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jobrookekarev · 4 years ago

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I Choose You and Our Baby Too

Chapter: 1/1

Words: 3700

Summary: “Are you out of your mind? We're not making a baby,” Jo said as her laughter paused and she smiled. “Because we already made one.”

‘I Choose You’12x03 AU where Jo is pregnant.

Fandom: Grey’s Anatomy.

Relationship: Alex Karev/Jo Wilson.

Characters: Alex Karev, Jo Wilson, Stephanie Edwards and Arizona Robbins.

Rating: General Audiences.

Additional Tags: Fix it, AU, Fluff, Babies, Pregnancy.

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AN: This is one of my favorite Jolex episodes!

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“Oh, wow,” Stephanie said, genuinely speechless for the first time that Jo can remember as she reacted to the news of her pregnancy. “When did you find out?”

“This morning,” Jo said as she leaned against the counter, remembering the pregnancy test she had taken before work.

She had known something was off for the past week and then she didn’t get her period. Jo had tried to ignore it for as long as possible, that’s how she found the papers for Alex and Izzie’s embryos. After that, she couldn't ignore it and took the test. The positive pregnancy test and the papers were a double whammy that left her breathless.

“How do you feel?” Stephanie asked, worried for her in a way she usually wasn't.

“Like I want to puke,” Jo said, looking down at the sink in front of her. Morning sickness she had morning sickness.

“Are we keeping it, the pregnancy?” Stephanie asked, leaning back a little as she thought Jo might vomit.

“Yes, I want to,” Jo paused, she had asked herself that same question that morning. It wasn’t like last time, she was safe and her baby's father was a good man. She knew that when she told him what she wanted he would step up and be a father, but it was all so soon.

“So we’re happy about this?”

“I want to be, but it’s so unexpected and I’ve barely had any time to wrap my head around it.”

Stephanie paused and tilted her head. It seems like she had a string of endless questions. “What did Alex say?”

“I haven't talked to him yet.” Jo sighed as she looked down, thinking she might actually puke now. She told Stephanie first because Stephanie was her best friend, her person and Jo knew that she would know what to do or at least how to help her come to terms with it.

“You have to talk to him, today,” Stephanie insisted, Jo knew that she was right, but telling Alex would just make it all too real.

“Why today?” Jo asked looking back at Stephanie. “It's not like I wanted this to happen.”

“Jo, you have to talk to him,” Stephanie said firmly.

“I know.” Jo sighed as she turned away from the mirror and grabbed her lab coat before walking out of the bathroom.

She knew that telling Alex would be a good thing, but the paper gave her more questions than she knew what to do with, she had to know how he felt before she told him and she had to know about the embryos. Jo was so deep in thought as she walked through the halls of the hospital that she jumped when Stephanie locked arms with her.

“Look, I know I said that if you let Karev throw a baby in there, I would never forgive you,” Stephanie said, referencing their conversation a year ago. “But I do forgive you and I'm here for you.”

“Thank you,” Jo said with a nod, she took a deep breath as they walked forward and Stephanie squeezed her arm.

“Come on, I'll put you on my service today, nothing too hard, Chief's orders,” Stephanie said with a smile as she led them down the hall.

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“Hey,” Alex said as he got on the elevator and greeted Jo before turning around and looking up at the floor signs.

“Hey.”

Alex did a double take when he saw her expression. She stared at him, but her eyes were glazed over and her lips were parted in a frown. It was the expression that she had when something was wrong and it always set his alarm bells ringing.

“What's the matter?”

“Nothing,” Jo said, blinking and shaking her head as she turned to look straight ahead. Alex let it go for a moment, knowing she would talk when she was ready and she did, turning back to face him. “Do you want to have kids?”

“I... I don't, uh... know.” Alex faltered over his words. Her question threw him for a loop and he wasn't sure how to respond. “Uh, yeah. I uh, do you... now?”

“Or ever? I don't know, just is it something that you want?” Jo said with a shrug as she tried to seem apathetic about it, but Alex could tell that she was serious. “Yeah, now, or ever. God, Alex, it's a simple yes or no question.”

“What the hell is going on?” Alex asked, he watched her face go back to that expression and he regretted being so blunt with her as she got squirrely.

“Nothing, I just,” Jo sighed, shaking her head. The elevator bell dinged as the doors opened and she walked away. “Nothing.”

Alex knew that she was lying. He had messed up when he floundered with his answer. She wanted something more definite, a yes or no. Alex went to go follow her, but the elevator doors closed in his face. He went to the next floor and then took the stairs back down. Alex looked around and he didn't see Jo, but he did see Stephanie at the nurses’ station.

“Edwards where’s Jo?” Alex asked, putting his hands on his waist.

“She is… not here,” Edwards said slowly and he could tell that she was trying to come up with something he would believe.

“I can see that,” Alex said, before shaking his head and rubbing his hand over his face. “Look, I just want to talk to her.”

“Jo’s not feeling well. I'll probably send her home, but she's in the Residents Lounge right now,” Edwards said as Alex nodded and let her go.

He considered going to the Residents Lounge and seeing if Jo was okay, but Robbins paged him to the NICU. He decided to give Jo a little bit of space and go home that night to check on her. In the meantime, he went to the NICU to see the twins and to talk to Robbins. She would know why Jo was being all weird about kids.

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“Little girl's going into renal failure.”

“Boy's lungs are crapping out fast.”

“Maybe we'll get lucky and the parents will be a match,” Arizona said as she grabbed a fresh pair of gloves.

“Jo hit me up about having kids today out of absolutely nowhere,” Alex said, as he hung the bag of fluids. “Is that what happens? You shack up, and then suddenly your ovaries go into overdrive?”

He didn’t understand it. Things were great, they were in a good place. They just finished the loft. They were establishing their home together. He was happy just the way things were and so was she, or so he thought. He knew that Jo sometimes needed a little extra reassurance about her place in his life, but this wasn’t it. This was baby talk and Alex was nowhere near ready for that.

“Aw, I think you'll be a good dad,” Arizona said with a smile. “Your babies will be so foul-mouthed and dirty and cute.”

Alex smiled and shook his head. Arizona was right, his and Jo’s kids would be cute and foul-mouthed and he did want that, someday. “I just didn't think we were there yet. I don't know if I am. Definitely didn't think she was.”

Arizona gasped, her smile falling as she froze. “Alex.”

“What?”

“What if you're already there?” Alex’s face fell and he looked up as Arizona continued, her voice getting lower as she spoke. “What if she's asking cause she's already knocked up, and she's just testing the waters?”

“Why would you even say that?” Alex said panicking as he thought about it.

Jo couldn’t be pregnant, could she? They were so careful with contraceptives, Jo was on the pill and they both worked to ensure she took it every day at the same time. He knew there was a chance, a 1% chance, that the pill wouldn't work, but he didn’t think.

But Jo was tired, she had been sleeping in more the past few days. Her breasts were sore, she had complained when he touched them last night. She was feeling nauseous and had been picking at her food the last few days. Alex knew she was due to get her period this week and had stocked up on her favorite snacks, tampons, and pain meds. He had washed her favorite blanket and the cover for the hot water bottle and she had curled up on the couch with both last night. He thought she just had PMS, but the symptoms also aligned with Jo being pregnant.

“We tested the parents,” Warren said as he and DeLuca walked over to them. “The results are back.”

Alex shook his head. Jo and their potential baby would have to wait while he tried to save the twins. He would go home tonight and talk to her, but in the meantime, he worried.

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Jo heard Alex put his keys and coat on the hook by the door, but stayed curled up on the couch. She took a deep breath and looked down at her notes. This was it. She knew she had to talk to him tonight.

“Hey,” Alex greeted her with a simple acknowledgment.

“All nighter?” Jo asked, still looking down at the notebook in her lap.

“Yeah, and I need to go back. I just need a couple of hours of sleep,” Alex said, as he sat down on the bench at the end of their bed and rubbed his face.

“Can we talk?” Jo asked, she was hesitant as she turned her head to look at him.

Alex dropped his hand from his face and rubbed his hands on his jeans. It was what he did when he wasn’t sure what else to do. “Yeah.”

Jo nodded as she got up and came over to him the piece of paper in her hands.

“Okay, yeah. Are you…”

“I found this,” Jo said, handing him the piece of paper. She had to deal with this first before she told him. She had to know if he had kids, if he wanted kids with her. “I was unpacking, I, uh, wasn't snooping. I know it's kind of none of my business, but I picked it up, and then I just couldn't put it down.”

“Oh, okay, this.” Alex nodded as he read over the paper as if it was nothing.

“You have babies?” Jo asked, she knew he didn't seem like the type of guy that would have a secret family or have kids he didn’t see, but she didn't know what to think when she found the paper.

“No, no, these are embryos,” Alex said with a chuckle.

“With Izzie?”

“Listen, Izzie wanted to freeze her eggs. She needed them fertilized. I did it, she froze them. That's all.”

The way Alex talked about the embryos was as if they were nothing more than the piece of paper he was holding, instead of a dozen frozen embryos in a lab somewhere that Izzie could use at any time. It was like a second shoe just waiting to drop and destroy the life that she and Alex had created together.

“That's all?” Jo asked a little astonished at how little he cared about this.

“Yeah, then she left me. That's all, you can toss it.” Alex said, handing her the paper.

Jo took the paper back and looked down as Alex took off his other shoe. “So, you wanted to have babies with her?”

“Yeah, I, I don't, I don't know. I mean, that was, that was a hundred years ago.”

Jo watched Alex fumble over his words as he looked up at her before going over to the fridge and grabbing a water bottle.

“I'm just asking because when I asked you if you wanted to move in with me, you said that you did and that you could picture a life with me, but you never said anything about babies. You said, maybe we could get a dog,” Jo said as she followed him into the kitchen.

“Do you want a dog?” Alex asked, looking confused and it killed her.

“No, I want to know what we're doing here.” Jo insisted. She had to know what he wanted, what his intentions were with her before she told him. Because if this wasn’t what he wanted then it changed everything. “I love you, and you love me. I know, but when I look ahead,”

“Why are we looking ahead?” Alex interrupted, but Jo continued.

“If you had or maybe you do have, for all I know, a bunch of Izzie babies walking around with your face on them,” Jo said, closing her eyes for a moment, waving her hand around.

“And why are we doing it now?”

“And, and I'm just the ‘let's get a dog’ girl? I'm wondering what you think we are, what you want.”

“Look, I didn't have babies with Izzie. My role in that whole thing was with a cup and a magazine.”

“But you would have,” Jo stressed, trying to get him to understand her perspective in all this. “You wanted to. She was worth it to you, but when I ask you if you want to have babies, you're all, ‘I don't know, yes, no, maybe, uh…’”

“She was my wife. We were married,” Alex said, slamming his hand down on the table.

“That's my point,” Jo said, raising her voice. “What am I?”

“She had cancer. She didn't even know if she was gonna be able to after the radiation,” Alex said walking away from her and going to sit down on the bench at the end of their bed.

“No, don't do. What, I have to get sick to figure out if you're gonna go all in with me?” Jo asked, watching him put his shoes back on as she crossed her arms. “And now you're gonna go.”

“Yes, and you're right, it's kind of none of your business,” Alex yelled as he put his coat back on. “And I'm not doing this! I'm not talking about babies that I didn't have with Izzie or may or may not have with you. I have two real babies I'm responsible for at the hospital right now. I have enough kids to take care of.”

Jo put her hand over her mouth as she turned away from the door hearing it slam shut. It hurt to hear Alex say that and to watch him walk away from her. Callie once said that when dating Alex Karev, Jo would always have something to be mad about and she was right. Usually, Jo took her anger out in the OR helping Torres break and fix bones, but her pregnancy left her exhausted. All Jo wanted to do was curl up in bed with Alex. Instead, she was in the Loft all alone.

She felt like she had more questions and answers about whether he was all in or not because he did have a baby with her. Soon the baby in her belly would be a baby in her arms and she didn't want to keep fighting with Alex. So she put the paper away and went back to studying. Tomorrow the twins he was taking care of would be in their parents' care and Jo would still be pregnant and she and Alex could talk about it then.

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After a day like today, the only thing that Alex wanted to do was go home, grab a beer, sit on the couch, and watch whatever sports team was playing. Or at least that’s what he used to do, but now he had Jo. Things were different, a good kind of different. He would go home and they would try not to make a disaster out of dinner. Then he would wrap his arms around Jo and pull her in to sit next to him on the couch. They'd argue over what to watch before they settled on something, but it wouldn’t be long before they started kissing and tearing each other's clothes off. At last, Alex would crawl into bed with her and kiss her one last time before he fell asleep. That was how he loved to end his days and he wanted to spend the rest of his nights like that.

With how things had ended last night, Alex knew he had to make it right with her. Jo was the best thing in his life and he wanted a life with her. Alex wanted a family and he wanted kids, not with Izzie, with Jo. She was worth fighting for, but he hated fighting with her because it meant he couldn't go home and sleep in her arms. He never wanted to spend another night without her next to him. This life, this family with Jo was what he wanted.

Alex opened the door to the Loft and walked over to stand at the end of the bed for a moment thinking of what to say. Jo was studying, monopolizing the whole bed with her books, and notes, and multi-colored pens, that wouldn't all get picked up and would definitely end up poking him at four in the morning.

“You okay?” Jo asked, not looking up from her notes.

“Yeah,” Alex said, waving his hands around and trying not to feel or look like an idiot. “Look, about last night.”

“No,” Jo said interrupting him and cutting him off. “You said it's none of my business, so, it's...”

“Well, it's not,” Alex said, putting his hands on his hips and trying not to fidget with his hands or his words. “And it is, it's. Look, I get mad and, and you get squirrely.”

“I do not,” Jo said, throwing her notebook and pen to the side.

“No, you get squirrely when someone says they're gonna be there, and then you think maybe they won't. That happens. You're allowed.”

“Okay,” Jo said, putting down the rest of her books and leaning forward to listen to him.

“I'm not going anywhere. And if, if,” Alex trailed off as he struggled with the words, and took a deep breath. “Having a kid is what you want, then I can be ready.”

Jo raised her eyebrows and tilted her head as she looked at him. Alex took this as a sign to keep going and pulled his T-shirt out from where it was tucked into his pants.

“I'm ready. I mean, let's do it,” Alex said as he rushed to undo his belt and his pants, pulling them down and letting them drop to the floor. Standing there in his boxer briefs, his pants around his ankles he smiled at her and tilted up his chin. “Let's make a baby, right now.”

Jo burst out laughing, her hysterics surprised him as he stared at her. Usually, when Alex dropped his pants, Jo would smirk and jump his bones, not laugh at him.

“Are you out of your mind?” Jo laughed as she smiled for the first time that day. “We're not making a baby.”

Despite how happy Alex was to see her smile he was a little confused. He thought this was what she wanted. He thought that this was what she had been alluding to wanting yesterday.

“We're not making a baby,” Jo said as her laughter paused and her smile softened. “Because we already made one.”

Jo let her words hang in the air as Alex stood there with his pants down, staring at her. He blinked once, then twice before he tried to take a step towards her, only to get caught in his pants and tripped. Alex caught himself and jumped forward until he could jump on the bed and pull Jo towards him. Her smile was gone and she stared at him with her lips slightly parted. It was that unsure expression again and this time when he saw her face his heart broke.

“We made a baby, you're pregnant?” Alex asked, trying to wrap his head around it.

At first, he thought she wanted kids, then he thought she was pregnant. Then he thought she was just mad because of the embryos, because she wanted to know what their future would look like, and now she was telling him that she was pregnant. The day had been a roller coaster of emotions, everything with the twins. After saving Emma Kiefer and holding Daniel Kiefer as he died. Alex made a decision, he wanted a family with Jo. Yet here she was, having been carrying their baby all along.

“Yes.” Jo breathed out, her breath hot on his cheeks.

“We made a baby,” Alex smiled as wide as he could. He let the excitement fill his voice as he placed a hand on Jo’s stomach. It was still flat like it always was, but she was pregnant.

“We made a baby, that’s what I’ve been trying to tell you for the past few days. I just, I wanted to make sure you wanted one too,” Jo explained, in a whisper, still a little hesitant.

“We made a baby,” Alex said again, still in disbelief.

“Yeah,” Jo said, tilting her head as she watched him take it all in.

“If we're gonna do this I promise not to get mad if you promise not to get squirrely,” Alex nodded, he knew that he had to do right by Jo and their baby. “And we’re both going to talk things through like adults, no more misunderstandings.”

“I promise,” Jo said, a smile blooming across her face.

“Okay,” Alex said, smiling as he leaned in to kiss her belly. “Hi baby.”

Jo put her hand on the back of his head running her fingers through his hair and Alex looked up to see her eyes watering as she smiled down at him and he sat up and kissed her lips. This was what he wanted, a life, a family, a baby with Jo. It was all supposed to be with her.

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