#guilldwarsgirl rants

[guildwarsgirl]

So, I'm gonna mention something an ex best friend told me once, and it pretty much explains why I'm so self-conscious about writing fanfiction, roleplaying, and sharing my OCs on sites like Tumblr.

I won't reveal her real name, cause she doesn't deserve the attention for being a complete fucking bitch and treating me like trash, so we're going to refer to her as Ex-Bestie or EB.

So, I used to share a lot of my work with EB, and she was always supportive and encouraging me to continue doing what I love.

But then one day, she stopped. She said, and I quote: "The fact that basically all your RPs and fictions revolve around your characters' marriages with NPCs, and don't get me wrong, everyone dreams about love and adventure, it's a normal thing, but what you do seems like hoarding..."

I was upset by this, and she kept going.

She complained that "All your OC stories follow the same pattern of your OC falling in love, getting married and having children." Well, I'm sorry princess, this is just something I'm comfortable with!

EB: "And honey... You basically always get your way in RPs tbh. You know, I always supported you in this (creating ships with OCs) because I thought it can be a good way to process what you've been through and to explore your wants and needs. But it seems to me that what you're doing is repeating the same old scheme with every character of yours, I haven't seen much character developement or action any other than "claiming" a certain NPC and start a family. And like I said, there is nothing wrong with this. But the amount and the way you do it makes me concerned that it's rather like hoarding, which is a sign of lacking something emotionally in most cases."

and this, was where I drew the line, especially after she compared me to a former friend of ours who was arrested for having child p*rn on his laptop. I'm nothing like that. She said other things as well, but I rather not go into it anymore.

So, I did the right thing, and dropped her like a Hot Pocket. I've never been happier. This is the reason why I don't really post about my OCs, and why I'm so self-conscious about my writing these days. She made me depressed, she made me hate myself, and she made me want to die

It's because of her.

Rant over.