#got a spam text from a local number asking to meet up for coffee and i thought maybe it was her and she just had a new number (again)
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traumagenica · 6 months ago
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#i am reminded of the latest of my old friends to disappear from my life#got a spam text from a local number asking to meet up for coffee and i thought maybe it was her and she just had a new number (again)#the fact that i hoped for a minute... im mad at myself for it#she blames me for abandoning her when we were younger even tho *she* was the one who fled across the fucking country without even a goodbye#changed her number multiple times without contacting me when mine's been the same since the day we met and she could always reach out#and had the gall to be mad at *me* for not talking to her#she would do one super nice cool thing for me but when i can't reciprocate because im fucking broke she'd be upset that she was#“the only one putting the effort in” when its like i dont have the same resources or connections of you i was working 2-3 jobs for years#i would send her gifts and letters and cards she wouldn't write back but if i couldn't make it to an event she invited me to the day of#she'd give me the silent treatment for months#when she sent a package it was always something more expensive than i could gift back#i was vulnerable with her and told her when i fell out of touch again that it was because i was really sick and having difficulty#leaving the house. because i *know* i tend to withdraw when things are hard and i'm working on doing better#i shouldn't want to be friends with someone like that#i shouldnt want to be friends with someone whos always had a rocky relationship with me at best#and yet...#it hurts...#she's not the first friend to leave me she's not the first to walk away without closure she's not even the most painful one i've lost#but it still hurts#it hurts so bad#admin tags >>#text post#vent#venting#friendship#friend breakup#interpersonal relationships#chronic illness#mental illness#i hate mourning people who are still alive
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eddiesasspbrak · 5 years ago
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When I’m With You Ch. 2
Eddie can’t stand the barista at his favorite coffee shop. Richie has fallen in love with the man he sees twice a week. Stan is dating someone but won’t let his friends meet them. Ben is in love with Beverly, but is so afraid of scaring her away he’s not moving forward. Chaotic friends navigating college together.
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It was Saturday, Eddie didn’t have to do anything. When he woke on the couch, his neck hurting from the insufficient head support, he was glad to see his streak of no hangover was still going strong. Still, he felt off. A little sick to his stomach, but not from the drinking. It was that emotional kind of ache that came with anxiety usually. He wasn’t sure what was causing it and it was really quite annoying when it hit out of nowhere.
He sat up, rolling his neck and allowing it to pop and stretch. He’d slept in his clothes and that always made him feel too warm and gross. The first thing he needed was a shower and then he should probably eat something, even though his stomach protested at the thought. He turned the shower on and looked at the way his hair was sticking up in the mirror. He looked tired. He was tired. Sleeping on the couch wasn’t exactly restful.
Stripping off his clothes, he stepped under the warm spray of water. The events of the night before were coming back slowly as the groggy remnants of sleep faded away. He remembered Bev showing up with Richie and being stuck talking to him all night. He remembered Ben and Bev leaving them there alone without telling him they were going to go. He remembered Richie inviting him for pie and then leaving in a hurry when he got a text. The sad and disappointed look he tried to hide behind a smile crept back into his mind and his stomach churned with that heavy anxiety feeling again.
He tried to shake all thoughts from his head as he focused on getting clean instead. Feeling fresher than he had before, dressed in clean clothes, hair drying, he went to this kitchen to see if he could find anything he could stomach at the moment. In one of the cabinets he found a sleeve of crackers and took them back to the living room with him. He switched the TV on, ignoring the cooking show that was on as he checked his phone for the first time since waking up.
Ben: I’m so, so, so sorry. Beverly said she wanted to go somewhere alone and wouldn’t let me tell you first.
Eddie rolled his eyes as he read the text. He wasn’t actually mad at him and didn’t really expect an apology. But Ben was probably sitting there worried that he was angry. He was always like this. He’d spent his childhood before moving to town without friends. They’d met in middle school and found they liked some of the same things. Eddie didn’t really have friends either, so they found comfort in being with another outcast. However, Ben was always worried he’d do something wrong and lose him. Even in high school when their friend group grew to include Stan, even when all three got into the same college and ventured outside of their small town for the first time together.
Stan and Ben lived on campus, but Eddie’s mom had helped him get his apartment. He’d started out in the dorms, but he couldn’t stand living with a roommate who didn’t keep clean and his roommate was constantly complaining about him being anal about cleanliness. He also didn’t cope well with the communal showers. In the end, it was just better for him to live on his own off campus. He’d thought about finding a three bedroom with Stan and Ben, but for the time being, they were enjoying living on campus. It was fine. Eddie didn’t mind living alone.
He munched on some crackers while he typed out a response to Ben.
Eddie: It’s fine. I left right after you. That was pretty much the plan anyway
Ben: You’re not mad?
Eddie: No. How did it go?
Ben: Can I come over?
Eddie: That bad?
Ben: No. I just want to talk about it in person.
Eddie: Yea. I’m home
Ben: Twenty minutes
He hadn’t really expected to have company but spending a few hours with Ben wasn’t a terrible way to spend his Saturday. He could probably guilt him into buying him lunch to pay him back for the bar tab. Eddie went to put his phone down when another text came through, this one from Stanley.
Stan: Did you guys go out without me last night?
Eddie: Every time we ask you out you say you’ve got a date
Stan: So…you did
Eddie: If I had texted and asked you to come out what would your answer have been?
Stan: …that’s not the point
Eddie: omg ok I’m sorry I didn’t ask you to hang out Stan. I promise that next time I will ask you to come so you can turn me down properly instead of bringing this mystery person for your BEST FRIENDS to finally meet.
Stan: You will meet them eventually. I’m just not ready.
Eddie: It’s been three months.
Stan: Excuse me but I’m supposed to be mad at you. You can’t just turn things around on me like this
Eddie: Ben is coming over now. Do you want to come too? He’s going to regale us with the fascinating events with Bev from last night
Stan: …I can’t
Eddie: Oh my God
Stan: Next time?
Eddie sent back an emoji of hand flipping him off and dropped his phone down on the couch. He half focused on the cooking competition show while he ate almost the entire sleeve of crackers and waited for Ben. He was starting to feel better, more relaxed after texting with his friends. They both knew that he struggled with a panic disorder and were often the ones to help calm him when things got bad. Over the years they’d learned what they needed to do for him. Just being with him, occasionally hugging him or just placing a hand on his arm to keep him grounded. He really did love them.
He figured Ben was texting to let him know he’d arrived when his phone chimed about fifteen minutes later. He unlocked the screen and stared down at the number the text had been sent from. It was local, but not one he had saved or recognized. He opened the message warily, figuring it was probably a spam message from some store that had his information. Instead of a special offer or a sale announcement, he was met with the picture of a slice of pie.
?: thinking of you
Eddie: Who is this?
?: really? The pie didn’t tip you off?
Eddie: Um…
?: it’s Richie
It clicked for him a second later, having been working hard to forget about any of their interactions from the night before. Of course, he’d asked him to go get pie with him before he’d disappeared. The only question remaining was how he’d gotten his number. He for sure didn’t remember giving it to him and he didn’t want him to have it. He would never know peace if Richie was able to text him.
Eddie: Why do you have my number?
Richie: Bev gave it to me
Eddie: Why?
Richie: I asked her
Eddie: Why?
Richie: I wanted it
Eddie: Why?
Richie: did you give your phone to a 5yo?
Eddie: I’m just trying to understand why you would want to have the ability to contact me
Richie: you’re not very social, are you?
Eddie: No. I’m not.
Richie: we’ll have to work on that Eds
Eddie: Don’t call me that
A text came through from Ben, letting him know he was downstairs. Eddie set his phone aside, ignoring the new texts from Richie and going to the intercom. He pushed the button that would allow Ben to enter and unlocked his front door. He went back to the couch and a minute later Ben was letting himself in. At first glance, he didn’t look upset. Things must have gone well.
“So?” Eddie said, expectantly.
“I kissed her.” Ben blurted out, going tense.
“What? Really?” Eddie was really interested now.
“We left the bar and we were just walking. It was cold but it was like, I couldn’t even tell or something. I just wanted to keep walking forever if it meant that I could have her by my side.”
“Ok, enough of the poetic shit. Tell me what happened.”
“We stopped to get coffee at this place that was still open, and we were sitting and talking and…”
“And?”
“She’s just so pretty. I was staring at her and she started laughing at me, so I thought I screwed up. Then she just leaned across the table and kissed me.”
“Like, on the mouth?”
“Yep.”
“I told you she liked you.” Eddie couldn’t help the ‘I told you so’ as he had been telling Ben for months that Bev was into him. He was so sure that she wouldn’t be into him that he doubted every move he made around her.
Ben finally left the door and joined Eddie on the couch. He looked like he was in disbelief, like maybe he was thinking that he’d dreamt it all.
“So, are you guys dating then?” Eddie asked, pulling his legs up underneath him.
“I think so. She said I was cute and then we held hands while I walked her home and we kissed again before I left.”
“Did you ask her out again?”
“No. But she said her birthday is on Thursday and she wants both of us to come.”
“Is it a party?”
“She said drinking and laser tag.”
That didn’t sound terrible to Eddie. He liked Bev. Considered her a friend. He would like to celebrate her birthday with her. He’d never been to play laser tag, so he wasn’t sure he’d be any good. Still, he didn’t have any classes on Friday so a fun night out on Thursday didn’t sound bad.
“Should be fun. And, hey, she wants to see you again after kissing you. That’s a good sign, right?” Eddie asked, patting Ben on the shoulder.
“I guess. Do I kiss her when I see her? When I shop for a birthday gift, should I shop like I’m buying for a girlfriend? Or a friend?”
“You need to calm the fuck down, man. When you see her, if she wants to kiss you, she will let you know. This is Beverly we’re talking about. As for a gift, just buy her something you know she’ll like. I’ll go with you to find something.”
“Really?”
“Yea, of course.”
Ben wrapped his arms around Eddie and pulled him into a crushing hug. “I love you.”
“I know.” Eddie patted his back and laughed. “I love you too.”
Ben ended up staying the rest of the afternoon. They spent the day watching movies and playing games together. It had been a long time since they last did this, just enjoying each other’s company. They ordered dinner, Ben paid, and ate in front of the TV. Eddie told him about how he knew Richie and how Bev had given him his phone number without asking him first. Now he had him saved as a contact in his phone and he hated it.
When night fell, Ben chose to stay the night instead of heading back to his dorm. Tomorrow was Sunday and he didn’t have to be anywhere. They shared Eddie’s bed and the next morning they went out for a late breakfast of pancakes and coffee at a diner. Eddie absently remembered Richie’s comment about cheating on him with someone else’s coffee and rolled his eyes, drinking every drop and asking for a refill.
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nothing-but-kpop-dreams · 7 years ago
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GOT7 as your best friend (request)
So I intended this to be a mini scenarios, but there is just too much to these wonderful boys to fit in such a tiny paragraph, so this is a list now.
Sorry for any errors.
JB:
·         You have to co-parent the rest of GOT7 with him (Lowkey you gotta looks after this boy too)
·         You always catch him making stupid faces for no reason or spreading his face on clear glass doors.
·         He is always talking to you about Nora
·         “Jae, I get it, you have a cat”
·         Talking him out of taking stray cats home
·         Laughing at his burst of loud frustration because you don’t always take him seriously.
·         Imitating his angry jaw constantly, causing the rest of GOT7 to do the same
·         He tries to boss you around but you won’t listen because “You ain’t my leader!”
·         Trying out all the new restaurants together
·         You make him special lunches on his birthday
·         You always bring up Dream High 2 to him even when he begs you to stop
·         Randomly singing JJ project songs out of nowhere to try and annoy him
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Mark:
·         You follow his dad on Twitter and retweet everything he tweets.
·         You help him look after Coco.
·         Constantly bring up his ramen hair (Your contact picture for him is his promo pictures with that ramen hair)
·         He is the most chill of the group so most of the time hanging out involves both of you at either end of the couch on your phones
·         When he is in the mood to be active, that is when the competitive game of volleyball begins
·         Both of you have telepathic communication, one look and you guys already agree on what to do
·         You always steal one of his sweaters when you go over. HE secretly sees you stealing them but says nothing.
·         Hearing entire albums together in one sitting
·         BFF naps sessions after a long day
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Jinyoung:
·         You both always exchange books with each other
·         Harry potter movie marathons
·         Piss this guy off and he ruins the ending to the book he lent you
·         Both of you sit back and give the rest of GOT7 judgmental looks for fun
·         Both of you are the gossips queens that got the dirt on everyone
·         He throws savage comments at you (no one is safe from his savageness) but he makes up for it with tiny acts of kindness
·         Goes to you when he need to practice his lines. He want that cut-throat critique from you so that he can make sure he is as perfect as can be.
·         Spontaneous stops to the coffee shops together, spending hours chit chatting over books and new gossip
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Jackson:
·         He does aegyo to get you to buy food (he ain’t even cute, just annoying and you buy it to make him stop)
·         He begs you to come to the gym with him
·         He makes you pinky swear over any little thing
·         “Y/n, promise to remind me to turn off the oven in 5 minutes”
·         “Promise”
·         *sticks out pinky*
·         “Ugh, every time!”
·         If he has a secret, you are the first to know
·         He video calls you instead of just texting you
·         Expect random texts of love/kindness/motivation from time to time for no reason what so ever
·         Him protecting you like the sister he never had
·         You nagging him to make sure he eats and sleep enough (always getting after him for over working himself)
·         Bugging him to introduce you to Namjoon and Jooheon
·         Being Jackson’s number one supporter/cheerleader for everything
·         Jackson: *tosses napkin into the basket*
·         You: *jumps out of seat* “Wooooooooo! That’s right, take that napkin! Go Jackson!”
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Youngjae:
·         Constantly calling him “Sunshine”
You: *pulls out a pair of sunglasses* “Damn you are too bright today!”
·         You are Coco’s third parent
·         You go over to his place mostly to see Coco
·         Bugging him to teach you how to play the piano
·         Sometimes you threaten to put cucumber in his food
·         Playing video games with him for hours at a time
·         Taking Coco on a walk without letting him know
·         Your outings with him involve going to a karaoke bar at one point or another
·         He always gets you tickets to all their local performances and you make sure to go because he will guilt trip you if you don’t
Dog sitting Coco for him when he is away on tour.
·         You have to be his nurse whenever he gets sick, and he really milks the whole situation, making you do every little thing for him
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Bambam:      
·         Shopping buddies for life
·         Dab buddies 4 lyfe
·         You are his best friend, but Yugyeom is his best-er friend, so you are always the third wheel when Yugyeom tags along
·         “Y/n, is this concealer in my shade?”
·         “For the MILLIONTH time, it is!”
·         *dabs concealer* *dabs*
·         Late night video calls when he is bored and can’t sleep
·         Souvenirs from Thailand
·         He regrets telling you his crush because you always tease him about it
·         Talks to you about things he can’t talk to the guys about, not even Yugyeom
·         Tests all his pick up lines on you.
·         Learning all the new trending dance moves together
·         Text convos that are made up of nothing but memes
Spam you with his selfies and asks which is the best one to post on instagram
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Yugyeom:
·         Hides and jump scares you every time you come over
·         Always ditches you for Bambam
·         Makes you stay up late with him on video calls, but is the first to fall asleep.
·         You make fun of his fear of the dark
·         He tauntingly reaches over you and grabs the item you were struggling for, only to hold it above his head and make you jump for it
·         He drags you to the studio with him and shows you his new moves
·         He then makes you record him dancing so that he can post it on Instagram
·         You have to protect from Jinyoung all the time
·         But when his teasing gets annoying, you threaten to run to Jinyoung to get after him
·         He always makes sure to ask how you are doing when you both meet up
·         He is all ears whenever you have a problem you need to talk about
·         You all him coconut head from time to time
·         You beg him to teach you the choreo to their music videos and he
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-Admin Boat
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xxreadersxx · 7 years ago
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(1/2) Ahhhh your matchups are sooooo good!!! And your stories, you write so much detail, truly incredible!! If possible, may I get a Mystic Messenger and Haikyuu!! matchup please? (Preferably males). I am a smol (5'1-5'2), bit on the chubby side, short brown curly hair with brown (sometimes hazel) eyes and pale skin. As for personality, I am a very kind and caring person who wants to help out everyone as much as I can and make sure everyone is happy! But sometimes, I can be very sensitive and...
I tend to have low self-esteem and low self-confidence. But other than that, I am a funny/silly, caring, tries to be positive person! As for hobbies, I like to read, draw, write, watches anime, play a lot of videogames (from Kirby to Pokemon ect), sometimes does photography, and loves taking long walks! Past times I usually listen to music and daydream a lot. I hope this is enough info;; Thank you very much, and have a awesome day!
{WOO First MM Match! Thanks for requesting! (I did get the 3rd message btw) }
Your Mystic Messenger Match: Kim Yoosung!
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This boy is one lovable fluff. He’s gentle and calming (most of the time) and will give his all to make sure you’re happy. The relationship you two share is one of reciprocity and kindness. When he first met you, he thought you were so cute, that you were unapproachable! He got so nervous just looking at you that he clumsily ran into a pole on his college campus. You, like many others, heard the loud resounding thud, and looked in his direction. Upon seeing him in a daze on the floor, you ran up to him and offered a hand. He gratefully took it, and blushed heavily. He apologized for causing you to worry, but you just waved it off. He was so relieved that you were so kind that he asked if he could pay you back sometime. You agreed and offered your number. He accepted it quickly and imputed into his phone. You giggled at how flustered he was, and the sound was music to his ears. As soon as he was away from you, he got on the messenger and spammed the chatroom with conjumbled messeges of nonsense of “omgguysyouwontbelieveit” and “Igottheirnumberguysimsohappy”. Everyone logged on, but no one could say anything. Jaehee was the first to speak out, and asked if this person was real, or part of LOLOL. This caused Seven and Zen to start a series of jokes about imaginary lovers. Yoosung ignored them. He texted you later that day, asking if you’d like to meet at the local park. You responded quick enough, and he could’ve died right there.
☺Your first date was at the local park, he met you at the entrance and you walked around for quite a while☺When he found out that you liked playing video games, he was thrilled and started talking about LOLOL and asking if you’ve heard of it, which, duh, you have☺Boy was shook, how could you be so perfect?!☺Every couple of minutes, you noticed him staring at you He couldn’t believe he was really on a date with someone so amazing (he ended up telling you by accident because you thought there was something wrong with the way you looked)☺After walking for a while, you two found a cute little café that sold coffee and ice cream, and sat outside, enjoying the remaining sunlight☺You two shared your love for music and, obviously, videogames☺As the sun went down, you invited him over to watch anime☺Before he left, he got a selca with you, and sent it to the chatroom, that made Seven and Zen shut up (they were too upset that the youngest got a girl first), you also gave him a hug goodbye☺He found out that your hugs are his favorite
Your Haikyuu!! Match: Nishinoya Yuu!
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He thought that Shimizu Kiyoko was the only person that could really pull off the school uniform. Boy was he wrong. The moment you entered his view, all other people disappeared. The way it accentuated your curves…it was perfect. He ran up to you to introduce himself, but when you turned and locked eyes with him, he got embarrassed and stuttered out a hello. You smiled, and responded calmly, which really helped him. He collected himself, and introduced himself, and apologized for being a little weird before. You just laughed it off, and said it was fine. Unfortunately, the bell rang then, and you had to split up, but he asked if you could meet him before afterschool practice, to which you happily agreed. When you met him after school, he was even more comfortable with talking to you, and you were relieved. That was, until you accidently called him ‘senpai’. His face went blank, and he heard an angelic chorus. You, however, thought you broke him. You began asking furiously if he was alright, and if you had offended him. He woke back up and grabbed your hands, reassuring you that you could call him that anytime! He asked if you would want to watch him at his volleyball practice, and you agreed because you didn’t have anything better to do. You didn’t have that much knowledge on volleyball, but you could tell: he was talented. After practice, you told him what you thought. He was stoked that you could see him that way. The day ended with you guys exchanging numbers, but the rest of the year, he would find any free time to talk to you.
☺Your first date was a walk through the mall, where he thought you would like to go☺When you told him, “Anywhere is fine, as long as you’re here!” He was so happy☺When you guys saw an arcade, you asked if the two of you could play some games against each other, he didn’t even know you liked games!☺You beat him at EVERY GAME but that was fine, because he got to see your beautiful smile☺He bought you dinner and you two talked about all your interests and future goals☺Although your first date was rather plain, he thought it was the perfect start to the relationship, he wanted to go slowly with you, because he could tell that you were the one for him☺He set the picture that he took of you and a stuffed teddy bear (that you won at the arcade) as his home screen
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