#had to repost this due to some editing errors going nuts

[yoiku]

Lately several new people in my stream chat have mentioned that they really like the size diff&dynamic I have going on with syren and loah, and that honestly gives me a major dopamine boost each time. A couple people even followed me because the comic sounded interesting to them and I'm just (´；д；`) < ??) (Goodness this turned into a real rambling rest is under the cut xD)

I'm very particular about the intensity of the size diff with the characters, as well as many other things. I'm certainly aware that many of the themes I have going on with the characters are popular kink categories: size diff, age gap, older characters, experienced vs inexperienced etc. While there's definitely spicy bits in the story, it is not the main focus at all. Before anything else it's all very wholesome, and all things considered, rather tame. I didn't start writing it all just to get these themes/categories in, the story does touch upon some topics related to things that spur from things like age gap in adult relationships, being in your 30's-40's and having no relationship experience, sour family relations due to chosen gender/sexuality to name a few. So while it's mainly fluff, there is some things that have more... depth?(I hope I can call it that) It's also a personal mission to portray characters who are not in their "wild and prime" years anymore, but still find and experience romance and have wild sex, because honestly, fuck the notion that you should have experienced it all in your 20's and the fact the media hardly ever portrays anything else. I'm not really a fan of things taken into hyper-unrealistic proportions, which the internet is full of... And with size diff character ships I've lamented about that a lot. (especially in the nsfw territory of it. I get that kinks are abt fantasies and so on, but personally I am so bored of seeing the related content being so saturated with hyper-level everything. Not bashing anyone who loves the stuff tho!) So I'm just trying to create the content I'd want to see more, and it's wonderful when I come across other peeps who want to see exactly the same kind of content! A couple years ago when I was kinda tossing the idea of the comic in my mind as something I'd want to do... And when I described loosely what it would be about, all I got from people was "that sounds incredibly boring" - "that's not very interesting" or just an "ehhh..." As much as I'd like to say that I don't let negative feedback get to me, it very easily does. I had already given up on the idea of actually making the comic for a good year since then. Only after I got proper medication and my mind cleared a little with the productivity boost, I decided that well, fuck all that feedback, I'm going to make just for myself then. I need to create it. So honestly each and every, tiniest crumb of interest the idea is getting now feels kinda weird. Absolutely wonderful, but also weird; I've glued my mind so tightly to the thought that I'm not expecting it to interest anyone but myself and that will have to suffice. (I'm planning on sticking to that too, it helps so I don't start thinking about "well what would others think about this scene" etc. too much.)

I dunno, I'm just having kinda good vibes about my "little" project lately and it's really nice. Everyday I'm anxious of what it's going to turn out like and confused about how to do stuff and if I can actually do what I'm attempting, but I am glad that I decided to start it and that I've kept at it. ( ˊᵕˋ )♡