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i wish people portrayed how much hannibal loved will more. i feel like in some ways it goes to waste :( whats your thought on hannibal and his love for will? ( also hope you are doing well ! take care of yourself <3 /gen )

I agree. Hannibal and Will love each other. Obviously they both did very fucked up things to each other, but that’s apparent. Sure, their love and how they express it and receive it and experience it is not conventional, but it is still love. They would kill for each other and die for each other. People like to take their violence and twist it. Their relationship and dynamic is already toxic, you don’t need to make it worse. Hannibal finally found someone he saw as his true and genuine equal. Will was the first person Hannibal opened up to. No, it wasn’t straight forward like “hey, I am a serial killer, cannibalism is cool, love how blood looks on you btw :)”. Nothing with him is straight forward. He has been behind layers and shields his entire life, so he created a labyrinth to get to the core of him. Will conquered that and reached the very center. Hannibal made Will his first choice. He was going to give up his tendencies just to run away with Will. When he was rejected, he was heartbroken, and reacted how he knew: violently. Obviously eviscerating your crush is NOT the way to respond, but that wasn’t just pure range and vengeance. He was hurt, he trusted Will, and was betrayed. It was more than “we are just crime buddies and you sold me out to the FBI, gosh darnit”. A part of him crumbled. The one person he loved who he also thought could love and accept him back didn’t, that is soul crushing. Yes, Hannibal is a monster, and a villain. He manipulates everyone around him. But what makes him human is his love. He loves Will deeply and sincerely. If anyone else treated Hannibal like Will did, Hannibal would have just killed them. Hannibal could have killed him in his kitchen. Yeah, he couldn’t guarantee Will could survive, given uncontrolled parameters of blood loss and when paramedics would arrive, but if he truly wanted Will dead, he could have done it. The descending aorta is right in the gut, a nick of that and Will has less than a minute, likely tens of seconds. Hannibal doesn’t sacrifice himself for nothing. He values, and has valued, himself over literally everyone for the majority of his life. It is him before everyone else. At least until Will. That is HUGE. To change a man’s life so abruptly, so completely, is insane. And Hannibal got himself arrested, gave up his freedom, something invaluable to him. it was more than petty. If it was solely pettiness he wouldn’t have done it. That is a really shitty “gotcha” for just pettiness. He let himself get shot for Will, too. Not just a small place, in the abdomen. Realistically, Hannibal would have died from that injury without medical intervention of a higher degree than Will or Chiyoh have. And Hannibal let that happen. To save Will’s life, to prove a point that Will could finally become all he was destined to, what he was hiding from. Hannibal loved Will and said “I will not judge you for your desires, for who you are. Embrace it. Become it.” Hannibal was willing to die to get him there. And I argue he let himself be pulled off that cliff, too. They were both fucked, and Hannibal is smart. I am sure he knew what was coming, and he did not a damn thing to stop it. Maybe he saw rebirth, or a final resting place for them both. Regardless if it was their last moment together or a chance at something new, it would be with Will. At his side, in his arms, exactly where he wants to be.

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whats your favorite hannigram thought, like scenario [soft/angst or smth else] or hm just opinion or theory, or just rant abt them if youd like :,) & howre you? ( also i absolutely love ur account, i have been finding it quite comforting, & your writings are so intricate, i love reading them /gen )

Thank you so much! I am glad to hear you like my posts and my writings. I like writing, and hopefully this summer will prove productive for Hannibal fics and metas.

I don’t know about my favorite thought for them. I have a lot of thoughts since my brain literally can’t stop thinking about them. I think the beauty of the show being canceled and it ending with a window for interpretation gives the freedom for a lot of different outcomes. Realistically, I don’t think they survived. I think that death for them at the hand of an unforgiving rocky cliffside kissed by a hungry tide is beautiful. They can be together for eternity as their skeletons hold each other, as their clothes and flesh rot away or are eaten by sea life. They can remain undisturbed, untouched, unbothered under a blanket of silt. Given enough time their names will never be spoken again, they will be forgotten, but they can still have each other in a way they probably never could in life. Their death would be violent and tumultuous like their relationship was, and it is a perfect ending.

That being said, like everyone else, I do enjoy entertaining what could happen had they survived. I mean, I wrote a fic where 2/3+ is just post-fall, and it was really fun breaking down their relationship and taking it where it didn’t do in the show. 

I like to think they soften after the fall. I like to think they have to earn each other’s trust again. I like to think Will goes too far, to either prove his violence is different than Hannibal’s or that he is trying to become him and Hannibal has to reel him back in. I like the thought of Will being angry he didn’t kill them and having to deal with that. Does he stay? Does he try to kill him again? Would Hannibal let him? I like the idea of them conquering childhood trauma together. I like the idea of them traveling the world and going on a killing spree. There are so, so many ways their relationship can go, and many endings I think are feasible and reasonable. And the show offers a lot of “well what if this was different” and a lot of things could change, which I also find interesting. They are incredibly dynamic and interesting, and maybe that is my favorite thought of them. They aren’t boring or conventional or typical at all. They are messy and flawed and violent but in love and they are complicated. 

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whats ur softest hannigram scenario that u have of them after the fall? <3

I am a sucker for platonic bathing. Washing each other’s hair with care, no obligations or expectations, just genuinely wanting to ease a small burden for the other person. Cutting each other’s hair as a form of trust and relinquishing some independence without consequence. Being able to just sit there and be taken care of. Wound healing has a bit of angst attached to it depending on how they got injured. But wiping away blood, suturing wounds, bandaging, giving medications to easy pain and discomfort, checking on the wounds and making sure they are healing well when the person injured may not be thinking about it. Teaching the other person the depths of what they are passionate about (yes, Will knows how to cook but Hannibal knows some weird crazy funky stuff, and Will can teach him fishing), teaching each other languages, traveling to places to express parts of themselves that may be difficult with words, getting pets together, getting new hobbies together... I guess this was more than just one scenario, I’m sorry. I like the idea of the being soft. They don’t need to shed their entire personality for softness. They can still kill and maim be violent. But I like to think they can replace some of that hardness and hesitancy and fall out of old habits at the knife’s edge and warm up to something softer. 

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OKAY SO I FINISHED YOUR FIC & im- ,, i love it more than anything and it has now become one of my comforts and now im left craving soft hannigram aljskakw do u have any fic recs that are soft/fluff (idont mind angst or anything explicit, but i am stuck in a soft hannigrams loop) 🫶

Holy shit! Thank you!! Based on some of the shit I put them through, the idea of it being a comfort is wild as fuck. But so glad you enjoyed it!

I am not the best person to ask for fic recs, especially for specific themes. My memory is really, really bad and I don’t read nearly as much as I should. @bloodstainedlamb writes fic on their blog and has a tag for it, and I have read some of @thesoupisntverygood’s fics including "until your skin become my skin” and enjoyed it a lot! 

I know this wasn’t much help, but if anyone has suggestions, feel free to add a comment!

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i think, god... i see ur url and i shake in happiness aksjak

Ahh! Thank you so much!

What's my reputation? What do you think when you see my URL?

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first impression: i was very intrigued, and i thought you were so, well i would say cool, but i feel like that doesnt fit what im trying to get across. i just really liked your energy. & you also became my comfort blog aksk

impression now: still have stayed relatively the same; i truly like you as a person & i like your blog 😌 you still come of as cool and i still very much enjoy your energy

I love how I have somehow fooled people into thinking I am cool. Not sure how I managed that. I am glad you like my energy and my blog! Thank you!

Send me your first impression of me vs impression of me now (Anonymous or Not)

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top 5: im also very curious, what are ur top 5 poems and books? i really need to get more books but like idk what (if u dont have any, thats fine ofcourse :] )

Some of my all-time favorite poetry is by my beloved mutual @transjeandervicquemare. I love all of his work and it just. fucking guts me and gets me at the same time.

I haven’t read anything for entertainment in awhile, but I really enjoyed Larsson's Millennium trilogy. Also enjoyed Lost Souls by Poppy Z. Brite if you like dark af, tragic, queer, vampire stuff.

put “top 5” anything in my ask and i will answer

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puke, im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry

( i find comfort in ur posts, and these ones seemed closest to what/how i feel as a result - idk you just seem like the person to look with nonjudging eyes + your posts are heavenly hence puke )

Curious what my singing bowl post was.

I am glad you find comfort in my posts! I do have RBF so my eyes look a lot judgier than I intend. The irony in heavenly posts leading to puke.

My forgiveness is irrelevant. You have to live with yourself and your actions longer than anyone else. Learn to forgive yourself, too.

P.s. thanks for adding the colors for me!