#had been essentially transactional until he met gon

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i feel like its pretty obvious why killua left gon like it started being built up during caa when he was like. i cant be around gon unless i can protect him and i cant protect him if im still putting my fear above those i love. and then he went against illumi while attempting to protect alluka and nanika and he didnt fight bc he knew he would lose, he resorted to using nanika for her ability knowing it would hurt her and alluka. and on top of that it proved that illumis needle was not the only reason that killua was a coward and everything else he was derided for. and all of this was happening while gon was in the hospital on the brink of death bc killua couldnt protect him. so in other words killua fulfilled the conditions that he set out for himself that would mandate separating himself from gon. i find it kind of absurd to act like its because of gons actions like gon could stab killua to death just to resurrect him and do it again and killua would still follow him to the ends of the earth its not about that lol you werent supposed to take the line about killua needing to heal gon so gon could apologize at face value