#guys and obvi thats their own journey

[misslobotomite]

realizing a pattern ...

[oswednesday]

My favorite Laius scene is when he feeds that one twink monster meat while the guy's trying to manipulate him. With the party in the background going full 'you do not have to to make him believe your on his side' and the twink having the face journey of forcing himself to eat it and go "yummy"

While laos just watches happily, presumedly fully aware that his new friend perhaps didn't want to. Linus just the kinda guy to walk up to someone and do some dom action but no one believes he tops.

They just look at his face and go "hours innocent looking, he must be a nice guy". Also the ask box broke 5 lines so so if there's Missouri i apologies

WARNING DUNGEON MESHI SPOILERS AHEAD

sorry to tease you but every way you’ve spelled his name in order: elvish/dwarven/halfling/gnomish the way i see it is, like he plays up not remembering kabru, because the person who is showing interest isnt the same guy who keeps bothering him, like that doesnt make “sense” but he does remember being “bothered” by kabru, he brushes him aside as he has this sort of energy that laios is just fully uninterested in but kabru is also Good with people, so good that it coaxes out this face of laios that he hides from others like that full frost, disgust stand on the top of a tower and be like youre all ants thats a bit dramatized but i think thats the intent

you’re kabru who can give everyone exactly what they want but doesnt know how to express his own heart's desires and this guy who is charming and bubbly with everyone blasts you with a cold shoulder this guy who lives solely for what he wants, you are kabru and you know he has no actual connections cause youve like ye old deep web stalked him but you cant really get much deeper than that because you’re kabru and you dont have any action connections with anyone either despite how much you’re there for everyone and how you have all their needs memorizes and he isnt ready to deal with that! it isnt until he meets mithrun and while hes still doing that im caring for you its like he doesnt have to pretend to be a billion things like tough and mean he doesnt want to be, he wants to be like a soft young man with friends who like him for who he is, he knows mithrun isnt planning to twist the knife in his direction unlike laios just doesnt seem to need anything and has a knife to twist

of course, he does! have needs, but its like the same thing with shuro on a level, he was keeping close to him cause of his nearness to falin, like would he have “let” falin be taken away in marriage to another country? um nope your brother in law is here too haha! most likely im like he says ill let falin know your feelings not you tell falin yourself when we get her back like, as if! but its also something he easily gets caught up in like oh your antagonist feelings towards me really ran that deep then show them? whats wrong with you why lie about what you want? you want falin so you must also want me, a world where he isnt the center of her world does Not exist to him (even before they fight we know his feelings are like this cause hes like shuro you look great, like oh you want this man to die and be dead)

like to laios kabru’s behaviors are predictable, human and boring, hes uninterested, but laios has this moment of like Oh! i can give that back! i can give you something human and predictable, And he does and its obvi that it was a thing he was just doing, even if he “meant” it, he shows a truer feeling to izutsumi when shes like DIDNT YOU PROMISE!! ; 0 ; when hes about to do something crazy town and hes like ah well have that dinner for me and leaves and he doesnt bother hiding stuff from her like he respects her beast self and relies on it so much that she can tell the moment hes off, there’s a lot of background stuff we dont really See much like mithrun’s story because it wouldnt "make for a good story", its like roleplaying players do between sessions with each other or with the dm or written documents it creates a very cool vibe i think in a different story it would be like this massive hole in the writing but its filled in by the familiarity of a roleplay group? Its a lovely tender story but i also liken it to like a theatre of cruelty, its wild, its questioning popular spiritual beliefs, theology, he literally does a dante’s inferno painting thing

[humbughana]

a good start

Oh good lord, the final part.  Start here obvi - part one, part two

Warnings: Drinking, cursing, throwing up (yuck), pretty mellow honestly i think thats all. just enjoy it bestie.

words- 2.7k

are you kidding me, he’s so hot 🧍🏻‍♀️

“No, Rafe-”

“Already on the way, Lo. You’re not staying at that house.”

“He’s not a stranger.” She mumbled and he selectively chose to ignore her and instead told her to stay put before hanging up. 

“Well?” Sadie and Aiden leaned back into the room and Lola only fell backwards with a groan, “he’s on the way,” she mumbled and Sadie let out a little laugh before covering her mouth before straightening back out, “Sorry.” Aiden smirked as well, “Not with Cameron huh?”

“I hate you and your stupid house,” Lola grumbled and Aiden let out a laugh, “You’re boyfriend is on-”

“Shut up, Aiden.” Lola leaned up on her elbows with a glare and Sadie had the nerve to grin. The boy only sighed dramatically with a smile, “It's like i've known you guys forever. With the way you two speak to me,” He threw an arm around Sadie who stared at him with something in her eyes that had Lola watching the two.

Sadie laughed and leaned into him further, “You should be flattered. We’re very picky.” Aiden quirked up an eyebrow with a smirk, “is that so?” Lola rolled her eyes at the two of them and plopped back down, still dizzy and sickly. Enough that she mumbled for her friend who was immediately at her side and walked her back to the bathroom to sit in front of the toilet. Lola swayed slightly and Lola knelt down with her, “You know,” Lola shook her head desperately, already knowing what she was gonna say, “I could do it for you.” Sadie held up two fingers and made a gagging face to which Lola glared, “Get away from me with those.”

“Fine,” Sadie shrugged, “I’ll get you some water,” She swiftly left the room to go to the kitchen with Aiden and god knows what else as Lola heaved slightly, trying to compose herself. She must have laid her head down on the floor and dozed off because she woke up to faint arguing. Lola opened her eyes to see Rafe walking towards her as Sadie crossed her arms, a bitter look on her face.

Rafe noticed she was conscious now and softened slightly, “Hey Lo,” He knelt down beside her and pushed the hair off her face, “How you feeling?” He looked over her body as if to make sure she was in one piece. Lola only shook her head, staring up at him and he turned his head to glare at her friend, “This is your fault.”

Sadie scoffed and snarled at him, “If anything, this is your fault. If you weren't such a fucking asshole-”

“Hey, hey-” Aiden spoke lowly and must have pushed the direction back to Lola because Rafe was now pulling her to sit up before sliding his hands under her. He swiftly picked her up without a struggle, “Sades,” Lola’s hand reached out for her friend as Rafe walked past Aiden and Sadie. She only shook her head, “You go ahead, Lo. I’ll be okay.” Lola frowned but nodded, her head then falling to Rafe’s chest. 

When she opened her eyes again, she was curled up in the front seat of Rafe’s familiar car. He must have noticed her looking around hesitantly because he looked sideways at her with a smile, “Hey, baby.” 

Lola shook her head, “Stop it.” Rafe frowned slightly as he pulled into his driveway and put the car into park. 

“What's up with us, Lo?” Rafe asked quietly, “What happened?”

Lola straightened in her seat, slightly surprised but still mourned their friendship, “Rafe-

“I talked to Topper,” His hands tightened over the steering wheel like he was struggling with his own thoughts, “I-” He looked over at her with such an intense expression she paused, “I’m so sorry, Lo. I didn’t even realize, all those years,” 

She dug her palms into her eyes as they fell into silence, processing his words, the same ones she wanted to hear for years and somehow it didn’t feel as good as she hoped. 

Rafe silently got out of the car and then her door opened as he helped her out and began the journey to his room. Lola couldn’t stop thinking about what she should say or or how to act but as he opened his door for her she blurted out, “Are you going to stay?” It was all wrong as Rafe looked at her with a sad expression and she flinched back, walking to the bed, “Um, okay. That's fine.” She nodded but her eyes filled with tears as her lip wobbled, “I get it.”

He watched her with wide eyes and crossed the room to her quickly kneeling down in front of her, “Lo,” He placed a hand on her cheek, catching her falling tears as she sniffled, “What’s this about, really.”

He never in a million years expected her to react this way and it confused him as she looked away, “you keep leaving me,” she shrugged still slightly intoxicated, “I’m always here and you never see me,”

“I always see you, baby,” Rafe grabbed her hand but she shook him off, “You’re being mean,” she tried to stand but he refused to move so she sank back down. He frowned further, “Mean? How am I being mean?” 

Lola looked away but this time he grabbed her chin and made her look at him as if to say, ‘yeah we are doing this tonight’. 

“Help me understand this, Lo. I don’t want to keep fighting with you.” Lola bit her nail, anxiously fidgeting as he stared her down, “Just tell me what to do,” 

“You can’t do anything,” Lola finally spoke and he frowned, “I mean- It’s not your problem. I just need to figure some things out.”

She was proud at the vagueness but he scoffed, “You are my problem. I want to fix things.” He spoke softly and smiled at her but Lola’s chest just cracked open further and she was glad to feel the rush of irritation instead of the present sadness.

“You can’t help me, Rafe.” She snapped at him and he finally stood up, slightly shocked but narrowed his eyes at her, “You’re so stupid,” She crossed her arms like a child to match the way the childish sentence came out of her mouth; like a pouting child. But she was drunk and slightly heartbroken and Rafe was so painfully blind, she thought it was the least of their worries.

Rafe turned around so his back was to her and placed both hands behind his neck, letting out a frustrated laugh, “Stupid? I’m stupid now?”

“Yeah,” Lola nodded, standing up as well, letting the heat take over her, “You are stupid actually!” Her voice continued to raise.

Rafe looked at her with an unbelieving expression; like she had lost her mind but he was also mad. Mad that she was keeping things from him and wouldn’t let him fix it, “How am I the stupid one?” 

The two of them could imagine laughing at this fight later and their use of such a childish word like they were kids again.

“Because-”

Rafe pushed and pushed, “Because what? Huh?”

“Because I’ve loved you since we were fourteen,” Lola yelled at him with red cheeks and her eyes began to water again as he tried to process the words, slowly turning around, “And you never even looked at me!” Lola let out a hoarse laugh pointing to herself, “I waited and waited for you every time you pushed me away!” She was crying now as Rafe’s eyes widened at her confession. He was expecting anything but this as she sat down on the bed, burying her head in her hands. 

To be completely honest Rafe had thought about the two of them together, had heard it from his parents and even hers multiple times throughout their lives but he never thought she would be into him in that way. They had been best friends so he pushed the idea into the back of his mind to avoid ruining everything and now his heart broke at the thought of her struggling all these years with feelings he forced himself to forget, for her. 

So he started towards her slowly, “Lola-”

She looked up at him with a look of such sorrow his own chest felt like it caved in, “You don’t have to say anything,” She spoke in almost a whisper, “I know-

“You really don’t.” Rafe sat down on the bed next to her and felt her eyeing him uncomfortably, “You have no idea, Lo.”

“No idea about?” She trailed off still trying to piece together her pride from her confession. Rafe turned towards her, “I know how you feel, I do.”

“But?” Lola tried to let out a laugh but it felt all wrong. 

“No buts,” He grabbed her hand and she blinked in surprise, “I never thought you would feel this way about me. I didn’t let myself even wish for it.”

“What are you talking about?” Lola asked, not being able to process what he was saying now. So Rafe grabbed her face and gently brushed off the tears that lingered before speaking again, “Lola I’ve loved you for a long time, I can’t even remember a time I wasn't in love with you.” Her breath caught as he held her face still smoothing his thumb over her cheeks. 

“Don’t lie to me,” She pushed at his hands but he held her in place, “You called me a whore,”

Rafe cringed, “I’m sorry, Lo, really. I hated seeing you with him and I was mad. I wanted to hurt you like it hurt me.” 

Lola only tilted her chin down, “That doesn’t make it okay, Rafe.” He sighed, “I know. I don’t know how to make it right but I will never make that mistake again,”

“You’re the worst,” Lola couldn’t help the little delusional smile on her face as it grew and he tilted his head with slight amusement, “Something funny, baby?”

She sobered up quickly, the smile sliding off her face, “You mean it, Rafe?” Lola asked, “You swear?” She held up her pinky finger between then to which he softly smiled, “I swear Lola,” He interlocked their pinkies and she forgot how to breath, “I love you,”

“Say it again,” She couldn’t help the little grin on her face, Rafe only rolled his eyes and pulled her in before she could react, kissing her as her heart threatened to beat out of her chest he pulled back slightly and spoke against her lips, “I love you, Lo.” 

It didn’t quite make up for everything and all the lost time but it sure as hell was a good start.

~

The next day Lola woke up to Rafe wrapped around her in his bed and she turned in his hold to face him. Her fingers traced around his face until his eyes blinked opened tiredly but he smiled softly, the sun shining in faintly over both of them, “morning baby,”

Lola rolled her eyes playfully but shifted closer into him and buried her face into the crook of his neck, smiling into his skin like a giddy little girl. But she was giddy and overjoyed that this was happening and that it was real. As real as the feeling of Rafe running his hands up her back to rest behind her neck as he held her close.

“we need to get up,” she mumbled into his skin reluctantly but today was Sunday and tradition holds that all of their friends get up and go to their favorite place for brunch; no matter how hungover or tired you were, “It’s sunday.” Lola groaned, pressing her lips on his collarbone.

“They won't miss us,” Rafe pulled her head back slightly and kissed her until she almost forgot about the day so she pulled away breathless and pinched his hip, “we have to,” she sang and sat up on her knees, “Sadie will kill me,”

“She’s going to kill me too,” Lola frowned but a slow grin appeared as she imagined it, “All the more reason for us to go.”

Rafe rolled flat on his back with his hands behind his head and Lola couldn’t help but stare at his bare chest and flexed arms, her eyes trailing over him as he smirked, “You sure you don’t want to stay here?”

“Fucker, get up.” Lola threw a pillow at him and rolled off the bed and rummaged through his closet hoping to find clothes for her to wear. Rafe walked in behind her, pressing his chest into her back as his hands wrapped around her waist, “Rafe,” she warned but her stomach bloomed with nerves.

He said nothing as his head dipped down to her neck and littered open mouthed kisses over her skin before sucking slightly. Lola swayed slightly, forgetting all about clothes and leaning into him until his teeth grazed her sensitive skin and she gasped. Pushing away she spun around, “Clothes. Now!” Lola pushed him away as she tried to breathe normally, her skin still humming from his touch. 

By some miracle they made it to brunch, late but there, as they saw all of their friends sitting at the usual large table. Eve, Sadie, Kelce, and Topper were arguing about something when Rafe And Lola sat down. Sadie tracked their movements and narrowed her eyes at Rafe who tried to smile at her. 

“Hey Sades. How was your night?” Lola asked with a smirk and Sadie only grinned with a shrug, sipping her mimosa, “A lady never tells,”

“Well, you aren’t a lady,” Kelce rolled his eyes and Eve laughed as Sadie shot him a dirty look before leaning back all smug, “Fine,” she crooned,  “should I start with how big his dick is? Or how good the sex was?” All the boys cringed and Eve turned slightly red, “I can walk you all through it, if you want, of course.” Lola laughed and winked at her friend as everyone mumbled a collective ‘no’.

Lola looked around and made eye contact with Topper whom she smiled softly at, “hey top,” He tilted his head at her with a knowing look to which she sheepishly looked down. Rafe’s hand fell on her exposed thigh and she looked at him as he laughed with their friends. 

“You look like you had fun last night too, Lo.” Sadie looked at her and Lola didn’t really know how to respond because her and Rafe didn’t really agree on what to say to them, “I mean, that hickey looks pretty-

“Hickey?” Lola asked, a hand flying to the side of her neck to which Topper just grabbed her wrist and moved it to the other side of her neck with a smirk, “Other side, Lo.”

Her face turned impossibly red as she really gave them away when she turned to glare at Rafe, “Seriously?” Everyone at the table went silent and Lola looked at them all cautiously until Sadie busted out laughing, “fucking finally.”

Topper nodded and clicked his glass with Sadie’s as every nodded in agreement, Rafe squeezed her leg as Lola covered her face, elbows on the table, “good god.”

Rafe just smiled at her as if they weren't being teased and pulled her in, placing a sweet kiss on her lips, in front of everyone. Before she could even begin to be embarrassed everyone let out a groan, “Is this how it’s going to be now when we hang out?” Kelce mourned as Sadie wrapped and arm around his shoulders, “Don’t worry Kelce. You’ll find your person someday too,” The boy only shot her a withering look at her as she grinned. 

Rafe was Lola’s person and as Rafe rested his hand behind her chair, she looked at him again surrounded by all their friends and felt a love she had never felt before. She felt complete as if all her dreams had come true overnight but in all honesty, they kind of did. Lola kissed his cheek before falling into a conversation with her friends as they all ate and drank through the morning sun. 

Again, nothing was perfect yet nor would it ever be with all of them, but this was a good place to start.

x

@littlementalpolaroids​