#guard 11

[missbellie]

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Ultraviolence- Kang Noeul

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pair: Kang No-eul × F!Reader

context: part.2 of my other imagine

warning: hair pulling, bad word (just one sentence), possessive and obsessive jealousy

words: 4,5k

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Two weeks passed. No-eul watched you walk past the store every morning, heading to the café in front of the clothing store, with only a road separating the stores. No-eul noticed that you worked there, simply because you came in at the same time as her, and left work half an hour after her. As soon as she noticed this, she started to leave work in a hurry and go to your cafe, sitting at the tables in the back, watching you work, every move you made. Everything watched by her. She also noticed that you hated your boss, because every time she spoke to you, you would give a fake smile and turn away, rolling your eyes. She loved watching you. It was, however, one afternoon that you finally noticed the woman.

You recognized the face, but you couldn't remember where it came from. Ignoring that, you walked over to the girl, smiling slightly. "Hi... Would you like to order something?" You asked, with your notepad and pen in hand. No-eul smiled slightly and replied, "A chocolate donut and a black coffee, please." You nodded, writing down the order. Before leaving, you looked at the girl and analyzed her, "You work at the store in front, don't you?" You ask, tilting your head slightly. No-eul's smile widens and she nods. "Yes, that's me." You bite your lip, smiling and letting out a nasal laugh. "What is your name?" "No-eul...And yours?" No-eul asks, leaning slightly over the table, curious "Min-young..." You answer and No-eul analyzes you "Nice name... It suits you" You blushed and smiled shyly "Your order will arrive soon"

You say, and head to the counter, still slightly red from the woman's compliment. She exuded a confidence you had never seen before, it was like nothing affected her. It both delighted and frightened you, in a way. You left it aside, starting to prepare the order for No-eul, and other pending customers. You just needed to finish those last few orders and your shift would be over, and you would finally go home to see your little dog, Molly. A sigh left your mouth when you realized your shift was over. You took off your apron and let down your hair, looking around the space, noticing that No-eul was still there, sitting on the same place. "We're closing... Do you need anything?" No-eul raised her head and smiled, standing up. “To take a girl home, if she accepts…” You raised your eyebrows in surprise, and lets out a nasal laugh, grabbing your coat. "I don't think she sees any problem with that..." You say, and No-eul smiles, walking towards the door. "Ladies first." She says, opening the door and making room for you to leave. You smile shyly, stepping out the door, waiting for No-eul.

We can say that these little "dates" were repeated for two months. No-eul was amazing to you: She wrote you letters by hand, your Fridays were spent at a restaurant you both liked, and your Saturday and Sunday mornings were lazy, with No-eul's wet kisses on her neck and shoulder. You noticed No-eul's jealousy. The shape bit the inside of her cheek whenever she saw you talking to someone she didn't know who it was - that is, everyone - This slight possessiveness was something you happily accepted, and sometimes ignored. The request for a date was not something surprising, after all, you were actually being treated as a married person. Over time, there were some things that bothered you a little.

No-eul started to get more jealous, checking her phone every day, even asked you to change jobs so she could "spend more time with you". She even tried to hire someone to walk your dog Molly so you wouldn't have to leave the house, but giving up your dog was not in the cards. Over time, things got...intense. One day, you were putting on your coat, getting ready to take Molly for a walk, when you felt No-eul grab your hair, pulling you back. You groaned in pain, and No-eul rested your head on her shoulder, and whispered in your ear "Where the fuck are you going, Min-young?" No-eul whispered in your ear, she seemed calm, but to you, who knew her quite well, you knew that there was anger in that whisper.You didn't have to say anything: Molly appeared, and barked, wagging her tail. No-eul understood and let go of her hair and took Molly's leash "I'll go with her, babe. You stay." No-eul said wearing her coat. It wasn't the first, nor the last time that his displays of love were a little... rough, so to speak. But every time she hit you, or pulled your hair, it was like a kiss. A real kiss of love. That's how you knew she loved you, in her own way.

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a/n: that one is so small, someone kill me, please

THAT'S IT BABIES, I'M ALREADY WRITING THE NEXT ONE

Hope you liked it, xoxo!

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[mayahawkesfirstwife]

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How they react to you having nipple piercings

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Pairings: Se-mi x Fem! Reader, Kang Sae-byeok x Fem! Reader, Kang No-eul x Fem! Reader

Summary: How they react to your nipple piercings when they are in a relationship with you.

Warnings: Smut, nipple sucking, etc.

Author Note: Trying something new with these preferences with my three wives!! Lmk if I should do more and maybe request similar things if you’d like!!

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Se-mi/Player 380:

She’s freaking the FUCK out.

She was laying in bed when you open the bathroom door, tilting your head.

“Wanna join me in the shower?”

She sat up so quick.

“Yes! I’d never say no to that.”

Even though it was the first time you’d asked her that question.

You drop your towel and got into the shower, she stares with her jaw dropped.

She regretted every fucking you with your bra on the first couple of times you had sex.

You peak out of the shower curtain with wet hair after she was standing there for a whole minute.

“You coming, baby?”

She never undressed so quickly, she got in and her hands grab your tits, leaning in and wasting no time using her tongue to lick over your nipples.

“Fuck, Se-mi…what’s gotten into you?”

“You never told me your nipples were pierced. I would have done this a long time ago.”

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Kang Sae-byeok/Player 067:

She was sleeping over at your house and you started to feel comfortable around your new girlfriend so when you changed you put on a white tank top and wore no bra.

Her eyes trail down to your boobs almost immediately.

She just stares.

No expression on her face, she just stares at your tits.

You catch her obviously.

“Sae…what are you lookin’ at?”

You cross your arms over your chest, feeling uncomfortable under her gaze.

“I’m sorry, it’s just…your nipples are pierced?”

“Oh, yeah…they are.”

“Can I see?”

In the next five minutes your laid down while her mouth is attached to your nipple, sucking and licking over the metal bars.

“Fuck, don’t stop…”

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Kang No-eul/Guard 11

It was when you were about to have sex for the first time.

She WAS being so gentle and loving, until she watched you look up at her as you unclasp your bra and toss it aside.

Her eyes are met with your pretty boobs, nipples adored with two metal bars.

Her eyes darken.

“Who the fuck did you get these for?”

“Oh, so you’re a slut, hm?”

She grabs your boobs and squeezed them harshly.

She grabs your nipples are starts squeezing and licking them.

She fucked you HARD and called you a slut the entire time for having such piercings.

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[457brainrot]

I kind of started shipping these two, I don't even know why

[ones-g]

Yes, I can do both, please!!! a chance

cc: pr4das

[067supremacy]

Warnings: Kang No-Eul worshipping every inch of you + some smut at the end (fingering, eating out) 18+

Worship you

Another day spent in that extremely hot suit No Eul wore at the theme park on a daily basis went by and fed up would be a massive understatement for what she was feeling right now. At the very least she was done for the day and happily heading back to her shared apartment with you, her partner in crime.

As you lift yourself off the couch to peek out of the curtains situated at the front of your apartment building, you catch a glimpse of the car you recognise as No Eul's pull into the parking lot. She had been away for work for far too long. A whole 12 hours without her were driving you insane, but the moment you had been waiting for was finally here.

You wore very little, leaving nothing to the imagination, a see-through white top that belonged to No Eul and nothing else, you wait patiently for her to come through that door, a couple of minutes go by before the sound of her keys clamouring at the door fill the empty void of silence. The door slowly opens to reveal her in all her glory. Going off the look on her face today had been a particularly tiring day, and you knew that meant one of two things, you were either going to spend the night cuddled on the couch, watching a series on Netflix or your body was about to become a canvas for No Eul's attention.

It took a matter of seconds after welcoming her back with an embrace to realise what the night held in store when her lips pressed against your neck and you heard her mutter against your skin "mmm missed your neck" Her teeth scraped lightly against your skin giving you goosebumps in the process, you loved her like this, like she was being particularly needy just for you. Excitement was soon building in your body at the usual process that she took in this situation, you melt into her strong grip trusting your whole being in whatever she has to offer.

Kang No Eul knew exactly what she wanted, she tugs at the hem of her shirt that you are wearing, silently signalling for you to shed the clothing for her which you quickly oblige although the short break in context between her lips and your neck makes her whine out wanting nothing more than to be completely attached to you. Her hands are all over you, running along your sides, every curve being explored for at least the 90th time, she grips your ass in both hands before forcing her tongue into your mouth, there was no fight for dominance, you would be a fool to fight her after the long day she had, you just wanted her to unwind in her way.

"Get on the fucking bed" she commands bluntly which you quickly action for her. "Front or back first?" you ask knowing she sometimes prefers to start this a different way. She admires your body from afar as she follows your path to the bedroom you share. "Get on your front first." she replies completely entranced by the sight of your ass in front of her.

Once situated on the bed front first, you feel the mattress dip as she joins you on the bed, her hands travel up your back before taking both of your hands in hers and placing them above your head as she commands you once more "Keep them there, I don't want to see them move until I tell you to move them." she whispers into your ear from her dominating place above you. She kisses your ear and moves to the back of your neck where she plants another firm kiss. Your mind is foggy with need but you can hear her muttering to herself in the background. "Why the fuck can't I just do this all day?" she asks herself or at least you think that's what she said.

Her kisses continue going down your spine, she kisses all the way down to the small of your back before licking her way back up your spine making you shiver and your pussy pulse with need. "Fuck I love your body." she spits out in the heat of kisses to your skin, the blazing touch of her lips being felt all over.

The sight was a picture-perfect opportunity for her, the moonlit bedroom doused your back in natural light, your back was slick from her saliva going up and down your spine but not an uncomfortable amount, just enough that the cool air hit it in just the right spot to contribute to goosebumps you have.

She kneads your ass with both hands and licks her lips at the sight *smack* her hand comes down sharply onto your bare skin making her handprint look slightly visible. "Mmm, fuck." she moans to herself loving this a bit too much.

*smack*

*smack*

*smack*

Blow after harsh blow follow on your sensitive skin, you both moan after every blow, the pain is the best pleasure in this situation, your ass is so sensitive but the feeling of her tongue against the damaged skin soothes it only slightly, she then takes it a step further and plants her teeth into your ass leaving an obvious bite mark on the opposite side to where her hand print is situated. "Marked as mine, just as you should be." she admires your state from her position, in the faint moonlight she can see your wetness beginning to drip onto the bed sheets making her mouth water all the more.

“Wet, all for me? You are adorable” she whispers more to herself. She decides to swipe her tongue at your dripping wet cunt, moaning at the taste of you in her mouth. “So good, fuck.”

“Get on your back for me, baby,” Kang No Eul commands which you instantly follow. Her eyes light up at the moment she witnesses your tits all for her to use. She instantly attaches to your left breast. Sucking and licking at the nipple while she uses her fingers to tease your other nipple “Mm fuck,” you moan which makes No Eul smirk in response “Enjoying yourself?” she asks knowing full well you wouldn't respond in this moment. She lets your nipple go and begins to leave little bites along your tits. You were enjoying this way too much. She is so good at making you fall apart piece by piece.

She licks the valley between your tits and marks her way down, kissing and licking your stomach, moaning all the same. “Love your body,” she says. Her movements are so predatory and calculated you can't help but look for some pressure between your legs luckily for you her knee is in close proximity, you begin to grind against her leg relieving some of the pressure but it isn't enough. “Mmm getting fucking needy for me now? Want me to fuck you now?” she says but no matter your response you knew you would be getting fucked either way.

“Sure, I’ll give you a break today.” she moves into position, between your legs which she places on her shoulders. She wastes no time feasting on your wet cunt. She harshly sucks on your clit before shoving her tongue deep inside your cunt.

Her tongue works wonders, leading your back to arch off the bed, she eats you so well, it isn't long before you are on the edge, she continues to lick and suck until your cum floods her mouth which she easily swallows with glee. Your back hits the bed as you pant heavily but before you know it she has entered two fingers in your pussy which she begins to pump in and out of you at a furious pace. Once again, it isn't long before you are cumming for her, You cum so hard you almost black out for a quick second.

“I love you so much, Y/N.” You hear her whisper just before you fall asleep neatly cuddled into her side as she holds you secure in her arms.

[meadowfics]

airport headcannons

kang no-eul x f!reader with features of mom!kang no-eul x stepmommy!reader x no-eul's baby

travel days with your wife always go according to plan

warnings: no squid games. reader isn't just a step-mom she's the mommy who stepped up (sorry continue reading)

you and no-eul always arrive at incheon airport three hours early, per no-eul’s strict itinerary.

she’s dressed comfortably yet nicely, a matching sweatsuit set with nice thick cotton material that is always black or grey.

you’re usually in comfy layers.

for example a soft cardigan, joggers, and sneakers.

no-eul insists on checking every detail at the self-service kiosk instead of going up to check in with an actual person.

your wife's fingers fly over the screen to confirm your business class seats to paris.

you lean against her shoulder,

“we could’ve done this online, love,”

she just hums, too focused on reading the tickets to reply.

you sneak a kiss to her cheek while she’s distracted, organizing the boarding passes.

no-eul's lips twitch into a small smile, but she scolds you softly.

“not here, y/n, people are watching.”

you grin, unbothered, knowing she loves it.

at security, no-eul’s personal and carry on bag is a model of efficiency.

all liquids are in a clear pouch, electronics neatly stacked.

yours is a chaotic mess of snacks and tangled earphones.

she sighs, helping you reorganize it after security while you steal a gummy from your stash and pop it in her mouth.

that earns you a playful glare.

in the business class lounge, no-eul sips an espresso, reviewing your france itinerary on her tablet.

you sprawl across the plush seat beside her, head on her lap, scrolling through your phone.

she absentmindedly strokes your hair, murmuring about the louvre’s opening hours.

you tease her about her insistence on business class, whispering,

“admit it, you just wanted to cuddle me, your lovely wife, in those fancy seats.”

she blushes but retorts,

“it’s about legroom, y/n, not cuddling.”

you both know she’s lying when she pulls you closer during boarding.

on the plane, no-eul takes the window seat.

she claims she needs to “strategize her jet lag.”

you don’t mind, slipping your hand into hers as the plane takes off.

no-eul's grip tightens slightly, and you trace circles on her palm to calm her nerves.

mid-flight, you share a blanket in your spacious seats.

both of your legs are tangled under it.

no-eul pretends to read her book, but you catch her stealing glances at you, her eyes soft.

you lean over, kissing her jaw while whispering, “you’re so pretty when you’re trying to focus.”

when seo-ae, no-eul's daughter from back home in north korea, enters the picture, things shift.

your first trip with your stepdaughter was to tokyo.

a four hour place ride.

during that trip, the two-year-old seo-ae stayed attached to you.

the toddler's tiny arms loved wrapping around your neck.

no-eul watched, her expression unreadable but her eyes warm as you bounce seo-ae gently while walking down the plane isle, humming a lullaby quietly.

eo-ae insisted on sitting on your lap during the flight.

the little girl's soft snores muffled against your chest.

her mommy, seated beside you, will adjust seo-ae’s tiny blanket with care, her fingers brushing yours.

“you’re good with her,”

she whispers, her voice thick with emotion.

in the business class cabin, seo-ae’s presence draws attention sometimes when she babbles or throws a crayon by accident.

no-eul, ever protective, shoots a sharp look at a curious passenger.

one of those, "don't try me." looks.

the woman softens when you nudge her, giggling.

“relax, love,”

you say, kissing seo-ae’s sleepy head.

during turbulence, no-eul’s hand finds yours, squeezing tightly.

you hold seo-ae closer, whispering reassurances to both.

no-eul leans her head on your shoulder,

“i don’t know how you stay so calm.”

you smile, kissing her forehead.

“because someone needs to before all of us.”

at baggage claim in japan, no-eul organizes the luggage while you entertain seo-ae, pointing out colorful japanese signs.

a stranger compliments seo-ae’s curls, unintentionally implying that the little girl was your niece or cousin.

your wife was quick to cut the conversation.

“she’s our daughter, actually. goodbye now.”

no-eul's left hand possessive on your waist and her right laying on her daughter's small back.

no-eul always booked a private airport transfer in new cities, refusing to deal with taxis.

in the car, seo-ae sleeps on your lap, and no-eul rests her head on your shoulder,.

you kissed her head softly, heart so full as you visited the new city.

at the hotel, no-eul unpacks seo-ae’s essentials with an old military precision (that she used to have from back in NK) while you collapse on the bed.

seo-ae naps beside you.

after organizing outfits for later plans, no-eul joins you.

she curls up close on the bed, her hand tracing your face.

“i love you,”

you kiss her deeply, the toddler's tiny snores the only present sound.

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[mooniema]

Period hcs | Squid game x reader

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featuring: Cho Hyun-ju, Ji-yeong, Kang Dae-ho, Kang No-eul, Kang Sae-byeok, Kim Jun-hee, Se-mi, Thanos

summary ; just some hcs for how I think the characters would act when reader is on their period, reader is afab, but I didn´t use She/her pronouns for reader

warnings ; shitty writing, mentions of periods and period sex (no description or anything though), reader has rather heavy period cramps

a/n ; this is my first request so i hope yall like it, I might write the one for Sae-byeok too or/and maybe make a second part on this if its wanted

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Cho Hyun-ju (Player 120)

She knows a lot about periods and how to help with them

She researched a lot about the female body when she started accepting her identity, so she knows how to take care of you

She brings you sweets and makes sure that your heating pad stays warms

She has pads and tampons in her apartment too and always makes sure to carry some with her

She gets protective and makes sure you rest enough and eat stuff, which won't make your period cramps stronger

Loves cuddling you, while you are on your period and often rests her hands on your stomach, gently massaging it

Uses a period app to track your cycle

Ji-yeong (Player 240)

I feel like she'd have rather strong cramps herself, so she'd have painkillers and a heating pad in reach for you

She also gets quite grumpy when she is on her own period and since you take good care of her, she returns that favor once you are on your own

If you both sync up and get yours together, you'll probably just stay cuddled up together under your blanket while watching each others favorite movies

Probably jokes around about helping you with your cramps with period sex

If you agree to that, she'd do it though

Kang Dae-ho (Player 388)

He has 4 older sisters so he knows a lot about periods and how to take care of you

And if he doesn't know what to do, he'll just aks them for advice

He makes sure he is always stocked up with painkillers, pads, tampons, sweets and anything else you might need

Also one to track your cycle with a period app

Makes sure to give you massages to ease any pain

Isn't really bothered by your mood swings because he knows you don't really mean it in a bad way and that you are just irritated from your period

He still takes everything that bothers you seriously and does not blame everything on your period

He also wouldn't let you do any hard chores during your period

Kang No-eul (Guard 11)

I think she wouldn't really have strong period cramps, so she wouldn't understand how you feel at first

After a while, she'd understand and do everything to help you with your cramps

Starts researching for ways to help with period pain

Makes sure to buy you painkillers and make you your heating pad

She'd try to cook healthier and include food, thats supposed to help with the pain

She'd also make sure you drink enough water or tea

Even though she isn't really physically affectionate on her own normally, she'd make sure to comfort and cuddle a lot with you

She'd also not let you do any hard chores

Kang Sae-byeok (Player 067)

I feel like she'd have heavier period cramps too and like she'd get a lot clingier, when she is on her period

Once its your turn with your period she'd take good care of you, doing your chores and making sure to reheat your heating pad if it gets too cold

Would also make you a lot of tea and healthier food

If you are on your period she gets more affectionate too

Whispering sweet nothings while holding you under your favorite blanket and watching something you decided on

Wouldn't be able to say no to any of your requests during your period

Would make sure you are well rested and not unnecessarily stressed

Kim Jun-hee (Player 222)

She is a sweetheart to you and this shows even more when you're on your period

Even though she currently doesn't need them, because of her pregnancy, she makes sure that there are more than enough pads and tampons in her house and she still keeps some in her bag for you

While she isn't really allowed to do many chores at the moment because of her pregnancy, she still helps you a lot when you are on your period

Also a fan of doing little things to help you de-stress, such as making you both tea and making sure you rest

She wants to give you the same care, which you give her every day

Se-mi (Player 380)

I think she wouldn't have heavy cramps, but she knows how bad they can get for others so when she first found out how bad yours were, she immediately made you a heating pad and drove to get you painkillers

She now keeps your painkillers stocked up as well as herbal tea, which is supposed to help

Also likes to prepare baths for you, while you are on your period and would then give you a massage

She'd also try to help you with your chores and would take care of you subtly like making healthier food in that week, reminding you to rest and drink etc

She'd probably bring period sex up to help you with your pain, but she understands if that makes you uncomfy

Thanos (Player 230)

I feel like this guy doesn't know a lot about them and that he'd think that cramps aren't bad at all

When he first sees how painful they are for you, he'd probably panic a little and then ask Se-mi or any other woman he knows for advice

If he went to buy tampons he'd probably ask what pussy size you have/j

He'd probably search a lot on the internet to find out about ways to help you

[yourlowkeyidiot3]

No-eul honestly deserves a better fandom. She was literally harassed and threatened with rape only for the fandom to just completely ignore it and even have the nerve to call her assaulters "attractive"

[babymangosworld]

"I wonder what the guards do after everybody goes to sleep"

The guards:

[cookieruma29]

Guard 11

[bewdite-spacey-coffee]

[mayahawkesfirstwife]

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New Roommate

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Pairings: G!p Sub! Virgin! Kang No-eul x Fem! Reader

Summary: You are No-eul’s new roommate and you find out that she’s different from other girls.

Warnings: Smut, blowjob, loss of virginity, unprotected sex (she pulls out!), praise kink, fluff at end, etc.

Author Note: Lowk only posting this bc I ACTUALLY finished it and I love the ending it’s so cute. This is lowk long asf omgg!! :0 Sorry if theres any mistakes!!

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You finally finished moving boxes into your room, you sat on your knees on the cold wood floor as you dug into the big box in front of you.

No-eul knew her new roommate was moving in today, she was expecting a weirdo but she opened the door and was literally met with a girl wearing a white tank top and the smallest shorts she’s ever seen while you were practically bent over a box.

She shut the door behind her and you turn to face her, face lighting up. “Hi! You must be Kang No-eul!”

She was already in love. Your face was even more beautiful than she could have ever imagined.

You stood up, “I’m Y/n.” You stick your hand out and she shakes it, “Nice to meet you…”

“Sorry about the mess, I’m trying to put my things up as soon as I can so it won’t be in the way for long.” You said, but you notice that her eyes are in fact not on your face as you spoke to her.

But your tits that poked through your white tank top. Maybe you should have worn a bra.

To avoid her gaze on them, you turn around and kept putting your things up.

“It’s fine.” She finally replies, sitting down on her bed.

She sat back and watched you like a weirdo.

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She’d continue to do that weird watching as you do anything at all.

You noticed her gaze darken when you’d do certain things like rub lotion on your legs before bed, sucking a popsicle, change, or even lay on your stomach.

Maybe she’s just a pervert, you were weirded out at first but the more you’d talk to her, she’d continue to barely talk but you kind of loved how mysterious she was.

Soon you’d start to tease her purposely and she’d just shift in her spot, pulling on her jeans as if she had a literal boner.

One time you seen a bulge in her pants, she quickly put her pillow over it and it confused you, maybe it was just her jeans or something in her pocket?

You’d grow needy and horny for your roommate. You knew she felt the same way and you just wanted to be fucked by her at this point.

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Today you walked into your dorm and seen her hand under her cover, hand moving up and down as her head in leaned back against the frame. She was touching herself.

You clear your throat and she gasps, moving a pillow over her crotch that was already covered by the blanket.

“Shit, I thought you had class.”

“It got cancelled.” You lock the door and walk over to her, her bangs were stuck to her forehead and she was panting.

“Want some help?” You bit your lip. She looks away, face turning red.

“No thanks.”

You sigh, “So, what’s your problem then? You stare at me all the time like you want to tear my clothes off. But when I come onto you, now you don’t want me?”

“It’s not that…I promise. I’m just…not what you think, okay? I’m…different.” She said, it was the most she’s ever told you about herself.

“Different how? No-eul, I don’t care. Just tell me. Is something wrong?” You ask, rubbing her leg.

She flinches back, “It’s weird. You’re going to get grossed out if I tell you.”

“Well, show me, then.” You said, she sighs.

“Fine, don’t blame me when you run away.” She moves her pillow off her crotch area and pushes the blanket down.

She had a penis!

Not only that…it was fucking long and thick. Who the fuck could she fit that shit inside of?

“Wow.”

It was hard and the tip was red and sticky, leaking of pre-cum.

“I know, it’s gross and weird. I’m the weird girl with a penis.” She sighs.

“A fucking huge one.” You crawl into the bed.

“I wonder if it’d fit inside of me…what do you think? Hmm?”

Her face is shocked and she is blushing, she grows even harder.

“W-What?”

“Should we try?” You peck her lips and she whines.

You two start to make out, she was a great kisser. You pull back, “Have you ever done this?”

She looks down, “I mean…I kissed a couple of girls and one girl…jerked me off...but that’s it.”

“You never been sucked off before?” You hum, crawling down her lap. “N-No…”

“Can I be the first?”

“P-Please…yes.”

“You’re so fucking hot, No-eul…” You hum, wrapping your hand around the base and pumping it, licking your lips.

She groans, gripping your arm. “I-I…please! Put it inside your mouth, please?”

“Needy baby…” You suck the tip and she moans.

“I-I…just…yeah, just like that! O-Oh my!”

She grips your hair as you take her cock in your mouth, bopping your head up and down.

You look up at her, she whimpers as you hold eye contact with her as your lips are wrapped around her dick.

She groans loudly when the tip of her cock hits the back of your throat.

“F-Fuck! You’re really…huh! good at that!”

You gag once when your nose touches her lower stomach, you breathe through your nose and don’t stop sucking her dick as well as possible.

If it was her first time getting a blow job, you needed it to be fucking fantastic.

“I’m about to…fuck! I’m about to cum!”

Her mouth opens wide into an O shape, she gasps. “Fuck, fuck! Do I…Do I do it in your mouth?” She whined.

You nod against her, flattening your tongue on her cock while your head bopped up and down.

She groans, her hands tug on your hair as she came down into your mouth.

You hum into her, you swallow the warm liquid and pull yourself off her cock with a pop.

You gasp for air and breathe heavily, coughing and wiping your mouth with your arm.

“Fuck, you’re huge. My throat hurts.” You sit up on her lap as she looks up at you.

“That was…amazing. Thank you.” She pants, her hands grab your hips.

“Of course…” You blush, fiddling with your hands.

“Do you…want to do more?” You ask, she nods quickly.

“D-Do you?” She asks, you smile and nodded your head. “I do…”

You stood up from her lap and undid your shorts button and pulled them down and then you pull your pink panties down and she moves the blankets away.

You get back on her lap basically straddling her lower stomach, you pull your shirt off over your head and she stares down at your boobs through your pink bra.

She pulls the strap down, shyly as she looks up at your face as you smile and unclasp it with one hand.

You lean closer, letting it slip off and you toss it aside. You grab her hand and place her palm over your tit.

“Play with them, mmhm.” You nod, she shakily grabs the other boob and squeezes them.

She pulls her hands away and starts to suck on your nipples. “Fuck, No-eul…”

She looks up at you while her lips are wrapped around your nipple, she grips the other one.

“So good with your tongue…gonna have to show me what else it does later.” You giggle.

She nods eagerly, you moan when she pushed your hips back against her cock that rested on her stomach.

You rock back on it, your clit rubs against it and she pulls back from your nipple.

“Can I…put it inside? Please?” She asks, hands grabbing your hips.

“Yes, put it in, baby.”

She moans softly at the name and you lift your hips and look down, watching as she lines her cock up with your entrance.

She pushed the tip inside and glanced up at you as you hiss.

“S’warm…” You hum, she pushed about four inches in and you squeeze her shoulders.

“H-Hold on.”

“You alright? Is it bad? Should I stop?” She asks, you shush her. “Shh, it’s okay. Just give me a minute, mhm?”

She nods, you try your best to get used to her size, her cock was thick. Not only was it thick but it was about seven inches long.

“You can put the rest in now, it’s okay, baby.” You nod, she moans.

She pushed the rest into your tight pussy and she groans as you squeeze around her.

“H-Holy fuck! You’re really tight.” She says, looking up at you while you bit down on your lip, trying to get used to her size.

“You okay, Y/n?” She asks, you nod with a frown. “I’m fine, it’s okay.” You pull a few inches out and slowly slide back down.

“Oh, fuck! You’re fucking huge, you’re stretching me out.” You whimper, squeezing your eyes shut as you continue to slowly pull most of her out before sliding back down.

She lays her head back, gripping your hips tightly. Your slow pace was driving her fucking insane.

She hissed when you take her whole cock down your pussy only to lift it back out and slowly slide down.

She digs her nails into your hips, “Just…please! Can you s-speed up? It’s driving me crazy.” She pants.

“Fuck, i’m so sorry…I just never been with someone so big…” You frown, pushing a piece of hair behind your ear.

“Baby, can you? Can you please just do it for me? I can take it. I just can’t do it myself yet.” You pant.

She swiftly flips you over to lie on your back, you moan when she pushed your legs open wider and holding them in the air.

She slowly thrusts into you, before she slowly sped up. Your moans and whines increase loudly.

“It’s so fucking good!” She moans loudly as you start to rub your clit.

“You fuck me so good…don’t you fucking stop!” You groan loudly.

She moans, gripping your hips while she buries her head in your neck.

“Is it okay? You sure?” She asks for reassurance.

You grab her hand, placing it on your lower stomach. Her eyebrows furrow.

“Do you feel that?” You moaned.

“Feel what? Oh…” No-eul looks down at your fucked out state.

You were taking her so fucking deep that it bulged through your stomach when she’d thrust hard.

“You’re in my tummy, No-eul. You’re so fucking huge!” You moan, she notices your rubbing on your clit, “C-Can I?”

You nod, pulling your fingers away and she used her right thumb to rub on your clit.

“Oh, yeah! That’s so good! You’re so good to me!” You whimper, head falling back against the pillow.

“You take me so well, oh f-fuck! It’s like you were made for me…” She whimpers.

“Y-Yeah? I was made for you, my pussy is all yours! I love to take your huge dick.” You moan, gripping the bed sheets tightly.

“F-Fuck! I’m so close, are you?” She moans and you nod repeatedly.

“I’m about to cum!” You whine.

“Cum around me, please!” She moans, you do just that, cumming around her cock.

She continues to fuck into you until she groans loudly, pulling her cock out to shoot her load onto your stomach and tits.

Fuck, even her pull out game was perfect. She was so perfect.

You both pant, she looks up at you all fucked out, hair messy, breathing heavily as your eyes are shut.

“I’m sorry, let me clean you up.” She grabs a pair of boxers and puts them on before going into the restroom and getting a towel and wetting it with warm water.

She comes back and wipes your stomach clean, you look up at her in awe, “Thank you.” You smile.

“Yeah, of course…” She blushes, you rub her face. “You’re not how I thought you’d be, No-eul…”

She shrugs, “Neither are you…” She replies, you chuckle.

“I really like you.” She admits, you peck her lips. “I like you too.”

“So…that means I can be your girlfriend?”

You giggle, “I would love that.” You said, she nods with a smile on her face.

You peck her lips again and move to sit up, your legs shaking. You sigh, “Could you get me something to wear? If I stood up I would fall over.” You chuckle.

“Oh, yeah, of course!” She grabs a T-shirt of hers from her drawer and hands it to you.

“Uh, you want some of my boxers to wear? Or like I could…get your underwear.” She seemed too nervous.

“Boxers are fine.” You chuckle, she hands you some and you put them on.

“Would you look at that? I think they are super cute!” You say, she nods.

“My clothes look really cute on you.” She says, you lay back on her bed, making room for her.

“Can we cuddle?” You ask, she nods, wrapping her arm around you and pulling you closer.

You pull the blanket over y’all and cuddle into her chest.

“Goodnight…” You hum.

“Goodnight, beautiful.” She whispers and you blush into her chest and shut your eyes, drifting to sleep fast while she held you.

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[fishjesus]

I’m literally vibrating with excitement for squid game 3. ALL THESE CLIPS AND THE FANDOM SLOWLY CREEPING BACK. I have so much this say. My poor mum has to listen to me bring it up every 5 minutes (but she lowkey rocks with me) like I should be focusing on my last A level exam but the squid game brain rot is real. THE REVELS, THE TABLE AND CHAIR SET UP, “WHY DID YOU LET ME LIVE”, THE CRY OF A BABY, MASKED OFFICER AND GUARD (011??) FIGHTING, INHO IN A PLAYER 132 SUIT???? The fandom is so talented with the art, fics and edits. Like hats off to you guys. I love youuu. I feel so feral. Like I ain’t had an obsession like this since the Stanley parable back in 2023. UGH the 27th needs to role round faster.

[junofficer-core]

turning this into like a choose your own adventure thing now ig 🤷‍♀️

[savannagonemad]

hurting

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angst 💔

warnings: self-harm, intense emotional pain, panic attacks, depression, anxiety

no-eul x fem!reader

no games!au

wordcount: 4.5k

author's note: hiiii lovelies! so i kind of disappeared for a month, sorry about that! college got super busy and my motivation to write kind of died. but i am back now, and in order to not burn myself out i'll be trying to post a bit less often, but more consistently - i'm (roughly) shooting for once every seven days (hopefully a new fic every sunday!), and maybe some bonus shorter ones between those if motivation and my schedule allows it! from now on expect one fic of my usual quality and length once a week at the same approximate time as i usually post.

enough about me! this fic uses the same concept as another one i wrote for a few ocs about two years ago, but with better writing now that i'm a better writer. i hope you enjoy!

btw my requests are open! if you want to see anything written, don't hesitate to send me a prompt! i don't bite, i promise <3 ✨

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kang no-eul bleakly looked into the bathroom mirror. a broken girl stared back at her from the other side.

no-eul had isolated herself in the bathroom again. she held her expertly crafted hunting knife in her hands - a beautifully carved double-edged dagger. she had purchased it for a bargain at a thrift store years ago. it was an upgrade over the shards of glass from broken bottles she used to use.

no-eul's hands were trembling slightly. she looked down at herself, flipping her arm over so her palm was facing her.

there were three fresh cuts on her forearm. beyond, the bathroom sink was stained red with her own blood; the very same blood that was painted onto her knife.

no-eul looked back into the mirror at herself. she felt the burning of tears threatening to form at the corners of her eyes, but she willed them not to. she was in enough emotional turmoil as it is.

"why do i feel like this? why do i always feel the need to..."

she didn't bother finishing her thought. the answer was painfully obvious, no matter how much she hated it. this - the cuts on her arm - provided her with relief and dopamine. it let her feel something again.

feelings were hard to come by these days.

every day, no-eul felt empty. the only times she felt anything at all was when she was with you... and when she was cutting lines into her skin. without one of the two things, everything was grey and dull. lifeless.

no-eul placed the knife on the counter, blood trickling down her arm and adding to the mess. she didn't care about that. she looked into the mirror and slid up the sleeve of her hoodie, looking over the dozens of scars that covered her arm. out of habit, she ran her fingers over them. she didn't bother looking at her other arm - it was just more of the same.

she had been cutting herself for years now. she knew her scars better than anything.

no-eul's gaze flicked back down to the fresh cuts on her arm. they were still bleeding, the blood being collected by the sink that she was holding her arm over. she reached forward and picked her knife back up, pressing it against her arm between two of the cuts. she watched as muscle memory took over, sliding the knife across her skin, fresh pain coursing through her veins. the pain didn't bother her, she barely even noticed it.

it was yet another cut to add to the collection.

blood immediately began to gush out of the wound. they always bled heavily at first, as she preferred to cut deep. the pain faded away after a few brief moments; she'd cut so many times that her pain tolerance threshold was quite high.

"i shouldn't be doing this." no-eul traced over some of her old scars with her finger, blankly staring down at the four gashes in her arm. "i know i shouldn't be doing this. but i can't stop. it feels too good..."

it's true, she got a little bit of a high every time she cut herself. it was one of the few things left that could make her feel anything at all. she closed her eyes and focused on the feeling of her blood leaving her body, basking in the twisted warmth it gave her. after a moment, she opened her eyes; the feeling had dulled, as usual.

no-eul pressed the knife against her skin again, softer this time. she knew she was being reckless every time she cut, but she wasn't stupid - she always made sure to be careful when she cut near her wrists. she looked down at her knife, ready and in position.

to her surprise, she lifted the knife away from her wrist and deposited it back on the counter, blood dripping from the blade. she expected to be unable to control herself once she had the knife positioned - muscle memory usually took over at that point.

after the moment had passed, she felt nothing from the new revelation.

suddenly, no-eul's phone went off. she carefully held her bloodied arm over the sink as she used her free hand to retrieve her phone, turning it on and looking at it.

it was a text from you.

"i'm almost home."

"shit," no-eul hissed. she swiftly flicked the sink on, washing the pooling blood down the drain. she grabbed a hand towel and ran it under the water for a second, dampening it. she held it to her arm, trying to stop the bleeding.

no-eul's panic was accentuated when she heard the sound of keys jingling in the door. you were home.

"fuck, fuck, fuck." she applied more pressure to the towel, trying to force her arm to stop spilling blood. "she can't see me like this. she can't know."

"no-eul? i'm back," you called out into your shared apartment.

your voice - the voice that normally brought no-eul comfort - now struck fear into her heart. she hurriedly pulled the towel off her arm, desperately hoping the bleeding had stopped. much to her dismay, her cuts were still trickling blood.

"no, no, no," no-eul whined. she roughly shoved the towel back under the faucet, spilling water and blood everywhere in the process. she tried to reach for her knife and the newly-drenched towel, but she lost her balance as she grabbed both items - she was feeling lightheaded from the blood loss and the panic. she fell to the ground hard, her knife landing on the floor next to her, barely avoiding slicing her leg. she was dripping blood onto the floor now, and she clutched the towel against her arm to stop herself from bleeding everywhere.

as you shut the apartment door, you heard a loud crash come from the bathroom. worried, you hurried over to it, hearing the sound of running water. you gently knocked on the door, speaking through it to your friend.

"no-eul? are you okay?"

no-eul tried her best to swallow her panic. "yeah, i'm- i'm fine," she called out, her voice cracking, sounding hoarse and dry. she absolutely didn't sound fine. she sounded terrible. but more than anything, she sounded afraid.

"you don't sound fine," you responded, your hand reaching for the doorknob. you really didn't want to open the door while your friend was in there, but she sounded hurt, and you were worried. "it is okay if i open the door?"

no-eul froze. "don't... don't open the door, y/n. please. trust me, you- you don't want to."

her voice sounded off. she didn't sound like herself at all: confident, fearless, serious. instead, she sounded hurt, afraid, and sick. your worry only grew. she had never said anything like that for as long as you'd known her. you began to turn the doorknob.

"i'm opening the door, no-eul. i'm sorry, but i have to."

no-eul's heart raced with anxiety and fear. she lost all control of her emotions and she felt tears begin to trickle down her face. "y/n, please- don't..."

you had already made up your mind. if she was in danger, that was your priority. you slowly pushed the door open, and for a brief moment you thought you were in some kind of living nightmare as your mind processed everything you saw.

there were streaks of blood in the sink, with small pools on the counter as well. the water was running on full blast, and it was absolutely everywhere. but you didn't care about any of that. no-eul was slumped over on the floor, a wet hand towel - normally white, but this one was stained bright red - was pressed against her arm. besides her was a hunting knife, its edge also drenched in crimson. your eyes immediately widened, and you felt adrenaline begin to take hold of you.

"holy shit, no-eul..!" you rushed over to your friend, crouching down to her level. "what happened to you?" you began to reach for the towel that she was pressing into her arm. her eyes were full of fear; she looked more like a wounded animal than anything else.

"y/n, no, please- please go away..." tears fell down no-eul's face as you gently pulled the towel off her arm, revealing the four gashes in her forearm, still lightly bleeding.

"hey, it's okay..." you whispered to her immediately, your voice trailing off as you analyzed the cuts, trying to determine what happened. your attention was soon brought to the dozens of scars covering her arm, running up and vanishing under where her sleeve covered them. your mind connected the dots for you, and you made sure to keep your demeanor calm along with your voice.

"no-eul, did you... do this to yourself?" you asked softly, making sure not to overwhelm her.

after a moment, no-eul gave a shameful nod, averting her eyes away from you and staring bleakly at the wall. tears fell down her cheeks. there was no point in denying it anymore; she had been found out, and her scars were there, out on display for you to see. she waited for you to start lecturing her, or get upset, or even to start yelling. maybe you would just abandon her and decide she wasn't worth the effort. she flinched when you reached for her face, and you stopped, backing off a bit.

"hey, i'm not going to hurt you," you said quietly. she turned her head towards you ever-so-slightly, looking for the anger in your expression that she had always pictured. to her surprise, you didn't seem angry or upset at all. instead, you looked genuinely, caring, and free of judgement.

no-eul relaxed slightly, letting her guard down. she was too exhausted to try to hide anything anymore, not like there would be any point in it anyway. she let you reach out and brush her tears away with your hand.

you turned your attention down to her injuries. you were worried and really wanted to talk to her and figure out what had caused this, but you needed to make sure she was safe first. fortunately, her wounds had mostly stopped bleeding thanks to her haphazard attempt at treating them.

you opened one of the cabinets next to you, pulling out some gauze. you used one hand to hold no-eul's arm steady while you wrapped the gauze around it. once you had finished patching her up, you slid the gauze back into the cabinet and pushed it closed. you then slowly reached out and took the knife, being careful to make sure no-eul didn't see you as a threat. she didn't have the energy to try to stop you, and you pushed the knife backwards out of reach of both of you.

then, you leaned forward, pulling no-eul into a hug. she was startled at first - she wasn't a very physical person - but she quickly melted into the comfort. she buried her face in your shoulder as her tears stained your shirt, truly letting years of pent-up negative emotions out in a way that didn't involve a blade. you held her and softly rubbed her back for several minutes, doing your best to soothe her. you made sure to give her all the time she needed.

eventually, no-eul slowly pulled away, and her crying stopped. you let go of her, gazing upon her with compassion. her eyes met yours, and you could see the stories they told. held within them was years of untold sadness and pain, loneliness and despair. she looked completely and utterly broken.

meanwhile, no-eul was analyzing your eyes as well. she couldn't believe how genuine you looked; instead of the anger or fear she had expected to see, you were understanding and compassionate. you were clearly concerned about her.

after a couple of moments, it was you who broke the silence.

"do you... want to talk about it?" you asked, gently reaching over and tucking her messy hair behind her ear so it wouldn't get in her eyes.

no-eul hesitated as she considered the question. she desperately wanted to tell someone about what she had been going through, and it would be a huge relief to no longer be alone in her struggles. on the other hand, she wasn't so sure about talking to you in particular about it. she trusted you a lot, but she had been hiding everything from you for so long... to do a complete 180 on that and open up about everything wouldn't be easy.

you waited patiently for her answer, not wanting to put any pressure on her. she didn't seem particularly stable at the moment, and you didn't want to contribute to her instability.

to her own amazement, no-eul slowly nodded. she trusted you more than anyone else, and you had already seen her at her worst. there wasn't much more damage that could be done.

you nodded and smiled softly, grateful that she had trusted you enough to be able to speak to you about it. the last thing you wanted was to know your friend was suffering alone.

"okay," you said softly. "do you want to move out of the bathroom?"

no-eul looked around at the bloodstained floor and waterlogged walls, and quickly nodded. "yes," she said, trying and failing to conceal the shame in her voice. "please," she added.

"okay," you repeated, standing up. "stay here for a second, alright? i'm going to put the knife away so nobody steps on it. i'll be right back, i promise." you knew how fragile she was right now, so you made sure to explain everything and reassure her with everything you did. you picked the knife up off the floor and stepped out of the bathroom, looking back at her. "don't try to move before i come back, alright? i don't want anything to happen to you."

no-eul nodded in understanding. you soon vanished from sight as you looked for somewhere to hide the knife so she couldn't use it on herself again, leaving her alone for the moment.

no-eul watched as you walked away. once you were out of sight, she looked down at the gauze on her arm. you had done a good job, better than she ever did. she absentmindedly ran her finger over where she knew the fresh cuts were. a pang of anxiety hit her as she looked up at the empty doorway, realizing she had just brought the person she considered to be her best friend into her personal problems. self-doubt began to set in as you didn't reappear at the door.

"she probably hates me," she thought, pulling her knees up against her chest. "i dragged her into my own problems. i'm so useless." her mind kept firing negative thoughts at her, thoughts about how you wouldn't ever come back for her. you'd just leave her in the bathroom to fend for herself, never wanting anything to do with her again. she felt her tears start back up at the thought of being abandoned by you, all because she couldn't keep her problems to herself.

you returned just as quickly as you left, finding no-eul fighting back tears with unfocused eyes, her knees brought up to her chest. once she saw you, relief flashed over her face. you rushed over to her, kneeling down and taking her hands in your own.

"hey, it's okay, i'm here. what happened?" you asked, keeping your voice low and gentle, not wanting to scare her.

"i- i thought you were going to a-abandon me," no-eul choked out, trembling.

"no-eul..." you released her hands and softly pulled her into a hug once again. "i would never abandon you like that. i'm here for you, always." you felt her arms desperately wrap around your shoulders like she was afraid you would vanish if she let go. "nothing could ever get me to do that to you. i care about you way too much to do that."

the words "i care about you" played on repeat in no-eul's mind as she learned into you, not releasing her grip on you. the two of you stayed like that for a few minutes until no-eul had calmed down again. she slowly released her grip on you, and you did the same, taking her hands in yours once again.

"do you want to go to the living room?" you asked, gently running your fingertips across the back of her hands as you waited for an answer. you figured she could use the affection, especially in her current state.

no-eul nodded slowly after a moment. "please."

"okay." you stood up, then held your hand out for no-eul. she took it, and you helped pull her up to her feet. she immediately felt lightheaded and instinctively clung to your shoulder to keep herself from falling. you helped her out of the bathroom and over to the living room couch, which she collapsed against. you sat next to her, turning to face her.

"are you okay?" you asked, looking on as her lightheadedness began to disappear. she turned her head to look at you, but avoided your eyes for now. she took a shaky breath, then spoke.

"yeah, but walking probably isn't the best idea." her eyes met yours for a brief moment, and you could tell she was anxious. "thank you. for helping me."

"it's not a problem at all. i'm just glad i was there," you replied. "are you okay with talking about it?"

no-eul took a deep breath. she was anxious, but you hadn't shown any judgement so far, and she needed to tell someone about it. she closed her eyes, trying to hide her shame. "yeah, i... i think i am."

"well, i guess i should start with the question at the front of my mind." you glanced down at no-eul's arm. "when i was putting the gauze on you, i saw a lot of scars..." you said, trailing off, not sure if the implied question was too personal.

no-eul had a decision to make. her response to your question would determine the direction of the rest of this interaction. lying to you would be pointless, you already saw that she was cutting herself and it would only be a matter of time until you found out the truth. besides, you were the person she trusted the most in the world. so, for the first time ever, she decided to be open and vulnerable about her struggles. no more secrets, no more hiding. it was time to set things right.

"they were all caused by me," she started. "every single scar that you saw was caused by my own hands."

you nodded in understanding. "there were a lot of them, no-eul. and even more that i couldn't see, probably."

no-eul didn't respond verbally. she only silently nodded in agreement.

"how many are there..? only if you're comfortable sharing, of course," you asked, not wanting to overstep your friend's boundaries.

no-eul said nothing for several moments, she just sat there as if she was contemplating something.

"if you don't want to answer that one, that's okay," you said, reassuring her. "i don't mean to make you uncomfortable."

"you're not, i trust you," no-eul responded. "it's just..." she took a deep breath. "here."

no-eul pulled up the sleeve of her hoodie on the arm you had tended to. "you saw how many there were before you put the gauze on," she said. "they go up to my shoulder." she then pulled up the sleeve on her other arm, revealing dozens more scars that you hadn't seen before. "so do these."

your eyes widened slightly in shock at the sheer number of scars there were. you reached your hand out, then hesitated, looking up at no-eul for approval. no-eul nodded at you and held her arm out to you.

you gently held her arm, inspecting it closely. you moved closer to no-eul, softly running your other hand down her arm. you gingerly turned her arm over, revealing more scars that ran down the underside of her arm, a few dangerously close to her wrist. you took her hand in yours and looked up at her.

"i didn't know it was this bad..." you said as your eyes ran over her scars again for a moment. no-eul used her free hand to trace her scars as she always does.

"there's more on my legs, too. and a few on my stomach."

"how couldn't i have known...?" you whispered, hesitantly tracing a finger against a few of her scars like she was doing. it seemed to be calming for her, and she closed her eyes for a second.

"you know how i always wear a hoodie and sweatpants, no matter the weather? i always told you i was just cold, even when it was burning hot outside. well, the real reason is that i wanted to hide my shame from you. i always thought you would judge me for it..." no-eul opened her eyes and looked away, her face burning. clearly, that assumption was wrong. you were being super nice about it. and cute about it, too.

"wait, what? did i really just think that?" no-eul looked at you as you were holding her arm, gently tracing over some of her scars with a finger. she couldn't believe how vulnerable she was making herself; you were the one person she tried the hardest to hide everything from. and here she was, both of her sleeves rolled up so that you could see everything.

you looked up at her, your hands sliding down to hers. "i wouldn't have ever judged you for this," you said softly as you held no-eul's hand in your own.

no-eul closed her hand around yours. "i was so afraid, y/n. i... i didn't want to lose you because of my problems. i didn't want to involve you in any of this because i was afraid it would push you away."

you gazed down at the scars covering no-eul's arms. "your scars would have never pushed me away, no-eul. i really care about you, more than other people." you ran your free hand down her arm lightly. "your scars do not define you. it wouldn't be right to boil you down to the marks on your body. you are so much more than that."

no-eul fought back a blush at the kind words. to think that she was ever afraid of you finding out...

you took no-eul's other hand in your own. "you truly are a beautiful person, no-eul. inside and out." you were shocked at the words leaving your mouth, despite meaning all of them. "and... your scars do not make you any less beautiful."

you had always found your friend beautiful. she was an amazing person, though she was normally closed off so it was hard for you to tell her these things - not like it ever seemed like she needed to hear it. but now, seeing her this vulnerable and open with you, it allowed you to say everything you felt. you had a connection with her now, and you weren't going to let it go to waste.

now no-eul was really blushing, and she kicked herself mentally for it. it was hard not to, though - you had just called her beautiful.

"y/n..." no-eul tried to think of something to say, but couldn't. she felt herself starting to tear up. nobody had ever said anything like that to her before.

you saw that your friend was starting to tear up. "i'm sorry, i didn't mean to make you cry..." you dropped no-eul's hands, afraid that you had done something wrong.

"no no, it's okay, it's just... nobody has ever said anything like that to me before..." no-eul wiped some of her tears away, then suddenly pulled you into a tight hug.

you hugged her back, relieved that you hadn't said anything wrong. "i meant all of it, no-eul. every single word."

no-eul kept hugging you for several minutes before pulling away, feeling your hands trace down her arms before settling in her own hands as she did so. she looked up at you, still blushing from such a heartfelt statement.

they say the eyes are the window to the soul, and now you knew why. no-eul's eyes were gorgeous. you felt a sudden sense of deep emotional connection with her, and a protective urge to keep her safe swept over you. impulsively, you leaned down and softly kissed her cheek.

immediately, you realized what you'd done. "oh my god, i'm so sorry- i didn't think... about..." your voice trailed off as you saw that no-eul had a soft smile on her face. no-eul gripped your hands a little tighter, then leaned up and kissed your cheek as well.

"there," she said in a hushed voice as she pulled away. "now we're even."

no-eul gazed into your eyes once more, seeming to get lost in them - which was evidently a shared experience at the moment as both of you processed what just happened.

"am i dreaming??" no-eul thought to herself. "this must be a dream, right?"

but no-eul already knew that it wasn't a dream. this was real. she watched as the same thoughts passed through your mind, and for the first time since you had found her, she smiled.

then, you leaned down and kissed her. you both released your grips on each other's hands as you forgot about everything else.

just as quickly as it started, it was over. no-eul slowly pulled away, blushing more than you had ever seen before - it seemed like she had gotten more comfortable being vulnerable. "i'm sorry, i've never kissed anyone before..."

you smiled, gently guiding her hands to your shoulders before resting your hands on the sides of her body.

"it's okay," you said, glancing down at her lips. "do you want to try again?"

no-eul didn't need any convincing. she quickly pressed her mouth against yours, melting into the kiss, feeling a lot more comfortable and natural this time. her heart was racing, but it was no longer out of anxiety.

after a couple seconds, you pulled away. no-eul threw her arms around you and pulled you into another hug. she hugged you for a long time, resting her head against your neck. she took a deep breath and exhaled slowly, trying to take control of her heart rate.

you pulled away slightly, getting a whine of disapproval from no-eul. you took her hand in yours and intertwined your fingers with her, looking down at your friend, no longer needing to hide your feelings.

"no-eul," you said, giving her hand a squeeze. "thank you for trusting me."

she smiled, resting her head on your shoulder and closing her eyes. "i don't trust anyone more," she said as she cuddled into you, all her self-doubts forgotten. you held her like that for a long time, and slowly, her breathing slowed. she had fallen asleep right in your arms.

"kang no-eul," you whispered to her, not wanting to disturb or wake her.

"for as long as i live, i promise i will protect and care for you."

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