#guys i know this is a bit hard to see as tsp art but it is TRUST ME

[jennicatzies]

Parable Omens or something

Real crossover hours

[who-ever-said-i-was-nice]

Mtach up thing please! <3

Female, INFJ-T, Sagittarius. 155cm (tiny potato, just dont smash it on my face or I will get insecure)I would never, brown eyes, long light brown hair, pale with freckless. Average-skinny. Wear glasses for study/work which is basically 24/7 same and have some tattoos here and there.

I think Im more of an ambivert but more close to the introvert side. I’m smiley but still people tend to tell me that they thought I was rude (or directly a bitch) highly doubt it they just jealous but found out I’m not that bad, guess that’s on bitch resting face :( nope :) better. Socially awkward but after I get comfortable I fool around a lot, memes and vine references give me life. I tend to do the opposite of what I’ve been told just because I don’t like it when people order me things.pffff can relate Tho I’m shy I will not hesitate to step up if someone is being rude with someone specially if is towards a friend or someone close to me. I try to be very caring and supportive for anything you will need but also empathic, I cry if someone cries kjdfhgk but try to hold it together so I can help and not make feel worse the other person you seem very nice pls be my friend

I’m sensitive, I get stressed and anxious easily and for that I constantly have headaches and stomach ache,noooooo :( I have a whole self-care routine to help me with that or else I will, without a doubt ,get sick. I don’t like places that are too crowded or very loud noises, it makes me nervous. I’m your “will cry if gets too anxious” person. yup you are to innocent and cute to be my friend I’m either “Mama bear” scary or “will murder you in your sleep” scary.....I’m just a marshmallow tho

I like reading welcome to the bookworm club, learning random things. I love art in general, music, painting, dancing, etc. I love animals too! All of them, cats, dogs, birds, frogs, please let them all in(but my weak spot are cats, I cant deny it). I’m vegan, try to make it the most healthy possible (eating well, taking vitamin D and B12 to not die that was funnier than all of my jokes combined i died ). Sugar is my passion and my minimum 4 tsp of sugar per coffee knows it(this is where the I eAt HeAlThYy goes to hell xD damn right lmao, you still healthier then me). When it comes to music I like a bit of everything, I will be listening alternative rock or metal and then jump to kpop, tho I’ve been into chill lofi lately, specially when is mix of a series or movie cause nostalgia hits hard and I’m into that shit kjhjk I also have a playlist of Disney, anime or movie songs/soundtracks because it helps me to study or work more motivated, your girl needs motivation to not stare into space for 1 hour straight,kjkiijjioh same tho Im quite disperse, I always forget where I put things and then blame the goblins for that, but it turns out, it was on my hand all the time lollol

I study art online, I want to be a concept or background artist for animation, I used to study animation on a university but dropped because the pressure was too much and never could get along with the university itself, every week was a fight about something (Im not problematic I swear, I try to be the most chill out-care free possible but I swear the system is horrible here :( )yeah it happens sucks that you had to go through it. I’m also learning complimentary therapies! (I think that’s how it is on english) Reiki, tarot, pendulum, past lifes and such, Im into esoterical/”mystical” things.

For hobbies I do embroidery, sewing, read, stare into space for 1 hour and yoga (this is part of the self care routine to not die).

My favorite season is autumn or early spring, I dont handle too hot weather or the sun well, I like winter and rainy days but then I get so cold that I invernate on bed the whole day.

For relationships I think communication is key, I know is not easy but is the only way to make it work :( and cuddles, please cuddle me and pet my head, I will be on your palms if you scratch my head. I can be very touchy, like holding hands and hugs but I dont like it if someone who is not a very close friend or my partner does it, I just dont know how to react or do kfdhlk I prefer my personal space untouched :(  Im so sorry it was so long!! I wanted to do it very detailed but sHoRt to not make you think so hard with who match up me but maybe tmi is just the opposite for you, if so Im truly sorry! :( I think you are an angel just for trying to match up me with someone <3 ahhh, yes, the matchup (take a shot for everytime i said match up on this paragraph game) for ikevamp please! <3

4 shots huh.Ahahahahhahhhahahhahahhhah...... Don’t worry about the length. The longer the better right. Right? I’m nasty I’ll stop. Also yes I went through it and left little notes within the text. Why, because I’m cool. Hopefully. One day. Anyway!

I matched you with...............

                                        .......................ISAAC!!!!!

My sweet baby angel little boy

Isaac is very,very shy so it took him some time to warm up to you

but that does not mean that he didn’t like you

oh no no no

on the contrary

Isaac died every single time you passed him

he didn’t understand how someone could be so perfect

you took his breath away

him not being the tales man actually liked that you were shorter then him

you see, because men are supposed t be tall and strong and all that crap, plus being around Leo, who scores a 10 in all of those, made him quite insecure about his, well, actually everything

the way he talked, or rather didn’t, his height, that fact that he wasn’t jacked like some of the guys in the mansion, or, you know, at least in his mind

he isn’t exactly the fighter type either

he’s a scientist after all, not a worrier

and this made him feel like he didn’t deserve you, because he couldn’t protect you

 oh my, sweetheart no

you on the other hand, think he is amazing

I mean not all people know all the constellations name and position by heart, nor can they carve amazingly cute wooden toys and decorations, nor are the university professores and just so happen to be an absolute physics geniuses so yeah

both of you being quite reserved, it took you ages to get together

but when you did it was the most amazing thing ever

he confessed to you one night while you where stargazing

it went a little something like this:

You: Thank you for bringing me out. It’s so beautiful!

Isaac: Yes. Like you.

You: *eyes emoji*

Isaac takes your hand, blushes hard, and even though he wanted to look into your eyes he couldn’t bring himself to, in fear of loosing himself in them

“Y/n ever since I first laid eyes on you I knew that I needed you in my life. You make me feel so comfortable by the just being here with me. You are funny, lighthearted and so welcoming and accepting. I love when you sit next to me in the library, I love it when we stargaze, I love how you ask me oh so many questions. How you are so eager to learn everything. Yet you are so quiet and shy. It’s amazing really. and in those moments I fell like I love it even more. The comfortable silence we can both sit in. The look we share, were we somehow always know what the other is thinking without even asking. I love your hair falls and frames your face perfectly. Those adorable freckles are driving me mad you know? Your petite features always astound me. So small yet so pretty. How is it even possible? However I don’t expect you to reciprocate my feelings. It doesn’t matter how much I adore you, I can’t protect you. I am not what a man is supposed to be. I’m not strong and tough Y/n, I’m just a scientist. However I felt the need to tell you this. To tell you my true feeling. I love you Y/N. I really do.”

Isaac sat there with tears streaming down his face

he couldn’t look at you

he just waited for the rejection to slap him in the face

however it didn’t come

you cupped his wet cheek gently and he looked up to see your tear stained face

you slowly pull him towards you and kiss him

it was so gentle and full of love

you pulled away tears still pouring down your faces

however these weren’t tears of sadness, but of joy

you both laughed as Isaac pulled you into a hug

well.....

i may or may not be crying writing this

yes I definitely am that is totally the case

anywhoo

after this it is smooth sailing

cutest couple ever

And that is it! Sorry if this is lame and it literally took forever. Thank you for the request though.! Have an amazing day and be safe!

[perfectlyrose]

help i need somebody (not just anybody) -- part 5/5

Summary: Rose is settling into her life in a new city very nicely. She has a job she loves, great new friends, and a flat a few doors down from a certain cute neighbor. When her mum keeps nagging her about kickstarting her love life, Rose spins a tale that involves dating her neighbor, John, who is no more than a good friend. It’s all an innocent white lie until Jackie calls and tells Rose that she’s coming to visit and can’t wait to meet her boyfriend.Rose has to face the music and come clean to John and see if he will pretend to be her boyfriend for just a few days while her mother is in town and hope that their friendship is still intact at the end of it all.

Pairing: Ten/Rose

Rating: All Ages // Word Count: 3188 // Total Word Count: 11,683

Note: For the absolutely wonderful and amazing @lastbluetardis as a belated birthday present <3 love you ashley! i hope you enjoy this little fake dating romp!

AO3 // TSP // FF // tumblr

The next day went by in a slow blur. Rose couldn’t decide if time was moving faster or slower than normal but it definitely seemed to be distorting around her in some way. The end of Jackie’s visit, and therefore her pretend relationship with John, was drawing close and Rose was already dreading her mum’s departure.

A rainy day had left the three of them to spend almost the entire day at Rose’s flat watching movies and playing board games. Jackie had gone surprisingly easy on John, apparently deciding that she liked him enough not to grill him incessantly. Rose had even caught her smiling at them as they cuddled up on the couch to watch a movie.

Her stomach had flipped as guilt ran slick through her veins. This whole charade of a relationship was to make her mum happy and it was working splendidly. Jackie was buying into the story Rose’d spun, but Rose hadn’t counted on not being able to lie to herself. Every time she snuggled into John’s side or took his hand or stole a sweet, barely-there kiss, she almost forgot that this wasn’t real, that she would go back to only having this in her daydreams in less than twenty-four hours.

She wanted it to be real more than she wanted to see her art hung on the walls of a gallery, wanted it more than she wanted almost anything and it scared her. She didn’t know how she was going to be able to go back to just being friends with John and her heart hurt just thinking about it.

Sunday night clicked ever closer to an end and every tick of the second hand sounded like a death knoll to Rose. Finally, John yawned and said he’d better get back to his flat since he had work in the morning.

Rose raised an eyebrow at the lie but he just gave her an inscrutable look in return before squeezing her hand. She could only figure that he could tell something was bothering her or wanted to give her some more time with just her mum.

John untangled himself from Rose and walked over to Jackie. “It was a pleasure to meet you, Jackie. Hopefully you’ll get to come visit again soon, I know Rose always misses you.”

He stuck out a hand for her to shake but Jackie just smiled. “Oh, come here you,” she said, pulling him into a hug.

“You take care of my Rose, you hear?” She let him go so she could look him in the face. “I will be up here faster than anything if you hurt her.”

John swallowed hard. “Understood.”

“Good lad.” She patted his cheek and then stepped away.

Rose knew her smile was a little forced as she walked John to the door but it was all she could do to keep from crying. This was it, the end of their little ruse, and Rose wasn’t sure at all that she was going to be okay. Jackie had believed them, had approved of them. The whole plan had gone better than she had ever dreamed but she still felt like she had failed, like she was losing.

“You okay?” John asked softly when they reached the door and he turned to face her.

“Yeah, course,” she said, trying to brighten her smile and convince him. She rested a hand on his chest, tilting her face up towards his.

“I’ll see you tomorrow?”

Rose had a feeling that he hadn’t really meant that to be a question but it came out as one regardless. “I’ll come by after I take my mum to the train station.”

“Sounds good.”

She rose up on her tiptoes and kissed him gently, lingering more than she’d dared to before. “Goodnight, John,” she said, voice soft once she pulled away.

He leaned down and pressed one more kiss to her lips. “Goodnight, Rose.”

She let him out and closed the door behind him. She sagged back against the door, eyes closed as she tried to gather herself to get through the rest of the night.

“So, are you going to tell me what’s wrong or do you want me to start guessing?”

Rose startled and opened her eyes to see Jackie leaning against the wall in the living room entrance. She could feel tears welling up and even though this whole thing had been designed to keep Jackie in the dark, all Rose wanted to do was tell her mum everything and let her comfort her.

“Oh Rose, come here.” Jackie opened her arms and Rose rushed over to bury her face in her mum’s shoulder. Jackie rubbed her hand up and down Rose’s back, trying to soothe her. “What’s wrong, sweetheart? You know you can tell me anything.”

Rose let out a sob.

“Come on, let’s sit down.” Jackie led them back to the sofa and sat them both down. She brushed pieces of hair out of Rose’s face, tucking them behind her ears as Rose sniffled. “Is it something to do with John?”

Rose hesitated before nodding. “Yeah, but don’t go thinking you need to slap him. It’s all my fault.”

“I think I want to hear this story before I go agreeing with you.”

“He didn’t do anything wrong, Mum.”

Jackie just made a clucking noise with her tongue. “How about I go make us some tea and then you can tell me what’s going on.”

Rose nodded. Jackie squeezed her knee before bustling off towards the kitchen. Rose wiped the tears off her face with her sleeve and then wrapped up in her favorite blanket that she kept on the back of the couch. She’d just finished tucking it around herself when Jackie returned with two steaming mugs.

Jackie settled back against one arm of the sofa and gave Rose a steady look. “What happened?”

There was no point in dancing around it, Rose knew. Jackie preferred to cut straight to the heart of things and figure it out from there.

She took a deep breath, seeking strength from the familiar scent of tea, and looked directly into her mum’s worried face. “Me and John aren’t really dating.”

Jackie’s eyebrows drew together. “Sure seemed like you were to me. Did you break up while telling him goodnight?”

“No, Mum. We’ve never dated. John’s just my best mate.”

Jackie snorted.

“I mean it!”

“You’ve been telling me you’re dating this man for months and now you’re saying that you’ve never dated him?”

“Yeah. It was…” Rose looked away, swallowing hard. “I was lying to you. Made it all up.”

Jackie reached out and put her hand back on Rose’s knee. “Sweetheart…” she started.

Rose cut her off. “I just wanted to make you happy so I told you I was seeing someone and telling you I was dating John was easier than making someone up.”

“What about these past few days? You two have been very couple-y.”

“When you called to tell me you were coming up here I panicked,” Rose admitted. “I didn’t want to tell you I’d been lying to you for months so I asked John to pretend to be my boyfriend for a bit.”

Jackie pursed her lips. “You know, most people wouldn’t agree to something like that.”

“He’s a good guy,” Rose said.

“You’re in love with him.” Jackie’s tone was achingly gentle but firm. There was no question implied, just a simple statement of fact.

Rose felt tears stinging her eyes again and she nodded. “I’ve ruined everything. He’s my friend and he was just doing me a favor and I don’t… I don’t…” A sob escaped her with enough force that her tea almost sloshed over the rim of her mug.

Jackie quickly moved to set down her own mug before divesting Rose of hers. She wrapped her arms around Rose. Rose cried into her shoulder just like she had when she’d gotten her heart broken as a teenager.

“Shhh, it’s all going to be okay.”

“It’s not though. How can I go back to being just friends with him now?”

“I don’t believe for a second that the two of you were ever just anything,” Jackie said, moving so she could look Rose in the face. “I saw the two of you together. That man can’t keep his eyes off of you.”

“He was just playing the part, Mum. Nothing more.”

“That’s bollocks, and I think you know it. No one’s that good of an actor.”

“Mum…”

“Don’t you ‘mum’ me, Rose. I think I know a thing or two about what a man in love looks like and that John of yours is definitely in love with you.”

Rose shook her head. “He’s not, though.”

“I would’ve spotted the lie a mile away if he wasn’t,” Jackie said. “I knew you were hiding something but the two of you looked happy so I wasn’t going to push it yet.”

“I was so happy,” Rose admitted. “Getting to be with him like that was better than anything I’d dreamed up while telling you stories.”

“I think you need to talk to John after I leave tomorrow.”

“I don’t even know what I’d say. ‘Hey John, I know you were just being my pretend boyfriend to help me out but what do you think about giving it a go for real?’” Rose let out a harsh laugh. “I don’t think that’d go over well.”

“I think it’d go better than you think,” Jackie said.

“You don’t know him, Mum, not really. He’s kind and funny and a little bit mad and he’s never once given me any kind of sign that he wants to be anything more than my friend. I don’t want to push him away and lose my friend.”

“I don’t think you’d lose him. He’s probably over at his having this same crisis right now.”

Rose shook her head and leaned against Jackie’s shoulder again. “You’re just trying to make me feel better about managing to break my own heart.”

“Is it working?”

“Maybe.”

Jackie dropped a kiss on top of Rose’s head and then leaned forward to grab their mugs of tea and they sat in silence for a few minutes as they finished drinking, letting it soothe their ragged edges.

“I didn’t mean to drive you into lying to me,” Jackie said finally. “I just wanted to make sure you were happy and not lonely.”

Rose gave her a small smile. “I know, Mum. I’m sorry for not just telling you what was going on.”

“All’s forgiven now. I still just want you to be happy.” She paused for a second and then barrelled on. “I think being with John makes you happy. You always sounded so excited when you were talking about him. S’why I wanted to meet him while I was up here. I wanted to meet the man who was making my baby girl smile so much.”

“He makes me laugh, Mum. More than anybody I’ve ever met. He’s so brilliant and also ridiculous and sometimes that smile of his is enough to blind me.”

“Tell me about him? Without the lies this time.”

Rose smiled and told her that it wasn’t all that different but with a little bit of encouragement she started telling Jackie more stories about John and the fun they had together.

Rose was exhausted by the time she stopped talking an hour later.

“I still think you should talk to him,” Jackie said. “I think you’ll be surprised.”

“I’ll think about it.”

“That’s my girl.”

Rose smiled at her. It was still a wobbly thing but gloriously real. “Thank you, Mum.”

“Of course. Now, why don’t you call me a cab while I pop to the loo.”

Rose did just that and then walked Jackie down to the outside curb. “I’ll see you in the morning,” Rose said, giving her another hug as the cab pulled up. Jackie looked like she was going to say something else but just bid Rose goodnight and climbed in the taxi.

By the time Rose collapsed into bed, she was too tired from her emotional rollercoaster to mull things over any further. She fell asleep almost immediately.

She dreamed of John.

-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-

The next morning, Rose made her way over to Jackie’s hotel and then accompanied her to the train station. When it was time for her to go, Rose wrapped her in a fierce hug.

“I’m going to miss you,” she said.

“I always miss you,” Jackie replied. “Now, you go talk to that bloke of yours and get things straightened out.”

Rose started to protest but Jackie cut her off. “No, you’re going to talk to him. When you find someone who makes you feel like this,” she poked Rose in the middle of her chest, “you fight for them and you don’t let them go, no matter what.”

“Mum…”

“It’s precious, Rose. Don’t let it slip through your fingers because you’re scared.”

Rose just nodded and hugged her again.

Jackie kissed her cheek and they said their goodbyes before she headed towards her train to board.

Rose waited until the train pulled out of the station before leaving. He mind was whirling and a knot of anxiety built in her stomach as she walked back towards her flat and John.

She wasn’t sure what she was going to say to him, if she’d even be able to bring up the possibility of them being more than friends, but she had to go make sure that they were going to be okay.

She could live with a broken heart if it meant John was still in her life.

It felt a bit like déjà vu when she knocked on the door to John’s flat. Just like when she’d dragged him into this whole mess, she was nervous and holding onto a confession that could ruin their friendship.

He answered the door before her nerves could convince her that running off was her best option.

“Rose!” His grin was wide and welcoming but she couldn’t help but notice that it wasn’t as bright as usual. It looked like he hadn’t slept well, if the state of his hair and the bags under his eyes were anything to go by.

“Hey,” she said softly, giving him a smile of her own.

She wanted to lean up and kiss him but that was no longer allowed. Her hands twitched at her sides as she resisted the urge to reach for him.

The silence stretched between them for just a second too long.

“Come in?”

It was a plea for normalcy if she’d ever heard one. Rose swallowed her disappointment and followed him inside. John started flitting around the kitchen, putting the kettle on. He was twitchier than normal and Rose wondered if he was just as nervous as she was.

Maybe her mum was right about her not feeling this all on her own.

“Jackie on her way back to London?”

“So long as she got on the right train, she is,” Rose answered. “Thanks again for, you know, helping me out.”

He turned towards the kettle, tapping his fingers impatiently against the counter. “No problem. It was fun.”

“Hey, look at me,” Rose said, resting her hand on his shoulder. He turned slowly, an unreadable expression on his face. He looked like he was ready to run at the slightest provocation.

Rose knew the feeling.

“I mean it, John. Thank you.”

“It was really no burden on my part, Rose. It was-” he cut himself off, eyes skittering away from her to focus on anything else he could find in the kitchen. “It was fun, like I already said.”

“I had no clue you were such a good actor,” she ventured. She was going at this all roundabout but she wanted, she needed, to know that John was on the same page as her if she was going to say anything at all.

Jackie’s encouragement had given her just enough nerve to knock on his door, given her the hope that she’d been missing, but this… this had to be all her and John and neither of them were very good at this.

She watched nervously as John took a deep breath. “I wasn’t acting, Rose,” he admitted.

Rose couldn’t believe her ears. She had to have slipped into one of her daydreams or something, there was no way John was actually saying what she thought he was saying. “What?”

“I know this is probably not what you want to hear and I’m probably stepping over about five lines right now, believe me I’ve counted them, but being with you like this,” he reached for her hand, connecting the two of them, grounding them, “it didn’t require any acting on my part.”

“John…” Rose’s heart was beating double time and all of the words she wanted to say seemed to be sticking in her throat.

He pulled his hand away and ran it through his hair in agitation, making it stand on end even more than it already was. “I know, I shouldn’t have said anything. I’ll just...I’ll just go.” He hooked his thumb towards the door and stepped backwards.

“No! Don’t go,” Rose said, finally getting words out. “This is your flat after all so if anyone leaves, it’ll have to be me.” She laughed weakly but his expression didn’t change.

“I was just surprised is all. You’ve never shown any interest in…” she bit her lip, “well, in me, I guess.”

“Rose, I’m pretty sure I started falling for you the moment I almost knocked you down the stairs when you were moving in,” he said with a self-deprecating laugh. “I thought it was painfully obvious, really. Everything I did these past few days has been things I’ve thought about doing so many times that it was practically a habit anyways.”

“John, why do you think I asked you to help me out with all of this?” Rose asked.

He flinched. “I don’t know.”

“I made up this entire story about us dating and all because I wanted it to be true.” Rose stepped forward and reached for his hand. “You weren’t the only one who wasn’t acting.”

“Really?” The hope in his eyes made her heart flutter.

“Really.” Rose felt like her smile was too big for her face, like her happiness in this moment was too big for her body.

John inched closer, his own smile lighting up his face. “You never said anything.”

“Neither did you. We’re quite the pair, aren’t we?”

“Quite. “ His eyes flicked down to her lips. “Rose, I really want to kiss you.”

“Please do,” Rose said. She tilted her face up in further invitation.

John pulled her against him with their joined hands and threaded the fingers of his free hand through her hair before pressing his lips to hers. The feeling was halfway familiar after the last few days and the kisses they had shared.

This one was different though. Neither of them were hiding their emotions and it wasn’t a stolen moment -- it was a beginning.

A/N: and here we are at the end! thanks for the amazing reception y'all have given this fic, I really appreciate it!

I have a few ideas for some alternate/missing scenes, so if there's interest for more of these two dorks, those may make an appearance at some point!

[emilycl-aire-blog]

amazing things i discovered in june 2017

Goodbye, June. It was a sweet, emotive month for me. I found myself actually celebrating Summer Solstice, noticing the fireflies on the road, loving the warm rains that come from the Gulf to my own little place. Usually, I find my Junes hot and sticky with nothing to do, but this year my June was a beautiful time. Here’s some of the amazing things I discovered back in June!

1. Wonder Woman

I was excited about Wonder Woman when it was announced and every time a trailer dropped, my sisters and I would totally freak out. Personally, I prefer DC over Marvel films, DC comics over Marvel comics, etc. so I stood with Wonder Woman through the thick and thin of overreacting critics and hateful fans. And I was certainly not disappointed.

I went with my family and my boyfriend (it was his birthday so that made it even more special). And throughout every second, we all were totally delighted with Gal Gadot’s incredible performance as the Amazonian princess I’ve always been such a big fan of. The messages about love and compassion were powerful and really inspired me. Plus the general art of the film was so stunning – we walked out of the theater still saying, “Wow,” over and over again. 13/10, would recommend.

2. Edible cookie dough

This recipe was incredibly simple and delicious! I found it on Pinterest and did some adjustments to it to make it a little bit easier – you know, one of those “you know I can’t really think about this because I’m stressed out and that’s why I’m actually making edible cookie dough!” kind of recipes. If you wish to allow me to wreak emotional eating havoc on you, keep reading. If not, start scrolling now.

Edible Cookie Dough

2 cups all purpose flour

1 cup brown sugar

¼ cup granulated sugar

2 ½ tsp vanilla extract

1 cup chocolate chips

1 cup butter

2 ½ tbsp milk

Make sure the butter is softened. Put flour, brown sugar, granulated sugar all in a mixer bowl. Add vanilla extract and butter. Start mixing until it starts binding together. Add the milk (and you might want to put in a little bit more if you like your cookie dough a little more sticky). Add the chocolate chips. This makes 3 cups of cookie dough. It’s also really good with vanilla ice cream and some Hershey’s chocolate fudge stuff but it’s super rich so you might want to skip it. I myself had PMS the day I made it so I made sure to have two helpings.

Because it’s so rich, 3 cups is actually a lot. I doubled it and made 6 cups, thinking that it wouldn’t be enough, but between me and my boyfriend’s family, we only ended up eating about 2 ½ cups I guess. But then again, if you want a stash in your refrigerator for the hard days, be sure to double it. It’s good when it’s cold.

3. Skincare is super important

How could I say that after declaring my undying love for cookie dough? Ah, alas my hypocritical self.

Makeup and I have had a long relationship with each other. Some days I want to totally cake my skin and some days I want to go “naked-face”. I have oily/combination skin and it’s very sensitive to weather, what I’m eating (cough, don’t look at the cookie dough above), or even my cleansers. Lots of people have recommended to me using cleansers and toners that contain salicylic acid which is supposed to be good for acne prone skin. I actually find that it either burns my skin or dries it out so much - my skin feels it has to make up for lost oil. Cue the breakout and my frenzy to cover it up with BB cream and NYX.

But I think there’s a balance to everything, including cookie dough and makeup. So I’ve started using less makeup and more actual skincare. Instead of covering up blemishes and struggling to airbrush my face, I’m finding it more important to naturally clear them and prevent breakouts in the first place.

Introducing my new favorite facial mask:

Apple Cider/Baking Soda Mask

2 tbsp baking soda

1 tbsp apple cider vinegar

Mix well and apply to your face. After 5-10 minutes, rinse off with cold water.

Watch out because that baking soda sure does fizzy up at first! You can adjust the amount of apple cider vinegar if you want it to be a bit less thick or even add a little water. Find what works for you!

4. Second drafts must and WILL be embraced

Throughout all of June, I struggled with Project Meior. I reread my outline and found that it kind of sucked and I was pretty disappointed in myself and in the story. It froze me up. I ignored the pain I was feeling about it, the embarrassment I felt that my family had read this (and it sucks!) and the helplessness about what I should do next. But being able to write a blog post about it was kind of like giving myself a TED talk about how and why I should keep going with it. Acknowledging the fact that I have felt ashamed and disappointed with it is the only way up and I have done it and I will continue to do it.

So I’m going to find that new angle. That’s what new months are for.

5. Sometimes things change – for the better – and you never see it coming

At the beginning of 2017, if you told me that I was going to get the most fantastic digital painting program in the world (Paint Tool SAI that is) after being stuck in an artistic hole, I would not have believed you. If you told me that my family’s dog would have to be sent back to his breeder for being too aggressive with us – but that we would get the sweetest puppy right afterwards, I still would not have believed you.

If you told me that I wouldn’t be able to see my best friend at the end of the year like I planned – I would not have believed you.

If you told me that I would start dating a guy who was in my Sunday School class all along and that we would fall in love – I would not have believed you. In fact, I would have laughed at you when you said that, even after all the other things you’ve said. I would have hit you over the head with a pillow and say, “Are you crazy? We’re just friends and anyway, who would want to hang out with me???”

And yet all of these things have happened. Sometimes I only see hard times coming and never that good things will follow them. I know my Scripture pretty well, “God works all things for the good for those who love Him.” (Romans 8:28) But I never really believe it, grasp it with both hands, live on it until God starts showing it, playing it out in my life.

It’s like my guy told me, “It’s like God is looking at you and saying, ‘Um...sweetheart, actually...!’”

So I’m done trying to figure out God. I’m done living in my tiny little moment and thinking He can only fit in my box, where I am, right here. I’m done trying to look into the future and despairing at the fear that everything beautiful will fail.

When I’m afraid of losing everything around me, I’m looking more at me and the gifts and not at the all-powerful, all-loving, freeing Giver who has never failed me before. A Giver Whose gifts are not given in expectation of my failure.

This is a God who does not know reluctance.

Wherever you are right now, whatever situation you're in - know that God is blessing you and He will continue to bless you. No matter what you fear in your future or what you're dealing with from your past, there is nothing God cannot do, no situation He cannot heal.

Nothing is impossible with God and your current moment is not your forever.

This is a Giver who gives unconditionally because He just loves me – and you - like no one ever ever will.

I have no reason to fear the coming months because my God will never abandon me – even when times are hard. I will always be blessed no matter what. And that’s amazing grace.

What are some of the amazing things you discovered in June?