#gosh i love spreadsheets

[obsidiandivision]

Working on a spreadsheet of all of my personal transcriptions of the EN voicelines, because for some reason we still don't have a voice archive in-game yet, and my goodness these guys talk so much. I get why we don't have one now. I'm not even finished with hers yet and Nicole is already at 57 lines (not counting all of hers that are just grunting). Only... 27 more characters left. Yay

[phdmama]

Please do share your excel function!!

Also hoping you saw some of the recent Drarry hockey AUs: change on the fly by legendrarry is high school rivals that just was completed yesterday and Champions of Karlstad by Dexiha is Swedish Hockey League rivals. all of the sinners the same by lemonfractals is a "winner's room" fic too!

DUUUUUUUUDE NO I HAVE NOT SEEN THOSE!!!!! I am so out of the loop with Drarry right now, holy COW!!!

My excel function wasn't particularly fancy but it made me happy! So we run these reports at my job looking at wait times to get into our programs (to work on cutting those down if we can), so we look at averages but then for purposes of visualization, my boss wants us to code the times (by us I really mean the interns) and they've been just doing it by hand? So I wrote a little nested if... then function for the 5 levels and iT WORKED!!!

[gloomwitchwrites]

Not a request I just would really love to know how you come up with your ideas? You put out a lot of content and it always unique! How do you do it??

Oh my gosh! Hi! Yes! Of course! I'd love to answer this question.

Ha. Okay. This is going to take some explaining, so hang in there as I ramble (because I will ramble.)

If you were to crack open my skull and peer inside, you'd find a nest of noise. It's loud in my head (it's anxiety and likely something undiagnosed) and I am thinking about anything and everything all at once. Really, I should be medicated, but since I'm not, I channel all that energy into being productive because I literally cannot be alone with my thoughts. I require constant distraction.

Writing is that distraction for me. It's very soothing for my brain when I take all that noise and focus it on something I really love, and it always produces productivity and creativity as a result.

My best friend is always like "how the fuck do you write so much??" and it's because it's a coping mechanism. It's a bit like therapy in a way.

When it comes to the What If & Imagines series, I cannot take all the credit. All except a handful of prompts have come directly from reader requests. While those specifically don't come from my head, they do act as a great starting point. I think about possible angles by considering how I believe the characters would act in those scenarios. I start small, and then expand if I think I need to. I also go into them knowing that I do not want to rehash the same thing four times, and I go out of my way to make sure each is different.

But beyond that, I'm always thinking and questioning and considering how I can turn something on its head. And I don't mean that just for my CoD work. I take that mentality with all the fandoms I write for. I carry a little notebook with me, my iphone's notes app is a literal jungle, the Google Docs app on my phone is also abused, and I write down anything that I'm like "I need to keep that." Sometimes if all I can grab is a sticky note, I'll use that and then shove it in my purse. And if I'm in the car, I'll dictate my thoughts through Siri to add them into my notes app or send an email to myself (through Bluetooth y'all; don't text and drive.)

I also schedule time to write, and I make a to-do list of what I want to accomplish during that writing session. It helps focus my brain.

I also stay heavily organized. Like heavily organized. I have lots of spreadsheets that are color-coded, and I purposefully assign "due dates" because it tricks my brain into thinking "you must get this done because it is assigned" and WHAM, I'm plugging away at the keyboard.

When I get stuck, I only ever reach out to my bestie. Sometimes I just need a fresh pair of eyes when I'm rolling ideas around in my head but something is missing and I have no idea what it might be. She's great about throwing a few suggestions my way that has me looking at the story differently, or considering a prompt from another angle.

But it's important to note that what works for me isn't going to work for everyone. I'm sure one of you reading this right now is thinking "Poppy, you need to fucking chill." And friend, I wholeheartedly agree. But if I'm not being productive through managing my anxiety-induced head noise, then I'm running on pure rage and spite.

Anyway! I hope that answered your question! Thank you so much for sending it in, and also kudos to y'all who read through all that. <3

~ Poppy

[ironwoman359]

Hey so like I’ve been following ur blog since my sanders sides days but like genuinely wondering, what fandoms r u in now?

oh gosh, well hi! Thanks for sticking around so long ^.^

It's kinda hard to answer what fandoms I'm *in* per say, because I don't really participate in any particular communities as heavily as I did in the sanders sides community back in the late teens and early twenties, but this is the stuff I'm into/writing right now!

I've started reading books again! I've become one of those "reads 100 books a year" people with a storygraph and a big spreadsheet and an aesthetic book journal and everything, it's really fun. If anyone wants book recs please encourage me I will dump a whole list on you.

The fan community I'm actually participating in a bit right now is the cosmere fandom (fantasy books by brandon sanderson), as I'm in a fandom discord server for that with @mug-of-beans. Currently reading Words of Radiance and losing my mind (affectionate).

I'm writing a Skyrim fanfiction that is my pride and joy, and I recently went into a fugue state and wrote a Battinson oneshot? Batfam is one of those fandoms that I exist in tertiarily (other such fandoms include dp x dc, gravity falls, and good omens), because I follow people who reblog it a lot and I'm in some discord servers that have a lot of those fans as well.

Speaking of Discord servers, I still feel at least a little part of the Sanders Sides fandom (even though I haven't actually consumed any new official content since WTIT), mostly because of my friends who still are active in the fandom, namely @tulipscomeinallsortsofcolors whose fanfiction I am almost more a fan of than the original work at this point, and I'm in a couple different servers with la and several other of my sanders sides mutuals (some are, like me, less active in tss stuff these days but we all met because of sanders sides and so sometimes when we hang out it still feels like a fanclub for it, in a good way).

I don't watch Thomas as much anymore but I still watch a lot of youtube! I started watching Smosh for the first time about...twoish years ago? Just in time to get used to the current cast and its dynamics and in jokes and then be body slammed along with everyone else with the one-two punch of "anthony is back" and "shortney Real Actually." I cycle through different gaming channels depending on my hyperfixations (i go on and off with markiplier, rtgame, jacksepticeye, dougdoug, current big one is game grumps), I like 2nd Try and Mythical and I love video essays. Hbomberguy, Supereyepatchwolf, Dan Olson, Sarah Z, Mandalore Gaming, FD Signifier, Noodle, MothersBasement, probably several I'm forgetting. Oh, and @mug-of-beans and I own Terminal Montage's Blessed Kirbo plush because we needed the Holiest Boy in our house.

I'm also in one of those moods lately where I write a lot for my whump sideblog, so if you enjoy watching OCs in pain then you can come join me on @ironwhumper359, I just started an interactive story where the readers vote on certain outcomes!

I'm a little bit all over the place at the moment, haha, but overall I'm really enjoying the things I'm reading, writing, watching, and the people I'm hanging out with! Thanks for your ask, I'm honored that you and so many others are still following this blog after all this time!

[pepperwebsblog]

I absolutely love your fic A Patchwork Family!!!

I keep re-reading the fic from the beginning whenever you post a new chapter (which takes quite a lot of time at this point, i probably won't be able to do that for much longer)

At the notes of chapter 1, you mention that you made a timetable of birthdays and a floorplan of the house. Is there any way you ever will want post this?

I want to know everything!!!

(Obviously only if it doesn't interfere with your writing and developing of the story)

Hello lovely! thank you so much for your kind words. I love the fic so much too it is very dear to me. Oh my gosh, yeah it's getting quite long you wont be able to keep re-reading it (or well, maybe not if you want a decent bedtime lol!)

aha! yes, I did make spreadsheet and floorplan... and I'm so embarrassed at how rubbish they were -especially the floorplan omg, you'll see below it was a scribble on my phone! So I have spent the past day making cleaner versions that can be shared!!

Ages, Dates and Events

So, with the spreadsheet of ages and dates.... I have a version here which can be viewed and it doesn't give any spoilers of the fic cos there are characters and events I have plotted out who haven't appeared in the fic yet. So it's up to date as of chapter 8 of Patchwork Family and I'll try and update it every couple of chapters from my master doc. (please remind me if I don't!)

Some things to note:

I may tweak birthdays around, for example Maedhros' birthday was supposed to be 2nd September but that's when Elwing passes away so I moved it later in the month. This might happen with other characters.

I really wanted Caranthir and Curufin to be born close together so yes I did work out conception dates and Nerdanel was hardly out of the fourth trimester before getting pregnant again. I can imagine she was very sick of being pregnant the following summer.

Yes Elrond and Elros are born on Valentine's day, I thought it was cute!

Nerdanel's birthday is 1st December I can imagine her being excited each year as it's beginning of advent.

Maglor and Celegorm's birthday's are a day apart and I can imagine they HATED this growing up because it often meant joint birthday parties and joint presents which sucks!

House and Floor Plan

Regarding Maedhros and Maglor's house, I found these really nice pics on pinterest which is how I imagine the front of their house looking. A smush of the two basically.

I actually really enjoyed doing the entire floorplan of Maedhros and Maglor's house, it's HUGE, oh my god, and it was fiddly to get the rooms where I wanted cos I really had the visual in my mind that the grand piano is on the left when you come into the house. And Maglor's studio was in the annex on the side. But after puzzling it all out like a jigsaw I got it!

Ground floor:

You can see here the two pianos, one in the living room, one in the kitchen. The library is where Maedhros likes to spend time and read to decompress and chill. It also functions as another sitting room if a person doesn't want to watch tv with the rest of the family.

Maglor has his studio off to the side. I've not covered this much in the fic but since retiring as a concert pianist Maglor now writes and records music, either releasing it on his spotify or selling it for jingles in ads or tv shows, he makes a decent income from it and it's very flexible working. It's crammed full of instruments. Also please imagine instruments all over the house. Maedhros does a round up once a month and puts them all back in the studio, but they inevitably wander all over the house again.

The kitchen is the main room, it's light and airy and faces onto the garden. So Maedhros will be able to be in the kitchen having tea and watching the kiddos.

There's the dining room where the brothers had their family meeting, but apart from that it's not used much at all.

First Floor:

this was the hardest floorplan to work out to make sure every bedroom had a window and the space was used. Maedhros' office faces out onto the front because I think he'd want to see who was approaching the house and also he can watch for Maglor coming back with the kiddos after picking them up from school. It can also be an extra bedroom if needed.

There's a window at the front of the house with a window seat which makes the hallway lovely and light.

Maglor's bedroom is at the front it's got huge windows and he's got a walk-in closet (of course) and an ensuite bathroom (with bathtub because he's a tub girly) Also instruments and sheet music everywhere. His room is a mess, Maedhros doesnt touch it.

There's three spare bedrooms on this level, basically enough (plus the one upstairs) that all the brothers and Nerdanel can stay over if they want (or there was until Maglor commandeered two attic rooms for Elros and Elrond, but we'll get to that)

There's a big family bathroom with a tub and shower. Maedhros and Maglor will do bathtime with the kiddos here.

Maedhros' room is at the back of the house and it means he can hear all the lovely birds chirp in the morning as he wakes up early. He's got an ensuite too.

Second Floor/ Attic:

Lot's of storage up here in the eaves of the house.

This is where Maglor is currently busy turning one of the bedrooms into Elrond and Elros' and then he decided they also needed a playroom too next door. The twins do have a big bathroom up here but they dont use it too much.

There's a spare bedroom up here with an ensuite, I imagine Nerdanel would stay in this room if she came, it's probably the most peaceful one. Or it was before Elros and Elrond!

Basement:

Down here is where you can come in from the garden and dump muddy football boots (Elros) and the laundry/utility room and extra storage.

There's garden storage for bikes and tools.

And there's the gym as well which can be access independently from the outside along with a washroom. Maedhros spends time here running on the treadmill and doing his strengthening exercises. Maglor also uses it time to time but he prefers to swim so goes to the local pool down the road or when it's sunny, the lido in town.

and this was the first scribble

Hope this was helpful and useful!! Any questions let me know!

[etirabys]

alright, I'm going to make a post detailing things I liked about my wedding because I think it will help my long term psychological health about it or something

the flowers were lovely, I liked the palette we gave our florist and she did a nice job. I've been fingering one of the leftover roses on and off for a day and slowly shredding it

when all the flowers dry up I think I'll try making rosewater

we chose alcohol we liked, and we have a lot left over, meaning we're set to host spontaneous parties and such

my boyfriend told me that while my hair dress and makeup made me look quite unlike my usual self, I looked very bridenappable

we set aside 5-10m for our photographer to take photos of us with our other partners, which was nice

my parents were happy!!! oh my gosh they were so happy. I managed to not ruin it for them out of revenge for making me do it which was a feat of heroism and also benzodiazepines. I have ancient brain grooves of punishing them for making me do hateful things by trying to make them just as miserable, and the temptation was immense, but I largely did not do it and I have a bunch of photos of them smiling and dancing

I don't have photos from our main photographer yet but @drethelin sent me some of his and they look great. I didn't expect to be this into the photos but I'm so psyched to have the rest. Will probably post some when I get them

the fancy cake we got had fondant that I liked. I had gotten small heart shaped samples of the fondant before and I had fully expected to enjoy eating a cake covered in it. And I did. It was like marshmallow with more conviction.

my two favorite college friends crashed at my place over the weekend and it was great catching up with them. they got along really well with my other friends and partners. just going on and on about French zoning policy

I look eh in hanbok but the giant looks beautiful in hanbok. He prefers hanbok to a Western suit and frankly looks more natural that way.

the DJ did a great job! Originally we planned for "maybe a little bit of dancing" (I looked at the guest spreadsheet and guessed maybe 7 people would be willing to dance, tops) but we got like 20 people in on it.

the afterparty I put together last minute was the most enjoyable part of the day. I was pretty dead (I'd gotten up at 7:30am to get hair done) but it was nice to be my normal self, not constrained by relatives. I occasionally went around rooms, noted what conversations were going on, and matchmade by fetching someone who I thought would especially enjoy that conversation

the giant and I didn't have the usual "we'll be able to call ourselves husband and wife" motivation since we got legally married years ago, so we invented "wife plus" and "platinum husband" to describe some imaginary next level of marriage we are on.

I was forced to learn how to iron to get the hanbok presentable, and now I feel like a more powerful human being

my relatives gave me money as a wedding gift. but my dad drummed it into me that they expect it back when their kids get married and I go to their weddings. and that it would be quite inappropriate if I failed to do this. I ventured tentatively that this would all be simplified if we simply did not give each other money gifts and he was so offended at my attack on tradition & decency that I hastily backtracked. but in theory I still win because of inflation? because it's an interest free loan. also their kids might not get married. or invite me

[bao3bei4]

zine finance and fulfillment... TWO!

this is a follow up post to my original “zine finance and fulfillment” post that i made oh gosh a year and a half and a few big zine projects ago. i come to you now with some more thoughts on my process. so here are some things that you can consider before embarking on your beautiful journey**

WHAT MY LAST POST COVERED: what goes into my pricing, which websites i use for fulfillment, the epic highs and lows of flat rate shipping. 

WHAT THIS ONE COVERS: some warnings, estimates for perfect bound books, detailed numbers for diy zines, explanation of my fulfillment timeline

**note: this is aimed at the rotten people of the united states of america. some tips may be generally applicable, but my numbers are in USD and my estimates are tailored to US prices as of december 2024. anyway! 

NUMBER ONE: YOU NEED TO HAVE EXTRA MONEY LYING AROUND 

zines are beautifully diy. you can make them for free if you steal shit or use something you have lying around. however. the second you start selling them online, you need to have a little extra money as a cushion. 

NUMBER TWO: YOU NEED TO BE OKAY LOSING THAT MONEY. 

especially if you operate with as thin margins as i do OR you are doing a p4p model. you will lose money. something will happen to you. sorry. i can’t believe i priced my very first zine at $8 shipped worldwide for a pro printed booklet. what the hell. the hubris of youth. 

NUMBER THREE: WHILE WE’RE TALKING MONEY, LET ME HELP YOU ESTIMATE COSTS

i love transparency and oversharing. you can hear the specifics of my financials. assuming that you are selling black and white perfect bound books between 100-200 pages that you are buying online, and you are working in quantities somewhere from 50-150 books… 

i assume that to get those books to my house, it will cost roughly $6.50 plus or minus a dollar depending on the length of the book. i tend to budget 50 cents per book for shipping materials. stripe fees are stripe fees; i just let my spreadsheet take care of that. 

shipping cost. the beast that consistently costs more than i budget for. well. if you’re normal, and charge people the actual cost of shipping.... within the US, it’ll cost maybe $2.50 to ship a lightweight zine (<100 pages) and closer to $4.50 if it’s heavier or you want tracking [you can use media mail]. shipping to canada is consistently around $4 for lightweight zines, and $6-7 for perfect bound books using lettermail [possibly illegal]. everywhere else in the world is around $7 for lightweight zines and around $15 for heavier zines. whew. estimate your specific costs using the usps links i linked in the last post, but TO GET A BALLPARK you can use my numbers.

so anyway you will never see me pricing a perfect bound book less than $10 anymore, because $15 shipped would be my "i am planning to make no profits and give out no contributor copies" price, where i'd be reasonably certain i would not lose money.

NUMBER THREE AND A HALF: DIDN'T YOU JUST SELL A $5 ZINE. WHAT IF I DIY

okay, imagine for a second you’re not a clout-chasing sellout like me who makes perfect bound books. let’s say your zine is handmade. how does that shake out. great question. i will show you a picture of the exact breakdown of yaoi zine 5 costs. 

i’m not done yet, so i’m not sure how much money i’m going to lose on shipping. but i have no doubt that it will cut into the profits. but anyway, yeah. spreadsheets are your friend :) 

NUMBER FOUR: SO HOW LONG WILL THIS TAKE ANYWAY? 

alright. great question. i do a preorder model for all my zines. this is so i don’t have to worry about inventory or buying too many or whateva. this does mean, however, that my dear dear zine buyers have to wait longer. how long does my average zine fulfillment take, from posting the store link, to shipping the final zine? 

i will use yaoi zine 4 as my example. it was a pro printed zine that sold around 100 copies, which is what i usually estimate i will sell in a two week preorder period. 

i posted the store link august 27th. 

i closed the store september 10th. 

i ordered the zines september 11th. 

the zines shipped september 17th. 

they arrived at my house september 20th. 

my first shipment went out september 24th [packing orders was more complicated because i was doing a large giveaway, and also selling shirts] 

my final shipment went out september 27th. 

so exactly one month! it took anywhere from a couple days (localish buyers) to a couple weeks (people who live outside the us) to get their zine. 

NUMBER FIVE: HEY, YOU SKIPPED OVER THE MOST IMPORTANT PART OF THE TIMELINE. 

yeah those four days of packing and shipping zines were um. grueling. luckily i was extremely underemployed at the time. unluckily i don’t have that much willpower so i only worked on shipping for a few hours at most each day. 

here’s what you need to consider budgeting time for: 

making zines (optional). i hand sew mine because i have poor judgment. for my 72 page zine, from first hitting print to tying off the thread, it takes around um. 10 minutes. damn i’m slow. you may be faster. this is the most time consuming part of the process, which is why i often skip it [also because 100+ pages is too thick to saddle stitch]

packing zines. most people will buy one zine and one zine only and make your life easy. pack all of these first, then do your “odd” orders separately. this part is pretty self explanatory. just stuff an envelope. you can do this in a hour or two. 

addressing zines. i handwrote all the yaoi zine 5 addresses, in another lapse of judgment. you can print them on labels to make it easier. or, if you’re shipping media mail, you can buy addressed postage through pirateship. this is the most variable time sink.  

buying postage. be prepared to spend an hour at the post office at a time using the pitney bowes machine. do not bother the stalwart workers of the usps with your dozens of packages lmfao. especially because half the time they’ll tell you that they don’t think letter mail will work out for you (it always has for me). also don’t try to ship them all in one day i get soooo sweaty and tired shipping like 20-30 at a time. 

well. that’s everything i can think of. hopefully i said something non obvious. or at the very least satisfied your curiosity as to how much money i make. 

EDIT THIRTY SECONDS AFTER I POSTED THIS: my dear oomf julian asked how i pick a printing company.

well normally i choose based on price. bookmobile has consistently had the best prices for the small runs i do of simple books.

i use mixam if the run is veryyyy small or i'm just making a one off.

if price is no object and i want to pick the best paper irl etc etc, i go to my local guy.

[merakiui]

Omg Mera I love your codependency Azul piece! He's so insane and he's so determined to cling to his darling at all time. And when codependency boyfriend Azul evolved into codependency husband Azul? Gosh he would be so insistent on making his darling pregnant, so they will be a happy family and darling has even more reasons not to leave him! Darling initially thinks that having a baby will help Azul so they agree, but then they realise in horror that even the baby is not safe from Azul's antics. Truly, there's no escape for darling.

You’re trying your very best to help Azul, hoping that this will ease his self-destructive tendencies, but he just gets worse with a child. He’s all over you during the nine months you’re pregnant, even more obsessed and attached than before. He can’t leave you for more than a minute, so that makes going to work very stressful. He can’t let you out of his sight for more than a few minutes; he’s always so worried. It becomes so debilitating that he actually forces you to come to his work with him, and you sit in his office and read a book while Azul’s busy reviewing paperwork or revising a spreadsheet on his laptop. It’s really so troublesome, but if this is what it takes to keep your husband peacefully on track you’ll do it.

It becomes a little challenging to get you out of the house for long periods of time when you’re more heavily pregnant because you tend to become exhausted rather quickly. Azul understands it’s a lot on you because this is your first pregnancy and you’re already doing so much on your feet already, even if he insists he’ll cook and clean and do all of the housework himself so you won’t push yourself too hard. It becomes annoying quickly because you’re still capable of these things. You just need to pace yourself and take breaks occasionally. Honestly, he’s so stifling with his worries. >_< Azul might consider getting one or both of his childhood friends (Jade and Floyd) to watch over you when you feel too fatigued to get up and follow him into work, but even that is a stretch. He calls every second he gets, most often when he’s on break or out at lunch. He asks so many questions because he’s always so afraid that something’s happened and he’s not there to help or protect. Jade always calms him down, asking, “Would we ever let any harm befall your (Name)?” He alway says your (Name) as if you’re Azul’s possession and not your own person. Azul knows the answer to this question well. Of course the twins can keep you safe. They’re ruthlessly strong. Still, he worries. He always does.

And when it’s time for the baby to come into the world… omg he’s a mess. He doesn’t want the doctors and nurses touching you, but he knows they have to because they’re professionals and they’ll ensure the baby’s delivered safely. He hates seeing you in pain, but soon it’ll be over and you’ll get to hold the baby and he can finally have the happy family he’s always wanted with you. He’s arguably “healthier” with your child because he spoils them rotten and allows them to get away with a lot of things because he dotes on them so much. He never shows them any of the nasty, monstrous sides you usually see because he only wants his child to know happiness and love. But if you try to find a way out of the relationship after giving him the child he’s wanted, he’ll use them as a means of keeping you tethered to him. After all, it won’t be a happy family if Papa Azul is found dead in the bathtub.

Your husband needs help, but then you’re not sure where to start—or how to go about starting. But you’ll have to try because it’s all you’ve ever done: try and try and try.

[liatai]

SISI'ATI. STAHP

OH. MY GOSH. XD

So I'm messing around with Clangen, a Warrior Cats inspired game that lets you watch over and guide a clan of feral cats, as inspiration for prehistoric groups of richiri (my feathered raptor aliens). Richiri tended to be nomadic herders and hunter-gatherers in their early history, so it's not too far of a leap with some imagination. They're both small social predators in their environment. It's low-effort enough that it's easy to do and provides enough randomly-generated fodder for my imagination to take and run with. X3

I have a spreadsheet I set up with help that helps me generate richiri names in a pinch, so I've been using it. And Sisi'ati, the leader (think Sisistar, adventurous) has been having BEEF with this one other member of the clan, Patu.

I don't know why, she just REALLY disliked this one fellow. When he was a hunter, she landed him in the healers' den by smacking him when he spoke out against her once -- and I scoured the relationships trying to find one thing that might have drawn her ire! Nothing! Patu is righteous and has strong ideals, but he's a pleasant young lad that everyone else in the pack loves, and he'd been nothing but social and pleasant to everyone aside from having a trivial disagreement with Sisi'ati's apprentice and adopted daughter,. Guri.

When the pack's healer, Flasi, was bitten by a snake and died suddenly, as the one who spent the most time in the medicine den, Patu stepped up to take on the role. (I also gave him Voro, a former loner who promised to look out for Patu, the medicine "cat" role as well, since we desperately needed healers.)

Shortly after this, Sisi'ati started picking fights.

First it was with a rogue loner. She chased them off with just a superficial scratch.

Then she fought a large predator (dog), and got bitten severely enough to land her in the medicine den for several months.

She continued to get mad at Patu, despite my mediator's best efforts. (I literally note in my notes, "SISI, CHILL." XD)

A few moons later, she gets out of the medicine den, fully healed...

And in that same moon, fights ANOTHER dog and breaks her back leg, getting sent STRAIGHT back into the medicine den for another four moons.

(During this time, Patu is still being a joy, and has become a single father of three that he dotes on. The rest of the clan loves him, Sisi'ati is just being a jerk!)

I roll a new moon, and see that Sisi'ati's broken bone has healed, albeit with a scar. YAY! Finally she can get back out on patro--

Sisi. I'm glad SOMEONE saved Kwoka (a kit) from that eagle. Yes.

BUT SHE'S BACK IN THE MEDICINE DEN AGAIN, SAME MOON, WITH CLAW WOUNDS AND A TORN PELT.

SISI! XD

For someone who hates the clan's healer so much you sure do very little to avoid the medicine den!!!! XD

I caught myself thinking "oh my gosh. Sisi, you still have all nine lives. Could you maybe die once instead of this nonsense and cantankerous beefing with Patu?"

[lifblogs]

Ok :) question: What is your favourite clone wars arc?

Oh my gosh, yes, such an excellent question. I'm going to answer with a few. EDIT: That was not a few.

*pulls up my spreadsheet of Clone Wars episodes in timeline order*

Malevolence arc

First Hondo arc (not really sure what it's called)

Holocron arc

Geonosis arc (2x05 "Landing at Point Rain” is the best)

Death Watch arc (at least this time around, I'm really into Obi-Wan lately)

Boba arc (what is wrong with Aurra Sing? she fascinates me)

Political arc (is that what it's called? the one with Mina Bonteri)

Nightsisters arc (actually the one Alley Cat and I are on right now [sometimes this arc bores me, sometimes it's a favorite. it's a favorite this time around])

This one'll be controversial, but the Mortis arc! I love this one

Citadel arc

Umbara arc (sorry, clones, I love you)

Zygerria arc (my creepy laughter can be heard from 3 star systems away)

Obi-Wan Undercover arc/Deception arc

Maul Return arc (for Sam Witwer's amazing performance, and all the Obi-Wan whump)

Maul Rules Mandalore arc

Ahsoka on the Run arc (even if the miscommunication is frustrating and Windu comes off as invalidating in the end)

Inhibitor Chip arc (my beloved, even though it hurts)

Clovis arc (I like my characters fucked up)

Bad Batch arc (my ultimate beloved)

The Siege of Mandalore

So uh, yeah, apparently a huge portion of the show. Which is good.

[stiffyck]

as requested, angst ideas!

Plant scar visibly wilting because he sucks at taking care of himself so he blames it on the cold, they force him to stay indoors but he really needs sun rn.

or perhaps his plant-ness makes it REALLY hard to hide his emotions because every time he gets anxious all his flowers drop.

or he gets sick and it stunts a bunch of leaves, cue his hair having to be super short and sickly yellow

you could even go as far as him getting pests like Spider Mites and incurable stuff like Mosaic

LOTS of ideas and plants are my special interest so im happy to provide more (plus i have a 290+ spreadsheet of flower meanings)

OOOH OH MY GOSH I LOVE THIS SM SNVKFKDKD AAAAAA

YESSS

[ijustwannamakeemojis]

2 , 3 && 6 for the amasui ask game !

2. what was the first amasui ship you shipped?

Gosh I feel like it has to be sans4sans or dirk4hal I got into both around the same time and I can't remember shipping anything else except maybe the personalities of tfa Blitzwing with each other?

3. what's your favourite amasui ship?

One no one will know about Cay4Cay my ocs he is a homestuck oc with like 14 alt timeline versions and like two pairs of them are in love but they are care for each other correction three pairs checked the spreadsheet

Forgot!! One people will recognize is still Dirk4Dirk just any of them kiss kiss

6. what's your favourite dynamic related to amasui? (clones/evil clones, alternate universes, time travel, etc) Alt universes for sure being presented with a version of yourself who went down a different path in life and either got better or worse or they're both jealous of what the other has wanting each others lives but over time just wanting each other in their lives ♡♡♡♡♡

[queenofbaws]

🧮💌💬🎶

And 💞 obviously!!

🧮 do you know how many words you wrote this year?

oh gosh, according to my progress tracking spreadsheet, god help me.......i'm clocking in at 364,299 words as of today 🫢 i didn't POST all those words, but.......i sure......i sure did write them. hmm.

(maybe i should start my brain-break early lmaooooOOOOO)

💌 did you receive any comments/reviews that stuck with you?

🥺 SO MANY?????????? i don't want to call specific people out because i don't know who does/doesn't have a tumblr so tagging and blahblahblah, but (thanks to the remake, i have to imagine), the outpouring of love i've gotten on the (almost)s this year has been.......so humbling. and i have cried from it on more than one occasion hahahahaha

it's been a very, very difficult year over here, i've been having A Rough TIme lately, but truly and genuinely and honest to god, waking up to a little (1) in my inbox or messenger or ao3 and hearing someone tell me how t(a) resonated with them personally, just...it made a lot of the hardest days a whole lot easier, and it reminded me over and over again that even when the story is hard to tell, someone somewhere might need to hear it someday. so. <3 yes. i've been very, very lucky in that i get to hear from all kinds of kind, wonderful people <3

💬 what dialogue are you most proud of?

asdkjfhaksjfhsjkdf okay, for real though, this little aside between kaitlyn and emma in like wringing blood from a stone is for sure one of my faves - it's just a conversation happening in the background of some other stuff, but getting to play with the hacketteers is SO much fun!

“Oh, totally. Totally! It’s hilarious, the way he gets. After you guys went to bed the other night, we…uh, hold up. You’re sure this isn’t, like…icky?” “What? Hearing you talk about my bffsie like the Grade-A, Triple Prime piece of meat he is? Please. Trust me, Em, I’d rather listen to you talk about him than the other way around.” “That bad, huh?” “Ever had a guy describe boobs to you? Like you don’t have your own? Like you’ve never encountered the concept of them in the wild? Like he’s Steve Irwin trying to get you to picture some kind of rare platypus that went extinct twenty-seven years ago?” “You know, I can’t say I have.” “Yeah, well, spoiler alert: That’s because you are the boobs in this one. So by all means, fire away! It’ll give me some ammunition to light him up with once we’re back home. Preferably in front of his mom. And his sisters.” “Oh my goshhh. And here everyone else is, thinking you’re the nice one!” “What? Since when?! Why am I the nice one? Obviously I’m the bada…uh, most hardcore of the Hacketteers.” “I don’t make the news, lady, I just report on it.” “Okay, well, whoever’s out there thinking I’m the nice one needs to take a look at the Shooting Star board one of these days. I’m a certified weapon, baby.” “Honestly? It’s probably because you’re such a pipsqueak.” “Whoa! Whoa whoa whoa! Hey now! Excuse you! In this house, we prefer ‘fun sized.’” “Like I said. I don’t make the news.”

🎶 any music/playlists you listened to while writing?

the number of times. i listened to kesha's joyride. on repeat. while finishing of mummy men & bathtub soup. is. unspeakable. kdjfksldjfklsjdfkj BEEP BEEP BITCH I'M OUTSIDE - GET IN LOSER FOR THE

JOYRIDE

year in review writing asks!

[pculrstate]

Oh you've been on my fic rec list for a few months now. I have both fics from "a palm to my mouth, i said it, almost" on there and I read your work often enough that it's bound to happen again.

when we leave this room it's gone

Bare prose rife with pain. Feels like a bruise you can't stop poking at.

I also think this was a fantastic way to set the scene for this narrow room.

this narrow room where life began

This was an arrow to the heart, so intense and smothering that it made me nauseous at times.

Bonus from personal notes for this one: "really the wincest ever. anyway im gonna go sob into a pillow after the rodeo" (I finished reading this one at the Sheridan WYO Rodeo during the opening announcements).

I think I highlighted like. Half of this fic in my ereader.

Your prose is claustrophobic and I mean this in the kindest way possible. It's intense and intimate and it makes me feel nearly sick from all that's implied by what little ends up said. I have the fics I've marked for later in a huge spreadsheet and you're on my favorite authors filter.

I also want to mention come as a bird while I'm here because I'm pretty much just talking about fics I've read from you now. This one was so important for the intense differences in perspective. Dean's dreamy delirium contrasted with Sam being almost painfully down-to-Earth. Methinks it stresses the canonical differences between their outlooks on life: Dean copes by making sense of where he is and what he's told, Sam wants agency and is willing to take it. Dean internalizes, Sam externalizes. I'm not sure if I'm managing to pull everything together, but I have Thoughts.

(I have thoughts about all of these, I've just read come as a bird the most recently)

At any rate, you're a feature of my rec lists. Lemme stay on anon though because I'm shy.

anon i literally have tears on my face rn. this means so so so much to me oh my gosh. thank you for including me on your lists and for your kind words and insightful observations 😭😭😭

also “gonna go sob into a pillow after the rodeo” —i am fucking obsessed with the fact that you finished reading this narrow room at the rodeo. that is SO perfect.

THANK YOU again this made my entire day, you have no idea (and please don’t feel too shy to come off anon if you want, i literally you love 🥺❤️)

[kay-elle-cee]

Happy Valentine’s Day 💌

Send this to five different people anonymously, and tell them three things you love/appreciate about them to brighten their Valentine's day!

What I love about you:

*opens scroll 📜 * *opens powerpoint* *excel spreadsheet* <- since you excel in writing 😏

*clears throat* it all started in the early 1600’s Little Kelsey was just a KC a little nugget in a world full of Snape’s…. Oh gosh that would be worse than a zombie apocalypse 😬, a-and oh dear I promised myself I would get emotional 🤧 I need a minute (and $10,000 deposited into my bank account bi-weekly for the rest of my life 👀).

Where was I? Oh yes, young KC she’s the angst to my pain. She puts the I in ibfibg, (yoo, I just realized without the I it’s bfgf, it’s like you manifested James and Lily being endgame in the story. Shocked pikachu face 🫢)

I no longer will complain by the amount of angst in her fic— ok well I still will complain because 🤨 missy, that’s my heart on the line! But fine, it’s yours you’ve stabbed it plenty of times anyways I’m immune to the pain by now 😒. Oh is that a dagger, I suppose give it your best shot.

ANYWAYS,

1. The love of angst I believe that solidifies a bond, that being said send ibfibg to a certain Mr.K, no I’m not talking about Kelloggs if that’s what you’re asking. (Did you see a bookmark on ibfibg? Someone who isn’t a mutual may have added a note on there. I wouldn’t know cause I didn’t do it)

2. You are the proudest HUFFLEPUFF that I’ve ever met, but you hide in the shadows with the Slytherins out of fear of being outcasted. Need not worry, friend I know the truth 😉

3. Sense of humor is always 🤌🏽 plus the way you enjoy putting Lily through pain and adding 🙂 to your fics I know I’ll end up like 😭 and I know your not sorry at least your honest 🥹🥹

1600s???? HOW OLD DO YOU THINK I AM NENA ANON?

Just kidding. Thank you so so so much for all your lovely words (all the time, not just here!) I just read the bookmark on ibfibg and I'm CACKLING oh my god 😂 The highest of high praise!

I find it so funny that you're on a single-handed mission to prove I'm a Hufflepuff while I'm just a normal, average (non-evil) Slytherin. Cursed Child has it's major problems but Scorpius Malfoy is a little Slytherin cinnamon roll I'll treasure to the end of my DAYS. (also no shade to Hufflepuffs! My bff group is split 2 Hufflepuffs and 2 Slytherins, like a buddy system)

Thank you again so much Nena Anon <3 This gave me quite a good giggle! I promise (warn?) there is more angst on the way, and I hope you enjoy it!

[sweetsapphicpeach]

20, 21, 24 ;), 25, 28

20. What are you favourite pet names to be called during sex?

baby !!! and sweetheart !!! and "mine" :)

21. What’s the best orgasm you had in past months?

Oh gosh, the second (of many) the night that you went down on me before bed was really good. Having your fingers in me AND tongue on me had me tingling and kind of head empty I was really blissed out. Very hot.

24. Is FreeUse hot? Why?

It IS hot !!! It's about the trust and the need ! Saying "you can have me whenever you want because I'll trust that you take care of us both" is very endearing. And I love the desperation of "I need you all the time / any time". Like yeah we're watching a show but I need something for my hands to do, so let me play with your chest. I know you're trying to get some work done, but you can keep typing and I'm just going to settle between your legs and taste you. Stuff like that is very hot.

25. What would you love to roleplay as in bed?

Giving this two answers bc one is much more realistic

We should lean into petplay some more ! Still have 12 on the spreadsheet...I think a longer session would be so fun, where we can really get lost in the playfulness and letting go of any human worries for a little while

Some kind of jealousy fueled session, a la 26 in peachwonders. This one is more unrealistic bc I am tooo soft so while I love reminding you you're mine, I don't think I could bring myself to lean into the more "controlling" aspects of it [like the "Don't talk to him" / "Why are you showing off for all of them when you're mine" / etc etc] but still ! A fun idea in theory to get a lil extra possessive !

28. Favourite way of being praised?

I've never had a favourite ANYTHING so instead I will list some nice options!

I really like when you compliment specific parts of my body and tell me why you like them, it shambles me

I love being given a task and then being praised for doing it well, even if the task is "drink some water" or something simple

Getting called a good girl for cumming makes me so weak