#haldie rambles

[haldenlith]

This track is lodged into my head like a knife, especially now that I've read the translation of the lyrics.

Needless to say, I'm busy drawing Uldwyn/Hal.

[sab-teraa]

What is the oddest way someone asked you out ?

Omg! I don’t know if this fits + it’s not that exciting … but it took me tf out bc it was unexpected. Story time:

My cousin got married last December and during the haldi ceremony my uncle pulled me aside and was like ‘omg, there’s this guy that keeps staring at you’ … and I was like ??? … I just thought he was seeing things bc he was somewhat drunk. Plus, I literally kept asking him WHO bc I could not comprehend it ??? My cousin had a super intimate wedding … I felt like I knew everyone there … so it just made no sense lol.

Anyway, the next day at the wedding … my grandmothers sister pulls me aside and she was like “I heard someone at the haldi liked you” … so I turned to my aunt and I was like “omg noooo you told them about K’s drunk ramblings 💀” and then my grandmas sister was like “no, he actually approached me to ask about you” .. AND THAT TOOK ME OUT! Never in my life have I ever heard of anyone going straight to an elder to ask about someone lol.

I actually regret saying no 😭 but at that time it was v complicated … especially since I was stressed with my masters + I live out of town. But yeah, it a regret of mine. Plus, I’m still curious to know who he is bc he didn’t attend the wedding.

Not super juicy, but it just surprised me lol

[jeanvanjer]

I also have rambling thoughts on Edwina, as I feel like they could have changed her character, and even had her oblivious to Kate & Anthony but kept her essence.

I’m going to wait until Friday of course, but the little we’ve seen she feels very ditzy in her cluelessness. I would have found it more compelling if she was this perfect diamond who had been prepared for marriage but wasn’t as enthused about it as she pretended, but felt pressure from her family and for money reasons - that is a legit reason for there to be tension between Kate & Anthony!

And even in this situation if it got to an engagement with A&E, it would still be fair to be mad that they were prepared to make all of them miserable because they are stubborn. And then miscommunication between all three Spurs the drama on - K thinks E likes Anthony because she doesn’t let on, and E has no idea K & A like each other as they are still hiding it. So a comedy of errors almost.

It also means Edwina’s entire plot isn’t revolving around being the third person in a ‘triangle’ - she could have been the person the queen asks to find out about LW and mer Eloise & Theo and learned loads and kind of set up for a maybe lesbian realisation next series (unlikely but even just like the book where she can marries whoever she wants as her sister is a Viscountess).

Anyway, that is it, I obviously need to see it - I don’t think Edwina is a villain but I’m just a bit dubious about the way they went to make her less 2D then in the book.

I don't think Edwina's a villian either but shes not as "mature" or perceptive so that does change things so yeah she does seem a bit of a mess. That "sisters" comment thats making rounds is definitely cruel sounding but we don't know the context. So for book Edwinas sake I’m trying not to judge yet.

Despite what the events and changes in the show are, she's still the person being intentionally and unintentionally used the most? Even with the changes made I do prefer her character having importance outside of Kate and Anthony. Like you mentioned, striking up a friendship with Eloise, Penelope, anyone really and have her move away from Kate so she sees Edwina become her own woman who doesn't need Kates guidance anymore.

Its just very odd how the initial talk about the show isn't translating into what allegedly happens. Other than the accents, Edwina seems like any other English debutante. There was this weird emphasis on growing up free. Maybe in the show we'll see how growing up in India affected their personalities but right now other than the accents and the haldi, i dont see how Edwina is different and how they couldn't have been from Somerset.

[sitaaronkepaar]

Daily Rikara Ramblings

Oh helloz bts wala precap! Damn, today’s epi gon be lit! 😻😻😻😻

Lmao, plane me bhi ghatiya shers ne Shivaay ka peecha nahi choda. 😂😂😂

Annika’s like wtf. 😂😂😂😂

Wow, this is too much. And I thought I’d seen everything when Shaadiwala show celebrated haldi on a plane. Rofl. Imma ffwd, this too stooooopid for me. ⏩⏩⏩⏩⏩

Hi Dillu!! 💝💝

Wah, Abhi se running errands. Good boy, Dillu! 😘

Kis cheez ki payment matlab? 😐

Hain, yeh kaunsa rule hai? Jab pehle ka maal nahi bika toh aur kyu order kiya? Woh bhi ek raat me? 🤔🤔🤔🤔

Awww, hubby fighting for Gauri rights tho. 😍😍😍

Lol, I knew it. Yeh apna bhanda khud hi phod dega. A la, kya rishta hai tumhara is ladki se and he’ll say pati in anger? Anyway, that’s my headcanon. Maybe that creepy dude’s interest might egg him on too.

Back to the epi, Damn calm down omki. Wow. 😁😁

Lol, both of them showing tadi. Tu jaanta nahi main kaun hu 😂😂😂😂

This air hostess is so rude. Yeh kaunsi ghatiya airlines hai. 😑

Ugh, Gauri looks so prettayyy!! 😍😍😍😍😍😍 Thank god her lime green suit is back! Mere Dil ki saari muraadein poori ho gayi. 😭😭😭😭

Man, Dillu be so extra. Lmao 😂😂😂😂😂

Omg isne pakka apne paise diye hai. This is so gonna come back to bite him in the ass. Gauri’s gonna question him about this. I just know it. Poor Dillu. 😧😧😧😧

Paise bach bhi gaye? LMAFOOO. Omkara Dilpreet pls. 🙄🙄🙄🙄

Kunal’s acting is cracking me up though. Rofl. 🤣🤣🤣🤣

Uff Dillu bhi kitni philosophy jhadta hai. 🙄😂

“zindagi bhar har ladayi humne akele hi ladi hai”

Aww, she brought up the fighting alone thing again. My bby’s lived a tough life. 😖😖😖 And Omkara didn’t make it any easier for her either. 😢 😢😢😢

Haha, maine pyar kiya toh dekhni hi padi hogi. Ghatiya lip sync jo karna tha. 🙄 How is gauri not traumatised at the mere mention of the name?Poora klpd ho gya tha bichari ka 😢😢

Such a lame save Omkie Dillu. 🙄

“Bahut haste hai aap”

ROFLLLLL 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

“MAARENGI?”

Omkara LMFAOOOOOOO. 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

I bet he’s gonna think rakhi bhandne wali hai. 😂😂

He did. LOL. His panicked reaction cracks me up every single time. I watched the prev one like 5 times. Lmaoooo. 😂😂😂😂

Aww man, it’s so good to see Gauri back to her happy chirpy self again. Sad face don’t suit mah bby. 😘 😘 😘

Omkara regretting every single time he rejected Gauri. Yes, regret it till the day you die. 😏😏😏😏😏

I love this friendship track tbh. Giving me Chulkara teas.

They’re.each.other’s.bffs.now. let me just cry in a corner. 😭😭😭😭😭😭

“Ek waqt tha jab main tumhe apni patni man ne se inkar kar raha tha, par koi na ab main sabak seekh gaya hun, ab acha pati nahi toh kya accha hua, accha dost ban ne ki koshish toh karunga hi, aur banunga bhi. Aur shayad agar mera naseeb accha hua, aur is rab ne saath diya toh dubara accha pati bhi banunga”

I’m literally flailing and crying, like idek what to say anymore. 😭😭😭😭😭😭

Ek toh his pov, which is rare af.

Upar se him regretting his actions.

Upar se him cherishing her friendship.

UPAR SE ACCEPTING THEIR RELATIONSHIP AND THE PROMISE TO BE A GOOD PATI. EXCUSE ME WHILE I CRY MY EYES OFF!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Him touching his heart while saying this just did things to me. I just……….sigh, why be so sweet dillu. 😢😢😢

And him holding his ears in apology every time she leaves the room just makes my stupid heard melt. Why, Omkara, why? I wanted to hate you for eternity. No fair. 😢😢

Haha, yes bitch. Omkie be right. Aisa kam queenie k siva aur koi ni kar sakta tha. 😍😍

Awww, look @ Gauri’s genuine smile. 😍 Just like Chulbul brought smiles and happiness to Omkara during his darkest of times, Dilpreet is doing the same for Gauri. For the first time since forever, I’m loving how Rikara’s story is shaping up. 💖

Creepy dude looks legit smitten lmao. Can ya blame him tho? Queenie looks like a million bucks 👸👸👸👸

Is he blind though? Itna bada mangalsutra nahi dikh raha? 😐😐😐

Omg dude stop staring at Gauri, it’s so creepy. 😫😫

Kuch bhi kar sakte hai? Guy, chill. Ladke wale ho, bhagwan nahi. But some people do have this ghatiya mentality in India. Ugh.😡😡😡😡

Omg Omkara Dilpreet stop saying, “sardar naal pangaji, not changaji”. You’re not an actual sardar ok. 😒😒😒😒😒

This tashan scene is so long and drawn out, I’m already getting bored. 🙄🙄🙄🙄

Anyway, now I’m 💯% sure iska bhanda creepy dude ki wajah se hi phootega.

I know ib me logic lagana is plain silly but WHY THE FUCK IS BHAVYA JUST STANDING THERE? Like, I’ve had to hold my pee for several hours cause of turbulence before. You’re not fucking allowed to just stand on a flight. Wtf is this fuckery. Ughhh, my head hurts 🤕🤕🤕

And why does this baby want some action? Dafuq she thinks this is? Why didn’t you just bring your earphones bitch? It’s the 21st century, bring your own entertainment. 🙄🙄🙄🙄

Ugh, no more torture, I’m ffwding. ⏩⏩⏩⏩

Oh my god they’re dancing to oonchi hai building. W.T.F is this mental retardation? Head, meet desk 🤕.

Oh god wtf just happened. this is fuckin stupid. Lol. 😂😂😂

Awww DilRi are suh qyut!! 😍😍😍😍

Shadi ki Tarik Bina pandit se consult kiye? 😕

Oh they already have. Ok.👍 👍👍

Ugh, kya bakwas hai. 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

Mukesh ji ka face ekdum rone wala ho gaya hai. Apne bhai ko bhi dekh lo ek min o creepo. 😂

Creepy guy is legit creeping me out.😖😖😖😖😖

Omkara ka toh accha khasa padha chad raha hai. 🌡️🌡️🌡️🌡️🌡️🌡️

Ewww www ewwwww. He’s so so creepy. EWWWWWW.  😖😖😖😖😖

He’s legit making my skin crawl ugh. 😖😖😖😖😖😖😖😖😖😖

Omkara Dilpreet’s legit staring daggers at this dude. 🗡️🗡️🗡️🗡️🗡️ I can literally see the murder in his eyes. Aankhiyon se goli maarna band karo Omkie. 😳😳😳😳😳

My eyes still can’t believe they’re looking at a normal shaadi function in Ib lmao. 😂😂😂😂

Ugh, why can’t this dude keep his hands to himself?! Check yo self, before you wreck yo'self, bitch. 😡😡

Omkara Dilpreet looks like he’s planning the creeps murder without getting caught. 🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫

Who’s this guy, Joey?Joey used to open bras by just staring and he’s opening dori’s with the power of his creepy stare. 😂😂😂

Omkara Dilpreet looks like his head is about to explode. 💣💣💥💥💥💥💥💥

Awww, yissss, the famous Dori scene. 😊😊😊😊😊😊😊

The way Gauri's looking at him makes me feel like she’s already recognized him. No? Idk. 😂😂😂

But UGH, MUJE APNI THARAK KIS KIS TAREEKON SE SATISFY KARNI PADTI HAI. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Will they ever get close to each other knowing who the other is? Like ever? These are the questions that haunt a Rikara fangirl. 😥😥😥😥😥😥😥

Ok, No need to be so extra Omkara Dilpreet, you can just tell her that her dori’s open. So dramatic. 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

Btw remember when he actually asked for permission before tying her dori? And ab full haq jama raha hai. 😏😏😏😏😏😏

Hahahhahhaha, Omkara Dilpreet bhi maidaan-e-jang me utar hi gaya. 😂😂😂😂😂

Look at this guy, he’s doing everything he hated for Gauri. Lying, making sweets and now fucking dancing for her. I’m not saying Gauri should, but I’d totes give him another chance. It helps he looks like an actual angel ofc. Sigh, them beautiful eyes. 😍😍😍😍😍😍

Like I bet if it weren’t for patnidharam, Gauri would’ve already fallen for Dilpreet, he’s such a nice, wholesome guy! 💜💜💜💜💜

LOL look at this extra, desi dance-off. I’m dead. 😂😂😂

Chalo ho gaya, the sentiment, every single desi person feels after a big function is over lol. 😂😂😂😂

The creep’s back. Dear god, he’s so creepy, even I feel uncomfortable looking at his advances. Baat toh kya, I don’t even want him to stand near her Gauri, heck, I don’t even want him to breathe the same air as her. 10ft ki doori pe reh bhai. I bet Omkara shares this sentiment too. MAKE HIM OMKIE. MAKE.HIM. 😡😡😡😡

Fuck. Nooooooo. Don’t leave the room Omkara. 😧😧😧😧

Is he doing what I think he’s doing? He’s trying to propose? 😲😲😲😲

Lol, Gauri trying to deflect him. Good try sis. 👏👏

He did. OMG BITCH ARE YOU BLIND? Mangalsutra nahi dikh raha hai? 😡😡😡😡😡

At least he’s upfront about it.

Naam ki shaadi? He knows it’s invalid? 🤔🤔🤔

OMG!!!! ARE MY RIKARA REMARRIAGE DREAMS GON COME TRUE??? 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱

NOOOOOO, DON’T GIVE ME THIS HOPE!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

It wasn’t a bad proposal until he started threatening Richa's marriage. Fuck outta here with your blackmail boi! 😡😡😡😡

Man, Gauri is PISSED. Omkara se pehle kahin yeh hi uska murder na kar de. 🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫

OH THE PRECAP IS LIT. IT IS LIT!!! 😍😍😍😍😍😍

[haldenlith]

It's probably because I'm working on a picture of D2 Ardwynn, but hearing Madonna's "Material Girl" and I honestly can't help but picture him prancing around and singing it.

He would.

And for a guy that's basically filling the "king of thieves" role, it's fitting.

[haldenlith]

So, just me rambling about Revenant Act III and the ending we got, but... man... I don't know.

That was... really undercooked and underwhelming, narratively speaking, and the gameplay loop just did not hit right at all for me. I gave up and just watched the damn ending stuff on Youtube. I genuinely did not find running the Exotic mission over and over again enjoyable, at all. It was, in essence, the exact same mission each time. Almost nothing changed outside of dialogue and a different Scorn boss at the very end.

This was not helped by the fact I got error coded and kicked out, and had to run the mission multiple times just in an attempt to finish the damn thing and move on with the story mission.

I think that exacerbated how unsatisfied I felt with the story, too. If I'm throwing myself at a brick wall multiple times, the story better be compelling as fuck, and it just... wasn't. Not to mention how things were segmented out just made the episode as a whole weaker. The Apothecary? Her whole story thread? For how important she was? That shit should not have been in the (extremely buggy) Fieldwork missions. It should have been part of the main quest chain. That was not optional information for the narrative.

Also, Misraaks's ascension to Kell of Kells? Weak. Bizarrely so. We've had a prophecy being drilled into us ever since the days of Skolas's first appearance. It damn near sounded biblical. I expected... more. Maybe Misraaks would die, protecting his daughter or something -- the what isn't important, the death is -- and then, by a stroke of The Light (NOT a Ghost), he breathes life once again, chosen. Heck, maybe Eramis could've even brought him back with The Light from the Echo? I don't know. Something more, something leaning on The House of Rain prophecy, something more interesting, more worthy than the guy being the only guy left on the lineup, and we shrug and go "guess you win by default, my man."

Like come on. Really?

And then there's, for me, the elephant in the room: Fikrul. On one hand, I am pleasantly surprised they let us kill him for reals. No bait and switch. No "oh no he escaped! *snaps fingers* Darn!" like with Maya. Not even a dubious fade-to-black death. He died right on screen. It's nice to get actual finality to a boss like this without it being some big Raid or Expansion thing. THAT SAID, I am disappointed in how he was handled. Or, rather, how the loose-end side of him was handled.

Crow is in the episode, trying his best to do his job as the new Hunter Vanguard, and it's endearing, and it would've been perfectly fine for that to be his only role....... If it weren't for the sheer amount of HISTORY between him and Fikrul. He's the entire reason Fikrul exists. We get a little of it in Act I and then... nothing else. It's weird and unsatisfying. It also feels inconclusive. For me, that was a loose thread that just never got tied off. Hell, talking to Crow at the end is optional, which blows my mind. Fikrul and Crow are characters that are intertwined. We hear this in Fikrul's boss lines! He references these things! And yet it feels kind of ignored. It also felt weird to hear so little from Crow on the matter, when Fikrul was enough of a regret, enough of a major pain point for him, that his form is what the Pyramid Nightmare manifested as in Season of the Haunted. I don't know, I guess just some kind of closure would've been nice. Some kind of "and now the cycle Uldren started is finally, truly over." I'm actually going to point at a very short fanfic for this. That there? If we had gotten that as a very short little cutscene at the tail end, after Eramis's "goodbye and good riddance" message, it would've been a perfect tie off point. It's over. It's truly, finally, over. Instead all we got was just a bit of dialogue that was easily missable. Feels Bad Man.

All of my complaints about the lukewarm narrative aside, my bigger complaints are the bugs. Jfc, the bugs. It almost feels like there isn't a QA team anymore, it's ridiculous. Everything combined just makes me not confident for the future. This isn't a game I want to stick with and spend money on, because I can't confidently say that I feel like I'm getting bang for my buck. It doesn't feel worth it. I don't know what I'm going to get -- a game that runs, or a game that might break under mysterious circumstances at a variety of points and for a variety of reasons. I'm sticking with my original plan of bowing out after finishing Revenant. Maybe Heresy will be good, who knows? I just know that I'm not super interested in playing this circus.

It's just not fun anymore, and it's not worth the monetary cost for me.

[haldenlith]

As I pick at and put together chapter 4 of Binary Stars, and I think of where I want to go with it and what I want to do, I think of something: the "Magical Twins" trope.

I know it's been overdone, but I think it's interesting every time it's explored and something new is done with it. I find it especially interesting when the trope is exercised on fraternal twins, as opposed to the usual identical twins.

So imagine my intrigue when I learned that Mara and Uldren were twins. I was like "oh, I bet something interesting is going to happen with them." That feeling built up more and more in my bones the more "special treatment" Crow got. I expected something really interesting, like maybe some interesting magical Light and Dark dichotomy between the two of them or something.

Aaaaand then all we got was Mystical Heart Monitor Powers. How... exciting (sarcasm).

I was -- still am -- so disappointed. I kind of expected more out of that. Then again, I expected more out of their relationship on a lot of fronts, so...

To that end, I've been pondering playing with that idea, since, well, in BS I can do whatever the fuck I want, beyond even "with the power of fanfiction I can do anything", since it's even a completely different setting. I've always really liked the idea of twins being two halves of a whole, or simply two intrinsically linked yet opposing forces (like light and dark).

I'll admit I don't know where I want to go with that, because I also like the idea of Villain Mara, (I maintain she has the makings of a great villain) but I also am not sure I know how to write that.

Things to think on.

I guess in the end this is just rambling to say that I'm still kind of disappointed where Destiny went with Mara and Uldren/Crow.

[haldenlith]

Oh, if you want a better build, you have to do Arbitrations and Steel Path, they said. It'll be fine, they said.

I am getting my ass handed to me on Steel Path. And I look on Overframe to get ideas and all these builds are just greek to me. What's a Galvanized mod? Archon shards? What's Rolling Guard? I've never heard of that gun. But Arcanes are so hard to get?

😵

[haldenlith]

I constantly struggle with what to call my general fashion style, which sucks because it makes finding clothes I like a lot more difficult (without making them myself).

Like, it's something that's a cross between this:

And this:

But also this:

Like the only keyword I've found that matches between everything is "expensive". (I say only half-joking.)

The only way I can describe it is like... "supervillain era cyberpunk" with a dash of "somewhat gothy rockerboy next store". Aaaaaaand neither of those are helpful.

I keep an entire Pinterest board of things I'd either wear or generally matches my vibe, and most of it is just eyecandy. Though I have purchased like... a handful of things I've found. (Most items are too far out of my price range, or don't exist.)

[haldenlith]

I do find some irony in boosting things talking about "finding community" (like actionable, local community that you can get help from and get shit done with -- not the fellow brainworm inflicted tumblrites) and all of that being important in this current age, especially right now amidst The Horrors.

I find irony in it because I have literally zero community I'm a part of. Everybody just kind of scattered to the wind and moved. Pretty much just me and my shack in the woods, now. Ah well. So it goes.

[haldenlith]

I just feel the great need to ramble about my ongoing, on-again, off-again original story that I may never finish.

Putting under a cut due to length.

So, randomly watching something the Youtube algo dug up (which doesn't happen super often, but if I'm bored, I'll humor it), and it's this video. Admittedly, I clicked it because, for anyone that's been around a while, I've been completely stalled out on my story, "[ null ] VOID". The story is semi-futuristic (in the same way Detroit: Become Human is futuristic -- near-future), and while cosmic horror isn't the main theme, there is definitely an undercurrent there (it's genuinely not a horror story, though). Watching the video, they focus on the topic of "cosmic bliss" and how that is, actually, more terrifying than cosmic horror -- the accepting, the absence of fear is the alien terrifying thing. There's also mention of the concept of (and I'm paraphrasing), "if you don't have any care or attachment, then... why are you still here? Existing?"

And I did the Leonardo DiCaprio meme point.

Because that's exactly the thing with this guy.

Athenos is a bio-android that gains sentience, but that's actually not the gimmick for him. He gains sentience shortly before the lab he's at, for mysterious circumstances, sort of... fractures into a different reality. Just that experience on its own would make probably for an interesting horror game, but anyway... Things go to shit, mutant abominations stalk the halls, all that, and he ends up entering a bargain with an entity that, throughout the story, is only referred to as "Him".

His grand issue, via that bargain, ultimately ends up being that he finds himself falling into subscribing to true blue nihilism. Nothing matters. All of these miserable creatures are insignificant and awful. He does not relate to his fellow androids, and especially not to their plight to being recognized as alive. He doesn't relate to humans, because he isn't human. He now knows things he shouldn't thanks to Him. He feels that humans are awful and undeserving. And thus, he feels that ceasing to be is a perfectly acceptable fate. Why continue going through the monotony of these daily processes? If living means doing this meaningless task of whatever it means to be alive, then living is meaningless. And so he seeks that dissolution, despite not being human. (Sort of something I intended to thread was that item alongside the general conversation of "if I am a machine, can I go mad, or am I simply malfunctioning?", and "if I am a machine, was I alive? Or simply 'On'?")

That's where the other character, Mari, comes into play.

He's an agent in something of a paranormal agency that deals with threats to this reality and humanity. Despite the job, he's honestly a very golden-retriever-esque guy. He's nice, he wants to help, and he's just happy to be here.

And he's ignorant and naive. He's very stubborn about keeping his rose-tinted glasses on his face, and has a tendency to kind of ignore the reality of things. If you're familiar with Mouthwashing, he... honestly kind of is the "Curly". If his best friend raped someone, he'd... probably handle the situation extremely poorly, trying to "make everything work for everyone".

Aaaaand... he's the one that encounters Athenos. And it's that "I have to blindly see the good in everyone" quality that leads him to refuse to kill Athenos, and thus sets them up as the duo of the story, as he becomes the handler of the cosmically-altered android.

The problem with the story has always been that I have a plan, an opening, and an ending, but no middle. The idea was that, over time, the two would learn and grow from each other in their own ways. And yet, at the same time, there be this little element in the end, where they've also, just a little bit, swapped.

Faced with The Antagonist, who comes as a shepherd offering salvation to his flock, Mari questions whether stopping him is the right call. If humans are as dangerous and wretched as Athenos has proposed, then... maybe this is the solution? Maybe they DO need guidance from something More. Maybe this thing isn't malicious? What's tied to Athenos isn't, so maybe this Shepherd isn't either? And, in turn, Athenos, now having something to care about, and having a purpose and a desire once more to interact with humanity and other androids, very much is like, "No, going quietly into the night will not fix everything." (He'd be a little more condescending about it, because even with growth, Athenos... kind of remains a little bit of an ass, he just becomes an ass that means well instead of an ass that doesn't care.)

There's other stuff, but that's the basic idea of things. I hope to go back to it some day, when my brain figures out how to get from point A to point C.

[haldenlith]

Sometimes I wish I could just beam what's in my mind onto the digital canvas without putting in the work.

Like I kind of randomly want to do some nicely lit porn of D2-era Ardwynn just having some alone time, but it's 1AM, and I do not have the brainpower to work that out in a way that will look even remotely satisfying to my neurons.

I think I need to start setting commission money aside and just start commissioning people for shit. I remember how over the moon I was when Brighan drew Ardwynn (it was just an SFW freebie, but it was still very cool). Ah, but then the cheapskate in me kicks in and goes, "why pay someone to do what you can do yourself?"

The continuing struggle of the "inside you are two wolves" variety.

[haldenlith]

I love how previously I could not be assed to rep grind in Warframe. Yet, turns out, all you need to motivate me to do exactly that is tie it to getting to know a group of adorable traumatized idiots, and potentially romancing one of those idiots.

I'm romancing Amir, for the record, in case my reblogs haven't given that away. Though Eleanor was a strong contender.

[haldenlith]

*slides in* Have some Old Leather Gays talking about activism and how to get involved. (And by involved, I mean more than just tongue lashing people on the internet.)

Because we're gonna need it.

[haldenlith]

New pinned post time because I'm sick of the old one!

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I only have one tumblr, and that's this one, which means there is no "theme" or anything to this. It's whatever. I post art, I post writing, but I mostly just ramble and reblog shit.

I'm not the best at tagging, so I highly advise NOT following if you really badly need to filter certain triggers out.

I will say anything I have that's NSFW (posted or reblogged), I do tag as "nsft".

Sometimes I ramble about random shit: that is usually tagged "haldie rambles".

Sometimes I get angry or irritated and shout at the sky like the old man I am: "haldie vents" or "haldie rants"

Then there's my art tag (haldie draws) and my writing tag (haldie writes).

Current Story Fixation (since I'm only posting it here): Binary Star

[haldenlith]

You know, even when I do get my internet back, I think my PS Plus will be expired, and homie doesn’t have the money to throw at something like that.

Well, crap. At least there’ll be Warframe.