#gtfodustin

[lessthanmacyalexis]

Texts @ Actual Babe

Macy: Is Jagger over yours rn

Macy: Cause if not I've been thinking up a way to say something all day and I've settled on being just ridiculously blunt about it

Macy: But if Jagger's there it'll wait so it doesn't make everything incredibly awkward

[lessthanmacyalexis]

Texts || Terrible Ex

Macy: can we be done now

Macy: i kinda wanted u to come over

[lessthanmacyalexis]

Fight Night || Macy and Dustin

Things finally seemed to be calming down at work, the album was finished and had a release date, the singles had already been selling extremely well, and with the tour kicking off Macy would be back working as an assistant producer, which was a lot less work and meant she got a lot more free time than she’d had the past two months.  It technically was getting back to normal,this was the job Macy had been working most of her time with the record, but she wasn’t used to it anymore, and wasn’t sure what to do with herself half the time. Got to pick Julia up from daycare herself for the first time in months, even skipped one day and had a mommy-daughter day.  And it meant she could definitely spend more time with Dustin, now that they weren’t smack in the middle of a fight. Everything seemed to be at a maintainable pace for once, save for Jagger and Isaac, but Macy couldn’t do much about that except hope that she wasn’t about to see another one of her friend’s families fall apart. But it gave her time where she and Dustin could just be dumb to each other on twitter. She hadn’t even seen his tweet until some of his fans that had followed her when they started dating tagged her in the replies, and she couldn’t resist throwing one back. Sure as hell wasn’t going to complain that it ended up with Dustin coming over.  Macy slipped into one of his shirts that he’d left at her place, just to look the part for their ‘fight’ what better way than to be wearing a fighters clothes? The blonde sat on her couch with Bilbo hopping right next to her, the other two dogs guarding Julia while she slept, and waited for her boyfriend to show up.

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[lessthanmacyalexis]

Calls || Dustin

Macy: got the text a her stomach dropped to her feet. There was nothing that ever, ever came from a 'we need to talk' text. And there was no way it wasn't about that stupid fucking game of truth and dare, because they had just come off of a fight and had seen each other maybe twice with Macy's schedule, it had to be that this fucking time bomb she'd accidentally set had gone the fuck off. She had been able to read the whole thing in her notification bar, so she didn't need to open it until she was in a position where she could actually set aside some time to talk to Dustin. Julia was in bed, the dogs were still kind of exhausted from their walk. She made her way into her home studio, she didn't have a choice but to work through this right now. It was maybe ten minutes before she actually worked up the never to swipe open the text so it would be on read and finally call him. "Sorry I'm just getting back to you. What's up babe?"

[lessthanmacyalexis]

Late Night Make Up || Macy Alexis and Dustin

Macy had been on edge for the last two weeks. Her usual therapy session had helped for the weekend, but on Monday every last stress was back and felt like if one thing went wrong every single thing would come toppling down and she’d explode. On top of that she’d barely been sleeping, kept making excuses to just drag out the work for as long as she could. Macy had sworn she’d been on schedule so this cramming wouldn’t happen. But she was so exhausted she had nearly fallen asleep walking down the stairs at work. And if there was one person that could make everything pounding down on her far away, it was Dustin. Except Macy had just slipped up and told Rhys that she was in love with him and she hadn’t even said that outloud to herself yet, much less to Dustin. On top of that Julia saying they were a family had been rattling around in her head for days. Macy felt the same if she was being honest with herself, and that terrified her because everything was too good to last. She and Dustin already hadn’t worked out once before, they didn’t exactly have the cleanest record. And with her working so much she’d barely had time to face time him, let alone see him in person unless it was late at night. And even then Julia was still waking up in the middle of the night screaming for her so she couldn’t even take advantage of how well she slept when she did get to be with Dustin because she had a two year old to console. It was too much for anyone to handle, she knew that much. And Macy figured he could only put up for it for so long. But she decided to be proactive about it, instead of bringing it up she’d just make the most of the time she could get to have with him, even if that seemed less and less all the time, and deal with it after it happened. Exactly the opposite of what her therapist had recommended, but everything piling on her at once had sent Macy into a state of mind there was no getting out of. So she’d texted Dustin after their ‘break up’ and invited him over.  Really had already been wearing one of his shirts, they smelled like him and were so ridiculous on her that she could wear exclusively that and underwear and nobody would even notice. It took a ridiculous amount of time for his uber to actually get there, but once it had she buzzed him through and waited for him to come up.

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[lessthanmacyalexis]

Texts || Dustin

Macy: I think the timing of us is just really fucking shitty.

Macy: We got together because I was jealous you'd slept with Jagger. I already knew I was about to dive into a million stressful things at work, I got assigned the band before I ever ran into you. I hadn't even finished my second masters yet. And your career is just starting.

Macy: And fate has to be trying to tell us something, with everything that's gone wrong since. Christ, I damn near feel like I did last January sometimes.

Macy: I'm so goddamn sick of keeping secrets especially when all they're fucking doing is hurting the people I love and risking destroying relationships. No secret I've ever kept has been good or ended up fine in any sort of fucking way and if I never have to keep another secret in my life it'll be too soon. And then everything seems to go wrong all at once like our lives are just some constantly recharging time bomb

Macy: But even though I feel like that I don't want to do what I did then. I don't even want to think about it. I want to tell fate to shove it up her ass because I am not losing you too and that she's taken e-goddamn-nough from me and she can't have my friends and she can't have you.

Macy: I also don't know if I get to tell fate what to do or if shit is already too late or fucking what but I fucking hate not talking to you and you're the only person I've even want to talk to about this so even though I know where nothing stands I'm just gonna text you this even if you don't reply or you've got me on mute or whatever fucking other possibilities their are

Macy: I was glad to hear you and Jagger made up. I'm so fucking sorry I put that in jeopardy. It's a goddamn horrible feeling, losing the people closest to you. Nothing quite like that level of being alone. God knows you're already as familiar as I am. Never, ever want you to feel like that again.

Macy: These texts are all over the fucking place, aren't they? I mean, the rest of life as we know it is up in the air, might as well jumble how conversations work anyways.

Macy: Point is, I don't actually expect you to forgive me for it. Dunno if I ever told you but when I was back in New York Sarah reached out, she wanted to make amends, apologize, we met up and I told her she could shove her apology up your ass. And the fact that I was nearly that for you is eating me alive.

Macy: Actually, I don't know if I have a point. Or points. I'm typing this as fast as it comes to mind.

Macy: Do me a favor, if that phonecall was supposed to be it and I just didn't get it just throw me on mute or block me or something, eventually I'll shut up but I don't think I could deal with actually saying goodbye to you

Macy: That's another thing eating me alive, that I don't know if that was the fatal fight or I'm just overreacting and every time I go over it, it's probably been like 20 times, it sounds more and more like a breakup each time and I can't get the thought out of my head.

Macy: But I actively can't tell if that's just me in my head again and aside from my therapist I can't talk to anyone but you about it but if it was a breakup you probably didn't fly out to vegas so you could talk with me about it

Macy: And I damn well know that it contradicts what you said about keeping us in your life but these are definitely special circumstances that should have never happened and it feels bad enough and i keep worrying that being with me is going to keep you from being able to be there for Jagger because he definitely still hates me

Macy: I feel like I have to learn how to breathe again now that things are kind of calming down except nothing is calming down at all the problems are just shifting now but at least I'll have more time to worry about them.

Macy: At the same time please don't let that have been a breakup because second to Julia you are the best thing in my life and I think we can get through this and things will turn around and god if we have to end i'd rather it be when we're old a gray and have a million grandkids running around because i kind of think you might be my soulmate

Macy: i mean i definitely do but we've barely been dating for two months now like it's officially been two month today and that's crazy to say that early

Macy: even though it's not like i just met you two months ago or started falling for you two months ago but it doesn't feel any less intense

Macy: but fuck, that kinda means 1/4 of our official relationship has been fightng bc it's barely been two weeks since that first fight. is that normal? I don't know how this shit is supposed to work just know I want to make it work

Macy: Full disclosure I'm probably a little drunk by now I cried in front of Julia for the first time ever and I remember hating seeing my parents cry and I never wanted to do that so now that she's in bed just sleeping on a pile of dogs it's wine-o-clock with me and meg and I know you're probably still fucking furious and don't wanna hear from me but I hate not talking to you so much and I can't do it tonight even if you don't talk back

[lessthanmacyalexis]

Texts || #1 babe

Macy: Hey. So there's something I wanna show you.

Macy: But you gotta promise never to speak about it again after

Macy: Cause I haven't even let the dogs see this, let alone another person

[lessthanmacyalexis]

Passion Project|| Dustin and Macy Alexis

Macy was admittedly beyond nervous. She’d kept this project entirely secret, working on it exclusively when Sophia had Julia, even though there was no way the girl would have understood what she was doing, Macy didn’t want to risk Julia catching one of the songs and singing along, it had just been her thing for so long. She’d always have something to tweak, another bit to mix. But tonight it just felt finished, and even if she didn’t really plan on sharing it to most of the people in her life, it’d be kind of a waste to have put so much time into it and show absolutely nobody.The album was nearly two years in the making, and as private as she was about it, Macy was still fairly proud of it. Dustin was the first person to come to mind when she thought of who to share it with,just because of how easy it was to confide in the other . So she burned the cd and threw on jeans and shoes before grabbing her keys and making her way over to his house.  She pulled up, punching in the code Dustin had given her and parking her jeep. Macy hopped down, grabbing the cd case and  went to the door, feeling a flush ride to her cheeks before he’d even answered the door. 

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[lessthanmacyalexis]

Happy Birthday || Dustin and Macy Alexis

She had to remember to thank Rhys and Sophia for giving her a quiet house for once. Time to herself did not happen at home. But with the three trouble makers over at her siblings’ place,  Macy was enjoying having some space to herself. But she was pretty damn sure she was going to enjoy spending some time with Dustin without having to run to work or back to her daughter more though, and definitely wasn’t mad at him coming over to spend the night rather than getting up at the ass crack of dawn. Truthfully, she hadn’t been a hundred percent sure that spending a whole day most in bed with the other fell into the boundaries of just talking and taking things slow, but the majority of her couldn’t care less about it being appropriate or not. It’d been way too fucking long, anyways, and it was her damn birthday in a few hours and a little birthday sex was no the most ludicrous thing in the world to want. Still, there was a little bit of relief followed by a lot more excitement when Dustin said he was game, inappropriate or not. Then it was just a matter of waiting until morning, before quickly throwing that out the window. Not that Macy was going to complain. Given that she wasn’t planning on wearing clothes for that long, she opted just to keep the black cami and leggings she was already wearing. Hadn’t straightened her hair, leaving in the loose waves. For once her house didn’t look like a warzone, so she could just chill on her couch and wait for Dustin to get there. 

@dustinmontgomery

[lessthanmacyalexis]

Text || Dustin

Macy: Hey babe, you free right now?

Macy: Cause I think we gotta talk

[lessthanmacyalexis]

Dear Dustin,

           I can not believe we’re actually together. I haven’t told you a whole lot about everything that happened with Sarah and the person I was long before I met you. Not sure I ever will, I don’t ever want to be that person again. But this wasn’t a possibility for so long. I’ve slept with so many people I lost count, I can barely remember any of their names, what they looked like. I sure as hell didn’t care about them as people. I didn’t have many friends, either. I had a seven year old cat and a pretty big following as a DJ and that was about it.  I’m so glad you never met that Macy.

           The time I spent with you in Portland was some of the best of my life. I’d just had Julia, got my family back, and then you came along and put honest to god butterflies in my stomach. Do you remember when you took me out to some cheap Italian restaurant? I had to fight off my sisters from answer the door, I was kind of surprised to see you still standing there after hearing god only knows how much yelling in a language that you don’t speak, still wanting to be around my particular brand of crazy. That’s when I started to figure out that I couldn’t just be something casual with you. Also when I started to get scared, because the last person I had been anything more than casual with fucked me over so royally that I became an entirely new person. The more time I spent with you, I somehow got more and less scared all at once.  

           As much as I regret the year that we spent without each other, I almost wonder if it was something we need to come to where we are now. Because I wouldn’t know that I couldn’t forget about you if you were never gone. I couldn’t have realized just how much I missed being able to even just talk to you until I couldn’t. And I couldn’t have known how much I never fucking want to not be with you again if we hadn’t been apart to begin with. And we’ve got as much time as we please to make up for lost time. 

           I’m not scared anymore. I thought I might be. I was when you first showed up, I could feel everything rushing back to the center and I didn’t want to deal with the possibility that you might not feel the same. But you brought it up before I even had the chance and wiped away every last fear I had. I’m just so fucking thrilled to see the future we’ll have together, and I hope it’s a long fucking one, because I can see myself with you for a damn long while. Longer than that. When I think about what I want for my future I couldn’t give two shits where the wind blows me as long as I’ve got you and Julia.

           It’s so crazy to me that you saw me, with my two year old ball of hyper activity and my crazy schedule and life and thought ‘yeah,for sure,sign me up’. But I can’t help but smile every time I think of it. Julia and I are obviously a package deal, and you were so ready to take that on it’s kind of incredible. She is absolutely enamored with you. Should hear her when you’re not over, all she asks about is the next time you’re coming over, if you’re bringing Romeo, if you’re gonna want to play. Not that she understands what a boyfriend is, but she was the first person I actually told that we’d gotten together. She absolutely adores you and I can’t say I blame her.  

             I know we’re eventually going to be out of this honeymoon stage and have fights and do stupid shit to piss each other off, but I’m not worried about that either. I’m in this. And I don’t know that there’s a whole lot that would be big enough to give this up. Cause what we’ve got is something fucking amazing.  So we’ll get through it. Cause it’ll be worth it to get through it. And please never learn Italian, because I am already sorry for what I say when angry. 

               I’m just so fucking happy. Aside from having Julia Blake, I can’t remember the last time I’ve just been this consistently happy.  And I want to make you feel exactly how fucking amazing you make me feel. When I’m not with you I want to be. I wake up a little when you’ve stayed over and you have to get up at some ungodly hour because the whole bed shifts. And it’s kind of bittersweet, because I can roll over and just be so goddamn comfortable it’s ridiculous, but I’m also pretty sure I could just spend the next forever sleeping next to you and being perfectly content. 

               You didn’t get the last letter I wrote you, and holy fucking hell am I glad you didn’t.  I’m so fucking glad I survived, because life is fucking amazing. And I don’t want to think about that too much, because I’m never going back to that place I was in. There’s so much to live to see, I want to see Julia’s first day of school, to see her graduate and go off to college,become the amazing person I know she’s going to be. I want to see what we do together. I want to see how this album does.I don’t know if I’ll ever show you this one, it’s completely fucking embarrassing. I’ve been told I get like, disgusting levels of cheesy talking about you and as I’ve been reading over this I don’t think Blake was exaggerating even a little. This was never the person I thought I’d be, a mom to an amazing little girl, with friends that are just family at this point, dating one of the best people I’ve ever fucking met. But goddamn if I don’t love being this Macy. 

                                                                                                Here’s to the future.                                                                                                            Macy Alexis. 

[lessthanmacyalexis]

Playing Hooky | Dustin & Macy Alexis

It was already past Julia’s bedtime. As much a she liked being able to sleep next to her boyfriend,she probably would have said no to the invitation, but she couldn’t after hearing what Dustin had done for her daughter. Macy couldn’t stop smiling since she’d gotten the texts. She knew Dustin was game to take on having Julia in his life, but she hadn’t expected something like this. And it was soon, but hell if it wasn’t perfect timing. Julia having her own place at Dustin’s was going to make everything so much easier, she could go over and spend the night there without having to get one of her siblings or friends to take Julia. It was just goddamn amazing of him. And Macy really wanted to see it. Despite the fact that she definitely was supposed to be coming into work tomorrow. There was nothing she couldn’t do remotely and send in, it was Friday anyways, it wasn’t like she was going to be doing a whole bunch of hard work anyways. Macy sent a text to her overseeing producer that she was going to send the first single for the album in remotely, that Julia was sick and she needed to stay home, before starting to pack up her laptop, and everything the two would need to spend the night over Dustin’s. And as carefully as she could, lifted her daughter out of bed, trying not to wake her up. Didn’t exactly work, Julia started blinking awake as Macy strapped her into her car seat.  Macy told her they were going to see Dustin and the two year old started babbling, before being cut off with a yawn. She was back asleep halfway through the car ride, and out like a light by the time Macy actually pulled up to Dustin’s gate, texting the other to let her in so she didn’t wake up Julia.

[lessthanmacyalexis]

all of 'em xoxoxo

✉ for an 2 AM text

why is it that now that Julia is sleeping through the night i’m staying up to talk to you instead of sleeping

✘ for an unsent text

i really can’t stand it when you have to get out of bed in the morning. like, i just wanna stay there with you all day. but also, waking up next to you is one of the best feelings ever. i wanna do it all the time

☠ for a threatening message

i know i’m small but i’m p sure i could take you so come over and bring ice cream or i’ll fucking fight you babe

❤ for a lusty/loving/affectionate message

i’ve got the day off tomorrow and my place to myself, i don’t plan on wearing pants once and you are invited

♣ for a drunk message

ur my booooyyyfrieeeend. never had 1 before. i got a booooyyfriend

[lessthanmacyalexis]

Old Friends|| Dustin and Macy Alexis

Macy was freaking out. She’d managed to stay composed in conversation and had no clue how, but her exterior appearance did not match what was going through her head. Absolutely losing her mind and thanking God that Julia was too preoccupied with driving Simba in her toy car to notice.  She was absolutely shocked to see Dustin back around.  And it was so easy to talk to him, fall back into the back and forth with him, and she’d kind of lost herself in it. She couldn’t catch feelings for him again, it was hard enough getting over them the first time.  There wasn’t even anything she could blame on Dustin, to make it even a little bit his fault.  She was the one who couldn’t keep it casual and messed up what they’d had. And then he’d gone off and before today Macy had been convinced that that was the end of it. But she didn’t want to just ignore him. She had liked being friends with Dustin.Missed hanging out with him. Because it was just fun and easy, they clicked really well. If her feelings hadn’t gotten in the way they still probably would be great friends. And she would love to get that back. Didn’t know how to balance it though, stop herself from falling again, and now he was coming to her house and that was not enough time to come up with a game plan.  Maybe she was overthinking it,  she was absolutely overthinking everything,but that didn’t stop her from running to her room and changing out of the sweatpants she had been lounging in. Cleaning was probably too ambitious, there were toys absolutely everywhere, for dogs, cats and Julia. So she didn’t actually try, aside from kicking them into a pile that wasn’t immediately visible from the front door. And then she poured herself her third glass of wine for the night, trying to calm any of her nerves before Dustin showed up.

@dustinmontgomery

[lessthanmacyalexis]

Texts|| Dustin

Macy: Hey, my artists decided to call an early night

Macy: And I told the sitter I'd be gone for another hour and a half anyways

Macy: So do you wanna come grab In-N-Out with me?

[lessthanmacyalexis]

ay, u da best

you’re not wrong babe.