#gwaen blab

[gguksgalaxy]

Masters Week 4

September 21 — September 27

This week was a large bout of ups and downs. I had to hand in both a paper and a midterm this week and that paper was beating my ass so it was super stressful for me. As much as I'd vowed to finish both the paper and the midterm the week before, I didn't manage to do it. The paper because it was too hard and the midterm because we still had a question round on Tuesday so it would've been stupid of me to hand it in earlier. However, upon second review of the texts and layout, I managed to write a paper that I was satisfied with. Putting it down for once, had been the right decision. Oh, and I forgot to mention this initially, but I did end up getting 2/2 marks for this paper!! I did sort of okay for the first few days but my brain was still not fully focussed because of how much stress I was receiving so I ended up faling behind quite far throughout the week. i'm going to have to catch up with some ethics notes the next week sadly, but since i have no papers or midterms I think it'll be fine.  I did make a friend, I think. A girl from class who I've talked to a few times now, said she'd be willing to show me around the city and talk about our philosophy of science papers together, mainly because we are also in the same master thesis group. I felt really happy when she suggested it because I'd been too scared to ask her.  I also started talking to the lovely @kissmekook this week. I mean we'd talked before but, now we're like talking talking. She's so nice and we kind of bonded over our love for reading/writing, angst and dark themes, and our just absolutely wild brains. You guys should go give her a follow. My heart to heart with my sweet beta @guksweet (that's an unintended pun) was also really good, it's nice to have a place to vent where you won't be judged. You guys should follow her too.  I also did a lot of thinking about Fool's Gold again this week. I'm stressed about some parts of it, which I think i expressed. There's dark topics and I just don't want to end up romanticising it, but I also have to realise that if some people see it in a romantic way even though I didn't explicitly write it as such. I hope that you guys will appreciate the series. I can now officially say it will be 20 chapters long and will have over 250k words.  Overall, this week was not too bad, but it had a lot of ups and downs.  Week Rating: 3/5 Something I learned: Just because someone sees something romantically doesn't mean you are romanticising it. The experience of reading something is always the sum of what you wrote and a person's perceptions and habits. 

[gguksgalaxy]

So I have ADHD and some activities are mentally kinda too tiring for me cuz they are either too much or not enough and every time I tell my mom I can’t mentally handle something she legit mocks my ass as if I’m joking like: “oh she can’t mentally handle it boo hoo.” N I’m just like 🤡 bitch I’m serious what is ur problem...

[gguksgalaxy]

Masters Week 6

This week, compared to the two before felt like it was on a way up. Even though I still wasn't able to keep up with all my school work I feel like I did better than the weeks before. I'm slowly gaining purchase again. And I have the next three weeks off so that's good. I have time to catch up.  I think this week was quite a good one. I got myself a really awesome birthday present, a new mechanical keyboard. It's so clacky and feels so nice to my fingers. It's making me quite fast so I love it, but I might want to invest into a desk mat. I also want to get these really cute pink and white keycaps for it...but they're a little expensive so we shall see.  Thanks to my lovely friend @wintaejk this week got a lot better, she let me borrow her second ticket for the BTS concert so I could watch it with her. I really enjoyed it. I missed the boys so much, they did so well. And I made some new friends too through some texting and posting.  I don't really have a lot to say other than this, not much happened. I did pick up cross stitching again, so I hope I'll have some time to work on that over the free weeks. I want to get a quarter into the project before the end of the year but that's going to be a hard task.  Week Rating: 3.5/5 Something I learned: You can love the people you love the way you want to love them as long as you are respectful of them as a person. What other people have to say about it, doesn't matter. 

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Masters Week 5

This one comes a little late, but honestly it's pretty representative of how things have been going for me. After I went through a bit of a rough time between week 3 and 4, I got stuck in a rut. I couldn't motivate myself to do anything, not even game, or draw. I just ended up doing super mindless things. I didn't want to walk, I didn't want to cook or anything. And it was really hard to not fall into a mindset of 'I'm so bad for not doing anything'. I tried to figure out for myself what was causing this lethargic(?) feeling. I can't truly pinpoint it, but my guess is that it has something to do with the fact that I was a little burnt out from working so hard the first few weeks. Or it's related to me having a lot of anxiety  bursts throughout the time period before that.  That being said, I ended up revising what was going on with my work and pushed all of it to my 3 week break. I told myself it would be easier to just do this one week later and do the next week as normal, than to try and catch up. Because I was still trying to catch up from week 4 and that just made everything too crowded. So let's hope that everything goes better now! That said, I finally finished telling @kissmekook​ about all the details in my upcoming fics (except for the ending of course). I'm so happy that she's so excited for everything and that she's enjoyed her time talking to me. A lot of thanks to @fallinforkoo​ and @guksweet​ for helping me figure out the last bits of plot I had left. I can now officially say that Fool's Gold will have a prologue, 24 chapters and an epilogue (if I finish it that is). I'm so excited to share this story with all of you.  Oh I got my grade back for my Logic midterm, I scored an 8.6/10 (in Dutch university terms that is really good). So yay me on that! AND I ordered a new macbook, because honestly my old baby has been getting so slow with how much I've been asking from it after 4.5 years. She has served me well, I have never had any issues with my 2015 macbook air. It's just old and with the way I use it, which is demanding and continuous, it requires me to have something stronger. So I ordered a Macbook Pro (2020, 1.4 i5, 16Gb, 256Gb in silver) with a white casing (they didn't have pink TT.TT). It should be here within a week or two! And I may or may not have pre-ordered BE as a birthday present to myself.  Week Rating: 2.5/5 Something I learned: As hard as you may try, you're going to have bad weeks. However, what matters is how you get through them and learn from them.

[gguksgalaxy]

Masters Week 1

August 31 - September 6

This week was my first week of philosophy and I don't think it could've been any better. Or well, maybe, if Ethics had posted the stuff normally and if we had irl classes. But really, considering that I loved every minute of it. The classes were so interesting and engaging, and on top of that the fellow students I got to meet are all so nice. They're people from different walks and sides of life, but we got along really well. It's great to finally study somewhere where everyone is motivated to learn and grow. Right now my favourite class is Philosophy of Mind, the teacher is a gamer and he's so tech savvy and chill! Aside from that I sadly didn't get much time to write, I did plan a little bit. I'll try to write more next week. I also tried out two new recipes. The first was a crinkle cookie recipe, the chocolate ones, and they are delicious (especially cuz I added just a tad too much salt). Wanting to try out the vanilla next week! Oven works great so, nothing burnt and they baked pretty evenly. AND I made curry noodle soup based on something I saw on Masterchef. I'll leave the recipe for that below the cut if anybody is interested.  Even though I enjoyed myself I had quite a few emotional lows. On top of which word decided to corrupt my paper and I had to rewrite it again on Sunday, aka what is supposed to be my school free day...A bit of a bummer. But I'm trying to see the positive! Looking back, this week was good.  Week Rating: 3.5/5 Something I learned: Do not use Word. Ever. Again. 

Curry Noodle Soup (1 serving): - 70-100 gr of chicken marinated with a lil (almond) milk, curry powder and salt.  - 1 portion of noodles of your choice - 1 bell pepper - 1/2 onion (or 1 small one) - 1/4 leek, leak ? the one that's a huge variant of green onions.  - 1 clove of garlic - same amount of fresh ginger - 1 green onion (optional) - 1/2 tbsp curry paste (adjust to taste and brand) - 50ml coconut milk  - 1/2 tsp chicken stock powder (adjust to taste and your brand) - 1/2 tsp fish sauce (optional ig?) - Whatever cooking oil you use.  note: you can add whatever soup veggies you want and I think it would work with potatoes too.

1. Marinate your chicken  2. Chop yo veg quite chunky, but do it fine for the garlic, ginger and green onion.  3. Cook chicken but not quite through, remove from pot. 4. Add curry paste, garlic and ginger to pot on low heat. Fry for a little and then add coconut milk. Stir well! Don't let it burn! Remove from heat if necessary.  5. Add pepper and onion, fry for 1-2 mins.  6. Add leek, probably 500ml of water (just eyeball it tbh you want to cover your veg) and stock powder. Cook until it's a bit thicker, but you don't want it too saucy. It's a soup not a curry after all.  7. Cook your noodles in the soup, add additional water if necessary! You can also cook them separately, whichever you prefer.  8. Serve warm with green onion as garnish!  9. Enjoy it, and don't burn your mouth please. 

[gguksgalaxy]

I’m so excited for in the soop like I can’t wait to see the boys so domesticated and just enjoying themselves and nature 🥺🥺

AHHH i'm excited to see the content, but I'm a weirdo and I never actually watch the entire thing?? I haven't watched any BV and I never finished that show where they were in america. And I don't watch run. Idk why. Short attention span or smt ig jfdlkjfldsj. I just like seeing the gifs and short videos. But yeah it's such great content and I'm already loving the whole vibes. 

Some highlights until now for me were:

Yoongi not being able to reach the ticketing thingy TT.TT

Yoongi? Domestic as fuck 13/10 would recommend did you SEE him in that white shirt?

Jungkook playing guitar. That's all I have to say. 

Taehyung. 

[gguksgalaxy]

I'm sorry you're having a rough day, so I came to ask what is your comfort show/movie/song??

hmmm that's a good question. I find it hard to find comfort in such things. 

Netflix removed my favourite show, White Collar. That's a show that I can always go back to but lmao it's such a hassle to watch it online :( I usually watch Vampire Diaries now because it's got quite a nostalgic feeling for me. 

Movie I think Disney's Oliver and Co. I love that movie so much! It's definitely the source of my infatuation with New York City. 

For music I like to listen to Jungkook's voice, honestly. I think that more than anything I like to listen to his and Taehyung's vlives for comfort. Even if I can't understand them, just hearing their voices makes me feel a bit more at ease. 

[gguksgalaxy]

Would you rather listen to the same bts song on repeat forever or only be allowed to listen to 10 songs a day

I'd rather listen to 10 songs a day. Regardless of whether I can repeat those songs or not. I am someone who is capable of listening to a song on repeat but I don't know if I love a song that much that I would listen to it on repeat forever. Plus, I am also not the kind of person who listens to music all day long. I mainly listen when I'm commuting or cooking. I'm too easily distracted lol. 

[gguksgalaxy]

I just read a text by Hume from his Treatise of Human Nature and as much as i think my brain is sort of fried, I do think I understood what he was trying to say. He makes very interesting points on how the conception of time can exist withint our minds without us having to perceive the things with out senses which normally give rise to the perception of time. It's basically by the constant succession of our thoughts that we perceive duration and time. 

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Masters Week 2 & 3

September 7 - September 13

This week was still kind of chill. I completely forgot to write one of these so I'm not entirely sure what to put anymore. I did bake those cookies again! Same recipe but this time the vanilla ones: still amazing. I'm not entirely sure whether I prefer vanilla or chocolate, both are super good. Oh I made curry for the first time. Or well, first time, more so this type. I bought a curry paste from my local asian grocer and used that to make curry, and it was super tasty.  I had to hand in my first paper, which was super stressful. On Monday morning I noticed that I had fucked up and didn't follow the guidelines properly. So I had to rewrite the entire thing AGAIN. Though I managed to hand it in on time. I had fun at school too, but I was quite caught up with all my uni work that I didn't get too much time to myself.  Later that week I decided to pick up playing Fire Emblem Awakening again! Week Rating: 3.5/5 Something I learned: Read the entire fucking paper guideline. ALL OF IT. THREE TIMES.

September 14 - september 21

I'm so glad I did a lot of food prep for this week because boy it was not a great one. It started off okay, but I was already stressing with my second paper. Then it turned out I got only 1/2 marks for my first paper which made me sad. Additionally my Logic teacher decided to drop on us that making the take home midterm would take more than a day and bish I didn't have time. I had a fucking paper to write.  I was trying to stay calm but it all just kept kind of building and building between Tuesday and Thursday until a point where I just kind of crashed on Thursday evening. I was super drained and tired and kind of down so I just cancelled my uni work for that night and just sat down on the couch. Which turned into me writing a fic that I haven't touched in a long time. I wrote 3k, and I'm really proud of it. Though, I was kind of weirded out by the experience cuz I sort of dissociated when I wrote it. But according to my friends it turned out really good.  Work was okay this week, I got to stay late and make some good money. I also finished the midterm early (the teach was rlly just on a high horse). So I did start to feel better towards the end of the week, partially thanks to the lovely @fallinforkoo making my days a little brighter.  Lastly, on Sunday, I finally got to do some planning for one of my upcoming fics. Fool's Gold, a Jungkook Mafia!Au!! Week Rating: 2.5/5 Something I learned: I have ADHD

[gguksgalaxy]

I've been loving all the drabbles you're writing for JK's birthday. I did request for an arranged marriage au and I thought it was so so good PS: EVERYTHING YOU WRITE IS GOOD

You say that now, but you should see the bs I push out in the first draft. And the fics on my blog we shan't mention. Thank you for reading and enjoying them though <3

— Gwaen

Fic mentioned: Jungkook Snuggle Drabbles

[gguksgalaxy]

stranded was 🤧🤧🤧 mf cute i deadass live enemies to lovers with a side of mutual pining? yeES i love jungkook quizzing oc on terms and being flirty and overall sweet my heart bust a nut

he was flirty wasn't he, but not too like out there. I thought a lot about how I could keep the 'enemies' part without going for the too obvious shticks. I hope I managed to do it and I'm glad that you enjoyed it! And we do indeed stan some mutual pining. 

— Gwaen

Fic mentioned: Stranded | JJK

[gguksgalaxy]

I know how you feel :( I woke up anxious this morning for no reason. It’s so frustrating

Sometimes the day hates you before you get a chance to hate it back :(

— Gwaen

[gguksgalaxy]

What i love about your writing, and i think you‘re really good at, are the descriptions. Both the description of a situation but also the description of a character‘s feelings. I can really visualize the scene, feel what the character is feeling and immerse myself in the story. You just have a way with words that makes everything seem so relatable, poetic and melodic ☺️

Hey, I didn't get any notifs for this message omg. Thank you so much for your sweet words. I always try really hard to convey characters in a manner that is both real and also palpable which sometimes can be a little hard or conflicting for a lot of people. I'm glad that you like the way i do it so much. I hope that you'll enjoy my future works too!

— Gwaen

[gguksgalaxy]

Hello! Its me the pkmn anon from a while back!! I just wanted to tell you that I completed my nuzlocke run and beat the elite 4 😤😤 Numel didnt die, he evolved into a beautiful camerupt!!! Lowkey I almost died on the last gym before the elite 4 and lost like 3 pokemon and had to train up other ones before challenging the elite lolol. But yeah!!! Hope you've been doing well and looking after yourself bb 💕💕

hii! Sorry for the late reply this is so cute. Thanks for the sweet little update!! I'm glad lil numel made it to the end and that he got to revolve :D

[gguksgalaxy]

hi gwaen i hope ur doing well ily !! i send lots of hugs and love 💞

uwu hi laur D: so nice to speak to you also omg i'm so fucking sorry for not replying to your ask I suck TT.TT But I read it I pwomise and i'm glad you're back!! Lots of hugs n love for you too!!!! *insert heart emoji*

— Gwaen