#hair loss blocker

[prorevmakeouts]

T gel + DHT blocker looking more tempting by the minute

[shivasriworld]

Is there any way by which DHT can be blocked naturally? Studies show that DHT blocking essential oils may block the 5-alpha reductase action.

Following are some of the best DHT blocker oils:

1) Pumpkin Seed Oil

Pumpkin seeds contain a unique amino called cucurbitacin that improves hair growth. They also contain vitamin C, a nutrient that plays a vital role in hair growth.

2) Rosemary Oil

Studies have shown that rosemary oil can reverse the balding pattern of men and women. And while research is still on, the benefits of rosemary oil as a preventive measure to block DHT from attaching to hormone receptors have been acknowledged.

3) Tea Tree Oil

Tea tree oil has been around for centuries. It has healing properties and is useful for many ailments. It has also been found beneficial for hair and scalp problems. Tea tree oil is a great DHT blocking hair oil, and as it has antiandrogenic properties, it is said to control hair loss and improve hair regrowth effectively.

4) Coconut Oil

Coconut oil contains lauric acid, a substance that is said to block DHT production. By blocking DHT, a sex hormone that inhibits hair growth, coconut oil may improve hair growth and slow down balding.

5) Olive Oil

Olive oil contains oleic acid, a known substance to inhibit 5-alpha reductase. 5-alpha reductase is an enzyme that helps the conversion of testosterone into DHT, a hormone that can lead to hair loss. Since oleic acid inhibits DHT, olive oil is said to reduce hair fall and improve new hair growth.

6) Peppermint Oil

According to research, peppermint oil has anti-inflammatory, anti-fungal, and antimicrobial properties. It is also an anti-allergenic substance. Peppermint oil smells heavenly, and if you are wondering does peppermint oil block DHT, you can be sure it is great for hair loss and a great remedy for health issues such as irritable bowel syndrome.

List is not ended here.

There are many other Oils and Vitamin Supplements that help you to block DHT and to prevent hair loss.

DHT blocking oils and supplements can drastically slow down hair loss and balding. However, though these products are natural, they are very potent and can cause harm if not used properly. Precise products that have been formulated in laboratories, such as minoxidil, can sometimes be a safer option.

[re8biogenics]

Biotic DHT Blocker: A Solution for Hair Fall and Male Pattern Baldness

Hair loss is a common concern for many men, often resulting in a significant impact on self-esteem and confidence. Male pattern baldness, also known as androgenetic alopecia, is the most prevalent form of hair loss among men. It is primarily driven by a genetic sensitivity to dihydrotestosterone (DHT), a derivative of testosterone. Fortunately, advancements in hair care have led to the development of biotic DHT blockers, offering a promising solution for combating hair fall and male pattern baldness.

Understanding Male Pattern Baldness

Male pattern baldness typically begins with a receding hairline and thinning at the crown. Over time, the hair loss progresses, potentially leading to partial or complete baldness. The root cause of this condition lies in the action of DHT on hair follicles. DHT binds to androgen receptors in the hair follicles, shrinking them and shortening the hair growth cycle. This results in thinner, shorter hairs that eventually stop growing altogether.

The Role of DHT Blockers

DHT blockers work by inhibiting the production or action of DHT, thereby protecting hair follicles from its damaging effects. By reducing DHT levels, these blockers can slow down, halt, or even reverse hair loss. There are two main types of DHT blockers: synthetic and biotic (natural).

Benefits of Biotic DHT Blockers

Biotic DHT blockers are derived from natural sources such as plants, herbs, and minerals. They are increasingly favored for their safety, minimal side effects, and holistic approach to health. Key ingredients often found in biotic DHT blockers include:

Saw Palmetto: Extracted from the fruit of the Serenoa repens plant, saw palmetto is one of the most well-known natural DHT blockers. It inhibits the enzyme 5-alpha-reductase, which converts testosterone to DHT, thereby reducing DHT levels in the scalp.

Pumpkin Seed Oil: Rich in nutrients and fatty acids, pumpkin seed oil is another effective DHT blocker. It is believed to inhibit DHT production and promote overall scalp health.

Green Tea Extract: Green tea contains catechins, which are potent antioxidants. These catechins can inhibit the action of 5-alpha-reductase, thereby reducing DHT levels and promoting hair growth.

Pygeum Bark: Derived from the African cherry tree, pygeum bark extract has been used traditionally for its anti-inflammatory properties. It also helps reduce DHT levels in the scalp.

Nettle Root: Nettle root extract is known for its ability to inhibit the binding of DHT to hair follicle receptors, thus preventing hair loss.

Efficacy and Usage

Biotic DHT blockers can be used in various forms, including supplements, shampoos, conditioners, and topical treatments. When selecting a biotic DHT blocker, it's important to choose products with high-quality, standardized extracts to ensure efficacy. Consistent use over several months is typically required to see noticeable results, as hair growth is a slow process.

While biotic DHT blockers can be highly effective, they work best when combined with a comprehensive hair care routine. This may include maintaining a healthy diet rich in vitamins and minerals, regular scalp massages to improve blood circulation, and avoiding harsh hair treatments that can damage the follicles.

ConclusionMale pattern baldness can be a challenging condition to manage, but biotic DHT blockers offer a natural and effective solution for reducing hair fall and promoting hair growth. By targeting the underlying cause of hair loss and nurturing overall scalp health, these natural remedies provide a holistic approach to maintaining a full and healthy head of hair. With consistent use and proper hair care practices, men experiencing hair loss can regain confidence and enjoy the benefits of a more robust, healthier mane.

[myninaross]

Stop Hair Loss with DHT Blockers

Are you experiencing more hair loss than usual? Whether you are finding more hair on your pillow or favorite clothes than expected, it's only natural that you may be in search of the cause and a way to slow or stop this train that is barrelling to hair thinning or balding. Want to know more? You can read the full blog here: https://ninaross.co/blogs/hair-loss/stop-hair-loss-with-dht-blockers

[volleychumps]

When He's your Rival (w/ Tsukishima, Oikawa, Kuroo, and Atsumu) x Fem! reader

enemies to lovers but someone mistakes rivalry with feelings LMAO

Warning(s): cursing! some unwanted touches by an asshole in Oikawa's part, crying- Y/N's a little crybaby sometimes LOL

Tsukishima Kei

"Take a look and cry, four-eyes."

"Go back to fifth grade, I'm begging."

Smirking at his snarky comment, Tsukishima finds the energy to lazily lift his head off the desk, staring blankly at the red 97 inked on the corner of your paper, complete with a messily scrawled circle and a smiley face.

You always were a teacher's pet.

"Nice." The blonde yawns, going to put his head back down. "I scored a 99 though. Guess having four eyes really helps."

He can't stop the satisfied twitch tickling his lips as he buries his head a little further into his crossed arms, the sound of your groan of annoyance music to his ears as you crumple your test paper in your fist.

"This isn't over, Tsukki. I studied all night for this!"

"Don't call me that." He lifts his head to scowl at you as you haughtily spin on your heel, determination in your steps and a gloomy cloud over your head over the loss as he calls after you. "Not my fault you're obsessed with me."

You do a 360, pouting all the while as Tsukishima eyes you evenly, amusement twinkling momentarily in his eyes as he watches you grow flustered.

"I am not! Don't get it twisted, Tsukki- the only thing I'm obsessed with beating your sorry ass!" You crumple up your test paper further, fuming as you leave it on his desk in a childish manner.

"Why is my ass sorry when you're the one who lost?"

Yamaguchi watches on with a sigh, Tsukishima watching you storm off with a little bit more than amusement in his eyes before turning to his childhood friend.

"You feed into this way too much, Tsukki. Y/N is nothing but sweet, why do you bring out the worst in her?"

The tall blonde hums, his hand supporting his right cheek. "It's because she's just so fun to talk to."

Yamaguchi shivers at the cynical tone his childhood friend had taken on, wondering why this childish rivalry between the two of you had been stretched for as long as it was.

"We've known each other since we were kids, Tsukki. Y/N's parents used to joke about you guys marrying each other because you hated each other so bad."

"I don't hate her." Tsukishima's reply is immediate, moving to shift his headphones back onto his ears. "The brat knows I'd take care of her if it came down to it, so quit you're worrying, Yamaguchi."

Yamaguchi's expression shifts to one of surprise, but Tsukishima's already distracted, eyeing your crumpled up test before dropping into his bag.

Nothing wrong with taking a trophy, right?

A couple weeks later, you're holding your breath as your eyes scan the top 100 scores in the school during late-study hours, the halls nearly barren, willing your name to be above a certain blonde hair middle blocker before visibly wilting.

"Ah, look." You groan, the utterly amused voice you're not wishing to hear at this moment sounding in your ears as Tsukishima smirks down at you, finger prodding at the box marked Tsukishima Kei before pretending like he's looking for your name.

Not one, but two names down from his.

"Looks like someone didn't study-"

Tsukishima cuts himself off at the sight of your eyes filling up with frustrated tears, not expecting the sight before him to make his chest heavy.

You were always so dramatic.

"Tsukki, you win this time." You sniffle, wiping your eyes haughtily as he looks at the eye bags under your eyes, growing annoyed all of a sudden- even more iriate when he can't figure out why.

He knows this, but why is this effecting him so much?

"Oi." His voice is quiet with an agitated edge, putting a hand on your shoulder to lean you up against the wall. "Why are you so obsessed with this? You're so stupid- crying over something as meaningless as beating me."

Your cheeks puff up at his blatant remarks, his chest tingling before you take a deep breath before knocking your forehead against his, taking the blonde boy by surprise as he glares down at you, rubbing his nose.

"What the hell-"

"I just want to be your equal, you always treat me like I'm such childish brat." You tell him, mixed feelings in your throat as Tsukishima takes on a look of bewilderment. "Ever since we were kids-"

"So you just want my attention, is that it?" Tsukishima's smirking now, the pain in his nose unnoticeable as your expression stiffens, a hint of realization in your eyes as the blonde's throat suddenly grows tight.

"What-"

"Little Y/N, do you have feelings for me?"

"You're not that much older-!"

"Don't avoid the question, brat." Tsukishima's even closer now, hand touching the wall by your waist as your eyes dart all over the hallway. "Is this what all this rivalry is about? Why you care so much about proving-"

"And what if I do?" Your voice quivers for a second, Tsukishima's lips shutting tight at your words before frustrated tears grow in your eyes again. As if realizing what you said, your eyes grow wide with embarrassment- shoving him away before taking off down the hall.

The tall blonde stands there for a second, soaking in the last few minutes before touching the back of his neck, the tips of his ears reddening before sighing deeply.

He rolls his eyes before smirking a little, your confused expression flashing in his mind once more as he wonders what will become of your one-sided rivalry.

Fuck a trophy. He wants to see you make that face again.

Oikawa Tooru

"Tooru, you wanna fight me so bad."

"Just because I want to doesn't mean I will, Y/N-chan. You'll probably lose."

Iwaizumi barks out a laugh as your glare evenly matches Oikawa Tooru's, lightning flashing between the two of you as the brunette crosses his arms with a frown. He almost thinks it's fate- the two of you ending up in the same class seated next to each other with Oikawa by the window.

"The fact that you said probably instead of definitely means we both know Y/N would win in a fight."

"Stay out of this, Iwa-chan!" Oikawa doesn't break eye contact with you, growing more irriated at the sweet smile that overtakes your lips.

"Tooru, I'll start telling people your hair isn't natural in color~" You start doodling on your notes nonchalantly, amused at the popular boy's growth in irritation.

"You wouldn't dare." Oikawa pales at the obvious lie, knowing your effect- how your words would send ripples through the school by the end of the day.

That's right, ever since you transferred schools and gained popularity as the most sought-out girl at Aoba Joshai and had made a passing comment (you didn't really think about it) about how you had no idea who Oikawa Tooru was and didn't really care- the school's popular setter has had it out for you.

Iwaizumi had a huge kick out of it though, satisfied seeing his friend being put in place by the one girl he couldn't really have. You grin cheekily, batting your eyelashes innocently as Oikawa meets it with a pouty stare.

"Why do you care so much of what I think of you?"

"I don't."

"Then piss off." You close your eyes with sugar-laced words, causing Iwaizumi to turn around with a shaking back.

"Iwa-chan, stop laughing!" Oikawa whines, turning his attention back to you with a haughty remark to discover you had stood up and skipped off towards the exit of the classroom.

"She's got me. I'm her fan- I see the hype."

"Iwa-chan, you're supposed to be on my side!"

"Y/N didn't know who you were- big whoop." Matsukawa yawns, leaning back in his seat from in front of Iwaizumi. "Not everyone cares about volleyball."

"And she was new." Hanamaki adds, shrugging his shoulders at the look of betrayal his brunette-friend had sent him. "I'm just saying- maybe your anger is misplaced?"

"Oikawa has a crush~"

"Mattsun- I almost threw up, please." Oikawa sighs, spinning around in his seat with a newfound exhaustion. He looks out the window, eyebrow twitching when he sees you bowed deep in apology to some poor student who was obviously amidst confession. His defined chin touches his palm in thought as anger swirls in his stomach.

How he despises you so.

You were so annoyingly pretty. It was ticking him off, how you spoke so nicely to his three provoking friends yet would barely muster up a smile at him unless it was sarcastic. Oikawa observed as you messily brushed your hair back with your hands to focus on your work, growing even more annoyed when he discovered how much you cared about school.

It was all because he didn't like you, that's why he paid so much attention.

..right?

He's sipping from a can of orange juice, having ducked away from his fanclub to turn a corner of the school no one really frequents when he sees you again later that week.

"Y/N- you always act like you're too good for anybody."

The tall brunette stops at the corner, peering around it while remaining out of sight.

"Maybe I just don't like guys who pressure girls into dating them." You don't miss a beat- but Oikawa hears it, the tinge at the edge of your voice.

Fear.

Some nobody who Oikawa doesn't even know the name of clicks his tongue, grabbing your wrist roughly as you stare down at his strong clasp on you.

"Let me go, you fucking loser." You're pissed off now, smiling your signature grin- the one with no real sweetness behind it. You were afraid to have followed this dangerous guy to an empty part of the school- thinking one of your fellow students would never do this sort of thing.

You were so wrong. His grip tightens as you try to fling his hand off in frustration.

"Pretty Y/N-chan. I'll ruin that face of yours and beat that attitude-"

"Someone isn't taking rejection very well."

You blink in wild surprise as your back touches Oikawa's chest abruptly, his strong grip on the student's wrist as he yanks him off. You don't see him, but you don't have to turn around to know that Oikawa was pissed.

"Get your pretty boy toy out of here, slut." You wince at the insult slightly when the guy doesn't even look at Oikawa, still glaring down at you before Oikawa tugs you gently behind him, towering over the absolute nobody who dared to put a hand on you.

"You shitty coward." You look up at Oikawa's broad back and shoulders, anxiety draining out of your system as Oikawa keeps a firm grip on your hand. He squeezes your hand once, and you get the message.

You're okay.

"Getting physical with girls now, are we? Someone doesn't want to have a future." Oikawa mocks, tilting his head to the side menancingly with a smug grin on his face. "You know what pisses me off the most? When people don't acknowledge my existence."

You've never seen this side of him before.

Suddenly, Oikawa side steps, both arms reaching out to keep you behind him as his grin widens. You cover your mouth at the sight of the student having failed to land a punch on the setter's jaw.

"You attacked me, right?" Oikawa hands you his bag, jaw clenching before easily grabbing the guy's collar, the height difference making him pathetically dangle slightly off the floor. You gasp when his eyes take on a darker edge, delivering a hook of his own to the side of his face, not seeming to hold much back as Oikawa momentarily wonders just what was fueling all this anger.

"What's going on here?! Oikawa Tooru, let him go!"

When he drops him to the floor on command, you're looking at him differently.

Maybe you should've cared a bit more about just who Oikawa Tooru was.

You're still staring when he ignores the teacher, your wrist in his hand as he inspects it, asking you something- but you don't hear him, feeling an unknown swirl in your stomach.

And why the hell he was making you feel something you've never felt before.

Kuroo Tetsurou

"Kuroo, get over it."

"Don't roll your pretty eyes at me, kitten."

You huff, not even bothering to look up at the raven-haired captain as you check another tally on your clipboard. Another successful receive for Lev.

"How do you do it?"

"Kuroo, we've been over this-"

"Blah blah blah."

The interruption ticks you off, prompting you to finally look up from your work as Kuroo Tetsurou smirks down at you easily.

"It's not my fault they like me so much."

"They can't like you more than me! I'm the captain!"

"Someone's insecure."

It's Kuroo's turn to grow irritated at your remark, and you smirk successfully as Kenma sighs at the sight of you two from across the court. Yamamoto sweat drops, bouncing a volleyball off the wall as you and Kuroo begin bickering. You were annoyed as the taller captain grinned easily down at you.

"Why does Kuroo-san hate Y/N so much?"

"No idea. She makes me cookies when I listen well during practice!" Lev adds brightly. "If anything, Kuroo's the villain."

"Nah." Kenma doesn't look up from his game, thankful you're keeping his childhood friend occupied so he can't make him practice. "Kuroo doesn't hate her."

The surrounding members still, eyeing the short boy weirdly as the volume of you two bickering rises in the background.

"He definitely bothers her because it's fun." Kenma flicks his joystick, suddenly immersed in the level as it grows more interesting. "I wouldn't be surprised if he likes her."

Kenma's just speaking his mind at this point, but his fellow teammates don't believe him as Kuroo flicks your forehead, breaking off in a run as you chase him out of the gym in irritation.

"Yeah. Sure."

--

"Okay everyone," you begin, fiddling with your papers as the volleyball team sit in a circle with their knees tucked into their chest, hanging on to your every word as you try not to smile at how well-behaved they were. "Nekomata-sensei is out today, and he left instructions-"

"We'll be practicing in 3-on-3's."

You hold back a groan as Kuroo cuts you off, standing up easily as the tension between the two of you rises. He cocks his head to the side like what? with a growing smirk on his handsome features, causing your irritation to grow further. To annoy you on the sidelines of practice was one thing, but to disrupt you in front of the team is another.

"Anyways, like I was saying-"

"Shouldn't the captain know what's best for his team?"

Oh you hated being cut off.

You meet him with an even stare, trying not to let your temper get the best out of you.

"Kuroo-"

"Call me Tetsurou, Y/N-chan."

Kenma sighs when the lead of your mechanical pencil breaks against the clipboard, knowing Kuroo was pushing limits he hadn't before.

"Alright, Tetsurou." Your voice is venomous, shoving the clipboard with their coach's instructions into Kuroo's hands with an aggression you were having trouble controlling. You were so mad you began to see your vision get blurry, suddenly exhausted from the captain's antics and why he wouldn't leave you alone.

"You lead practice then." Kuroo's easy smirk grows into a worried stare at the sight, watching you storm off before he can get another word out.

"Boo, you made our manager cry."

"This is why you'll die alone."

"Y/N for president!"

But Kuroo isn't listening to the obvious slander from his teammates, putting the clipboard down before jogging off after you, Kenma rolling his eyes to unzip his gym bag for his switch.

"He flirts like a little school boy."

The raven-haired third year catches you in the halls, frustrated with yourself as your back touches the shoe lockers behind you. You didn't mean to overreact. It was something about him that made you so-

"I'm sorry, Y/N."

"Don't apologize." You grumble, looking straight on ahead before glancing upwards. Kuroo awkwardly takes a seat next to you, the sound of after-school activities filling the air in your silence.

"Do you hate me or something?"

Kuroo blinks once, guilt filling his chest at the ideas in your head before hanging his head with a heavy sigh. It seems he took his antics a bit too far.

"Y/N, you're just fun to tease." He drops the nickname, and you smile a bit knowing he's serious. "I don't mean to make you upset. The team loves you, and I..."

He trails off, causing you to cock an eyebrow. Kuroo looks away quickly, clearing his throat before looking back at you-

to see you genuinely smiling at him, his chest suddenly tight.

"That's a relief. You're too much sometimes, but I can't say I don't enjoy our conversations. I didn't mean to over-react-" You cut yourself off, suddenly worried as you raise a hand to his forehead. "Wow, you're suddenly flushed. Are you sick, Tetsurou?"

He grows a shade darker when your sweet voice calls his first name, seeming to short-circuit in front of you as question marks seem to appear by your face.

Meanwhile, the team shushes each other as they peer around the corner of the hallway, Yamamoto and Lev's mouth agape as a certain gamer merely shrugs.

"Told you so."

"Nobody likes a know-it-all, Kenma."

Atsumu Miya

"'Samu, tell me I'm better than her."

"I'm not lyin' to ya', twin or not."

Almost immediately, the blonde setter glares at his own flesh and blood, Osamu offering a slight smirk in response at his brother's irritation. Atsumu sinks lower in his seat, pouting as Suna rolls his eyes to the right of him.

"Can't believe I'm spending my precious free time to watch more volleyball."

Atsumu isn't listening to his friend, silently focused at the way you controlled the court, triumphant grin on your face as you score the winning point to take the first set. In fact, you had scored over half the points, the other team's blockers barely standing a chance. He had to come see it. All the buzz around school can't have been for nothing.

Y/N L/N. Volleyball prodigy that seemed to have come out of thin air.

Osamu whistles lowly. "Y/N's kinda like you."

"Don't insult me, 'Samu." But Atsumu knows he doesn't mean it. Suna glances at his friend once, sipping his drink casually as Atsumu gets a glint in his eye, fire seeming to erupt in the back around him.

"Oho, Atsumu's got a rival." Suna isn't too interested, merely observing his surroundings as Osamu coughs back a chuckle.

"Shuddup." Atsumu mumbles, eyes meeting yours as you look up at the stands to see just who was burning holes into your head. He shakes his head with a smirk on his lips when you cockily blow a kiss in his direction.

"Y/N...that's Atsumu Miya, you do know he goes to our school, right?"

"Oh...shit." You back down, suddenly embarrassed as you look away, Atsumu's eyes spinning with amusement and eagerness to one-up you, the cheers of the stadium mocking in his ears.

So low in behold, you try not to let the surprise etch onto your features when Atsumu is pointing a finger at you, having escaped the boy's gym to crash your practice when after-school activities come around.

"You." You blink, utterly confused as your teammates squeal in excitement at his presence. "Yer' practicin' with me, got that?"

Your jaw slackens at the audacity, wondering if he wanted to practice or if he wanted to prove something. Atsumu knew he had the right idea about you when you take a step forward, tilting your head in challenge.

"Think you can keep up?"

--

"Oi, stop harassing Y/N at the girl's gym and practice with your team." Aran puts emphasis on his words as Osamu snickers from behind him, watching his twin get scolded as Kita sighs.

"She is very good at what she does." The captain nods. "But that doesn't mean our paths have to cross with the girls'- in fact, they never should."

"Then let her play here." Atsumu doesn't care if he doesn't make any sense. "Y/N runs circles around her team anyways- hell, she's pullin' the whole team on her back."

The Inarizaki team resist the urge to roll their eyes at their setter's blatant slander. Osamu is amused, tying up the net as he attempts to tame his twin.

"She runs circles 'round you, that's for sure."

Suna stifles a laugh as Atsumu feels it again. Competition. He loved the feeling of it- the feeling that things were finally getting interesting.

He's walking towards the girl's gym again to drag you out to play with his team so he can play against you, when something he hears makes him pause in his step.

"I just don't understand what Atsumu-kun sees in her!" It's a high pitched whine, one that causes his eyes to darken.

"Right? It's not like Y/N is pretty or anything like that."

"She's good at volleyball- so what? It's not like she'd be anywhere without her team."

A tap on his shoulder is what breaks him out of his eavesdropping, turning slowly to see you standing there with a sad smile, grip tightening on the bag filled with drinks- you had went to get drinks for the entire team, while they boldly slandered you behind your back.

Your voice is hushed, but tinged with a bit of hurt as you shrug.

"It's just the way of the game."

"Like hell it is." Atsumu growls, swinging open the door as you gape at the action. Before you can react, Atsumu's laugh is resounding through the gym as you peek out from behind his back.

"Oh my god, aren't you three bench warmers? Yer' the ones talkin' shit?" He can't hold back his laughter as you audibly sigh from behind him.

"A-Atsumu-"

"Oi." The blonde isn't laughing anymore, eyes on the edge of menacing as he cracks his neck, eyes darkening. "Squeal all you want, just hope and pray I'm not there to listen to it."

"Y/N-senpai, we're so sorry!" You blanch at the three girls who were now bowing profusely in front of you before assuring them it's fine, tugging on Atsumu's arm with an eyeroll.

"We need to talk."

"You know, you are pretty." Atsumu grumbles as you tug him along. "I don't know why they-"

"I can fight my own battles, 'Tsumu." You huff at the boy in front of you, considering him both your rival and your friend. "It's just misplaced jealousy- don't make it worse between my teammates and I. I would've said something- come on, do you know me?"

Atsumu stands there for a second, soaking in your words as a slow realization comes onto him. This whole time, he's been treating you like a rival, a thing, something to propel him further and sharpen his skills-

not realizing he had slowly grown to care about you a little more than a rival maybe should. He had moved without thinking, the thoughtless words not meant for his ears pissing him off way more than it would've any other person.

But this was you. You always walked along your bicycle when he insisted on walking you home, making him listen to your music as you trained before eventually making playlists for him when he told you how much he liked it. You trained with him for as long as he wanted, even going to the public gym together when you trained with your respective teams.

Atsumu is still staring at you, seeming to process something as you laugh a little at his expression as the sun begins to set behind your figure.

"I'm not mad at you. Come on, I'll bring you back."

"Quit treatin' me like a stray." Atsumu mumbles, but he's unfocused, burning holes into the back of your head as you tug him along, smiling back at him.

"You have a bad habit of staring at me, you know?"

Oh shit.

"Well, you did call me pretty and all." You tease, winking once as you wave at his team in the distance, waiting by the practice gym to continue the practice as his prolonged absence ended up affecting the entire team.

Atsumu ducks his head as his twin smirks at the sight, Atsumu's face on fire as his eyes lock on to where you're hand is touching his arm.

He's so fucked.

[hairmetto]

Uncovering the Science Behind Topical dht blocker Benefits.

Are you one of the countless individuals who suffer from hair loss? Do you feel like you've tried every hair restoration product under the sun to no avail? Look no further! The science behind topical dht blocker benefits has been uncovered, and it's time to restore your confidence and hair growth. Topical dht blockers, such as our Restore hair growth serum, are designed to block the hormone responsible for male pattern baldness. These products typically contain ingredients like saw palmetto oil that inhibits DHT production in the scalp. But how exactly does this process work? When DHT is produced in excess, it causes hair follicles to shrink and eventually die off. By blocking its production through the topical application of a DHT blocker, we can preserve those precious hair follicles that would otherwise be lost. It is important to note that DHT blockers will not work for everyone. For example, it's been proven that these products are ineffective on men who are already balding or in the early stages of hair loss. However, if you have significant hair loss and are looking to prevent future hair loss, these products may be worth trying. They may not be the best products in terms of quality and effectiveness, but they are better than using nothing. Hair loss is an issue that affects many men and women around the world. But fortunately, there are treatments available that offer a solution to this problem. One such treatment is topical dht blockers, which have been gaining popularity due to their scientifically proven benefits. This article seeks to uncover the science behind these topical dht blockers and discuss their benefits. One of the most effective treatments for hair loss is topical dht blockers. DHT, or dihydrotestosterone, is a hormone that causes hair follicles to shrink and eventually stop producing hair. Topical dht blockers prevent this hormone's production in the scalp. Topical dht blockers are one of the most effective treatments for hair loss. Various studies have shown that these blockers can help to slow down or even reverse the effects of hair loss caused by DHT. This is because they work by preventing the hormone from binding to androgen receptors in hair follicles. Doing so helps to reduce inflammation, increase blood flow and promote hair growth. One of the main benefits of topical dht blockers is that they are easy to apply and do not require a prescription. They come in various forms, such as shampoos, conditioners, serums, and sprays. These products contain natural ingredients such as saw palmetto extract, caffeine, biotin, and ketoconazole, which have been shown to block DHT production or activity. Some brands also offer a range of products specifically designed for men or women, depending on their unique needs. Overall, topical dht blockers provide an effective solution for those struggling with hair loss caused by male or female-pattern baldness. However, it's important to note that these treatments may not work for everyone, and results may vary depending on individual factors like age, genetics and severity of hair loss. It's always best to consult with a healthcare professional before starting any new treatment regimen for hair loss management. There are several benefits to using topical dht blockers as a treatment for hair loss. Firstly, they are easy to apply and can be used in the comfort of your own home. Secondly, they are effective at preventing further hair loss and even promoting new growth in some cases. Topical dht blockers are becoming increasingly popular as a treatment for hair loss, and for a good reason. One of the main benefits is that they are easy to apply and can be used in the comfort of your home. Simply apply the blocker to your scalp, massage it, and let it work magic. This ease of use makes it convenient for people with busy schedules or those who may not feel comfortable going to a professional salon. Another benefit of topical dht blockers is that they effectively restore hair growth. DHT (dihydrotestosterone) is a hormone that can contribute to hair loss by shrinking hair follicles and shortening their lifespan. By blocking the effects of DHT on the scalp, these blockers can stop or slow down hair loss and promote new growth. Studies have shown that topical dht blockers can increase hair density, thickness, and overall quality in both men and women with pattern baldness or other types of alopecia. Overall, topical dht blockers offer an accessible solution for those looking to combat hair loss without resorting to more invasive treatments such as surgery or prescription medications. They are easy to use, affordable, and backed by scientific research showing their effectiveness in promoting healthy hair growth. Additionally, topical dht blockers have minimal side effects compared to other treatments, such as oral medications or surgery. This makes them a safe and affordable option for those seeking a solution to their hair loss concerns. Topical dht blockers offer a promising solution for men and women struggling with hair loss. Topical dht blockers have become increasingly popular due to their effectiveness and minimal side effects. Unlike oral medications or surgery, which may cause unwanted side effects, topical dht blockers are applied directly to the affected area and do not enter the bloodstream. This means they have a lower risk of systemic side effects such as decreased libido or erectile dysfunction. Another benefit of topical dht blockers is that they are affordable compared to other treatments. Many people with hair loss cannot afford expensive surgical procedures or long-term medication regimens. Topical dht blockers offer a cost-effective solution for those seeking treatment without breaking the bank. In addition to being safe and affordable, topical dht blockers are convenient for those with busy schedules. They can be applied quickly and easily at home without frequent trips to a doctor's office or clinic. With consistent use, topical dht blockers can help reduce hair loss and promote healthy hair growth, giving users more confidence in their appearance and overall well-being.

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A Surprise Gift

“Are you fucking for real dude?” Jim slammed the door to their apartment and stumbled toward the couch, “I was this close.” He sat down and stared daggers at his roommate.

“She wasn’t interested bro.” Eric replied, “You were acting like a fucking creep.” Jim muttered a few curse words under his breath, “Sober up.” He tossed him a water bottle.

“Fucking cock blocker.” Jim whined before chugging the water, “She would’ve been lucky to...”

“You say that about everyone. Its gross man.” Eric sighed, “Look, I’m going to bed. You should too. And clean up the kitchen tomorrow. I’m tired of all the dishes in the sink.” Jim shot him another dirty look and stumbled to his bed.

“Fucking asshole.” Eric mumbled, hoping to forget this stupid night out. 

_______

The next morning, Eric stumbled out of his room in just a pair of gray boxers. It was Sunday and he had a few things he needed to get done- mainly study for an upcoming exam and exercise. And of course, Jim was up playing videogames.

“Did you start on the dishes?” Jim glared at Eric, and before they could continue bickering, someone knocked on their door.

Jim mumbled something about it being too early, as Eric walked over and opened the door. Sitting in front of the door was a white box, addressed to Jim.

“Hey Jim, you got something.” Eric said, placing the box on the counter, “Any idea what it might be?”

Jim smirked, “Probably from one of my admirers.” He chucked, walking over and tearing open the box, “See dude, this is what happens when you... what the fuck?”

Eric couldn’t help but laugh at the contents of the box. Whoever left it had a sense of humor. There were several dick shaped lollipops, all of various sizes and colors. Jim looked mortified as he inspected them.

“Was this you dude?”

“Wasn’t me.” Eric replied, walking over and inspecting the contents, “Maybe someone’s trying to tell you something. You gonna try one?”

“No fucking way man.” Jim grimaced in disgust, “This mouth doesn’t suck dick. I’m throwing this shit out.”

Eric chuckled, “I’m not that insecure about my sexuality.” He said with a grin, plopping one of the lollipops in his mouth, “Besides, don’t you like doing it with guys too?”

Jim smirked, “I get sucked or I fuck. Not the other way around. I’m not some hole.”

Eric wanted to call Jim an asshole, but was at a loss for words. The flavor of the lollipop was intense, coating his mouth with an intoxicating sweetness. He began sucking vigorously on the lollipop, earning him a look from Jim.

“Yo dude, you enjoying that?” Jim chuckled.

Eric’s eyes widened, “Damn,” He chucked in embarrassment, “It’s pretty good.” He looked at the time though and sighed, “Shit I need to get ready. Finish those dishes, okay?”

But the rest of the day just didn’t feel right to Eric. Likely from the booze he told himself. His workout was shitty and even studying felt useless. Material he mastered was almost as confusing as when he first started. Feeling defeated, he headed back to his apartment.

“Hey man, what’s up?” Jim asked, his eyes never leaving the TV.

“Not much, just feeling off.” Eric replied, absent mindedly grabbing another lollipop and sucking on it, “Just gonna get ready for bed and start fresh tomorrow.” He stumbled to his room, collapsing onto his bed and drifting to sleep.

_______

The next morning brought no relief. In fact, Eric felt worse. As he stared at himself in the bathroom mirror, he noticed things were off. Maybe it was the lighter color of his hair, or the fact that his triceps and biceps looked less swole. Same with his pecs and legs for that matter. He poked at his pec and grimaced. It felt less firm, almost as if the muscle behind them was breaking down.

“I just need to work out.” He mumbled.

He threw on a pair of his shorts and a t-shirt, noticing that they seemed baggy on him compared to their usual tight fit. He probably fucked them up in the laundry. But he was running late- he didn’t have time to worry.

“See yA lAter!” He called out to Jim- his voice cracking, which caused him to turn red with embarrassment.

Jim raised an eyebrow and watched as Eric grabbed another lollipop, “Hey dude, maybe...” But before he could say anything, Eric was gone.

_______

Eric sighed as he returned to the apartment later that day, feeling defeated. He couldn’t focus on the review session his professor was leading. Every time he looked up, he couldn’t help but stare at some of the men in his class. More specifically their muscular arms, sexy smiles, and facial hair. While Eric never seemed to notice those things before, it was all he could focus on during class.

“Hey mAn.” Why the fuck did his voice keep cracking?

Jim looked over at Eric, “Woah dude, you don’t look so good.” He walked over to his roommate. Eric blushed when he noticed Jim wearing nothing but a pair of boxers.

He must’ve just worked out. Eric could smell his musk and couldn’t help but notice how big his arms appeared. The heat from his body was radiating, and without thinking, Eric placed a hand on his roommate’s large pec. It felt so good- so firm in his grasp.

“Woah dude, what the fuck?” Eric’s hand shot to his side. He looked down, deep in thought and trying to make sense of his actions.

Before Jim could speak again, Eric grabbed another lollipop and fled to his room, slamming the door and collapsing onto bed, tears stinging at his eyes.

_______

The following morning, Eric awoke and daintily hopped out of bed and sauntered to the bathroom. He found himself needing to pull up his boxers to prevent them from sliding off his skinny waste. When Eric rubbed the sleep from his eyes and stared in the mirror, he jumped.

“Wh-what the fuck?” He whispered, his voice more high pitched and feminine, “Where’d my pit hair go?” He mumbled raising an arm above his head, “Fuck what happened to my muscles?” Tears threatened to fall from his eyes. 

His hard earned muscles- tokens of his masculinity- all seemed to have shrunk down to nothing. His abs that he worked so hard on were gone, replaced by a thin layer of fat. He spent years working to get his body to peak athletic performance. Even a few days of underperformance at the gym shouldn’t have reversed his hard earned gains. He needed to get help... Jim could help him, right? Jim always looked good. So muscular and manly. Eric shook his head and took a few deep breaths.

“I kinda look like the guys Jim brings home” He whispered, a strange pride rising from within him, “I-I need to talk to Jim”, He left to find Jim. But as he did, he noticed the dishes still piled in the sink, “Hmm I should take care of those for Jim. He works so hard.” He thought, deviating from his path and grabbing another lollipop. If he was going to do the dishes, he might as well treat himself.

And when he finally finished, he treated himself to another lollipop. Barely remembering why he wanted to talk, he went to knock on Jim’s door. But the sound coming from the other side stopped him- the unmistakable sound of some porn video. And he could hear his roommate moaning.

With each masculine moan, Eric’s mind was melting. Why was some porno making Jim moan like that? Especially when he could make Jim moan like that? The thought of pleasing Jim... it was intoxicating. And as these thoughts violated his mind, he reached down and massaged his ass. He imagined Jim- his sweaty body, his big muscles, his huge dick- grabbing and slapping his ass And as he teased his asshole, Eric’s eyes began to widen- what the fuck was he thinking?  

He scurried back to his room, forgetting that he had an exam today. Instead, he sat there, sucking on another lollipop, and trying to make sense of what was happening to him. All the while, unaware that his ass was starting to fatten up as his dick shrank.  

_______

Eric stumbled out of his room a few hours later, hungering for another lollipop. His ass was massive now- nearly spilling out of his tight boxers. At least they weren’t loose anymore. But his gait had shifted too. He would never be able to walk again without showing off his ass with his sexy saunter. No one would ignore it- especially not Jim.

“Dude...” Jim said, looking up from his videogame, “Fuck...”

Eric’s face turned red, “Dude, I don’t...” He tried to find another lollipop but they were gone, “Bro! What happened to all the...?”

“You ate them all.” Jim said, walking over to Eric, “Shit, what happened to you dude?”

But Eric was near tears, “I need those lollipops, please.” He whined, “They’re so good.” And without a second thought, he wrapped his arms around Jim’s muscular torso and sobbed into his pecs.

Jim smirked. Since when was Eric so short? And damn, when did his ass get so fuckable? The jock cupped Eric’s chin and stared deeply into his eyes.

“Eric, I don’t know what happened to you.” He said with a grin, “But if you wanna suck cock so bad, why settle for those stupid lollipops?”

Eric looked up at him with wide eyes, unable to reply. Jim slowly pushed Eric to his knees, never breaking eye contact. And Eric, despite the voice in the back of his head screaming for him to stop, pulled down Jim’s shorts. His roommate’s monster of a cock slapped him in the face.

“Go on.” Jim encouraged, “I think you owe me for all the times you cock blocked me. Right roomie?”  

And with that, Eric wrapped his lips around Jim’s thick cock. The sensation was even more intoxicating than the lollipops. It filled his mouth- the saltiness dancing across his taste buds, while the smell of Jim’s manly musk invaded his nostrils. Eric’s eyes rolled into the back of his head as Jim thrust his cock deeper and deeper into his formerly straight roommate’s throat. And with each thrust, Eric’s hair became lighter and lighter- until settling on platinum blond. At the same time, Eric’s mind was breaking down. His interest in sports disintegrated- he would email his coaches that he was quitting the team. His desire to succeed in school was replaced by a need to suck and get fucked- he would drop out of school tomorrow. Any decency or respect he commanded was drowned in a sea of lust- a need for cock. Any cock, anywhere. Eric’s eyes became vacant and glazed over as the remainder of his intelligence, kindness, and ambition disappeared into the void. And when Jim caught the dull, submissive, slutty look in his roommate’s eyes, he came.

_______

It had been a few weeks since then and Eric continued to serve his sexy roommate. Jim would go to practice and classes, while Eric would take care of things around the apartment. And when Jim would return, Eric was happy to provide him with either his mouth or ass. Sure, it was a surprise to when he came out as gay. And an even bigger surprise when he dropped out of college. But Eric hadn’t a care in the world. Just a hole- as Jim called him.

As he spent another day cleaning up after Jim, he heard a knock at the door.

“OMG is Scott here already?” Eric sang. Jim was nice enough to let the other members of the team use Eric when they needed. But Eric was disappointed to find just a letter addressed to him, “Hmm okay then.” He whined, opening it.

His vacant eyes read through the letter. Something about an apology. That those lollipops were meant to teach Jim a lesson for using others as nothing more than holes. That this wasn’t what they wanted. That there could be a way to reverse this. Eric giggled- a voice screaming from within his mind to reverse it. To call the number left on the letter and return him to his prior self. But Eric shrugged and tore the letter- the voice in the back of his head now sobbing.

“Reverse this?” He giggled, “Not a chance.”

[dat-soldier]

for all my balding girlies and enbies out there who feel they would never be able to be pretty and transition right, please don't get discouraged. estrogen gave me back a lot of density on thinning areas, and 2 hair grafts on the areas that had complete hair loss fixed the rest (AND blockers will prevent any future loss). It's possible ok. be the person you wish you were

[nightbunnysong]

Boost hair growth naturally

THE BIOCHEMICAL POWER OF TEAS AND NUTRIENT-RICH FOODS

Herbal teas and their role in hair growth

🌸Green Tea

Active Components

the powerhouse in green tea is epigallocatechin gallate (EGCG), a potent antioxidant

Biochemical Mechanism

EGCG helps in blocking the enzyme 5-alpha-reductase, which converts testosterone into dihydrotestosterone (DHT). Elevated DHT levels are linked to hair loss, particularly androgenetic alopecia (male and female pattern baldness). By reducing DHT production, green tea helps in preventing hair follicle shrinkage and hair thinning. Additionally, the polyphenols in green tea enhance blood circulation to the scalp, ensuring that hair follicles receive the necessary nutrients and oxygen to thrive.

Usage

Drink 2-3 cups of green tea daily to reap its hair-boosting benefits. It can also be used as a rinse post-shampooing to stimulate the scalp directly.

🌸Nettle Tea

Active Components

Nettle is rich in iron, silica, magnesium, and vitamins A, C, D, and K.

Biochemical Mechanism

Nettle tea works as a natural DHT blocker, similar to green tea. Its high iron content supports hemoglobin production, enhancing oxygen delivery to the scalp and hair follicles. This is crucial because a well-oxygenated scalp provides an optimal environment for hair growth. The silica and sulfur in nettle also strengthen hair strands, improving hair’s structural integrity and reducing breakage.

Usage

Regular consumption of nettle tea (1-2 cups daily) can provide these essential nutrients. Additionally, a cooled nettle infusion can be used as a hair rinse to further strengthen hair shafts.

🌸Rosemary Tea

Active Components

Rosemary contains ursolic acid and caffeic acid.

Biochemical Mechanism

Ursolic acid found in rosemary improves scalp circulation, similar to EGCG in green tea. This ensures that hair follicles are well-nourished, promoting robust hair growth. Rosemary also has anti-inflammatory properties, which help in maintaining a healthy scalp environment by reducing potential scalp conditions like dandruff, which can hinder hair growth.

Usage

Drinking 1-2 cups of rosemary tea daily or using it as a hair rinse can provide these benefits. Infusing rosemary oil into your tea can further amplify its effects due to the added antioxidants.

Nutrient-dense foods for hair growth

🌸Biotin-rich foods

Key Foods

Eggs, almonds, sweet potatoes, spinach, and seeds.

Biochemical Mechanism

Biotin (Vitamin B7) is crucial for the production of keratin, the structural protein that makes up your hair. It acts as a coenzyme in fatty acid synthesis, which is essential for the growth and repair of cells, including hair cells. A deficiency in biotin can lead to hair thinning and brittleness.

Incorporation

Incorporate biotin-rich foods into your diet regularly. For example, adding a boiled egg to your breakfast or including sweet potato as a side dish can help maintain adequate biotin levels.

🌸Iron-rich foods

Key Foods

Lentils, red meat, spinach, and fortified cereals.

Biochemical Mechanism

Iron is essential for producing hemoglobin, the protein in red blood cells that carries oxygen to tissues, including the scalp. Oxygenated blood nourishes hair follicles, facilitating the growth of strong, healthy hair. Iron deficiency is one of the most common causes of hair loss, particularly in women.

Incorporation

Combine iron-rich foods with vitamin C-rich foods like oranges or bell peppers to enhance absorption. For example, a spinach salad with orange slices can optimize iron intake and support hair growth.

🌸Omega-3 fatty acids

Key Foods

Fatty fish (salmon, mackerel), flaxseeds, chia seeds, and walnuts.

Biochemical Mechanism

Omega-3 fatty acids are integral to maintaining the lipid barrier of the scalp, which helps retain moisture and protect hair from drying out and breaking. They also reduce inflammation, which can sometimes hinder hair growth by causing scalp conditions like psoriasis or dandruff. Omega-3s contribute to the overall health of cell membranes in the scalp, making them more resilient.

Incorporation

Aim to consume fatty fish at least twice a week or add flaxseeds to your smoothies or cereals. Walnuts can also be a great snack option to keep your omega-3 levels adequate.

🌸Zinc-rich foods

Key Foods

Oysters, pumpkin seeds, chickpeas, and cashews.

Biochemical Mechanism

Zinc plays a key role in DNA and RNA production, which is essential for the division of hair follicle cells. It also helps regulate the production of androgens, a hormone linked to hair loss when imbalanced. Moreover, zinc helps in repairing hair tissue and maintaining oil glands around hair follicles, which are crucial for healthy hair growth.

Incorporation

Include zinc-rich foods in your diet, like a handful of pumpkin seeds as a snack or adding chickpeas to salads and stews.

🌸Vitamin E-rich foods

Key Foods

Sunflower seeds, almonds, spinach, and avocados.

Biochemical Mechanism

Vitamin E is a powerful antioxidant that helps repair damaged hair follicles, which can be a barrier to hair growth. It also improves blood circulation to the scalp, ensuring that hair follicles are nourished. Vitamin E helps balance oil production in the scalp, preventing dryness or excess oil, both of which can impede hair growth.

Incorporation

Sprinkle sunflower seeds on your yogurt or salads, or incorporate avocados into your meals for a healthy dose of vitamin E.

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[wheelie-sick]

What is immunocompromisation?

Being immunocompromised means you have a weaker immune system than most people. There are two main ways people become immunocompromised

1. Medical Conditions

Certain medical conditions cause your immune system to be weaker. Some examples include:

Immunodeficiencies- A category of conditions causing a lower number of or lower efficacy of immune cells. This category is divided into two subcategories: primary immunodeficiency and secondary immunodeficiency. Primary immunodeficiency is a subcategory consisting of hundreds of different conditions all causing a lower number of immune cells. Secondary immunodeficiency is a smaller category consisting of conditions where a person lacks immune cells due to other causes such as malnutrition.

HIV/AIDS

Some cancers

2. Medications

There are two main types of medications that result in being immunocompromised: Immunosuppressants and chemotherapy

Immunosuppressive medications- Immunosuppressive medications are medications designed to suppress your immune response. These can work in many different ways with some targeting a broad range of immune cells and others being highly specific. These medications are often used for organ transplant recipients and people with moderate-severe autoimmune diseases. Some medications in this category include: organ transplant medications, biologics, and high dose corticosteroids

Chemotherapy- Chemotherapy often comes with the effect of preventing new fast-dividing cells from being produced. This is why hair loss is such a common side effect of chemotherapy. Immune cells are fast dividing and therefore frequently are unable to be produced while on chemotherapy

The effects of immunocompromisation

Immunocompromisation has a large range of effects depending on the reason someone is immunocompromised. The most common effects are an increased susceptibility to illness and cancers. Increased susceptibility to illness can look like:

Frequent illnesses

Illnesses that are more severe than they would be for other people

Recurrent infections

Infections that don't respond to medication

Delayed response to infection

Infections that last longer than usual

Some people are more susceptible to certain types of infections. For example anifrolumab, a biologic used for lupus, makes people more susceptible to herpes zoster and respiratory tract infections while prednisone, a corticosteroid, increases risk of infection across the board. This occurs due to different causes of immunocompromisation affecting different immune cells with different roles in preventing and responding to infection.

Grades of severity

Recently the term "moderately and severely immunocompromised" has been used in covid-19 resources. Certain factors are considered to make someone moderately or severely immunocompromised, these include:

Advanced or untreated HIV infection

Moderate or severe primary immunodeficiencies

Hematologic malignancies

Active treatment for solid tumors or hematologic malignancies

Immunosuppressant medications used for solid organ or islet transplants

CAR-T cell therapy or hematopoietic stem cell transplantation

Treatment with alkylating agents, antimetabolites, high-dose corticosteroids, chemotherapeutic agents, TNF blockers, and other biologic agents that are immunosuppressive or immunomodulatory

What immunocompromisation is not

It's worth noting that getting sick frequently or getting seriously sick from illnesses that are usually mild is a warning sign for being immunocompromised but does not inherently make you immunocompromised. Some people are just more susceptible to illness without being immunocompromised.

Having minimal response to an infection that is usually more serious is a sign of a strong immune system, not a weak one.

Being immunocompromised is also not the same as being high risk for serious infection. All immunocompromised people are high risk but not all high risk people are immunocompromised. Immunocompromisation is specifically when someone is high risk because their immune system is weak. Particularly in regards to covid, there are many conditions that make you higher risk that do not involve a weak immune system.

Autoimmune diseases do not automatically make you immunocompromised. Something being a disorder of the immune system does not mean that you are immunocompromised because immunocompromised means a weaker immune system not a malfunctioning immune system.

[femcelbassmentdweller]

Overview of My First Year of HRT (2021-2022)

Hi, my name is Sylvie, and I'm transfemme! I started hormone replacement therapy on September 25th, 2021 and I've been through quite a lot on my journey to a year of HRT so I'm making two separate posts: this one focusing on the medical side and physical changes, and another that will focus on the social side of transitioning. So, here we go!

I realized I was trans the last week of August 2021, then September 9th I came out publicly, September 15th I had my first appointment with Plume, and I received my first Estradiol script September 24th, but consider my official "first day" of HRT the 25th.

I started HRT on sublingual Estradiol pills, 2mg twice a day (morning and night). Psychologically, taking the first pill hit me like a psychosomatic lightning bolt, and the first meaningful change estrogen granted me was an opening of my feelings- I could suddenly experience a "true range" of emotion, I experienced ambivalence for the first time. Physically, within the first week, I was experiencing tingling in my chest/nipples and by three weeks they actively ached, and after about two months my nipples looked different (darker, larger), and my chest started to stick out (36" to 37")

At 2 months my Estradiol was increased to three times a day and Progesterone 100mg (at night) added. By two months, my body's sensitivity had reached astronomical levels, particularly in areas that weren't sensitive before: for me, this was my nipples, armpits, and butt. My skin overall became more sensitive, slight touches made me quiver and my pain tolerance dropped sharply. During my second month my body's smell changed too and my sweat production cut back.

At 3 months, Spironolactone 50mg once a day (morning) was added and during this month my nipples had noticeably expanded and become dark enough to see through shirts, and my chest had grown enough to be noticeable small mounds in a tight shirt (38"). Also by 3 months, random erections completely stopped happening, whether asleep or awake.

Between months 3 and 5 a lot of things happened in my life; the stress and inactivity caused me to lose 50 lbs. As a result, I lost a ton of muscle mass. My thighs, upper arms, and butt became soft and jiggly, I could not lift things I could before, even with great effort.

3 month bloodwork results: E @ 133 and T @ 320

At 4 months, I asked my doctor for Finasteride, which is a DHT blocker- DHT is an androgen created by testosterone and an excess of DHT is related to hair loss, as well as some research I read back then relating to DHT and thicker/darker body hair. Since starting Finasteride, I have only shaved and used Nair on my body itself and I have experienced 75%-80% body hair loss, and much of what hair remains is now vellus hair (light, short, soft).

Between months 4 and 5, I started experiencing sexual dysfunction. Even if aroused, it was a 50/50 shot of whether I could get hard or not. Likewise, I began producing much less semen. This was when I started experimenting with different forms of masturbating too (i.e. using a vibrator).

Between months 5 and 6 I started gaining weight again, and this was when my breast growth was the greatest, going from 38" to almost 41". However, in the growth it seems I lost the sensitivity I had in the early months- my nipples and armpits are still erogenous zones, but not as potent. Additionally, I noticed fat redistribution caused my hips and waist to take a more stereotypically feminine, almost hourglass appearance (and increased from 32" and 34" respectively to 35" and 38" by 10 months).

6 month bloodwork results: E @ 258 and T @ 22

Months 7, 8, and 9 saw only slight breast growth (41 1/2") due to losing weight again from stress, but at this point I have very little body hair left, and even areas which were full before (armpits, groin) thinned out significantly over time- the most astounding of all being my butt, which the cheek hair just disappeared without me doing anything, like the hair just fell off.

Somewhere during months 8 and 9, I completely lost the ability to become erect without medication (doctor prescribed me Sildenafil, aka viagra) and no more ejaculating. Reaching orgasm became a concentrated effort instead of something that came easily, and very little clear liquid would come out during.

9 month bloodwork results: E @ 57 and T @ 28

For some reason my levels dropped between 6 and 9 months, and during that time I became very mentally and emotionally unwell due to the hormone imbalances. My doctor suggested a few things: me not waiting/letting the pill dissolve long enough in my mouth or the pill just not having the same potency on me anymore. So...

At month 10 I started injections and almost immediately started feeling much better. There is a hormonal low day for me every week, the day before I do my injection again, but it's not hard to deal with. I feel like myself!

Now months 11 and 12, nothing really noteworthy to update except I'm desperately trying to eat more so I can gain weight to grow my boobs. Just stopped taking Spiro though, but I use Tgel to maintain my girldick because I'm a Switch.

Lastly, I'd like to say I'm open to any questions anyone might have, and I'll do my best to answer them. You can DM me, email me secretly from a fake account (bellatrixnovus@gmail.com is my email), whatever! I just hope this information is of some value to someone out there!

[re8biogenics]

Biotic DHT Blocker - Hair Fall Male Pattern Baldness

RE8 Biogenics “Biotics DHT Blocker” is a probiotics-based solution specifically designed to address hair fall and male pattern baldness. With a powerful blend of ingredients like Bhringraj extract, Saw palmetto extract, Nettles leaf extract, Green tea extract, Amla extract, Pumpkin seed extract and Pygeum bark extract the formulation acts as a DHT blocker to control the impact of DHT on the hair follicles and its growth. Shop Now:- https://www.re8biogenics.com/product/biotic-dht-blocker/

[staylovesmiley]

Connected~ Chapter 4

ᯓᡣ𐭩Pairing; Bangchan x Fem!Reader

ᯓᡣ𐭩 ᯓᡣ𐭩Summary; Lumi had been a trainee at JYPE for years. Having entered the company a couple years after Chris the two became good friends, maybe even more. As she watched her best friend finally achieved his dream, the distance between them grew. With her debut date finally set in stone, will the two be able to rekindle their flame or will the connection between them falter?

ᯓᡣ𐭩 ᯓᡣ𐭩 ᯓᡣ𐭩 Notes; This is an ABO!AU. in this world when someone reaches puberty they will present with one of three sub genders; alpha, beta, or omega. Scent glands are located near the pressure points on the neck and small hormonal patches called scent blockers can be placed over them to reduce or rid an individual of their scent for a period of time depending on the strength of the hormones in the patch.

ᯓᡣ𐭩 ᯓᡣ𐭩 ᯓᡣ𐭩ᯓᡣ𐭩Warnings; abo!au, female!reader, poly!pack dynamics, angst, mild violence, smut, old friends to lovers, she/her pronouns used for reader, jealous Bangchan, Reader is an OC, Mentions of unhealthy dieting(forced by the company), Reader is three years younger than Chan (‘00 liners unite!!) extra chapter specific warnings; vaginal fingering, unprotected sex (kind of? Birth control is used but no condom- remember to always wrap it before you tap it to protect against stds!!) implied cum eating, I might have missed some but I think that’s all?

Intoxicating is the only way she could describe the feeling of being held so close to him again, one hand placed on the wall beside her head while the other gripped her hip firmly causing the dancer to gasp against his lips. Her hands were tangled in his hair, tugging lightly as he bit down on her lower lip with a soft growl.

Things had been going on like this ever since the movie night at her dorm. When no one was paying attention or they were left alone the pair would sneak off to a isolated bathroom or closet somewhere, unable to keep their hands off of each other as they finally gave in to the physical pull towards one another they had felt during their teenage years.

The tension between them would build up from the second they laid eyes upon each other until it snapped like a rubber band pulled too taut, the two pouncing each other once they were sure no one was around to bear witness to their actions.

The way sweet, mildly spiced vanilla filled her senses set Lumi’s soul on fire and she felt as if she couldn’t get the alpha close enough to her, her instincts screaming at her to claim him and be claimed by him. She wouldn’t allow it, of course, always stopping them before things went farther than a heated make out session that left them having to adjust their appearance before rejoining the others wherever they had left them.

Currently they were inside the third floor bathroom at the end of the hall from the practice room where the rest of stray kids were waiting impatiently for the pair to join them. Chan had been in the studio working when the rest of the kids sent Lumi to retrieve him, Han saying that since she was just coming to watch and get dinner afterwards she didn’t need to warm up like the rest of them and it made the most sense for her to go.

It was on their way back down to the practice room from his studio that she couldn’t help herself any longer, taking him silently by the wrist and pulling him into the first unlocked door they passed by. This wasn’t the JYPE building she knew, the company having changed locations after she had left, so she was still getting used to the differences as she started coming to visit them more on her time off. She was expecting a closet of some kind but was surprised to find a single use bathroom instead, locking the door before the alpha turned her around and pressed his body against hers pinning her to the door.

Chan began trailing losses down her jaw leading to her neck, biting and sucking there and having the omega moaning breathlessly. “Chris- we should probably stop or the others are gonna come looking…” despite her words, Lumi was tilting her head to the side to give him better access as he continued to leave kisses and little bite marks along the column of her neck and nape where it met her shoulder. “Don’t care-“ he growled, hand moving from its place on the wall to begin working on untying the drawstring of her sweat pants.

“Chris no- stop.” She said firmly now, pushing him away with the palms of her hands flat against his chest until he pulled away with the look of a kicked puppy. “What- is everything okay?” His eyes scanned her face for any signs of pain or discomfort, worrying he may have bit down too hard or done something she didn’t like. “No no everything is okay just- we need to get you to practice…”

Chan sighed, realizing that once again things were being cut short and the wall the pink haired dancer had placed between them was going back up. “Right. Yeah.” He huffed, pulling away from her fully to straighten his clothing and fix his hair in the mirror from where her soft hands had been pulling at it and causing it to look more disheveled than a mere set of headphones would. She followed suit, making sure he hadn’t left any visible marks along her skin before combing her fingers through her hair and nodding in approval at her reflection.

Torture was the only was he could describe the feeling of walking down the hall with a very noticeable distance between the two of them.

It may not have shown but the alpha wasn’t the only one suffering.

The way his scent lingered on her skin, the feeling of his lips on hers leaving them tingling, the sound of his moans and little growls echoing in her mind and keeping her awake at night. She wanted more of him, craved him like a drug, but the dancer wouldn’t allow herself to let him in anymore than she already had.

Lumi was friendly with him, small smiles and waves when he would join her and the others during their plans, but besides sneaking around their dorms or the jype building to get a little hot under the collar away from prying eyes she didn’t attempt to get closer to the alpha on a one on one level.

The dancer had been spending a lot of time with the stray kids pack, as it seemed, but still made time to spend with her beloved member just the two of them as well as inviting the older omega to join them which she did on occasion. This time it was just the two of them in their dance studio at the kq building, laying on the cool hardwood floor side by side after hours of practicing for their first comeback since debut.

As the girls lay catching their breath, the sound of loud voices carrying down the hall could be heard before the door to the dance studio was pushed open and a voice called out in a song-like tune.

“Moony-moony~ where is the absolute love of my life??~” Wooyoung called out, the omega Smirking when he saw the two girls laying in the dim light of their dance studio. “Found ya!” He laughed, pouncing on the other omega as she let out a small grunt once the dancer’s body landed on top of her own. “Ya! Be careful- your boney elbow could’ve taken my eye out!” Mani shouted as she struggled to get out from under the raven haired man.

Lumi laughed at the exchange, the smell of their deeply spiced scents filling the practice room as they wrestled playfully in front of her. “Woo would you give them a break? It’s been too long since they’ve had to put up with your antics-“ came Yunho’s deep voice as he made his presence known. The omega’s eyes lit up and she sprung off the floor to embrace the much taller man. “Yuyu! Oh my goodness how have you been?” The omega asked, squealing in delight as the alpha wrapped her in his strong embrace and lifted her off the ground slightly to spin her around in his arms.

“Been good- missed our girls though.” He teased the two omegas, gently setting Lumi back on the ground and pulling back to look down into her eyes. “Feels good to be back home.” He smiled, the warm smell of bourbon and cinnamon filling her senses and heavily overpowering the other scents in the room. “It’s nice to have you back! You’re working on a comeback too, right? We’ll get to promote around the same time it will be so much fun!” The dancer said while bouncing on her feet lightly.

The alpha laughed at her enthusiasm, giving the top of her head a soft pat before they were interrupted by a loud shriek from the floor behind them. “Ouch Woo that fucking hurt-“ Mani said as she inspected the place where the slightly younger omega had bit her on her upper arm. “Almost broke skin mother fucker-“ She hissed, giving him a glare as Wooyoung merely wrapped his arms around her waist and rested his head on her shoulder from behind. “Awe come on moony~ I was just showing how much I looove you! You just smell so tasty!” He said with a pout, batting his eyelashes at the blue haired omega. “You can bite me back if it’ll make you feel better?” He winked, causing Mani to scoff and roll her eyes. “Yeah you’d like that, wouldn’t you.”

Both Yunho and Lumi laughed at the two of them, the pink haired dancer shaking her head as Mani did in fact bite down on their fellow omega’s forearm with a vengeance causing Wooyoung to yelp and smack at the back of her head lightly. “Ow ow okay that’s enough- OW!”

Yunho shook his head as well but made no move to interfere with the two’s play fighting. “Lumi, I actually came here to ask something from you…it’s kind of important but you don’t have to answer right away if you need time to think it over.” The omega’s interest spiked as she turned back to look up into the tall alpha’s soft brown, puppy-like eyes. “I got picked to be studio choom’s next spotlight artist and I wanted to do a duet…with you if you’d be down?” He looked hopeful, those puppy-like eyes staring down at her with an intensity that caused her heart to flutter a bit and she understood what atiny must feel whenever they get the chance to witness his charms in person.

“With me, really? That’s like- huge, yuyu!” She gasped, hands coming up to cover her mouth in shock and disbelief. “This would be huge publicity for Eclipse- and you know I love dancing with you…yes! Are you kidding me? Is it even a question?” The alpha laughed, relief flooding his expression as he brought the omegan dancer in for another tight embrace. “Well I wasn’t sure you’d be up for it with your comeback coming up- it’ll be a lot of extra work on top of everything.” Lumi shook her head, beaming up at him as excitement coursed through her. “Yunho this is an incredible opportunity! I promise I’ll put in the work and I won’t let you down-“ she said earnestly, eyes full of determination as she looked up into his own eyes as he wore a soft expression. “I know you will, that’s part of why I asked you.”

The omega giggled while giving the alpha an almost bone crushing hug despite her smaller stature, looking up at him with her chin resting against the middle of his chest. “Can we get started choreographing now?” Yunho smiled, showing his amusement with how eager she was, nodding the affirmative to her.

For the next few hours the pair began the process of choosing a song to dance to, listening to it on repeat until suddenly looking at each other with wide eyes and wicked grins as parts of the dance seemed to come to them in a vision. Wooyoung helped to at times, moving from his place on the floor cuddled up next to Mani to give his input and grin with pride seeing his advice taken and applied to the choreography.

As the early morning hours crept up on them, Mani laid asleep curled up on the small couch at the back of the studio while the three other idols bounced ideas off of each other to try and finalize the performance so that they could begin really practicing and fine tuning everything. The song chosen was a bit provocative, One Of The Girls by The Weeknd, so in turn the dance was a bit on the sensual side. Lumi and Yunho didn’t bat an eye at that fact though, being comfortable enough around each other to play up the chemistry needed for this type of performance yet also comfortable enough in their friendship to not take it as seriously as once the music cut before looping the pair burst out laughing at each other while Wooyoung wolf whistled at the suggestive position they we’re currently posed.

The trio of dancer’s decided to break for the night, Lumi making her way over to grab her phone and see she had several missed calls and texts from Jisung asking her to come hang out at their studio. She sighed, running a hand through her hair as she sent a quick text asking if he was still there since it had been a few hours since the beta had reached out.

The dancer’s mind began to wander, sipping from her water bottle with a frown as thoughts of a certain alpha crossed her mind.

The two members of ateez seemed to notice, glancing at each other before turning back to look at the omega with a questioning look. “What’s wrong Lumi?” Wooyoung asked as he wrapped an arm around the girl’s waist and pulled her to his side in a comforting gesture. It made sense to her when she had learned a few years back that the dancer was close friends with Changbin, both omegas having such a natural talent at being a calming force to her despite their tendency of being a bit chaotic at times. “You look like you have something on your mind.” He pouted, tilting his head cutely as he looked the pink haired dancer in the eyes with his own full of curiosity.

Yunho nodded, stepping closer after setting his own bottle down. “Yeah- if something is bothering you, you know you can tell us right?” Lumi sighed, nodding her head. She knew that they were right, being two of the trainees she spent the most time around as they had bonded over their shared passion for dance. Even after debuting, Yunho and Wooyoung would always invite the younger girl to come with them to the studio to work on new choreography or teach her new dances they had learned for their comebacks. She was forever grateful for their friendship, as it came in a time when she felt so lost and alone having just joined a new company where she knew no one and was one of only a few female trainees.

“Yeah…okay- I guess I should talk about it to someone…” she sighed, sitting down on the floor with her knees pulled to her chest before patting the floor for them to join her. “You guys know stray kids, I know…” Lumi began once they had taken their seats on the hardwood flooring of the dance studio. “Yeah! Pretty well, actually! We don’t get to hang out much since we are both pretty busy groups now days but we always look forward to seeing them.” Yunho spoke up, a fond expression on his face. “And Binnie is like one of my best friends- you know that. Did you finally get to meet them?” Wooyoung said with excitement as he practically bounced in his seat.

Lumi nodded, eyes glued to the floor. “Yeah uh- I actually met them before you did…funny thing-“ she spoke hesitantly, afraid to finally open up to them about the secret she held back when they originally told her about their times meeting and befriending their fellow boy group. “What-?!” Both men said in unison, so loud the omega feared they would wake Mani behind them where she still slept and Lumi really did not want to deal with a grumpy band mate on the trip back to their dorm.

“Shh keep it down- yes. You guys know I trained at jype before I came to kq…” she explained, watching as they nodded along. “Well- yeah. But you never said you knew stray kids from back then-“ Wooyoung said with a pout, arms coming to cross over his chest. “Ya! Were you guys like close or something?” Lumi nodded, sighing as she ran a hand through her hair nervously. “Yeah you could say that…”

For the next few minutes the pink haired dancer explained the nature of her relationship with the members of 3racha, and ultimately her new friendship with all but one member, including the parts about how she had left to join kq without ever informing her friends where she was going or that she was even leaving in the first place. Yunho frowned, reaching out to smack lightly at her leg. “That’s kind of fucked up, Lumi….how could you do that to your friends?”

She winced, knowing he was right. “I didn’t want to- I was going to tell them but…” the two men looked at her with sympathy, Wooyoung coming to wrap his arms around her in a tight embrace as he comforted his fellow omega. “We get it…they weren’t really around for you to tell.” Lumi sighed and nodded, resting her head on his shoulder as he held her. Yunho moved to her other side to bring her into his arms as well.

The three of them sat like that for a while before her phone went off with a response from Jisung telling her that she was still good to join them at the studio if she was available. “There’s something else….” She spoke softly, hesitant to even speak about it out loud.

Yunho set her with a look that said she had better spill now that she had already started, the alpha motioning with a hand for her to continue. “Chris- I….we kissed-“ she started, Wooyoung’s gasp audible as he backed away to look her in the eyes.

“You’re kidding, right?? You kissed Chan hyung?! When?!?” He questioned, kneeling in front of the pink haired dancer as his hands on her shoulder shook her lightly. “Woo- calm down let her explain.” Yunho scolded lightly, taking the omega’s hands off of her before turning her to face the both of them. “It was a few weeks ago…and we haven’t stopped since-“ both men’s eyes widened as they stared at her in shock. “Every time I’m alone with him it’s like I’ve been possessed or something- I feel like I can’t trust him enough to be close again but now that I know how it feels to-“ she sighed, running a hand through her hair anxiously. “Now that I know what it feels like to kiss him after I used to dream about it in highschool….I can’t control myself.”

Wooyoung smirked, hands placed on his knees where he sat criss cross on the floor and leaned forward towards her. “Ooh Lumi’s got a cruuusshhh~~” he teased, bouncing a bit in his seat. Lumi whined, shaking her head as she lunged forward to cover his mouth with her hand. “Shut up, I do not-“ she should have expected what came next as the dancer looked up at her with a devilish glint in his eyes before licking the palm of her hand. “EW YOU ASSHOLE!” She shrieked, pulling her hand back to rub against his shirt in an attempt to remove the saliva. Both men laughed hysterically at her reaction, causing Lumi to pout and reach for her bag to use the hand sanitizer she kept there.

Once they calmed down Yunho sent the pink haired omega a look. “Has it gone any farther than just kissing?” He questioned nonchalantly causing the girl to choke on air. “Excuse me?!” She gasped, looking at him with shock at the boldness of his question. “Come on we are all adults, Lumi. Just answer the question.” The omega pouted, but shook her head to answer him. “No…every time he’s tried I’ve stopped him- I’ve always been…afraid-“

Wooyoung gave her a questioning look before standing and making his way over to her. “Afraid of what? We know you aren’t a virgin so it can’t be that-“ his words caused the memory of her early trainee days with them at kq, and a night of truth or dare turned a bit too steamy, shaking the thoughts away quickly with a grimace. “Don’t remind me- but no that’s not why I’m afraid.” Lumi sighed, slowly collecting her things as she decided to take the producer up on his offer to join him and the others in the studio like old times. “What if I get attached again and he pulls the same shit. He’s a popular idol now, the leader of his group….what happens when they go on tour or get even more popular than they already are? Will he just drop me again until being reminded I exist? I can’t do that again…”

Wooyoung gave his older member a pleading look, nodding towards the pink haired dancer and sighing when Yunho held his hands up defensively and shook his head to say he wasn’t planning on getting involved. The omega huffed a bit before turning back to the younger dancer. “Lumi, baby- your trust issues are very obviously shot tremendously.” The girl scoffed and rolled her eyes. “Gee, thanks Woo. Tell me something I don’t already know-“ the pink haired omega pulled her bag up over her shoulder before making her way towards the door. “I don’t need a lecture about how what I’m doing is wrong and how it will only hurt in the long run, hell it’s already so confusing it hurts, I just needed to get it off my chest since I can’t really tell any of his members and I know Mani would probably scold me a lot worse than either of you-“

The older dancer sighed and shook his head in disapproval, shrugging his shoulders. “I’m just trying to look out for you- you’re going to see him now, aren’t you?” Shaking her head, Lumi pulled the door open and called out over her shoulder. “Han, actually- but he’ll most likely be there…make sure Mani gets home alright?” Wooyoung nodded, already going to the sleeping blue haired girl with a smirk on his face as he cuddled up behind her on the couch. “Yeah yeah Moony is safe with us~”

The younger girl laughed lightly at the display and shook her head, closing the door behind her and calling for a cab to take her to the jype building.

Quietly she made her way down the hall, deja vu giving her whiplash as she stopped in front of the door to 3racha’s studio. This was a new building, and a new studio, but the situation was something she was somewhat familiar with. During their time as trainees she had been in this position many times, often being the only reason the three producers remembered to eat or sleep as she would frequently stop by any time she had a free moment and would bring them snacks or meals and make sure they took breaks and didn’t work themselves as hard as they would with no outside intervention.

Her hand raised cautiously before knocking on the door. The voice that called out to her made her even more hesitant to enter but she pushed herself regardless, entering the room and closing the door with your back turned to the rest of the room. “Lumi?” The thick australian accent called out to her causing her to tense slightly. The smell of warm vanilla swirled around the room and the omega turned slowly to see that it was only the two of them present, Han Jisung no were to be seen although he was the one who told you it was okay to come over still. “Where is Hanji-“

Chan frowned, turning in his desk chair to face her fully. “You just missed him- he’ll be back at some point but he left to go get something to eat from the convenience store.” Lumi sighed, setting her bag down on the floor beside the small black couch against the back wall before taking a seat. “Well then I guess I’ll just have to wait until he gets back, won’t I-“ the dancer pulled out her phone, scrolling until she landed on Han’s contact before sending a quick text asking that he please return quickly, only receiving a laughing and winking emoji in response.

“This guy-“ she scoffed, rolling her eyes as she laughed lightly in disbelief. “Huh?” Chan rolled his chair over to face her with a raised eyebrow. At his questioning look, Lumi held her phone out to the alpha who shook his head while laughing at how the beta had responded to her. “I don’t know what he’s up to but I don’t like it.” The omega huffed, going back to scrolling through her phone while Chan got back to work at his computer.

The two of them sat like that for a while with Chan humming under his breath every now and then and Lumi making sure the volume on her phone was down as to not disturb the producer as he worked. “Do you think I could borrow your ears for a minute?” He asked suddenly, the dancer straightening her posture to look at him. “Me?” He chuckled, raising an eyebrow at her in a teasing manner. “Do you see anyone else here?” She frowned, hitting his shoulder lightly as she stood up and took a seat in the chair beside him. “Don’t know how much help I can be but sure…since Jisung seems to have abandoned us.”

Chan laughed and carefully placed the headphones over her ears. “I could have done that myself-“ she protested though there wasn’t much force behind her words, the alpha shrugged and sat back before pressing play on the track he had been stuck on for the past few hours before Han had left for the convenience store and Lumi had arrived.

Music began flooding her ears as a deep, sensual beat began playing through the speakers of the headphones. Lumi’s eyes fell closed as she let the lyrics take over her mind. She knew he had been known to write some more risqué, though he would never openly admit such to his fans, but hearing it with her own ears she couldn’t help but bite her lower lip gently as she nodded along to the beat.

The flow of the music seemed to take her over, body moving slowly as she rocked along with the melody and pictured how she herself would perform such a song. Chan watched with his hands clasped in front of his face in an attempt to hide how anxious he was to show the dancer his work. After the short two minutes and forty-nine seconds Lumi placed the headphones back on the desk and the alpha swore his heart stopped with the look she graced him with. Her eyes were dark and the corner of her lips turned up mischievously. “So…?” He asked hesitantly, biting down lightly on his knuckles in anticipation.

Lumi chuckled, shaking her head as she stood up to retake her spot on the couch behind him. “I think your fans are going to go absolutely nuts over that, Christopher.” She teased, passing by him only for his hand to shoot out and take hold of hers tightly. “But what about you?” Her breath hitched in her throat, mouth feeling dry at his question and the grip he had on her now slightly clammy hand. “I don’t think my opinion matters much, now does it.” He frowned, tugging lightly and causing her to sit herself down on his lap as she lost her balance. “I have always valued your opinion, you know that.” Lumi sighed, unable to meet his eyes and the words from his song echoed in her mind. “You do know that…right? That has never changed, baby….”

“A lot has changed, Chris…why wouldn’t that change too?” One hand came to rest on his hip, his eyes watching her carefully for any signs that the placement was unwelcome but she seemed to lean into the warm of his touch, his chest tightening with how fast his heart was beating the closer they got. “For you, maybe- nothing has changed as far as I am concerned.” He said, eyes glancing from her eyes down to her lips as she frowned at him. “Christopher that’s not true, and you know it. If you aren’t willing to acknowledge that things are different now then you are in for a rude awakening.”

Lumi moved to stand but his grip on her waist only tightened as his other hand came to hold the opposite side, effectively keeping her in place on his lap. “Chris let me up.” She said, no conviction in her words as she looked into dark brown eyes with her heart threatening to beat out of her chest. This whole time she was holding back, struggling desperately to keep the wall up between them and not give into the temptation to let him in any more than she already had. The warmth of his hands soaked through her clothing and caused a shiver to run down her back as he leaned in slowly. “Show me how much things have changed then, don’t keep hiding from me-“ he said breathlessly, lips now ghosting over her own but not quite touching yet. “Stop holding back.” He whispered, and the smell of vanilla mixed with the feeling of his hot breath against her lips caused her resolve to break.

Lumi crashed her lips against his roughly, as she had countless times since the first in her dorms small kitchen what felt like an eternity ago. He shifted them carefully, lifting the omega and placing her back on his lap so her knees straddled his hips and her thighs restated against his on in his desk chair. One hand was still placed firmly on the left side of her waist while the other cupped the back of her neck to deepen the kiss they shared as Lumi let out a soft moan against his lips.

Slowly her hips began to rock against his own to the beat of the song he had shown her, which she assumed was simply playing in her mind as his kiss distracted her though after a minute of so she realized at some point the song began to play from the speakers of his laptop and fill the small studio with the sound of his voice and the low, sensual beat she was quickly becoming addicted to as much as she was his scent and touch.

The hand he had on her waist slowly began to trail under her shirt as she continued to move her body against his. Chan let out a low groan into her mouth before slowly kissing his way down to her neck and jawline. Now that her mouth was no longer occupied soft moans flowed freely as her hips ground down against his own. One of her hands rested on the back of his chair while the other came to tangle in his hair, a gasp escaping as his teeth nipped hesitantly at her neck. He half expected her to push him away given that was the usual reaction he got from the omega once things started to escalate.

When she pulled back slightly from her, Chan braced himself for rejection but instead he was met with the sight of her shirt being lifted over her head and tossed behind them onto the couch by her bag. “Nice aim-“ he commented, still in disbelief at her actions. “Shut up.” She practically growled, lips crushing against his own in a bruising kiss as she began tugging at his own shirt almost desperately. The alpha thought he must be dreaming, pulling away briefly to remove the offending article of clothing before pulling her back into the kiss with one hand cupping her cheek while the other ghosted up her side to cup at her left breast over her sports bra.

As her hands roamed the ridges of muscle carefully sculpted by countless hours in the gym and practice studio her mind clouded further and she could feel her arousal, wet and warm between her thighs causing her to feel more impatient with each passing moment. “Couch.” She managed to get out between kisses and bites to the alpha’s plush lips. “Huh?” He pulled back to look into her eyes, his own blown with lust as she was sure her own were and his eyebrows knit together with confusion. “We need to move this to the couch if we are gonna go any further.” She explained, watching as his eyes widened with realization. Suddenly feeling a bit self conscious, the dancer tucked a strand of pink hair behind her ear and looked away from him shyly while attempting to ignore the wetness growing in her panties as the smell of roses began crowding the small space of the studio. “We don’t have to keep going if you don’t-“

Before she could finish her sentence Chan had stood up with the omegan dancer in his arms and soon Lumi’s back made contact with the cool leather material of the small couch against the back wall. “Shit you could have given me a warning or something-“ she said breathlessly, looking up at him with wide eyes as he gave a shrug with a smirk plastered to his face at being able to fluster her so easily. “Just trust me, ‘kay? I’ve got you.” Lumi scoffed, eyes rolling at his words though she didn’t put up a fight as she silently lifted her hips for him to slide the joggers she had wore down her legs until he was dropping them on the floor beside the couch.

At the sight of the dancer mostly undressed beneath him, Chan took a deep breath and felt a growl rumble in his chest as her scent filled the space and mixed with his own perfectly. Roses and vanilla swirled around his senses and he felt intoxicated by the smell as he leaned over to kiss and suck marks into the side of her neck and collar bone. He knew deep down he should be careful about leaving any marks behind but with his right mind taking a back seat at the present moment he couldn’t bring himself to care. Chan had wanted this for years, wanted her. Lumi was more than just some fleeting crush, someone he was attracted to on a surface level, she meant everything to him.

He let her get away before he ever had the chance to properly express his feelings before, teenage awkwardness and anxieties always getting in the way causing both to shy away from the topic of their emotions for one another but now that she was back he intended to show her just how much she drove him crazy, how much he needed her and not just on a physical level though in the moment he was more than happy to start there. As one hand cupped her neck he brought his lips back to hers while his other hand moved between the two of them to first slide across the wet patch at the front of her underwear before pushing them aside to run across her folds slowly.

Lumi moaned against his lips, brows furrowing as he carefully slipped a finger inside. “Fuck-“ She moaned, trying to relax as he slowly began moving before adding a second finger alongside the first. “Relax, baby.” His voice was low, raspy from all of the kisses as he mumbled against her lips. The omega nodded and let out a whine as his thumb pressed against her clit gently before beginning to rub slow circles as he pumped his fingers inside of her.

They stayed like that for what felt like eternity, her back arching slightly towards where he hovered over her as he worked to stretch her carefully with their lips pressed together so that he could swallow the loud moans threatening to give away to anyone passing by what exactly it was they were doing inside the small studio. “Chris, please- need you.” She said finally, voice breathless as her hands moved down to attempt and push his sweats down past his hips as far as she could manage. “You sure, like really really sure?” He questioned suddenly, forehead resting against the dancer’s as he pulled his fingers from inside of her as carefully as he could. “If you don’t fuck me within the next few minutes I swear to god I will get dressed and I will leave you here.”

Lumi’s threat seemed to be confirmation enough as the alpha nodded and moved quickly to push his sweatpants down to just above his knees along with his boxers before giving a few quick pumps to his length. The pink haired omega could only bite her lip as she watched him kneeling over her, bringing herself up to rest on her elbows and forearms as he positioned himself in front of her. “Do you uh- have a condom?” He asked, looking at her through his bangs where they had fallen in front of his eyes slightly with how long they had grown over the past months. “Don’t need one, I’m clean. You?” She answered quickly, clearly having no patience remaining as she brought a hand up to push the bangs back from his eyes and forehead.

Chan frowned, raising an eyebrow at her before answering. “Well, yeah- but there is also this whole thing called pregnancy? Condoms are for more than just stds.” Lumi laughed, shaking her head as she laid back against the couch. “I’ve got an implant, Chris. Seriously- wouldn’t offer to go without if there was a chance.” She shook her head, moving her arms so that they wrapped around his neck and her hands could tangle in the hair at the back of his head. “Now please, can we get on with it before Jisung gets back?” Fuck, that’s right. Chan had almost completely forgotten that the beta was meant to return at any moment and they were kind of on a time crunch. Deciding to ignore how much his pride swelled with how much trust Lumi must have held for him in this moment the alpha slowly pushed into her with a low moan which the omega beneath him echoed before pulling him down into a hungry kiss in an attempt to silence both of them.

Try as they might to keep anyone from figuring out what was happening behind closed doors, the smell of vanilla swirled with rose water permeating from the studio door and out into the hallway gave away their dirty secret too easily. Jisung, who had returned from his convenience store run not to long ago, stood outside the door with a shit eating grin and a mischievous glint in his normally soft boba eyes. He had intended to leave them alone together in an attempt to get them to become for comfortable with one another, like things had been as trainees, but it seemed he got a bit more than he bargained for.

As he left the company building, heading to the dorms and deciding to call it a night he made sure to wait until he was already back and safely inside the home to give the two of them plenty of time before sending a quick text that he felt too tired and went home so that his text wouldn’t…disturb their late night activities too much. The beta put away his snacks before crawling into his bed and hiding deep under the covers while trying not to be too smug over his plan working as well as it had to get them back on speaking terms.

Or so he thought….

Intoxicating is the only way to describe the feeling of laying with sweat slicked skin sticking lightly to the fabric of the studio couch as he laid on his back with Lumi on top of him, their chests rising and falling in sync as he ran a hand through her hair gently and she rested her cheek against his collar bone while attempting to catch her breath.

Chan felt like no moment could be better, their scents mixing together on their skin and causing him to feel this sort of lightheaded bliss as the adrenaline slowly faded away and he could truly take in the shared warmth of her skin against his own. He tried and failed to hold back the smile as the dancer got up and gave a slight wince. Her body still sore from their earlier activities, skin cooling with sweat as she left him laying there to collect her clothes quietly.

With a word he grabbed his tshirt and slipped it over her head, causing the omega to startle slightly. “Jesus, Chris- you really need to work on warning me before you do shit.” She grumbled, smoothing her hair down after slipping her arms through the sleeves of his shirt. He chuckled, admiring how the oversized garment hung on her to mid thigh, it was already big on himself but it practically swallowed her frame whole and he was starting to think he was addicted to the sight of her in his clothing.

Pulling in his boxers, Chan ran a hand through his no doubt messy hair from where she had been tugging at it not too long ago with his head firmly between her thighs as he cleaned up the mess he had left behind. “Han isn’t coming.” She said suddenly, her discarded panties in one hand and her cellphone in the other, led screen illuminating her face and causing the pink of her hair to cast a slight pastel halo from the glow. “What?”

Lumi sighed, holding out her phone to show the message from Jisung saying he got tired while waiting in line for his food and decided to go home instead of back to the studio as originally planned. “Oh, well that works out then- don’t have to worry about him walking in on us after all.” He said with a grin, standing to wrap his arms around the dancers waist and hold her close to him once more. He already missed the warmth of her skin, head coming down to place gentle kisses at the base of her neck where it met her shoulder.

She shook her head, stepping away from him to continue getting dressed leaving him standing there a bit dumbfounded. “Lumi?” He asked softly, a pained look on his face as he watched her father her things after slipping her joggers before sitting on the edge of his rolling chair to slip her shoes on from where they had been kicked under the desk. “What, Chris? What’s wrong?” He huffed, raising an eyebrow at the omega as his arms crossed over his chest. “That’s exactly what I was just wondering. Seriously Lumi, don’t tell me this changes nothing-“ his tone was firm, almost annoyed though his eyes were pleading with her not to do what he was thinking she was.

She bit her lip, looking away from him quickly in an attempt to hold up whatever semblance of the walls she had put up to protect herself from the potential abandonment she feared so deeply. “This? This is- this was-“ “nothing.” He scoffed, cutting off her stumbling over her words as she struggled to find a way to put it without making him right. To find a way to keep him at arm’s length but hold him close at the same time. To not break his heart while also protecting her own.

“Right. Nothing, that’s what this-“ he spoke, motioning between the two of them. “-is. Lumi we can’t keep doing this, I can’t. I thought things would be different now…” running a hand through his hair he stepped closer to her, almost caging her in against the desk. “Why? Because we fucked?” She asked, letting anger stain her words so that the sadness she truly felt wouldn’t seep through. “Just because people have sex doesn’t mean anything, people do it all the time.” She scoffed, moving around him quickly to grab her bag. “But you’re right….we can’t keep doing this. This was a mistake, clearly….”

Chan stood still for a moment, shock taking him over before his mind finally caught up with it all. “Right, maybe it was- at least let me take you home? It’s late-“ Lumi shook her head, holding up her phone as she backed up towards the door and gave the alpha a weak smile. “Already texted my manager.” He sighed shakily, nodding in understanding before realizing she was still wearing the shirt he had placed on her. His chest tightened but he didn’t say anything about it, taking it as a small win in what felt like a hopeless situation as she opened the door and muttered a quick “Goodnight, Chris-“ before she was gone.

Torture was the only way she could describe the feeling of walking through the still brightly lit halls of the jype building to where her manager was waiting for her at the side of the building as her sore muscles from practice and her extra curricular activities with a certain alpha screamed at her with each step. No amount of soreness could compare to the deep ache she felt in her chest having to leave him like that, every fiber of her being longing to turn around and run back into his arms.

She couldn’t do that, even if realistically she could she thought this was for the best. Things were already so complicated, her feelings were complicated, their past felt even more complicated, her mind and heart unable to come to an agreement as to what it was she wanted so instead of Chan’s embrace with his warmth and the smell of warm vanilla and something sweet like frosting she was met with the biting cold of a late autumn night as she pushed the doors to the exit open and ran to meet her manager at the curb in hopes that due to the late hour no one would be witness to her leaving the company she didn’t belong to anymore, and slightly disheveled at that.

author’s note: tbh I think I blacked out while writing the sexual parts of this chapter lol so sorry if they seem off it’s easy for me to like- visualize the scene but writing it out is so hard and I don’t get why ૮꒰ “. . ꒱ა anyways please please please give me feedback I am so eager to hear from you all about what you thought of this chapter and what your thoughts are for what is to come/what you might be looking forward to from this series~

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Omg thank you so much for your kind words, of course I will give my best shot at writing something for you! I apologize in advance, I don’t know much about playing instruments 😂 Hope you still enjoy I chose pre-timeskip!Tendō!💕

Tendō Satori, also known as the guess monster of Shiratorizawa, has just left the meeting of the Shiratorizawa volleyball club, when his stomach started growling.

Practice has been extended due to the loss against Karasuno, so none of the players have gotten the chance to eat or drink anything yet.

Before Satori returns to his dorm room, he will make his way to the snack vending machine for a very late, but much needed skip-dinner-snack.

As he bids his teammates goodbye, he walks along the dimly-lit hallway, seeing the bright light of the vending machines from afar.

Walking down the hall, the redhead hums a happy tune, his hands resting on his neck as he bends his arms in a stretch.

Along his humming though, Satori hears the soft sound of piano keys playing.

The Middle Blocker stops his humming and is curious to find out where the beautiful music is coming from.

The melody sounds very sad and Satori can’t help but frown at the sorrowful sound.

As he walks closer towards the tune, he notices that it’s the music room, where some of the instruments lay for storage for concerts, band practice, etc.

The dark brown wooden door is slightly ajar and Satori tries to get a peek at the unknown pianist who is playing such a beautiful melody.

The music room is moderately dark, the only light source coming from the half-moon shining through the large windows high on the wall.

Yet, the young man with ruby-colored eyes sees a girl sitting with her back facing him.

She doesn’t have a music note sheet in front of her, nor a phone showing her how to play the song.

She’s playing it from memory.

Flawless, to be more precise.

The tunes keep coming softly and with expertise.

Satori finally recognizes the song.

'Behind Blue Eyes' by Limp Bizkit.

It’s like she’s trying to express her feelings and thoughts into the music she is playing.

Even if Satori can only see her backside, he is highly interested in what the mysterious girl looks like from the front.

Her beautiful hair almost glows in the moonlight, the sweatshirt of the Shiratorizawa Academy fits her figure perfectly.

Before Satori can get a better look at her, the tunes come to an end and the volleyball player tries to hide a bit better, yet he really wants to know who this girl is.

As she turns around and gets up, Satori finally sees her.

It’s you.

You sit in the back, by the windows in your shared English class.

You’re very quiet, barely talk to others.

Before tonight, the Middle Blocker never would have guessed that you play the piano. And with such skilled hands as well, like you’ve been playing it for years.

As you get up, you begin to grab your things and as quickly and quietly as he can, Satori hides behind a pillar and sees you poking your head out, looking left and right before heading out completely.

Once you close the door to the music room, you’re unaware of scarlet eyes following your steps.

Every day after volleyball practice, Satori tries to see if he can hear the melody of you playing again. But ever since that night, you stopped. You’re still at school, you attend classes but the bewitching tones at night, like a lullaby luring him into a dream that he never wants to wake up from, disappear.

To be honest, you playing that instrument has almost been like Satori’s therapy. It calms him after practice and gives him the feeling like he’s sitting next to you on the bench while you are playing.

Seeking you out on a Friday during lunch, he makes his way over to you with careful steps.

"Hey… (Y/N), right?" The red-haired Middle Blocker approaches you during your lunch break while you’re listening to your Spotify playlist.

You look up, unsure why he approached you. One of the best players of the Shiratorizawa Volleyball Club. Sure, he might not be as popular as Ushijima but you have to admit, he’s got a charm of his own. He’s quirky, has an affectionate smile and a cheery personality.

You blush at his curious face, taking the headphones out of your ears to respond.

"That’s me. You’re… Tendō right? From the volleyball team?"

"Satori is just fine. So… I don’t want you to think I am crazy or anything… but about two weeks ago, on a late night after my practice was over, I heard this heavenly song of a piano playing. I was curious to see who would play this late and I saw that it was you. Oh! I didn’t tell anyone, don’t worry!" He sees that your eyes begin to widen in shock, he quickly apologizes, reassuring you that you have nothing to fear about being told on.

"Yeah, I couldn’t sleep. Playing the piano always calms me down and when I play it, it’s like the instrument has a mind on its own. Like it’s playing me instead of the other way around." You chuckle slightly and the volleyball player’s face brightens at the sound of your laugh, even if it’s quiet.

It’s like music to his ears.

"Your smile is beautiful. But your laugh makes you shine so much. You should laugh more, it suits you." Satori starts to get nervous, scratching the back of his neck.

Satori feels his knees getting wobbly, not the usual kind of wobbly after an intense practice, but rather by being in your present. You’re not weirded out by him, nor disgusted nor scared. You look… happy to be talking to him.

This is a completely new feeling for the young Middle Blocker and he never wants this feeling to go away.

"So. Is there a chance you could play again for me?" Satori sits down on the chair, leaning his head on his hands as he stares at you like you hung the stars and moons just for him.

You smile and blush in response, nodding shyly as you watch as his complete body lights up at your response, feeling butterflies in your stomach as you like the fact that famous Middle Blocker Satori Tendõ enjoys listening to you play.

It’s like music to your ears.