#happy bday ljg

[iihappydaysii]

happy birthday lord john grey - june 14, 1729

[realautisticlightyagami]

heeeyyy it's LJG's bday!! i love finding all the other ppl who like against me!

Oh really? Well, happy birthday to her :)!!

I'm still getting into Against Me! but I love what I've heard so far :)!! It's cool that you like them too!

[iihappydaysii]

title: the ever-present strain of longing

rated: e (tags on ao3)

pairing: john/jamie

word count: 2.5k

notes: beta by @mistresspandorawritesthings, for Lord John’s b-day celebration, botb fight scene rewrite

summary: When Lord John goes to Jamie for advice about his former lover, Percy, tensions finally come to a head.

excerpt:

“This man,” Jamie forced out the words. “He is not only your stepbrother, but… your…” Why was it hard to say? Because he did not know what to call it or because he did not want to call it anything at all. “Your catamite?”

Jamie did not have a better word for it.

“He was my lover, yes,” Grey’s voice was feather-soft, fond despite it all.

John Grey’d had a lover? Jamie had just assumed he had not. Now, he could see that was naive, but Grey did still come to visit Jamie often. Every time, there remained that sense of feeling about the man whenever he was near—the ever-present strain of longing. Yet, whenever Grey left Helwater for London, he’d been returning to the bed of his lover. Jamie choked on the knot in his throat again.

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