#hapoy birthday jonghyun

[i-see-you-as-a-sunflower]

As i sit here and write this i think about all of the beautiful memories i was able to have with you it may have been short but it will always be something i will cherish, jonghyun i hope you're happy in heaven i hope you are smiling and are still singing up there i pray every night and for every single birthday since u been gone I've wish that you are in peace now you were one of the most beautiful human being i have ever got the chance to know even if I've never met you in person please know you will always be in my heart.

As this marks the 3rd birthday we have to celebrate without you my wish today is that you are happy, that you are in peace and that you are well please continue to make Shinee shine as bright as you have always done and i hope one day in the future we can meet again and i hope when we do you will have your beautiful smile on

Happy birthday jonghyun i love you so so so much💙

[overdosed-on-exo61]

Long, kind of sad post.

Tw: death. Suicide mention (possibly)

Today is Minho's birthday. And I love him so very much and I will post a separate post for him....

I was thinking about his birthday and after I posted on twitter I realized that this may be one of the last happy memories and celebrations all 5 of the boys had together.. and that punches me right in the chest.

I miss you so much jonghyun. Keep watching over our boys and send them a little extra love. They're gonna need it in the weeks ahead. I love you so so much and I miss you every day. Please watch over shawols and our boys and your friends and family. We love you and miss you very much.

Thinking about the boys extra hard today. Especially Minho but with Jinki enlisting and Jjongs death anniversary coming up.. they could all use the positive thoughts and prayers.

I hope they have a big celebration with Minho and it's full of happiness and joy and theres not a sad tear shed. I pray they're all doing well and that they are hapoy and healthy and I pray that their mental health is okay as well.. I worry about them

My heart is heavy. It physically hurts. Like it really really fucking hurts. And I apologize in advanced if this offends anyone. I just really needed to get this out.

Just know if you're feeling like I am today you are absolutely not alone.