#guess what? she just said — ih she says ehatever tf in her anger— and then she fucking hung up. I — i don't know what to do anymore. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

blueprint-han · 4 years ago

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Honestly I can't believe I'm saying this but, if you have no fucking care about your children's mental health and can't control your tongue when you're in a bad mood to the point where you lash out on innocent children, please never ever have children.

#parents tw #ugh gosh #i feel really bad for constantly venting here but like... this is the only place where i know i can without being judged #2021 has already started shitty :\ i miss my friends tbh 😔#first of my eczema is back but my mom doesn't acknowledge it... one part of my glasses is broken and my power has increased but my mom neve #takes me to the eye doctor for a diagnosis and I've been telling her for a whole 5 months #and the eczema Just.... ugh i feel so disgusting #my thighs are Just— disgusting and fat and covered in marks and patches yet my mom refuses to take me to a fucking dermatologist because #“what if he's a male dermatologist how are u gonna take off ur pants and sho him?” I'm just— ugh i feel so sad... and disgusting #but srsly tho why did my mom give birth to me— I'm just some lazy ass who doesn't study enough and doesn't work out enough and just—#I'm not a good child. i shouldn't have been born to her. I'm fat and ugly and lazy. and whenever i genuinely got motivated to exercise and #get fit... guess what? she'd say “your exercise is showing no progress in doubting what you're doing” and when i get demotivated and stop #exercising she'll be like— oh my gosh you were actually reducing so nicely when u were exercising! you've just become lazy and you're dumb #and lemme make u feel like more shit because u tried and i made u stop trying but that's ur fault because ir demotivated easily.#I'm just— so lonely. yes. I'm a bad child. I'm lazy. i don't do ANY chores. I'm fat. I'm ugly. i deserve to jump off the balcony like u sai #i should. (dw I'm not implying suicide i really need to get this off ny chest #i wish i had anyone irl i could go to and speak about my concern without them saying— but she's just saying it for your good :D you're bein #an overdramatic bitch :D. i told my gramma the other day that my mom had implied killing myself when she was angry and yelling at me — and #guess what? she just said — ih she says ehatever tf in her anger— and then she fucking hung up. I — i don't know what to do anymore.#i wish this family never had me. i wish me and my ugly-fat-disgusting self had never been here.and isntead of me my mom could've had some #slim pretty girl who does the chores and is active and gets perfect grades— because sure as hell i can never satisfy her. I'm just— ugh.#don't even get me STARTED on ny dad. he doesn't even care for me lol. i can consider him out of my life because he doesnt give one fuck abo #t me #anyways that's it. pls don't dm me about this if u aren't a moot or a fren snd even if u are a moot/close fren pls don't except a reply #because i have no energy snd wanna ✨ disappear ✨ rn.#dawn.txt #tbd #mention of Suicide tw #suicide tw #fatphobia tw

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