#grrrrrraaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[bebethsas]

rage. *distant screaming*

heeeey, so uh *shaky laughter* does anyone else use Spectrum for their email inbox?

anyway, yeah, I just woke up about an hour ago (thank youuuu, PMS symptoms, making me anemic, sluggish, and *dramatically* tired, therefore making me sleep in 2-3 hours later than normal, and putting me at risk for another lecture about how I'm "getting off-schedule again"), had to re-login, and saw that they completely changed the web design of my inbox.

,,,

...anyway, so I believe that this video perfectly encapsulates the impotent, unhinged, aspie rage I feel right now at the change:

(I hope it's viewable to anyone who sees this post)

...I'm literally SHAKING with rage right now. If I weren't so damn hungry (I woke up hungry, but haven't left my PC b/c I WANT ANSWERS, DAMMIT!! BRING ME THE HEAD OF THE FOOL WHO DECIDED 'hEy lEt'S fUcK aRoUnD wiTh a lAyOuT tHaT iSn'T bRoKeN!' BRING ME HIS TESTICLES--or ovaries--ON A PLATTER SO THAT I MAY TEAR THEM APART WITH MY BARE HANDS!!!)

now, I'm sure that in 24 hours (or minutes) I might feel a bit embarrassed at snapping like this over something that is pretty trivial.

but you know the fuck WHAT??? I'm PMS-ing, as an autistic woman I'm *already* opposed to changes (but ESPECIALLY tiny, *completely* unnecessary ones), I just learned that my beloved car is on its last legs (so now I have to begin the tooth-pullingly stressful and painful job of looking for a new car), I'm struggling to find work so I'm kinda stuck setting up appointments to jump through the right hoops in order to get ACTUAL SUPPORT for my disabilities, for once, AND I'M FUCKING STARVING (nothing fills me up, nothing satisfies me, and then I have to start the process of finding something to eat *all over again* every 5-6 hours)!!!

And I'm also a woman who lives in a ""polite"" neighborhood, so going outside to scream out my rage would just result in someone calling the cops out of concern.

have you ever felt so angry, so full of rage, that you felt like your physical body wasn't an adequate conduit to express that rage? Like, when you try to let those feelings out, your body would be destroyed in the process?? THAT'S the level of rage I feel right now.

now if you'll excuse me, i have to go spam the feedback inbox some more.

TASTE MY WRATH, YOU MOTHERFU--