#gotta lock in for 2025

[bloodaslube]

thank you to @vampiremother for inviting me to share my 9 favourite "new to me" movies of 2024 🖤

I'm sorry for being lazy and shy but if we're mutuals consider yourself tagged... pls I'm curious

[princesscallyie]

Desperation’s Embrace: The Snake and the Raven - 1. Black Card

Bratty puppy is up one! Drake finally gets one over on Eirenelas when he recklessly gives him access to his black card. Now Eire really should have known better, he's messing a legendary trickster here

Here's the first of the comic series I have planned. Just random scenes of their relationship that go together (cause I don't want to commit to an actual full story comic). There's 10+ scenes that I have in mind so far. There's some for Kingsley too. His branch is called "The Hero and the Abyss".

[spicymotte]

*white-knuckling the sink*

[laserdiscsurgery]

I’VE BEEN ACCEPTED!!!!!!!!

[yeyayeya]

Gotta go with my blorbo, my boy, the most obscure character no one probably cares about

[batsplat]

what press conference is that and what lies is Valentino telling 😭😭😭

I’m always obsessed w the Case - J Lo - Vale pressers bc I feel like Jorge actively dissociates anytime he’s not asked a question (bc he’s already internally mapping out his answers to the next 20 possible questions he could be asked), Casey simmers n stews n hates every second of being there, and Vale is just always having the time of his life

(side note but rly underrated skill of his!! to be able to pretend you actually enjoy the press element!! maybe he’s not pretending, maybe he really is just able to turn it On that often & that easily…but idk I’ve been a longtime f1 fan too & the way Vale is able to make press conferences ~fun, or at least project that he’s having fun during them, is incredibly rare)

((i recognize “underrated” is probably not the right term generally speaking for the guy who is widely recognized as like the greatest showman the sport’s ever had lol. just that i personally underrate it & then am always pleasantly surprised when i watch almost any press conference of his))

(text posts here) this is from aragon 2011, a point in their relationship where quite honestly casey didn't need much of an excuse to give valentino the stink eye

there's not anything in the presser you'd actively expect casey to want to kill valentino with his mind over (beyond valentino's terminal affinity for yapping at anyone in his vicinity in these things). maybe valentino commenting on how fast casey and ducati had been at aragon the last year somehow attracted casey's ire? maybe valentino reiterating he was going to race in japan (a major talking point throughout that year - valentino and jorge had initially been united in launching a bit of a riders' revolt on that issue, including meeting at jorge's motorhome at a time when relations between them were otherwise... uh, frosty; eventually it had been casey and jorge who were the final holdouts, with casey still not willing to 100% commit at aragon)... generally though, I reckon this is mostly just how casey looked at valentino those days

though that reminds me, there's one specific question where, if I were valentino, honestly I'd be tempted to off myself - but somehow it's casey who manages to look quite awkward while valentino just laughs

Q: Different question for you, Casey - any advice for Valentino this weekend? This is where you turned your season around last year. ... Ride faster? CS: Do something drastic, I don't know... (mumbles) [Same for me?]

absolute all timer dynamic idk, look at casey's little nervous tics while valentino is grinning at him

so self-conscious god bless

anyway, here's the presser photo

expression gets gradually more enthusiastic as you move to the right. not reflective of current competitive situation

and yeah I find their different styles of engagement v interesting!! jorge's also gone on a bit of an arc with this over the years... you've got these very early clips where he still needs a translator in the presser (not at all uncommon, dovi for instance was the same) and he's just deeply awkward but also quite enthusiastic, then you get to his first premier class years where... y'know, he's clearly not a natural at this, but he WANTS to be, he WANTS to engage with the process and be charming and all the rest of it... and then by 2011 he's kind of given up. 2010 was great for his career but less great for his popularity, and it's really when you can feel the disillusionment creeping in. he never quite loses that part of himself, still obviously wants to win hearts and minds... but yeah. he's never been particularly up for listening to his peers in these things, but by this point in time he did clearly want to fast forward through these things. default state is zoning out

casey might be a well-known sceptic of any kind of engagement with the public - but he's actually a self-professed people watcher, he likes sitting around quietly observing people. one of my fave lil autobiography nuggets:

I like to think I can read people very well, especially people I get to study a lot, and when I come in during a session to make changes to the bike that is exactly what I am doing. The mechanics might think that because I have got my visor down I'm just sitting there doing nothing but I'm observing everything and I could see they weren't coping well with the pressure of having the big bosses watching over them.

'my mechanics think I'm doing nothing but actually I'm sitting with my visor down secretly observing them' is such a. a deeply funny line, deeply casey line. not sure I'm convinced the mechanics would prefer to know that this is what casey was doing, but there we are. in any case, obviously casey doesn't SAY this but I don't think it's a massive leap to suggest he was doing the same thing in pressers. ofc I enjoy using these photos in text posts because they kinda tell their own story, but I should note that to some extent this is just casey's resting face. like,, if I'm sufficiently motivated obviously I can also make a 'casey doesn't fw dani' version

now admittedly, there are way fewer photos of casey staring at dani and jorge (or indeed anyone else) than there are of him staring at valentino... arguably even in the years where valentino is very much no longer casey's main on-track rival. but like, there's also relatively less photos of casey making heart eyes at those other two guys. whether this genuinely reflects how much staring casey was doing or is just the result of photographer bias (no criticism, I too would be documenting every look casey sends valentino's way) or a combination of the two... who knows. but I DO think that casey was very much committed to studying valentino, including by doing this little staring act in pressers. slightly clashes with his whole 'oh I don't care about my rivals' schtick, but, well, casey's no stranger to a bit of an internal contradiction. so he's quietly studying and quietly judging and quietly seething... LEARNING from the enemy by documenting every last detail of his side profile. or something

and yeah lol massive props to valentino not getting tired of this week in week out. admittedly in pressers specifically he does also frequently entertain himself by choosing the nearest convenient victim to yap at, which both jorge and casey very obviously found an annoying habit at times. (shout out to misano 2016 where jorge and valentino started bickering in the presser and jorge afterwards went HE NEVER SHUTS UP IN THESE THINGS, which, like, wasn't particularly relevant in that specific situation and clearly had just been something he'd been sitting on for years.) both jorge and casey have also actively turned to valentino on at least one occasion in a presser to indicate that they would like him to shut the fuck up - and both times valentino has complied, so theoretically at least they could have put a stop to this. so, y'know, it probably doesn't hurt if you're the type of guy willing to make your own fun in these pressers, even when it comes at the active cost of the sanity of the people around you. beyond that though, yup. I mean it's probably a good attitude to have if that's literally your whole life. I think it's always done valentino a lot of good that he's fundamentally a curious type of bloke who is curious about other people. journalists DO piss him off a lot of the time, but in theory it's a process he likes engaging with because he likes talking and he likes listening. honestly did miracles for the vibes of these things, like the f1 thing is a good point because I sometimes watch motogp pressers these days and go. man. this place could do with a yapper

[ismene]

another day, another VERY COOL phd position posting that i can't apply for

[ruinix]

Quinn (part 2)

Hand. That's the HIGHLIGHT of this one. Like gosh, his hand looks so delicate. Then THAT BRUSHING HIS HAIR ONE, GOSH. I literally had to play it back five times before i move on. Coz sir, huggy, hello??? I am already mesmerized with your face and you gotta brush your luscious locks away?? I. Am. Done. 🥵🤧

(Postgame. Vancouver Canucks @ Washington Capitals, Jan 8, 2025) (Part 1; Part 3)

[snnynatural]

i  made  a  new  years  post  on  my  positivity  blog  (  @lumiiiscorner  -  send  your  friends  some  love  ),  but  i  will  now  make  a  post  here!  feel  free  to  read  or  don't!  this  is  mainly  a  reflection  on  how  this  year  went.

2024…..  oh  man…..  i'm  gonna  have  to  admit,  it  was  the  worst  year  of  my  life.  not  being  paid  for  an  entire  year,  my  mom's  health,  overworked,  unemployed,  burnt  out,  existing  for  other  people,  and  so  on.  mental  health  spiraling  downward,  but  i  have  started  my  first  session  of  therapy  yesterday,  which  means  i  am  entering  this  new  year  with  self  healing.  not  only  that,  but  i  decided  to  try  on  a  new  career  path  (a  silly  one)  and  will  be  out  of  the  country  for  a  month  visiting  my  sister.  so  maybe  things  will  hopefully  turn  up!

with  this  year  being  the  way  it  is,  i  do  want  to  give  a  few  shoutouts  to  those  that  were  there  with  me  the  whole  time.  whether  it  was  the  beginning  of  the  year,  middle,  or  end,  you  guys  specifically  saw  how  much  shit  i  was  going  through  and  guided  me  through  it  and  i'm  forever  grateful.  some  of  you  might  be  tagged  more  than  once  since  i  will  be  making  this  post  on  all  my  blogs  and  you  guys  most  likely  follow  and  interact  with  me  in  all  of  them:

@rhodaes  oh  bitch…  we've  been  through  the  ringer  haven't  we?  if  this  year  has  taught  me  anything,  it's  how  despite  how  ugly  it  gets,  you  can  come  out  stronger.  and  we  did  just  that.  you  going  through  your  own  mess,  me  going  through  mine,  and  us  hitting  rocky  paths  but  here  we  are  now!  learning  more  about  each  other  and  continuing  to  love  each  other.  you've  been  my  day  one  since  i  came  back  to  indie.  and  you  remain  my  day  one  to  this  day.  can  i  just  say  how  proud  i  am  of  us?  cause  i  really  fucking  am.  this  year  was  a  bitch,  but  we're  gonna  be  tackling�� 2025  locked  arm  and  arm.  i  am  proud  of  how  far  you've  come  and  i  am  grateful  for  everything  you've  done  for  me  while  i've  been  falling  apart.  it's  a  mess  when  we're  both  dealing  with  a  lot,  but  i  know  you  have  my  back  and  i  have  yours.  now  we  gotta  get  our  shit  together  and  pick  up  on  spn  watches  rekjgbesjkrg

@gccdgraces  my  water  birthed  child…i  love  you  so  fucking  bad.  you've  seen  me  at  my  worst  this  whole  entire  year  and  not  once  have  you  made  me  feel  small  or  stupid.  you've  held  my  hand  through  this  fucking  nightmare.  reading  my  google  docs  to  our  power  hours.  you've  always  the  patience  to  just  sit  with  me  and  help  me  either  sit  through  my  emotions  or  just  keep  me  distracted.  can  you  believe  we're  almost  done  with  swac  and  about  to  enter  their  breakup  episode???  not  ready!!!!!  but  fack  man.  i  love  you  so  bad.  never  ever  getting  rid  of  me  bitch.  EVER.

@nightmarishwritings  sammy  sammy  sammy.  my  cinnamon  roll  baby.  i've  known  you  for  quite  some  time  now  and  we've  been  through  some  shit  at  the  same  time.  i  think  you're  one  of  the  ones  that  take  notice  when  i'm  not  around  and  come  searching  for  me.  that  little  thing  makes  me  want  to  snuggle  you  and  never  let  you  go.  and  your  kind  words  always  have  me  weeping.  i  hope  you  know  how  much  you  mean  to  me  and  how  your  kindness  is  never  taken  for  granted.  you  are  truly  one  of  my  best  friends  and  i'm  not  letting  you  go  mkay?  and  i  will  always  remain  as  your  guard  dog.  BARK  BARK.  you  deserve  the  world  and  maybe  one  day  i  will  kidnap  it  for  you  :)))

@salvatoraes  idk  how  many  years  it  has  been,  but  i  fucking  love  you  my  kidney  owner.  you've  been  there  for  me  through  so  much  shit  and  honestly?  this  year  i  am  surprised  how  much  we  both  are  going  through  some  similar  shit.  but  just  know  that  i'm  always  here  for  you  like  you're  always  here  for  me.  you  have  one  of  the  kindest  souls  out  there  and  you  always  keep  me  giggling.  especially  during  our  who  loves  who  the  most  war.  it's  me,  obviously.  but  i  appreciate  everything  you've  done  for  me  all  these  years.  i  won't  ever  take  it  for  granted.  and  i  hope  to  stick  with  you  longer  <3

@safestkittykatintown  /  @wavrlynatural  my  bumbling  bee!!!  this  year  was  the  year  we  have  become  so  close  and  i  am  forever  grateful.  granted,  i  don't  remember  how  we  got  close.  i  only  remember  sonny  adopting  max  and  then  everything  was  history  krejgsr  dare  i  say,  you're  the  selena  to  my  demi  mhm  yes.  i  am  forever  grateful  for  everything  you've  done  for  me.  sitting  with  me  and  chatting  with  me  through  my  mess.  not  to  mention,  all  the  positive  things  you  send  my  way  i  always  keep  in  my  heart.  literally,  you  have  kept  me  sane  this  entire  year.  and  i  know  you've  been  going  through  your  hard  times  as  well  and  all  i  can  say  is  that  i  am  proud  of  you!  i  see  you  working  on  yourself  while  also  showing  so  much  care  to  the  people  around  you.  love  you  immensely  despite  us  being  in  our  shitty  brain  eras  JKBRKJGBE  we  got  this!

@broknfeed  well  well  well  if  it  isn't  my  other  day  one.  i  still  remember  screaming  when  i  saw  your  message  in  my  inbox  when  you  came  back  after  3  years.  4  years?  idk  i  can't  remember.  either  way,  you  returned  and  i  still  cry  that  you  went  searching  for  me.  and  since  being  back  together,  i  am  forever  grateful  for  you.  you  listened  to  me  while  i  cried  and  i  snuggle  you  through  the  screen  with  your  own  things.  just  a  little  struggle  buses  aren't  we?  despite  all  this  shit,  you've  been  there  for  me  and  i  love  you  more  than  anything.  and  you  know  i'll  continue  to  be  here  for  you.  day  one  always.

@sacrisaint  my  bb  gurl  <3  i  will  start  this  off  by  saying  i  am  proud  of  you  and  all  the  work  you've  done  and  are  continuing  to  do.  i  hope  you  know  how  grateful  i  am  that  you've  checked  up  on  me  despite  me  being  a  stubborn  butt  kjrebsgkjbr  it  means  a  lot  and  so  does  your  friendship.  i  don't  remember  how  we  got  close,  i  just  remember  meg  thirsting  for  sonny  and  now  here  we  are  kjrbgeskjgb  i  still  wheeze  at  the  tire  movie  we  watched  and  i  hope  to  continue  watching  more  movies  with  you  soon!  like  how  i  confused  you  with  those  disney  shorts  kjregbsjk  i  love  you  and  hugging  you  bunches.

@bloodsalted / @safetypinned  dixon  you  fucking  ass  butt!!  you  are  such  a  troll  and  i  fucking  love  you.  always  kept  me  laughing  while  i'm  going  through  my  shit.  not  to  mention,  you  are  my  honorary  filipinoooo.  i  still  remember  being  so  nervous  about  interacting  with  you,  but  you  have  welcomed  me  with  open  arms.  not  only  that,  you've  become  one  of  the  important  people  in  my  life  who  has  done  nothing  but  be  there  when  i'm  feeling  like  shit  and  listening  to  all  the  thoughts  i  have  in  mind.  i  know  you've  been  up  and  down  as  well  and  i  hope  you  know  that  you'll  have  me  kicking  those  thoughts  away. 

@firstsoncain / @ceocrowley  ava  my  dear!  what  started  from  crack  shit  to  actual  things  i  will  forever  be  uwu  about  <3  i  love  you  dearly  and  i  appreciate  you  being  there  when  i  have  been  spending  some  time  away  from  tumblr.  always  being  their  with  open  ears  and  all.  i  am  so  grateful  to  you  and  so  glad  that  we  met.  your  writing  had  me  nervous  af  and  i  didn't  think  you'd  write  with  little  ol'e  me  but  here  we  are!  i  love  you  to  the  moon  and  back  and  i  appreciate  you  and  your  kindness  more  than  you  know.

@qapsiel  at  this  point  i  will  bless  your  womb  rebgksjebrgjkrgk  sarah!!  now,  i  have  not  dumped  my  little  sad  ass  on  you,  but  i  wanted  to  shout  you  out  because  during  my  shitty  days,  idk  how  it  happens,  but  you  are  usually  the  first  one  to  get  me  laughing.  with  the  shit  castiel  puts  sonny  through,  it  is  literally  the  highlight  every  time  i  log  online.  can  you  believe  it's  been  an  entire  year?  of  cas  trying  to  bless  sonny's  womb??  the  joke  will  never  die  and  i  just  love  you  very  much  <3

@rottenache  /  @benbraeden  /  @hervelle  lilly!!!!  i'm  so  glad  we're  not  divorced  kjbgerskgjberkjgb  not  like  we  can,  it's  in  our  contract.  but  i  want  to  start  off  by  saying  i  am  proud  of  you!  you've  been  through  so  much  and  you've  been  growing  and  learning  and  that  is  fucking  admirable.  i  am  so  grateful  to  you  for  being  there  for  me.  not  to  mention  how  we've  been  through  some  similar  ooc  things.  it  sucks  but  at  least  we  have  each  other.  i  am  so  appreciative  of  you  for  being  there  for  me  and  all  the  kindness  you  have  shown  me.  you  are  fucking  amazing  and  i  love  you  soooooo  much  <3

@lastvessel  we  haven't  known  each  other  long,  but  i  hope  you  know  that  your  kindness  hasn't  gone  unnoticed.  it  means  the  world  to  have  you  message  me  checking  up  on  me.  it  may  be  small,  but  it  impacts  me  so  much  more.  i  hope  to  continue  writing  with  you  and  creating  things  with  you!  you  are  such  a  beautiful  soul  and  i  hope  you  know  you  have  a  friend  in  me!

extra  little  shoutouts  for  the  few  that  kept  me  laughing  and  smiling  throughout  this  damn  year: 

@ofblackskies  ,  @wantdead  ,  @evanave  (and  all  your  other  blogs) , @konkuurito

also  another  another  shoutout  to  new  friends  that  i  hope  to  create  more  things  with  you  <3

@crispyblonde  (and  all  your  blogs)  ,  @hadesheiir  ,  @warsaves  ,  @cfthesoul , @dalphahale

i  know  i  have  probably  missed  a  bunch  others,  but  those  who  are  not  tagged,  i  love  you  still  the  same!!  i always get anxiety when i don't include everyone krebjkreg i hope  you  all  have  a  happy  new  year  <3

[bronx-bomber87]

Hello my wonderful fandom :) I CANNOT believe we are at the finale already. This season went by in the blink of an eye. I was VERY excited for this finale and what it would bring. They don't have a ton of moments. But the ones they do the writers made count. My goodness I was happy and hopeful after this episode ended. Hard to believe we won't see our babies on screen till 2025. *grumble*

D sent me something about that actually (thank you bestie) Here it be. A.H. saying he's pretty sure all networks are doing this mid season 18 ep start. One of the reasons being the Election coming up. They want to protect shows and their ratings from the debates, coverage etc. And those usually happen on Tuesday nights. Which is actually really intuitive foresight from ABC. So to protect our ratings and show I get it. Especially if we wanna lock down a S8. I don't love it but I get it. Anyways lets get to it shall we? My last "mini" thoughts of the season.

6x10 Escape Plan

Always makes me nervous for Lucy going UC but still amazing to watch her in her element. Even if it makes my stomach tie in knots. Now maybe this is just me but Lucy seemed EXTRA uneasy on this OP. This is pure speculation on my part. But could be lending a little more credence to this not being the path for her? Just the feeling I got while watching her in these moments with with the kids in this one and the sneaking around.

I will say I do love seeing Lucy with the kids. Gives us a glimpse into her as a mama. I'm liking what I am seeing. Can't help but have that thought. I really can't. Chenford has taken over my brain and I'm very ok with it. Smitty's text to Lucy did crack me up. 'Red incoming.' Gotta love Smitty. Lucy is giving me a damn heart attack being undercover though.

The panic in her soul is so evident the minute she sees Monica is approaching. The way she guides the kids out of the room. Then the sheer terror when the kids wanna take a shorter exit. She has to pivot and redirect them quickly. I feel like the pressure of this specific UC mission was getting to her. I really do. It was felt in all her movements and body language through out these scenes IMO. I could be wrong but it was just a gut feeling I got watching her.

I think her expression in this scene after Monica departs is everything. Melissa be crushing it out here. Almost like she has to take a deep breath. Calm her racing heart down before unrooting herself from that spot to investigate further. I feel like her look of unease and panic here brings home the point I've been making.

Her questioning if doing UC is worth this stress? Worth the constant worry? Like I said back in my 5x20 review. Just because you're good at something doesn't mean it's meant to be your destiny. i.e. Lucy being a permanent U.C. Pretty sure her cover is blown after she runs right into him but she got the info she needed. At the expense of my own anxiety and worry though ha

The look in this scene oh my lord. How can they have so much chemistry with just one look? Melissa and Eric are a damn treasure to this fandom. To this amazing ship. Tim saying 'It's good to have you.' That loaded look between them. *screams into a pillow.*

You know that man is happier now that she's folded into this OP. His eyes were on her from the moment she stepped on scene. Be more in love with her Tim please. Then sharing a look with Angela. I’m dying. Angela is us we are Angela. She is the fandom in this moment watching this exchange. *sigh* So good.

Someone please tell me how do they look so amazing just standing next to one another? It's unreal how they can exude SO much chemistry just standing next to one another. Forever floored by the amount of physical chemistry these two have without even touching. It blows my mind in the best way.

Also I always enjoy me some Tim in T.O. mode it's sexy af. It revs my engine to watch him back in leadership mode. Not gonna lie. So very confident and sure of himself. Gah makes me need to cross my legs watching him in action LOL Sorry (sorta)Feral Caitlin made a return there haha But I do love seeing it. Like he’s getting his mojo back professionally. It’s nice to see. Does my heart good to watch it.

Oh my word they haven’t really been alone to talk (not counting the hug last ep) since 6x06. I’m so happy. I was legit buzzing watching this. My heart Tim telling her he took her advice and went to therapy. Yessss been waiting for this to unfold. Was hoping when they got a moment alone he would tell her about it. Look at him taking the first opportunity they have solo to tell her this. The growth of this man is incredible to see. I'm so proud of him it's insane. He takes a beat and makes the best of their time together. Breaking the uncomfortable ice with it. *happy sigh*.

I'm so proud of him. I can't state this enough. It is NOT easy to have this convo let alone be the one to start it. Another way to see he's grown. Tim is tackling the conversation. Being the one to broach it. Not Lucy dragging it out of him. I love her telling him that's not normal what happened for him. Definitely hasn't been my experience haha I do love her following up her little joke with being serious. Wanting to encourage him to keep going. I love this. Doesn’t want him to think one bad experience will tar the entire profession.

Tim nodding with a smile asking her if she wants to know the irony of it all? Lucy of course does. Tim continues on that she was a good therapist. The sessions they helped him. Damnit Blair.... I do adore the way Lucy is looking at him while he speaks about this. That angry look she started with has softened quite a bit. Truly hope he continues in S7 and we get to hear about it. God I would love to see sessions. Some of my all time fav Beckett scenes in Castle's S4 was getting to see her sessions with her therapist. It's on my wish list. *fingers crossed.*

His continued sharing with Lucy makes my heart so happy it might implode. Letting Lucy know therapy despite Blair being dirty has been good for him. She unearthed things he wasn't even aware of. I felt the same way too after a couple weeks. I felt more regulated tbh. I had massive sleeping problems from age 15 to when I decided to go to therapy in my 30's. After a couple sessions my sleeping issue's were gone for most part. I had been carrying my problems for so long. Like a pressure cooker with no release valve. So with no outlet they followed me into my unconscious and manifested into anxiety attacks. Couple weeks of sessions and my sleep issues all but disappeared.

Therapy when you truly lean into it can do wonderful things. i.e. Tim opening up to Lucy like this. Also look how SOFT Lucy looks with him as he bares his soul to her. I would be remiss if I didn't go in depth on this. The look of pride and love splayed all over her face is everything. Also reverence and love as well. This episode has a lot of loaded looks and I ate them all up. We started this scene with her face hard and holding a lot anger still. Then Tim melts it with his genuine vulnerability and sharing of what going to get help has done for him. Not only that but giving her props for the original advice in the first place. I'm beaming with delight.

We move onto Tim is being anxious his sessions are going be heard for evidence cause of the FBI investigation. Ugh. This kicks Lucy's brain into gear about that. Asking if he said anything revealing about her? His reply had me rolling. I adore him making a joke like this. Letting her know he mentioned ‘Freak in the sheets.' about her. I’m dying. I have no doubt there is some truth to that for them both LOL Look at our boy making jokes and getting her to laugh. God it was so so nice to see her laugh again. He earns a smile out of her too. The first time he's been the cause of that since her gifted her that KIA Radio in 6x05. I'm floating. They're both smiling by end of this scene. *sigh* We needed this.

We got to see some BAMF Lucy in this moment. Something that just like Tim in confident T.O. Mode has been missing since 6x06. I love her being like take this guy my man is in trouble. Getting him dropped off and instantly taking off after Tim. Who is also trying to pull off some bad assery tbh. A little recklessly but that's why Lucy is coming after him.

She see's his play and wants to be there to back it. Literally waste's no time in pursuit of him. Peels right out of that damn laundromat after him. Tim's play going south VERY quickly when this guy catches on to him in the bed of the truck. Sends his gun flying and my heart racing.

Adore the worried wifey look as she watches from the car. It's pouring out of her in that brief shot. Well done Melissa. Just like Eric she knows how to convey so very much with just a look. Lucy knows Tim is in trouble. That she can't just sit there in pursuit of the vehicle without helping him.

Especially after she watches him get pulled into the cab. Knowing that he is currently at a tactical disadvantage. No way in hell she is leaving him to fight this guy off alone. Telling Lopez to take the wheel as she makes her way out to help him.

Lopez's face when she makes the jump is shocked and amazed. Lucy continuing her BAMF streak on this OP. I loved the surprised look on Tim's face when she first jumps on the truck. Like he can't believe she just risked her life to come help him out. He can't stay in the feeling long as she takes the guy out for them. But it needed to be noted his utter surprise she was there to have his back. Risked her life to do so. Such a bad ass battle couple. Back to back finales we get to watch them be poetry in motion in the field with a battle.

Oh my lord what an epic scene to watch. Lucy jumping onto that moving truck bed to save her man. They take him down together. Their work dynamic easily coming back into play here. They don't miss a beat in this moment. Working as harmoniously as they always have in the past together in the field. I love the looks shared once they've stopped the truck.

Especially Tim's. He is so damn impressed with her. Always finds a way to blow him away with the bad ass she's become. Man is falling in love all over again. It shows all over the two looks he gives her in this scene. First one is his falling back in love again. I mean he already was but think sunk him deeper. Second one is more of just being in awe of her. The pride he feels watching the amazing cop she's developed into. I love these two so much.

Let me start with how happy it makes my heart that Tim smiles when she walks up to him. Despite all the hurt just the sight of her elicits a smile out of him automatically. His walking sunshine. Love of his damn life. She truly is his happy place in human form. Lucy making a crack about him taking a half day. Their banter still simmering beneath the surface. It's a little subdued in this moment but it's alive and well with Tim's reply. He is ever the gentlemen letting her go first.

His elevator version of holding the door for her. That chivalry never dying with him. It's the little things. Can't ignore how Lucy is looking at this man the entire scene. From start to finish. With such reverence and love. Still so in love with this man standing in front of her. Lucy can't help it. She is a moth to a flame with him. Especially with Tim thanking her for saving his life. Let's delve into that a little shall we? Tim Bradford is saying he didn't have it. Admitting fault he would've lost that battle without her.

Saying not only did he not have it but Lucy did. That he wouldn't be standing here without her. Giving her the kudos and all the praise for saving his life. Far cry from 1x01 and his future reaction to that moment in S5. This is a different Tim we see standing before us everyone. The amount of growth in this moment is immense. Because not only did she save his life but she saved him in a deeper sense. Feels like it's truly hitting him like a freight train the impact she's had on his life. I think there is double meaning to his words above. It's what leads him into this next section below.

The loving expression on Lucy's face when she replies ' You're Welcome.' That look of I'm still in love with you, I would do anything for you despite the hurt, and her realizing the deeper meaning of Tim thanking her. The growth she is currently seeing in him is prompting this soft/warm look and even softer reply. It's what encourages Tim to say his next portion. You can see him psyching himself up before he turns around to apologize. To own what he's done to them. To her.

Tim starts his apology by telling her he knows what he’s done (thank you lord for this) That he knows he ruined everything. You sure did babe...but you’re gonna earn it all back I know it. Lucy has the most loving and forgiving nature. The biggest heart. Also we can see there is still a tinge of anger to her expression at first above. So that journey will not be an easy one for Tim. Nor should it be. He has a lot to make up for. But my god will it be worth it in the end. I truly believe that. I'm going to be crying river's when we get there.

Look at how he has grown. Immediately spilling his guts emotionally to her twice in one episode. Not once but TWICE. Hell three times really. With saying she saved him and admitting fault to what he's done. I can't get over this. He had two really hard conversations with her in this episode. Swallowing that pride of his he's trying to hard to overcome. Doing this in order to communicate better with her. To show her he's putting in the time and the effort. To let her know he knows he messed up and is owning that. Something Tim wouldn't have done before. At least not easily. These are great strides for him. I couldn't be prouder of where they are ending the season for him. Imma need more therapy though in S7 you hear me writers?

Tim thanking Lucy for extending him the kindness she has shown him. *my damn heart.* That he can never explain how much he appreciates it. That she could've easily turned on him and he would've understood. But that's not Lucy. We all know that's not who she is. Or ever will be. It's that forgiving nature of her's that is one of the many reasons Tim is so damn gone for her. I think there is once again a double meaning to his words. To me Tim is saying this is for far more than just post break up. It's for their entire relationship. Together/apart and especially when they were not 1-4. The kindness and the empathy she's aways shown him. Even at his worst.

Like I said earlier it's all hitting him hard. The place she held in his life for so long and the impact she's had on him. Imma cry. A giant epiphany moment for Tim I think. Maybe starting to slowly understand the unconditional love she has for him. This scene made me tear up. That anger that is still present melts away a little more for Lucy. If she continues to see Tim work on himself. He shows her his continued growth. No reason she wouldn't take this man back when he's put in the work to re-earn that place in her life. Tim saying he's gonna spend rest of his life repaying her back for said kindness. *screams into the void.* In whatever small doses she allows of course.

Respecting her boundaries and hoping she will allow him to do so. It's the sweetest most sincere part of his apology. The way she looks at him as he departs. *heart clutch* You can see he's stunned her into silence. But also Lucy can see the growth in him and it’s written all over her face. This is a fantastic way to end the season for them. It wouldn’t be right to get back together right now or even just a 'we almost died' hook up. (Wonderful fic's out there for that just recently BTW.) Just wouldn’t. As much as my shipper soul LONGS for them to be back together. Legit longs so much it hurts. This was a good way to end them for the season. With some hope, some growth and a path forward leading us to S7.

Some Final thoughts below. With a Chenford hug to this lovely fandom of ours.

First off I want to thank you all for doing this not so mini review journey with me. I was nervous to do them. Even after doing 9 plus months of them with 1-5. This was different. It was first impressions. Hope you all enjoyed them. I'm more than happy to do this next season too. First impression thoughts for S7 as well if you are all interested. Let's move onto some final thoughts I'm having. You know months could pass by when we get to 7x01 in their timeline. I’m hoping he’s in therapy during this duration. Ready to prove he wants to earn her trust back. To earn her back. I don't think for one second that moment in the elevator is the last deep conversation they're going to have before we get a reconciliation. Tim has her love. Always has. Always will.

Lucy's decisions and responses in 6x10 show that. No matter what she loves this man. What he needs to gain back is her trust. To prove over and over again. He's there to stay. To show her through kind acts. To rebuild his rapport with her. I’m excited for that journey cause when we get there. *phew* God the fandom is gonna implode with happiness. It’ll be well earned. Their relationship is going to be even better with the growth Tim has done. (Hoping for some more for Lucy as well and getting the support she needs/deserves)We saw massive results in this episode alone. Can you imagine how it’ll be when they’re back together? *chefs kiss* it’ll make all the hurt and pain so worth it.

Getting emotional writing about this. This ship has a stranglehold on my emotions and I’m ok with it. Eric and Melissa love our passion for this couple. So I won’t be ashamed for the affect it has on me. I’m excited for s7. It’ll be a long hiatus. But we will get through it together. I will probably wait till mid July to do my thoughts fully fleshed out for S6. Think we all need time for finale to settle. For us too as well. I'm most definitely not ready to re-dive into everything just yet. Especially 6x05/6x06. But I'm hoping couple month hiatus for me will help with tackling that. Then we can start that journey for us all to go on with my deeper analysis.

As always thank you all for the likes, comments and reblogs. For being interested in my thoughts at all. It means the world you have no idea. Love this fandom, love this show and this incredible ship we are so fortunate to have. So once again thank you all for being on this journey of S6 with me. Like said earlier I’ll get started in my fleshed out S6 reviews come mid July. :)

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Side notes-Non chenford

Monica cleaned up a mess for Blair. Manipulated her by helping her most Monica thing I've ever heard. Glad to finally have answers to that. I knew it felt like manipulation. She had too much of a conscience to be dead inside and doing it for money. Sucks cause she is very good at her job. That scene with Aaron was a mic drop moment for him. So proud of how far he came this season as well.

Friggin Nolan never listens. And get shot for not listening. In the ass. Because he's a pain in one. Was apropos. Also he's right back to being a dumb putz to me. It was short lived john you made it half an episode before falling out of my good graces LOL

Once again music amazing for their final scenes whoever handled that this season crushed it. Bringing out all my emotions.

See you all later this summer for my in-depth ones. Till then be kind and rally around each other. Gonna be a long hiatus.

[yuurivoice]

hai there!! how are you doing today? :3

Exhausted, but about to be productive. Gotta film a few Vtuber things, get some writing done, and build a little table at the office. I need to do some posting on socials for the Alphonse plushie. Busy afternoon coming up.

Aside from that, I'm good. I've started doing my 3 weekly gym sessions without my trainer and I think I enjoy the experience a lot better when I can just vibe out listening to music so that's fun.

Got some blood test results and things are looking good there.

I've been cooking a lot more lately, and really enjoy grilled chicken thighs with salt/pepper/garlic + chipotle + garlic butter seasonings. Juicy af and gets a good crisp on it. That's nice.

Uhhhhhhh...how else am I doing?

Very thrilled about the Alphonse plushie so far, we crushed our early launch numbers from Charlie and I feel good about how the longevity will work out. We'll be running a BitterSweet marathon stream on the channel over the weekend and I hope that'll help raise awareness for the plushie as well! (This is what I'm recording some stuff for)

Gonna do some fiddling with a type of video sometimes soon, which is essentially a Talking Head video but it's either the MeTuber, Alphonse, etc telling a story or discussing something related to the channel. FAQs, the literal YuuriVoice backstory, that sort of thing. Types of stuff that won't be BANGERS, but will be really cool to have on the channel in general over time.

I got a goddamn ethernet cable plugged into the PC so we shouldn't have anyyyyy stream issues again. Ever. Not even once. That's good.

I do have some bangers lined up for spooky season, though it wasn't quite what I had wanted it to be when I was brainstorming half a year ago. That's life.

Gonna fuck around and record the BitterSweet Director's cut lines...again. Looking forward to that.

Extremely excited about Dragon Age at the end of the month, though I won't really get to play much of it because I'll be going to a Ren Faire that weekend! But the following week? I'll be locked the fuck in.

Back in relation to YuuriVoice things, I've started taking a serious look at Wiki solutions for the fandom, and think I've settled on one that I'm excited about firing up. I will be doing my best to get that up and running BEFORE Echoes of Evalas. The tool I have in mind is way more impactful than a simple Fandom Wiki, and should involve no annoy ads, a great browsing experience and....uh, info. Lots of info, I guess. This spawned from the need to have a visible timeline for the fandom to visualize when and where things were happening, and I went down a rabbit hole.

Also, maps...I need to...find a map maker...

I can't think of anything else I've really got going on right now. The big focus now is consistency. I need to keep this up through the rest of the year and end it strong, so we go into 2025 rocking and rolling.

[dreaminginthedeepsouth]

Los Angeles firestorms, literal and political.

January 13, 2025

Robert B. Hubbell

Watching a natural disaster unfold is a sobering and perspective-altering experience—all the more so as our president-elect, the GOP, and much of the media see the disaster as an opportunity to “own the libs” in California. In today’s newsletter, I reflect on several aspects of the firestorms in California that affect the national economy and political dynamic. I hope this is helpful in encouraging a productive dialog about how to respond to the firestorms in Los Angeles.

The political firestorm.

The firestorms that leveled three areas in Los Angeles will have national reverberations and, therefore, demand a national response. The failure of the incoming administration and members of Congress to comprehend that fact will compound the injury to the US economy. The effort of Trump and his loyalists to spread disinformation while dancing on the graves of victims and communities is reprehensible and counterproductive to the national interests.

It is difficult to comprehend the combined vastness of Los Angeles and California—and their importance to the US economy.

California is the world’s fifth largest economy as measured by nominal GDP ($3.9 trillion), trailing only Japan, Germany, China, and the US.

California contributes nearly 15% of the US GDP.

Los Angeles County, in turn, accounts for more than 25% of California’s economy, meaning that LA County contributes nearly 4% of the US GDP.

The economy of LA County ($790 billion) is greater than the GDP of 39 of the states in the US. For a sense of scale, the economy of LA County is greater than the combined economies of Alaska, Maine, Vermont, Delaware, Rhode Island, West Virginia, Montana, North Dakota, South Dakota, and Wyoming ($710 billion).

I note these statistics not to boast (as a proud Angeleno), but to highlight the fact that it would be madness for the federal government to refuse federal aid to help Los Angeles recover quickly. LA has lost more than 20,000 homes and businesses. Its infrastructure has suffered significant damage; over 200,000 residents are without power due to the destruction of high transmission power lines. Water quality in reservoirs has been degraded from smoke particulates, meaning that hundreds of thousands of residents whose homes survived the fires will not have potable water service. Hundreds of thousands more remained locked out of their homes due to evacuation orders.

When other parts of the nation experience natural disasters, aid is quickly delivered. Criticisms of aid tend to focus on the slowness of FEMA’s response. In the case of LA’s natural disaster, a Republican member of Congress from Ohio—Warren Davidson—has called for delaying aid to California until the state “improves its forestry practices.” See HuffPo, House Republican Threatens To Withhold Disaster Aid From California Amid Deadly Wildfires.

The notion that California has deficient forestry practices emerges from a 2020 statement by Trump that California was failing to “rake and clean” its forest floors like Finland. See Politico, (8/21/2020), Trump blames California for wildfires, tells state 'you gotta clean your floors'.

More about the “forestry practices” lie in a moment. The point is that no Democrats called for delaying aid after hurricanes until affected states revised their building codes regarding construction in coastal zones subject to repeated flooding during hurricanes.

To add insult to injury, California is ranked 49th in terms of “dependency on federal funds”—meaning its receives less “return” on its contribution to federal revenues than every other state (only New Jersey ranks lower). See Most & Least Federally Dependent States in 2025.

Rep. Davidson of Ohio should reflect for a moment on where federal revenue comes from. California contributes six times more in federal revenue than does Ohio. For every $5.00 California contributes to federal revenue, it receives $1.00 in federal funding.

Here’s my point: California is not a charity case. It pulls its weight in a nation where states have united for the common good. So please, MAGA, spare us the moralizing. I doubt appeals to your sense of fairness will be unavailing, so consider this: If the federal government refuses to assist LA County with a quick recovery, there could be a measurable, negative impact on GDP—and, possibly, inflation. How would that look for Trump?

The disinformation firestorm

The flames were still rolling through the Santa Monica Mountains when Trump began his disinformation campaign. Sadly, disinformation and conspiracy theories have become staples of the MAGA response to mass casualty events. After mass shootings, MAGA rushes to fill social media with false claims that the shooter was a Democrat, Muslim, transgender, gay, or an undocumented immigrant. After the floods and winds following recent hurricanes that caused devastating flooding in North Carolina, MAGA went into overdrive to interfere with FEMA’s efforts to provide emergency cash to victims.

The speed with which MAGA “floods the zone” with disinformation is becoming a significant impediment to disaster response by state and federal agencies. Disinformation not only sows confusion, it corrodes trust between victims and rescuers. It causes victims to delay in seeking assistance or claiming benefits that will speed recovery.

The fact that MAGA politicians are already talking about “delaying” aid until California revises its “forestry practices” is a case in point. I doubt that Rep. Warren Davidson of Ohio would recognized a forestry practice if it hit in the ****. His statements betray ignorance about the state of California, forestry, and “practices” in general.

The state of California has 33 million acres of forests. California Forest Statistics. The federal government owns 57% of forest land, private industry owns 40%, leaving only 3% of forest lands under the control of state and local agencies. Thus, to the extent that “forest practices” are an issue in California wildfires, those practices are controlled by the federal government and private industry.

Still, both the federal and state governments use prescribed fire to control risk of wildfire in California. See Cal Fire, Prescribed Fire, a statewide program designed to reduce fuels and reduce the risk of wildfire. The Cal Fire program permits private owners to use prescribed burns to manage forests under their control in California. See CAL FIRE Prescribed Fire Guidebook.pdf.

Ohio also permits prescribed fires, but the documentation on its website is not as robust as that provided by Cal Fire, above. Perhaps Rep. Davidson of Ohio should suggest to the Ohio Department of Natural Resources that it review California’s “forestry practices” manual to see whether there is anything Ohio can learn from its fellow state.

Moreover, the areas that were ravaged by the wildfire are under the jurisdiction of fire officials at the county and city level, not the “State of California.”

Trump and the MAGA media claim that the wildfires were more destructive because the City of Los Angeles allegedly decreased the fire department’s budget. That claim evinces a shocking level of ignorance about how wildfires propagate in California. On the night that the largest fires occurred, winds gusts hovered between 50 and 80 mph and humidity dipped to 8%!

With hurricane-force wind gusts, single-digit humidity, and dry brush due to an anemic 0.08 inches of rain over the prior six months, Pacific Palisades and other areas in LA were a tinderbox. The City of Los Angeles could have doubled its $800 million budget for the LA Fire Department and the outcome would not have changed.

Pacific Palisades was like a blast furnace. Hundreds of houses were on fire simultaneously. Many were reduced to fine ash in 30 minutes. As firefighters were in one location, the winds were spreading embers miles away, starting new house fires. By the time firefighters arrived at the new location, the fire had once again leap-frogged two miles away. The fire was unstoppable.

The lie that Los Angeles “ran out of water” has taken hold. Los Angeles did not run out of water. The Los Angeles Department of Water and Power explains the facts on its website. The Pacific Palisades are in the Santa Monica Mountains. To create water pressure for hydrants (and homes) located at higher elevations in the Palisades, LADWP maintains 3 one-million gallon tanks.

Over 15 hours, firefighters drew down those tanks faster than they could be re-filled due to the unprecedented demand. Only 20% of hydrants (at the highest elevations) were affected and pressurized water remained in the trunk lines continuously. See LADWP, Pacific Palisades Fire: Correcting Misinformation About LADWP’s Water System.

When some of the hydrants lost pressure at the higher elevations, LADWP ferried in water in 19 water trucks with 4,000-gallon capacities—a standard fire-fighting technique used across the United States when hydrants are unavailable.

But the “LA ran out of water” falsehood is beside the point. Houses burned to the ground in areas with fully pressurized hydrants. The issue wasn’t the hydrants; it was hurricane force wind, the single-digit humidity, and the lack of rain over the preceding six months which made saving homes nearly impossible.

The fact that one of the LADWP’s reservoirs was drained due to failure to meet California drinking water standards is also irrelevant. The main trunk lines remained pressurized because LADWP has 114 reservoirs and tanks that maintain pressure in the main lines. Having one reservoir offline did not affect the pressure. See, again, LADWP, Pacific Palisades Fire: Correcting Misinformation About LADWP’s Water System.

Concluding Thoughts

Well, this isn’t the newsletter I had intended to write when I picked up my laptop several hours ago. But as a native Angeleno, I feel personally offended by politicians and media who know nothing about wildfires but who nonetheless attack Los Angeles during an ongoing natural disaster. No other state or city in the US has been subjected to such criticism and disinformation directed at the victims and their elected representatives during a natural disaster. (Hurricane Katrina strikes me as a justified exception.)

As I hope I have demonstrated, California and LA County are vital parts of the national economic engine. Threatening to hobble the LA region by withholding relief funds that are disproportionately contributed to the federal government by California and LA makes the moralizing and finger-wagging by clueless politicians and media personalities unbearable.

Thanks for listening to my rant. I will be back to my regular programming tomorrow evening, depending on how things go in the next 24 hours. But we cannot forget the tens of thousands of Angelenos who have lost their homes and loved ones.

[Robert B. Hubbell Newsletter]

[acknowledge-reigns]

Baddie and The Beast | Jacob Fatu x Black!Fem OC | 18+!

Description: Jacob comes to his senses in regards to his feelings about Myra.

Chapter: 6/6

Face Claim: Flo Milli

Warnings: Primal play (including chase scene, all ssc), rough sex, honorifics, marking/biting, possessiveness, mild degradation, praise, p in v, honorifics, petnames, choking,

This is the Jacob x Myra sequel to Swipe Right, Rivals With Benefits and Kiss It Better. As always my stories are NOT about real people and does not reflect their character. This is very much an 18+ BDSM based romance with some comedy thrown in there. If kink content isn't for you, specifically Primal Kink (google if need be) for this one, please scroll. You have been warned.

Word count: 4,054

My masterlist can be found here

Epilogue featured at the end of this post!

Taglist: @lov3rla03 @adoreesun @Isabella-2025 @skyesthebomb @acute-crashout-jeyuso @raya-hunter01

Later that day, Jacob found himself sitting in a dimly lit bar with Roman, Jey, Zilla, and Jimmy. He was nursing a beer, his mind still reeling from the encounter with Myra earlier.

"Man, I fucked up," he muttered, taking a long swig of his drink.

Jimmy chuckled, shaking his head. "No shit"

Jey snorted, leaning back in his chair. "Uce, have some sympathy."

Roman rolled his eyes. "Not our fault you guys keep trying your best to fumble your women. The tribal chief knows how to keep his lady more than satisfied."

Jimmy smirked, taking a sip of his own drink. "To be fair, so do I. This a them problem." he clinks glasses with Roman.

Zilla chuckled, watching as Jacob slumped further into his seat. "You know what your problem is, man? You're too hard-headed. You're stubborn as hell and you refuse to listen to anyone else."

"Ah hell no, I know you ain't talking." Roman teased Zilla. "You almost lost Kiley because of a stupid text from your merch designer."

Zilla's smirk faded, and he shot Roman a glare "Shut up, Uce" he grumbled. "That was different. I learned from my mistake."

"You ended up firing her right?" Jacob asked.

"Yeah, Imani does my merch now." Zilla responds referring to Roman's eldest step-daughter.

Roman chuckled, shaking his head. "You're hopeless, both of you."

Jey snickered, taking a sip of his drink. "Maybe you guys should just stick to hookups and leave the relationships to us who can handle them."

"Didn't you and yo girl hate each other at first?" Jacob pointed out to Jey sharply.

"Shii, that ain't what she said last night, uce." Jey fired back.

"Yeet" Jimmy raises his glass.

Roman and Zilla both laughed at that, and Jacob rolled his eyes.

"Man, shut up. You guys are no better than us," he muttered, taking another swig of his beer.

Roman leaned back in his chair, a smirk on his face. "I wasn't too scared to go after Iris. Jey wasn't too scared to go after Jax. Zilla in all his dumbass-ery wasn't too scared to go after LeLe. Jim and Naomi been locked in."

"You're just making excuses now, Uce," Jey teased. "You're scared to admit that you're in love with Myra."

"I'm not in love with her," he growled, glaring at Jey. "We were just... having fun."

Roman sighed, leaning forward and placing a hand on Jacob's shoulder.

"We get it. You're scared. But you can't keep running from your feelings forever. You gotta face them head-on."

Jey nodded in agreement. "You're not doing yourself any favors by denying it. You're only hurting yourself and Myra in the process."

Jimmy chimed in, his voice gentle but firm. "Look, we're not saying it's going to be easy. Relationships are messy, complicated, and sometimes downright painful. But if you really care about Myra, you owe it to her - and yourself - to try."

Zilla nodded, crossing his arms. "And don't try to convince yourself that it's just about the physical aspect. You wouldn't be this upset if it was just about that."

Roman smirked. "Face it, man. You're in love with Myra. And deep down, you know it."

"Maybe I am" Jacob sighed.

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Myra found herself confiding in Lele about her feelings for Jacob. She poured her heart out, telling her friend about the primal Dom/sub dynamic and how it had made her feel drawn to him.

"I don't know what to do, Lele," Myra admitted, looking down at her hands. "I'm falling for him, but I don't think he feels the same way."

Lele listened attentively, a sympathetic look on her face.

"Have you tried talking to him about it?" she asked gently.

"He doesn't want a relationship, Le." She sighed.

Lele frowned, understanding the pain in Myra's voice.

"I'm sorry, bookie. That must be tough to hear."

She reached out and took Myra's hand, giving it a comforting squeeze.

Myra nodded, tears welling up in her eyes.

"I thought I could keep it casual, you know? But every time I'm with him, I can't help but want more. I want the connection, the intimacy, the exclusivity. And I don't think he feels the same way. Or rather he's too scared to let himself feel the same way."

Lele pulled Myra into a hug, rubbing her back soothingly.

"It's okay to want those things, you know. It's normal to want to be with someone you care about. But you have to be honest with yourself and with Jacob. If you keep pushing your feelings down, they're just going to fester and cause more pain in the long run."

Myra pulled back, wiping away her tears with the back of her hand.

"I know you're right. But I'm scared, Lele. I'm scared of getting hurt again."

"Being honest didn't help anything. He rejected me." Myra says.

Lele's heart ached for her friend. She knew how hard it must be to open up to someone and be vulnerable, only to be rejected in return.

"I'm so sorry, bookie. That's not fair to you. You deserve to be loved and cherished, not pushed away."

Myra nodded, trying to hold back more tears. "I just... I thought he was different."

Lele reached out and took Myra's hand again, her grip firm and reassuring.

"Don't let him make you feel like you're not worth anything. You deserve someone who will treat you with respect and love."

Myra sniffled, taking a deep breath to compose herself.

"I just wish it was that easy," she said softly. "I wish I could just move on and forget about him, but it's not that simple. I still care about him, despite everything."

Lele nodded, understanding the conflict within her friend.

"It's normal to feel that way. It takes time to heal and move on. But you have to promise me something, okay?"

Lele looked Myra in the eye, her expression serious.

"Promise me that you won't let him hold you back. Promise me that you'll take care of yourself. You deserve to be happy, and if he's not going to make you happy, then you need to move on."

Myra nodded slowly, tears welling up in her eyes again.

"I promise," she whispered, her voice barely audible.

"Now, how about i pour us both some wine and you tell me more about this kink stuff?" LeLe said.

Myra chuckled, grateful for the distraction.

"Sure, that sounds good. But let me warn you, it's not for the faint of heart."

Lele smirked, pouring two glasses of wine and handing one to Myra.

"Oh, I can handle it. Zilla and I get into all kinds of kinky shit."

Myra's eyes widened in surprise. "Really? I didn't know that. You and Zilla are kinky, huh?"

Lele laughed, taking a sip of her wine. "You have no idea, babes. We've tried just about everything under the sun."

Myra took a sip of her own wine, feeling slightly more relaxed now. "Damn, Lele. I thought you were the innocent friend."

Lele smirked, raising an eyebrow. "Innocent? Me? Never. I just know how to keep it under wraps."

There was a sudden knock on the door, interrupting their conversation.

Myra and Lele exchanged a glance, surprised by the interruption.

"I wasn't expecting anyone other than you." Myra stated, setting her glass down.

Lele shrugged, looking at the door.

"Maybe it's a package or something?"

Myra got up from the couch and walked over to the door, still feeling a bit wary. She peeked through the peephole, trying to see who was on the other side.

Myra gasped, taking a step back from the door.

"Oh my god, it's Jacob."

Jacob held up a single red rose, a hopeful expression on his face. He knew that showing up at Myra's door unannounced was a risky move, but he had to try and make things right.

He took a deep breath and knocked on the door again, his heart racing with anticipation.

Myra slowly opened the door, her eyes widening as she saw the rose in Jacob's hand. She had been so hurt and angry earlier, but now she was feeling a mix of emotions that she couldn't quite place.

"Jacob..." she whispered, her voice barely audible.

Jacob looked at Myra, his eyes pleading for forgiveness.

"Please, let me explain," he said, holding out the rose to her.

Myra hesitated for a moment, her heart pounding in her chest. Part of her wanted to slam the door in his face and tell him to leave, but another part of her was drawn to him, like a moth to a flame.

She took the rose from his hand, her fingers brushing against his.

Jacob took a step closer, his eyes never leaving hers.

"I know I messed up," he said softly. "I know I hurt you, and I'm sorry. But please, give me a chance to make things right."

Myra looked down at the rose in her hand, her emotions swirling within her. She knew that she should be angry, that she should tell him to go to hell.

But she also knew that she couldn't deny the fact that she still cared about him.

"Why should I give you a chance?" she asked, her voice wavering slightly.

Jacob took another step closer, closing the gap between them.

"Because I love you," he said, his voice filled with sincerity. "I love you more than anything in this world, and I can't stand the thought of losing you. I'll do whatever it takes to prove it to you, to show you how much I care."

Myra's heart skipped a beat at his words. She had been so convinced that he didn't care about her, that she had been just a piece of ass to him, once again. But now, standing here in front of him, she could see the sincerity in his eyes.

She wanted to believe him, she wanted to give him another chance. But she was still scared, still hurt by what he had done.

Jacob reached out, gently cupping her cheek in his hand.

"Please, let me make it up to you," he whispered, his thumb gently tracing her skin. "Let me show you how much I've changed, how much I've grown. I'll do anything to prove that I'm worth another chance. I want you to be mine. The beauty to my beast."

Myra felt her resolve crumbling, her anger and hurt slowly giving way to a feeling of longing. She leaned into his touch, her eyes closing as she took a deep breath.

"You really mean that?" she asked, her voice barely above a whisper.

Jacob nodded, his eyes locked onto hers.

"With all my heart," he said, his voice filled with conviction. "I've never been more serious about anything in my life. You're everything to me, and I'll do whatever it takes to make sure I never lose you again."

Myra felt a tear slip down her cheek, and she quickly wiped it away.

She took a step closer, closing the remaining distance between them.

"Okay," she whispered, her voice trembling slightly. "I'll give you another chance."

Jacob's face lit up with relief and happiness. He wrapped his arms around her, pulling her into a tight embrace.

"Thank you," he whispered, burying his face in her hair. "I promise I won't let you down again. I'll spend the rest of my life making it up to you."

Lele, who had been watching the whole scene from the couch, took the hint and stood up.

"I'll give you guys some space," she said with a knowing smile. "I'll catch up with you later, Myra."

She gave Myra a quick hug before grabbing her things and heading out the door.

Once Lele was gone, Jacob turned his attention back to Myra. He pulled her closer, his arms wrapping around her waist.

Myra looked up at him, her heart racing as she felt the warmth of his body against hers. She still wasn't sure if she was making the right decision, but at this moment, she didn't care.

She wrapped her arms around his neck, pulling him down for a kiss.

Jacob deepened the kiss, his hands roaming over her body as he held her close. He had missed her so much, and now that she was in his arms again, he didn't want to let her go.

Myra melted into the kiss, her body arching against his as she let out a soft moan. She had missed him too, and the feeling of his hands on her skin was intoxicating.

He broke the kiss, his eyes dark with desire as he looked down at her.

"Run" He growled seductively.

Myra shivered at the sound of his voice, her heart racing with excitement. She didn't hesitate, immediately turning and darting away from him through the apartment.

Jacob watched her go with a primal gleam in his eyes. He loved the chase, the thrill of the hunt. And he knew that she loved it too.

He waited a few seconds before taking off after her, his long strides quickly closing the distance between them.

Myra darted through the rooms, her heart pounding in her chest as she heard his footsteps close behind her. She knew that he was gaining on her, and the thought only made her more excited.

She dodged around furniture, trying to make it more difficult for him to catch her. But she knew it was a futile effort - he was bigger and stronger than her. Faster too somehow.

Jacob was right behind her now, his hand just inches from grabbing her arm. She could feel his breath on her neck as he gazed at her like a predator stalking it's prey.

She let out a squeal of mock surprise as he finally caught her, his arms wrapping around her waist and pulling her back against his chest.

He held her tightly, his body pressed against hers as he nuzzled into her neck. She could feel his heart beating rapidly, matching the rhythm of her own.

"Got you" He growled into her ear, his voice low and possessive. "You're mine now."

Myra shivered at his words, her body responding to the primal tone in his voice. She knew that he was going to claim her, and the thought sent a thrill through her veins.

He spun her around to face him, pinning her against the wall with his body. His eyes were dark with desire as he looked down at her, his hands gripping her wrists and holding them above her head.

"You're not going anywhere" He growled, his body pressing her further into the wall. "You're mine to do with as I please."

He leaned down, his lips brushing against her ear as he whispered, "And I plan on claiming you over and over again tonight."

Myra moaned at his words as she felt a familiar heat pooling between her legs. She loved it when he got like this, It drove her wild.

He nipped at her earlobe, his tongue tracing the shell of her ear before he began to trail kisses down her neck.

He moved his mouth lower, his lips and teeth leaving a trail of red marks down her neck and onto her collarbone. He loved marking her, claiming her as his.

He released her wrists, letting his hands roam over her body as he continued to kiss and bite her skin. He wanted to touch every inch of her, to reacquaint himself with every curve and dip of her body.

Jacob smirked as he spun her around, pushing her against the wall again. This time, her back was to him.

He ran his hands over her hips and up her sides, his touch both gentle and possessive. He loved the way her body fit against his, the way she molded perfectly to his frame.

He pressed his body against hers, his chest against her back as he began to grind his hips against her ass. She could feel the hardness of his arousal through his clothes, and it made her desire even stronger.

He reached around her, hiking her dress up above her hips.

He slid a hand between her legs, his fingers tracing the outline of her soaked panties.

"You're already so wet for me" He whispered in her ear, his voice dripping with lust. "So eager to be caught and used."

She gasped as he tore her panties off, the sound of the fabric ripping sending a shiver down her spine. She was completely exposed now, her body pressed against the wall and at his mercy.

He reached down, unbuckling his belt and undoing his pants. He freed himself from the confines of his clothing, the sound of his zipper being undone making her heart race.

He gripped her hips, positioning himself at her entrance. She could feel the heat of his skin against hers, the head of his cock teasing her wetness.

"Are you ready for me, my little beauty?" He growled, his voice low and commanding.

"Yes...please..." Myra whimpered, her body trembling with anticipation. She was desperate for him, craving the feeling of him inside her.

With a low growl, he pushed forward, burying himself inside her in one swift thrust. She cried out as he filled her, her walls stretching to accommodate his size.

He didn't give her any time to adjust, immediately starting a brutal pace. He slammed into her over and over again, his hips slapping against her ass with each thrust.

He was rough and dominant, claiming her with every movement of his body.

She braced herself against the wall, her hands gripping the smooth surface as he pounded into her from behind. She could feel his fingers digging into her hips, leaving marks that would surely be bruises in the morning.

"You're mine, my little prey" He growled, his voice strained with pleasure. "You belong to me, and I'm going to mark you up so everyone knows it."

He leaned forward, his chest pressing against her back as he continued to thrust into her. He nipped and sucked at her neck, leaving more marks on her skin.

He reached up, wrapping his hand around her throat and tilting her head back.

He held her head back, exposing her neck to him as he continued to mark her. His lips and teeth moved over her skin, leaving a trail of red and purple marks in their wake.

He kept his grip on her throat tight, but not tight enough to cut off her air. It was a reminder of who was in control, who owned her body and soul.

His other hand slid around her waist, his fingers finding her clit. He began to rub circles over the sensitive bundle of nerves, driving her pleasure higher and higher.

She moaned loudly, her body arching against his as he continued to thrust into her and tease her clit. The sensations were overwhelming, and she felt like she was on the edge of losing control.

"Come for me, baby. Come for Alpha." He whispered in her ear, his voice rough with desire. "Let go and let me feel you clench around me."

She was helpless to resist his command, her body already teetering on the edge of release. His words sent her over the edge, and she came with a cry, her walls fluttering around his cock.

He groaned as he felt her clench around him, the sensation pushing him closer to his own release. He kept thrusting into her, his movements becoming more erratic as he chased his own pleasure.

He buried his face in her neck, his teeth sinking into her skin as he reached his own peak. He let out a guttural moan as he came, his hips stuttering against hers as he emptied himself inside her.

He held her close, his chest heaving as he struggled to catch his breath. He remained inside her for a few moments, relishing the feeling of being connected to her.

He finally pulled out of her, his hands still holding her close as he turned her around to face him. He looked at her with a possessive gaze, his eyes roaming over her body and taking in the marks he had left on her skin.

"You look beautiful like this, marked up and claimed by me." He said, his voice still rough with arousal. He ran his fingers over the bruises and bite marks on her skin, a satisfied smirk on his face.

He pulled her close, wrapping his arms around her in a possessive embrace. He loved her. Truly loved her, more than he'd ever loved anyone or anything.

"Remember when you asked who would tame who, baby?" Jacob asked, "You did it. You changed me."

"Tale As Old As Time" Myra giggled.

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Epilogue!

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Roman and Iris' lives had been a whirlwind of changes in the past few years. Between having twins, dealing with their other children, and trying to adjust as Imani left for college, they were exhausted but happy.

But despite the challenges, they made it work. They supported each other through it all, finding joy in every moment with their family. In total? They have nine children. Roman's four boys who live primarily with their mother, his daughter who is the same age as Iris' daughter Imani who also just went off to college, Iris' 12 year old daughter Amira and their 8 month old twins Marina and Cove.

Iris' daughter Amira was going through a rebellious phase, constantly testing her parents' patience. But Roman and Iris were patient with her, knowing that it was just a phase. They were grateful for the bond they had with their children, no matter how difficult things got.

And their 6-month-old twins, Marina and Cove, were the light of their lives. They were both healthy and happy, always smiling, cooing and babbling whenever they saw their parents.

Roman and Iris knew that they needed help with the twins, especially since they had to manage their other children as well plus juggle their careers. They were fortunate to find a nanny with good references and whatnot.

"Amanda, welcome." Iris greets her at the door on her first day.

Amanda smiles warmly, taking in the chaotic but loving atmosphere of the house.

"Thank you for having me," she says, shaking Iris' hand. "I'm looking forward to helping out with the twins."

Iris leads Amanda into the living room, where Roman is sitting on the couch with the twins. They're babbling and cooing, and he's playing with them, making faces and silly noises to keep them entertained.

Amanda watches as Roman plays with the twins, a smile on her face. She can tell that he's a loving father, and that he's dedicated to making sure his children are happy and well taken care of. It was refreshing to see.

Roman looks up and sees Amanda standing there, "Hey," he says, standing up with the twins, one in each arm. "You must be Amanda."

Amanda nods, returning his smile.

"Yes, that's me," she says, walking over to them. "It's nice to meet you. I'm a big fan."

Roman chuckles, slightly taken aback by her enthusiasm.

"You're a fan, huh?" he says, raising an eyebrow. "Well, I'm flattered. But let's keep the professional relationship intact, okay?"

Amanda laughs and nods, realizing that she may have come on a bit too strong.

"Of course, of course," she says, holding up her hands in a gesture of surrender. "I'm just excited to be working with you and your family. I promise I'll keep it professional.. As long as I get an autograph." She says adding the last part to lighten the mood and make Roman and Iris chuckle.

She couldn't mess this up. If they get suspicious and dig into her job history or credentials too deeply? They'll see that it's all fake. She had to stretch the truth. Would they have really hired her with 'Former Graphic designer/merch girl fired for flirting with my boss' on her resume?

Amanda was trying to keep her cool, but inside, she was sweating bullets. Truth be told, she doesn't even know how to hold a baby. Can't be that hard, right?

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Coming Soon!

[greatcstarcher]

i  made  a  new  years  post  on  my  positivity  blog  (  @lumiiiscorner  -  send  your  friends  some  love  ),  but  i  will  now  make  a  post  here!  feel  free  to  read  or  don't!  this  is  mainly  a  reflection  on  how  this  year  went.

2024…..  oh  man…..  i'm  gonna  have  to  admit,  it  was  the  worst  year  of  my  life.  not  being  paid  for  an  entire  year,  my  mom's  health,  overworked,  unemployed,  burnt  out,  existing  for  other  people,  and  so  on.  mental  health  spiraling  downward,  but  i  have  started  my  first  session  of  therapy  yesterday,  which  means  i  am  entering  this  new  year  with  self  healing.  not  only  that,  but  i  decided  to  try  on  a  new  career  path  (a  silly  one)  and  will  be  out  of  the  country  for  a  month  visiting  my  sister.  so  maybe  things  will  hopefully  turn  up!

with  this  year  being  the  way  it  is,  i  do  want  to  give  a  few  shoutouts  to  those  that  were  there  with  me  the  whole  time.  whether  it  was  the  beginning  of  the  year,  middle,  or  end,  you  guys  specifically  saw  how  much  shit  i  was  going  through  and  guided  me  through  it  and  i'm  forever  grateful.  some  of  you  might  be  tagged  more  than  once  since  i  will  be  making  this  post  on  all  my  blogs  and  you  guys  most  likely  follow  and  interact  with  me  in  all  of  them:

@rhodaes  oh  bitch…  we've  been  through  the  ringer  haven't  we?  if  this  year  has  taught  me  anything,  it's  how  despite  how  ugly  it  gets,  you  can  come  out  stronger.  and  we  did  just  that.  you  going  through  your  own  mess,  me  going  through  mine,  and  us  hitting  rocky  paths  but  here  we  are  now!  learning  more  about  each  other  and  continuing  to  love  each  other.  you've  been  my  day  one  since  i  came  back  to  indie.  and  you  remain  my  day  one  to  this  day.  can  i  just  say  how  proud  i  am  of  us?  cause  i  really  fucking  am.  this  year  was  a  bitch,  but  we're  gonna  be  tackling  2025  locked  arm  and  arm.  i  am  proud  of  how  far  you've  come  and  i  am  grateful  for  everything  you've  done  for  me  while  i've  been  falling  apart.  it's  a  mess  when  we're  both  dealing  with  a  lot,  but  i  know  you  have  my  back  and  i  have  yours.  now  we  gotta  get  our  shit  together  and  pick  up  on  spn  watches  rekjgbesjkrg

@gccdgraces  my  water  birthed  child…i  love  you  so  fucking  bad.  you've  seen  me  at  my  worst  this  whole  entire  year  and  not  once  have  you  made  me  feel  small  or  stupid.  you've  held  my  hand  through  this  fucking  nightmare.  reading  my  google  docs  to  our  power  hours.  you've  always  the  patience  to  just  sit  with  me  and  help  me  either  sit  through  my  emotions  or  just  keep  me  distracted.  can  you  believe  we're  almost  done  with  swac  and  about  to  enter  their  breakup  episode???  not  ready!!!!!  but  fack  man.  i  love  you  so  bad.  never  ever  getting  rid  of  me  bitch.  EVER.

@nightmarishwritings  sammy  sammy  sammy.  my  cinnamon  roll  baby.  i've  known  you  for  quite  some  time  now  and  we've  been  through  some  shit  at  the  same  time.  i  think  you're  one  of  the  ones  that  take  notice  when  i'm  not  around  and  come  searching  for  me.  that  little  thing  makes  me  want  to  snuggle  you  and  never  let  you  go.  and  your  kind  words  always  have  me  weeping.  i  hope  you  know  how  much  you  mean  to  me  and  how  your  kindness  is  never  taken  for  granted.  you  are  truly  one  of  my  best  friends  and  i'm  not  letting  you  go  mkay?  and  i  will  always  remain  as  your  guard  dog.  BARK  BARK.  you  deserve  the  world  and  maybe  one  day  i  will  kidnap  it  for  you  :)))

@salvatoraes  idk  how  many  years  it  has  been,  but  i  fucking  love  you  my  kidney  owner.  you've  been  there  for  me  through  so  much  shit  and  honestly?  this  year  i  am  surprised  how  much  we  both  are  going  through  some  similar  shit.  but  just  know  that  i'm  always  here  for  you  like  you're  always  here  for  me.  you  have  one  of  the  kindest  souls  out  there  and  you  always  keep  me  giggling.  especially  during  our  who  loves  who  the  most  war.  it's  me,  obviously.  but  i  appreciate  everything  you've  done  for  me  all  these  years.  i  won't  ever  take  it  for  granted.  and  i  hope  to  stick  with  you  longer  <3

@stainedkept  yelena  to  my  kate  uwu.  you  have  been  nothing  but  patient  with  me  while  also  keeping  me  smiling  through  this  tough  year.  it's  been  so  much,  but  you've  always  waited  with  open  arms  and  sent  me  the  most  silly  things.  i  am  so  entirely  grateful  for  you  and  for  the  things  we  have  created  together.  thank  you  for  always  being  so  kind  to  me  and  creating  a  shit  show  with  me.  i  love  you  to  the  moon  and  back!

extra  little  shoutouts  for  the  few  that  kept  me  laughing  and  smiling  throughout  this  damn  year: 

@evanave  (and  all  your  other  blogs)  ,  @brknghrts  ,  @ofcrossrcads  ,  @anunkindncss  (ima  need  you  to  come  back  to  me  yes  yes?)  ,  @humanchewtoy  ,  @freezegirl

also  another  another  shoutout  to  new  friends  that  i  hope  to  create  more  things  with  you  <3

@cfthesoul  ,  @ttheagcd  ,  @perilousxrealm , @maxmoffs (and your other blogs)

i  know  i  have  probably  missed  a  bunch  others,  but  those  who  are  not  tagged,  i  love  you  still  the  same!!  i  always  get  anxiety  when  i  don't  include  everyone  krebjkreg  hope  you  all  have  a  happy  new  year  <3

[yazidah]

Happy New Year 2025! 🌹

pssst yap session down below

yap fest because that’s what tumblr blogs are for But it took me 100 freaking pulls to get mari chama 😭 I’m on my third copy of Ren rn because I am NOT LOCKED IN!!!!! I also drew this with my finger because I’m visiting family and lost the only one I brought with me 💔

so the bursts are kinda CRAZY I’ve been staring at these two pictures and kinda crying inside…. so beautiful I might just die….

look renmari is not my main ship For either of them but was this not kinda crazy…? I haven’t read the event story in Full but I got a summary (no spoilers here sorryyyyy!) and it’s so cute. I love their development so freaking much I might die…. Thinking about that one line where someone said they looked like brothers And . They’re so leaning into it….

life as someone with both of their special cuts is so Awesome yeah I struggled But it was worth it! I think I might have to get a new acc soon tho bc my acc is Kinda getting unfarmable so I gotta rely on event rewards alone….. 😓 I was thinking of saving some of the rubies I was going to use for this banner on Asch’s survive event coming soon But marion’s a difficult oneee…..

most of these are just a collection Of everything I said on my twt from Like 3am this morning to now Lol! But otherwise thank you if you read this all??? I don’t think anyone will It’s mostly for myself to come back too sooner or later….

here’s this Renren I did on My whiteboard earlier while I was playinf the event…. Just for you who scrolled all the way down… 🩷

[belairtrophywife]

Over media consumption it’s over for you coming 2025. I’m going back to school next fall and I gotta lock tf in. Trust you will be conquered.