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[linoyes]

COUNTDOWN TO LEE KNOW'S BIRTHDAY -> DAY 1 CAT IN WATER

[jennilah]

I think i started to follow you bc of tiny!cas, like eons ago, let me tell you seeing you get into different fandoms over the years has been a delight.

I remember seeing post of you going like 'hey these slasher film kinda go hard' and look at you know.

I mean this in the best way possible, I feel i've been watching a house plant grow, every now and then catching my attention and being amazed by the changes

omg thats such a sweet way of describing my... well happy autism awareness day everyone, its a nice way of describing the way i naturally transition through my Special Interests lmfao

actually, for the holiday, let me infodump about this very aspect of my brain to anyone who isnt aware how this works for me. (also every autistic person is different, so this is just how this symptom manifests in me)

ill say "phases" to simplify, though thats an unfair word because it implies im "over" my past phases. 99% of my past phases are pretty much there for life, but in the back of my mind. (So long as I didnt have a "bad breakup" with it for some reason, which is rare but happens) The ability to become a raving lunatic about it is dormant until someone asks the right question.

There can only be one interest (sometimes 2, with one being the less dominant one) at the forefront of my brain at a time, though. that defines the "phase".

so for example, my recent Halloween phase is "over" and I am 100% fully into Saw now, but I still absolutely love Halloween and Michael and Jason and all those guys. as evident by me still happily sharing gifsets and art and buying merch etc if it tickles my fancy. They're just hanging out in the background of my mental display case.

yea whoever follows my tumblr for a very long time has watched it happen in realtime. the transition between interests. i know for a fact which phase I started this blog on. if you're here from the beginning, youve seen, in order:

-Durarara!! -Deus Ex -Supernatural -Godzilla -Detroit: Become Human -There was like a few weeks where it was HLVRAI -And then it was plants. There was a year-long stretch with no Special Interest and I was latching onto odd things (and I was very inactive here) -Halloween & Friday the 13th -and now, Saw

I have many other things I love, but they don't clamp around my brain in quite the same extreme way.

my phases can last any amount of time, anywhere from a few short intense months to 5+ years, its completely random, completely unpredictable. even the interest itself is impossible to predict. its not something i choose, its something that happens to me.

sometimes i avoid watching things for a long time because im still very emotionally attached to my current phase and im genuinely afraid the shiny new thing will replace it. all art or fic ideas for the previous phase? theyll be abandoned. all I will want to create will be related to the new thing. (though I will sometimes draw it anyway, like digging up old toys to play with once in a while. The likelihood just drops considerably)

which is why right now i pretty much put a pause on the other franchises I plan on watching. I'm genuinely gripping onto Saw like someone is tryin to take it from me.

and then sometimes im like "haha yeah right. ill be fine. ill eat my shoe if my brain latches to this" and then put on the movie and by the credits roll im a new person (yes thats what happened with Saw. I really had no idea.)

this is also why im terrified of even just "checking out" things that have, like, a toxic fanbase or something, because i cant stop a new phase from happening if it does. and its really hard to keep it to myself, fuck

(do u know how mad i was when i realized i was attaching to hoffman the evil dirty cop??? i was so scared of drawing him, dudes. but thankfully everyones been cool abt it and we're all very aware of his awfulness & we have fun w it)

and every time my brain changes and i do get obsessed with some new thing, i get really scared and worried and hope I dont bother everyone who followed me for something else :(((( and yet, every time, im absolutely floored by how many people choose to tolerate my newest nonsense and stick around anyway

anyway ive lost the plot of what point i was making here OH YEAH thank you!

tl;dr: that would be the autism! thank you, it WILL happen again! that is a threat! 🥰

[historicwomendaily]

hi! we appreciate all your edits (believe me, we do. why do you think we follow you if we don't?). but i think you are indeed a bit defensive and offensive to some anons who are being constructive with the issues with race and representation. the last thing i want is to start a social justice argument with you because tumblr is already a shitsite full of it, but i'm a poc too and i want our film industry with actors/actresses specifically from my country be properly represented

.. and exposed at least here in tumblr. why? because it rarely happens for us. i get that you think how often it happens that a british actor plays a french/ russian etc character. but the hollywood, british (and the rest of european) actors already have their worldwide fame, so it wasn’t really much of an issue? (still some would prefer to be as accurate as possible) but asian, african and other poc actors don’t get that much exposure so i think that’s why some of us feel bad when (2/3)

..our backgrounds are not properly represented. yes, we may be of the same race, but we are very very diverse. we already are so tired to be offensively interchanged chinese = japanese = korean / indian = arabian = persian when we are very different. it’s nice that the western history are well known in tumblr history, but if our history will be portrayed here, i hope it would be properly done.. (3/3)

thanks for sending such well thought out asks!

a lot of the defensive/on the offence bits comes from an overall fustration that there isnt much material to draw upon as POC in period dramas are sadly few and far between, esp POC from very specific locations. I wish everyone was represented!! It isnt fair at all, and the film industry should focus a lot more on the amazing stories of the women on this page. As for the whole ordeal youre referring to (as I’ll call it)  most of the anons/ the conversation happened over the course of a day or two- a day which i had already logged on to tumblr in a fowl mood, which I probably shouldnt have. Usually I ~ among many others ~ use tumblr as a form of escape from the stress and hecticness of daily life. Learning about history and celebrating these amazing hidden gems of countless unknown women brings me joy!

That day I happened to get some very bad news from my doctor. I wont go into it much b/c this isn’t about me, but I’ve been sick for a couple years with a rare, unknown illness and I found out one of the experimental treatments I was on wasn’t working very well. The drive to the medical research center is long and the appointment ended up lasting near the entire day, and so I got home late that night and logged on to tumblr to escape and immerse myself into what I love only to find out that the gifset I had been pretty proud of wasn’t being recieved all that well, which bummed me out to say the least. The last thing I had ever wanted to do was to offend anyone, especially as my goal has been to celebrate amazing women and all the diversity that entails. Still, its true I hadn’t put much research into my faceclaim and only chose one that aesthetically looked like her real life photograph, and to be quite honest, didnt even think to research the actresses background. That’s on me- I took for granted my own freedom of expression/representation in the media and extended it to people who dont have the same experience. I wont be doing it again. 

so as stated before, I completely understand/empathize (as much as someone in my position can) what you are saying, and all my gifsets and edits following Noor’s will try to adhere to the women in questions’ rightful background

I know I came off a tad defensive, and Im sorry if that made it sound like I wasn’t being as empathetic or understanding to those who are POC, but I am trying and learning- tbh I’d just had a rough time of it that day and hadn’t been in the right state of mind to fully digest everything you all were trying to say.

again though, thank you for the asks

-G