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1st division and 4th division are on the different end of a spectrum where the 1st focus on the individual strength, monster to fight monsters even if it mean to disregard of their own humanities while the 4th division will go out of their way to tell the soldier that they can't keep risking their life and sometimes it's okay to fall back. (Helped by their terrain having more wide-open mountain areas far from the central. I can see why 1 and 3 can't afford that amount of chill)
#fal's random thoughts#faltalkskn8#How to...gather my thoughts....#4 eastern divisions are directly influenced by Isao and the 1st is the most influenced#2 and 3 a bit less and 4 is the furthest#protrayal of 4th division is still limited and 2nd only have Jura's personality and Haruichi/Aoi post-training to go by#b-but...thinking of organization philosophy is so fun....#gotta dig my notes and relearn how to live again
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𝐒𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐋 [𝐓𝐖𝐎] — 𝐒𝐊𝐘𝐄 𝐑𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐘
one / three / masterlist / wattpad
summary: as you and Skye try to relearn how to be friends again, you realise it’s harder than you thought.
warning/s: mentions of injury, substance abuse, poor mental health and basically everything Skye goes through oof.
author's note: here’s part 2! so sorry it was delayed, i’ve been stuffed with cold for the past few days so didn’t have chance to share it. Hope this makes up for it anyway :)
"...and I'm just outside your building now," I said to Skye over the phone, lingering outside.
"I was just about to call," she said in a rushed voice, sounding apologetic. "I'm running late, but I'm almost there. Give or take ten minutes. You can head straight up. The doorman knows to let you in and the spare key is in the same place as always."
I hesitated at her response.
It wasn't a big deal, I'd been to her apartment many times, but it had also been a year since I'd last been and it felt strange to go up alone. Especially because I was just supposed to be meeting her to go out, not actually going inside.
"Oh, I can just wait outside, it's okay," I said, maybe a little too quickly, but she didn't seem to notice.
"No, it's fine, you head up, I'll be with you soon," she assured me, before I heard a sound in the background. "I gotta go. See you in ten!"
I chewed my lip before putting my phone away and heading straight inside. As Skye said, the doorman recognised me and let me straight up, and it felt odd. The last time I'd been in the lift, I was crying on the way down from that awful argument between Skye and I. I hadn't been back since – I'd had no need to. But now...
It wasn't the same, I had to remind myself of that. She wasn't the same. None of this was.
Over the past few weeks, we'd somewhat returned to how things used to be, but it was all baby steps. Being each other's friend was second nature, and yet moments like this sometimes had me stumbling in the dark.
I found her door at the end of the hall, digging out the spare key from behind the framed painting next to it. A stupid place to keep it I'd always thought, but the whole place was guarded anyway so it didn't matter.
After opening the door, I returned the key to its spot before letting myself in. Everything looked the same as I last remembered it, and I didn't want to admit it to myself, but I'd missed it. I still remembered when she bought it and moved in, after her career picked up overnight. We'd had countless movie nights here, sleepovers that lasted days sometimes, and it just brought back so many memories. Good, as well as bad, but I tried not to focus on the latter.
I began to walk around aimlessly, waiting for her to return, eyeing the cabinet full of awards, the framed albums, admiring the penthouse view from her living room, and then I came across some framed photos hung on the wall. Some were of her and her mum when she was a kid, others were as she grew up, and then I spotted a familiar one.
It was a photo of Skye performing her first ever single on her first ever TV appearance years ago, and it was a photo taken by me, one of my first professional gigs as a photographer. A small smile tugged at my lips, realising she hadn't taken it down. I was touched that she kept it.
The door opening made me glance away and see Skye rushing in, looking a bit dishevelled. When she spotted me, she smiled with relief.
"Hey, sorry, I didn't mean to run late," she said as she closed the door behind her.
"It's fine," I said dismissively, before joking, "You know, you're a little too trustworthy. It's been a year. I totally could have come up here and, like, I don't know, robbed you or something. Sold your shit on eBay."
She tossed her bag to the couch as she laughed quietly, quirking a brow. "Oh, really? A year and you've suddenly turned into a criminal?"
"I could've."
"What a personality change."
I laughed as she stopped by my side, nudging me in the arm slightly, before her gaze fell to the photos hung on the wall.
"Ah, going through memory lane, I see," she teased lightheartedly.
I glanced at her with a slight smile. "It's cute that you've still got it. Even if it is a terrible photo."
"It's not," she said with a chuckle, looking at it with pride. "It's a two in one, I had to keep it. My first TV appearance and the day I met you. It just makes it extra special that you took the photo."
My cheeks grew warm at her words, and I found myself staring at her profile as she smiled reminiscently at the photo. We'd come so far since then and yet I still did a double take whenever I looked to her. Maybe some things hadn't changed...
"I'm just gonna change my clothes and then we can head out," she said after a moment. "Won't be long."
"It's cool, take your time," I said with a nod, watching as she went to her room, before looking back to the photo and finding myself smiling all over again.
—
Becoming friends with Skye again made it easy to remember all the best parts of having a friendship with her, so much that I almost forgot what led to everything being ruined in the first place.
Of course there was the substance abuse, but the reason for that was the anxieties and stresses that came with being one of the most popular celebrities in the world. And it definitely didn't help that Skye never had a lot of support from her team, who only ever saw her as a commodity. Clearly that hadn't changed.
I'd just finished some work one morning and had plans to hang out with Skye after, maybe catch a movie or something as she had the day off, we hadn't really decided. But when I called her, she answered groggily.
"Hey, Skye, you good?" I asked jokingly.
She made a sound like a yawn before humming. "Yes, sorry, I was just napping. Just been tired."
"Oh, I was calling to say I'm free now, but we can rearrange if–"
"No, no, I want to see you," she cut me off with assurance, forcing herself to sound more lively. "A movie, right? Or lunch?"
I tried not to snicker. "Skye, it's your day off and you sound exhausted. It's alright."
"I'm fine, honest," she said confidently, or an attempt at it. "Please, I was looking forward to seeing you."
I sighed, debating whether or not to listen to her. Then, I thought of a solution. "How about we stay in? I can come to yours and we can watch a movie there?"
"Yes, I'd love that," she said with a hint of relief. "Thank you. I'll get the blankets warmed up in the dryer, ready for your arrival."
I laughed quietly. "Sounds good. I'll bring some snacks and be over soon."
And just like that, we both kept to our word and got comfortable on her couch barely half an hour later. Snacks were laid out on the coffee table whilst two fluffy blankets covered us completely. Still, we leaned against each other for warmth.
Skye was definitely burnt out, her general enthusiasm diminished temporarily and her movements sluggish, but she was smiling all the same as she spent time with me. I knew she meant it, but it still worried me that she wasn't getting enough time to simply rest.
"How's tour stuff going?" I asked as she loaded up a film on Netflix.
She shrugged as she focused on the task at hand. "Alright. Been busy. You know how it can get."
I glanced at her. "I do."
She must have noticed my staring as she stopped what she was doing and looked over at me with an amused smile. "What?"
"Nothing," I said nonchalantly, looking to the TV. "Just remember that you can take a break if you need to. It's important or you'll risk burning out."
She sighed, leaning her head on my shoulder and playing with the blanket mindlessly. "I know. I am."
"Enough breaks," I clarified, watching her hands play with it. "I mean, your team are supportive, I'm sure, but they don't always know what's best for you."
She snorted with amusement, glancing up at me. "And you do?"
I met her gaze, half playful and half serious. "Maybe. Maybe not. But I'll always be an advocate of you taking a freakin' break."
She suppressed a smile as she nudged me appreciatively. "You're right. I will. I guess I've just been busy making sure everything is perfect. It has to be, you know? Especially after everything."
"I know," I said sympathetically. "I get it. Just... take care of yourself. Please."
She nodded, though sunk further into the couch as she laced her hands around my arm to get comfortable, almost like she was ending the conversation without saying so. I took the hint and looked back to the screen.
"Picked a film yet?" I asked.
"Almost."
—
Despite how easy it was to fall back into everything with Skye, there were still topics we didn't discuss. Like we never brought up our friendship-ending argument again, or her time in rehab, and she never talked about the accident. It wasn't that I didn't leave that space open for her to discuss, but it was definitely her way of keeping that separate by not bringing it up. And naturally, I didn't want to force her to relive it by bringing it up either.
But not talking about it meant I didn't always know how to help her.
We were walking around a park near her apartment one evening, enjoying a stroll at first, but then we started to mess around on some of the playing equipment since the place was deserted.
"You really think you can clear it in ten seconds?" I asked her with a laugh as she looked up at the monkey bars.
"I do, yeah," she said, mirroring my laughter as she glanced at me. "You just watch. Go on. Grab your phone. Timer at the ready please."
Curious, I pulled out my phone and stepped back, finger hovering over the timer. "Ready when you are, idiot."
She grinned before standing beneath the monkey bars. Looking up at them, she took a deep breath, about to jump up, but I intentionally interrupted to throw her off.
"You sure you don't wanna stretch first?"
She jumped and glared at me playfully. "Shut up. Just get ready."
I laughed and waited patiently, watching as she readied herself once more. And then she jumped up to grab the bars and I started the timer.
She managed to move down three bars before faltering at the fourth one and then letting go all of a sudden. My eyes widened when she landed on the tarmac with a sharp gasp, and I forgot all about the stupid timer as I rushed to check on her.
"Shit, Skye, you okay?" I asked quickly, kneeling down beside her.
Her face contorted in pain as her hand clutched her back. She was leaning on her elbow, clearly hurt.
"I'm fine, I'm fine," she muttered quickly, though she winced and her eyes were squeezing shut to suppress the pain.
I noticed she was holding her back – not really putting together that it was from her existing back pain from the accident – and tried to help by reaching for her jacket to see if she'd hurt it from the fall.
"No!" she suddenly shouted when she saw me attempting to touch her, and I jumped.
"Okay, sorry, sorry," I apologised, not wanting to overwhelm or upset her anymore than she already was.
I moved my hand back, but she grabbed it and squeezed gently before I could, an attempt at an apology for her outburst. A shaky sigh escaped her lips as she breathed out the pain, and I didn't say anything more as I held her hand, waiting patiently. Though my heart was clenching with concern the longer she took.
"It hurts sometimes," she finally spoke, avoiding my eyes, "from the accident. That's all."
When I realised it was much more than just falling from the monkey bars, I felt stupid and spoke without thinking. "Do you have medicine?"
She tensed her jaw as she glanced at me.
"Stupid question, sorry," I realised, grimacing.
She let go of my hand and shook her head, expression softening. "No, it wasn't."
Something was bothering her, more than the pain, but now wasn't the time to ask, so I settled on helping her stand up.
"Maybe we should call it a night," I said carefully. "It's getting late anyway."
She nodded, still avoiding my eyes, and we both walked back to her apartment in an awkward silence. A million things were running through my mind, mostly out of concern for Skye, and acknowledging my utter stupidity. For once, I couldn't read her.
When we reached the lobby inside, we paused by the lift.
"Are you okay?" I asked, trying to dial down my worry for her sake.
"Yes, sorry," she muttered.
"It's fine," I assured her, eyes scanning her expression as she purposely looked at my shirt and not me. "I didn't mean to overstep before. Sorry if I made you uncomfortable."
She shook her head, eyes flickering to mine briefly, sad, before looking down to her shoes. "You didn't. I just–"
She paused, a moment too long, enough to make me wonder what had her so uneasy.
"It's not pretty," she finally spoke, quieter than usual. "The... the scar. It's..."
"You don't need to explain," I said, when she didn't speak anymore, though my heart ached with concern, soon realising her uneasiness was embarrassment. An unnecessary embarrassment at that, as if I'd care about a scar when she was still here, alive.
I gave her a moment, hoping she'd say something more, but she didn't.
"Will you be okay?" I asked worriedly, not wanting to leave her tonight if her back was flaring up.
She nodded. "Yeah."
I nodded too, though was unsure how to say my goodbyes. Usually I'd go in for a hug, but she was already uncomfortable with me touching her before and the last thing I wanted was to do that again.
But then she finally looked up, eyes meeting mine gratefully, before she hugged me.
"Thanks for not thinking I'm weird," she mumbled into my shoulder, arms wrapped around them tightly.
I returned the hug gently. "I could never."
She didn't let go straight away and neither did I, not until she made the first move since clearly she needed this hug more than I did.
Finally, she pulled apart and offered me a small smile. "Goodnight, Y/N."
"Goodnight," I said, returning her smile, before reluctantly leaving her.
—
It was the first time we'd even come close to talking about the accident and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't worried. She wasn't opening up and I wondered if she felt like she couldn't. But maybe that incident was the key, because things changed soon after.
About a week later, I was fast asleep when I woke up to my phone vibrating on my bedside table. Confused, I cracked an eye open, wondering who could be calling in the middle of the night, but then the vibrating stopped. I considered if I cared that much, before deciding it could've been an emergency and checking who it was.
When I saw Skye's name, I woke up a little more, overcome with concern since she'd never called like this before. Immediately, I rang her back. It took two rings before she picked up.
"Hello?" she answered with confusion.
Still half asleep, I answered groggily, "Why are you confused? You just called me."
She sighed. "I did. Sorry. I cut it off when I realised."
She sounded different, her voice hoarse.
"What's wrong?" I asked, sitting up in bed and rubbing my eyes.
"Sorry, I just–" She tutted at herself. "It's late, Y/N, go back to sleep."
Even half conscious, I knew she wasn't okay. "Skye."
It went quiet, but she gave in, to my relief. "I had a bad dream," she admitted quietly. "I just wanted to distract myself. I didn't mean to wake you."
I frowned to myself. "Are you okay?"
A shaky sigh escaped her lips. "I will be. Really, just go to sleep, I'll be fine."
"I can't sleep knowing you're by yourself," I told her, too tired to hide my worry.
She paused, and then her voice came out guiltily, "Sorry."
"Don't apologise," I said gently, before asking, "Do you want me to come over?"
"No," she answered quickly, before adding, "It's late. I don't want you up and about this late into the night."
I was already pulling my duvet off and sitting at the edge of my bed as I said, "It's not a problem, Skye." It went quiet on her end, so I prompted, "Skye?"
"You don't mind?" she asked hesitantly.
Realising she did in fact want me there, I tried to reassure her. "No, of course not. I can come now."
She practically held her breath. "I owe you."
"You don't."
Exhaling softly, she said, "I'll send a cab to get you. I'll cover the cost. I don't want you on public transport in New York when all the weirdos are out."
I cracked a small smile. "Okay, Skye, see you soon."
Sounding relieved, she said, "See you soon."
I yawned as I hung up, trying to move quickly but still trying to wake up and so unintentionally moving at snail speed. After packing a small bag, including a change of clothes and some toiletries, I pulled on my shoes and a jacket before leaving for Skye's.
The taxi ride wasn't long since the streets weren't busy, and I found myself at Skye's door in less than twenty minutes. As soon as I knocked, she opened up.
"Hey," I said with a tired smile, before hugging her in greeting. "How are you?"
She hugged me back and let me in, closing the door behind me. I noticed she was wearing her pyjamas, hair dishevelled and eyes a little red.
"Better now," she admitted, before frowning. "I'm sorry I woke you up. But I'm glad you're here."
"I'm glad you did," I told her, before leaving my bag by the kitchen counter. "So, what do you want to do?"
"You're tired," she noticed.
I waved a hand dismissively, trying to look more awake. "I can stay awake if you want, Skye."
She sighed, shaking her head, before wordlessly grabbing my hand and dragging me to her bedroom.
"Come on," she said as she climbed into her queen sized bed, so I got out of my shoes and jacket and followed suit, settling in beside her.
We laid on our backs, staring up at the ceiling in silence. I chewed on the inside of my cheek as I glanced at her, her expression dimly lit by the moonlight and lights shining through her blinds. She was weary, though attempting to hide it.
"Do you have bad dreams often?" I asked curiously.
She swallowed visibly. "Not as much as I used to, but... sometimes, yeah." She paused, as if stuck in an internal debate, before admitting, "It was about the accident."
At the mention of the accident, the air in the room felt charged with uncertainty, and Skye's jaw tensed slightly.
"Do you wanna talk about it?" I asked tenderly, and when she didn't reply, I quickly added, "Or you don't have to at all."
Her dark eyes flickered to mine, surprisingly calm. "It's okay. It's just– it's a lot. And when I'm alone, it's..."
"A lot," I finished for her.
She nodded, looking back up at the ceiling. "Yeah."
I found her hand between us, squeezing it gently in support.
"I remember how difficult it was after," she muttered. "That, and the withdrawals, and all of it – it was a lot. Being in the hospital... I had my mum, but it felt so lonely."
I frowned as she recalled the experience, hearing it for the first time from her lips. And then she looked over at me and I looked back, realising there were tears in her eyes.
"Why didn't you come?" she asked, voice cracking and eyes welling up. "I wanted you to visit so bad. I– I thought you would."
Not expecting that, I struggled to speak. "I told you, Skye, I thought you wouldn't want me there. I..."
She let go of my hand and wiped her eyes shamefully, looking away. I sat up slightly, leaning on my elbow to look down at her, not wanting her to bottle everything up now.
"I waited," she whispered. "Every day, hoping you'd come to see me."
My heart crumbled at her words, guilt pressing down on my chest. "I'm sorry."
She squeezed her eyes shut. "It's not your fault, I know that. But I just..."
With the nightmare still fresh and her recollection of the past at the forefront of her mind, I knew her emotions were heightened and she was overwhelmed, and it hurt to witness.
I pulled her into my chest for a hug, rubbing her back gently. "I wish I had. I wanted nothing more than to see you then, Skye, truly. But I'm here now. I promise."
She didn't say anything, but she didn't pull away either. Her sniffles were heard in the silence of the room and she kept a firm grip on my tee shirt, and I didn't know what else to do other than continue to rub her back soothingly.
At some point, we must have dosed off like that because when I opened my eyes next, it was morning. I yawned as I rubbed my face, confused to where I was at first. And then I recognised Skye's room and it all came back to me.
I looked beside me, seeing Skye fast asleep, face smushed against her pillow adorably. She looked a lot better than she did last night and I was glad for it, seriously worried about her. Hopefully she'd gotten some sleep after everything.
Trying not to stare too long, reminding myself that it wasn't very platonic of me, I looked away and carefully clambered out of her bed to freshen up. After doing so, I went into her kitchen to find something to eat.
I was eating from a bowl of cereal at her kitchen island when I heard footsteps, looking up to see her leaving her bedroom.
"Good morning," I greeted. "How are you feeling?"
She hummed tiredly, yawning and running a hand through her dishevelled hair. I couldn't help but smile at how cute she looked.
"Better," she finally spoke, brown eyes meeting mine across the counter. "Thanks, Y/N. For coming last night."
I shrugged. "It's okay."
She sighed, shaking her head, and looked down thoughtfully. After a moment, she said, "I know I haven't talked to you much about it all."
My expression softened. "I don't expect you to."
"I know," she said quietly, before meeting my gaze. "I want to. I do. Otherwise the way I am, how I act... it doesn't make sense and I don't want you to feel confused or think I'm insane or–"
"Hey," I cut her off, furrowing my brows. "I don't think that, Skye."
She chewed her lip momentarily, eyes flickering to the counter top. "I want you to know. Eventually. I just– it'll be bit by bit because I can't go through it all at once. It's too much."
I frowned sympathetically. "That's alright. You can tell me as little or as much as you want, whenever you want. Meanwhile, if you just want the support, I can give you that too. It's what friends do."
She smiled a little, nodding. "Right."
I studied her expression, unsure what to make of it. "Did you get any sleep? Last night?"
She nodded, looking up. "I did, yeah. Thanks for coming. I know it was late. And I'm sorry for breaking down on you."
I gave her a knowing look, offering a small smile. "You need to stop apologising."
She exhaled. "Sorry."
I rolled my eyes playfully. "Never mind that. You want breakfast? I can make whatever you want, providing you have it of course."
She smiled as she took a seat. "That would be nice, yeah. Eggs couldn't hurt."
"Eggs it is then," I said, eating the last bite of my cereal before standing up. "Give me five minutes.”
She nodded and watched me, relaxed for even the smallest of moments, enough to put me at ease too.
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The Meaning of Home, Chapter 2
The Meaning of Home Chapter 2
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Pawel spends much of Monday lounging around the house. He gets up to help get Conor and Emma on the bus, so his dad can leave on time for work. After meeting the bus in his pajamas, he walks back to Dad’s house and lies down on the couch. He doesn’t really need a blanket, but he pulls it up to his nose anyway for the comfort factor and spends the day dozing and streaming old movies on his dad’s TV.
He never makes it as far as thinking about cooking anything for dinner, so he treats Dad and Conor to a night out. It eats up more time than he’d like, and it means Conor needs to scramble to finish the last of his homework once they’re home, but it’s nice to spend an hour letting someone else do the cooking.
Later that evening, after Conor goes to bed, Pawel and Dad spend the next couple of hours finally talking through everything that’s happened. Pawel doesn’t want to leave things out, but there are a few things he avoids for Dad’s safety, like the government involvement, and one thing he just doesn’t know how to explain.
He hasn’t seen Chelsea in a while. She’s relearning how to work within the world without draining souls to stay alive. He highly doubts she’s planning on stopping by his father’s for a visit, and even if she did, Dad never got to meet her as anything other than one of Pawel’s friends a decade ago.
Yeah. That is a complicated mess that he has no desire to go into detail about.
They go to bed late, but Pawel still wakes early on Tuesday to get his own kid on the bus. He figures it’s the least he can do, letting Dad get to work on time on a regular basis again.
Alone in the house again, Pawel feels refreshed and awake.
And bored.
He puts the phone on speaker as he putters around the kitchen, pressing to dial the number for Pels. She picks up after two rings, her voice gravelly and low. “What? Did we burn your house down?”
“I’m assuming you would have called me, rather than the other way around, if you burned my house down. Since you’re the one staying there.” Pawel rifles through his father’s cabinets until he finds a slow cooker. It’s dusty, but he’s pretty sure it’ll be functional. There should be enough ingredients for chili around.
He looks into a cabinet, and nearly bare shelves stare back at him.
Okay, maybe not.
“What?” Pels asks again. “You woke me up. Are you looking for my mom? I thought you had her number.”
Pawel finds tomatoes and beans, and starts emptying them into the slow cooker. “I do. I thought she’d be at work, so I called you instead.”
“It’s too early and—Dad, Dad, no, I’ll talk to him. Give me back my phone.”
“Hello, Ammon.” Pawel might not be able to hear Pels’s father, but he’s well aware by now that the ghost can hear him.
“He’s leaving, and I’m not putting this on speaker,” Pels mutters. “I thought he was going to start spending more time with Mom now, after the whole unbinding ceremony last weekend, but apparently she told him not to follow her to work.”
“Can she see him now?” That would be an interesting development. Pawel sets the empty can on the counter and reaches for a pad of sticky notes so he can scribble a reminder to himself to look into more detailed information about the ritual that the Burlington community performed for Pels and her mother in order to remove the bindings from their Talents.
“I think so. I mean, I’m pretty sure she can, but we’re not really talking about it. But seriously. Did you call for a reason? Cheyenne’s got these final projects to finish up since she left school a couple weeks early, so she’s not bothering me. Dad wasn’t bothering me. I was sleeping.” Pels grumbles under her breath.
“I just wanted to see how things were going.” Pawel peels off the sticky note and tapes it to the fridge, where he might see it later. Another search of the cabinets turns up chili powder and a few other seasonings. “Now that you’ve had a chance to settle into the house.”
“We’re fine. We’re figuring out how to be a family again without Peter.” Pels hesitates. “I’m learning how to see the world a whole different way now that I can see everything my Talent lets me see. Shane and Jess and I are talking a lot, and I’m going to figure this Mage thing out. So… thanks. For everything. Including letting us stay in your house while you’re gone.”
Pawel shakes some cocoa powder into the slow cooker, before adding a handful of dried onion. “Someone’s got to water the plants.”
“The plants were already dead when we got here.”
He laughs at Pels’s dry words. She’s not wrong. Pawel was gone for a month; everything went to hell, while his son went to stay with his dad.
Which, yeah. That brings him right back around to where he is now.
Pawel stares at the slow cooker. “If you need anything, you’ve got my number.”
“I’ll tell Mom to check in with you periodically. Oh and—” Pels hesitates before asking, “Cheyenne wants to know if it’s okay if she uses your backyard to practice flying?”
Pawel thinks of the time they used Alaric’s dragon to summon a Shadow in that same backyard. “That would not be the strangest thing the neighbors could have witnessed. But she should try not to break anything, including herself.”
“I think we can do that. Gotta go. Dad says there’s someone at the door.”
The line goes abruptly silent, and Pawel looks down at the screen of his phone as the connection is lost. “Okay, then.” He gives the vegetarian chili a quick stir, then puts the lid on, plugs it in, and switches the appliance on to cook on low. “That’s set, at least.”
He feels a little better, knowing that his home is in good hands, or at least, it’s not burning down. It sat empty for a month before; having someone live there for the summer should be better.
As long as none of the newly powered Mages set the place on fire.
Fire.
That reminds him.
Pawel checks one more time to ensure that the slow cooker is on and set to low, then heads back to the living room to dig out his laptop. He starts it up and finds the tab he’d left open for the outdoor music festivals, with a list of dates.
That’s what he thought: the festival that Rory and Thorne’s band, Phoenix Rising, is touring with will be in Buffalo this weekend.
Pawel buys four tickets. He figures Dad will come with them, and Conor will want to bring a friend. Probably Alan. And if Dad doesn’t want to go, Alan’s mom, Emily, might join them instead. He’s not worried if the tickets don’t all get used; he just wants options.
Conor will be pleased by the surprise, anyway.
He closes the laptop and looks back to the kitchen.
How the hell does his dad live like that, anyway? And what has Conor been eating?
No, he saw the answer to that this morning. Toaster pastries and cereal, and Pawel’s pretty sure that the last of the eggs were finished off as well.
Fine.
If Pawel’s going to be here all summer, squeezed into his dad’s small space, the least he can do is lay in supplies.
Pawel spends the day scouring the cabinets, making a long list of everything from prepared garlic and ginger for easy seasoning, to pantry staples like pasta, to critical items like various forms of protein for the freezer. His dad has a standing freezer in the garage, and even that seems woefully empty.
He loses time going through the sites online for each local grocery store, poring over the ads to determine which store will have the best value for this shopping trip. He types up the list to rearrange it by food type, so that as soon as Conor’s home they can head out and maybe they’ll be organized enough to get the trip done quickly.
“Dad!” The door bangs open. “What’s for dinner? I’m starving and something smells really good.”
“It’s not dinner time.” Pawel folds up the printout of the list and shoves it in his pocket. “We’re going shopping. Grab a snack.” His own stomach growls and he’s not sure how he made it from early morning to half past three without a meal. “I think I saw a box of granola bars.”
Conor lifts the lid to the slow cooker, inhaling deeply, while Pawel finds the last two granola bars. He tosses one to his son.
“Let’s get some food.”
“Can we get meat for the chili? That looked like it was all beans,” Conor grumbles. He buckles his belt, then directs Pawel to the grocery store.
Pawel already knows how to get there, but he’s not going to tell Conor that. Not when Conor seems comfortable in this place and is enjoying showing off that comfort level. He stays silent while Conor points out the entrance to the parking lot, then finds them a space close to the door.
Conor grabs a cart from the corral and pushes it into the store. “Emma’s Papa picks her up after school, so she doesn’t have to take the bus. She said they’re doing stuff today, so she couldn’t come over. I thought we could work on our—Emma!!”
Pawel catches the cart, stopping it from rolling when Conor takes off into the produce section. Emma’s answering shout is sharp and loud as Conor skids to a stop near a display laden with peaches. Pawel pushes the cart there, half an ear listening to the kids talking as if they weren’t together a half hour ago in school.
“Dad!” Conor waves at him, so Pawel picks up the pace.
He’s not sure who Emma is with. She stands next to an almost empty cart, except for a bag of peaches sitting in the seat. There doesn’t seem to be any sign of an adult.
“Emma’s shopping.”
Emma rolls her eyes, pushing braids back over her shoulder. “Obviously,” she says quietly. “Jennie had to pee. He’ll be back soon. She forgot to go before we left school.”
“Does your Papa have two carts? We can help you,” Conor offers. “You and me can do one cart, and Dad can do ours, and your Papa can do the other one.”
“You can call me Leo. I don’t think your dad would like it if you started calling me Papa like the rest of the kids.”
Pawel knows that voice.
He hasn’t heard the voice in a very long time, but there are certain phrases still etched in the deep recesses of his memory.
He exhales, and very deliberately makes himself look at the man who has joined him.
He looks good. Older, yeah. It’s been more than ten years since Leo graduated and left town for college. Apparently he’s back now, and from the police uniform, this would be Emma’s foster father that works for Pawel’s dad. He has the name ‘L. Papa’ embroidered on his uniform, just above the pocket, and his badge is still visible. Leo stands with one hand on the handle of the cart and reaches without looking to take a package of donuts out of the hands of the small girl sitting in the basket of the cart.
When he smiles, Pawel’s heart twists.
“I was glad to hear you reappeared,” Leo says quietly. His voice is a warm, low tenor, as careful and even as Pawel remembers.
“You’re fostering a Weather Witch.” It’s maybe not the best reply. Pawel refuses to wince when Conor snickers.
“I told you he’s single-minded sometimes,” Conor whispers loudly to Emma. “He’ll help find your parents. I know your Papa’s a police officer, but Dad’s a Mage.”
Emma’s brown eyes are furrowed and dark. Her lips purse, but she doesn’t say anything.
Leo takes two sheets of paper from his pocket, then hands one to Emma. “You know which cereals the boys like best. Pick one for yourself and Jennie that they won’t eat before you get a chance. Since you’re the one with me, you get to pick the pasta. I know it says twenty boxes of mac & cheese, but we only need ten. We’ll be shopping again next week.”
Emma takes the list and reads it over solemnly. “Nevaeh said we need more tuna, but it’s not on the list. I’ll get that, too. C’mon, Conor. There were some cookies on sale. Help me pick out ones that the boys won’t eat before we can.”
“Popcorn,” Conor replies. “Remember, we used the last of it last weekend? Did that get on your list?”
They roll away with the almost-empty cart before Pawel can protest.
The small girl in Leo’s cart has the box of donuts in her hands again. She opens the plastic carefully and takes one out.
“Jennie,” Leo says softly.
“I need sugar to sparkle,” she whispers around a mouthful of chocolate cream.
Speechless feels so strange. Pawel can’t remember the last time his tongue has been this tangled. “I—” He tries to break his own silence, and fails miserably.
“Things get chaotic with five kids in the house,” Leo says. When he smiles again, his pale green eyes crinkle around the corners with tiny lines that definitely weren’t there before. They match the faint hints of salt in his dark hair. “Conor’s got a lot of energy. He probably keeps you on your toes.”
“Dad says I’ve been cursed with a kid that’s just like I was,” Pawel says. He pushes his hand through his hair, trying to figure out how to recover his balance. “He didn’t tell me you were one of Emma’s foster fathers. Just that she had two of them. Foster fathers. And two missing parents.”
Meeting his ex-boyfriend shouldn’t be this unsettling.
Pawel blames it on the fact that he’s probably still in a sleep deficit—two weeks is not enough time to catch up on missing sleep for several months.
“There’s a local teacher who works with a group that finds placements for Talented kids who need Talented families to stay with.” Leo has the second page of his list in his hand, and he refers to it while picking out produce.
Right. Shopping.
Pawel looks at his own list and tries to focus on that to give himself a little distance and wrangle his brain back into working order. Salad. They definitely need things for salad. And fresh vegetables for roasting wouldn’t be bad.
“Alice asked Colt if he knew anyone who might be able to take on kids about four years ago, and when he said we would, she put us in touch with Lucy and Rowan, and that’s how we got Matt, our first foster kid.”
Leo’s voice rolls over Pawel, dropping tidbits of information that he struggles to grab onto.
“Matt’s not bad,” Jennie says around a mouthful of donut. “Sometimes.”
Pawel latches onto the names, his fingers closing around a broccoli crown and holding it a little too tightly. He fumbles with the plastic bag. “Lucy and Rowan? And… Colt?” He had to have heard those wrong.
He manages to get the bag open and shoves two broccoli crowns into it, dropping them in the basket of his cart.
Leo is silent.
When Pawel looks at him, Leo stands with his fingers wrapped around the handle of the cart, his grip tight. “Colt Harrison,” he says. “My husband. You—”
“Dated him in high school, yeah.” Pawel finishes Leo’s sentence for him.
That’s… too much information. Pawel is struggling to assimilate it.
“Dad did not mention that,” he mutters.
“This doesn’t have to be weird.” Leo grabs the container of donuts and moves it to another area of the cart. Jennie could still get to it, but she pouts instead, slouching down in one corner of the basket, her lower lip sticking out and flecked with chocolate. “Colt and I met when he was interning at the law office where he works now. We’ve been married about three years. We didn’t even know each other back in high school.”
“It doesn’t have to be weird,” Pawel echoes. He’s right, of course. It shouldn’t be weird. It’s not weird at all. People meet. They fall in love. They get married. They have kids. Sometimes there’s a small world effect and it turns out that they may have already been connected beforehand.
That’s all Pawel is in this; an ancient history connection.
“Your dad talks about you all the time,” Leo says. He pulls a napkin from his pocket and cleans Jennie’s fingers. “Try not to touch anything else,” he admonishes gently before tucking the dirty napkin back in his pocket.
He’s so careful with her. Pawel remembers when Leo used to take care of his younger siblings. It only makes sense that he’d be good with kids now. As big and scruffy and rough looking as he is, he’s gentle, too.
“I need to—” Pawel holds up the list, showing just how long it is. “Dad’s cupboards are empty. I’m not sure what he and Conor have been eating, and I get the feeling that it’s takeout so I really don’t want to know. I need to stock up.”
“So do we. Matt’s eleven and Clan, and Duke’s fourteen. We go through a lot of food in our house.” Leo heads toward the back of the store. “Come on. We’ll catch up with the kids if we get moving.”
Pawel exhales and trails behind Leo. Jennie peeks around him, her thumb in her mouth as she looks at Pawel. Small brown brows furrow deeply before she turns away and curls up.
Her snores are adorable little rasps of sound. He can’t think how she’s sleeping through the rattle and squeak of the cart she rides in. Still, she’s silent as they work their way through the aisles, collecting items from their respective lists.
They turn down one aisle and spot Conor and Emma from a distance. Conor has sparks around his hand while Emma reaches for something falling from the shelves.
Pawel coughs, and Conor turns to give him an innocent look.
Wait. That reminds him.
“You’re taking in Talented kids,” Pawel says slowly. “So you or Colt must be—”
“We both are,” Leo says, glancing at him sideways. “I grew up Clan. Colt’s Emergent, but that’s his story to tell. I heard about you being a Mage from your dad. He’s proud of everything you’ve done at PHU.”
Pawel waves that away. “Youngest dean. Newest department. Only real expert on Talent as a whole because I’m the only person who’s bothered to go down the rabbit hole far enough to study it formally.”
“It’s still impressive.” Leo huffs.
“I just… I never knew.” Pawel thinks back and tries to catalog Leo’s family based on what he knows of Clan. He didn’t interview them for his thesis; they weren’t on his radar as a large Clan community. They grew up as a part of the town.
“You weren’t meant to.” Leo dips into his pocket and hands the napkin back to Jennie, who has somehow woken from her nap and polished off a second donut while they weren’t paying attention. “That was before the Emergence. We took a lot of care to be able to live here without anyone knowing.”
“But your community—”
“Widespread and buried within this town and the surrounding ones. We never really wanted to withdraw from the rest of the world. Which is what makes us good candidates for fostering. We don’t have those same prejudices that some might have.” Leo drops a hand to the top of Jennie’s head, and she looks up at him, smiling brightly.
There are, indeed, sparkles all around her, the air shimmering with her contentment and happiness.
“Conor wants me to help find Emma’s parents,” Pawel says quietly. “At the same time, I’m not sure if he really wants me to get involved, after everything that happened this last year. What do you—”
“I think they’re dead,” Leo says quietly. His hand still rests atop Jennie’s head, but his gaze is fixed on Emma. “I can tell you what little we know, but everything points to them being dead. The question is what happened to their bodies.”
Unfortunately, Pawel’s had experience with issues like that and can think of at least one scenario.
Which might mean they’re not dead.
They also might not be prepared to be parents anymore, either.
Leo pitches his voice louder. “You should come over for dinner some night.”
Both Conor and Emma turn to look at them. Emma grips the side of the cart, stepping up and holding on while Conor gives it a good push before jumping up himself. It sends them racing towards Leo and Pawel, until Pawel puts up a hand, throwing out a gentle cushion of magic to stop them before they crash.
“Yes!” Conor yells. “Dinner!”
“You could come over and meet everyone. If you want to.” Emma’s gaze drifts away, like she really doesn’t care about the answer.
“They’re like my second family. Third, maybe, because of Alan, but my second one here,” Conor insists. “And Emma’s dads are really nice.”
“They aren’t my dads.”
“I’m sure Colt would love to see you, too,” Leo adds.
Thanks for the gut punch.
“He says yes,” Conor says quickly. “Right dad? You say yes.”
What else is he supposed to do?
“Yes.” Pawel fishes out his phone, unlocking it and staring down. He doesn’t resist when Leo slips it from his fingers, opening up his text app and sending something.
Leo places the phone back in Pawel’s hands. “The first number is mine, the second is Colt’s. In case you don’t still have them.”
“I fried my phone and lost everything,” Pawel admits. “Back when I Emerged. So. Thank you.”
“It’s good to see you.” Leo’s touch is heavy and warm where he claps his hand against Pawel’s shoulder, then squeezes.
Pawel could hug him, but he thinks that might be awkward. He’s never had this situation. He has three exes—two of them he hasn’t seen since they broke up, and the other one is Chelsea. Which is just complicated.
“Yeah, you too.” He watches as Leo walks away, Emma pushing the second cart beside him. Pawel wonders just how distracted Leo must feel since Jennie looks like she’s grabbing her third donut.
Or maybe that’s just how it is. Maybe he spoils his kids with plenty of sugar.
It’s not like Pawel knows anything about how Leo’s life is now.
Conor tugs sharply at Pawel’s shirt. “Dad. When are we going to dinner over at Emma’s house?”
Pawel looks down at his phone, at the new conversation sitting there. All it says is, this is Pawel.
He locks his phone and shoves it in his pocket. “I don’t know yet, but not tonight. Let’s go find that meat you wanted for the chili. Chicken might be good. We could sauté it up quickly and add it so it’ll get a couple hours in the slow cooker with the rest. Or we could cook it up with spices and add it afterwards.”
“You’re just saying that because chicken is healthy,” Conor grumbles. “I got more toaster pastries. Dziadziu lets me eat them.”
“I let you eat them, too, just possibly not in the same quantities,” Pawel protests. It’s not an argument he’s going to have right now, anyway.
He’s going to focus on finishing up the shopping, and finishing cooking dinner.
He’s going to focus on anything other than the fact that somehow both of the boys he dated in high school grew up to meet each other and end up married.
Yeah, he’s going to do his damnedest to focus on anything but that.
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