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Fuck ghost and konig brainrot
#konig so precious wth#he's a gaint gremlin#and ghost is so fucking babygurl#im gonna husbnd them both up#gotta love my nonsense 5am rambling#fuck fcuk fyck the size kink is rial#and em biceps looks so cuddly#thigh riding on tactical outfjt š³š³š³#lord have mercy the masks#and the eye smirks#i will eat em both up#takin em to pound town when#ok but dominating these men thoš«¦#the power hold to make them submit#fuck me but they're both getting nomnomed
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nonsensical 5am rambling about a character under the cut, Iām sparing yāall from having to read this. Feel free to ignore Iām just getting stuff out.
I hate how badly Lemres was infantilized after 7. It is so genuinely horrific. Atrocious, fr. Heās one of my favorite characters of all time andĀ I can barely stand him in Quest. Thatās gotta be impressive. They took all his depth and threw it out the window so bad that it was literally unrecoverable in PPT2 (not that I dislike PPT2ā²s interpretation of him in fact itās my favorite iteration, it just hurts that the consistency is so lacking).Ā Like holy shit how do you go from Ā āChild prodigy mage whoās kindhearted if not a tad eccentric and holds a lot of secrets. He bears the trauma of a rough childhood but has processed it enough to lead a healthy life and dedicates his time and effort to make sure others are content with their lives too. Despite his maturity though, heās still a student and makes mistakes. Heās dealing with his own issues still, managing the stress of being so widely popular and two of his close friends constantly fighting. He also has a bit of a sweet tooth and likes making his own sweets.ā toĀ āLol qwirky candy addictā You fucking destroyed him dude. PPT1 at least brought back his laid-back nature instead of having him be... weirdly, annoyingly overbearing, but I also credit that to Ben Diskinās voicework.
But I have to say, Iām beyond relieved that PPT2 remedied this. When I tell you I was ECSTATIC to see he was more serious, hell, even ANXIOUS in this game, I mean it. They really hit home. There are so many scenes I could point out in this game that make me so incredibly happy, just because we get to see the true, characterized Lemres again. From his little sidestory showing his personal struggle with marle and intense concern for his friends (housing the wonderfulĀ āYou know you donāt have to do this alone, right?ā quote from Ecolo that hit a little too hard) to the tiny little practice segment where he expresses that he honestly has no idea how to deal with being put on such a high pedestal by people he considers himself close to. I cannot sing enough praises about his characterization in this game. The way heās written radiates a familiar feeling of āIām trying my best here, but I really donāt know what to do. Iām one person in a huge world, and Iām just as feeble as everyone else no matter how many people look up to me.ā And thatās something that honestly resonates. Itās wonderful to see him be anything other than JUST a sugar-obsessed maniac. Itās wonderful to see him be a person again. His love for candy is part of his identity, but it isnāt all thatās there, and Iām glad they finally realized that after.... what, a decade?
#rambling#it is now almost 6am omg#not shifting#this is just me talking about lemres for an hour#puyo puyo#swearing cw#addiction cw#not really but it's there to be safe#caps cw#minor
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There are so many fucking games I want to play for the blog and I hypothetically have the time, but the energy, the attention span, the drive?
In more positive terms here are some various titles I plan to give a shot for the blog.
Let's do a 5am state of the blog kind of thing to clear some thoughts, eh?
Morrowind (Current Game ramble)
For the moment the blog is more or less on break with me playing Morrowind ""For the blog"" but mostly for me, because that's just a game I've wanted to explore. Not that every other game on the blog isn't that, just that I looked at Morrowind and said "That'll be a terrible game to present naturally. That's a stream game, or a condensed video, not a liveblog" and then did it anyway.
I'm loving Morrowind! Honestly the sense of mystery, fantasy, and adventure is just chef kiss levels of perfect to me.
But it's terrible in a photoset, I'm not particularly interested in doing another format for the game, and it's a game with less 'intense narrative themes!' and more 'Incredibly different game design compared to modern Bethesda' in terms of discussion material and let's all be real here:
We're all fucking tired of that conversation lol.
So there ain't much to talk on in depth, it's more of a "Here's a newbie seeing new things!" playthrough with nothing to talk about after the fact, which ain't a strong point for the blog- again- that's a stream/video kind of thing.
ANYWHO- Morrowind fun, about the only news I can offer on that series is that it might abruptly end and become a 'for me' series because I'm not particularly interested in beating the game nearly as much as I'm interested in exploring aimlessly and seeing what happens.
I'm not playing Morrowind for the end goal of beating the main quest, or beating the DLCs. I'm playing it to wander into caves and find new pants, so if I reach a point where I'm satisfied with what I've shared and my motivation has not borne a new end goal then I'll end the live blog and move on to a new game :P
Backlog
The short statement I'll make is that this blog is a hell for my backlog.
Even without infinite money on hand I've ended up with so many physical and digital games just sitting here waiting to be played either because they caught my eye or because of recommendations by various people over the years.
I keep sitting down, cataloguing my backlog, realizing it's pointless to catalog, deleting it all, and then starting over yet again.
The fact is, if anyone recommended it it's probably still sitting in a text document somewhere, or physically on my shelf, and I don't remotely know when I'll get to it.
I've yet to hit the point where I decide to turn this blog into work, so I have never sat down and gone "Well, Retphienix NEEDS to post! Sit down, 8-12 hours minimum, let's play the next game!"
And part of me wishes I'd do that, but the fact is this isn't a job. There's no money here, there's the opposite even! I don't remotely see it that way, but if you squint and tilt your head I've spent a lot of money on this blog over the years.
Capture devices (a lot of them!), consoles specifically bought for the blog, controllers out the wazoo, I've gone through multiple computers for this thing, and the games, my lord the games- so many games.
And that's fiscally, what about manpower? So many hours have gone into this blog, so many hours poured into the background of making all this work, researching shit, putting my all into formulating my opinions clearly for posts, writing, hell video shit even though it's mostly clips as my one step into edited content became an impromptu awkward hiatus from doing more lol.
What was I on about.
Despite all that nonsense, Retphienix is a passion project. Not a job.
If I lack the passion in some sense then the work doesn't get done "just for the sake of the work". And I don't mean lost passion as much as "No motivation on x day; tired on y day; interested in doing something else on z day" etc.
If things aren't clickin' I don't force it, so the blog has all this backlog and isn't put together in a way that facilitates burning through it quickly.
I do sometimes wish things were different though, I know I'd still enjoy such a playstyle, but I can't justify "faking it til you make it" in a format that literally isn't built to pay and was never intended to.
I can't work myself for nothin'.
Hypothetical "Next" games
While the backlog is a wild wasteland of titles, there are some that just kinda guarantee their spots sooner rather than later.
Yakuza 6 and 7 along with Judgment, obviously. The series is one of my all time favorites and I generally have some of my absolute most fun on the blog side of things with those games, so it's a winner on two fronts. It's just fun to react to, post out of context things for, and talk with other fans about and for whatever reason tumblr has a healthy enough fanbase for the series that my meager blog gets some attention there.
Dragon Quest has a strangely weighted chance all things considered. DQ has many of the same advantages as Yakuza- it's a series I adore, it's fun to talk about in this format, and the fandom is big enough to occasionally spill my way making the blogging experience a bit more fun. It's also a series where I don't know what'd come next to be fair. Probably DQ4? I mean, might as well continue on from that point since I have 1-3 done. I can't exactly justify replaying the entirety of DQ11 no matter how much I want to! Turning on the games above gave me DQ goosebumps which kinda settled how likely it is to show up sooner rather than later, lol.
Jeez. I looked at one of my surviving lists and that's like all that's popping out at me.
Other series feel like giant leaps with no gas in the tank, like do I want to start playing Kingdom Hearts? Not really, not right now. Do I finally play Lisa? Eeeeeeh. Persona? Hmmmm.
I haven't the fuzziest. There are so many one off interesting titles, but if the drive ain't there they might as well be textbooks.
Perhaps instead of any major next game I'll just do some afternoons exploring random titles for a bit here and there with no intention of beating em.
The idea is enticing as hell, but the feeling of not giving the game's a "real shake" feels bad.
We'll see. The only certainties seem to be Yakuza and DQ, as much as I'd prefer far more.
Side project hypotheticals
Outside of the basic live blog stuff I'm still interested in exploring scripted stuff. Mostly to prove to myself that I can overcome some anxieties and break from the meandering pace the last effort gave- I can write! That much I know! So just gotta trick myself into writing for a video and then make the video after the fact lol.
Current thoughts are on a video exploring the monster taming sub-genre. It's a genre near and dear to my heart, and one I know some weird things about as is- but mostly it's a genre I KNOW I know very little about despite that, so I'd like to give it an overall look, or perhaps just explore some random entries, I haven't a clue lol. I'd mostly like an opportunity to talk about some interesting entries in the genre, things like explaining my adoration for DWM while explaining how the flaws make it really rough today, or the interesting mash of genres that is Lost Magic, or the more modern take that mashes idle-like mechanics with Siralim Ultimate.
Won't lie, playing the demo for Monster Hunter Stories 2 threw a wrench in that plan because it made me want to talk about it and how the genre might have a new breath of life after really grinding to a halt as pokemon became what it is today, but all to be seen or not lol.
As far as other things like streams? Not really.
The concept of writing a bit more on games is tickling the back of my head lately, but that mostly just means "more posts that aren't live-blogging" as I haven't the fuzziest where I'd share such nonsense.
Really it's all up in the air as far as retphienix content is concerned, beyond the live blogging obviously.
5am closing
It's fun to explore what games have to offer, both on the individual level, the personal level, and as a whole- as a medium.
So I like Retphienix.
And I like all I've made here.
I hope to continue for a long, long time- no matter what future formats might look like.
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