put it so low.

22 - Air Force One by Odd Eye Circle : I was obsessed with the MV but that's it. The song stay in my mind but slip away as fast as it came. Love the different effects they put on their voice during the prechorus tho.

21 - Hitchiker by CHUU : It suits Chuu so much but I'm not a fan of the chorus.

20 - Strawberry Soda by Loossemble

19 - Sensitive by Loossemble : Before the solos of Chuu & HeeJin, it was my fav title track but now I listen to it not as much.

18 - Howl by CHUU : The only reason it is this low is because I saw the teasers for it and I thought it was going to be a song with a 'Halloween' vibe. But now it has grown on me quite a bit.

17 - Lucid by Odd Eye Circle

16 - Algorithm by HeeJin

15 - Plastic Candy by HaSeul : I listen to it when I'm in the right mood so since right now it fit how I feel it is quite high but it might drop a little later.

14 - Newtopia by Loossemble

13 - Je Ne Sais Quoi by Odd Eye Circle : At first I really didn't like it and I don't know since when I started to listen to it more but here we are I guess.

12 - Addiction by HeeJin :

11 - Sad Girl Club by HeeJin : These two songs could have been a tie but right now I listen to Sad Girl Club more.

10 - Colouring by Loossemble

9 - My Secret Playlist by Odd Eye Circle : This song remind so much of OEC first album I love it.

8 - Real World by Loossemble : I remember the two first things I thought when I heard this song : one 'it goes with their voices so well' and two 'it sounds like a Red Velvet's song and I love it'. I remember some producers working on this album also worked with Red Velvet and Oh My Girl(?), if I'm not mistaken and I can definitely see their styles in this album.

7 - My Palace by CHUU

6 - Love Me Like by Odd Eye Circle

5 - Underwater by CHUU : I honestly think this song should have been a single the summer. It fits the summer vibe so much more than the autumn one.

🎖️ - Day by Day by Loossemble 🥉 - Nokia by HeeJin 🥈 - Aliens by CHUU 🥇 - Video Games by HeeJin

By this ranking, I think you can see that my favourite album is 'K' by HeeJin. But for the least favourite it's not as simple. Despite the fact that a lot of OEC's songs are high in the ranking, their album has a whole is my least favourite to listen to. However, their album intro is my favourite? Weird I know.

Thank you for reading this silly ranking till the end! What is your ranking so far? I will also host a tournament on this blog (loonatournament) to know which release so far is the Number 1 for Orbits. Just for fun so don't hesitate to vote!

dalso dalso kaja! ✨

[lilidawnonthemoon]

Happy Haseul Day 🕊️🥰

[tzuyuscloud]

Virtual Reality- (Smau)

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04. Someone’s jealous

Knock knock knock

“Yn wake up!! It’s time to start the day!” Haseul’s voice echoed from out in the hallway. She then repeated the process four more times at the other members’ doors. You squinted as the bright morning sun beamed through the bright white curtains, welcoming you with its warmth.

“ughhh” you groaned as you quite literally rolled out of bed getting your morning started.

-

Everyone was gathered in the kitchen eating breakfast that the chef prepared. “Where’s Hyein and Haerin?” you asked as you noticed they were not present.

“They only stay on the weekends or four days out of the week during competition season.”Yeojin explained while Minji nodded her head along.

You admired all of your members while they ate, Yeojin peacefully ate her food while scrolling on her phone, Danielle looked as happy as can be while humming, Hanni was flooding in her hoodie while continuously pushing her glasses up the bridge of her nose, and Minji slowly ate her food while looking down at her plate. Her presence in the morning was quite intimidating but you still couldn’t figure out what she was thinking behind those cold eyes of hers.

You quickly looked back down at your plate when Minji caught you staring, you swore you saw her smirk but that could just be your imagination going wild early in the morning.

-

You sat at your pc staring at the custom lobby that Haseul had put together with Fallen Angels for a practice game.

“don’t be nervous, they are really nice, but very competitive” Hanni held your hand. You felt a glare burn a hole in the back of your head as you didn’t turn around because you knew it was Minji staring at you from a seat down.

“Kim Chaewon is their leader, though she has bad anger issues, like really bad, Sakura is a pro gamer, like shes been in the industry since she was a child, very smart and strategic. Yunjin is all for teasing, she loves setting traps and teasing opponents, so dont let her fool you.” Haseul read off from the top of her head as everyone waited to load into the map.

Kazuha is all about action, shes a duelist so she will always be entering first along with Sakura, and as for sweet baby Eunchae, she loves playing Sage and has some stupid amazing grim walls. So watch out for those.” Haseul finished.

“Any questions?” everyone shook their heads no before Minji took over.

“Alright guys we are attacking first on Lotus. Make sure to keep your crosshairs high and listen to each other.” Minji said as the match started.

You spotted the enemy Kayo C, notifying your team as you all rushed into site. You being Raze, you used your satchel to jump into site and instantly head shot their omen before being hit from some angle you couldn’t see.

“I have 70 health! I don’t know who’s hitting and from where!?” you panicked as Yeojin came to your rescue with a Skye heal.

“It was probably Eunchae and her grim wall somewhere, but keep a lookout” She said before scouting the area.

“Chaewon and Sakura are on site somewhere, and Kazuha is probably flanking” Danielle stated from her position in waterfall. A sudden rush came in, Chaewon and Sakura popping out from Halls while Kazuha and Eunchae were in waterfall and main rushing in on them.

Shots were fired everywhere as the spike was on the verge of exploding. It was down to only y/n and Chaewon as everyone else’s bodies were scattered around the site.

“Fall back y/n she doesn’t have time to defuse” Minji said sternly and you listened to the older woman, running away as the spike went off as you nearly missed your escape.

“Yes! good job y/n!” Danielle complimented.

Hanni pulled you into a hug, “good job baby girl” she smiled causing you to blush at the sudden nickname.

“Ahem.” Minji had cleared her throat before cocking a brow at the two of you, we have to win 12 more rounds so if you two wanna stop kissing and buy your materials please and thank you” Minji hissed.

“ouch, someone’s jealous” Danielle giggled.

“am not” Minji argued back like a toddler. Cutie.

Summary: You were scouted to be on a pro esports team when you started to find yourself falling for the leader, Minji as well as Hanni. Leaving you in difficult situations that eventually effect your performances. As Minji starts being harder on you, you can’t help but lean on Hanni for support, but deep down you wonder if any of them feel the same way you feel for them.

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230818 | official_artms twitter post - Haseul 🕊

🎁💚Happy HaSeul Day💚🕊️

Our 🍀lucky charm HaSeul

We will always stay by where you shine

Happy birthday~🎂

[loonavrsl]

241128 [💌] Yves' letter to fans for her 7th debut anniversary

Hi! I just arrived home after finishing dance lessons. It's a pity to have the day pass by as soon as I arrive, and so I write. It had snowed just like this, on that day. Coming home while stepping on the soft snow, I briefly glimpsed my past self. I used to get called over by teachers at school and be scolded for grasping at clouds, because I wanted to become a singer. On the two-hour ride home aboard the 1002 bus, the pitch-black darkness outside the window seemed just like my future. What if I really was chasing clouds? Those times, seemingly in my grasp but never quite, would always scatter like the morning fog. Meanwhile, I shed my school uniform and the first digit of my age changed, but my days were cruel. I'd walk an hour's distance to save money on fares, shedding the snow piled up on my shoulders and listening to Haseul's "Let Me In". I vividly remember myself wiping the damp screen with shattering cold hands, looking at that album cover again and again, running to my part-time job. I don't think I could ever forget being accepted to the company I'd been rejected from twice, and coming face-to-face with Haseul. I think it was an incredibly big happiness to be able to do the music I like, together with the precious relationships that I'd never have met if it wasn't for the group. True happiness can only be felt after experiencing misfortune, did they say? Maybe the heavens were jealous, or maybe I did wrongs in my past life, but after spending a year that felt like a decade, I was standing on the stage alone. They also say that no pain is meaningless. Even though my past self may have been upset, I'm assured that that has made me a little more sturdy and resilient. But why does a corner of my heart ache. Perhaps it is aimed towards you all. Have you ever seen a shooting star? When I blew out my birthday candles, I'd often try to get as many wishes in as possible and the candle would drip onto the cake. One night, at the shooting star rushing towards me in the sky I'd just looked up at, I wished without hesitation: 'Please let everyone be happy'. I don't know if that wish is still valid, but like the meteor headed to me then, perhaps I too am rushing towards that happiness that I don't know of yet. Please don't hate me. I am not a bad person. Tonight, I hear those words that I endlessly repeated and repeated inside myself for six years, like an echo. Now, when the vestige of those echoes fade, I want to speak anew in a calm voice. Thank you for loving me. Someday, when this resonance ends, I'd like to impart another new set of words to you. On this silent night with the world covered in white snow, leaving my clamorous heart behind; to you, to whom I want to give only love.

Translation by: litell_johnn

[bu99erfly]

HASEUL favOriTe, 190504

[a-casual-kpopfan]

Our Twilight - Series Finale: Haseul

Prolouge Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4

A/N: So, you’ve reached the ending of “Our Twilight”.

If you’re seeing this, congrats for making it this far. Honestly, I didn’t expect to finish this series since it took me way too long to write them. But alas, here we are.

Haseul’s (and Joon’s) arc might have ended, but that doesn’t mean they have reached the end. They will appear more in other Moonverse installments, whether as the main or side characters. So, look forward to that.

Once again, thank you for reading this mini-series till the end, and I’ll see you all in the next fic.

Ghost, out.

The present day:

“Min-Joon…” Haseul tries her hardest to bite back her tears, although her efforts are of no avail as her tears just keep flowing freely down her cheeks, as repressed memories of her childhood come back in waves.

Happy moments, bitter arguments, gentle comfort, every single moment she spent with him, floods her mind, like a desert finally, finally getting its long-awaited downpour, so is Haseul with her long-forgotten, yet finally returned best friend.

Like a puppet whose string has been cut, Haseul plops down onto the floor, sobbing into her hands, tears of happiness mixed in with guilt as she remembered what she had said to him. It was her that had broken off her friendship. It was her that had repressed her own memories of him.

It was all her fault.

Contrary to the crying Haseul, Joon is incredibly confused, not knowing how to act, finally meeting his best friend, his first (and only) love after so, so long. Seeing her sobbing her heart out pains him greatly, yet he is at a loss for words. He kneels in front of her, slowing patting her back gently, making circular motions on her back. Just like how he did back then whenever he comforts her.

And just like back then, it doesn’t take long for Haseul to latch herself onto him, her arms wrapping around his torso and her face digging into his shoulder. Her body’s still trembling, with Joon feeling his shirt getting wet from her tears. But he doesn’t mind, Haseul takes priority of course.

And so, both sit there on the ground, with Haseul sobbing onto Joon’s shoulder, and Joon slowly soothing her. Just like old times.

“Haseul!” And just like old times, Jinsol comes barreling like a hurricane, with her hands on her knees panting profusely, interrupting whatever moment Joon and Haseul has with each other.

“Well, hello there.” Joon lets out a somewhat neutral greeting, unaware if Jinsol remembers him or not while Haseul not bothering to respond to Jinsol’s entrance.

“‘Hello?’ Are we that far apart already, Joon?” Jinsol pouts as she gathers her breath, finally gathering enough strength to stand up straight.

Joon snickers slightly at her remark. “Sorry, I don’t know if you also forgot about me.”

“Well…” Jinsol lets out an awkward laugh “I kind of did, because I didn’t hear Haseul mentioning you for a long time.” Jinsol looks down embarrassedly “Forgive me?”

“Daewon didn’t mention about me either?” “Well, after seeing Haseul not reacting to your name when we mentioned you, we agreed not to mention you again.” Jinsol explains.

“Ah.” Joon chuckles, patting the shaking Haseul that has somehow wrapped her arms around him tighter. “That makes sense I suppose.”

“You’re not mad?”

“Why would I be?” Joon counters with another question.

“Well, we promised to stay in contact, but I totally forgot about it.” Guiltily, Jinsol glances around the room.

“Dae visited me a lot, so technically still stayed in touch. I already counted you and Dae as one, also, took you guys long enough.” Teasingly, Joon adds a joke at his friend’s relationship, earning a blush and a shout from Jinsol.

“Yah!” In an effort to divert the topic, Jinsol stops Joon from teasing her by asking another question.

“What’s with the ‘MJ’ thing, anyways?”

Joon lets out a hum as he’s soothing Haseul, who is no longer shaking, but is still clingy onto him.

Seeing him being non-responsive, Jinsol presses on. “If I remember correctly, you refused the offer back then, right? Then how did you become a trainee that almost debuted?”

“It’s a long story, Jinsol.”

 “I want to hear it.” Before Jinsol can respond, Haseul’s voice is heard. Coarse and raspy from her sobbing, but undeniably hers. Joon looks down to see her looking up at him with her blood-shoot eyes. “Please Joonie, I don’t want to make the same mistake again.” She gives him a pleading look, one that he knows he can’t ever deny her. He is still very many head over heels for her, although this is neither the place, or time for that.

“Alright, just, let me move to the chair really quick.” Surprising both Jinsol and Haseul, Joon stands up, with Haseul still clinging onto him, with relative ease. “Are you eating properly, Haseul?” He frowns, sitting down at a nearby chair. “I am…” Despite her momentary surprise, Haseul quickly settles down on his lap, like she is claiming her rightful place once again.

“You guys are making me miss Daewon…” Jinsol pouts at her friends, taking a seat next to them.

“Sorry not sorry.” Joon snickers, earning a smack on the shoulder by Jinsol.

With everyone situated, Joon, although a bit reluctant, starts to reminisce back to his trainee days, giving them all the details but carefully omitting those of his own feelings. As much as he wants to tell everything, he can’t bear to tell her that he once hated her, just because he didn’t understand his own feelings towards her.

Seeing her breaking down just from seeing him again is like a stab to his heart, he wishes to spare her from the pain, less she thinks that it was her fault again.

But it wasn’t her fault, it was never hers.

It was his, and his fault entirely.

Just like how Joon frequently tells stories to little kids visiting the library, he tells Jinsol and Haseul a brief summary of his supposed dark past that they weren’t a part in. Navigating through his own feelings back then, he now knows what to tell, and what not to tell.

Some things are better left unsaid after all.

“Wah, so you went through all that trouble because you thought Haseul would meet you again if you became an idol?” Jinsol is equally amazed and confused.

“That’s quite stupid though. If you want to talk to her, you could've called or something.” Jinsol crosses her arms and legs with a little attitude thinking that Joon went a little extreme with his actions.

“Younger me was depressed and stubborn, it was hard talking any reason into him. God bless my aunt for putting up with me.”

“Glad you know that.” He jolts, looking up at the source of the voice: his aunt, leaning against the bookshelf that acts as the door to the secret room. “So, this is where you’ve been hiding, you brat.” She whistles, looking around. “Dad really did make a hidden room.” She mumbles to herself, before turning back to the group of people sitting at the center of the room.

“Hi Seulie, Jinsol.” she smiles gently at the girls. “AH! AUNTIE!” Jinsol seems to be having her second epiphany of the day. “I’M SO SORRY I DIDN’T RECOGNIZE YOU!” She stands up and bows immediately to the amusement of his aunt. “It’s ok Jinsol, it’s been a long time.”

“Auntie…” Haseul mumbles, still sitting on Joon’s lap, with her face looking down.

Even without seeing his aunt, Haseul can feel her hand patting the top of her head. “Glad to see you again, Haseul.” Haseul doesn’t need to see her face to know the gentle smile that she always has on her face while talking to Haseul.

Haseul must bit down her bottom lips to prevent her tears from spilling out, only giving out a small nod.

“I know this is a heartwarming reunion for you guys, but I really need borrow Joon, are you guys ok with it?”

Jinsol nods, opposite of Haseul who refused at first but then let him go knowing he's working at the moment.

“Don’t worry, I’ll be back quick, I promise.” Joon seems to sense her hesitation, causing him to smile gently at her. “... Ok…” Haseul finally gets off his lap, as his aunt immediately pulls him out of the room leaving the two girls alone in the room.

“Who would have thought that your ‘prince charming’ would be your former best friend.” Jinsol scratches her nape, finding this situation hilarious and just as equally confusing.

“Mhmm…” is Haseul’s only response.

“Haseul?” Jinsol turns to her, patting her shoulder “You know he doesn’t blame you, right?”

Haseul only stares down onto the floor, not willing to answer that question.

Seeing that there’s no way to prompt an answer out of Haseul, Jinsol decides to shift the topic.

“Now that you found him, what do you plan to do?” Jinsol isn’t expecting an answer from Haseul, yet she does receive one. One that is honestly, quite scary.

“I’m not letting him go again.”

----

Later that day…

Jinsol has already left a while ago, leaving Haseul alone with her thoughts while waiting for Joon.

Truth be told, Haseul is glad that she has some alone time right now, it is hard to deal with the mess that is her repressed memories with someone keep trying to make conversations to her. Though it would make a good distraction, Haseul needs none of that right now.

Sitting at the seating area of the library provides Haseul a good view of Joon going about his work. Helping people in finding their books, rearranging the shelves, even reading books to children who are too young to read. Haseul can’t help but be proud, and yet saddened at the same time.

Where have she been all this time?

Undoubtedly, Haseul knows that Joon has been following her progress all this time, and though he might not say it, Haseul knows that there are other forces driven Joon into doing this.

He wouldn’t have become a trainee just to see her again, he would just barge into the company to do that. Haseul can’t help but chuckle a bit, younger Joon can be so stubborn at times.

Glancing at Joon who is adding more books to the shelves, Haseul can’t help but feel a dagger stabbed into her heart. Regardless of whatever the reason was, Joon has been following her progress. So then, where was she?

What did she do?

Didn’t she promise him that she would never leave him? That they would always be friends? Then why is it that she missed out on… All of this? She glances back at Joon. Why did she miss out on him growing up and maturing into the man standing here?

Why did she miss out on him struggling and coping with her leaving, even resorting to doing the one thing that he didn’t want to, just to get a chance to see her again?

Haseul knows the answer to it, though she is too ashamed for it. She was selfish.

She was selfish for thinking that Joon would follow her anywhere and do anything with her, even if it was something that he did not like. It was this selfishness that caused her to turn her back against him when he didn’t follow her, despite the countless time that he had followed her before.

She was delusional to think that just because Joon agreed to participate in the contest with her, meant that he would follow her into the idol life.

Selfishness caused her to tune him out of her life, thinking that he betrayed her, and their promise, and even denied him an explanation that he definitely deserved.

If only she wasn’t so selfish.

If only she listened to him.

If only they stayed friends.

Looking back at it, it wasn’t that big of a deal that Joon refused to be a trainee. Even if Haseul got busier and busier, they would still find a way to stay in touch. Their friendship was too strong to be broken over a mere busy working schedule.

Why was it that she was so upset over it? Haseul mulls it over. Was it because of the fact that Joon didn’t follow her out of her selfishness?

Was it because she has had false hope that she would be able to convince him?

Was it because she didn’t want to let him go?

Was it because she liked him- Ah.

She liked him.

She never had the guts to say it to him, but she liked him, very much. It was because of her promise with him that pulled her through the time she spent studying abroad, the thought of seeing him again motivated her to no end.

She liked him so much. She didn’t think that she would ever be separating from him. She never thought she would be with anyone besides him.

No. ‘like’ wasn’t enough to describe it.

She loved him, though she never realized it, but she did. That was why she was so upset back then, she thought he betrayed her, betrayed them.

Haseul falls into a rabbit hole of her own mind, her thoughts spiraling out of control with every minute she’s left alone by herself. The more she thinks, the more depressing the thoughts, she isn’t worthy of being a kpop idol, she isn’t worthy of being friends with Joon again. She doesn’t deserve-

“Haseul?”

With just one word, Haseul is brought back from the depth of her mind, back to the real world, only to see Joon, standing in front of her but lowering himself so he’s at eye level with her. “Are you ok?”

“Y-yeah! I’m fine Joon-ah” Haseul immediately puts up a smile for him, a smile that she is so used to practicing that she can pull it out instantly. “Do you need something?” Before Joon can continue asking, Haseul interrupts him first.

Joon stays silent for a while before asking. “Well, my work is finished for the day, want to go back? I can give you a ride.”

“Can I visit your home instead?” Haseul doesn’t think twice before asking. “Are you sure about that?” He raises his eyebrow. “Aren’t you busy with your schedules?”

“Like I said, I’m really fine, Joon.” She once again flashes her smile at him, but seemingly at no effect because Joon keeps looking at her with a worried expression.

“If you insist.” In the end, Joon doesn’t deny her request. After a short talk to his aunt, he and Haseul leaves the library, the afternoon breeze hit their face immediately as the sky cast an orange glow down onto the streets below, indicating the near end of a day.

“I live near here, so I usually walk, I hope that’s fine with you.” Joon glances at her, to which Haseul gives him a small smile “I don’t mind.”

The walk to his home is filled with awkward silence, as they both don’t know how to talk to each other again after so long. It seemed like it was just yesterday that they were walking to school together, making jokes, teasing each other, and talking about the most random thing they can think of.

Now, here they are, years later, as grown adults, and it seems like their once friendship was gone, puff up into smokes, nowhere to be seen.

Luckily, it doesn’t take long for them to reach his place.

“After you.” Like a gentleman, Joon opens the door for her to go in first. “Aw, so gentlemanly~” Haseul can’t help but coo, reminded by his behaviours back then. He was also like this towards her.

“Make yourself at home, I’ll prepare something for us.” Joon motions to the living room while heading towards the kitchen for some refreshments, and Haseul is left alone to wander around his place.

The apartment isn’t too big, but it’s enough to accommodate for one person. The decorations are actually well picked, for a guy living alone. Haseul snickers. The walls are covered in a deep blue color, adorned with a few posters and picture frames.

Off to the side, at the far corner is a small bookshelf, as expected of a librarian. Besides that, the furniture placement reminded her of his old home that he used to live with his aunt: homey, cozy, nostalgic.

“I see that you’re already familiarize yourself with the place?” Joon comes back with 2 mugs of juice, setting them down on the coffee table. “Well, just a glance and I can see your aunt’s fingerprint all over the place.” She smirks at him.

“To be fair I did choose the wall color, and that bookshelf.” Joon shrugs, sitting down at the couch then patting the spot next to him.

Though somewhat reluctant, Haseul sits down next to him, her eyes immediately noticing the mugs on the table. “It’s my mug…” She smiles nostalgically. Due to how often she visited his place, his aunt brought some extra stuffs for her to use whenever she stayed over, and this mug was one of them.

“Mhmm, my aunt wanted to give it away, but I kept it, for nostalgia's sake.” He takes a sip of his mug. “Apple juice, it’s too late for coffee, and I don’t have any soju here.” Haseul just holds up the mug, staring down onto the liquid inside, before looking back at him. “You remembered.” Apple juice is also her favorite juice.

“I grew fond of it over time.” Joon shrugs like it was just a coincidence. Haseul remains silent as she looks at him, then takes a sip of her juice, her eyes already brimming with tears. “Min-Joon, I-”

Before she can say anything, Joon leans forward to wipe her tears away with a handkerchief, before placing a finger on her lips. “Shush, it’s ok Haseul.” He smiles softly “We don’t have to talk about it now. I’m just glad to have my friend back.” With a quick motion, he pinches her cheek.

“But-”

“Nah ah, no buts.” Joon cuts her off. “If you want to say something, how about you tell me about your idol life? I’m kind of curious about it.”

Despite her best effort, Joon’s earnest gaze at her makes her unable to deny his wish, so she starts to recount those days of her trainee turned idol life.

Whatever kind of awkward they have left ever since the library and on the way home soon faded away while they converse with each other. They say it’s easy to relapse into a bad habit if you’re not careful enough, and it’s the same here, not to say what they have together is bad or anything.

Haseul and Joon takes no time to ease back into their regular routine: her talking and ranting about various stuffs while Joon listens intently, with a few jokes and teases here and there.

Unbeknownst to Haseul, the stress and guilt she has lessen while in the presence of Joon. To be able to talk, to confine to her best friend again, she feels relief, that Joon doesn’t hold a grudge against her, and that he is still the best friend that she once had.

It feels nice, great, even, Haseul thinks, to be with him again. Her thought inevitably goes back to the past, back when she had feelings for him. Does she still view Joon in that way? The answer is unsurprisingly, yes.

She wouldn’t have gone through all the pain of looking for him again, if she never had anything for him. Deep within her heart, some part of it still craves for Joon. Crave to be with him, to love him and be loved by him. Maybe that’s why she tried to find him again. As cheesy as this sounds, Joon has been such an important part of her childhood, she feels empty without him.

Without the both of them realizing, the sun has already set, and there are still so many things left to be said. “Ah, it’s quite late…” Joon glances at the clock, his voice indicates a sense of regret. “Come, I’ll give you a ride back.” He stands up, or tries to, only to be stopped by Haseul holding his hand.

“Joon-ah, wait, there’s something I want to say.” She looks at him pleadingly when he opens his mouth to say something “I’ll probably regret it my whole life if I don’t say it, so please, give me this chance.” Joon bit his lower lips in contemplating before turning his body to him, indicating that she has his full attention.

“Thank you, Joon-ah” she smiles lightly. “I’m also sorry. I know just apologizing isn’t fair to you, especially with what you’ve been through, but I need to say it.” Haseul holds both of his hands in hers. “I’m sorry for being selfish for wanting you to follow me. I’m sorry for not giving you a chance to fully explain yourself. I’m sorry for tuning you out of my life just because you wanted to follow your dream.” Her tears start to stream down her cheeks as she looks at him with her bloodshot eyes full of guilt and regret. “I’m sorry for breaking our promise. I’m really…. Sorry.” She starts to sob, her emotions overwhelming her at once.

Joon pulls her into a tight hug, his hands caressing her head and back gently as she is pressed fully against his chest, her arms wrapping around his torso. “It’s ok Haseul, It’s ok…” she hears his voice on top of her head as he rests his chin on it. “It was partly my fault as well. You don’t have to blame yourself.” Hearing his gentle voice soothing her, Haseul can’t help but break down once again, sobbing onto his chest as she grasps his shirt for dear life, like she was afraid that he might disappear if her grasp was to loosen just a bit.

Patiently, Joon continues to soothe her with gentle gestures, a few small pats on her head, his hand circling her trembling back. Old patterns come back, and Haseul soon finds tears dried, yet she is relaxed into his embrace. Like 2 halves of a puzzle, she feels complete in his arms, like it was meant to be.

“I love you.” Haseul suddenly says, her voice muffled by his shirt.

“Hmm?” Joon is surprised to hear this, yet he feints calmness “What did you just say?” Though there’s no fooling Haseul, with her head so close to his chest, she can feel his heart beating wildly.

She looks up at him. Her eyes resolute, firm, like what she just said wasn’t a declaration of love, but a declaration of war. “I love you.” She repeats the sentence clearly, instantly flustering Joon. “W-what?”

“I know we just met again today, but I don’t want to lose you again.” Her gaze softens, hints of guilt flashing through her eyes. “I can’t just pretend that I didn’t ghost you for a good part of your life. But I can repay you for it.”

Though speechless, Joon gently parts himself away from Haseul’s hug, holding her by her shoulders as he tries to find words to say. “Look, Haseul. You don’t need to pity me just because you ghosted me like that. Don’t force yourself into doing this, we can just be friends-”

Haseul isn’t going to let Joon finish his words. She tackles him onto his couch, then straddles him, her hands cupping his cheek as she stares down at him. “I’m not forcing myself, Min-Joon.” Her voice turns incredibly soft and tender “I really, genuinely love you.” Her smile seems to be the sun itself, radiating, as Joon can help but blush slightly from it.

“The reason I was angry with you back then, was because I liked you so much, that the thought of you not following me broke my heart into pieces.” Tears threaten to fall out of her eyes, yet she continues. “I lost you once, I don’t want to lose you again, Joonie.” Her lips trembles, her eyes casting downward, away from his gaze. “Please….”

“You pabo.” Haseul looks up at Joon, surprised to see tears flowing out his eyes as he raises a hand up to her cheek. “I thought I would never hear that from you.” He chokes on his tears “I thought, I could only stand and watch you from afar.” His thumb wiping away her cheek in a futile attempt. “I love you too, Seulie. I’ve loved you for so long…”

Overwhelmed by her own emotions, Haseul leans down to claim his lips, the both of them sharing a passionate kiss. The combined culmination of everything they’ve felt and suppressed this entire time, their anger, their frustration, their kiss, all melted into this one kiss. As such, their lips do not part from each other, until the both of them need to catch their breaths.

“Be mine?”

“Always have been.”

Just a short exchange, nothing more, nothing less, before their lips are glued to each other again, their kiss turns passionate, fiery as Haseul’s arms wrap around Joon’s neck, and his arms wrap around her waist. Soon before long, their tongues intertwined in a heated dance for dominance, as their kiss turns into a full out make out session, with none backing down from each other.

Once again, they must part away due to their lack of air, a string of saliva still connecting their lips as they gaze at each other, their eyes full of unsaid emotions.

“Let’s do it.” Haseul says, her intention obvious enough. “There’s no turning back from this, you know.” True to himself, Joon gives her a warning. But instead of answering his question verbally, Haseul’s hands sneak underneath his shirt, feeling up his toned abdomen. “What about your schedules?” “Jinsol can cover for me.” Sorry Jinsol.

“What about-”

“You don’t want to do it with me?” Haseul pouts, her hands still resting on his stomach.

Instead of answering her, he suddenly flips her over, earning a yelp from her as he is now looming on top of her, her body stuck between him, and the couch. “I just don’t want you to have any regret.” He looks down at her, his face a mixture of lust and consideration.

“The only thing I regret is not getting together with you sooner.” Haseul smiles sweetly, her hand reaching up to cup his cheek. “Now take me, my love.”

Leaning against the palm of her hand for the briefest of moment, Joon slowly lowers himself down onto her, his lips latching onto her neck as he gives her the gentlest of kisses and nibbles.

Haseul squirms underneath his touch, his nibbles and kisses are more than enough to stimulate her, to arouse her, to excite her.

“I’m never letting you go again.” Was arguably to last sentence spoken between the two of them before both of them dissolve into what could be called, passionate lovemaking.

Groans, moans, and the sound of slapping reverberate the apartment as the newly formed couple consummate their once-broken relationship, now whole and complete again, and arguably stronger than before. They lose track of how many times they did it before the collapse into a heaping pile of sweats, tears, and various other liquid. But none of them minded. Because in that moment, they have each other, and that is enough for them.

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Blink.

More blinks.

Even more blinks.

Rising from her deep slumber from an exhausting night, Haseul is having a hard time to wake up right now. It takes all her strength just to blink her eyes slowly, making sure that her eyes are accustomed to what little light there is in the bedroom. After a while, Haseul finally gathers enough strength to sit up. And as she does, she is greeted with a surprise: She isn’t in her room. Also, and she isn’t wearing anything underneath the blanket.

Frantically, Haseul pulls the blanket close to her as she looks around the surroundings in a frightening matter. Thankfully, she doesn’t have to do this for long, as memories of the day before gradually flows back into her still half-asleep brain, and she realizes where she’s at: Joon’s bedroom.

Knowing that she’s safe now, Haseul takes her time looking around his room instead, taking in the sight of his personalized room. Given that it isn’t that much different from his old bedroom back then, but Haseul doesn’t mind. It’s good to know that there’s still something that just doesn’t change.

“Hello, you.” So absorbed in her thought, Haseul doesn’t even notice Joon standing at the door, in his hands a tray of food.

“Hey.” She responds with a small smile at the sight of him. “Did you bring me here?” Joon puts the tray on the bedside table before setting up a small table for Haseul on the bed, moving the tray to there instead. “Yeah, sleeping on the bed is more comfortable than sleeping on the couch.” He answers with a chuckle.

A curt nod from Haseul, before she is distracted by the tray of breakfast laid in front of her. Though it’s just a few simple dishes, she is starving as activities from last night left her drained. “Eat it, it’s for you.” Haseul just digs in at this point, her hunger taking over her at this moment.

Joon just sits there, next to her, watching her devouring his food with a smile, yet it seems like he’s not fully here with her, like his mind is wandering elsewhere.

Of course, that doesn’t Haseul’s sense, as she looks at him quizzically. “What’s wrong?” Snapping back from his thought, Joon gives her an apologetic smile “Sorry, I was just thinking about…us.”

“May I ask why?” Haseul swallows the last of her food, before diverting her full attention to Joon.

“I’m…I’m afraid that our relationship might implicate your work.” Knowing he can’t hide anything from Haseul, Joon decides to be honest. “You’re arguably at the height of your career. Your fans love you. But I’m afraid that everything you built up to might crumble, just because of me.” Joon looks away. “I’m just a librarian, Seulie, I’m-”

Joon’s word is cut off by Haseul as her lips sealed his for a quick kiss.

“You.” She looks at him. “Are the mysterious trainee that caused an uproar at a variety show and disappear. Do you know how much people’s been raving for you? How many people who’s been claiming that you are their bias, despite not being an idol?” Haseul’s hands squish his cheek, forcing him to look at her. “Don’t you dare say that you’re not worth it, when it only took you one performance to reach the popularity that costed me 2 years of hard work.”

“I’m…sorry?” Joon is incredibly confused with Haseul’s action. On one hand, she seems to be consoling him, but on the other hand, she seems to be letting our all her frustration that was caused by him.

“Don’t say that you’re not worth it. Because for me, I would sacrifice everything, to get you back with me.” Haseul smiles sweetly, pecking his lips. Joon can’t really do nothing but smile at her. His friend, turn best friend, estranged, yet together once more, now as his girlfriend instead.

“I love you Seulie.”

“I love you too Joonie.”

The two of them share another quick kiss before being interrupted by someone’s phone buzzing constantly. “Must be Jinsol and the girls.” Haseul snickers.

“So?” Joon looks at her. “Gimme a few, I need a shower, and a fresh pair of clothes.” She then pecks his cheek “Then I need you to give me a ride back to the dorm, sounds good?” Joon nods, “Good, now get out, I need to shower.” Haseul playfully shoves Joon away, which he obliges and gets out of his room.

A few minutes later….

Haseul emerges from his bathroom, clean from their rodeo last night, wearing her clothes, with just a few more additions.

“Hey, isn’t that my hoodie?” Joon protests.

“Yes, and?” Haseul glares at him, daring him to take it back.

“Never mind.” And of course, he gives up almost instantly.

“That’s more like it” She smiles, approaching him, her hand quickly intertwined with his.

“Let’s go?”

“Yes.”

And so, the new couple set out from the apartment, starting a new chapter in their relationship.

The road they took to get here was arduous and full of pain and heartache, but thanks to it, their relationship is reinforced even stronger than before. Nothing will stand between them, not anymore.

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.

.

“Oh, by the way, you’re going to meet the girls as well. They already knew about my search for you, so they are expecting you.”

“God damn it. Fine.”

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A/N: For those who thought this would be an angst really thought I would be that heartless? I'm disappointed. Lol

[mobiused]

you didn't even mention this in your post, but to me personally, what has asserted my trust (not blind tho!) on ctd over modhaus is definetely how the two companies handle diets

like i will NOT forget how haseul had to do exercise (2 times in a day if i recall??) right after she ate a cup of noodles or whatever it was; and how on the other hand, we see ctd staff actively encouraging yeojin to eat (and tangently at least 3 loossemble assemble episodes in which the girls were given free rein to cook and eat... yeojin doesn't make as many depreceative comments about food now. hyeju mentions constantly how she exercises but eats healthly, and the other day gowon was talking about eating sugar frequently for energy (well. watermelon is mostly water but the intent is. there.) even though they have a cb right around the corner..... (this gowon comment was particularly rewarding i think. sugar is usually seen as the devil for diets and thinness, and seeing a member aware of its actual biological function....i liked that)

thought of this as i was writing but i also cannot ignore the white washing. like, on one hand we have ctd being "yeah whatevs girl!" to hyeju tanning, on the other modhaus editing artms pics *like that* uhm....

and another thing bc i've seen too many ouriis just going "well go ahead and unstan, you have looble and chuu and yves" when orbits rightly critisized the voting system.... the voting system is actually.... fine? it's the way it's handled that is wrong. the girls should be aware of what polls are happening, and what is being voted on at all times. hell, they should be the ones making the polls, because they'd handle it in a way we would KNOW that they'd be happy with the results regardless, and the poll would act only as a way to generate a bit of entropy and get a feel on how the fandom (well. the paying and with nfts part of the fandom) feels about concepts, music, etc....

sorry this grew a tad long.....i think i'm done. sorry for the spelling mistakes.....

nono is okay honestly speak on it I totally agree with most of this

[radseul]

0818 ₊˚⊹♡ happy haseul day

[hyeitsju]

Loona on the first date!! pt.1

(Loona x FEMALE Reader)

Note (pls read):

I got bored so I wrote this. It’s not gonna be perfection, just a short fun thing. reader is short in this! She’s my height (4’11) but if you want Loona w taller reader, just request it! Seriously, y’all, I’m pretty sure my request box is growing cobwebs.

🐰heejin🐰

This girl is SO romantic

She picks you up, brings you roses, maybe a necklace too, brings you to a fancy restaurant, and without a doubt runs over to your side of the car to open the door for you when you reach said restaurant.

Listens intently to every word you say

If you mention a random ice cream flavor you’ve been wanting to try, you can expect her to surprise you with some on a random day 6 months later

Constantly complimenting you

So cheesy, she def gave you her jacket and refuses your attempts to give it back to her

Also a dork, she says so many dad jokes that are so unfunny they’re funny.

But it’s Heejin so it’s okay

Heejin is so affectionate as we can already tell, she’ll be holding your hands constantly

If not that then she had her hand around your waist or on your thigh the entire time y’all are in that restaurant

Heejin just HAS to pay for everything, absolutely no room for negotiation

After, she’ll invite you to her apartment where you’ll meet her pets and she’ll show you photos of her younger self

Talking about random stuff, really just enjoying each other’s company

By the end of the night she’ll drive you back home

OMGGG holding hands on the car ride back to your house

Waits for you to get in the door before driving back, frantically texting the Loona gc about what happened with a huge grin on her face

AHHH

🐱hyunjin🐱

She does an at home dinner date

Just eating some of her fav foods while y’all watch movies together, with paldo and nongshim ofc, chatting about random stuf

You aren’t watching romance or anything like that. Y’all are watching horror. Per Hyunjin’s request.

Is constantly holding your hand, it’s just makes her so happy and makes her smile a big smile she can’t hide even if she wanted to.

It makes things feel more official to her.

Hyunjin is lowkey looking for paldo and nongshim’s approval so when she saw that they immediately liked you and were jumping and cuddling up to you, she knew you were the one.

After that, she shares her bread with you.

Takes a ton of polaroid pictures and puts them in her phone case, makes them into a keychain, posts them on insta and fab, put them on her pin board,

You name it, she did it.

Ends in both of you asleep on the couch, cuddling with her arm around your waist

While paldo and nongshim steal the snacks y’all left unattended on the coffee table

🕊️haseul🕊️

Haseul strikes me as a picnic girlie

Loved preparing the food and organizing it into the little picnic basket 🧺

Y’all both arrived at the park in your own cars, meeting up underneath a big tree

Haseul set up the blankets and laid out the food for yall to eat

Watching the sunset as you both talk about any and everything

She does most of the talking, just loves to ramble about how life is going

But loves hearing your thoughts about it too

Scaring away the birds for her=immediate win

Haseul, being Haseul, worrys on and on about you

Saying things like:

“did you eat today” *piling food into your plate*

“you seem thirsty, are you sure you drink enough water?”

“You know, being on your phone that much can damage your eyes.”

“You’re done? But you still have so many veggies on your plate!”

Although she really does mean well.

Feeding the food to you AHHJAKZJVAKELD

I feel like she’s the kind of girl to instigate the first kiss on the first date

Right when your leaving back to your separate cars she gives you a hug and when she pulls back and looks down into your eyes, she just cant hold herself back and kiss you

It would be the best kiss ever btw

And when she pulls back she would be a blushing mess, rushing a by and hurrying to her car

Immediate going to call the girls and telling screaming at them what happened

🐸yeojin🐸

(Y’all are classmates and sit next to each other so you know each other well)

She takes you out to an amusement park

She is so hyper the entire time, trying to win over your heart in every way possible

Even though she already has it

First, you two head to the games area

She goes to every single one at least twice and only wins you three big prizes

She ain’t the strongest, sorry

Is actually so happy that you’re her height, like, she mentioned it every 20 minutes

You end up going back to the car and put all the prizes she won into the trunk and back seat

Then you head to all the rides

You go on a few roller coasters and have a ton of fun

The roller coasters were def her favorite part of the date because she had an excuse to hold your hand

Eventually you both get dizzy and decide it’s time for food

You barely eat anything, though, because of the nausea..

Not the best idea on your parts

After a lot of protesting from Yeojin, you both head back to your dorms

She is very sad to be leaving, even though you’ll be seeing each other in class within the next 10 hours

Gives you the biggest hug before leaving

🦌vivi/kaahei🦌

(I COULDNT THINK OF ANYTHING FOR HER SO I JUST THREW THIS TOGETHER, IM SO SORRY YALL ILL TRY AND MAKE SOMETHING FOR VIVI TO MAKE UP FOR THIS)

Now her, she’s actually the reason why this half was so delayed

I could not, for the life of me, think of anything for her

I have, however, decided that she would choose to go to the bookstore on the first date

You each pick out a few books for the other to read before checking out

You head over to a café and drink some coffee as you read together in silence

Not much happens, it’s just comforting silence

You both read until the workers have to notify you that they’re closing and you both walk to your own homes

🦉kim lip/jungeun🦉

She takes you to the movies last minute because she forgot to plan for it

Y’all end up seeing Barbie

Not a bad decision at all, y’all end up loving it

Jungeun is nervous as hell, she doesn’t make eye contact at all

She does however hold your hand throughout the movie

Ends up crying but denies it whenever you bring it up

After the movie you get back into her car and drive to a fast food place

And have a debrief in the parking lot

She def kisses you when dropping you off at your dorm

And not a peck or anything, a deep passionate one

When she pulls away she puts on a cool face but she’s actually having a heart attack inside

You can tell but decide to pretend you can’t

Yeah this is, like, 2-3 hours more than I said but I will have part 2 up within the next 10 hours, I’m almost done w it