#got a lil unhinged towards the end oopsie

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Life update: feeling a little better. Break is working wonders. It's kinda relieving to not worry about online life for once but I kinda do miss being here?

I think I'll try to ease back into yapping on dash in November. No pressure on myself anymore over posting x times a week, no pressure on notes and fics "flopping". We start anew and healthier 🫶

Smol info/vent under the cut lol.

The fact that I deactivated back in may weighs heavy on my mind still bc I did like the amount of interactions / asks and stuff that came with the bigger following. But I need to stop comparing myself to me from a year ago. I need to stop putting pressure on myself to write so people aren't upset with me.

The constant asks about not posting x times a week shows I don't care about people really did something in hindsight. I know I don't write for myself - I quite frankly don't like myself enough to be this kind to myself - but my fics are written for my friends. The people I've talked to about those ideas. I want to make them happy, not 62392729 others. So if my fic only has 200 interactions (from which 95% are likes) is okay. It doesn't mean it's bad. It doesn't mean I've failed as a writer and blog. I'm happy that the people I wrote it for like the fic and I'm grateful for others liking it too.

Tumblr is in shambles compared to when I started out 3 years ago. Likes are the new reblogs apparently and no matter how much we complain and beg, the people don't care. So yes. Yes I don't care anymore either.

You don't care enough to let me & others know that you've liked a fic and don't wanna share it? I'm not obligated to share my writing with you either. You can't expect me to push out 5 fics a week when you give me nothing in return. No money, no kind words, not even sharing it.

Call me entitled, call me ungrateful but perhaps you start with yourself first and come to realize that this behavior is driving writers off this app. We won't ever stop writing - but we will stop sharing it for others to see. So think about your own behavior first before coming at me. Leave the death and r*** threats up your ass and touch some grass 🥰

If you made it here, thank you for your time I hope the day treats you kindly and that the sunshine finds its way to warm you in ways a loving embrace would 🫶