#hahahaha wat is dis even

[moon-ursidae]

THE LAST OF US HBO (and game) SPOILERS

ya’ll i’m so fucking excited for this episode the pittsburgh section is one of my favorites so i’m fuckin stoked

also i was with a friend today and they’ve never played the game before. they know nothing about what’s to come. they said “surely no one else will die right? i feel like everyone that could have died has died right?” and i went “i’m not saying anything” HAHAHAHA I FEEL SO BAD. ANYWAY

HERE WE GO!!!

i’m so fucking excited for roadtrip scenes

and then the fucking truck crash

i’m so excited holy shit

the theme will never get old

omg ellie plz be careful

her practicing a smug face lmao

the innocence of this UGH

THIS SHOT IS GORGEOUS

i love them so much

JOKE BOOK

JOKE BOOK

JOKE BOOK

JOKE BOOK

OH MY GOD

HER FACE I LOVE HER

THE LAST OF US (YOU AND ME) UGGGH

“he will be back. there’s nothing you can do to stop him”

OH MY GOD

FROM THE GAME

FROM THE GAME

HANK WILLIAMS

KSBSLSBSKSBSKBSISBS

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

THE PORN MAG

IT’S LITERALLY THE SAME ONE FROM THE GAME

OH MY GOD

OH MY GOD

arby’s :(

this looks eerily familiar to me

like i swear i’ve driven here

him seeing that she’s soaced tf out and deciding to camp🥺

jesus she’s goin to town

i would too tbh

THE ONE THAT SMELLS GOOD IS FRANK’S UUUUUGH😭😭

“because he was outstandin’ in his field” AND HIS LITTLE SMILE AS HE TURNS OVER FUCK OFF

I LOVE THEM

“no one’s gonna find us” HE’S SUCH A DAD

I KNOW THIS MUSIC WAIT

i knew he was gonna be ALERT

that’s so sweet

COFFEE???

PLEASE TELL ME IT IS

YYYEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAA

JOEL GETS HIS COFFEE

THE WAT HE SIPS IT AFTER SHE SAYS IT SMELLS BAD HAHAHAHA

OMG WAIT TOMMY BACKSTORY

“where we met tess”😭😭😭

he’s such an older sibling

“now i gotta go get him”

“you keep goin for family”

“i’m not family.” “no. you’re cargo. and i made a promis to tess. and she was like family” 😭

joel you’re gonna change your mind about ellie bein cargo

“i’m not even tired.” THE SAME FUCKING CUT TO HER ZONKED IN THE FRONT SEAT HAHAHAHAHAHA

WE’RE HHHHHEEEEEERRRRRREEEEEEE

i’m so excited

THE SHOT FROM THE TRAILER AHHHHHH

he knows something’s up

that semi is a way to keep people in and make them go around and funnel them in one direction. then ambush them. and joel KNOWS somethin’s up

oh wait this is kansas city now??

fo sho fo sho i’m not mad

“screw it.” IT’S COMINNGGGGGG

uh oh. burned bodies.

HERE WE GO

HERE WE GO

THE WAY SHE IS SO CLOSE TO HIM

“and they’re not gonna hit you. look at me! they’re not gonna hit you. stay down. you stay low. you stay quiet.”

the way that he’s reassuring her but also himself rn i cannot deal w this

the parallels to sarah UUUUUGH i’m gonna fucking scream and cry and scratch at the walls goddamnit

OKAY JOEL

OMG IS THIS WHERE SHE KILLS THE GUY

HIS FACE HE’S SO SCARED

OH NO. OHHHH NO. SHE’S GONNA FEEL SO BAD.

HE JUST TOLD HER HIS NAME AND ABOUT HOW HE HAS FAMILY

oh joel’s pissed.

i like that they stick with how joel doesn’t try to comfort her immediately

“get back behind the wall.” OH MY GOD

THE WAY HE YELLS FOR HIS MOM AND PLEADS FOR HIS LIFE

SHE’S CRYINNNNG😭😭😭😭

the juxtaposition of her being upset and joel just moving onto the next task at hand

and how she was so innocent in the bathroom of the gas station and she was smirking and playing with the gun

UUUUUUUGH😭😭😭😭

MASH SQUARE TO GET THROUGH THE DOOR JOEL

LMAO

she’s trying to brush it off UGH

wait is he just not going back for his bag

JOEL. GET YOUR SHIT BRO.

MELANIE LYNSKEY!!!!

the way she seems so sweet but i know she’s gonna be ruthless

“you know where henry is” AYO?????

MY BOY????

okay slay eat him up

“but henry did” OHHHHHHHHH TEA

JEFFREY PIERCCCEEEEE

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

IT’S JEFFREY!!!!

i love how troy and jeffrey are playing antagonists

did he really just leave his shit in the truck???

he had time to grab it?

“are you okay?” PLEASE

“i’m alright. are you alright?” THE WAY HIS VOICE SHAKES PLEASE😭

“yea.” ellie don’t lie

“i didn’t hear that guy comin and- you shouldn’t have had to have- yknow.” “you’re glad i did though, right?” “you’re just a kid. you shouldn’t know what it means to-“

i love that instead of joel getting pissed and saying “i’m lucky i didn’t get my head blown off by a goddamn kid” he’s being sympathetic. and that he’s actually really trying to comfort her afterward which we didn’t see too much of in the game

HE’S TRYING SO HARD😭😭😭😭

“i mean it was my fault. you shouldn’t have had to. and i’m sorry.” 😭😭😭😭

THE MUSIC FROM THE TITLE SCREEN OF THE GAME AHH AHH

i’m crying

i’m gone

the way he looks down after seeing her wiper her eyes😭😭

i know he’s beating himself up to hell and back rn

pedro has been through this training so many times i’m sure lmao especially w narcos

I’M GONNA LOSE MY SHIT

THE WAY SHE’S GIGGLING AND SMILING

this is such a huge moment of trust for him

the way he gruntd when he gets up. i felt that.

knee injuries fuckin suck man

“we’ll get through this.” “i know.” AHHHHHHH

i’m upset that joel didn’t get his fuckin bag dude

THE DRAWINGS ON THE WALL THAT SAM DID FUCK OFF

😭😭😭😭

WAIT IS IT BLOATER TIME?????

BRO

jeffrey pierce slay

BOOSTING WOOOOOO

“straighten up. i got you.” FUCKIN FUCK OFF😭😭😭

THE “i got you” HAS BEGUN AAHHHHH

this is literally the game

WAIT IS THIS THE BLOATER BUILDING

IS THE BASEMENT HAPPENING NOW??

THE LAST OF US (GOODNIGHT) PLAYING FUCK OFF

“how’d you know it was an ambush?” ON THE STAIRS LIKE IN THE FUCKING GAME I’M YELLING

“i’ve been on both sides.” KABDKSHSKDBSKSV

MORE BACKSTORY ABOUT IT WOOOOO

“did you kill innocent people?” THE WAY HE LOOKS AT HER SKDHAKDJOWBS

AND DOESN’T ANSWER AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

the way he falls against the wall.

me too bitch.

“get up you lazy ass.” “lazy ass. 56 years old you little shit.” I LOVE THEM

looks damn good for 56👀

him setting up the glass is so smart

I LOVE THAT THEY’RE SHOWING THE BAD EAR NOW BC THEY HAVE TO BE MORE SPREAD OUT

the way he says “what?” like he’s so annoyed lmao

“are you sure you’re gonna hear it?” LMAOOOO

is she gonna go step on it to test him

i’ll laugh my ass off

“hey.” “yeah?” “when we were talkin about hurtin people. what do you mean it wasn’t your first time?” i love that HE is asking questions about her past now.

“i don’t wanna talk about it.” “alright. you don’t have to. i’m just sayin, it isn’t fair. your age. havin to deal with all of this.” AND HE’S TURNED TO WHERE HE’S FACING HER NOW. FUUUUCK OFF😭😭🫶🏻

“so it gets easier when you get older?” “no. not really. but still.”

and then she changes the subject back to him😭😭

“the reason i asked whether you’d hear the glass or not is because i’ve noticed you don’t hear too well from your right side. is it because you were shot there?”

AND THEN HE TURNS BACK OVER UUUGH

THE WAY HE SMILES AND THEN CHUCKLES AT THE JOKE PPLLLEEEAAAASSSSEEEEEEE

HE’S TRYING SO HARD NOT TO LAUGH

“that is so goddamn stupid.” “you laughed motherfucker.” “i didn’t laugh.” “yes you did.” “jesus i’m losin it” “you’re losin it big time” I LOVE THEM

AND THEN HE REALLY LAUGHS I’M GONNA FUCKING SOB RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW

JOEL MILLER SMILING AND LAUGHING IS SUCH A SERATONIN BOOST

THEM LAUGHING AND SAYING GO TO SLEEP DURING THE FADE TO BLACK I’M CRYINNNNG

oh fuck what’s happening

the way his eyes shoot open UUUUGH i love him

HENRY AND SAM AHHHHHHHH AHHHH AHHHH AHHHH AHHHH AHHHH AHHHH AHHHH

TRUE FAITH?????? TRUE FAITH???????

I’M CRYING

NEXT WEEK LOOKS SO GOOD

THE BLOATER

BTS TIME

“you get a sense that they’re a team.” 😭

BELLA!!!!!

“how ugly that violence is” AGHHH

CRAIG TALKING ABOUT THE LAUNDROMAT SEQUENCE AHHHHHH

“i love humanizing villains” WE KNOW NEIL. WE KNOW.

oh my god. that was fun! not as much plot but that’s A-OKAY. a nice break from the third episode hahaha🥲

i’m still lowkey mad joel didn’t get his fucking bag from the truck like he had time but it’s whateva

he’ll get another one later. i was just emotionally attached to that bag bc it was the game accurate one hehehe

ANYWAY

good episode! really loving the series so far!

so excited for next week. i’m taking an asl course right now so i’m fucking stoked to see it next ep!!

now time to rewatch and add the tracks to my soundtrack playlist!!

[kmsntossecretfiles]

My Midnight Caller :)

Hello! I just wat to thank you for all the things that we've been through. Those late night talks na kahit ang daldal ko SOBRA! ay nakikinig ka padin. Thank you kasi anjan ka to listen sa lahat ng rants ko sa buhay kahit magkaiba tayo ng oras anjan ka pa din. I know that there are things that you don't use to do. Hindi ka naman pala chats at ganun din naman ako, we don't do sleep call but we did it unaware. Maybe because we really do enjoy accompanying each other. Don't get me wrong about this, but I felt so comfortable being with and talking to you. Reason? because at first I was really mesmerized on how you adore, love and praise God unconditionaly.

I met a lot of people on that app where we met you are the only person who taught me about God. And It was so interesting and very admirable. I enjoy attending and learning about Bible and God's love to us His creations.

I know you have especial someone right now and I really like you being vocal with your feelings towards her. Not until, some of my friends are asking what are we? Who am I to you? but I said that we are just friends. Friends. Nothing more. Nothing less. Not until....

It was a great night I was about to sleep but I notice that you didn't even send me a message.. then you send me a screenshot that showing me you are busy talking to her. My heart suddenly got in pain. Yes I felt that pain, and I said to myself "STOP na." shocks! then I realized that I got jealous and I really hate it. I really hate myself. That's the real reason behind those SEEN MESSAGES and CANCELLED CALLS.

I want runaway from you. I decided not to talk to you or giving you minimal reply and not to open any conversations. Because I felt guilty for your someone and I don't want to ruin any relationship. As your friend I want you to be happy with someone you like not with someone like me. YES! I LIKE YOU. I REALLY DO but I don't want to make this feeling go deep in me. And you don't need to feel sorry about me. TALO ako sa pinasok ko, na-fall na ako sa maling tao. Oh ayan ah. Inamin ko na, and I want you to focus on her, give your time and effort and NEVER hurt her feelings. And sana din di ka din nya masaktan feelings mo since I care enough to someone like you.

Thank you for teaching me how to accept things easily. I might be hurt but this is life's challenge and trust me. I'll be okay. Mamimiss kong gisingin ka ng 6:30 morning "BUMANGON KA NA JAN" :) , yung tanungin ako kung ano yung iluluto mo, kung anong oras ba tayao matutulog, yung sleepcalls, minimal updates, unsent messages at yung kung anong MOVIE panonoorin natin sa RAVE at higit sa lahat I will miss your voice and laughter.

Sana pag nagkita ulit tayo. SANA.... pansinin mo pa din ako na parang wala akong sinabing ganitong kahaba hahahaha love you my midnight caller. Mag iingat ka palagi :)

[sundaysundaes]

Our First Time

Mark Lee X Reader, ft. Johnny | Smut, Fluff | 4.6k | College AU

Summary: Considering your boyfriend never dares to take the initiative to go further than your usual make-out sessions, you have to do the part to actually be in charge of the relationship.

Warnings: Smut, unprotected sex, Mark Lee losing his virginity while being extremely awkward and utterly cute about it, oral sex, fingering, failed fluff (idk man this is just basically me being a thirsty hoe over morkly)

“Remember the suit you wore when we went to your aunt’s wedding?”

Your boyfriend, who has been together with you for almost a year by now, hums in response, not really giving you any glance as he’s busy tapping his pen to his lips, thinking about writing the next lyric for the song he’s composing. Mark Lee has his chest pressed against his acoustic guitar, his hair’s a bit messy and slightly parted to the side, showing his forehead. Considering how close he’s sitting on the floor next to you, you can tell how half of the collar of his washed-out denim jacket stands up, brushing against the end of his dark hair.

“Yeah, what about it?” He continues asking when he notices that you’re waiting for a proper answer. He slips his guitar pick back between his fingers and tries a few chords to match his lyrics.

“I just dreamt about you fucking me from behind while wearing that suit.”

Mark strums his guitar too hard out of shock, making his instrument flies away from his lap, hitting the marbled floor with a sudden loud noise.

“What?”

Still having your head pressed against the table with your right cheek glued to your abandoned college papers, you flatly repeat, “I dreamt about you fucking—”

Mark stands up so fast, you can tell he’s having a slight headache because of it. “No. No. I heard what you said, I just—” It’s a fact that Mark blushes rather easily, but he has never blushed this hard before. “What—why—telling me so suddenly like this—you’re—”

“Mark, you’re rambling.”

“Why are you so calm about it?!” He walks away to pick up his guitar, unconsciously stomping a little bit like a fuming child as he does so. “And why are you lazing around like that? Didn’t you have some assignments to do?”

You finally straighten yourself up, looking at the textbooks you need to read and suddenly feeling like you’re dyslexic from birth. “I dozed off a bit, I guess. I just woke up from that dream where—”

“OKAAAAYYYYY!” Mark scrambles back to your side, crossing his legs and shushing you down by covering your head with your hood until you can barely see anything. The grey hoodie you’re wearing—his hoodie, actually—is already oversized when Mark is wearing it, so it’s basically a dress when you’re wearing it and the hood is big enough to cover your entire head.

You pull your hood away, your hair looking like a mess and by then Mark still has his cheeks rosy from your words and you wonder, whether it really was too much to talk about with your boyfriend?

You have never been the one who gets easily embarrassed about sexual stuff—or about anything really, because you’re a pretty blunt person. It’s his job to get embarrassed about things—even the ones that came out from his own mouth. Mark can be so confident and so awkward at the same time that it doesn’t make sense but you find him to be cute that way.

“Mark.”

“If you’re going to talk about that dream again, I am going to yank my hair out of my head.”

“But—“

“And I’m going to yank your hair out of your head.”

“But then we’re both be bald.”

“That will be your fault.”

You huff, unconsciously pouting, before you finally let go and head back to your papers. You try to hold your concentration longer than a few minutes, but when you hear Mark going back to his guitar, humming a few notes here and there, you just give up because there’s no way you’re going to finish your thesis when your boyfriend is singing so angelically like that.

“New song?”

“Yeah.”

“Sounds nice.”

“Thanks. It still feels a bit weird on some parts though, but—” Mark stops talking when you walk on all fours toward him, pushing the guitar out of his hands and crawl onto his lap. “Babe?”

You sink your face against the crook of his neck, hands going down and circle their way around his back. “Ssshh,” you say, exhaling all of his scents and thanking whoever it is that invented his perfume because goddamn, Mark smells like cinnamon and chocolate and everything that is good in this world. “I’m out of battery. I need to re-charge.”

Mark spends two seconds in silence before he blurts out laughing, “What are you even saying?” He protests but doesn’t push you away. Instead, he rests his chin on your shoulder and cuddles you closer into his chest.

“You’re so warm,” he murmurs, almost lazily as if he’s a few seconds away from sleeping. You answer by placing a peck on his neck which makes him jolt a little in surprise but not breaking away. The silence between you two is comforting but the way Mark’s jeans are pressing against your bare thighs is not so you move around, trying to find the most perfect comfort zone on his lap—not knowing that it is becoming a new kind of torture for your boyfriend. It’s until you feel something growing underneath you that you begin to halt your movements.

“Mark—”

“I know, don’t say it—”

“You’re kinda… hard.”

“I said, don’t—” He lets out a whine, slamming his temple against your shoulder. “Look, I’m sorry, but you keep moving your butt and it feels like you’re not wearing any pants—“

“I am not wearing any pants.”

“Fuck.” Mark is not the kind of man who curses a lot—he only does it when he’s surprised or when he panics as he tries to process what he’s saying next, so the fact that he’s cursing now can mean he’s feeling one of those things or both or for a whole other reason.

“I mean,” you try to explain, “I’m not trying to seduce you or anything. It’s just your hoodie is way too big for me so I thought why bother? It’s not like we’re going somewhere. We’re just hanging out in my bedroom after all.”

“Oh my God,” Mark groans, throwing his head back as he leans against your bed. “Just give me some time to calm down.”

He really looks like he’s trying to will his boner to go away, what with the way he furrows his eyebrows and keeps his eyes tightly closed in concentration. Mark is too much of a gentleman to ask for your help but you’re willing so it’s more like he’s giving one by providing the chance for you to ravage him.

Just gotta play it cool, though.

And by cool, you mean pressing your palm against his groin when he’s not expecting.

“Yo, what!” He jumps like a scared little cat and honestly, he’s too cute—so utterly cute—that you begin to lean up and kiss him square on the lips. “Mmph!” His protest is muffled by your mouth and the way you entangle your fingers around the back of his hair, pulling him close. He stiffens for a few seconds before he finally lets go, melting into the kiss and you know the next one is going to be your favourite part.

See, the thing with Mark is, he acts shy and awkward most of the time but when the moment is right, he can be passionate about things. Like when he’s playing music. Or writing his raps during his free time.

Or kissing you.

“Mark—“ It’s funny that you initiated this, but it’s you who’s losing your breath. Mark takes your hand when you’re about to fall off his lap, pulling you with enough force to make you tumble back to his chest, and slips his tongue inside your mouth as you gasp. His kisses are deep and fast, almost like he’s in a hurry to kiss you before you disappear from his life forever. You never peg yourself to act like a thirteen-year-old virgin—because you’re certainly not—but when Mark kisses you like this, you feel like you’re acting worse than that.

You can feel one of his hands on your thigh, holding you tight to the point it feels like it’s going to bruise. You push his denim jacket off his shoulders when he kisses your neck, lips hovering hot against your sensitive spot, making you say his name in the tone you’ve never made before.

“You,” Mark whispers between kisses, “have got,” another kiss, his teeth nibbling against your bottom lip, “to stop teasing me like this.” Another slip of his tongue, meeting yours for a split second before he breaks off the kiss. “Or else, I’ll go crazy. I am going crazy because of you.”

“Then why are you stopping?” You ask, breathing a little bit heavier. You cup one of his cheeks, leaning up to kiss him again but he pulls away, hesitating. “Mark?”

“I don’t think we should go any further.”

“You don’t?” You grind your hips against him again and his lips part slightly, trying his best to contain his moan. “Even though you’re this excited?”

“That—” He hisses, gripping hips with both hands to keep you still. “Stop it, you’re not being fair.”

“I’m being honest,” you correct him. “What’s wrong? What’s stopping you? What did I do wrong?”

You can tell he feels sorry for making you feel like this and he’s really contemplating whether he should tell you the real reason or not, so you squeeze his hand and smile at him. “Let me know, please?”

He licks his bottom lip nervously before he sighs. “It’s dumb but…” He looks away, trying to hide his face but you see how the tips of his ears are turning scarlet. “You’re Haechan’s ex and I know he can be a little bit, umm… wild.”

It takes a few seconds for you to process. “So you’re afraid that you’re going to be worse than him in bed?”

“No, I mean—“ He seems frustrated and ashamed, like a child being caught with his hand in a cookie jar. “Okay, yes, I guess you’re right. I am. But it’s more than that.”

The way he fidgets and rambles is just so cute—everything about him is cute—but you never say that out loud because he hates being called cute. He always says you’re cuter than him. “Mark, I don’t care about what happened with me and Haechan. I’m dating you now, aren’t I? You’re being jealous over nothing.”

The way he pouts indicates that he doesn’t particularly agree with your words, but he lets it go. “Well, there’s also one other thing.”

“What thing?”

“You know,” he shrugs, hiding his doe eyes behind his bangs. “That thing.”

“What? What is it? What thing?” Then you open your mouth in realisation. “Oh Mark, baby, I don’t care if you have a small dick. Size doesn’t matter.”

“What—NO!” He shrieks, face in flame. “I mean, not that I regularly measure it and compare it to other guys—I have never even seen another guy’s dick—not that I want to—”

“Mark, you’re rambling again.”

“I DON’T HAVE A SMALL DICK!” He exclaims and you hold back a laugh when he adds in a murmur, “At least I don’t think I have.”

“Okay, my bad.” You massage his shoulders, kissing the corner of his mouth. “Then what is it?”

Another silence, then. “I’ve never done this before.”

“What, sex?”

He weakly nods, teeth nibbling on his bottom lip worriedly, and you feel something warm growing inside your chest. The fact that he’s never been with anyone suddenly becomes the highlight of your life, and if you can be his first then you can just die from happiness by the end of the day.

But it’s because of this very reason, that you have to become very careful.

“Okay, then, let’s just take it slow?” You offer and he seems conflicted about his own expression. Part of him looks relieved but the other part of him looks disappointed.

“Why do I feel like we have our roles in reverse?” He asks, somewhat annoyedly, as you settle yourself better in his lap. You let out a small chuckle in response. “Also, your brother is downstairs.”

“He has his AirPods on.”

“How do you know he has his AirPods on?”

“Johnny always has his AirPods on.”

“But—”

“Mark,” you whisper, closing your eyes as the tip of your nose touching his, “Don’t you want me?”

He lets out a shaky breath, having a hard time trying not to stare at your lips that are becoming even more irresistible by the second. “You don’t even know how much I want you.”

“Then just let go. Just give in, Mark.” You press your temple against his and within this close proximity, his scent is intoxicatingly amazing.

“Okay,” he finally whispers back, but since he still sounds somewhat unsure, you add, “Look, we don’t have to do this if you don’t want to. Just stop me whenever it gets too uncomfortable for you, okay?”

“Okay now we seriously have our roles in reverse. Should I be handing my dick to you now? I think you’ll make better use of it.”

“That sounds like a great idea only if it’s possib—” The rest of your words is replaced with a yelp when Mark suddenly pushes you down onto your back, your head hitting the floor too hard and now he’s yelping.

“Oh, shit—fuck!” He scrambles with his words and with his hands, trying to help you get up and check on your condition at the same time. “I’m so sorry! I was trying to be sexy and be in control or something like that—shit, it just looks way better in my head—I—Why are you laughing?!“

You can’t help it. This is all too ridiculous. Almost refreshing for you, even. You never compared Mark with your ex-boyfriend Haechan before because Mark is way, way better than he’s ever going to be but you remember that with Haechan, things were wild. So wild, that you constantly got caught off guard, not having enough time to focus on your feelings or your own pleasure and just fulfilling his, and his only. With Mark, you feel like you have so much more to give. So much more new experience. So much laughter. So much fun.

“Oh my God, Mark,” you cackle, wiping away some tears from your eyes, “I love you, but if you don’t stop acting so cute, I am going to ravish you myself.”

“What?”

You blink in realisation. “Sorry, that was too much.”

“No, not that.” He knits his eyebrows together. “You love me?”

You feel your heart drops to your stomach. You can’t believe you just said that. It’s not like you didn’t mean it—of course, you mean it. But you’ve tried your best to wait so you can hear him say it first. You are a woman, after all. And to think that you just said it randomly at times like this? After your boyfriend knocked your head against the floor for trying to be sexy? Not really the way you imagined it to be, that’s for sure.

“Umm,” you fondle the hem of your—his—hoodie. Great, now you’re nervous. Suddenly, those papers you have scattered on your table don’t look so bad. “You’re right, I do have some assignments to do. I’ll just get back to—“

Mark grabs your hand, holding you right on your spot. “You love me?”

You can practically hear your own heartbeat in your ears and it’s really fast. “My thesis—”

“Babe, I need to hear you say it.” The way his doe eyes are holding yours seems unfamiliar. His gaze is firm, unfaltering, and you give in because what else can you do? It’s really how you feel after all.

“I love you, Mark.” You can hear the shyness in your own voice and you curse inwardly because where did your confidence go? You were acting so superior before!

Mark doesn’t say a word and when you feel like dying is a better option than standing awkwardly in front of your attractive boyfriend after your stupid unplanned confession, he suddenly lifts your entire body with both hands and lays you down on the bed.

“Mark—“

He kisses you like he needs it to keep himself alive, and you find yourself closing your eyes shut, moulding your lips against his until you can taste the mint flavour from the candy he ate earlier. He tangles his fingers around your locks, the other hand cupping your cheek to angle your face better so he can kiss you deeper. You can’t help but to arch yourself closer to him, chest meeting chest, hips against hips. You can no longer tell whether the moans come from you or him but everything feels hot and going so fast, like you’re free-falling from a skyscraper.

Perhaps he feels the same way because he gradually slows his pace until he finally parts his lips from you. One look at your disheveled face and messy lipstick smeared from your mouth to your cheek, and he goes back to staring at your lips again with want. He mutters, “Fuck” under his breath, almost inaudibly before he crashes his lips against yours, but slower this time, just carefully savouring every taste and breathing in every scent of you.

Mark pulls away only to grab the hem of his white Van Halen shirt, pulling it over his head and tosses it somewhere without care and you have to remind yourself to breathe because fuck me, that was hot. His hair’s a mess—even messier than before and you think that’s just as hot as he can get but then he pushes his hair back with his hand, forehead showing as it glistens with sweat, and says, “I’m not going to hold back anymore.”

Again, fuck me, that was hot.

Mark seems brave enough to finally just let go and consume you in the way he has been wanting to for a while, but you can tell he’s also nervous from the way he fumbles every now and then, especially when he tries to unhook your bra without looking. He has no problem tossing your—his—hoodie away, but when he keeps his eyes closed as he kisses you, it takes a good minute for him to finally unclasp your bra.

He’s momentarily in awe when your naked breasts come into view but he wastes no more time trying to please you with both his hands and his mouth.

It’s good. He’s good. If he’s this good his first time, you can’t wait to see what happens next. You’re too busy losing yourself in his touch until you feel his length pressing against your thigh. By instinct, you press it harder against his groin, eliciting a surprised moan from him.

Goddamn, why is he so hot?

That voice of his; you want to hear it more and more, so you bring his mouth back to yours, align your hips with his and unzip his jeans. Mark is swearing again, but the more he swears, the breathier he sounds and when you rub him over his underwear, his moans are delicious.

“Feels good?” You ask and he kinds of scowl at you because what do you think?

Surprisingly enough, he pushes your hand away from his crotch and when you raise an eyebrow asking why, he kisses your body lower and lower until his face is hovering above your panties.

“Mark,” you call out, “Don’t try to be sexy and pull my underwear down with your teeth or something. You haven’t reached that level yet.”

He responds by tickling you hard on the sides of your stomach and you almost kick him in the face from laughing beyond control.

After all joking has receded, Mark swallows his breath nervously and kisses you on the inside part of your thigh, slowly creeping down to your heat, mouthing against it from over the fabric.

“Want me to take it off?” He asks in the cockiest way you’ve ever seen him do and you wonder who’s the virgin one in this relationship.

“Depends. Do you want to have blue balls for the rest of your life?”

“I’m kidding, geez,” he says, chuckling a bit but it sounds more nervous and he probably is nervous since he’s never done anything like this before.

“Don’t worry, I’ll guide you,” you assure him and he looks like he wants to retort with something clever and snarky but he also kind of needs your guidance so he keeps quiet and just pulls your underwear down and tosses it away.

Mark knows how to use his tongue, he just doesn’t know where he should use his tongue. That’s when your guidance comes handy, you suppose.

“A little bit lower, Mark.”

“Here?”

“Lower.”

“Umm… here?”

“Whoa, too low!” You spring up from the bed, pressing your thighs together so he won’t lick anywhere weird. “Okay, Mark, there’s my vagina and there’s my ass. Some girls like to have their asses eaten, but not me.”

“Right,” he says awkwardly, cheeks burning bright. “Sorry.”

“No, don’t be. Umm…” It’s so awkward and you both kind of just sit on the bed not knowing what to do so you ask, a bit unconvincingly, “Try again?”

To your surprise, Mark nods rather excitedly, like a child eager to learn and that’s cute and all but in this context? Not so much.

But wow, Mark learns fast.

It’s been more than a year since someone has touched you like this and it feels like it’s your first time again, so you’re quickly reduced to a whimpering mess when Mark kisses and flicks his tongue against your private part. And when he sucks at a particular spot, you’re practically screaming his name.

“S-sorry, did I hurt you?” He asks, pulling away, eyes shaking in concern.

“God, no.” You’re this close to shoving his face back to your crotch. “Don’t stop, Mark, please.”

“But if you’re in pain—“

“Mark,” you can practically feel your patience throwing itself out of the window. “If I’m in pain, I will kick you in the face or tell you to stop, so if I don’t do any of that, don’t fucking stop.”

You know you sound a bit desperate. Or a lot. But is there any girl out there who’s not going to sound this desperate when Mark Lee is using his mouth to utter nonsense when he just did a perfectly good job over there?

Lucky for you, Mark actually listens and doesn’t stop going even if you’re mewling his name, to the point of almost sobbing even, and continues to please you until your thighs begin to tremble in delight and you fall back to the bed with the biggest content sigh you’ve ever made in your entire life.

“How was it?” He asks with a little bit of teasing in his tone because he can see how good it was. You can tell he wants to hear you praise him.

“You, Mark Lee,” you breathe out, looking at him with stars in your eyes. “Are the most talented person in the world and I’m not just talking about your talent in music, but in everything.”

He chuckles. “That good?”

You pull him down by his belt, until his chest pressing against yours again. “That good,” you agree before you crash your mouth against his in the most consuming way you’ve ever kissed someone.

Mark eventually has his pants off and you switch positions when he’s finally stark naked. He’s so shy about the whole thing that he barely keeps eye contact with you, and he stutters hard, asking where the condom is when you begin to position yourself on top of him. You shake your head, telling him that you don’t have one and add, “Just tell me when you’re about to come so you can pull out just in time.”

Mark opens and closes his mouth like a fish gasping for air, probably about to protest but can’t come up with any better solution. Besides, he basically just throws everything out of the door when you sit down on his lap, your walls stretching against his length in one swift motion and he throws his head back.

“Fuck!” He breathes heavily, looking at you specifically at the part where you both are connected. “You’re wet—how are you so wet—and warm—oh my God—I’m—“

“You’re rambling again.” It’s the third time you said that to him in the last hour, which must have been some kind of a record. Not important right now, though. You’re focusing yourself to adapt to his length—because he’s nowhere small, it turns out—and slide up and down when it stings less.

“Okay, shit, wait—“ Mark sinks his nails on the sides of your hips, making you wince a little and he pulls back, muttering “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, but I feel like I’m going crazy. Can we stop?”

“Too much?”

“Too much.”

You tease him by clenching your walls around him and he just groans loudly in the sexiest way you’ve ever heard a man groan. “Babe, please,” he begs, eyes half-lidded in lust. “You’re not being fair. It’s my first time.”

“So?” You can’t help it. You’re having so much fun. You rock your hips against him again and he just loses it. Mark grabs you by the waist, bringing you back down to the bed and muffle your laughter with his mouth.

“Since you can’t stop teasing me about it,” Mark says, spreading your legs apart by instinct and seeing him between your thighs is just the sexiest thing you’ve ever witnessed. “I’ll take control from here.”

Mark moves rather awkwardly, and sloppily from time to time but he is hitting the right spot. He’s too enthusiastic though, which doesn’t make him last long. He comes undone soon after, dripping liquid onto your stomach before your own orgasm can hit you but he doesn’t spend his time lying beside you on the bed. Instead, he quickly inserts one finger into you, then two, pumping in and out as he analyses your expression—making sure that he’s doing right and not hurting you in the process. You clutch your fingers around his bicep, urging him to go faster with your mouth parting halfway in pleasure and he smiles proudly at the sight. Smirking, he brings his mouth back to suck on whatever that is that makes you feel like the world is ending and you don’t fucking care because of Mark, oh yes, Mark!

When you’re done, he pulls his fingers out and licks the tips. He’s probably not trying to be sexy but more out of curiosity or just trying to imitate some dudes in those porn videos he watches from time to time, but goddamn, please do that again.

“Sorry for making such a mess,” he says, pushing the bangs out of your eyes, “I’ll go grab some tissues to clean you up—”

You bring him down to kiss him, senselessly, longingly, and languidly. Just enjoying the moment as you come down from your high. “You know,” you say, “I don’t know if I’m a good teacher, or you’re just one hell of a student, but that was amazing.”

Mark blushes but he grins like a child. “Am I better than Haechan?”

“I hate you for bringing him up because he no longer exists in my life but I bet my ass he’s never going to be as good as you. Our first time is ten times better than my last time with him.”

“You’re being honest?”

“Ten thousand percent.”

Mark plops down on the bed next to you, punching the air in a winning pose. “Hell yes!”

“Mark?”

“Yeah, babe?”

“Let’s take a shower together. You see, practice makes perfect.”

As he’s busy trying to wash the blush away from his face, there’s a loud knocking sound coming from the other side of your door.

“Have you two bunnies done fucking each other’s brains out yet? I need to take my AirPods you borrowed.”

Mark stares at you in horror when you finally remember that you, indeed, borrowed Johnny’s AirPods this morning.

You begin to sweat. “Oops?”

***

[yukiette]

Nakamura's Birthday Stream ❕️

link is on the title. translation below ✨️ pt.1 of.. Idk many probs 笑

13:00

When Nakamura looks eye to eye with someone, he said he usually would raise his head as he look into opponent's eyes which gives the impression he's looking down on 'em.

Kajita then explains that Nakamura's the type who looks into one's eyes when having conversation but when he does unfortunately it's as if he's scrunitizingly observing them, which is rather scary in his opinion lol.

17:05

Nakamura said he received many messages and emails congratulating his birthday.

And also told that he, Takahiro Sakurai, and Irino Miyu has a group chat together.

Nakamura : Well you see. Lately Irino-san is addicted to NiziU..

Kajita : NiziU? I think I have heard of it.. They're like people who dance or sing, right?

NY :..Well all of members are from Japan and they're an idols. *explains why its formed n about JYP relation to em*

MK :..JY..Park???? *confused*

NY : *laughs at his confused state* You really became person who doesn't know anything lol

Like, just awhile ago in the backstage you're like all knowing manga maniac, saying "Ah this manga? I've read it." Suddenly from that goes "J.Y.Park???" (Is quite hilarious)

*everyones laughing*

MK : Really. Really sorry 'bout dat.

NY : Wat happened really? *in accent*

MK : I have completely no interest in TV and entertainment industry but Hoshino-san is an exception.

MK : So, uhh.. Is J.Y.Park some sort of park? [HAHAHAHA I KENT-]

NY :..*silence* Yeah, a park. It's some sort like park.

*everyone loles*

NY & MK : *discusses seriously again about the producer stuffs.*

NY : Well, anyways. Irino's addicted to 'em and we (Takahiro and him.) said that if around 5 or 6 groups together n enters the view, we'll no longer could tell the differences between them.

[I RELATE SO MUCH HAHAH, thou twice is an exception ✨️]

NY : Then he said

"What's with that geezer like view?!? That's no good at all!"

"Okay, fine, you leave me no choice. I shall from now on personally virtually send you their profiles every single day so that both of you will remember every single one of them. (9 members.)"

"So do let me join your group."

And we're like "Ehhhhh....." (In "I don't wanna" kind of tone) [HAHAH I LOVE DIS]

NY : And so, he did actually sent them everyday. Wanna see? *loles*

MK : *ask n question sorts of things*

NY : Ah.. Yesterday was especially long.. *in tad low voice*

MK : Eh... I wonder where he got all of that informations..

NY : Probably from official sources..

NY : So yeah we even had question session like "This is who's -chan?" When I don't even remember their name much.

*pfft laughing*

MK : So uh.... Were you able to answer it?

NY : *in low voice* There's no freakin' way I could, of course.

*HAHAH*

MK : *reads* NiziU Smile Maker..

NY : Miihi-chan.

MK : *burst into laughing*

NY : Ace. Singing perfect. Dancing skills perfect. Expression also perfect. Popular member. Recently came back, reincarnated idol.

MK : *in loss of world as he keeps pointing to the screen*

NY : It'd be scary for a person to remember this.

NY : See all of this *shows the overall information* Absolutely impossible for me to remember.

*laughs*

MK : That's ain't no joke, actually it's terrifying... *taken aback* This.. Is this really from official sources? It's he wrote it personally, lol.

NY : Yeah, you might be right...

MK : Right? It looks like he wrote that himself.

MK : That's to be feared of...

NY : Like Ayaka-chan, too..

MK : "Fluffy Fuzzy Beauty"...

NY : "Nina-chan unexpectedly is 15 y/oー!!"

NY : *continues to list members name as MK keep hm-ing HAHAH*

MK : Uhh.. Nakamura-san. Everyone kinda look the same in my eyes...

MK : I wonder if I'm already an old man.

NY : Yep.

MK : They all looks like Osomatsu-san to me. (In how you can't quite distinguish way.)

MK : Everyone's a beauty and because they're all beauties. I can't distinguish between them.

NY : Yep. Because ultimately, overall "beauty" is like that.

MK : Yeah2. It's like that.

NY : Mhm. Because they're all beauties, it happens. I understand.

MK : Like.. Popular celebrities have this similar look..

NY : *shows the chat again*

MK : That's amazing..

NY : Well anyways after that. They congratulated me and stuffs. We continued to talk for a long time and brought up several topics.. It's what I did first on my b-day btw.

MK : That's good, then. Having fun n all.

NY : Well along the way the topic became.. Adult Videos..

MK : Eh?? How how??

NY : I don't really know, it's just did..

MK : Like.. How's the shift for ya'll to discuss bout that. [I like his hand movements HAHAH]

NY : Well.. Idk.. We kinda talked about that somehow.

MK : I'm honestly more piqued in this topic, instead.

NY : *lols* Yeah, we had a blast.

NY : *start to play phone bec hes embarrassed probs lol*

MK : I have dark knowledge about those adult videos. (Certain sites? Idk)

NY : Is there such knowledge?!

MK : Mhm.. Well, y'know that 2D content are censored, right?

MK : That male.. [K WAITO KAJITA-SAN WHY I MUST TRANSLATE THIS SUDDENLY HAHAHAH]

NY : Wh-What? [yap nakamura-san iz me rite now]

MK : Please listen to what I have to say.

NY : Okay..

MK : Like doujin and ?. There's many purchase sites for that, right?

MK then continues on as NY keeps laughing at this absurd topic.

MK then tells how the mosaic opacity is different depends where you buy, etc.

The camera/producer also even joins in to clarify what's NY confused about.

NY kinda was cutted off and and said, "Wow an explanation coming from a pro." [HAHAHAH]

MK : Yeah like seriously. Unless you compare them side by side, you doesn't notice.

NY : *cuts off kajita abit* ...What kind of topic is this.. *he says in low voice as he plays with his phone*

MK : I was wondering if this is the thin part ofー

NY : *cuts off kajita again* To discuss about this topic on someone's birthday..

[I wanted to do a bit more but YT isn't cooperating rite now.]

[staysuki]

LMAO you were actually serious when you said that you ll drop the remaining chapters today 😭 anyways, props to hyunjins apology 🙇 omaygad hyunjin endgame yuhs 🙌 charot, seungmin is somewhere out there waiting for y/n :( and omg our girl really doesnt want anything to do with hyunjin anymore :< this ship will sink lmao well, dcurb mo naman hyunjin. (ch 29 was released 🤯) y/n has a great point though. rejected, oof. huge respect to y/n for staying strong ugh 😎 the words that she told hyunjin were so cool idfk y. i need help. AGAIN PROPS TO HYUNJIN FOR BEING BRAVE AND APOLOGIZING. just damn. jeongins #NotMyFriend is such a big mood, i love him. omg chan for mvp. oohhh minho and hyunjin have history 😮👄🍵 OMAYGADDD WET LNG SHUTA OMG WAAAAAAAAAAAATTT MINHO LMAOOO SENGMIN BACK OFF 😠 ITS MINHOS TIME TO SHINE wat tHEN WHY TF DID HE PRETEND NOT TO RECOGNIZE HER? LMAO I KENAT WITH THIS REVELATION. nO pls hahahahaha omg minho endgame bud pls omgg di ako maka get over >:( di ako makaurong papuntang ch 29 >:( i keep repeating minhos last message >:( BEST SERIES EVER UGH. im rereading the whole ass series later

ch 29 >>> hahahahhahha seungmin lumayo ka. omg kim seungmin smiled at her lol hope alls. seungmin is sad 😠 now im sad 😠 how did it end up with this? why am i so attached to EHALOJ kim seungmin 😠 ASHHHH 😠😠😠😠😠😠 “I’m a bit sad though, I thought I’d be able to have you for myself.” 😠😠😠😠😠 IDK WHO TO CHOOSE ANYMORE, SAKSAKIN NIYO NA LANG AKO PLS. HAHAHAHA DI TALAGA PAPATALO SI LEE MINHO AHHAHAHHAHA bruhhh idk why but it would seem funnier if this ended with neither any of the 4 getting to have a chance to end with our queen xd. YESS FELIX, the way to a girl s heart is by being patient. lee felix endgame 😗 “So not to make this awkward or anything—” -> JEONGIN IS SUCH A BIATCH AHHAHHSDHHSHSHSHDSHDHSAHSD dasurb mo yun jeongin :<

omgg you re really really really really great at writing, i kenat. im enjoying every second of reading :> seungmin is winning the race, skl. like srsy, among those 4, he s been the only one whom y/n even considered thinking abt dating. HALA ETO NA DRAMA. while the 3 out of the 4 are having a boys bonding time, hwang hyunjin is carefully and slowly making his way back to y/n s heart. ahha hwang hyunin endgame. “Ok.” 🥶 hwang hyunjin is sad 😠 now im sad 😠 uGH hyunjin out here doing his best to fix everything, we stan such a man. im crying 4 him 😠 hurt si hyunjin pero mas hurt ako kasi isang tao lang si y/n edi isa lang makakatuluyan niya hahhhashahshhdhshadh oMAYGAD WALA PALA YUNG 3 LMAO KAY HWANG HYUNJIN LANG TALAGA PAPATOL 😩 HAHAH CHAN WATDAFUQ 😭 the ball felt the tension, it knows that it was a bad time but destroyed their moment nevertheless. IT SAVED Y/N. i mean she still isnt sure of her feelings yet so if the kiss really did happen then im sure she might ve regretted it big time.

“You’re like a double-edged sword. You make people feel special but at the end of the day, they will get hurt. Right?” aaaa chan is so raytt. OMAYGAD CHAN IS SCARIER LMAO like how he uses is words. OMG NEWAYS IN OTHER WORDS "wag mo sila landiin kasi kaibigan ko sila" CHAROT. you re really good at making plots aaaaaaaaaa all of these are so realistic, no cap. i love how y/n seemed to be the heroine with little to no flaws at first glance, then waahhh all of it comes crashing down at the end. also their (y/n and chan) talk. i love how y/n saved them from the problem they all had been having troubles with but at the end of the day, another character comes in and made her realize of an issue she was unintentionally causing that was undermined, in some way, bc of everything thats happening. hala pucha d q ma explain, good luck na lang, this was nice, it focused more on y/n lols CHAN MVP

WAIT I FEEL LIKE VP ISNT SOME KIND OF BTCH LOL PROMISE, I FEEL LIKE SHE'S ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE ROWDY ASS OFFICERS AHHAHHAHHAHHAHHA rip hyunjin, hes the only one not there :<

omggg congrats on finishing s1 ! huhu cant wait for the next seaoson. im v v v v v v excited to see all of them coming back.

- bs

I TOLD YOU I’M REALLY BAD AT KEEPING MYSELF ON A SCHEDULE 💀💀💀. like, it’s there in my drafts, why not just drop it, i wanna see what people think already 😴

PALIPAT LIPAT NANAMAN YUNG CHEER FROM HYUNJIN -> SEUNGMIN -> MINHO -> FELIX PLS 😭😭😭. and yes, i’m so happy to finally move on to new arcs, namely Minho’s 😏. i dropped so many revelations and clues for season 2 arcs hehe.

chapter 29 was too much even for me, i was so @&”;@:&;!! while writing it 😭. Secretary Kim is superior thats why :,)))). Minho not even hiding it anymore. Jeongin is such a bitch 😭💔

hwang hyunjin sneaky boy 100%. and it’s because hyunjin is the first one to have romantic history with y/n omo 🤧 bilis magpadala ni ate gurl.

AND YES I LOVE EHALOJ CHAN SO MUCH, he didn’t appear much this season but i have so much planned for him. like, next season there’ll be more focus on the student council so we get to see more of them. i started this series because i wanted to write #StudentCouncilPresidentBangChan and now season 2 will probs feature him a lot 😈. and oml, when i tell you that this is just a taste of his “scary” side jehwjshwjss. i’m so excited to write Scary Prez Chan.

Hmmm the vice president theory huh, let’s see 😏

and thank you!! i’ll probably drop a teaser sometime this week ehehehe 🤧

[smellycinnamonthundahfudge]

tumblr fweinds

a year ago, i was tagged by @suplosers on two questionnaires and it is only now, a year later that i was able to answer em. i’m so sorry it took me this long but yah i’m just glad to get thru dis milestone, answering the first tumblr get to know ya post i was @ at... yaayyy ^^

rules: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people.

I tag: tbd haha i still have to dig thru meh notifs to see which ones apparently took an interest in me so i’d like to take an interest in as well haha but oh @you-guys--are-losers, ur doing this whahaha hope it’s not too much of a bother, no presh watsoever ;3

the last

1. drink: ughh it's dis shitty stuff called hydrite w/c is basically salt water cus im sick rn and it's supposed to rehydrate ur shts or something hahaha

but dat was like a week ago... as of da moment i posted dis, it’s coffee from mini stop dat i drank at like 530 in da morn while i waited until i could enter the school cus i had to commute 3 hours w/ lil to none sleep

2. phone call: my father or one of my best friends

3. text message: the last one i texted was my sister and the last one i got a text from was dis org in school about the location for recruitment/auditions/interview

4. song you listened to: billy jean by michael jackson and i listened to it for meh tomdaya fic hahaha. But i also listened to halo by beyonce, untouchable and dress by taylor swift, and some other songs magmt mentions in her tomdaya fic hehe a week ago

rn, a metal cover of toxic by our last night

5. time you cried: haha i don't actually remember the context of it (i could find out tho haha cus i sent da pic to my best friend) but i took a pic of it while i did it which was on... july 16 hahaha. Oh but w8 oh sht i think i cried after that fudge w8 i don't remember the date (i think i can find this out too hahaha) but i wrote a sortof goodbye confessions letter to one of my dear friends and i wrote there that i externally cried (b4 i just said internally haha) so i'm not entirely sure i cried but i think im pretty sure i teared up hehe

6. dated someone twice: hahaha i haven't even had a legit love interest yet 😆😂 buuutt my best friend and i have "dated" as in spent entire days together w/ just the two of us, we even went to mcdonalds for valentine's day and got each other gifts hihihi aahhh gosh i miss her :'(

7. kissed someone and regretted it: haha im not even sure if dis happened and i have no plans on asking her about it but i remember when i was a kiddo, when my sis came home for some reason i kissed her on the lips hahaha dont remember if accidental or i just brain farted heck i aint even sure if it happened but das all i can answer cus well like i said, see #6 😆😂😆😂

8. been cheated on: hhmmm probs not, i have no idea if ive been cheated on in an unromantic way hahaha but in da romantic way, like i said, no love interest hahaha

Oh w8 does being someone's crush (i aint sure but it seemed like it) and crushing on dat dude but dat dude crushing on someone else too count as cheating? 😆😂😆😂

9. lost someone special: yes, all of my grandparents are dead. I've also lost pets, and i fear i may lose some of my friends due to the distance among us in this time of our lives

10. been depressed: i always wanna be careful over how to define depression. Like wat constitutes it... but yes, i think i have. Not sure, mind you, but yes, at the beginning of gr 7 i was really alone, i think i was bullied and i think i was depressed and going thru a really dark phase of my life back then. But then again, i have to say, i'm not sure.

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: hahaha nope. I'm looking forward to getting drunk tho. Im currently underage so im not allowed to drink dat much yet but yeah i wanna know my limits hehehe i hope im da kinda gurl who can handle her liquor but i have drank and i have to say it made me all loopy and weird and just like woke or high or something hahaha so yeah man im excited to get trashed on my 18th bday hahaha (hopefully i get to do this tho huhuhu)

3 favourite colours

12. Pink

13. Blue

14. Gray

in the last year have you

15. made new friends: yyeeesssss and i'm so glad i have hihi. I have made friends w/ a select group of my blockmates and they're awesome and weird, i hope to strengthen our bond in da future hehe. Ooohhh and i sure hope that you guys are losers is my friend cus she's been rlly great :')

16. fallen out of love: i guess the closest i've come to falling out of love in a romantic way is moving on from da heavy crushin on meh crush. But i dunno, i still think he's a unicorn n pretty special to me so i dunno hahaha.

But bro, i do think i have fallen out of love. With tv shows, with characters. Like i used to be so passionate about a few shows and characters but now all i have towards them is regret heck i cant even remember wat dey are but i know dat der was love lost. I know it.

17. laughed until you cried: hahaha yaasss i think so. It's either when i was with my best dearest friends or during the class of dis really cool and funny as heck joker teacher who makes us laugh in EVERY SINGLE CLASS hahaha ahhh das guy's so cool

18. found out someone was talking about you: oohh yah yah i think so. Either from my best friends or from a few of my old classmates i care about and had gotten close with. Da best friend ones was about something in my past/history (g7) and the classmates one i think was just dem talking about me and they told me about it ooohhh i think it was my crush hahahaha. They told me dat my crush actually admired me a lot hehe. There was one time my friend (the one who told me about dis) was putting make up on me for a school film, and my crush was da cam guy and he told my friend i looked pretty. Sooo im pretty lucky dat- oh sht w8 i dunno if it's dis year but oh w8 no, it was on my bday last year (dec 20) and da same friend said she was sorry cus apparently da bois make fun of me or something and she was sorry cus she laughed along too hahaha but i didnt mind cus i know im weird and i dont even know what dey say about me in da first place hahahaha. Ok das it im done, i think ive overshared now hahaha 😆😂😆😂

19. met someone who changed you: my best friends. Ive thought about it based on wat sup losers said about change for da better and i dont rlly think of change as something dat happens quick, i think it happens over time and u dont even notice it. So ok oh sht i think im wrong cus i met my best friends 4/6 years ago hahaha but for reals tho, i was in a dark place and if it werent for dem i think id still be lost lonely and sad. Uuhhmmm in regards to answering the question correctly, i guess my blockmates count since they inspire/challenge me to be better. OH SHT W8 i def think you guys are losers and dead end street and tomdaya receipts and tout de suite have changed me hehehe. Da first 2 in dat dey inspired me to write more hehe. Da 1st one inspired me to do this so i think this counts as change hehe. And da last 2 changed me in dat bcus i met dem, i became OBSESSED w/ tomdaya hahaha.

20. found out who your friends are: yes, i have actually. And it's all because i am now currently a college freshman as well as my friends.

21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: hahaha my fam i guess hahaha. But no one in a romantic context.

general

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: hhmmm i guess id say about 200 since i know 4 sections of around 40 ppl and da rest is like fam and ppl ive met once/twice or have passed by haha

23. do you have any pets: yaaaassss 3 doggos: albie, juju, and biggie girl. Juju has a pupper named tchalla called dat cus he black hehehe and biggie has 2 biglets named mermer (meredith) and crissy (cristina) cus they're sisters 😍😊😊

My fam have also had a buncha dogs n puppers before but they were either given away or passed away. My bro also has dis cat named bob and i think he counts as a semi pet since my bro's home is a fam home.

24. do you want to change your name: uuhhh i wish i had an alliterative name like superheroes. Buutt im pretty happy w/ my name :')

25. what did you do for your last birthday: oohhhh i think i was at my section's christmas party it was pretty nice n emotional and i spent da rest of da day w/ 2 of meh best friends who bought me cake n food when my own fam didn't 😆😂😆😂

26. what time did you wake up: 4 am to shit cus im sick, but fell asleep again and officially got up around 730 or 8ish

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: haha tryna stay awake cus i had to drink meh meds and failed oh so much and i think i was asleep by midnight hahaha

28. name something you can’t wait for: tomdaya content, chatting/being w/ my best friends, watching da stuff i wanna watch, tumblring, reading sht i wanna read, vacation, writing fanfics, learning how to do a buncha stuff (write screenplays, make films n gifs, draw better), my bday when i hopefully get to do wat i want haha, avengers 4 and smffh, and captain marvel and antman and the wasp too i guess haha oh and the incredibles 2 and httyd 3 😍😍😍 oohhh and crazy rich asians

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: on monday which was when i was at home and not at my dad's n sis' n i's apartment in manila for school/work

31. what are you listening to right now: commercials on da tv as i answer this long ass questionnaire hahaha

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: hahaha i had to think about dis one but yah i have actually haha he was my gr 8 class mate n i like to think semi friend back den at least haha. Oh w8 but he doesn't go by tom tho, it's just thomas haha

33. something that is getting on your nerves: myself hahaha my shitty lazy ass procrastinating self hahaha 😅🙍

34. most visited website: fb specifically messenger, youtube, and tumblr

35. hair colour: hmmm black w/ a bit of brown i guess (ASIAN, YO! 😆😂😆😂)

36. long or short hair: neither, medium i guess haha. I like how long hair looks but it's such a bother n hassle haha. So i def would prefer short hair on a practical standpoint hahaha (im actually thinking of shaving the hair above my nape, yknow on da back of my head hehe)

37. do you have a crush on someone: well i dont have dat much of a crush on da crush i mentioned before, like i said haha. I have a crush on tomdaya, does dat count? 😆😂

38. what do you like about yourself: hahahaha nothing 😆😂😆😂🙍

Naahh uhhh i guess i like how much i love tv shows, i love meh fangirl self, and i like how diff n unique n weird i am, how i stand out, n dat i think my dreams are noble n worth tryin out. N i like how supportive n nice i am n im just chill on da outside haha. N sometimes i like meh face hehe. And i think dat im hilarious n weird n ppl should appreciate me more hahaha das y i crave for more validation dan consulting researchers hahaha (no one laughs at dat jokes and it's like im da only one who finds it funny and come on, man, i managed to make a research joke. Cant ya give a girl a break?)

n i guess sometimes it's good how much i care but sometimes i wish my feels could just chill for just like a minute pls

Thanks, man. I usually just focus on meh bad qualities so thanks for dis question, man :')

oh and i like dat i can swim hehe

39. piercings: i have holes on my ears for earrings but i don't really wear dem

40. blood type: a, i think?

41. nickname: sam, sab, and i rlly want to be called smells cus it's like a more me version of mels from melody hahaha

42. relationship status: single, yo. Oh w8 but i am married to my bed and fandoms so dey always come first. Plus i love my friends 😍😊

43. zodiac: sagittarius i think but i dont rlly know/care about zodiac sht. Tho it's nice if it does match up hehe

44. pronouns: uhhh i dont know wat to put here but i assume dis refers to wat i wish to be referred by ssoooo she, her, and a genderless pronoun in my language siya

45. favourite tv show: ughh i cant choose. Friends, grey's anatomy, phineas and ferb, avatar: the last airbender, black mirror, doctor who, and all of michael schur's stuff, and modern family, grimm, person of interest, pushing daisies, scrubs, happy endings, forever, how i met your mother, gravity falls, sherlock, and yknow wat? Yah, supernatural too and the httyd shows and suits :') oooohhh w8 and how to get away w/ murder and i guess big bang theory as well 😃 the end of the fucking world, legends of tomorrow, crazy ex-girlfriend, the good place, timeless but it’s kinda depressing so speaking of w/c game of thrones and west world and a series of unfortunate events and stranger things and scorpion and lost in space and for anime, let’s go with yakitate japan and boku no hero academia

46. tattoos: none, but i rlly want one and even have a list of tattoos i want (pretty minimalist), i just have to think of da perf place tho (both where to put it and where to get it) and find out if i can still donate meh bod if i have tattoos, but one of da ones i rlly want is smileys on meh fingers hehe

47. right or left handed: right, but my ma says im kinda ambidextrous n i kinda wish i could develop it hehe

48. surgery: haha nope, never. But in terms of an interest, i love grey's anatomy 😆😂

50. sport: ooohh my main sport is swimming cus my siblings are all swimmers so i am too. But i have played other sports for school like badminton, table tennis, volleyball, some water game i dont remember haha, and a combat sport in my country called arnis

51. vacation: christmas vacay and i cant wait huhu

52. pair of trainers: uhhh are trainers rubber shoes? I have a couple, i guess.

GENERAL

53. eating: my dad (who cooked our meal), sis, and i ate afritada (chicken dat's tomatoey basically) for dinner

54. drinking: just water, but ugh i have to drink da hydrite sht again 😑😒

55. I’m about to: finish dis questionnaire n fall asleep haha

56. waiting for: sleep n happiness

57. want: to sleep n write n tumblr n watch n read n for all my problems to disappear

58. get married: yeahhh... but i think it's highly unlikely, man. So i aint counting on it but i do want it to happen, it seems nice having someone to spend da rest of your life with :')

59. career: hahaha i'm still just a college student, just a newly minted freshman actually. But i like to consider myself a fulltime fangirl hahaha

WHICH IS BETTER

60. hugs or kisses: well, i havent rlly made out with anyone yet so im gonna have to say hugs i guess w/c ofc i love haha but i wish someone bigger than me could cuddle me for once in my life 😢

61. lips or eyes: lips cus they just seem so soft and sensual hehe. Plus i dunno man, eyes are kinda gross with muta (da sht in da corner of ur eyes when you wake up, it's a filipino word) and sht. And ya have to wear glasses/contacts if dey weak so it's just such a hassle. Tho i do recognize their importance n stuff 😊

62. shorter or taller: ugh TALLER. im a pretty tall gal so for once id like to be da lil spoon for once, for someone to be able to carry me and ya know all dat jazz. But i wouldnt give up my height for anything, makes me feel confident and better than everyone else mwuehehehehehehe

63. older or younger: uuuhhh for now i think it's a bit weird to date someone younger dan me, but for me personally, wat age i'd like to be, YOUNGER ALL DA WAY. it was just way less stressful and innocent back den, id give anything to go back 🙍

64. nice arms or nice stomach: haha nice arms if it means i can swing around them and they can carry me whahaha. But i do like em abs, i wanna feel wat abs feel like just once in my life hahaha

65. hookup or relationship: ooohhh i guess i fancy myself having a relationship for now hehe. Havent even had one yet haha.

66. troublemaker or hesitant: i am a hesitant troublemaker whahahahaha. Like i have all these ideas of thangs to do n sometimes i do dem but sometimes da situation n context scares me into not doing it like a wuss hahaha

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. kissed a stranger: haha nope.

68. drank hard liquor: haha nope but am looking forward to it hehe

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: thankfully i havent needed any yet whew

70. turned someone down: uhhh i guess the closest i came to "turning someone down" was being awkward around my crush haha but to be fair i think he was awkward too hahaha. And in an unromantic sense, i turned down a blockmate who offered to be my partner in an assignment becus i already had a partner hahahaha 😅

71. sex on the first date: haha havent experienced it if das wat ur askin. Maybe imma be dat kinda person after ive had a couple of relationships but for now i'll settle for someone actually being interested in me hahaha

73. had your heart broken: yes, by tv shows, and by da crappiness of life in general 🙇

74. been arrested: hahahaha nope but dat would be CRAZY hahaha

75. cried when someone died: yes, whether in real life or in tv shows, i have cried bcus of death 😢

76. fallen for a friend: look, man, my best friend's probably the most important person in my life who i couldnt bear to lose. I love her more dan anything in da world so i dunno if our friendship is something more dan da "typical" best friends i just know dat i love her n dat i dont wanna lose her n dat our bond's nothing like any other relationship ive ever had

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. yourself: hahahaha not rlly 😅 im pretty unreliable tbh and i make tons of mistakes and ill never be enough ever and just in general hate myself and have 0 self esteem hahaha 😅😅😅😓

But there's a chance i could improve tho, a very very VERY small tiny chance... but i guess i'll take wat i can get :/

78. miracles: hhmmm not in da way most ppl think about miracles in dat, it's da impossible event. I like to think it's a miracle that i have the family dat i have, da friends dat i have, and da life dat i have cus honestly i think i'd be dead w/o em. It's a fucking miracle i have things im passionate about and things that i love and im surrounded by ppl who i love and who love me as well. So yeah, i guess i believe in those kinds of miracles :')

79. love at first sight: hahaha not rlly. Look, man, im a fat girl who doesnt rlly care dat much about looks so unless a person manages to fall for someone while dat someone was doing something dat was a huge indicator of their personality and thus it's not only da appearance dat da person "fell in love w/", den i rlly dont believe in love at first sight. It's just infatuation, bruh. Love at first sight is cheap and u dont rlly know any thing about dat person other than the fact that they're pretty (why they caught ur eye in da 1st place imo) and nothin, zilch. Unless, like i said, they were doing something important to dem n indicative of deir personality. But even then, it wouldnt be love. Like i said, it'd be infatuation cus imo love is deep and takes time and cant just HAPPEN just cus u looked at someone and thought he/she was pretty 😒. True love would mean knowing dat person to deir bone but wanting to know more about dem. So to conclude a ted talk from a bitter person w/ a non existent love life 😆😂😂😂, love at first sight doesnt exist, is cheap, and is discriminatory to "ugly" ppl.

80. santa claus: hahaha i know he probs doesnt exist and is u know basically just capitalism n marketing hahaha. But i dunno, man, i kinda wanna believe he exists just cus it's more fun n childlike n innocent 😍

81. kiss on the first date: hahaha yeah i guess so but i think i probs would have had to known dat person for a while before we decided to date. I havent had a first kiss yet sooo i aint just willin to give dat out to someone i just met/knew for like a day or something hahaha (i have no idea how dating works) 😆😂😆😂😆😂

82. angels: huh... i like to think guardian angels exist cus dat means there are like angels of pure light sent down from heaven to protect us from any harm w/c is just nice to think about, yknow? Hehe. But angels in da catholic sense... i dont think i do, bruh. Sorry :/ *shrugs*

OTHER:

84. eye colour: uuhhhh brown, i guess? Like i said, i dont rlly care much for eyes hahaha 😅 ooohh but da purple eyes thang ive seen on da internet sounds cool hahaha

85. favourite movie: aaaahhhhh there's just so many good movies thoo

But agghh fine. Ive come to notice dat my genre's pretty lighthearted w/c is nice actually hehe

Spider-Man: Homecoming, Rogue One, 10 Things I Hate About You, Moana, Coco, Mulan, Avengers: Infinity War, White Chicks cus it's just so goddamn funny and iconic 😆😂😆😂😍, i'm not- ok you know wat, da Pixar movies in general ok? I mean, how can ya not? Oh which reminds me, Tangled, and The Princess and The Frog, oohh The Avengers is also a pretty solid movie, ooohhh Love, Simon, godhs dat was just such a wholesome sweet n nice movie :'), oh and den i freaking love the Scream franchise, man. It's so good :'), oooohhh w8 maybe The Dark Knight cus heath ledger was just da fuking bomb in dat movie, oohh and About Time's da sweetest time travel movie :') w/c reminds me dat the Back to the Future franchise was just such a classic, man :') oh and yknow wat? Unbreakable's actually pretty fucking cool, man. I get shyamalan know haha. Oh and yknow wat? 100 Tula Para Kay Stella is da 1st filipino film i actually liked so it has a special place in meh heart :')

ooohhh and Black Panther, man, gods how can one not bring up Da King™? WAKANDA FOREVER :') 😄

Oh and hey yknow wat? I have a sweet spot for the Sorcerer's Apprentice. It's kinda a guilty pleasure of mine hehe 😅

Whiicchh reminds me... the HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON FRANCHISE HAS GOT MY HART WHIPPED 😭😭😭

Oh and i also rlly like when harry met sally hihi :') and i guess the OG Star Wars trilogy's got a special place in my heart even if it is da way dat it is now 😢 :')

oh and i can't forget meh guardians :') Guardians of The Galaxy is such a solid film, bro. I loved it :') ooohhh and yknow wat? I actually rlly like Ready Player One, Baby Driver, and The Mummy (the brendan frasier one, who ya kiddin 😑)

oh and yknow wat? The Wedding Singer, 50 First Dates, and Music & Lyrics has got a special place in my heart, man. Gotta admit it :')

aawww and amelie, and begin again, and flipped and hercules, and room, and spotlight, and shape of water, and ladybird, and the princess bride, and the iron giant, and the lobster, and we're the millers, and what if and man up and shrek and kimi no na wa and a quiet place and inception and the lion king and to all the boys I’ve loved before and oooh tim burton movies are pretty cool, the animated ones, and I did spend a good amount of time obsessed w/ dis one so I guess cap civil war, and then big hero 6 and wreck it ralph, and the martian and inside out, and gone girl, and the lion king and forrest gump and spider-man 1 and 2, and les miserables and the devil wears prada and the book of life and the intern and the princess diaries and miss congeniality and aladdin and confessions of a shopaholic

And ok, ok, i think im done. Hahaha das it das my list of meh all time fav movies and i feel like rewatching all of em now hahaha 😍

[myhiddeagenda]

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!

Stranger: Hey

You: F, 21, Norway

You: Sup over?

Stranger: M

Stranger: 19

You: Apparently, I can't English

Stranger: 😂😂😂

You: How ya doing?

Stranger: I’m good, you?

You: Fairly cool

You: The temperature has finally started to get lower than 30* degreees

You: Thank lord

Stranger: Lmao, it’s pretty hot over here in Michigan

Stranger: Wyd

You: Fucking gross

You: Not much really

You: Bored, my friends ditched me

You: So here I am, passing time

Stranger: Ahhhhh, I just got out of football. I’m just laying down

You: ooh, football which is not soccer rofl

Stranger: Yes, American football

You: I've tried it once, it's shits and giggles till someone tackles you with their shoulder to your gut

Stranger: Try that six hours a day

You: No thanks. I'm ok with my decent amount of hockey

You: haha

Stranger: You wanna play truth or dare or something

You: Sure

You: Hit me up

Stranger: Truth or dare

You: Truth I guess

Stranger: You got a bf

Stranger: ?^

You: I'd like to say yes, but it's complicated

You: How do you even do a dare over Omegle?

Stranger: Idk, you just trust the other person does it I guess

You: I ain't devouring boogers

You: no thanks

Stranger: Lmao

You: How's your lovelife going?

You: You must have girls swooning after ya

Stranger: I mean, sex is fun

You: hahha, all of the testosterone

Stranger: It’s fun for the other person too

Stranger: Trust meeee

You: wooowzers, I ain't judging you

Stranger: Truth or dare

You: Truth

Stranger: When was the last time you’ve had some good sex

You: Shit, hard question

You: hmm

You: After "boyfriend" did the "what are we" talk, I honestly went out partying out of pure anger with a couple of dude friends

You: Of my friends cousin was having hard luck finding "fun" so I joined him home

You: Not proud of it, but it was damn good

Stranger: Be proud of it, you got some good sex

You: Guilt trips my conscious

You: Okay

You: Truth or dare

Stranger: Dare

You: Take the closest inanimate object

You: and take a comparing dickpic

You: send it to the first dude on snapchat lmao

Stranger: I’ll do the first two but I ain’t sending that to any dudes😂😂

You: hahahaha

Stranger: Damn, my dick is surprisingly big

You: Have to admit I haven't really played truth or dare before lmao

You: haha, what'd you compare it to?

Stranger: A pillow

You: pfffffffftttttttttttttttt

Stranger: Lmaooooo

You: Good on you 😂

You: Does your dick go in the vagina and out the mouth?

You: Sounded really long 😂

Stranger: I give her a good time, I don’t kill her😂

You: hahaha, I'm laughing so hard

You: So, what music do you like?

Stranger: All music

Stranger: Depends on my mood

Stranger: Truth or dare

You: Truuuth

Stranger: Hmmmmm

Stranger: What’re are you rn

You: What? What am I right now?

Stranger: Where*

You: A lonely, confused woman?

Stranger: Lmao, we’re both lonely. Twinning

You: Sadbois v_v

Stranger: I choose dare

You: hmm

You: If you have the number of the last person you slept them

You: Tell them you had a good time *winky winky*

Stranger: Ok😂😂

Stranger: You seem like a dope person, if only you didn’t live halfway across the world

You: Well damn, never gotten that compliment before

You: I am known of being the best wingman, so I guess I'm a bit dope

Stranger: Lmao, you could me my wingwoman

Stranger: Be

You: Like, it help being the ugly in the group!

Stranger: I bet you’re not ugly

You: I bet I was 😂

Stranger: You definitely have a better personality than all these fake girls I hook up with

You: Or at least in the latest situation, where this girl nonchalantly told my friend that he shouldn't be hanging with me 😂 And I just took my drink said have fun and left, I didn't even need to wing him, she caught the bait anyway

Stranger: Lmao, that’s me sometimes

Stranger: Truth or dare

You: I'm keeping it to truth really, I'm a bit unsettled with dare lmao

Stranger: You’ve dared me the craziest shit, I’ll dare you some low key shit

You: Oh boy 😂

Stranger: Dare?

You: Come at me, bro

You: Show me all you got

You: GGRRRRRRRR

Stranger: I dare you too...

Stranger: Hmmmmmm

Stranger: Take off all your clothes, go to the shower, and stand in it for thirty seconds under the coldest setting the water goes

You: hahaha, oh now

You: no*

You: That won't work here

You: The coldest isn't considered cold, it's like, lukewarm

You: I can stick my feet and hands in the freezer?

Stranger: No no no

Stranger: I may have a better one😂😂

You: Is lukewarm even a word... jees wat are engresh

Stranger: I dare you to grab do the same as said, except for the shower, and instead grab an ice cube and let it melt on your stomach for a minute😂😂

You: Youre talking to someone from Norway, I'mma do that shit with 4 cubes

Stranger: Bet

You: brb I guess

Stranger: Lmao, I’ll do it too

You: Wait, can I have it in a plastic bag?

You: Don't wanna have it spilling down my bed D:

Stranger: Nope, it’s gotta melt

You: man, fuck you

You: Fine, brb

Stranger: I just grabbed some ice cubes

Stranger: Alr, my clothes are off. You ready?

You: Jupp

You: I done it

You: And I take it back

You: It's suprisingly VERY cold 😂

Stranger: This is cold

Stranger: Shit mine is melting a little bit😂😂

You: Is it now I say shove it up your ass, son

You: 😂😂😂

Stranger: no😂😂😂

Stranger: Oh god, it’s falling towards my dick

You: I'm literally planking, that shit sliding nowhere

You: But I can bet my phone is gonna slide outta my hands and hit me in the collarbones

Stranger: Lmao, hold it tighter

Stranger: Damn, the water on the dick was t as bad as I thought it would be

Stranger: I took mine off

You: only 1 outta 4 has melted completely

Stranger: Your skin must be warm, damn

You: Not really, my doctor tend to say I got blue blood

You: But ought to think I'd be warmer

You: Taking long time to melt

Stranger: You should just take them off now

You: DARE IS A DARE! I whisper as I wipe it all away

You: What a wild ride really

You: 😂😂😂😂

Stranger: Lmao, I bet if we were together right now we’d have some better dares for each other

You: "Let's see who dies first" kinda dares really

You: "Yo catch" throws a fucking bag of nails and a hammer

Stranger: Lmao, idk about those kind of dares

You: I guess a dare ain't shit to me cause I'd do it anyway

You: Or well, I'm never downing 4 fireball shots under 1 minute

Stranger: I guarantee that if we were together rn we’d literally be racing to see which ice cube melts the fastest

You: It's important to learn from mistakes

You: hahaha, jupp

You: I would definately dare you to have you put it up your ass 😂

Stranger: If you did that then I would dare you to have it melt on your vagina😂😂

You: Guilty as charged, I've tried

Stranger: Really?!

You: It's just as bad as it sounds

You: Don't put it in the vagina

Stranger: Lmao, I dare you to put it on the vagina😂😂😂

You: Nope

You: Hell nah, sonny

You: I'm outta this game

You: 😂

Stranger: Damn, you’re dope

You: 😂😂😂😂

You: It's such an American expression, I find it kind of funny of you calling me it

Stranger: Dope is my thang. I’ll always be like “that sex was dope”

You: Yeah, it's equivalent to cool, rad, amazing etc I guess

Stranger: Yes it is

Stranger: I’m bored, you wanna get kinky?

You: Well, not-a-soccerboy

You: recommend some music

You: Nah, I ain't the kinky type

Stranger: Don’t you listen to Norwegian stuff though?

You: If you up to kinky, you rather skip me so I don't go waste your type honestly >_<

You: What do you mean with Norwegian stuff?

You: Most of them sing in English 😂

Stranger: Like, songs

Stranger: Ohhhhhh

Stranger: 😂

You: hmm, Breathe by SeeB is pretty cool

You: that song just finished playing

Stranger: Runaway by Kanye West

You: let's have a toast for the douche bags

Stranger: Best song

You: I remember being surprised when he released that song

You: Maybe one of the "not kanye" songs that are close to my heart

You: one of the few*

Stranger: Yo, I think I’m gonna take a nap before I have to go to football again, want my number so we can talk again?

You: Anonymity is a thrill for me, I rather not

You: I hope you enjoy your nap and prosper in football!

Stranger: Come onnnn, I wanna talk again

You: Nothing more, you better stick to that

Stranger: Ok

You: Snapchat? I don't do social media much

Stranger: Sure

You:  <<<

You: I'mma probably show up as 

You: Don't fret, I've got a vagina

Stranger: Ok

Stranger: I’ll add you

Stranger: Adios muchacho

You: l8ers

Stranger has disconnected.

[ijungkooki]

Hi!! Can I request the RFA crew and none of them have released their identities to mc. Mc then goes on about being in love with them not realizing they are in the chat (ex: mc sees zen in a magazine and comments in the group of how much she likes him but the group doesn't tell her zen is the chat) if that makes sense. I'm sorry if it's confusing 😓

 aaaahhhhhhhh sorry this is so late! i’ve been so busy with ap tests :( but this was so much fun to write!!!

Not Recognizing the RFA

Yoosung:

You told the RFA how there was this really cute boy in your biology class

He was kinda adorkable and overall really sweet and you really like that about him

When someone asked what school you went to you told them SKY University

Seven immediately asks what your crush’s name was and you told them it was Yoosung

CUE INTENSE BLUSHING FROM YOOSUNG

Zen and Seven thought it would be funny to keep it a secret that the Yoosung you liked was also reading this entire conversation

After that chat, Yoosung gained a little more confidence in talking to you in person

He ended up being a little flirty with you omg this lil bean

Every time you spoke to each other, you gushed to everyone in the messenger about him

You go on a really cute study/coffee date!!!!!!!

zen and seven congratulate yoosung on becoming a man lol

When the day of the party arrives, Yoosung is super nervous but also really excited to see the look on your face

You get to the party and meet everyone but you notice they all have that mischievous smile

You realize there’s a member missing

*a wild Yoosung appears!* lol wHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE

“Surprise! I’ve been an RFA member all along and I’ve been reading everything you ever said about me hahahaha……………”

He’s red in the face and you’re red in the face and the members are placing bets on who’s gonna make the first move lol

After the initial shock, you both start laughing and you end up staying by each other’s side the whole time

The party ends and he gives you a goodbye kiss jasfhsjaikd

Zen and Jaehee just won 50 bucks lol

Zen:

Your friend introduced you to some musical that starred Zen in it and you were immediately head over heels for him

When you told the RFA about this new up and coming actor, Jaehee started fangirling

She starts going on about Zen and recommends some of his musicals and sends photos of him to you

Meanwhile, Zen is watching this convo unfold all while smiling really smug to himself

He decides to have a little fun by pretending to not be the actor you currently have a gigantic crush on and may or may not actually be falling in love with

Also he can’t pass up an opportunity to talk about himself amirite

at this point, everyone but jaehee and zen have left the chat

He’ll send selfies of you claiming they’re secret photos he got off the internet and your heART GOES HAYWIRE

Zen is having fun with this

He ends up surprising you by telling you he scored front row tickets to his new show

You. Are. Dead.

You ask him how on earth he got tickets but he just says he has connections somehow or somethin idk

He thinks it’s really cute that you’re such a big fan of him

But he especially loves how it’s not just for his looks! You also admire his talent and how kind and devoted he is to his fans!

That’s how he falls for you but he doesn’t know if you’ll love him back or just remain a fan

Come the party day and he’s a little nervous to meet you

When you see him, you start freaking out because how did Zen end up at this party?!!?!?!!?1?1

He starts laughing as he explains that he was a member of the RFA

you nearly faint bc omg the amount of embarrassing things that you said

After letting the news sink in, he proclaims his love for you

You’re super happy because of course you love him too because you were able to get to know the real Zen in the chat and not just the actor

When you tell him that, he is sososososo happy!!!!

Jaehee:

You met this really cute girl at a coffee shop one day 

She was in a rush but she made quick small talk with you but you never got her name

When you told the RFA about her, you were super blushy and everything awww

But Jaehee is a super smart girl so she was able to kinda put two and two together and figure out that she was the one you met

Now she’s getting all blushy bc “wat MC likes me??? she thinks i’m cute?!!?!?”

Since that day, she makes an effort to go to the same cafe at the same time in hopes of meeting you again

And you’re doing the same thing so you end up meeting each other every day

You two claim it’s just a “coincidence”

calling u on ur bullshit

The both of you end up developing HUGE crushes on each other it’s adorable

Everyone in the RFA is rooting for you two lol

Especially Zen and he’s also trying to be that lowkey wingman for baehee in the chat without revealing who she really is

You thought it would be a good idea to invite Jaehee to the party

She accepts while trying to hide her laugh bc little did you know

The day arrives and you’re nervous to finally meet the RFA but even more nervous bc oh god Jaehee is gonna be there too you gotta look nice

You spot Jaehee right away and you give her a big hug before leading her around and trying to find the RFA

You see a group of men walk up to you and they introduce themselves as the RFA

You introduce Jaehee as the girl you’ve been talking about

“MC, there’s no need to introduce me. I already know them.”

lol wut

She giggles and explains that she is the other member and you nearly faint you’re so embarrassed

She takes your hand in hers and says, “Don’t worry, MC. I happen to like you a lot too.”

Jumin:

You had recently gotten a job at the C&R Company and had coincidentally been placed to work in the same department as Jumin’s

Despite the rumors and the crazy amount of workload, you had slowly started to develop some feelings for him

You never really saw him that much since he was so busy

But when you did, your heart would beat like crazy even though you knew that being with him would probably never happen in a billion years

So you vented to the chatroom one day after having a run-in with Jumin

You told them how you had started to fall for him even though you knew her could never have feelings for you

Jaehee was stunned

Yoosung and Seven fucking lost it

Zen nearly s c r e a m e d

When Jumin read your messages, he was shocked to say the least

How funny that the MC he’s falling for is also in love with him without realizing it

He immediately looked up your employee info so he could have a little fun with this 

The next day at work, you were surprised to run into Jumin but even more so that he decided to actually have a conversation with you that didn’t involve work

He was a lot nicer and relaxed and smiled more than before

You told the members about the interaction while Jumin fucking smirked the entire time

This continued for a while, him randomly running into you at work and chatting while you silently died inside

same mc same

Party day arrives and you’re looking around for the members when BAM

juMiN iS HeRE?!?!1/!?!!?

You slowly make your way towards him and the small group he was talking to

He sees you and smiles

“Ah MC, it’s so good to see you again. Let me introduce you to the other RFA members.”

“O-Other members?”

The gears start working in your head before you realize that Jumin was a member

Which meant he read all your messages

Which also meant that today was your death day

He laughs at your expression when you figure it out but reassures you that the feelings are mutual

You both smile at each other as he kisses you on the cheek

meanwhile zen is now officially screaming

Seven:

The agency you worked for partnered you up with Seven for a mission

Agents 606 and 707: The best hacker and best field operative the agency has

also fucking badass holy shit i might write a fic

Ever since your successful mission, you two have been partners on every single one following that

While kicking ass, you had slowly started to develop feelings for him

When you joined the RFA, everyone introduced themselves except for one who was a hacker

To you, it made sense that he had to hide his identity

Also for some strange reason, this hacker reminded you of Seven hmmmmmmmmmmm i wonder why

You introduced yourself to the group, though, and Seven nearly choked on the chips he was eating

As the days passed by, you grew more comfortable with the group and eventually told them about the troubles in your love life

You told them how you had fallen for your partner but you didn’t think he loved you back because he tends to push you away sometimes

Seven: Dead.

Little did you know that he was in love with you too

The reason why he pushes you away was because he didn’t think that you loved him

Since then, Seven has started to open up a bit more around you and you were really happy with that

In classic Seven-fashion, he thinks it would be hilarious if he kept it a secret that he was an RFA member

The day of the party arrives and you’re about to leave when you run into Seven

“Where you going?” He asks you

“Heading off to the party with the RFA. I told you about them, remember? See you later!”

yes you will lololol

When you meet everyone at the party, you’re all happy to finally meet each other 

But you notice that your new hacker friend was missing

In the corner of your eye, you see a flash of red and immediately recognize it as Seven

You confront him and ask him how and why he’s at the party

“For the agency’s best spy, you’re really bad at recognizing people.”

Putting two and two together, you realize that he was the last member of the RFA

*cue you slapping him repeatedly on the shoulder as he laughs his fucking ass off*

[proof-that-emotions-destroy]

tag

tagged by @zuzusexytiems! thanks, una :D

this just took me forever because it’s just so loooong buuuut here goes:

THE LAST: 1. Drink: hard cider 2. Phone call: boyfriend 3. Text message: also boyfriend 4. Song you listened to: I Don’t Fuck With You- Big Sean  5. Time you cried: My Hero Academia is too pure it is not fucking fair, e.g. last night lol HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: unfortunately- don’t ever bother! people don’t change 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: retrospectively  8. Been cheated on: yes, see question 6 lololol 9. Lost someone special: too many 10. Been depressed: yup 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: yup LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: blue, purple, yellow IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: yes 16. Fallen out of love: technically no- it’ll be 5 years in October :3 17. Laughed until you cried: yes i do this over the stupidest shit 18. Found out someone was talking about you: meehhh nah 19. Met someone who changed you: nah am a me 20. Found out who your friends are: yes and i love them 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: hahahaha several GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them omg ew why would you even otherwise 23. Do you have any pets: Rocco, my half pug/half affenpinscher son 24. Do you want to change your name: so much 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: we took a nice walk in the morning at a reservation on a giant hilltop- you can see Boston from the top, got lunch, and saw a movie at night 26. What time did you wake up: today like 8 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: probably watching anime 28. Name something you can’t wait for: more Rick and Morty and Yuri on Ice 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: 3 days ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: i mostly wish i could’ve spoken my damn mind more and not bottle up so much 31. What are you listening right now: Dreams- The Cranberries 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: this shitty company that advertises stuff on facebook that totally just buys from amazon to upsell and be shady 34. Most visited Website: Tumblr! 35. Mole/s: on the side of my knee, behind my left ear, on my right forearm, and on my right heel. i have more spots but they aren’t raised 36. Mark/s: ahhhh i’d rather not get into it. several 37. Childhood dream: astronaut 38. Haircolor: black 39. Long or short hair: long 40. Do you have a crush on someone: fictional characters <3 41. What do you like about yourself: i’m finally able to be myself more and if people can’t accept my silliness i laugh at them and skip away because i no longer have any fucks to give  42. Piercings: two on my left ear, four on my right- working on more but i need to sleep >w< 43. Bloodtype: B+ 44. Nickname: Tuna, Kiki 45. Relationship status: all systems go 46. Zodiac: Sun Gemini, Rising Libra, Moon Scorpio 47. Pronouns: i accept she/her but i’m nonbinary with long hair so oh well 48. Favorite TV Shows: currently watching Kamisama Hajimemashita and My Hero Academia and loving both. otherwise: a serious amount of Kdramas, more anime, and just omg so many thing are good 49. Tattoos: not yet, maybe someday 50. Right or left hand: right 51. Surgery: wisdom teeth 52. Hair dyed in different color: not really, i’ve only used henna treatments 53. Sport: I watch a lot of soccer and hockey 55. Vacation: going to Florida to see my dad’s side of the family this year; would love to visit my mom’s side but flying to Sicily is muuuuch more expensive 56. Pair of trainers: uhhh i have one pair and they good shoe

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: just had some Greek pizza <3 58. Drinking: blueberry Red Bull 59. I’m about to: watch more anime whenever this is over omg 61. Waiting for: Trump to be exorcised 62. Want: people to stop being stupid 63. Get married: possibly 64. Career: i’m in banking and it’s pretty rad ; i can type fast so it’s w/e

WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: hugs 66. Lips or eyes: Eyes 67. Shorter or taller: oh this is regarding other humans ok i get it- i’m demisexual 68. Older or younger: meh 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: meh 71. Sensitive or loud: it’s situational, really 72. Hook up or relationship:  it’s situational, really 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: it’s situational, really

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: not really 75. Drank hard liquor: yes 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: I CAN’T FIND MINE AND I’M FREAKIGN OUT 77. Turned someone down: sure 78. Sex in the first date: nah 79. Broken someone’s heart: probably 80. Had your heart broken: kinda 81. Been arrested: noooo 82. Cried when someone died: omg ok but if you answer no than no one you care about has died so lucky you 83. Fallen for a friend: demisexual, so yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: getting there 85. Miracles: kinda 86. Love at first sight: ehhhhhh not for me at least 87. Santa Claus: wat 88. Kiss on the first date: depends 89. Angels: no 90. Current best friend’s name: Sam! 91. Eye color: brown 92. Favorite movie: ahhhhh idk i’ll just say Moana for now

gonna tag @oodlyenough, @excentrifugal-forz, @elasticitymudflap, @killerdrone, @dat-goat-boi

[placesthatchangedpeople]

Diamond Ranch Academy testimony

When I was 16 I was sent to diamond ranch academy in Utah. It changed my life for the worse in many many ways. I want to start by saying this program is the definition of manipulation. The program directors do everything they can do make there website and the parent visits look and seem like a beautiful place that you send your child and magically in 10 months you get him back and he/she is a new transformed person Hahahaha it's really sad the manipulation this place puts on parents when these parents are already in a rough enough time in there lives and this place takes advantage of that takes advantage of parents who are scared for the worst for three kids, scared they might go to jail or end up dead in a ditch somewhere so diamond ranch tells the parents you need to get help now befor it's to late they make it look like a loving facility when really it's al about one thing money. This is why a boy died at diamond ranch academy all strictly due to the owners greed. This place is not a mental hospital it doesn't have the kind of care or people there to treat searious mental illness like being suicidal but they also like money and they don't want to turn down a parent who is gonna give them 60 grand for 10 months so they tell them to send there kid here we will watch him we have a team of professionals when really they have about half a dozen to a dozen therapist that meat with you to talk personally once every other week and the rest of the people are literally college kids watching over your children getting paid basically minimum wage and taking there frustration out on the kids when they have a bad day. Another example how much this place just likes money to the point where they will put other children's lives at risk, when I was at diamond ranch a kid was super angry and would freek out and one day he had enough of everything and he went and picked up a huge rock and literally walked up to a staff member and hit him over the head with it and started beating the man to the point where he was bloody and the man has to wrestle the kid to the ground and get the rock from him and it took like 5 staff to how this kid down and you know wat diamond ranch does they call the police have the kid taking to the station for two days to be held in a cell and then diamond ranch realizes they still want that kids money so wat do they do they let this kid come back to this school after doing that because they didn't want to turn away his parents money even tho that kid better a staff over the head with a huge rock and if he did that to a kid there he could have killed him so the owners here would rather make money then keep another kid safe from an angry kid. I could literally go on for days about this school it makes me sick to think about how many parents are just down rite manipulated to the bone by this place they really believe this school is best for the child and that's it's gonna fix them and they couldn't be farther from the truth these school make most kids worse cause your around a bunch of bad kids 24 hours a day and your always bored so your always talking about the bad stuff you did at home so a lot of times kids come out worse listening to and being around all these bad kids. When I was there the kids all had a saying we went by called fake it to make it, meaning when you get to the program usually you hate it and don't want to be ther but you realize when your there that your current behavior isn't gonna get you anywhere so you decide I'm just gonna act good so I can get out of this program and then once the kids are back home they are more mad at there parent befor for sending them to such a place and the reason the anger comes after you get home from the place is cause you can't express your real anger when your there cause the place literally has a therapist listening to your phone call with your Parents every single call you have which is only once every two weeks, so if you during your phone call try to tell your parents about the verbal or physical abuse the therapist will hang up your phone call and send you out to the part of the program where it's for punishment and you get horrible food and have to wake up and do running and work chores. The owners of this place the Diaz family are the rich manipulaters behind all this they go out and drive there nice little boat on the lake befor they come baby sit your kids for the day and go home to there nice huge houses that they pay for off your family's misery Sources:

The original testimony on Reddit

Datasheet about the school (Fornits wiki)

[indewar]

1- tot de allerlaatste interesseert mij wel ❤

1 - Who was the last person you texted?Youuuuu2 - When is your birthday?Elk jaar op 6 oktober3 - Who do you want to be with right now?Misschien wel bij u, wie weet4 - What sports do you play?Traplopen op school wordt dat meegerekend?5 - Who is the first person in your contacts?Een ‘?’ hahahahah het is een 06 nummer dus een Nederlandse persoon maar geen idee wie het is dus vandaar het vraagtekentje woeps6 - What is your favorite song as of the moment?BAZART - CHAOS 7 - If you were stranded on an island, who do you wish to be with?Hopelijk met iemand die iemand kent met een helikopter om ons te redden, dus Pauline ken jij zo iemand?8 - What do you feel right now?Niks hahahh9 - What chocolate is your favorite?Bruine10 - How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have?Uh wel idk11 - Why did you create a Tumblr account?Geen idee eigenlijk12 - Who is your favorite blogger?Uh13 - Where do you want to be right now?TERUG IN GRIEKENLAND YAAAZ14 - What do you want to be in the future?Gelukkig15 - When was the last time you cried? Why?Uh16 - Are you happy?Yeahh17 - Who do you miss?Omatje18 - If you were given a chance, would you like to have a different life?Neen19 - What was the best thing you were given?Uh een leven? idk20 - Who was the last person who called you?Aaahh een vriendin zaterdag na het concert van Bazart waar wij waren hahaha21 - What is your favorite dish?SPAGHETTI22 - Who is your bestfriend?Noor23 - What is your biggest regret?Goh 24 - Have you ever cheated on your partner?Nah das no go zone he25 - Who do you spend crazy moments with?Idem 22.26 - Name someone pretty.Jo Pauline kijk in de spiegel 😎27 - Who was the last person you hugged?Uh zaterdag toen ik afscheid nam van nummertje 22.28 - What kind of music do you listen to?Beetje van alles zo 29 - Are you over your past?Nah I’m in my past 30 - Who is the last person in your contacts?The last new? Uh een vriend van nummertje 22 want nummertje 22 moest hem zaterdag bereiken maar haar geld op haar telefoon was op.31 - What kind of person do you want to date?Uh goh jij misschien wel, wie weet?32 - Do you have troubles sleeping at night?Soms keer33 - From whom was the last text message you received?Van u 34 - What do you prefer, jeans or skirt?Jeans 😎35 - How’s your heart?❤️36 - Did you ever have a girlfriend/boyfriend whose name starts with a “J”?Ja hahahahahhaha37 - Do you like someone as of the moment?Yeah I do38 - What would you want to say to your latest ex-boyfriend/ex-girlfriend?Hey hoe gaat het met jou?39 - Do you have any phobias?Donker en spinnen en horror40 - Did you try to change for a person?Yeah I tried but yeah I CANT CHANGE EVEN IF I TRIED, EVEN IF I WANTED TO41 - What’s the nicest thing have you given to someone?Uh goh42 - Would you go back to your previous relationship?Nah 43 - Are you in a good or bad mood?A goooood man44 - Name someone you can’t live without.Nummertje 2245 - Describe your dream date.Ik volg u wel in die stepdate46 - Describe your dream wedding.Mijn trouw die ik ga hebben (hopelijk) is sowieso mijn dream wedding47 - How many roses did you receive last Valentine’s?Is deze vraag een grapje? HAHAHAHAHAH48 - Have you ever been kissed?Yeh49 - How long is your longest relationship?Uh was iets van een 2.5 jaar met ups and downs denk ik 50 - Do you regret your past?Nah 51 - Can you do something stupid for someone else?Tuurlijkkkk52 - Have you ever cried over someone?Yeah I’m a human u know53 - Do you have a grudge against anyone?Zeker54 - Are you a crybaby?Yeah55 - Do people praise you for your looks?HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA56 - Did you fall for someone you shouldn’t?Vroeger wel zeker, maar nu goh neen love you57 - Have you ever done something bad but you don’t regret?Yeahhhhh 58 - Do you like getting hurt?Uh ? Neen  ?59 - Does anyone hate you?Probably yes60 - Did you slap anyone whose name starts with an “R”?HAHAHAHAHAHAHA YES MA HAHAHAH SKIP61 - What hair color do you prefer?Alles kan en alles mag62 - If you can change anything about yourself, what is it?/63 - Do you love someone as of the moment?YASHHH64 - Have you ever thought of killing yourself?yeh65 - Do you have issues with somebody in your school?Niet dat ik weet maar kan wel 66 - Can you live without internet?Uh neen wij zijn de 21e eeuw he jongens67 - What’s the song that remind you of your special someone?Zeeeeer veel 68 - Are you good at holding back your tears?Uh neen hahahaha69 - Are you a crybaby?Zie 5470 - Have you ever experienced being hysterical?hah ja71 - Are you a KPOP fan?Niet echt neen72 - Do you study hard?HAHAHAHAHA73 - Have you ever sacrificed something important to you for someone you love?jAAAA74 - Did you ever had a kiss under the moonlight?Wat een goals 75 - Have you ever ridden a boat?Jessss76 - Did you have an accident last year?Nope77 - What kind of person are you?Uh een meisje?78 - Have you ever thought of killing someone?Yas elke week wel eens hoho79 - Have you ever been jealous?Ja 24/7 ofzo80 - How can you prove your love to someone?Goh wel idk hoe kan dat, Pauline?81 - What are you thinking right now?Ik denk aan het Hof van Cassatie 82 - Who is the 6th person in your contacts?Geen idee 83 - Do you have any memories you want to erase?Nah84 - Have you been hurt so bad that you can’t find words to explain how you feel?JEhhhh85 - Did you ever badmouth someone?PRobs86 - Have you ever had an argument with someone?Yeahhh duh87 - Do you have trust issues?Jeh88 - Are you broken-hearted?Nah89 - Who’s the person who first comes to your mind when someone mentions “love”?Jij hehe90 - Do you think all the pain is worth it?HOPELIJK91 - Do you believe in the phrase “If it’s meant to be, it will be”?Yeah92 - Who do you want to marry?Vraag mij dat binnen uh 7 jaar nog eens, bedankt93 - Do you believe in destiny?Jeshh94 - Have you ever thought “I already found my soulmate”?Goh 95 - How do you look right now?Mottig96 - Do you believe that first true love never dies?Zeker zeker97 - Have you found your true love?Stel je voor, zou cool zijn98 - What should you be doing right now?Studeren U know99 - Name one of your ex-boyfriends/ex-girlfriends./Privacy/100 - What is your sexual orientation?BI101 - Did you ever feel like you’re not good enough?24/7102 - How old are you?MORGEN 18.5 EUJJJ FEEST103 - What age do you get mistaken for?12 ofzo idk104 - Who is your celebrity crush?James Bay, Leonardo Dicaprio om het basic te houden106 - What is your favorite book/series?Extremely loud & incredibly close ! ! ! 107 - Who is your favoroite author?Uh108 - What is your favorite band?Macklemore & Ryan Lewis maar ook Bazart en uh nog zoveel meer jow 109 - What is your favorite TV show?THUISSSSS110 - What is your favorite movie?Extremely loud & incredibly close ! ! ! en Finding Dory  en UP 110 was de allerlaatste 😎❤️

[xxxxzd]

November 15, 2018, 9:22am.

Gahulat ko sa akong pamahaw hahaha. I came home from an early institute class. Nice jud sa feeling nay ma accomplish sayo sa buntag haha.

I feel like writing this now kay I want to get this out from my chest, charot haha. 4am earlier I woke up before ni ring akong alarm, hehe nice kay sa feeling. I woke up and out of nowhere, I remembered the tumblr blog you made before your mission na gi send nimo sa akong email ang password. So, I've opened my email and searched for that. I found it and scanned through your journal that time. I honestly don't know what to feel since almost all the entries of that blog were about me, us. I shed a tear of how we were then. How you get me and how patient you were with me hahah like wow.

2 years ago nag mission. Very short emails from me, sometimes gani wala jud. Wa jud koy buot hahahuhuhu I dont know what to tell you and it was awkward. And Ive got to cope up with all my trials back then too, I was selfish. I felt lonely, really. And yes I've mentioned before that Ive written letters, but I didn't have the courage to send it, I was shy. I wrote one everytime I miss you. I think it was oct 2017 something that Ive sent you a message sa messenger "iyaq, misyu" hahahahahaha lol i was just very, very sad that time. I dont know, puberty guro hahahahahajk.

Paspas ra kaayo ang 2 years. And dang, you're back. It was my flight to manila on the exact day nga muabot ka hahahaha, miggy even told me I was 'running away'. You went to manila and nagkita ta lol hahaha sa chapel jud to ta nag kita ta first, dayon niwang pa japon ko hahahaha. You srsly didnt changed one bit - i thought. Well, ning mature ka and thats a good thing but other than that you were the same Kent ive met 2 years ago. We did a lot of catching up, and nag share sad ko nga naa oy crush. Was very open sa mga laki nga ga biga2 nako hahahahalol.

Fast forward, naka uli nakog iligan, and unconsciously nagka close nasad ta. Unlike before sige natag kita - perks of being 18 and walay klase hahahahaha. I was a jerk - I know. Drama, chaka, way buot, oa, moody, impatient, unsa pa man? tabangi kog describe sa akong self ahahahahah. But still, thank you for coping up with my drama, understanding and stuff haha. Nagka close najud ta, attached nasad ko haha and I already know asa ni padulong - sad jud kaayo maanad unya di diay mag dugay so Ive asked for 'space' hahaha grabe ka oa, di lang sad na tungod ana but daghan sad jud kog kinahanglan i cope up sa akong self. And yes, Aaron was long gone haha crush ra lagi dali ra mawala, naa pa ko nga grabe kadali machange ang utok hahaha. Sept 9, I asked for space, like I thought 'i need this'. But after ana padayon pa dayon tag text, chat, tawag, kita2 hahahaha so I was like 'wat self?' so i decided, dang, bala na dis, padayonon nalang ko ni, bala najud hahaha. Sept 14, haha. Sept 14, the day you lost me, well im not really your lost hhahaha you prolly even gained from losing me hahaha. Ato nga adlaw na realize nako nga youve drastically changed, well it's not just you, ako man sad. Kita, nag usab jud ta. And nabag-ohan lang jud kaayo ko sa imo bai. You tried reching out pero di pa jud ko okay ato, sakit lang jud kaayo hahahaha. Gikapoy nasad ka, wa nasad ko nitry ug reach out kay ambot sakit lang jud hahaha. I was lost, sige ra kog self pity, a week nga wala halos way tulog, sigeg pangutana ngano ingani, ingana. I was hurt. Wala jud koy intention mustorya pa nimo ato nga time bc of the current state im in - i was pathetically broken hahaha. The feeling was new to me bc I really cared for you, and it was my first time to be so broken over some guy hahahaha lol. Ate jing was a big help to me that time bc she helped me cope up with some of my trials too, she was someone I could lean on everytime im sad. But srsly, i cant stay broken forever, sulk, and cry myself to sleep hahaha oa kaayo. I was actually tempted nga patulan mga gachat2 nako ato that time (charot murag gwapa ahhahaha, bitaw tig gamit man gud kog lumay ahhahajk), pero di jud ko ganahan mang bandaid ug laing tao, bati kaayo, way buot style ahahahah. At some point, i was so broken nga nag regret ko nga nagila ta, nga ive let you in sa akong life, nga na close ta, nag regret ko, pero narealize nako nga our friendship wasnt that sad, napalipay sad ko tungod nimo and im very thankful jud sa imo, and di dapat nako i blame nganong naclose ta, kay dang bai, daghan sad kog nakatunan saimo and through you. So ive picked myself up, and moved on ahahha charot ka oa. I strive to be better each day. It was hard but later nakita na nako akong kaugalion nga malipayon, nga okay na, nga makatulog nag sayo hahaha. So ni reach out nako nimo, ive invited you to have lunch with me bc im okay na, im happy na. And everything has changed jud, sakto jud si taylor hahaha. We werent the same zyle and kent 2 years ago. Youre happy and im glad that you are. So akong point lang jud aning taas na kaayo malate nakog pathway ani ahhaha kay - THANK YOU.

Thank you for everything - for being patient to me before, for understanding, for inspiring, for including me in your prayer rolls, just everything bai, just everything.

And thank you, for letting me go and letting me grow. I'm doing better than I ever was. I dont know what the future will bring but I hope the best for you. We had fun, right?

love,

mei.

[haggertyadventuretime]

Last of Laos, and start of Cambodia

I’m typing this right now in a mini bus, speeding through the remote farmlands of Cambodia! More on that later.

Brendan and I spent three nights in Vang Vieng, mostly because the first full day we had was cold and rainy and we didn’t want to go tubing in that, so we didn’t! The day cleared up around 1pm that first day, so we took bikes offered for free by our hostel and biked around the rice fields and limestone karsts that pop up opposite the town on the other side of the river.

The next day was definitely a highlight. We had asked the “professional opinion” of the owner of the Irish Pub in town (Gary, of Gary’s Irish Pub), and he referred us to the best company that takes you to the farthest spot on the Nam Song (river) to start tubing. We packed what we could into our waterproof moneybelt, brought a couple of beers, and piled into a tuktuk with about 10 idiots who were definitely in Veng Vieng for the party culture. Some of them were still drunk from the night before’s “jungle party” and were taking shots of Jager to drink away any hangover (at 11:30am).

The first bar on the river was about 30ft from where we started, and everyone from our tuktuk but us got roped in. Literally, to catch you, the bartenders get weighted ropes and toss them into the river to reel you into their dock. It was quite the spectacle, watching the bartenders frantically try to catch the whole group with three lines, and the already/still drunk fools were not helping at all. We didn’t want to go to the first bar. We already had beer cans floating with us in our inner tubes, and didn’t want to hang with those jamokes, so we continued floating with the current for about 30 minutes until the lazy river took us to the third bar on the river (we would have gone to the second one but the guys didn’t have ropes and the current took me far away from the dock), where we were “roped in” as well. We were the only people at this bar, and it was glorious. As we continued down the river, the views were spectacular of the craggy limestone peaks covered in jungle. It was also pretty impressive to see the remnants of Vang Vieng’s former river circuit: the old bars and zip lines are still there, starting to decay. Some other bars are forced to rotate with the ones that were open today, so that you can only hit up three to four bars in the whole trip. The water is not deep this time of year in the Nam Song, so I can see how people died falling into the rocky, shallow river from the zip lines and swings. Anyways, the tubing was glorious and one of the highlights of our trip.

That night we decided to sample party culture and went happy hour hopping, which literally means there that they just give out free whiskey cokes for an hour. Bars do it in staggered hours across town, we hit up two of them. It was dangerous.

The next day was a long travel day: Four hour bus to Vientiane, a six hour layover there in the Lao capital (still think we saw it all... Not much to see there!), then an 11 hour night bus to Pakse, in south Laos. The night bus was pretty comfy, but two people end up sharing one twin-sized cot that’s only just over 5’ long. So, if you are a solo traveler, you are going to be snuggling up with whomever got the “seat” next to you. If you aren’t short, you have the issue of having legs and figuring out where to put them! We met two girls who knew this ahead of time, and being solo travelers, they decided to book tickets together since they were going the same way, and it would be slightly less awkward than spooning a random local or traveling stranger.

From Pakse, we packed into a Sawngthiaw (or however you spell it), which is a pickup truck converted into a tuktuk. That took us an hour to Champasak, our destination for the night.

Champasak is a very small village with very little to do. The reason we went was to see Wat Phu, a pre-Angkorian Khmer ruins site. We took a very pleasant (but hot) bike ride there over a bridge that was entirely taken apart (two planks! I no longer fear bridges). The site was very cool, the guides are correct in saying that Wat Phu sits in “graceful decrepitude.” Very cool though, the stonework is still very detailed despite the 700-1000 years it’s been sitting there.

After Champasak, we spent a night on Don Khong, the largest of the 4000 Islands, first taking a tourist VIP bus and then a private car. We wanted to experience an area that was not yet developed for westerners, and boy did we get it! There were guest houses, but nobody staying on them. We spent the day wandering around town. This place is so small, that when we went to book a boat for the next day, the guy didn’t even have to ask where we were staying. He already knew where we were staying and said he would just call the guesthouse in the morning! One big bummer about the town was that unfortunately there is a huge garbage issue there, and the soccer park looked like an explosion of plastic trash. The streets outside the main drag were lined with trash as well. It has to be hard to introduce things like recycling and responsible trash management in a developing country that in many parts is inaccessible during the rainy season.

The next day, we took a boat for an hour to Don Det. Boating in the area is so pretty, because the Mekong is very wide and home to thousands of small islands. Most are just a few yards long, others are just an outcropping of rocks with some grass growing on it. Apparently the locals like to throw parties on the small, uninhabited islands, and also use them for gardening.

We arrived in Don Det and immediately fell in love. It’s Laos, only on island time (in a land locked country). Laos is already a very chill, easy-going place, but Don Det is the kind of hippy backpacker oasis that we could easily be sucked in for weeks. There are a few bars and restaurants, most of them offering low tables next to cushioned beds that you lounge in while watching the world go by. The island is super small and has no cars on it, there are no bridges to the mainland, only to a neighboring island which is just as small. We spent our first day chilling out in hammocks, which are abundant. We watched the stunning sunset every night from our bungalow (which was less than $4/night). Day two was for biking around the two islands and seeing the waterfalls on the other island (Don Khon), which we accomplished by 1pm and promptly got back into hammocks and chilled. We accidentally decided to spend another full day, which we spent the hottest part lazing by a pool with a bunch of ex pats (apparently Don Det attracts many ex hippy men to take Lao wives and spend the rest of their days on the island... Doesn’t sound bad to me!), and more hammock life. Last night, after watching another spectacular sunset, we went onto a bar’s “chill out deck” and laid in hammocks watching the stars, since there’s no light pollution there. Pretty cool!

Unfortunately, all good things must come to an end. We took a boat this morning to the main land, and a bus to the Cambodian border.

We breezed through the checkpoints hassle-free, with one exception. So, Cambodia border police are notoriously corrupt and will often inflate the price of certain things, or invent fees that you have to pay. For example, we had to pay $1 each for not having an International Vaccine Certificate, even though that’s only mandatory if you are coming from a country with yellow fever. Also, whatever, that would have cost me more than a dollar to get, so I don’t care. Today, the big hustle was that the price of Visas went up from $30 to $35. Eyeroll. There’s no signage to tell you what it should be. Also, like, whatever, it’s $10 and I’m not one to argue with Cambodian police. Well, some French guy apparently was totally into doing just that. It was quite entertaining to watch, with the occasional face-palm. This guy was refusing to pay anything other than $30, and got to the point where he would incredulously ask things like “do you have something against French people?” and “that’s a beautiful medal, did you get that in the wars?” The officer had enough of that guy, and as we were leaving, I overheard him tell the French dude that he could just go back to Laos, Cambodia doesn’t need his disrespect. Brendan and I start talking mad shit about this idiot, and how he’s just going to have to pay more to get another Lao visa to go back! Then we got to the meeting place for our bus company, and turns out, Angry Frenchman is on our bus and we need to wait for him. Great. I was hoping he wouldn’t get through, but when he did, I overheard what they made him do. Not only did he have to pay the $35, but he also had to write a letter of apology and then get on his knees to beg forgiveness from the Cambodian officer. I think that’s fair, and Brendan and I are liking it here already! Hahahaha, what a loser.

So, after that guy wasted almost an hour of our time, we transferred after a bus ride to... I don’t even know where, some guesthouse that the bus owner must know. There, we split into different groups, us going to Siem Reap, and others (including The Embarrassed But Still Very French And Indignant Frenchman) to Kratie. So now we are in a minibus, which is more like a minivan from the 80s complete with cassette player and fake wood dashboard, going faster than I ever have in Asia on four wheels. We are on a brand new road that shaves down the travel time from the border to Siem Reap from 16 hours down to 7(!!), and probably more like 4 the way this guy drives. Cambodia seems to be a little like Laos, only the people are tougher looking. Only been here for a few hours, so we will see if I’m right over the next few days! Actually, as soon as I started typing that, we pulled into a gas station where the attendants where having a tickle fight. So I guess people just LOOK tougher, hah.

We made it very quickly to Siem Reap and were given a ride to our hotel, we will probably spend three or four nights here to fully experience the Angkor Temples, as you have to be very careful when you go to avoid big crowds. Very excited to check it out!