#hakuoki is not about good and bad guys - its about people who face suffering and are affected by it in various ways

[thebluestmage]

ive seen way too many ppl say theyre not gonna play sanans route because hes awful and im just 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

i know that Villain Sanan is the most memorable but hes seriously been trying his best to remain himself while getting almost no support from people around him (because all the captains are bricks when it comes to emotional support; seriously, without chizuru, nobody would have their problems fixed because they dont know how to either share their problems or openly show support to other guys)

and when ochimizu drives him mad its long months after he took it (at least a year without any crazy moments, at least openly) which is REALLY admirable; even heisuke slips after a couple weeks and is suffering A Lot. but heisuke has nagakur anad harada and chizuru to support him when he needs it, while with sanan its more like "so... how are ya" "bad" "oh sorry to hear that! hang in there sanan san cya bye". of course other captains care about him and try but like... its sanan, everyone is a little bit intimidated by him, and then he - by his own choice - becomes "a monster"... i am sure they werent very keen to keep him company and make sure hes feeling alright.

AND YET hes still struggling!! for so long!! he cant leave the house and his only company most of time are other furies who, i dare say, arent the kind of crowd that helps one feel better

and hes still trying to help shinsengumi he loves so much!! because yes, almost everything sanan does is for shinsengumi, even when hes slowly losing his sanity.

he tries to improve and organize fury corps; and he actually manages to make a small army out of them.  and then - like in hijikatas route - again he takes one for the team, fooling both his allies and enemies to help shinsengumi (and the whole country, probably, since furies WOULD be a bigger issue had they spread).

instead of hating him its better to pity him for what disability (his injury, his inability to fight, and the following mental issues: self hate, feeling replaced, and mocked; all while having to swallow itous remarks and whispers behind his back) and then ochimizu (physical suffering, taking control over him, bloodlust, change of his day-night cycle and other things) did to this admirable, skilled, intelligent man who cared for shinsengumi so much. in way too many routes he tried to fight and lost, and its simply tragic. and im so glad kyoto winds&edo blossoms allow chizuru to finally stand next to him and lend him the strength he desperately needs to move forward and have faith in future. 

and of course youre free to dislike and hate him, because hes just a fictional character and there definitely are reasons for that, but lets not forget he originally was a kind, intelligent man, who always wanted best for shinsengumi.