#gramma can't travel anymore so we zoomed in with mixed results

[songofsunset]

my great aunt's funeral was today

we spent it with my grandmother (it was her older sister) and I think we helped her have an okay time of it and feel cared for and I gave her a casserole which may not be 100% useful to her but that’s not the point, the point is that I told her I cared about her with the cultural language we share and she appreciated it 

but also I am not prepared to grapple with human mortality or the thought of doing the things my cousins etc did for their gramma today for my own gramma in a couple of years, this is terrifying, we all know it’s coming sooner than later and I am NOT a fan

anyways my sister needed a hat repair and my gramma gave me one of HER grandmother’s crochet hooks so I could do it and yeah im fine this is fine everything is fine