#guys my birthday is like a month away 0.0

[growup-thatbeautiful]

little bitty jovie love 🥺 with tan looking like this pre-bullet proof. this was not what i was planning on writing, it wasn’t supposed to be soft dad tan loll

warnings: reader is a mom, being tired, cuddling, sharing a bed

the bedroom is lit gently by the lamps on your bedside table, a golden glow casting light shadows across the walls. tangerine’s reading in bed, his favorite scratchy blanket tossed over his shoulder. the thin fabric of his tank top is riding up above his sweatpants, exposing a strip of skin that you soak in.

“hey,” you greet him softly. “she’s not going back down” you had gotten out of bed a few minutes ago to check on a crying jovie, only to find that she had no intention of going back to sleep without being fed, burped, and properly doted on. luckily, no one is more willing to do that than tan.

tangerine hums and looks up at you, his eyes softening when he sees you carrying jovie in your arms. she’s fussy, like it seems she always is, but he doesn’t care one bit. he simply reaches his arms out and takes her, cradling her against his chest.

“how’s my girl?” he coos, grinning at her. it’s a smile that’s reserved just for those who really know him. you’re lucky enough to be one of those people. “givin’ mum a headache yet?”

“she could never,” you protest. “not our little angel.” you don’t have to convince tan; he sees no flaw in jovie already.

“did you feed her?” he asks.

you nod and settle in bed next to him, squeezing yourself underneath his unoccupied arm. instinctively, he kisses you on the forehead and leans into you. there’s a tired edge to your voice when you speak. “she’s just angry for no reason.”

it’s not like you thought it was going to be easy, but it’s still harder than you thought it would be. sure, you’ve taken bullets through your stomach and knives to almost every blood-filled part of your body, but this is different. it’s a different, personal level that you didn’t know you were still capable of. one that even tan, for all that you love him, never brought out.

before you actually met jovie, you severely underestimated the lengths you would go to keep her safe, though. now, it’s almost all you can think about. call it a hazard of your profession, but everything feels so unsafe now.

everything except for him, that is.

that’s not to say it’s easy with tan. he’s stubborn (just like you) and he gets angry (just like you) and he’s got a hell of a short fuse (…just like you) but he’s always there at the end of the day. when it matters. when you and jovie need him.

it may seem naive to think that he’s a good man. you know for a fact that he isn’t; you’ve seen proof that he’s violent and angry and fucked up. but you’re all of those things too, just wrapped in a different package.

the thing is, there’s no one else you could have this with. no one who’s as violent or angry who could actually do what’s needed to be done to protect someone like you. so, when you fall asleep underneath his arm, your cheek pressed against his chest, you can sleep easily.

he may not be a good man, but he’s a good father and good husband. what more could you want?

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[jungkookfeelz]

Not What You Expected 5

Description: After years of dating Min Yoongi and starting a life together, he ends your relationship out of nowhere. Will you finally find out why the love of your life left you in the cold?

Words: 2K

Notes: Oooooh what a twist 0.0 I wonder what’s gonna happen next! The series is almost over, thank you for all the love so far.

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You shoved open the back door with a bang and ran out in the pouring rain but before your legs gave in, a pair of arms wrapped around your waist.

"Y/N I'm so sorry, please forgive me" Yoongi cried into the back of your shoulder "I was just so stressed with this comeback and you didn't come to see me before any of the other guys, it made me jealous"

"Enough for you to kick me out?" You whipped back to face him, eyes closing every second due to the heavy rain. 

"No, I'm sorry, I never should've done that, I don't know what came over me, as soon as I shut the door on you I freaked" you sighed, you can never stay mad at him no matter how much you hate yourself for it, you nodded your head and smiled lightly, you were going to remind him about this later when you weren't in the pouring rain but all you wanted to do now is kiss him, you've missed him so much

"I love you Y/N" Yoongi whispered, you almost couldn't hear him from the roaring of the rain. You stood on your tippy-toes and kissed him, he kissed back right away, putting his hands on your waist to deepen it.

"I love you too weirdo, but never do that again" You scolded, pointing a finger at him

"You got yourself a deal, now let's go inside so you don't catch a cold"

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ You opened your eyes and groaned, turning over to hit the snooze button on your phone. You laid back down and put your hands on your face to cover your eyes from the sun that was shining through your white curtains. Dreaming about him wasn't helping you get over him, you have to figure out a way to stop them. To say the least, you were nervous, today was the day you were meeting Yoongi, after months not talking to him, not including the time where you slapped him and told him to go to Hell after belittling you in front of people. You turned around again and grabbed your phone before the alarm would go off again, noticing a text from Y/F/N you decided to respond.

Y/F/N - You going to see him today?

Y/N - Yah, I think so, I'm rethinking my decision....again

Y/F/N - Listen, you need to find out, if you can't move on and live your best life without knowing then you need to talk to him. BUT if it's too early then you can back out, not like he gives a shit about you

Y/N - Gee thanks girl, that made me feel so much better lol

Y/F/N - This is what best friends are for, telling the truth when you can't say it yourself

Y/F/N - Anyways good luck, I LOVE YOU, text me it's over xoxo

It took you a while to get out of bed, millions of thoughts ran through your head, deciding if you should actually go see him or not. You were petrified if you were going to make things worse...but you were also scared if you would make things better. Do you even want to take him back and pretend nothing happened if everything went well, or would you leave him like he did you? You groaned again, feeling helpless to your own problems. 

Looking into the mirror you noticed a picture stuck to the edge of it, you picked it off and held it up to your face, it was a picture of your birthday from the past year. You looked so happy, with Yoongi by your side. The rest of the boys and Y/F/N were around the both of you, all of you wore weird headbands holding different color balloons in a beautiful sunflower field, how you wished you could go back in time to that moment. You touched the picture fondly before dropping it into the garbage can by your bed. This photo reminded you about the Yoongi you thought you knew, the one who paid a farmer just to be able to use it for your birthday, knowing they were your favorite. Not the one that you see now, the one who lies, who doesn't care. 

"Okay do I seriously have to wear a blindfold, I'm going to trip and die and it's going to be all your fault" You whined, carefully jumping out the van with the help of Y/F/N

"Oh calm down, drama queen" You can just hear her eyes rolling

"If I die, I swear I will haunt you" You pointed at her, making her laugh while turning you to actually point at her, you laughed sheepishly at the incident. 

"Guy's be quiet, she's here!" You heard Jimin yell

"See, we were quiet till you told us to be quiet" Jungkook pointed out, making Jimin glare at the Maknae and punch him in the shoulder, getting a bunch of 'shh's' from the other members. Apparently, you were finally where you needed to be since Y/F/N took off your blindfold, you squinted since it was so bright out. When your eyesight returned to you, you noticed it all. The beautiful field and your best friend huddled together in front of you, while Yoongi was in the middle, he had a singular flower in his hand and his beautiful shy smile that grew on his face when he saw your attention was on him. He walked right up to you and shoved the flower into your chest, putting a hand behind his neck, he coughed slightly. He was nervous.

"Yoongi...this is beautiful, thank you" You whispered, coming closer to him bringing your arms up to his neck to give him the biggest hug you could muster. 

"Y-you like it?" He stuttered, wrapping his arms around your waist to return the hug.

"Oh my gosh, yes. This is the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for me" You exclaimed making Yoongi chuckle.

"I'm so glad" He pecked your lips making you pout, you wanted more. "You can have whatever you like later, we have more surprises for you" ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ You had your hand hovering the door with the 'Suga' sign on it, you were psyching yourself out all day you couldn't help it, you don't know what you were going to find out today and it scared you. Your hand trembled in front of while, hand fisted, you took a deep breath before finally having the courage to knock. After a few painful seconds, you could hear a faint 'come in' you opened the door and shut it quietly behind you. You could see Yoongi playing around on his laptop, with big headphones over his head, not paying any attention to who had just come into his studio. You fiddled with your shirt starting at the stupid beautiful man in front of you.

"Yoongi" you interrupted, getting frustrated that he hasn't turned around to acknowledge you. "Are you going to stop and look at me?" You cross your arms over your chest and leaned back against the door, you needed something to lean on or you swear your would have fallen from how much your legs shook out of nervousness. He stopped what he was doing in an instant and was right in front of you faster than a blink of an eye. 

"You have no right telling me what to do" Yoongi growled, his voice was low making your heart flutter. He put his hands on the door behind you, trapping you. He leaned in close so that his lips were against your ear "watch your tongue next time" he whispered, his breath fanning over your cheek creating goosebumps all over your body. You gulped loudly, your mouth dry. You haven't been this close to Yoongi for a long time, you missed the way he made you feel, the way he used to touch you

"Yoongi..." you breathed out while he attacked your neck with his lips, he grabbed your waist harshly hearing you moan his name. He loved the way his name came out of your mouth he sucked harshly making your back arch, your chest's practically touching. You would never get tired of how good he made you feel, he didn't even have to do much, that's how putty you are in his hands. 

"What do you want baby?" Yoongi breathed out, grinding into you making you moan again. 

"Y-you, all of you, please" You whined slamming your lips onto his and pulled his hair, you knew that would help you rile him up. You wanted him, needed to feel all of him.

Yoongi smirked, his pride growing from how you much you wanted him to touch you, he looked down at your naked body and smirked "Your wish is my command princess"  

"Y-Yoongi" Your voice betrayed you. You put your hands on his chest, in an instant he was off of you, standing on the other side of the room breathing heavily. His hair was over his eyes so you couldn't see his face. You weren't surprised but hurt was all that you felt, he rejected you, yet again. Your face fell seeing him like this. He didn't look like his normal self, he wasn't the man that you remembered, he had dark circles under his eyes like he hasn't slept in weeks, he looked skinnier and his face was paler than normal. You didn't notice any of this when you saw him at the restaurant two days ago, assuming he was wearing some makeup and baggier clothes.

You felt sorry for him, he looked exactly how you felt inside. At least you weren't the only one "When was the last time you slept?"  

Yoongi chuckled, putting his hand on his jaw. "Why the fuck do you care?" 

"Because I care about you, that's why"

"No you don't, if you cared about me you wouldn't have done what you did"

"What did I do Yoongi?" You pleaded, he didn't respond,  so you walked over to him and pushed his chest "What did I do so fucking bad that made you leave" You kept hitting his chest, you didn't know when you started crying but you could barely see anymore. But you didn't care, you kept pushing and hitting until he responded, but what you heard left you speechless. 

"You broke my trust and slept with another man! That's what you did!" He was shaking in anger, spit flying everywhere as he screamed at you. He grabbed a stack of papers on his desk and threw them to the side to relieve some of the anger he felt at that moment. You flinched and backed away from him in an instant, eyes wide open. 

You cheated on him? You would never even think about doing that horrendous act, you loved Yoongi with everything that you had to offer so why the hell would you sabotage your relationship for sex? You had great sex with Yoongi, he always took care of you and put your pleasure over his own, you never had any complaints. Before you could get a word in, he started verbally attacking you with more;

"Was I not enough for you? Did I not please you well enough? Did you expect more? Is that why you to spread your legs for another guy? Was I not fucking enough for you? Did you even love me, or were you using me for the shit I am able to provide for you?" He roared out again. He was seeing red, he thought he would be able to control himself, he prepared for this day for months but seeing you, lying to his face made him snap.  

"What? How could you say that?" You gasped shaking your head not believing a word he said, did you not show him how much you loved him when you were together?

"You heard me, I know everything." He blatantly ignored your second question, he stood before you, sending daggers to the form before him., he was breathing heavier than before, chest rising and falling rapidly.

"I...What?" Yoongi sighed and grabbed his phone from his back pocket if he had to show you proof then so be it. He looked through his photo album before finding the photo that broke his heart. He put it up to your face and watched your reaction. You looked from him to the phone in his hand, when you realized what the picture was you frowned, how did they know you were meeting him?

"Oh"