#haahka

[kinnbig]

jsyk, we cannot wait for that world's nichest Kenbig fic 💖💖💖💖💖

🥰🥰🥰 THANK YOU

[halavibe]

5, 6, 18! ✨️

go smack isak around for getting me to answer these before i got to your ask

[kptssecretsanta]

Merry Christmas, @haahka!

Happy holidays! hanks for supporting my writing this year, I hope this fic brings you a dash of festive cheer.

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Watching, Wanting

It started out as just another straightforward case; a wealthy businessman in his late fifties suspected that his much-younger lover, Ken, was cheating on him. Ken worked as a personal trainer at an exclusive health club in the city, and had a rapidly-growing social media presence. His face was handsome, Big supposed as he looked through some photos, but there was also something petulant and spiteful about it. The client made a point of highlighting the need for discretion, reminded Big of his status and reputation. Big nodded and reassured him while inwardly dreading a tedious few weeks of tailing some spoilt pretty boy from gym to smoothie bar to motel. 

It all started out exactly as Big had feared. On the first day Ken stopped for a floofy iced coffee on his way to the gym, where he spent the whole day. After work, he bought overpriced falafel from a bougie deli downtown before heading back to his apartment for the rest of the evening. On the second day, Ken had the same floofy coffee, stayed at the gym all day, bought improbable-sounding kimchi tacos from a food truck, then went home. On the third day, Ken had floofy coffee, stayed at the gym, bought a pork katsu BLT, then went home. Big was going out of his mind with boredom, but his client had refused to greenlight any kind of listening devices, deep web searches or intrusive hacking in case he was wrong about Ken and “broke his trust”. It was laughable, given that he’d hired a P.I. to investigate his lover, but Big wasn’t paid to argue. 

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[fiddlepickdouglas]

Treats!! 💖🍓🍨🍇🍫🍿🍰☕️🍮🧋💖

[captainhongjoong]

it's block b time! 🐝 7, 11, 15, 18? 👀

7. Favourite MV scene / location / detail?

ACK i'm so sorry it's be the light. + the fact that (i don't remember who but) somebody said the first thought was to have jaehyo as the main character bc he's the visual but nobody would feel as bad for him getting beat up as yukwon LMAO

11. Best dynamic between members?

since you didn't say it i will. zikyung is so funny to me bc they are both so horrible [affectionate] and since they've known each other since they were what five? they both have career-ending dirt on the other one. especially rewatching 5mbc every scene with them is just kyung: "should i tell them about -" zico: "don't or i'll tell them about -" kyung: "DON'T" like they are ground zero for block b not being able to act like idols. it also helps that kyung is so small but filled with so much more malice. i love

15. Favourite behind-the-scenes moment?

*looks at my collection of behind-the-scenes dvds* uhhhhhh lmao. i mean i'm obligated to say yukwon ripping his pants at the my zone shoot but also them leaving taeil on the bus in nyc

18. I became a fan because...

well they were one of my favorites when i first got into kpop in 2014 but i had to do my time as an army for two years (my enlistment era) and when i stopped liking bts i switched to block b. and then i got the kim yukwon brain worms and they're terminal

[morayofsunshine]

is birthday?!?! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!?!?!?!! 💖❤️💖🎉💖❤️🎉❤️💖 (if not birthday... then just HAPPY!!! 💖❤️💖❤️💖❤️💖❤️)

Is birthday!!!!! 😁😁🥰 THANK YOU!!!!! 💖💗💞💕🫂

[thisautistic]

can we get 23 and 60? 🎶

23. Korean Ballad - Big Naughty

60. Beautiful Night - Gaho

my k-indie is showing lolol. I'm gonna blame Morgan ww lolol

[vegasandhishedgehog]

6, 28, 29 for the song asks!

6. A song that makes you want to dance

This makes me go all inflatable tube man in the best way, I love this song to death!

28. A song by an artist with a voice that you love

BigYear has such a nice voice that I love to feel in my chest. God. Gimme that deep chatter any time sir.

29. A song that you remember from your childhood

For some reason when I was 6 I was really into Neil Diamond. I mean, little me was right but idk how it happened 😂

[perths]

Hello good morning and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! 💝🫂💝 Hope you have the loveliest day ahead!! 💖✨️💖✨️💖✨️

ahhh thank you so much‼️🥰😁❣️💌

[misspoetree]

So the lovely @haahka and I were talking about Tay and how it's a bit sad that the fandom only ever seems to send him on shopping tours or focus on his fashion (you guys know that I'm obsessed with the KinnPorsche Fashion myself, but it's just a little...unadventurous, you know).

And then I got waaay to deep into headcanons with the equally lovely @tumsa (I'm not even sorry for the spam 😌❤).

Now, there are two things I want to do: first, I'd love to hear more Tay headcanons - feel free to throw them at me (as an ask, in the tags, added to this post, whatever you prefer). Because I'm really curious. 👀

And second, I'm going to share a few of mine:

Tay is way more capable than anyone thinks. (But no one needs to know that.)

People treat Tay like a princess within the show - I mean, he isn't even allowed to help in the kitchen at Porsche's. But I don't think Tay IS a princess. I think it's a protective façade. Because letting oneself be underestimated is a (survival) strategy in a world of money and constant power struggle, and a smart one at that. Yes, Tay is really good at reading people in general, but I also feel like people tend to let their guard down around him. Because he's kind, and understanding, and compassionate - and he seems harmless, a bit spoiled even. His 'softness' puts people at ease, makes them talk, makes them more honest than they probably should be. He's not a threat after all. I bet he knows a lot of things he shouldn't. I bet he's smart enough to use that knowledge (to help other people, to help himself, if needed). And I bet Tay could be fucking dangerous if he ever chose to (and wouldn't that be exciting 👀).

I also like to think that Tay has a strong survival instinct that goes beyond 'pretending to be incapable'. He and Kinn have been friends for ages, their families know each other, he basically grew up surrounded by mafia. He probably witnessed Tankhun's kidnapping back in the day. The horror and trauma of it. Tay's family is rich. He's close to the Theerapanyakuls. To the future head of the family. But he DOESN'T have an army of bodyguards following him around. And the downside of 'being harmless' is looking like an easy victim. Tay is too smart to be unprepared. So in my headcanon he knows how to handle a crisis, knows how to deal with danger, knows how to survive. Knows how to get out of the country quickly, how to get money without leaving a trail, how to get an unregistered gun. How to land a mean punch even though he hates it, how to apply (good) first aid EVEN THOUGH HE HATES IT. (I do think that he really isn't a fan of physical stuff, so the princess image is not completely off. Or, well, he lets it work in his favour.)

Tay's reaction to being hurt, being really hurt, is to shut his emotions down completely.

I don't enjoy how Tay's often written as dramatic and over-emotional in his confrontations with Time after what happened at Hum Bar. He isn't sober when he catches his boyfriend shoving his tongue down another man's throat, and well, his boyfriend is shoving his tongue down another man's throat. So of course he's fucking angry. And emotional. Right then and there. But the thing is, Tay had time to think, time to cool off in those other confrontations. And that's just the way to describe Tay's demeanor then: cool, cold, like ice. I like to think that he just freezes over. Turns into a statue of neutral disinterest. Just imagine: someone like Tay, always so kind and compassionate, staring you down with an expressionless face, not reacting to anything you say, looking close to fucking bored. Imagine what that would do to Time, always so full of himself, always so used to getting reactions out of Tay. Walking straight into a wall of ice. Completely out of his element. Really forced to put the work in for once. And it truly is hard work to break through to Tay once he closes his feelings off from you. A little bit of grovelling might be necessary. (That said, dealing with his emotions like that isn't good for Tay either. Of course not.)

There's...'something' between Tay and Vegas, some kind of understanding

I never got over TAY asking after Vegas in the final episode. Or the way Tay watches Vegas as he passes him during the auction. So I'm having a lot of fun wondering about the 'relationship' between Tay and Vegas, or how potential interactions could have gone down.

I mean, Tay 'belongs' to Kinn. We know that Vegas wants everything that belongs to Kinn (I bet he thinks Kinn must have fucked a pretty boy like that at least once. Even though it's not his usual type. Why else would he stick around?). Tay's caring and understanding. We know how Vegas can react...to something like that. (Not him falling in love after one free therapy session or something like that.) Tay is really good at reading people, he is really good at reading Kinn. And we know Vegas is not so different from Kinn (in some ways), even though he would murder anyone suggesting something like that to his face. Or maybe that's exactly what Tay does. Telling that to his face. As Vegas tries to seduce him, in the earlier days. But Tay doesn't try to wound him with that, to be cruel or mean, it's just an observation, spoken in that calm and understanding tone of his. And a younger Vegas is so shocked by that statement that he just...stops? And stares at Tay who just keeps going with that warm look in his eyes and those observations that hit a little too close to home until he can't take it anymore and turns on his heel to...definitely NOT run away like a dog with his tail between his legs.

Vegas keeps his distance after that. That princess isn't worth the effort, he tells himself. Or maybe he doesn't. Maybe he stops trying to seduce Tay, yes. But they end up talking again. And again. Because Vegas desperately needs to know what Tay meant with those things he said. And there's just... something about their conversations that keeps Vegas coming back. Until (stealing some thoughts from @tumsa here <3) Tay tries to convince Vegas that the competition between him and Kinn is dumb. Vegas does keep his distance, then.

And Tay gives up trying to help, trying to make him see how futile all of this is because it's clear Vegas won't listen to anyone but his father. But he still cares about Vegas, and seeing all the things Vegas does to himself without realising, seeing that ever-growing self-destructive obsession with Kinn sits like a leaden ball in Tay's stomach. The knowledge that he can't do anything to help is a bit like its own form of torture.

Anyways, (stealing again from @tumsa) Tay definitely ends up going to the hospital to visit Vegas. In secret, of course. And seeing Vegas and Pete together, seeing Vegas being changed by love, seeing him try to be a better person for Pete, putting all this effort in to make it work - maybe all of this forces Tay to reflect on his own love life for once. To reflect on the things he wants. The things he deserves, after all.

Nearly everyone had a crush on Tay, one time or another

You guys know the thing we do with Vegas? Like how VegasPete is the holy grail of endgame ships but it's so much fucking fun to ship Vegas with everyone and to imagine all his possible encounters and escapades? Because he's manipulation, seduction and psychological issues stacked on top of each other and wrapped in a velvet shirt?

Well. I like to do the same thing with Tay. For more or less opposite reasons. Because he's understanding and warm and compassionate and smart (and really pretty). In a world full of violence and trauma and repressed emotions, only sharp edges. I mean, who wouldn't crave the warmth, who wouldn't want to bathe in the sunlight for a while? I'm pretty sure people are falling en masse for Tay. And I think Tay doesn't always know how to handle it. Or genuinely doesn't realise what kind of effect he has on those poor bastards for doing nothing more than showing them a bit of kindness. Or maybe he's simply choosing to ignore it because he only has eyes for one person and one person alone.

Anyways, a lot of fun directions to go with this last headcanon for now. (And I'm keeping it intentionally vague and without examples because otherwise, this would turn into a multichapter fanfic I don't have time to write just now. 🤡)

[kinnbig]

Trick or treat!! 👻🍁😶‍🌫️🍭

hi hi hi thank you so much! here is a lil snippet of the VegasBig you mentioned the other day... as a treat 😁💖🍬

Big is alone when he reaches him, as Vegas knew he would be, sat on the ground with a half-empty bottle of something amber coloured at his side. His face falls instantly as Vegas approaches; disappointment plain, his usual controlled façade stripped away by the drink.

Vegas doesn’t need to wonder who he was hoping for. Vegas never needs to wonder who everyone wishes that he was.

“Khun Vegas.” Big greets him coldly.

“Ai’Big.” Vegas keeps his voice soft as he comes to stand over him, looking down at him. Considering.

Despite how long Big has been around, Vegas has interacted with him surprisingly little. Ever since they were children, Big has always been right behind Kinn; sidling up beside him at every opportunity, tagging after him like a kid with a crush.

Kinn’s hand-reared human shield. Raised from a pup to be unwaveringly loyal, practically bred for compliance. Devotion instilled into every fibre of his being. Keeping him pining was a nice touch on Kinn’s part, unfulfilled infatuation certainly more of an incentive to dedication than the inevitably disappointing reality of fucking.

Kinn has moulded himself the perfect little lackey.

Vegas knows he can break him.

Not in the way he’s broken Ken; pulled apart until Kinn’s secrets spill from the cracks; but in another way; the way he’s been breaking all of Kinn’s loyal devotees, one-by-one, since the day he turned sixteen.

Big is drunk. Vegas can sense his misery in the air like a pheromone.

He’s almost disappointed.

It’s going to be so easy.

✨👻 fic writer ask box trick-or-treat! 👻✨

[wooyoungisbaby]

@hongjoongsgoat tagged me to do this and uhh. well. it could not have been more wrong :)

tagging @vesvosmozhno @beenbaanbuun @wooyoungbites @ubernoona @sxcret-garden @sourkimchi @daeguon @hwakakeri @haahka @coffee-addict-kitten @baldyeosang

[toxicrevolver]

Tagged by @odeblr to catify myself! Thanks for the tag!!!

I give extreme orange cat vibes. I am very stupid, and I joke that my younger sibling has the braincell all the time. I actually wear glasses! And Halloween is my fav holiday so we had to add Halloween deco.

Tagging (no pressure): @loveable-sea-lemon @haahka @boysbeloving @we-survive-endlessly @rainknow @staticmonster999

[kptssecretsanta]

THE KPTS SECRET SANTA 2023 REVEAL POST

Ho Ho Ho!

It’s time to conclude the second edition of the KPTS Secret Santa :)

Hope you’ve all had a lovely holidays and that you’ve enjoyed all the amazing gifts that were posted!

I’d like to give special thanks to @everyforkedroad, @artfreaksmeout, @mightymightygnomepriest, @nuwildcat, & @tinycharliechoo with helping me out as pinch hitters, making sure no one would be left empty handed! Thank you darlings <333

If you’d like, you can still add your works to the AO3 Collection! Just poke me if you do, and I’ll add the link to the Tumblr gift post as well. I’ve just revealed the archive as well. You can also repost your gift(s) to your own Tumblrs now, of course :)

That’s all from me in terms of service announcements, hope to see you all again next year! 

-x- Leonie (leetje)

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Are you all ready to find out who your secret santas were? :D

The list is in alphabetical order:

@angsty-violet made a gift for suzteel - gift here

@artfreaksmeout made a gift for thisautistic - gift here

@artfreaksmeout made a gift for wangxian234writes - gift here

@artpo made a gift for mortimerlatrice - gift here

@asylumwise made a gift for wiccawrites - gift here

@camuizuuki made a gift for benkaaoi - gift here

@crumchycow made a gift for shou-jpeg - gift here

@dr-lemurr made a gift for thestarscanalwayslookatus - gift here

@everyforkedroad made a gift for asylumwise - gift here

@everyforkedroad made a gift for nuwildcat - gift here

@fangirlwithoutafandom made a gift for angsty-violet - gift here

@garsideofthemoon made a gift for artpo - gift here

@haahka made a gift for fangirlwithoutafandom - gift here

@jeffsatyr made a gift for justanothervariant - gift here

@justanothervariant made a gift for haahka - gift here

@lady-guts made a gift for camuizuuki - gift here

@mightymightygnomepriest made a gift for dr-lemurr - gift here

@mightymightygnomepriest made a gift for monochrome-crisis - gift here

@mortimerlatrice made a gift for garsideofthemoon - gift here

@no1petesimp made a gift for artfreaksmeout - gift here

@nuwildcat made a gift for everyforkedroad - gift here

@nuwildcat made a gift for lady-guts - gift here

@pareghostic made a gift for the-water-nixie - gift here

@shou-jpeg made a gift for ayansbff - gift here

@shubaka made a gift for xxatlasxx - gift here

@sunshinesanctuary made a gift for lexluthorswigcap - gift here

@suzteel made a gift for tsttoain - gift here & here

@the-cookie-of-doom made a gift for viva-yas-vegas - gift here

@the-water-nixie made a gift for pareghostic - gift here

@thearvariblues made a gift for tinycharliechoo - gift here

@thestarscanalwayslookatus made a gift for shubaka - gift here

@thisautistic made a gift for mightymightygnomepriest - gift here

@tinycharliechoo made a gift for sunshinesanctuary - gift here

@tinycharliechoo made a gift for thearvariblues - gift here

@tsttoain made a gift for jeffsatyr - gift here

@viva-yas-vegas made a gift for the-cookie-of-doom - gift here

@wangxian234writes made a gift for zelenchai - gift here

@wiccawrites made a gift for punchlove-blog - gift here

@wildelydawn made a gift for crumchycow - gift here

@xxatlasxx made a gift for wildelydawn - gift here

@zelenchai made a gift for no1petesimp - gift here

Go forth and shower your santa in some loving!

[chanbig]

@haahka tagged me in a quiz!!!

my result:

soooooooo Porsche vibes then? ill take it 😎

I tag @gayverlyearp @dulciecollins @kinnbig @jeffsatyr and @jdotsodomite if you want to do it!!!

[captainhongjoong]

i know im late for the asks but. 1, 7, 30 and 62!

DAMN sorry i was busy all day kjgnldfjn

1. What was the first piece of furniture you bought? like ever? i can't even remember, either something secondhand for my first apartment 9 years ago or my ikea desk 8 years ago (which i still have!)

7. Any groceries you've been getting into lately? i pretty much always buy/eat the same stuff but an exciting recent development has been flavored cream cheese to match my bagels

30. How many pairs of scissors do you own? 3 - one pair of big regular scissors, one pair of craft scissors, and one pair of super cute rilakkuma scissors that are like secret? they look like a pen but under the cap it's scissors

62. Where are you on the minimalism-maximalism kinsey scale? dude this is so serious for me. i HATE clutter i hate things that take up space and don't do anything unless they're like, decorations that i really like. i try to do things the marie kondo way where if it makes me happy then it has a purpose but otherwise i don't need it. also everything has to be able to be cleaned/moved to be cleaned around. so i'm on the minimalist side but i could never be like a full minimalist who doesn't own anything strictly unnecessary yk