#guy who never talks on main with a massive personal post outta nowhere... forgive

[peachdeluxe]

This was going to be formatted as art, but I just have a lot to say. Please forgive a long vent-y (but positive!) textpost instead! a little update on me and my work vvv

It's probably evident if you've followed me a while, but I've had a really really bad past two years. Things are finally starting to look up again.

Stress from my home life & financial issues and grief caused a very difficult onset and worsening of psychotic depression, and I reached my breaking point recently. I made the decision to give myself and more hands-on treatment one more try, and for the first time in my life I feel like something is working. I am getting better! It's only been a short time but I really feel like I've finally been given my life back.

All of this to say: first of all, thank you to anyone who has helped me raise funds to keep myself afloat financially, or sent me a kind message, or shared my work. Aside from just having a heads up where clients can see it in case I've missed messaging anyone with updates, I am posting something very personal here because the kindness of my followers here in particular has very tangibly saved my life.

Second, getting better means I can, I hope, get back to doing art full-time again. I realized I've felt a massive disconnect with what I draw for a very long time because of how bad things have been going. I feel real clarity now about what I want to make, and I don't think I've been secure and well enough to listen to that feeling before. Maybe my art won't actually look different in any way externally after saying all of this! I still like to draw fun and bright cartoons, and I don't see that changing. I just feel capable of and feel a desire to make different, more 'me' artwork. I hope it's okay I'll be drawing different stuff going forward, a lot more original work than fanart. thank you very much for reading