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FATHER’S DAY. each year , while other children and adults hit the stores looking for the most adorable cards , colorful bouquets and other sweet , thoughtful gifts , erin attempts to ignore even the tiniest things that could remind her about the loving dad she’s never had. as the radio stations across the country play songs dedicated to all these admirable parental figures who have inspired their offsprings to achieve great things in life and the commercials on the tv speak only about spoiling the ones who have taught the future generations how to be better people , she pretends she doesn’t hear the obvious messages they carry and avoids turning these two devices on. she even goes as far as trying to convince herself that everything’s simpler and better the way it is — she doesn’t have to spend hours wondering how to honor her dad , how to be more creative than her siblings , how to outdo herself and whatever gift she gave him the previous year. she doesn’t want to be pitied and tries to play it cool but deep down it tears her heart to pieces. unfortunately , there’s nothing that can be done to change it. her father has been gone for exactly twenty years , absent physically , as well as emotionally. he’s missed all of her birthday parties , all of her recitals and school plays , wasn’t there to teach her how to drive a car or fix a dripping faucet or even just watch her fly her first kite at the shore. all he’s left her with are thousands of scars , the constantly bleeding wounds that refuse to gradually go away as time passes , and the only lesson he’s ever taught her is how to question every person, or rather every man , who tries to offer her his LOVE. he doesn’t deserve to be called a father and for two decades erin’s tried to erase this day , behave as if it was just another sunday in june , as though there was nothing special about it.

however , ever since learning that she’ll become a parent herself this november , she’s been thinking a lot about her own childhood and how it shaped her into the person she is today. her father’s absence is the reason why she constantly questions her worth and worries her husband will one day abandon her , too. her mother’s authoritarian personality is the one to blame for her shyness and anxiety , her extremely protective nature the cause for erin’s childish and naive behavior. her parents have never been perfect but she’s been doing her best to try and understand them , forgive and learn how not to repeat their mistakes. she’s been thinking about all the difficulties that come with parenthood , all the struggles and tears. it terrifies her , makes her wonder if a person as broken as herself is fit for this extremely important and challenging role. the only thought that can put a genuine smile on her face and keep her sane today is the one that crosses her mind every time her stormy gaze flickers to her husband’s bright emeralds — their child will never feel the way she has. they will never feel worthless or inadequate , unloved or unwanted. their child will have someone who deserves to be called not just farther or dad but daddy or DADA. someone who’ll truly care about him or her. although , the first few weeks have been nothing but a gigantic struggle for both of them , it seems that they’re finally coming to terms with the fact that their lives are inevitably changing. this giant responsibility has landed upon their shoulders a little sooner than expected but she doesn’t want to pull her hair out or cry all night , anymore. she wants to hope for the best and enjoy their time together as a family.

today is an extremely special day because not only is it axl’s first ever father’s day but also the very first father’s day that erin’s truly excited about and wants to celebrate to the fullest. their baby hasn’t even been born yet but her husband has already made her believe that he’s a better man and a better father than don ( or william , or stephen , or any other sperm donor in this world ). he’s proven that he can be the kind of parent everyone wants to have. he hasn’t left her alone with this. he’s been extremely caring and supportive , even though she can tell that this new role isn’t something he’s adjusting to easily. for this very reason , as a little thank you for his kindness , she’s decided to give him an unforgettable day — one that’s solely about him. first , she let him sleep in , get some much needed rest. then , she made him heart - shaped waffles for breakfast and brought them on a wooden tray to their bedroom. later , they went for a long walk with their dogs and got ice cream. and now she’s taking him to malibu , to their favorite spot , the same one where many years ago they had their first real date and realized they had fallen in love with each other. if she closes her eyes even just for a moment , she can still see this young , bashful boy with dreams bigger than both of them and a heart so full of affection and devotion , love for her that it could barely fit inside his chest , his porcelain skin basking in the sun , his green eyes reflecting the color of the ocean. at the time , he was as poor as a rat but he still made sure her stomach was full and her mind at ease. he brought homemade food and even somehow found a picnic basket ( to this day she has no idea where he got it from ). it was a magical date , one of the most memorable dates ever for sure. it’s hard to believe that shy boy is going to be a father in a few months and the third sunday of june will always be all about him.

as they stroll along the shore , bathing in the warm glow of the afternoon sun , erin can barely take her eyes off of her husband. her husband. she still can’t believe he really is her husband, not her boyfriend. husband. while she continues to gaze at him as if he hung the stars and the moon , she comes to the conclusion that neither the ocean , nor the blue , cloudless sky above their heads can compete with his beauty. the corners of her lips twitch , a look of sheer happiness passes over her visage. she has to admit that despite being insanely handsome , he also looks a bit ridiculous ( or rather ridiculously adorable ) with his red bandana no longer tied around his head but wrapped tightly a few inches lower , covering his starry eyes , preventing him from peeking and ruining the surprise. she can’t let him see what’s awaiting him. it has to be kept secret until the very last moment. after all , that’s what makes things even more exciting. erin’s right arm remains draped around his slim hips , guiding him and making sure he doesn’t lose his balance now that she’s taken away one of his senses. the sand is warm beneath the soles of her bare feet ( she could barely wait and took her wedges off the second she parked her car and got out of it ) , tiny grains falling from her skin with each step. she blissfully lifts her chin a little higher , closing her eyes for a second as the salty breeze flows through her dark ringlets and kisses her rosy cheeks. her blue cotton summer dress billowing , delicate fabric dancing in the wind , threatening to uncover what’s beneath. it makes her giggle , has her feeling all carefree and joyous. her fingers curl a little tighter around axl’s hip as she pushes herself up onto her tip toes and plants a gentle kiss on his cheek. she wishes they could spend the rest of their lives right where they are. ❛ alrighty ! it’s right in front of you , ❜ she softly coos, coming to a stop. ❛ are you ready ? ❜ to finally see what this grand surprise is. she’s thrumming with a combination of nerves and excitement as her slender fingers carefully work on undoing the knot. with his red strands and the summer wind in the way , it takes her a good minute to succeed.

right before them , in a more secluded area of the beach , with a beautiful cliff on one side and azure waves crashing against the shore on the other , erin’s created their charming picnic spot. all she needed was an ounce of creativity. when combined with some stunning , exotic flowers , a bohemian teepee tent , a few fire logs ( in case they decide to stay long enough to watch the sun set on the horizon and it gets cold ) and some sweet treats , it resulted in a picture perfect date plan. with a little help from her brother , erin’s managed to make it look more than just decent — something straight out of a movie or a fairytale. the linen walls of the tent are meant to protect them from the wind and keep the bright rays away from her husband’s porcelain skin. garlands made of lilies and peonies adorning the entrance , their smell a combination of sweetness and happiness. inside the teepee , to make it even more cozy and inviting , there’s a pile of soft blankets and a bunch of colorful pillows , as well as a picnic basket with all kinds of delicious teats underneath its lid. there’s also a blue bag — a little gift from their unborn child to the greatest daddy in the world. inside , among torn rose petals and a few other presents , he’ll find a t-shirt that says dada bear and a tiny onesie that says little bear , an album with pictures of them and captions explaining ( in simple yet poetic words ) their journey together from the night they met to the day they found out they were having a baby , a brand new video camera so that they’ll be able to record all the precious moments with their son or daughter , a tape with some of their favorite songs turned into lullabies that her brother and his friends had worked in secret for weeks on and a red , heart - shaped card . . . a small letter from their baby to him , written in erin’s handwriting :

happy father’s day, daddy ! it’s the very first one that we’re celebrating and i’m just a teeny tiny human now but i already want to tell you so many things ! first and foremost — I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ! i love you the mostest ! and even though you sometimes doubt yourself , i know that you are the best daddy in the whole wide world and i am so grateful that it’s you i’ll get to learn from in the future. my favorite part of each day is the one when you talk or sing to me , or when you kiss and hug me. i can’t wait to finally meet you and fall asleep in your arms or on your chest or even in my crib with you watching over me but i have to be patient. just a few more months , daddy. i may not be able to give you many precious gifts now but i promise to draw plenty of pretty pictures just for you in the future ! i’ll bake thousands of cakes and cookies for all your favorite holidays and i’ll sing all of your favorite songs in the car with you. i can’t wait to finally hug you back. next year , we’ll do all these fun things that dads and their babies do ! i’m looking forward to meeting you and celebrating many more father’s days with you — the coolest daddy in the universe ! i love you so much , your teeny tiny rose.

clutching her husband’s red bandana in her left hand and squeezing his wrist with her right one , erin carefully studies his expression. her heart has somehow left her chest and is now beating within the confines of her throat , not even the delicate breeze can carry away all of her worries. what if instead of making him happy , she’ll only stress him out ? what if he gets upset or decides the gifts she’s picked for him are too cheesy ? she can only hope it’s not too much for him to handle. after all , she wants this day to be special , not terrifying and stressful for him. ❛ happy father’s day, axy, ❜ she whispers , pressing her lips to his soft cheek and kissing it again. her hand curling a little tighter. ❛ our lion cub wanted to do something nice for his or her favorite dad and so . . . this is what we came up with. we know you like picnics and the ocean ? i got applesauce and peanut butter sandwiches ? happy first father’s day , baby. ❜

☆ ; @thornrosed