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tenjikyu · 5 months ago

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So! My birthday's coming up here soon, and as you know, I am very obsessed with tokyo revengers. Therefore, here is my first request to you :)

How about headcanons on how mitsuya, sanzu, angry, smiley, and mikey would celebrate reader's birthday? preferably romantic but platonic is okay too. If you don't want to write all of them, you can choose a few to get rid of. These guys are my favorites so I couldn't not include them ♡

Sorry if there's not a lot of info to go off of!

— 🎭

𝘣𝘦𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘥𝘢𝘺𝘴!

౨ৎ ⋆｡˚ multiple x gn!reader, excessive fluff and humour, we love the toykorev boys they’re adorable, i hope you like ghibli because it’s referenced in angry’s.

౨ৎ ⋆｡˚ happy birthday !! it took me a hot minute bc i needed to re-remember the tokyo rev characters and their personalities but i’m back on track now people. i was worried about getting this out late so i ended up removing smiley from the request but i did my best for everyone else(i’m very sorry 😭). I REALLY HOPE YOU GET THIS BEFORE YOUR BIRTHDAY AND IF NOT, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY 🎭 ANON

takashi mitsuya.

༄ takashi could NEVER EVER let your birthday JUST be your birthday, he always does something extra special for you on your special day.

༄ it starts off with a special birthday morning call, an online kiss and a promise to take you out at 10:00.

༄ mitsuya lets you enjoy a nice breakfast with your family if you wish to, and comes to pick you up after you’ve gotten ready for the day ahead!

༄ pulling up on his motorcycle, he gives you your special helmet (that he chose in your favourite colour), and takes you for a morning bike ride around the city.

༄ he eventually leads you to a serenic park with good shade and sun leaking through the trees.

༄ no matter if your birthday takes place in a warm or cold season, mitsuya makes the best of a picnic in the park! he brings beverages and home baked goods that his sisters helped make just for you!

༄ mitsuya is the type to make something personal and thoughtful, so i believe a birthday gift from him would include a heartfelt letter, special chocolates, and a crochet stuffed animal with a bow on it! he prides himself in his efforts, seeing the huge smile on your face as you open your special gift.

༄ he takes you back to his home, in which you’re overrun by his younger sisters who were elated to see you. you’re their favourite person (besides their big brother), so it was hard to wrangle them off of you.

༄ mitsuya makes you your favourite dish as a birthday dinner, where all four of you sit down and ramble on about your day, as well as anything that comes to the two girls minds.

༄ as the end of your birthday approaches, luna and mana have to be pried off your leg with whines begging you to stay the night. once you’re out the door however, mitsuya tells you he wants to walk you home.

༄ once he drops you home, he kisses you goodnight and makes sure you’re in doors before he walks off, silently fisting the air in success on your special day.

manjiro sano.

༄ i don’t think mikey would forget your birthday, but i can totally see him leaving plans to the last minute. he’s not a very organised soul after all.

༄ at the ripe time of 7:00 in the morning, you’re promptly awoken by a knock on your window. to your surprise, manjiro was wide awake (which is a rarity) and informs you that you will not be attending school today, but instead going on a “birthday adventure” with your “beloved boyfriend”.

༄ thankfully your family was planning to give you the day off regardless, so you rush to get ready (in your tired state as it is), and head out to meet up with your blonde boyfriend.

༄ as you walk out the door, you’re incased in a bear hug by mikey, as he excitedly shows off the silly little flowers he (didn’t) pay for. they were your favourite flowers, and they didn’t seem cheap, however you decided against bringing it up and enjoyed the fresh scent in the early breeze.

༄ much like mitsuya, mikey takes you for a drive, however this is because he’s taking you to an all-you-can-eat-buffet! manjiro tells you it’s because they have good breakfast & lunch choices, however you know it’s an excuse to stuff his mouth.

༄ regardless, the both of you enjoyed a nice breakfast together, before manjiro takes you onto the next phase of the birthday date.

༄ you’re surprised when he pulls up to the local aquarium, with two premium tickets in hand. by premium, you mean you get an exclusive front row seat for any show you wish to see, as well as close access to certain life living there.

༄ walking around the aquarium, manjiro sneaks cute pictures of you looking into the glass and admiring the life around you, from the illuminated jellyfish to the dolphins exhibit, your boyfriends eyes hardly left your face, making sure your smile lingered.

༄ after the end of the date, you head over to the little souvenir shop, where mikey buys you a plushie of your choice. of course, you attempt to deny but he won’t let you.

༄ by the end of your date, manjiro drops by his home so you can see his sister. elated, emma jumps into your arms and welcomes you in, where she makes everyone a special dinner for you all.

༄ on the drive back to your home, manjiro silently thanks whatever being graced his life with your presence, even when your fast asleep on his shoulder with drill beginning to dribble.

angry.

༄ a gentle soul like angry has everything planned out. he has his brother give him his honest (and brutal) opinions on how to make this the PERFECT date.

༄ your day starts off usually, your family celebrates your birthday and gives your your presents and a good breakfast, you get ready for school and you get a sweet good morning call from your beloved boyfriend.

༄ as you leave your house, you see angry parked outside your home, and he tells you that he’s gonna be your personal taxi driver to school today!

༄ like a true gentleman, he wraps your arms around his torso and gives you a helmet to protect yourself, he waves your family goodbye and sets off to your school.

༄ as the school day passes you by, you get another message from the man of the hour, letting you know he’s gonna take you out for the remainder of the day.

༄ you wave your friends goodbye, and meet up with your boyfriend, who greets you with his signature frown.

༄ as you ride around, you soon find yourself in what seems to be a ghibli café. you smile in excitement, rushing in to see what it looked like inside.

༄ a massive totoro plushie greets you, and you see all the ethereal artwork studio ghibli offers hung across the walls.

༄ you sit down with your boyfriend, and order some themed food based on your favourite movies. you see howls moving castle themed furniture, a no-face holographic hovering around, the production of ponyo explained on a little TV, as well as a little kiki on her broom flying around the café.

you get heaps of photos, however you boyfriend only admires the look of admiration on your face, knowing how hard it is to reserve a seat in this café.

after you enjoyed your meal, he takes you home once again on his bike, driving safely (for once) and drops you home, but not before gifting you a keychain of no-face you were admiring from the souvenir shop.

༄ your smile increasing in size, you clip it to your bag, before ksiing angrys cheek goodnight and running in doors.

haruchiyo sanzu.

༄ sanzu is a “actions speak lourdes then words” kinda dude, so he takes you out on a date to the museum!

༄ he wakes you up via ringing the doorbell, and being invited in by your mother (who dearly loves your boyfriend).

༄ sanzu shares a breakfast with your family, takes photos with you and then lets you go get dressed for your little date.

༄ as you enter into the museum, you see all sorts of preserved artworks and sculptures in your line of sight, filling your vision to the brim.

༄ regardless of this being your forté or not, the museum never fails as a good date spot.

༄ you go from room to room, carefully in taking all the information on the little plasters. from painting to painting, you find yourself immersed and drawn in, all the while your boyfriend held onto your hand.

༄ sanzu allowed you to go at your own pace, not caring much for it but knowing it was entertaining you, so it was enough for him.

༄ tugging him around like a dog, you find yourself in the museum for hours before you leave the premises. sanzu asks if you enjoyed yourself, and you giddily replied you loved it.

༄ you didn’t know it at the time, but he sniped a cute photo of you looking at a large painting and made it his personal background for his phone, admiring it as he took you to lunch.

༄ after lunch, sanzu informs you that he has business to attend to, but regrets it as soon as the dejected look crossed your face, hoping to spend the full day with him.

༄ without hesitation, sanzu lets you know it’s quick business that shouldn’t take an hour or so, and drops you off at a mall with your friends to enjoy yourself, and lets you know he’ll pick you up to drive you home.

༄ as the evening sets and you wave your friends goodbye, sanzu meets up with you. you rush into his arms, and he holds onto you dearly.

༄ he takes you in a late night drive as a way to make up for missing out on part of your day, however you reassure him that it’s nothing and allow him to ramble, something he rarely does.

༄ as he drops you home, you place a gentle kiss to his nose, and tell him you’ll see him later, leaving him slightly flustered.

༄ what have you done to him.

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kodamaghost00 · 7 months ago

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𝑰𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖,𝑽𝒊𝒌𝒕𝒐𝒓?

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Fandom: Arcane 2021 (NETFLIX ORIGINAL)

Pairings: Viktor x GN!Reader

Genre: Long-lost Friends to Lovers, Fluff

Summery: After you thought your Best friend died you reunite with him after 12 years of being apart.

Warnings: Loosing close people, Death, Fights, Spoilers EP3, Emotional, Slow burn, forced to move on fast

Word count: 2,4K

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“Viktor! Viktor over here, look at this!!” You are around 11 years old and call out for your best friend. He walks over to you as fast as he can. “What’s going on, Y/N?” He asked cautiously, but then looked at what you pointed out. “I’ve never seen something like that before…”. Now you both stare at a little bug crawling around in the dirt in front of you. You and Viktor watch the bugs and animals around you all the time, but this one... you’ve never seen it before. It had short legs, but the colors were beautiful. “Do you think it’s a new species?” You chuckled. “Well, maybe it is. What shall we call it?” He smiled at you softly. “Hm. I’ll name it sooner or later!” You two watched it crawl away. You stood up and helped him to do the same.

“Let’s go home you look tired…” He just nodded, and you both made your way to the small shed you called home. You both laid down facing each other. “Viktor? Do you think we’ll make it big one day? To the topside, I mean.”. He thought about it but responded calmly back to you, “I know we will. With my brain and your brawn, we make a pretty good team.” You chuckle. “That’s right. Goodnight Viktor…” "Goodnight, Y/N…” and with those last sentences, you two fall asleep.

*BOOM* Something exploded, and your little shed crumbled to pieces. Everything burns, there’s smoke everywhere, you can’t see anything but call out for Viktor. There’s no response. You try to free yourself from the remains of what you called home once, but you’re trapped underneath. There’s no way out. You are in so much pain that you black out. There’s nothing, only darkness. Then the memories of the happy day before came flooding back, and you violently woke up, tucked away in a cozy-looking bed.

“Where am I?” You ask cautiously. Looking around for any enemies you could encounter, the only thing you see is a large man with a beard. "Oh, you’re awake, kid. How are you?” He came closer, and you flinched away. “I’m not your enemy, kiddo. I’m here to help you.” He said reassuringly as he handed you a glass of water to drink. “What happened? Where’s Viktor?!” You asked, looking around to find your best friend again, but to no avail. “Viktor? You’re the only one I found. I’m sorry.” You started to cry, and he came to hug you. You cried on his shoulder for a while until you calmed down. “Do you want to stay with me? I assume you don’t have family here.” You nodded quietly and held his hand, not wanting to let go. Then another man came into the room. He was big and scary-looking but had a rather friendly aura. "HAHA, Vander is gonna be a dad now? That’s something I never thought was possible!” The man shouted. “Shut it, Benzo…” he said, rubbing his nose bridge. You only giggled at that, maybe your new life won’t be that bad after all.

From that day on, Vander was like your dad. He taught you how to fight. How to defend yourself. How to protect the ones you love… You didn’t even notice the 12 years that went by. Now you basically have 4 younger siblings. VI,Powder,Mylo and Claggor. You were the best role model for them, and they looked up to you. You trained with them and taught them valuable lessons. Especially VI, she was young and naive, but you knew that she only wanted the best for your family.

Then the tragic day came. Silcos people attacked you guys, and not only Vander, your beloved father, but also Mylo and Claggor died during that incident. You fought with them, but to no avail, the shimmer was too powerful. You got hit badly by one of silcos men, you didn’t know what happened to VI and powder before your body gave in and you blacked out. “Is that what happens again…? I don’t want to die. I don’t want them to die! NOT AGAIN!” The next thing you know is that you woke up in a fancy-looking hospital.

You woke up in shock and looked around, panting, “VI? POWDER?! WHERE ARE YOU??” Then someone calmed you down. “ You looked down at the creature that’s trying to help you. “A... a furball…?”. Heimendinger was amused by your comment. "Well, I wouldn’t say a furball, but that’s a fair assumption.”. He laughed. “Where am I? Who are you? Where are my siblings?!” You asked frantically, starting to panic again. “Calm down, young one. I’ll explain.” He took a deep breath as you went quiet again. “You’re in a hospital right now. I am the head of the council, Heimendinger. And your family…” he frowned. “Where are they?! My sisters!?” You asked in a demanding manner. “The chief enforcers told me you were the only one found alive… I’m sorry.” You were so shocked that the fact didn’t register at first. Then you cried. You were sobbing hysterically into your own hands. You didn’t process the fact that all your loved ones died. ‘Once again? I thought I got stronger? I wasn’t able to do anything…’ The pain was talking out of you, and you thought it should’ve been you, not your beloved family. Under your sobs, you managed to form one sentence. “What am I going to do now?” Heimendinger looked at you with the most heartbreaking expression anyone ever gave you. “If you want to, you could become my assistant. I already have one that’s been with me for a while now, but... I don’t think another one would hurt.” He said this to you while resting his hand on your shoulder. You looked at him again, not realizing what he said completely, but you nodded. The chance to help someone… you won’t throw that away. That’s what dad would’ve wanted, after all.

Heimendinger sat by your side for a long time before asking you something again. “How old are you, my child?” “I am 23, sir…” you responded hesitantly. You knew Heimendinger wasn’t a threat, but opening up to strangers was even harder now. “23… so young. Yet you had to go through all of the misery. I’m really sorry for you, child. I’ll leave now, we will discuss the more serious details tomorrow. Please take care!” He waved you goodbye and left the room. Now it’s just you. Alone. In a hospital bed in Piltover. All the events came flooding back, and you cried again. So hard that you cried yourself to sleep.

The next morning arrives sooner than you wanted. The sun is coming through the window, and with a clear sky, you sit up and pinch your nose bridge. “Such a headache...” you whispered to yourself. As you stretched out. You glanced at the nightstand beside your bed. “A letter?” You take the letter and open it gently, and it reads:

Dear Y/N,

When I came to visit you again, you were dead asleep! I didn’t want to disturb your peaceful sleep, so I decided to write this letter instead. I asked one of the nurses when you could go out again, and they told me you could go today. Talk to a nurse before heading out to my office later,alrighty?

P.S. . The clothes are also for you, so you blend in a little better.

In best regards, Heimendinger!

You chuckled at the fact that Heimendinger wrote you a whole letter just for you to sleep a little longer.

You still mourned a lot about your family, though, so it's understandable that you weren't the happiest. You put on the clothes he gave you and went out of the room to call a nurse, and one came rushing to you.

"H-Hey! You can't just stand up like that!!" She rushed over to you, helping you back to your room. "I feel better. Can I go now?" You ask, wanting to go out of here as soon as possible. "Oh, you're the one that heimendinger favorites... what's your name? So I can look you up in the system." She pulls out a device you never saw before. "It's Y/N". "Last name?" She was a bit confused. "Don't have one." You snarled back a bit. She looks confused but enters your name anyway. "Ah! Y/N! Wait a second!" She rushes out and comes back with a small bag in her hands. "Take one of them per day it's best if you do it right after breakfast." You looked at the bag suspiciously but nodded. "Thanks." And you're on your way out. "Rude..." the nurse whispered to herself.

You totally forgot to ask the nurse where heimendingers lab is, so you wander around the halls of the academy. “Why is this place so big…” You looked around and admired all the pretty painted walls, amazing wooden floors, and bright chandeliers hanging from the ceiling. When you were focusing on the big windows next to you, you ran into someone. "Fuck, I’m sorry… I should’ve looked where I was-“ you were cut off as you looked at the man in front of you. Tall, flawless brown hair and a cane. You stare a little too long, and he asks, “Are you okay?”. You nod “I’m sorry… You just remind me of someone who I was close with a long time ago.” He doesn’t respond until you ask something. “Excuse me, but where is heimendingers lab? I was supposed to meet him.”. He looks a bit surprised but points in one direction. With a thick accent, he says, “Turn left around that corner. It’s the third door; you won’t miss it.”. You thank him and walk away. You can’t shake the feeling that this man you were talking to was Viktor. But no… He was dead, right? There’s no chance that he’s here…

You couldn’t think about it longer as you stepped into heimendingers lab. It looked scary but fascinating at the same time. “You wanted to see me, sir?” You say this as you quietly close the door behind you quietly. “Ah! Y/N! Just in time, young one.” He smiled as he stood up from his chair. A little horned furball barks at you happily. "Oh, you just missed my other assistant! He’s bringing us some papers for you to fill out so we can make your employment official!” He says he is smiling. He seems super happy that you’ll work with him soon, he has high hopes for your future.

Then Viktor comes into the room after a few minutes. And heimendinger brings you two closer. “Y/N, that’s Viktor, my assistant for years by now. Viktor, that’s Y/N, the second assistant that will work with us from now on. I hope you two will be a good team from now on!” Heimendinger says, and the room falls silent. “Y/N…?” Viktor said it with a shocked expression. “Yes Viktor?” You smile at him, and he lets his cane fall to the ground, running into your arms as best as he could. You knew that must’ve took everything within him... “I thought you died… I’m so sorry for not recognizing you earlier. You’ve grown so much I…” he said as His eyes widened, his voice shaking. "No, no Viktor… Please don’t apologise…” you say as you go through his fluffy hair, and you both have a very emotional moment. Heimendinger notices and leaves the room quietly. “I have missed you so much… I’ve been searching for you for so long…” you say softly, hugging him deeply as you missed him and partly for his support. “What happened to you that day?” He said this as he stood up straight again, stumbling over his own feet. You grab his cane and hand it to him. “How about we talk about that in peace later? We have so much to talk about…” you declared, but Heimendinger opened the door again and chimed in. "Oh, young ones, you can take the rest of the day off if you please…”. You wanted to protest, but he cut you off and sent you two away.

Now you both are on your way to Viktor's lab since you don’t have your own home yet. As you both walk next to each other, an uncomfortable silence is in the air, so you try to ease it a bit by trying to hold his hand. Just like in old times, he takes it gladly, and you both walk to his room. With a pink hue on his face, he closes the door behind you. “You have a lovely lab.” You try to start a conversation with something small. As you sit down on the couch he had in there, Viktor does the same and looks at you. “Thank you… I appreciate it. What happened that day, Y/N? I haven’t thought of anything else since that day… It’s haunted me ever since.” He says straight up, not wanting to let any more time pass. “There was an attack near our home. I called out for you, but you didn’t answer, so I thought…” You go silent, and he notices that you assumed he was dead. “I went to our home every day to look for you. I missed you so much.” You feel your tears well up. He suddenly spoke up. “One of the enforcers took me with them. The attack was so intense that I blacked out on the spot. Heimendinger raised me. I’m sorry that I left you like this…” You listen to him but nod. “I had a good family as well… but they…” You started to cry now, giving in to your emotions, and Viktor hugged you, noticing that you had lost important people once again… “I’m here now... I’m here for you, Y/N. And I will never leave again.” He pulls you in, hugging him even deeper. His presence is so comforting that you let it all happen. “We’re together again… that’s all that matters now…” he says caressing your hair, kissing your head gently. You leans his head on yours and burry your face into his chest gently. “Thank you, Viktor… I’ve missed you so much…”. “I think you should rest now… It’s been a long week for you…”. You nod and fall asleep on his chest. Quickly, before you fell asleep, you heard his voice saying one last thing that made your heart bump like crazy.

"Goodnight, Y/N… I love you.”

You wanted to answer, but your body caved in, and you fell asleep.

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A/N: Hello and thank you for reading this short story that came into my mind! It’s my first time writing out my thoughts out actually so please don’t be too harsh on me. I’m so excited for S2 and I think many of my fellow Arcane fans are as well. Have a great Day/Night and goodbye!

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skunaskitten · 1 year ago

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Yakuza Husband ch4

Paring: sukuna x female reader

Contains: gojo he is a warning, smut, soft sukuna, family talk, yuji as a kitten

Au: sukuna yakuza boss

Summary: sukuna and the kitten have just became a big thing in your life, and now sukuna would finally learn about your parents life which makes him more interested in you.

chapter3 ch4 chapter 5

When you finally opened your eyes you noticed the sun through your curtains and went to close your eyes but they snapped open when feeling a body press against your back. You turned to look over feeling your body still naked as you saw sukuna laying there with the kitten on his chest.

"Well look who decided to wake up. How do you feel?"

He had a smirk on his face looking at you with a blush on your cheeks.

"I am fine. We had sex."

Sukuna let out a chuckle and gave little pets to the kitten saying "yes and you loved it."

You looked away in shock and covered your face with your hands. All the memories of last night came flooding in. The feeling of his body on yours and feeling his length deep inside you.

"I am going to go back to the couch. I will take little yuji with me while you get ready."

Sukuna slipped out of your bed in only underwear and took yuji with him, leaving you alone to your thoughts. You started to feel tears in your eyes. You couldn't believe that you just slept with a yakuza leader. The things you said to him last night, that was not you and you refused to believe it was really you talking.

It took you a while to finally get dressed and walk out of your room to see sukuna making some breakfast and the kitten standing on his shoulder. You couldn't help but to smile.

"That kitten really likes you. It was so shy around people in the shelter."

Sukuna set the plates and brought them over to the table looking at you with a smirk.

"Come eat sweetheart you need it after what happened last night." He said and gave you a wink making you slightly blush and look away.

After eating you went to hide in your room to read and watch movies with the kitten and avoided sukuna. He knew how to clean his stomach so you didn't have to babysit him.

Your mind is still clouded with thoughts of him from last night. Still feeling ashamed for sleeping with a man who wasn't even your partner.

The little kitten walked over to the edge of your bed and took a jump as you gasped and ran over to him. You watched as he ran to the door and mowed to get out. Curiously you walked over to open the door and saw him run out down the hallway and into the living room.

"Yuji where are you going?"

As you followed the kitten he went straight to sukuna, seeing him asleep on the couch while yuji tried to climb up to him.

You picked the kitten and placed him on sukuna’s chest and watched him curl into a ball to sleep. "Well goodnight yuji."

Over the next few days you avoided sukuna only saying hello or goodnight and eating with him when he made dinner. You appreciate him always making you dinner when you get home from work. A smile filled your face seeing the kitten on his shoulder while he cooked when you walked through the door.

It was the last day you have with little yuji. You stayed out in the living room that night to spend time with sukuna and yuji since the kitten never wanted to leave him. You felt bad cause you could see how attached he is to the kitten, even if he didn't want to say it.

In the morning sukuna was awake to say his goodbyes to the kitten. You didn't think you could do this but you had to. At the end of your shift there you were at the adoption table signing paperwork and yuji in your arms. You begged so hard to adopt him saying it was for your boyfriend and it reminded him of someone. Sukuna was sad to see the animal go away.

You smiled wide, holding little yuji, hearing him meow as you went to a nearby pet store and bought some starter kitten things in a bag. When you got home and opened the door you didn't see sukuna on the couch or in the kitchen.

"Sukuna?!"

He then came out from the bathroom down the hall and walked towards you with just sweatpants and his healing wound out in the open.

"Hello sweetheart."

He then saw yuji in your arm and a bag in your other hand with a pet store name on it. Sukuna raised an eyebrow and walked over to you slowly and stood in front of you looking down at you and the kitten then crossed his arms.

"Why is yuji back?"

You smiled with a slight blush to how close he was then looked to the kitten. "I adopted him for you. You seemed really happy to have him here and looked really sad he was leaving. So he is yours."

Sukuna was shocked that you bought yuji but his life is not a good one for a little animal.

"No, take him back. I don't need another issue in my life. You really think I wanted some little rat. Take him back now. I don't need some useless thing." Sukuna said, getting close to your face with a growl.

You looked at him in shock and dropped the bag of cat stuff and held yuji with tears in your eyes. "Sukuna, he is just a baby. I thought you liked him?"

He scoffed and stepped away. "He will be dead in days around me. Take him back. I don't care, just get rid of him, throw him outside. I don't need him."

You began to cry holding the kitten and walked away saying "why are you so cruel?"

"Because I am ryomen sukuna."

He smirked but then it went away when he heard your sniffles and held the cat closer to you. He watched you walk away and slam the door closed.

Sukuna let out a sigh then went over to the bag and picked it up seeing some of the stuff fall out. He crouched down picking up the things and looked at the little cat toys of bells, some plush mice and treats. He noticed a folder and pulled it out to look at the paperwork of the kitten. Seeing his name written on the adoption paper and the payment from you. Name of the kitten yuji brother of sukuna.

He felt his chest tighten as he put the stuff back in the bag then walked over to your door quietly listening to you talk to the kitten. Sukuna let out a sigh then just opened your door looking at you.

You sat up quickly with tears on your face and scowled at him. "Get the hell out of my room!"

Sukuna closed the door and walked over ignoring your demand as he set the bag down on your bed.

Yuji squirmed out of your arms and ran over to sukuna. He smiled slightly and picked up the kitten looking at it.

"Little yuji, you are not a rat."

You wipe your face looking at him then move to face sukuna seeing him move closer to sit on your bed.

"I didn't mean those words. I just never had anyone do any of this before. I don't feel like I'm worth having yuji. This little cat, I don't want him to get hurt in my life. I will never forgive myself if he dies under my watch."

You moved closer to sukuna and put your hand on his bicep and gave him a slight smile.

"I just thought you hated him and I was worried that I made the wrong choice. Because you looked so happy with the kitten and little yuji really likes you."

Sukuna held the kitten in his hand and leaned in closer to you. With his other free hand he carefully held your chin between his thumb and finger giving you a smirk.

"I appreciate you darling."

A blush filled your cheeks looking into his eyes feeling your heart race. He is an attractive man and after what you two had done that one night, any time he was close to you, your heart fluttered.

He leaned in closing the gap between you two and pressed his lips to yours. You felt your heart swell and closed your eyes feeling the warmth of his lips. Sukuna opened his mouth deepening the kiss as he swiped his tongue across your lower lip, you gratefully opened your mouth letting his tongue invade while you let out a moan.

But sadly he pulled away looking at your flushed face with a wide playful smirk on his lips as he licked the taste of you.

"I am going to go start dinner for the two of us."

And just like that he left you alone in your room, heart racing and face flushed.

It was your day off and in the late night after spending the day watching movies and trying to clean up your room and sukuna keeping an eye on the kitten while you both stayed in your own world.

You went to sleep passing out hard while sukuna stayed awake. He wanted tea so he carried the kitten into the kitchen and placed him on the counter.

"What a drink too yuji? I beat it's still you little brat."

He chuckled talking to the kitten as he reached into one of the cupboards to grab one of your cat tea cups but then felt a sharp pain right over his stomach.

"Ahh fuck!"

He pulled his hand away from the cup and pushed it a little with his fingertips as he moved. It fell to the floor and broke into pieces with a loud sound of glass breaking.

"Fuck."

He looked at the mess and picked up yuji from the counter then heard your door open.

You ran out of the room with your fathers sword in hand, dressed in nothing but your underwear and a short kimono.

Sukuna looked at you, crossing his arms with a smirk as yuji let out a meow. "Well look who came to save me? I didn't think you cared."

You sighed and walked over into the kitchen putting the sword down on the table and noticed the broken cup. "Damn sukuna, that was my favorite tea cup."

Sukuna leaned over picking up yuji then stepped around the glass to walk over to you with a playful smirk.

"Sweetheart, why did you run out like that? Especially dressed like this."

Sukuna moved his free hand and slid it through the opening of your kimono and placed it against your bare side.

A gasp left you as you froze in place and your cheeks flushed at the contact. You shouldn't be attracted to him, but his touch drives you mad and the way he kissed you the other day as if you two were a couple. But you didn't know what the two of you were to each other. You didn't want to be some toy to him.

His hand grazed up your skin lightly, his fingers touched the bottom of your left breast making you breath out hard. A chuckle could be heard from him as he leaned in closer to you.

"You didn't answer my question."

"Sukuna…i..yes I care about you. That is why I came out. I also don't want any death in my apartment."

He smirked and placed yuji into your arms.

"Go to bed sweetheart I will clean up the mess."

You just nodded holding yuji as he looked over to your sword.

"Is that yours?"

"It's mine now but it belonged to my father."

You went over to it and took it then went back into your room.

After sukuna was done cleaning the glass he went to your room seeing you laying in bed already asleep with the kitten curled up beside you. He chuckled and petted yuji. "Are you going to protect her tonight?"

He gave a meow as sukuna smile then covered you with your blanket and left.

The next day sukuna decided to clean up your home since he was bored and the apartment was starting to look like a mess. Yuji stayed on his shoulder or ran after him through the apartment. Sukuna left trash bags by the front door, not daring to walk outside risking being seen.

Yuji went to your bedroom door wanting to get in as sukuna sighed at the baby.

"Yuji, she is not home. What do you want?"

He opened the door for the kitten watching him run inside.

Sukuna stepped in looking at the mess in your room and grunted. Yuji picked up one of his mouse toys and ran out of the room with it. Sukuna started to take the dishes out of your room and brought them to the kitchen, mumbling at how he became your maid.

"This woman is going to pay for this."

Sukuna noticed the time and you should have been home 30 minutes ago. He already had your schedule memorized since you always come home around the same time and if you did stay over you texted him but you didn't this time. He quickly called satoru, hearing him pick it up.

"Satoru you watching the girl?"

Gojo chuckled and said "yes I am watching your girl. She is still very cute by the way."

"Whatever I am not calling to hear you gawking over women. What is she doing and where is she?"

"She is out shopping looking at some men's clothes for you." He chuckled leaning against the wall waiting for you to come out of a store.

Sukuna sighed and said "keep an eye on her and keep your damn distance."

He hung up then went back into your room collecting your clothes and brought them to the laundry spot in the closet in the small hallway.

His eyes scanned the bottle looking at what soaps to use then just grabbed one to wash your clothes with.

What caught sukuna's attention was your father's sword on your dresser. He wanted to take a closer look at it as he walked back into your room seeing it on its stand. He picked it up carefully holding it in both hands then looked at the picture of your father and mother. He smiled and bowed his head but looking at it longer he tilted his head then picked up the picture.

"It can't be him."

Sukuna put the picture down then opened the katana seeing the blade and noticed the black lotus design on the handle and cover. He let out a whispered fuck, then walked out to the living room and sat down waiting for you.

When you got home with a bag you just had a bad sense that someone was watching you the whole time. As you walked through the door yuji ran up to you with meows as you giggled then noticed sukuna sitting on the couch looking at you. Your eyes scanned to the table seeing your father's sword.

"What the hell? Why did you touch it?!."

"We need to talk. Sit down."

You looked at him confused and walked over hearing his voice change to a serious tone.

"What is this about?"

You walked closer to him and went to sit down on the couch next to him, placing the bag on the floor.

Sukuna picked up the sword to open it looking at the detail then showed it to you.

"Do you know who your father is?"

You scoffed at him, yuji sitting in your lap as you pet him.

"Yes, he is my father. Who fixed up animals and people. Worked at the shelter and stuff."

Sukuna smirked and showed you the designs on the sword.

"Little woman, you are so naive. This belongs to the black lotus clan."

You looked at him confused.

"The black lotus is an ally yakuza clan who helps us. So this was either stolen or you don't know your father."

You stood up holding yuji with a look of disbelief and denial. "No he was not a yakuza. And he is not a thief. This is ridiculous, sukuna just put the sword back."

He chuckled, putting the sword away and stood up in front of you.

"Tell me sweetheart. Did he have tattoos of black and pink lotus on his left arm and a cherry blossom tree on his back? And a four eyed spirit on his right arm."

Your eyes widened at his accurate description of your father's tattoos and it was scaring you.

"Sukuna, how do you know?"

He only just smirked at you.

"Cause he was in the black lotus. He was the medic of the group. I know the tattoos because I personally seen him with my clan."

You stepped away shaking your head, eyes filling with tears as you walked away to your room sitting on the bed holding the kitten.

"It's not true."

Sukuna followed you, bringing the sword and placing it back on the stand.

"He was a really good man and really protective of the people he cared about. Including his family. Did you ever question the people he brought home with stab wounds and bullet wounds? Their bodies covered in tattoos."

You put your head down looking at yuji and petted him.

"I never questioned my father. But yes I seen these men. But I didn't think….he would ever be in this. Is that why my mother was killed? Is that why he died?"

Sukuna sat beside you reaching a hand over to pet yuji as well.

"I am not sure sweetheart but I say most likely it was rivals wanting to finish the job. They were probably looking for you as well." He spoke to you with a calm and soft tone with the deepness of his voice.

"There is more you should know. I knew your father very well. When I was a child he was the one that found me and brought me into this world but the cursed clan leader wanted to take me in as his son to carry on the clan when I got older."

You looked at sukuna with sad eyes holding yuji and asked, "Was he happy, my father?"

He gave you a soft smile saying "yes he was a very happy man and always spoke how proud he is of his daughter."

Sukuna reached a hand and lightly grazed his fingers across your cheek then ran his thumb under your eye, pressing his palm to your cheek.

He leaned on closer as you froze in place not moving away, then you felt his lips press against yours. His lips were soft, full of warmth and filled with passion. But he pulled away slowly to speak.

"How do you feel about me y/n?"

You looked into his eyes saying "I am attracted to you. I don't know what else to say."

"You are just like your parents, can't help but to fall into a yakuza life. Your mother fell in love with a yakuza and had you. Now here you are with me."

He chuckled and kissed you again this time a little harder.

You were lost in thought as you pushed your lips against his feeling them move in syn against your own. He pulled away from your lips with a smirk seeing yuji put his paws onto his chest.

"I should feed yuji and get out of my work clothes."

Sukuna took yuji into his hands saying "you get ready I will go ahead and feed him". He took yuji and walked away leaving you alone.

While you got dressed sukuna placed yuji on the table and grabbed his food pouring it into his little tiger bowl you bought. Sukuna never thought the day he would be in a kitchen giving food to a little animal and living with a woman he was growing attraction for. As he was about to bring over the bowl of food, Yuji took a jump at sukuna. He quickly reacted and ran over reaching a hand out to grab yuji, slightly spilling some of his food.

The quick stretch of his muscles moving in that way he felt himself pull something on his stomach.

"Ahh fuck yuji. You can't be doing that."

You came out to see sukuna holding the cat food and yuji as he placed both down on the floor letting him eat.

"I think I broke something. Little bastard went to jump off the table I had to grab him"

Letting out a sigh you told him to follow you into your room as he sat on the bed and peeled off his shirt seeing the slight blood.

You walked over looking at it. "Well it's not bad just be careful kuna."

Sukuna smirked watching you clean the wound and place a new bandage on it. He leaned in closer to your face as you looked at him.

"I like it when you touch me."

He could see the blush fill your cheeks. Then he leaned closer to place his lips next to your ear. "I know you like it when I touch you."

His voice dropped onto a deep seductive tone making shivers form across your body while you sucked in a breath.

"Sukuna, you should rest." You told him while standing up trying to ignore the slight arousal. He stood up from your bed then walked around you heading over to your door and closed it with his hand. You looked at him confused and watched him stalk his way to you, feeling your heart race you just stared at him. When he got close to you his eyes scanned your face then brought his hands to hold your face between them.

"I am attracted to you y/n. You are a worthy woman to fuck and I like it".

Before you could say anything he smashed his lips to yours making you stunned and dropped the box of bandages onto the floor. You melted into his kiss wrapping your arms around his neck, giving a soft moan into his mouth.

Sukuna moved his hands to place them on your hips and slid his fingers under your shirt feeling the warmth of your skin. You couldn't help but to want more of him, you were missing the touch of another. Sukuna was just another man if you look past being the yakuza boss. You wonder if you are able to have a life with him just as your mother did with your father. You pulled away from him then went to lift up your shirt taking it off then threw it onto the floor, his hands still had a hold of your hips watching you take off your bra as well.

He couldn't help but to smirk his eyes trailing your body then watched you take off your shorts leaving you in nothing but your laced panties.

"You look beautiful darling."

You let out a light breath, feeling his hands slide up your sides, feeling the curve of your body and to your breast and giving them a soft squeeze. As soon as he heard the moans from you he moved, hooking an arm around your body and pushed you onto your bed. With your head laid back Sukuna leaned over you, licking a strip of your neck to your ear and took a soft bite of it.

"You like it when I touch you sweetheart." He said in a deep husky whisper against your ear making you hum in response then he smashed his lips on yours deepening the kiss and invaded your mouth with his tongue. You knew this was a bad idea to be with him but you didn't care. He was strong, sexy, caring to you and would protect you. Growing up and finding out about your father you didn't know why your mother would be with a man in the yakuza. But now spending time with him, you can see how your mother fell in love. To tame a beast such as a man like sukuna brought pride to you. Having a man in his power be soft with you and a little kitten.

A blush filled your cheeks when he pulled away from your body and opened his pants revealing the bulge in his underwear even though you had seen him before like this being in a state like this makes you shy and a flutter in your womb.

Sukuna leaned down attacking your lips then latched them to your neck sucking and licking at your skin. "Ryomen…kiss me more." You told him as your back arched and pressed your body against his.

He chuckled and went down to your breast saying "darling you can be as loud as you want." You felt his warm breath across your chest then looked to watch his tongue slip from his mouth and lick your nipple. Whimpers left you while laying your head back feeling his mouth suckled on your breast and tongue swirl around your nipple. Your hands went into his hair lightly tugging on it letting out breathy moans on his name.

He pulled away and latched his mouth onto the breast that needed attention hearing you let out whimper and moans. You could feel yourself getting more wet with every second he is touching you. His hips laid between your legs grinding his hardness against you feeling your wetness sticking to your own panties.

Then you felt the slight scrap of the stitches across your belly as your hands went to his shoulders and pushed him a little. He stopped releasing his lips from your breast to look at you. "Sukuna, your stitches I think we should wait to continue this. I don't want to reopen it or hurt you."

Sukuna smirked and leaned to your face to give you a kiss then caught your lower lip between his teeth.

"Y/n you should know I can handle it. Besides I trust you to know what you are doing around my wound. But I do think this" ,his hand trails over your stomach and inside your underwear, "is in need of attention." His finger slid over your clit and in between your soaked folds using his other arm to support himself from crushing you.

A blush filled your cheeks feeling his finger toying with your wetness as you spread your legs more for him. Sukuna smirked and slipped a finger inside of you curling and pumping it in and out of you, his thumb began to rub your clit.

"Mmm, sukuna don't stop." His other hand pulled down the front of his underwear releasing his hardened shaft. You looked at him curious to see his length in his hand pumping himself. His red swollen tip leaking with precum as his thumb ran across the tip to coat the rest of his thick cock, the veins that spread across his skin and full size of him.

You didn't think you would love to watch this man jerk himself as he watched you squirm under his touch while he played with you. It made you ache for him more. He let out a groan feeling you clench around his finger as he added another. Hearing the squishing sounds of your cream coating his fingers.

But then he stopped, pulling out his fingers making you whimper but had you watch him bring his fingers to his mouth, licking them clean with a suck.

"You taste just as beautiful as you look."

Your cheeks felt warm, your mouth parted as you took in a deep breath. He let himself go and took off his underwear then grabbed the hem of your panties and slipped them down your legs. His hands gripped your thighs and spread them open gazing at your wet flesh, open and ready for him. "So wet for me sweetheart. Tell me love, do you want this?" He leaned over you and ran his tip across your folds and moved it across your clit smearing his precum over it. "Yes, sukuna please. I want it in me."

Sukuna smiled at you, hearing you beg and seeing you so eager for his cock. "I will go slow for you my dear, for the both of us." His tip pushed through your entrance and slowly slid into you inch by inch stretching you as you laid your head back closing your eyes. You could feel how thick he is; you weren't even sure how you were able to fit him inside you again, he felt bigger than before and you didn't know how it was possible. But here you are taking all of him till the base of him.

"Such a good girl. Taking all of me, pretty little thing." Sukuna began to slowly pull out and slid back deep inside of you. You moaned from the feeling of his cock dragging across your walls. He picked up the speed a little, moving his hips as your legs wrapped around him. Wanting to feel everything of him, his chest pressed against yours and his lips on your neck.

"Ryomen more please."

He gave you what you wanted as he leaned up pulling you by your hips thrusting into you. Your body arched and breasts bounced from the angle. Looking over to sukuna seeing his hips roll and abs flex from every thrust. Sukuna moved a hand over your lower stomach and placed the pad of his thumb to rub your clit to bring you closer to your orgasm.

"Sukuna..ahh don't stop!"

He groaned feeling you clamp around his cock as he bucked harder into you. Feeling your cream coating him makes it easier for him to slide back and forth inside you.

"Fuck darling so tight. Your pussy feels great around me. As if we are made for each other. Such a good girl for taking me."

His thumb circled faster over your clit as you bucked your hips with his thrust just to feel everything. The knot in your womb was about to break and you couldn't hold it any longer. "Sukuna I can't hold it I am going..fuck im so close."

"Cum baby. Cum for your king let it all out. Yell my name." Sukuna's thrust became harder and faster nearing his release as you grabbed his forearms digging your nails into his skin. You felt the blissful snap of your orgasm, throwing your head back yelling chants of his name. Hearing him let out a deep moan feeling you tighten around his cock and release into you painting your walls with his thick cum. He looked down to see a cream ring around the base of his cock and a smirk formed on his face. "That's a good girl."

Sukuna could feel himself pulse inside of you then leaned over your body as he put your hips down gently. His lips crashed onto yours, kissing you passionately. He finally pulled out looking at you with a soft smile on his face, both of you breathing heavily. Your hands went into his hair just needing to touch any part of him. Then there was a little meow at the door followed by scratches.

Sukuna chuckled, moving off your body saying "yuji wants in."

He got off the bed then took his shirt from the floor to clean the mess between your legs then placed his underwear on. As you laid there with a slight smile on your face, you watched him walk over to the door opening it to let in yuji. Hearing his meows made you giggle and covered yourself with a blanket. Sukuna picked him up and placed him on the bed while he rolled into your bed with you and took his place beside you. You both gave the little kitten pets and sukuna looked at you.

"Do you want me to get out?"

You looked at him not knowing how to feel but as yuji walked over your stomach and sat between you and sukuna to lay down. Both of you chuckled then looked back at each other. Seeing the look in his you have never seen in them before as he looked at you.

You moved a hand to press your palm to his chest feeling his heartbeat against it then trailed it up to his cheek giving him a small smile.

"Sukuna I really like you, but I am just scared to fall for you because of who you are. I am just torn between staying away from you and wanting you."

He moved his face closer, his nose touching yours, then pressed his lips softly against your own and pulled away to look at you.

"That is up to you. If you want me then have me but if not then I hope you enjoyed your time with me. But for now, go to bed and think about it later. I will stay here."

You just gave him a quiet nod and laid down with an arm around yuji, sukuna did the same laying beside you but he placed his arm around you. He watched you fall asleep fast after being drained of your energy.

"I hope you make the right decision sweetheart."

Sukuna soon closed his eyes and pulled you against him with yuji in the middle, himself thinking that it would not be so bad to have you in his life if it meant nights like this.

He soon fell into a deep sleep with you and the kitten in his arms.

i feel this one was a little short but i want to get get this story rolling to the juicy stuff.

thank you for reading and i wish to have yuji as a kitten

chapter3 chapter5

#ryomen sukuna #sukuna #sukuna x reader #ryomen sukuna x reader #sukuna smut #ryomen sukuna smut #yakuza sukuna #yakuza husband #yakuza au #gojo satoru

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aziraphales-library · 7 months ago

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Hello!! I hope you're well! I was wondering if you have long-fics (5k+ words) where the husbands are kind of just. Pining??? 5+1 fics specifically? If it's not too much trouble. Although, even without the "5+1 things" tag, I would greatly appreciate it! Thank you so so much!! Have a great day :D

2/2: Hello again!! I am so sorry, I was the anon asking for the 5+1 & pining fics! I forgot to mention, please keep the spicy stuff away from the fic recommendations! I am incredibly sex-repulsed. Again, I apologize for forgetting to mention it in the last ask! Thank you kindly! So sorry for the inconvenience :(

Hi! Here are some 5+1 pining fics...

The Lovers, The Dreamers, and Me by ghosts_n_toast (T)

And so, Crowley devised a plan: he would go to the back room and lie down, but he wouldn’t actually sleep . And when Aziraphale, unsuspecting of his schemes, came to lean down and press another kiss to his forehead Crowley would…do something. He hadn’t figured that part out yet. Ask him where he got the nerve to treat him like a child at bedtime? Yell at him for trying to kiss unsuspecting sleeping people? Pull him back for another one? Kiss him on the forehead? The “after” part didn’t matter. What mattered now was catching Aziraphale in the act. - One night after a bout of heavy drinking, a half-asleep Crowley is kissed goodnight on the forehead by Aziraphale. What ensues is Crowley's terrible attempts to stay awake on the bookshop sofa to catch him in the act.

Points of Contact by cyankelpie (G)

Five times Crowley and Aziraphale found an excuse for physical contact, and one time they didn’t have to.

Do you have any idea by Enven (T)

He was hungry for anything he could get. Every tiniest scrap of attention Aziraphale gave him, everything that could at least potentially indicate that he enjoyed his company – Crowley would take it all, and shove it deep into the dimness of his mind to hopelessly reminisce about it later. or: 5 times they pined like crazy, and 1 time they didn't

Crowley's attempts at courtship (5+1) by p0psicle_ashtray (M)

The year is 1813, Crowley is currently in a gentlemen's club in Scotland when he runs into a familiar angel, they talk and Crowley realizes that he must do whatever it takes to make Aziraphale fall in love with him. He was going to court the pants right off him.

To Creep Under His Gaberdine by larkthorne (T)

Sharing a sleeping space used to be much more common, historically. It didn’t mean that Crowley and Aziraphale had (literally) slept together very often…but they had done so. By the middle of the 1800s or so that practice had fallen out of fashion, and it began to feel like a shocking sort of intimacy. Basically: five times Crowley and Aziraphale shared a bedtime before the Apocalypse, and the first time they shared a bedtime after.

What Are You Doing New Year's Eve? by theshoparoundthecorner (G)

“Bit of an odd tradition, if you ask me,” he said, if not to get his mind off the longing that had settled in his chest. Aziraphale shrugged. “I think it’s rather sweet. A kiss for good luck. Seems a nice way to start the year. Very human.” Crowley nodded. “Can’t seem to keep their hands off each other, that lot. Always finding excuses. First it’s mistletoe at Christmas, then it’s luck for the New Year…” “Well there’s no need to be so grouchy about it,” Aziraphale said. “I think it’s lovely.” Crowley’s heart ached a little more as he watched Aziraphale smile up at the glowing numbers on the building above them. Yeah, he thought, lovely. Five times Crowley thought about kissing Aziraphale on New Year's Eve, and one time he did.

- Mod D

#good omens #ineffable husbands #pining #5+1 #mod d

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spaceman-earthgirl · 1 year ago

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Supercorptober 2023 Day 14: Midnight

ao3 fic link. series link.

Lena can’t keep her eyes open, her blinks turning slower as she struggles the stay conscious. But she refuses to sleep, she doesn’t want this conversation to end.

“Mmhmm,” Lena hums to Kara’s last statement, too tired to form proper words anymore. Which is definitely a sign she should sleep, but not just yet.

“You sound tired,” Kara says. “Oh gosh, is that the time?”

Lena blinks her eyes open, not realising when she’d closed them. She pulls her phone away from her ear to check the time. “It’s after midnight,” Lena says, the surprise waking her up, just a little. They’ve been talking for over three hours.

“Yeah,” Kara laughs, her voice warm and soothing in Lena’s ear. “I should let you sleep, it’s late.”

Lena wants to argue, wants to say she’s fine and it’s not that late, because she’d had a long day, the only thing making it better being this conversation. But she really doesn’t think she can stay awake for much longer.

“You need to sleep too.”

“I will,” Kara hums, and again, Lena is filled with an indescribable warmth that makes her want to continue this conversation forever. “Goodnight, Lena. Sleep well.”

“Goodnight, Kara.”

Lena’s asleep as soon as her eyes close again.

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“Miss Luthor, it’s late, what are you still going here?”

Lena rolls her eyes at Kara’s way of greeting. It’s not uncommon for Supergirl to fly by late at night and find Lena still working, except-

“Is that the time?” Lena asks, glancing at the clock on her computer.

“Yes, it’s almost midnight, which means you should be at home and in bed by now.”

Lena sighs. “You’re right.” She rubs tiredly at her eyes. She’d removed her contacts hours ago, which should have been a sign that it was getting late and she should go home.

“I usually am.” Kara grins. “Another thing I’m right about is how cute you look in glasses.”

Lena blushes, just like she always does when Kara comments on her glasses. Lena usually avoids wearing them at all costs, she prefers her contacts, but she does sometimes wear her glasses now just because she knows Kara likes them.

Lena busies herself gathering her belongings so she doesn’t have to respond. Kara clearly knows what she’s doing because she laughs.

“Do you want a lift home?” Kara asks.

Lena shakes her head. “No thanks, I’ll just take the car.”

“Are you sure?” Kara flexes her arms. “Because I’ve been told that I’m very strong.”

Lena’s cheeks really go red this time and Kara laughs again. She’d said that one time while drunk and Kara hasn’t let her forget it since. Apparently, Kara is in a teasing mood tonight. Which is cute, but does things that Lena’s heart can’t quite handle.

Kara laughs again, and Lena can’t even be too annoyed because again, she’s cute.

“Well, text me when you get home then?”

“I will,” Lena smiles. She nods her head towards the window. “Stay safe out there.”

Kara salutes with another grin before she’s gone in a flash. Lena thinks working late isn’t that bad when she gets to see Kara.

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Lena doesn’t want to be alone. She thought she’d be okay, even told Kara as much when she’d offered to come over this evening. Lena had declined, but now it’s nearing midnight and she’s alone and scared and can’t sleep.

She’s been debating for the last half hour whether or not to call Kara, just to talk, just so she doesn’t feel quite so alone. But it’s late and she doesn’t want to disturb her.

The thought that makes the decision for Lena is the fact that if the roles were reversed, she’d want Kara to call her if she was upset.

Lena takes a shaky breath before she presses Kara’s contact on her phone. Two rings later and Kara answers, and judging by the sleepy quality of her voice, she’s woken her best friend.

“Hello?”

“Did I wake you?” Lena asks, already knowing the answer.

“Are you okay?” Kara asks, instead of answering the question.

The question reminds Lena of exactly why she’s calling and suddenly she feels like crying. “I-“

Lena doesn’t even get to say anything more before Kara cuts in. “Do you want me to come over?”

Lena only hesitates for a moment before she answers. She knows exactly what she wants, she just doesn’t like asking for things.

“Please.”

“I’ll be right there.”

True to her word, Kara’s there only moments later, tentatively knocking on Lena’s bedroom door. “Hi.”

Lena swallows, tries not to cry again. Today had shaken her more than she’d realised, and now all she wants is a hug from her best friend. She always feels safe when Kara’s around.

Clearly Kara can see exactly what Lena wants because Kara doesn’t hesitate as she enters the room and climbs right into bed beside Lena. She doesn’t wait as she shuffles over and then Lena’s wrapped in a warm embrace. She does cry this time, but Kara just holds her and she knows everything is going to be ok.

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Lena doesn’t realise it’s so close to midnight until the countdown starts, the shouts loud as excitement buzzes around the room. She sees all the couples pair up and it instantly makes her look for Kara, the only person she wants to bring the new year in with.

To Lena’s surprise, Kara is already looking at her when Lena finds her and as the countdown ticks down, Kara crosses the room to meet her.

“Three…two…one…Happy New Year!”

The shouts ring out in unison around the apartment and Kara opens her arms, Lena stepping into her best friend’s embrace, wrapping her own arms around Kara in return.

“Happy New Year,” Kara repeats when she pulls away.

“Happy New Year,” Lena smiles.

There are more celebrations going on around the apartment but Lena pays them no mind for the moment, eyes only on Kara.

Because how could Lena look anywhere else? Kara’s eyes are the most striking colour of blue she’s ever seen, her cheeks pink with excitement, scattered with freckles that Lena has had dreams of pressing her lips to. Kara’s smile is so bright and Lena couldn’t look away even if she tried.

“I have a good feeling about this year,” Kara says. She’s close, the words just for them.

Lena’s not sure why, but she has the same feeling. “Me too.”

The moment stretches, and Lena wonders which one of them will move first. It’s always one of them, breaking away from these moments that seem to be happening more and more recently. But neither of them do, and Lena doesn’t miss the way Kara’s eyes fall to her lips.

This is far from the first time Lena’s caught Kara staring at her lips, but something about this feels different.

Kara’s leaning in, and this isn’t even the first time that Kara’s done that either, but neither of them are pulling away. In fact, Lena is leaning in too and then their lips meet and it sounds cliché, but Lena sees fireworks as Kara kisses her.

It’s brief, far too brief for Lena’s liking, and when she blinks her eyes open, she finds Kara watching her.

“Was that okay?”

Lena is so in love, it’s ridiculous. She reaches out, tangles her fingers with Kara’s. “It was more than okay.”

“Yeah?” Kara asks, a grin spreading across her face. “Does that mean I can do it again?”

“You better.”

Kara laughs and then Lena laughs too and then they’re kissing and Kara was right, this is definitely going to be a good year.

#supergirl #supercorp #kara danvers #lena luthor #supercorp fanfic #supercorptober2023

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Keep Me Near Your Heart VI

Jaenara was waiting in the great chamber staring into the fire for Aemond's return, it had been a rough few moons, and aemond had kept to his promise and taken Jaenara night and day as well as keeping her trapped in the solar. The last time she was out was when her nameday arrived just around the corner, jaenara was relieved, to say the least when aemond told her of the celebration that viserys wanted to throw for her. She couldn't help but be giddy, after so long she was finally going to see her family.

It felt as if a large stone was lifted from her back making her able to breathe again, nothing could deter her excitement, not aemond, no one. She was so excited to see alys again and her aunt, she had been sending letters but she had yet to have one sent back to her making her wonder if they were mad at her. She wished she could have visited them, she had tried to leave the solar once by breaking the handle of the door only to find Ser Ashford and Ser Krey there standing guard in the corridor.

She remembered the disappointment that spread through her heart and the anger that soon replaced it when Ser Ashford shut the door in her face with a sneer.

But, like everything else that goes bad in her life, a day before her nameday she got a letter from her mother telling her that their family wouldn't be able to make it. It put a damper on her mood, and she spent the whole night sulking at the table while all the lords and ladies danced and had fun.

Deep down Jaenara only wanted her family to come to console her aunt about aemond, and possibly take her back home to Dragonstone.

Jaenara sighed looking away from the fire, she put the palm of her hands against her eyes as she started feeling herself get sleepy. She shook her head trying to stay awake, she needed to stay awake for aemond, hopefully, he get here soon. She thought his lateness would benefit her, and prepare her for what she was going to tell aemond when he came, she hoped he finally is pleased with what she had to say.

The sharp snap of the door made Jaenara flinch, she got up and turned towards her husband, and a sick feeling made its way into Jaenara's gut as she looked at Aemond's callous face. Aemond walks further inside his attention on the letter in his hand, he looks disgruntled and a bit sad.

"Husband." Jaenara greeted softly.

Aemond didn't acknowledge her as he stopped and kept his gaze on the letter, jaenara bit her bottom lip anxious, she was curious to know what it was on that letter that made Aemond look so angry.

"Aemond...I have news." Jaenara says fidgeting with her fingers as she watches Aemond warily, but it seems Aemond didn't hear or just ignoring her, he does that sometimes, "Aemond--"

"What," He pique making Jaenara clamp her lips shut from his heated glare.

Jaenara didn't say anything as she dipped her chin, he was angry and whatever it was that was on the letter made him that way, she knew he was going to be in a sour mood for the remainder of his stay. Maybe, it was best to tell him tomorrow, when he calm down.

"Nothing." She looks up at him, "Just wanted to say, I wish you a goodnight, husband." She said walking up to him, Aemond watched her closely as if at any moment she might pounce, but she just walked past him a headed to her chamber.

She prayed he wouldn't fellow, pray that he was too angry to lay with her, she couldn't handle an angry aemond right now, especially during intercourse.

"Wait." He commanded, Jaenara stopped just a couple of steps behind him.

She turned to look at her husband to see him clenching the letter in his fist, Aemond was facing her when he began to walk toward her. Jaenara looked away from Aemon when she caught his eye, but Aemond's hand went to her jaw making her look at her.

"Do not think I forgot about you, dove." He said, sending a chill down her spine, "I expect you ready for me once I am finished." Jaenara swallowed as she wondered what he meant.

"I...Aemond, I do not feel very well--" Jaenara gasped when aemond's hand squeezed her jaw painfully, Aemond let out a growl as he stared down at his wife.

"Do not start, woman. I am in no mood for your perversity, nor am I in the mood for your griping." Jaenara stumbled forward putting her hand on Aemond's wrist, "Now, do as I say, and wait for me in your chamber." He finally let go of her, jaenara's hand went to her jaw looking at her husband as she rubbed her jaw, aemond didn't spare the princess another look as he looked back at the paper in his clenches.

Jaenara was in no mood to deal with him either, she didn't summon him here for his company but to finally put an end to this nightmare.

"Aemond--"

"Are you still here?" He asked harshly looking at her again, Aemond was already dealing with a pressing issue and it seemed this cretinous creature he had the misfortune of marrying was giving him a headache.

"I-I just thought since my condition, we would take a break and talk." Aemond raised a brow at her with an exasperated look, jaenara's teeth gaw at her bottom hoping that he take the bait.

"What condition." He grits out.

Jaenara exhaled softly before taking a step closer to Aemond, the young prince squinted at her before catching her wrist when she moved her hand up to push her hair behind her ear. Jaenara looked at his hand on her wrist before looking back at him, she swallowed the lump in her throat before moving her other hand to gently touch his wrist before rubbing her thumb over his pulse making him look down at the gesture.

"The maester visited. I would have thought he would have spread the news." Aemond looks at Jaenara expectantly with frown brows.

"And what news would that be." Jaenara gave Aemond a small smile, Aemond let go of her wrist as Jaenara pulled at his hand and placed his palm against her stomach, Aemond gulped as he looked down at his hand.

"He confirmed it." Aemond glances up at Jaenara, "I am pregnant with your child, Aemond." Jaenara watched Aemond carefully as he looked back down at his hand against her stomach.

Jaenara's heart pounded against her ribcage nervously as she waited for Aemond to say something, his hand moving along her stomach noticing the small curve.

"How far?" He whispered still looking down in wonder.

"3 moons." Aemond look at her making her give a bashful smile, "I wanted to wait a little long just in case..." She said looking down at her feet.

Jaenara flinched slightly at Aemond hooking his finger under her chin to make her look at him, the young prince surprised himself when he pulled Jaenara forward for a kiss, and Jaenara's eyes widened at the soft lips that were her husband's. She couldn't remember the last time he ever kissed her, that's a lie the last time he kissed her was at their wedding, but the gentle kiss had Jaenara leaning in making aemond wrap his arm around her shoulder pulling her against him. Jaenara couldn't help but melt into the kiss, this was all she ever wanted, her sweet husband, the man who captured her heart and showed her his tenderness and love.

Aemond pulled away making Jaenara stare up at him daze as she clung to him, jaenara fluttered her eyelashes as aemond brushed the tip of his nose against the side of her face.

"You have no idea...how happy you made me," He whispered after pressing a kiss to her hairline.

Jaenara was taken by surprise again when Aemond dropped to his knee to come face to face with her stomach, she couldn't help the smile that came on her face when Aemond gazed at her stomach in awe and cooed as he talked to their babe.

"So...Does this mean I can leave the solar, now?" Jaenara asked meekly, Aemond looked up at her with a look that she couldn't work out.

Jaenara became rigid when Aemond stood from his knee, she shied away when his hand came up to caress her hair.

"Yes, dove." Jaenara exhaled relieved, "You should be out feeling the sun and getting fresh air for the babe," A small smile made its way up to Aemond's lip as she looked down and rubbed her belly, "...I can't wait to tell Mother, she gonna be over the moon." He said slightly giddy.

Jaenara drone, she forgot that they had to tell Alicent, she didn't want anyone to know at the moment. It still felt too early to tell Aemond.

"What's wrong, dove." Jaenara looked at Aemond as he stared at her with a hint of concern, making something deep inside Jaenara flutter.

"I don't want to tell your mother or anyone else for that matter," Jaenara sighs lowly, "I don't want to give anyone hopes up, I was already contemplating on telling you today. I just don't want to be a disappointment again." Aemond frowns feeling a ping of guilt on Jaenara's crestfallen face, he moves his hand to cover Jaenara's hand on her stomach.

"If you wish to wait, we will wait."

"Really?" Jaenara asked surprised, Aemond nodded his head.

"Of course. My mother will understand, but for now, you get some rest and relax." Jaenara smiled gratefully at Aemond.

"Thank you, husband." Jaenara leans up on her tippy toes catching Aemond by surprise as she presses a gentle kiss to his cheek with the scar, when she pulls away she sees how his cheeks grow a light pink.

She bowed her head walking around him, Aemond watched her before looking down at the letter in his balled hand.

"Jaenara." He called looking up at her as she stopped by her door to look at him with a curious look, "Maybe. If you want...I could join you and we can think of names for the babe." Jaenara looked at Aemond with a surprised look before she smiled and nodded.

"That would be most appreciated, husband," Jaenara says trying to refrain from smiling even bigger, Aemond gives a small smile.

"You go ahead. I must take care of something." Jaenara bows her head before continuing inside her room leaving the door open for Aemond.

The young prince played with the balled letter in his hand as he walked over to the fireplace, he looked at the fire that laminated his face, Aemond opened the letter to reread the words his lover sent him.

...I will not return to King's Landing, Aemond, I will not continue to go back and forth from home and there just so you can fuck me and send me away. I deserve better than to be your whore, this a goodbye aemond...

Aemond's heart broke the first time he read it and it hurts still, he wishes she knew how much it pains him that he made her feel like just a whore. But, he had no choice but to have her come back and forth, his mother wouldn't allow her to live in the castle even though she would have been living in his chamber. Too risky, she said. If rumors of Aemond, the good child, being unfaithful to his wife got out, Alicent fears that it would make their house look bad.

Aemond sighs, he tosses the letter into the fire watching it slowly burn. He may never see his lover again, but at least he has Jaenara and the babe. They will distract his broken heart for now, hopefully by the time the babe comes, alys willing fold and come visit him in King's Landing.

「 ⊹₊♚₊⊹ 」

During the past four moons, Aemond and Jaenara have found themselves spending a lot of time together. With the news of Jaenara's pregnancy, their bond grew closer with each passing day. Aemond made a conscious effort to support and protect Jaenara, accompanying her on long walks under the pale moonlight, talking into the late hours of the night, and sharing moments of tenderness and care. Together, they ventured into the realm of parenthood, discussing hopes and fears for the future, and making plans for their growing family.

Despite the challenges and uncertainties, Aemond and Jaenara found solace in each other's presence during this time of change. Their shared experiences have forged a deep, unbreakable connection between them, as they eagerly anticipate the arrival of their child, unified by their love and commitment to each other.

Jaenara thanked the gods for blessing her with her child and making Aemond love her again, it took a while for her to truly let Aemond back in and she was happy she did.

So, when she woke up alone in bed, her heart sank reminding her of the last time she woke up alone, but she shook those thoughts away as she carefully got out of bed, jaenara puffed out as she put her hand on her large belly. She slipped into her flats before waddling to her door, confused and anxious, she walked to her door hoping to seek him out.

But, rather than seeing Aemond in the great chamber, she sees Enith holding a tray in her hands, "Good Morning, Enith. Have you seen, Aemond?" Jaenara asked standing on the threshold of her door looking at the solar for her husband before looking back at the woman.

Enith's hesitant demeanor made Jaenara furrow her brows as she watched her, a sick feeling in her gut made Jaenara sway as the silence was becoming deafening.

"Enith?" The handmaiden looks from the floor to Jaenara.

"Uh, I haven't seen him this morning, m'lady." She replied, walking up to Jaenara before sliding past her to get inside the room.

Jaenara narrowed her eyes and followed after closing the door behind her, she watched as Enith set the tray on the aemond side.

"Do you have a clue where he is?" She asked again, Enith took a short moment to answer making Jaenara grow suspicious.

"...umm, no...but I could ask around." Enith suggested nervously, jaenara glanced down as Enith played with her skirt before looking back at her.

"Where is my husband, Enith," Jaenara asked crossing her arms over her chest, Enith looked at Jaenara with wide eyes before shrugging her shoulders.

"I-I just told you--"

"What is wrong with you?" Jaenara asked causing Enith to become tongue-tied, "You are acting skittish, are you hiding something from me?" Enith gulped before shaking her head.

"Of course not--"

"Then, where is my husband, you must know something if your acting this way." Enith didn't know what to say, jaenara had become rather observant lately, and the young princess seemed more aware of certain nowadays, "Fine. If you won't tell me then I guess I will have to find out myself." Jaenara turned on her heels making Enith snap back to reality.

"No, wait." Enith nearly screams causing Jaenara to look back at her with a raised brow, Enith sighs sadly before rubbing her hands on her skirt nervously.

"He is in his chamber," Enith said dreary.

Jaenara furrowed her brows at Enith's words, her husband was in his chamber which wasn't surprising nor worrying.

Jaenara scoffed making Enith look at her mistress, "In his chamber? By the gods, Enith. I thought you were going to say something bad, in his chamber." Jaenara shook her head humorous smile as she walked to her side of the bed.

Enith bites her tongue not wanting to finish her sentence, she helps Jaenara onto the bed before taking a seat at the edge. She watched as Jaenara picked berries from the bowl and popped them into her mouth, soon Enith started up a convention trying to distract her mistress from her missing husband.

「 ⊹₊♚₊⊹ 」

After Aemond didn't come back to Jaenara's chamber, she couldn't help but worry about her husband and what he was doing. It was unlike him to be gone for so long without sending word. As the week passed, her concern grew deeper, and she found herself falling into a dark void of fear and uncertainty, unable to shake the feeling of unease that had settled in her chest.

She tried to convince herself that Aemond was simply caught up in some important matter or had lost track of time, but her instincts told her otherwise. She knew her husband well, and something felt off about his absence.

As the days wore on, Jaenara found herself spiraling, her thoughts consumed by anger and despair. She tried going for a walk to clear her mind but was stopped by Ser Ashford and Ser Krey, she was confined in the solar again on aemond's command, jaenara shook her head at the knights.

"For how long?" She questioned them impatiently, they both glanced at each other before looking at her.

"He did not say." Ser Ashford replied, jaenara scowled and crossed her arms.

"I can not stay in this solar, the babe and I need fresh air." She said.

"Open a window." Ser Ashford said tersely with an eye roll, he reached to close the door but Jaenara's hand caught the other handle.

"All I wish is to go for a walk, please, it won't even be for that long." She pleads looking between the men, Ser Krey gives a sympathetic look before looking at Ser Ashford, but the older man ignores the look Krey is giving him.

"No. The prince's orders." He said gruffly making Jaenara pleading eyes turn to glare.

"Well, I am the princess and I wish to go for a fucking walk." She snapped catching both knights off guard, Ser Krey looked between the princess and Ashford as they glared at each other.

Ser Krey stepped between the two and looked at Jaenara with a sincere look.

"I am sorry, princess, but not tonight, maybe tomorrow." Jaenara looked at Krey with a dangerous look making the young knight splutter, "A-And if you wish I can talk to the prince about letting you go for a walk, I am sure if I mention it's for the babe, he would do it, don't you think?" Jaenara thought for a minute, she glanced at Ser Ashford who was still glaring at her, and she sneered looking back at Krey.

"Fine." She said tersely, Krey sighed out of relief before he could say anything else, jaenara slammed the door in their faces.

After that whole ordeal, jaenara's anger turned to despair and desperation, and she missed Aemond lying next to her. She missed his soft kisses, his soothing voice when he read to her, and the babe in high valyrian, even though she was mad at him she still missed his presence around the solar. It seems the only thing that could get her to rest is crying herself to sleep, and she knows, she knows she shouldn't be worrying herself, especially with how close the baby is coming.

Jaenara wiped at her eyes as the door to her room was opened, she looked up to see Enith coming in with an emerald gown.

"What is that?" She sniffs.

"It's your gown to the jubilee," Enith says coming towards the bed and laying the dress out, jaenara frowns glancing at the dress before looking at Enith.

"Jubilee? When is it?" Enith looked at Jaenara with raised bows.

"Tonight," she drawls out, "Did no one tell you?" Jaenara gave her a look.

"And due tell who would have told me this news, Enith. The useless knights or my absent husband." Enith bit her bottom lip as she tried not to smile, she was beginning to like this jaenara, and she gave her mistress an apologetic look before taking a seat next to her, "Do I have to go?" Jaenara asked with a sullen look.

"The queen demands it," Enith says.

Jaenara rolled her eyes before looking down at her belly, she caressed the top feeling a flutter making her smile a bit.

"I can always tell the queen, you not feeling well, my lady." Jaenara drones glancing away from her belly to the emerald gown on the bed.

"No..." She starts, "I'll go but I'm not wearing that gown." She says scootching out of her bed with Enith following suit.

"Okay, what gown did you have in mind." Jaenara looked at the new gowns that aemond brought her, she looked through the various colors and fabrics before stopping at a pretty crimson one that reminded her of a portrait of rhaenys targaryen.

"I think this one will do." Jaenara pulled out the long gown before smiling over at Enith who looked at the gown in awe.

"I think it will do more than just do." Enith giggles taking the gown from Jaenara and heading toward the bed.

As Jaenara took a seat online one of the settees, her hand resting on her belly thinking, she wondered if she saw Aemond.

「 ⊹₊♚₊⊹ 」

Jaenara was proud of herself for choosing the perfect crimson gown to wear to the jubilee, the deep red fabric hugging her baby bump in all the right places. As she entered the great hall, every eye turned to her, admiring her radiant beauty as she made her way to the table where her extended family was seated.

But as she approached, Jaenara's smile faltered. Aemond, her husband, was standing next to a woman with striking black hair, engaged in an animated conversation. Jealousy and suspicion gnawed at Jaenara's heart as she watched the pair, and she felt a surge of discomfort as she realized just how close they were standing to one another.

Trying to shake off her unease, Jaenara joined her family at the table, plastering on a smile and exchanging pleasantries as she tried to ignore the way Aemond and the dark-haired woman kept stealing glances in her direction.

"Jaenara, you look absolutely beautiful," Alicent complimented making Jaenara give her a gracious smile, "But, what happened to the gown I picked out for you?" Alicent asked.

"Oh, you sent me a dress?" Jaenara asked pretending like she didn't know.

"Yes, a gorgeous green gown with jewels around the neckline and wrist, I gave it to your handmaiden." Jaenara made a show of realization before she took a seat beside her younger cousin, Daeron.

"Oh, yes, I saw it pretty dress, but I did not feel like it was for me." She said nonchalantly.

"Mmmm." Alicent hummed as her sweet smile nearly faltered, she turned away from the girl to take a sip of her wine.

Jaenara glanced away from her step-grandmother to look at Aemond and his guest, they were at the end of the table still talking. She glances away feeling her hands get clammy making her wring out her fingers, she distracts herself with Daeron, who pulls her into a conversation about her dragon, Vermithor.

"...I heard from Mother that you and alys went into Dragonmont to claim your dragons, were you scared?" The young boy asked making Jaenara smirk.

"I was terrified but Alyaena..." Jaenara trail off thinking about her friend, "...well Alyaena wasn't scared, she was brave and she saved my life." Daeron's eyes widen in admiration.

"Wow." He said wonderstruck causing a low giggle to come from Jaenara, "I wish I was as brave as her." Daeron said deflating a little, jaenara put her hand on Daeron's shoulder giving him a sweet smile.

"I'm sure there is a brave bone inside you somewhere, you just have to wait for it to show its face." Daeron smiled back at Jaenara before they were interrupted.

Aemond cleared his throat catching his brother and wife's attention, he glanced at Jaenara who was looking past him at the people dancing on the floor before looking at his younger brother.

"It's getting late, daeron. You should go off to bed." The youngest targaryen frowns at his older brother.

"But, I'm not tired." He whines making Aemond give him a look.

"Mother's orders." He said tersely, jaenara looked at Daeron who pouted, she leaned close to Daeron making the boy look at her.

"If I were you I escape before they start talking politics, I know I would give my left leg just so I don't have to listen to them talk non-stop about boring politics." Jaenara pulled a face making Daeron consider her words, he hated politics they always made him want to go to sleep.

"On second thought, I am feeling a bit tired," Jaenara gives a small smirk as she watch Daeron push back his chair and get up, "Goodnight, Jaenara. Goodnight, Aemond. And good luck." Jaenara covered her mouth with her fingers as she hid her chuckle, Daeron waved back at Jaenara and aemond as he was escorted to his room by a knight.

Jaenara turned her eyes away from the youngest targaryen to her half-eaten plate, a sudden body pressed her side making her glance at Aemond, she looked away trying to find the dark-haired woman he was talking to just hours ago. She turned her eyes to the floor to find her, she watched as the woman was being twirled by a man, jaenara side-eyed aemond to see him watching the dancers as well. She notices how he clenches his jaw before glancing down at his hand on the table that he flexes into a fist before opening his hand, jaenara sighs low putting her hand on her belly.

She looks at the dark-haired woman as she laughs and flips her hair, her heart skips when she makes eye contact with her, jaenara looks away before pushing back her chair. As she stood, Aemond's hand caught her wrist making her look at him.

"Where are you going." He asked, his attention still focused on the floor.

"My chamber." When she pulled her arm, Aemond's gripe tightened a bit before he turned his gaze away from the woman.

"You must stay and keep me company," He said with a glint in his eye, "Leaving now when I just took a seat seems a bit rude, don't you think." Jaenara raises a brow at her husband before glancing around.

"You know what is also rude, husband," Jaenara says looking back to Aemond find him staring at the woman again.

"Mmmm, what." He said remiss, a pit inside Jaenara ignited at his diversion, and she moved her hand over his wrist gently caressing it and making him look at her.

"Having a husband like you that abandons his pregnant wife for days on end, without a word." Jaenara dug her nail into Aemond's wrist over his pulse causing him to hiss before she shove his hand off her.

She absconded away causing Aemond to get up out of his seat with a scowl, he heard someone clear their throat making him turn to see his mother give him a look. Aemond swallowed down his anger and marched after Jaenara, it didn't take long to catch up with her, he grabbed her elbow and pulled her out of sight of the guests.

"Do not touch me." Jaenara chided pulling her arms away from aemond as they stood hidden away behind the pillars.

"How dare you--" Aemond growled.

"How dare I what?" She snapped looking at him with so much anger that could make even the dead shake in their coffins.

Aemond was taken back by his wife's tone for a second before his face twisted into a scowl and put his finger in her face, "Have you lost your mind, talking to me like this--" Jaenara gave an eye roll before turning her back to her husband, Aemond splutter at her action and grab her elbow before she could take another step.

Jaenara turned back slapping Aemond's hand from her arm, the young prince gave her a look that told her he was getting fed up.

"Jaenara." He grits angrily through his teeth, "Whatever is going on with you, you better fix it quickly before you make me do something I might regret." Jaenara scoffs a chuckles out making Aemond tilt his head to the side as he stares at her.

"Oh, I'm shaking in my boots." She mocked making Aemond clench his jaw, "I doubt whatever you do to me is not going to be worse than having me locked in a room all by myself worried sick about you."

Aemond stood quiet, he glanced away mildly ashamed. He didn't mean to leave her there all by herself when he got word that Alys returned to King's Landing. He couldn't help himself but go to her.

"Jaenara--" Jaenara put her hand up stopping him.

"I don't care. Whatever you gonna say I don't care." Aemond frowned slightly at the defeat in Jaenara's voice, "Just go back to your lady friend and leave me be." Aemond swallowed as he watched her walk away from him, he looked over at the crowd of dancers and saw Alys happily dancing with another man, oblivious of his absence.

Aemond caught up with Jaenara catching her hand causing her to snatch it away as if it were a hot stone, she looked back at him annoyed as she hid her sadness, why was he still bothering her?

"Aemond, I am not in the mood. Go back to the celebration--" She commanded, the tone hard and tense, making a stir appear in Aemond'a's stomach before he brushed it away.

"Not without you." Jaenara rolled her eyes.

"I told you I'm going my chamber--"

"Then, I will accompany you."

It was Jaenara's turn to clench her jaw, she didn't want him near her, why was that so hard for him to understand?

"As sweet as that is, aemond. I would rather return to my chamber alone." Jaenara glared at Aemond as he caught her hand again, he tightened his grip when she tried to pull away.

"For god's sake, jaenara. Stop acting like a brat." The words rang in her head like a bell, echoing in her mind, causing her to glare at Aemond once again.

"The only brat I see is you, my prince." She spat, "Why don't you go back to your whore, I'm sure she's missing you by now." Aemond's hold loosened making Jaenara pull her hand away.

His hand twitched by his side as a thought passed through his mind, Aemond swallowed down his indignant choosing to ignore what Jaenara said about his lover, and instead took a step forward making Jaenara take a step back, Aemond sighed and looked away before looking back at her with the sincerest look he could muster.

"Jaenara...she is no one." He says, making Jaenara roll her eyes before casting her eyes sadly away.

"I'm not blind. I see the way you look at her." She said quietly, "It's nowhere near the way you look at me, she must be someone really special." She looks back at him to see Aemond with a small frown.

"...she is--was...but she means nothing to me now."

Jaenara dipped her chin, she couldn't believe it or maybe she did, it would explain why he changed so quickly and where he had been in the last couple of weeks. Jaenara's heart grew heavy, she wondered how long it had been going on, was that woman the only one or did Aemond have more paramours around? Was it her name that he called that night during their rendezvous?

"Go to her." She whispered making Aemond furrow his brows.

"What?"

Jaenara looked back at him with tears in her eyes, a flicker of pain stabbed him in his heart at her distraught features.

"You love her, so go to her. I won't stop you." Aemond glanced away from her, jaenara took a step closer making him look back at her as she stared up at him with pleading eyes, "Just do one thing for me, please..." She asked making Aemond's frown deepen, "...let me go," Aemond looked at her dumbfounded, before staring at her with an uneasy look.

"Jaenara--"

"Don't please." She stopped him making him purse his lips, "I know what happens to a woman who is put into a loveless marriage, they become depressed, sad, angry, bitter, resentful individuals." Jaenara sighs shaking her head, "My mother..." Jaenara stopped herself as she trailed off, aemond looked at her worried before she continued, "My mother was a bitter woman, she resented my aunt and uncle's love for each other, and that made it hard to live with her." She looks at Aemond with sadness.

"I...I don't want to end up like my mother, I do not wish to turn my hatred onto our child because you couldn't love me back." Jaenara swallowed and reached to grab aemond's hand with both of her hands and placed them over her heart, Aemond looked at his hands and hers before looking at Jaenara," So I ask, no, beg you husband to spare me, spare me the heartache and misery, and if can not do it for me then our child." She gently begged.

Aemond was speechless. He couldn't form the right words to say to her, he loved Alys, she was his whole world but she left him and he tried to move on and when she came back it was like he was under a spell and he needed to see her. Aemond could understand what Jaenara was saying, after all his father did the same to his mother in a way, and his mother put so much pressure on him and his siblings.

Just look at Aegon, the man was a waste of space and didn't deserve to be considered to be next line for the throne. Then, there's Helaena, his sweet Helena, she had no choice but to marry their idiot of a brother just to make aegon seem more appealing to people. And finally, there was him, the good brother, the scholar, the one who lost an eye and became a hideous monster no one can love, until Alys anyway.

But, he couldn't go against his mother, out of everybody in the castle, he was the only one that she could depend the most on. He had to think about his family's reputation and his own, if he wanted to keep the peace between their families.

Aemond bowed his head so he leaned his forehead against Jaenara's, he let out a soft sigh as he brought his other hand up to cup her jaw. Jaenara closed her eyes, can't help but lean into aemond's touch, why was it so easy to melt into him?

Aemond brought his lips to her temple before whispering in her ear.

"My loyalty lies with you, not her not anymore--" Jaenara tried to pull back but Aemond brought her hands against his chest and his other hand mother to the side of her neck.

"Aemond--" She whined looking away as she tried to pull away not wanting to hear his lies.

"Please, dove." He begs to make me look back at him, he looks so genuine, "Please, let me escort you back to our chamber, let me be with you and our child." Jaenara stared at him thinking what she should do.

She didn't trust aemond to not break her again, she wanted so badly to believe him. But, he was with her. All this time while she was alone and worried, he was with her, doing things only they should be doing. While that woman gets the sweet and soft aemond, jaenara must endure the cold and mean him. How is that fair? How can he make love to his paramour, but fucks her like some whore he found in a brothel. None of this is fair. She doesn't deserve to be put through this--

"I love you, dove." Jaenara flutters her lashes as she snaps out of her daze to look at Aemond, "I am so sorry for being a fool and allowing myself to lose sight of you and our family, I will forever live in shame that I hurt you and brought you pain." Aemond's hand landed on her belly making her stomach churn as he rubbed it gently, "I don't deserve your forgiveness, but please let me earn it back, let me be the man that you deserve...that our child deserves." Jaenara couldn't help the tears that blurry her vision, she put her hands on her face trying not to sob, she didn't know why she was crying his words did little to assure her.

"Come now, let me take you to bed." Jaenara couldn't form words so she nodded, making aemond wrap his arm around her shoulder and guide her toward the exit.

As he was about to leave he looked over his shoulder to see Alys looking at him with a small frown as she stood in the middle of the floor while everyone else continued to dance, Aemond swallowed and turned his head away, guiding Jaenara out of the great hall with a clenched heart.

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lanitalay · 1 year ago

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Before I Say Goodnight Chapter 14

A/n: I hope you all enjoy this one!!!!!!! I feel like I could end it in one chapter or in 10 :')

Warnings: canon typical mentions/depictions of injuries, mentions of a toxic relationship.

Word count: 2.6k

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Steady steps fill the air as Eris walks down the main hall of the House of Wind. He had not expected to be welcomed here in light of recent events.

“How is she?” He asks the shadowsinger posted outside a door, presumably hers.

“Stable”

“Is she awake?” The spymaster shakes his head “Sometimes, never for long”. Eris purses his lips at that, those last few moments in the clearing flashing in his mind “can I see her?” Azriel nods once and opens the door behind him. Eris is certain that he will remain on the other side of the door and that his shadows will be watching closely.

His breath catches in his throat when he sees her. In truth, he did not know what to expect. It had been days since that night and she had been given Feyre’s blood and a mix of power granted by two high lords, one high lady and one cauldron made fae. It was not something that had been documented before. He was relieved when she had opened her eyes in the clearing, but the white light that shot out of them had surprised him. She had been drained of her blood, kept in a dungeon for weeks, mauled by an ancient monster and struck by lightning. If he had to guess, she had done something to offend the Mother or another god. How does one come back from that?

The dark circles under her eyes had softened. He noticed the new points of her ears poking out of her hair that laid strewn across soft looking pillows. The lightning had left her with scars that peaked out of her shirt and went to the base of her neck. The bolt forever reflected on her once porcelain skin. He couldn’t see her leg but was relieved to see two outlines beneath the sheets. From what he had seen, it would not have been surprising that a healer would have recommended amputation. Her cheeks looked fuller, that was a good sign.

He stood there for a while, as she slept. There was so much guilt eating away at him for all of the things he had done during his father’s reign. Unspeakable and unforgivable things. He had tried to do some good, when he could guarantee that his father’s wrath would not be turned to him. He was brought out of his thoughts when she stirred.

“You can’t be serious” she grumbles and Eris tenses “we are going to have to discuss boundaries”. Her eyes are open and she seems… fine. No pain, no grogginess, no anger. “What?” She yawns “everytime I open my eyes you're there, you were always at the Manor, in the dungeons and now my room? I think we need to talk about getting friends your own age”. Eris stays looking at her and she rolls her eyes “not you too”. He repeats himself “what?”. “I need normal conversation, everyone has been acting like I’m going to break if they look at me wrong and I hate it” he relaxes his stance but remains uncertain “you got demolished by three separate entities, you should be dead, forgive me if I am not in the mood to banter”. She goes to sit up but winces and lays back down “no”. Eris crosses his arms at his chest “no, what?” She throws a pillow at him “I won't forgive you not wanting to banter” he catches the pillow “I did not realize you were enthralled by my humor” he walks closer to her bed and places the pillow where it had been “are you aware of the watchdog at the door?” She scowls “don’t call him that. But yes” and yells “it’s a waste of your time Azriel, I’m fine!”

A hint of a smile escapes Eris “you are the worst patient I’ve ever seen”. Now, she looks seriously pissed off “you try being bedridden for a week and see how you like it”. “You’ve been bed ridden?” She nods and grimaces “after everything went down the magic healed all my wounds but my leg was broken in so many different places and it healed all wrong. Madja has had to re-break and properly set the bones. They have not let me leave the bed”. A shiver runs down Eris’ back and just how brutal the attack had been. Any lighthearted energy having been sucked out of the room. “I wanted to apologize” she looks away from him and starts to pick at a loose string in the bedsheets and interrupts him “don’t”. He goes on “I have to, it was my father who got you into this whole mess and I could have done so much more to prevent it or to get you out sooner. I should have killed him years ago but I never had the courage and-” she held up her hand “Eris, please don’t”. He took a step closer “and I’m sorry you got hurt and tortured and I just stood by” she would not look at him but asked “did you notice that the bargain marks vanished?” He nodded. She took a breath and said “you kept your promise. I’m out. You never owed me any kindness. We were never even friends” that stung. “You deserved better” she made knots to the string she was fidgeting with “I hate when people talk like that, you can’t change what happened or what you did or didn’t do”. He took one more step “I think it's fair to lament what happened” she looked up and met his gaze “I think it's useless”. He could have flinched at the venom in her voice, but stood still when clouds and bolts of silver amassed in her eyes. She closed her eyes, breathed deep and said “let’s talk about something else” when she opened her eyes again, the storm was gone. Before he could think of what to say the door opened and Madja walked in, followed by Azriel.

“Good morning y/n, how are you feeling?” The healer asked while opening up her bag of bandages and tonics. “I’m fine, the leg is a little sore” Madja hummed and said “well we have the last procedure today. If all goes well you’ll be able to walk around in a few days”. Y/n smiled at the news “really?” Madja nodded “alright, I will need any visitors to say their goodbyes now” she searched through her bag for something and Eris took his cue to leave. But before he did said “I will be back in a few days”.

Azriel stood at the door throughout every procedure. His stomach churning every time he heard crunching or snapping coming from inside. She had been put to sleep again. Madja was done in less than an hour.

He waited by her bedside until she woke up. After the procedures she would wake up in pain and he would be there to give her the tonic Madja had prepared. “That never gets easier to get down” she gagged at the foul taste of the concoction. “I know, it does not taste good”. He remembers all of the times he’s been hurt and forced to drink it. “You’re done though, Madja said everything went perfect. You can try to walk tomorrow” she let out a sigh “thank God”. Azriel chuckled “here, Elain made you soup” and helped you sit up so you could eat.

“So what are you going to do?” Nesta asked, interrupting a very interesting scene in the book you were reading. She was keeping you company while Azriel was at a meeting in the River House. “About?” She closed her book. Oh lord. “About Azriel and Eris”. You frown “I’m still lost” she leaned closer “are you going to choose?” Now you scowled ��I don’t know why I would choose between two friends” Nesta rolled her eyes. “Don’t be coy, y/n” you cross your arms, defensive “I am not being coy, I am not thinking of my love life at all”. Now, she leans back and says nonchalantly “Gwyn has been dying to ask Azriel out”. Your eyes widen and you curse at how those words irked you just how Nesta wanted them to. “Gwyn does not want to go out with Az” Nesta raised a sharp brow “she used to, but since you came into the picture she’s lost interest”. You huff “what’s that supposed to mean?”

“It means that Azriel only has eyes for one person but that person seems to be undecided”

“Why do I have to make a choice now?”

“You don’t have to, I was just curious”.

“I barely know either of them”.

“You know them well enough to know how you feel”

“It’s not that simple” your voice quivers and Nesta’s expression softens.

“It seems simple to me”

“It’s not. I hate talking about it but I used to be engaged to a man, back in my world. He was not kind to me. But I stayed far longer than I should have because everyone in my life kept telling me that I had to, that I should. I also had a complicated relationship with my mother. She was very… controlling”. You got lost as you remembered how she would manipulate you “Anyway, it feels that all my life I have never made a choice for myself. The only true choices I have made was leaving him, traveling and then working at the apothecary. Everything else was either orchestrated by my mother or predetermined by fate. The portal being open, Lucien finding me, meeting Azriel, meeting Eris and now I am not even human anymore”. A wave of pain floods your chest at the reminder of your stolen mortality. “I just… as much as I might like Azriel I need to heal, in more ways than one”.

Nesta nodded “I’m sorry for everything. I understand feeling like things just happen to you without you having a say in the matter” the way her eyes darkened you knew she had also gone through something similar. You could recall from what Mor had told you that she had been made against her will and that she had a… destructive way of dealing with the trauma. “I love Cassian, he’s my mate but a part of me will always wonder about the mortal life I could have had or what I would have done if they had not locked me in this house. So I’m sorry for prying and pressuring you. I should have known better” tears are gathering in your eyes. She gets out of her chair, sits in front of you on the bed and pulls you into a hug. “I don’t know what to do,” you say, voice quiet. “Just focus on healing”.

The following day was better, you could finally stand and walk around.

The day after that was great, Madja said you could resume your usual activities as long as you did not put too much stress on the leg.

The following week she gave you the all clear that everything was perfect. Azriel was with you every day. Eris came to visit and was relieved to see you in better spirits and mobile again. Lucien had brought you gifts that Muriel, Jurian and Vassa had sent along. He told you that Muriel thought you had been sick all along and she had sent so many tonics and salves in hopes that you'd get better.Your heart warmed. It broke a little, too. Going back to the Human Lands was not an option now and that stung.

You were at the River House for a visit when Feyre asked you what you wanted to do now. “I have no idea, but I need to get out of the House of Wind”. Feyre furrowed her brows “why? Did something happen?” You shake your head “no, no, it's just that I feel bad asking to be winnowed or flown all the time and during the day nobody is really in the house and it gets lonely”. She thinks for a moment “you could stay at the town house if you want”. You raise a brow “town house?” She nods “we used to live there but the family grew so much we needed a bigger place. I don’t think anybody is using it now… so you could move there if you like”. That sounded perfect “yes, I would love that”. Feyre smiled “that’s perfect! You’d be so close you could walk here”.

“How will I ever repay you?” It was a sincere question, they had been keeping you alive since Lucien found you and you had no money for rent or anything. “You don’t owe us anything, you’re part of our family now” you hated how that scared you. “Seriously Feyre, is there a job I could do or something?” She shook her head “Nope, you will move to the town house and continue to heal. I think you could train with an apothecary here or even with Madja if you’re interested”. She went on to list every apothecary in town and how they would never say no if the High Lady asked them for a favor.

A knock startled you “come in”. “How was your day?” Azriel asks and closes the door behind him. He stays in place as he sees that you are packing up your clothes into boxes. “What are you doing” you look up at him “I was at the River House today and Feyre said I could move into the town house”.

“Oh”

“I was just telling her how it gets lonely here when all of you are gone and how I’d be more comfortable in Velaris rather than above it”

“When are you leaving?”

“Tomorrow”

He didn’t reveal any emotion but you knew he was hurt. “She said there are several rooms… you could come with me, if you want” he shifted his stance, hands behind his back, wings tight. “Do you want me to go with you?” You reply “I don’t really want to live alone” he shakes his head. “Do you want me to go with you?” Yes, you wanted to scream. You wanted to shout and hug him and apologize for not asking him first and that he found out like this. You wanted to kiss away his frown until he was smiling. But you stood there not saying anything.

“Y/n”

“Yes” you step closer to him “I want you to come with me” you falter. Heart beating faster, hating the vulnerability. His hands come to his sides “are you sure?” You mentally curse him “yes, I’m sure”. You are standing a foot away from him. So close you can see a glimmer of something in his eye when you finish talking. “But I have to be honest with you” the glimmer disappears “Az, I…” A lump forms in your throat and you can’t get the words out. “I like you, ok? I like you a lot and I think you like me too but-”

He cuts you off “I do”

The lump gets bigger “but I can’t promise you anything other than friendship right now… I hope you can understand that”

He steps closer and your breath falters. He is so close. You want to reach up and just touch him. He grabs your hands and says “I’d wait any amount of time for you. You have my friendship, always”. His gentleness overwhelms you and tears well up. You groan “I feel like I’m always crying” he smiles and wipes away a few stray drops. You inhale “so you’ll come with me?” He nods and you want nothing more than to wrap your arms around him and kiss him.

Azriel laid in his bed feeling lighter than he had in years. She likes me.

Her words were a breath of fresh air, a cool summer breeze, a shimmering night sky. She likes me.

He could not stop replaying the moment. She likes me.

That night, he prayed that the fullness in his chest was something more than infatuation.

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sdmnpact · 16 days ago

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˗ˏˋHow Harry met Y/N ˎˊ˗

Part 1

Saturday ~

He pulled back and looked at me. He didn't say anything but just sat back down. I stood their in shock. I have no clue why I didn't immediately pull back. Was it because I haven't had a boyfriend in ages? Maybe I just feel lonely, so lonely that I could confidently just kiss a stranger-

"Hmph" I look towards him and he's slumped over, passed out. We'll I don't know what to do with him. No one is coming in, I'm just gonna go look for literally anyone. I leave the kitchen and see Jules grinding on Tom and Max flirting with some girl. Who the fuck is George Clarkey? Why is no one going to the kitchen? I went back to the kitchen and saw the guy on the floor now. Oh my gosh I hate this. I poked him and he just made a noise. I just sat there on the ground next to him hoping someone would come in.

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"Y/n?" I woke up to someone calling my name. I looked up and it was Jules. "Oh hey, what time is it?" I asked trying to get up but not being able to. I looked down and saw a man on my lap.

"Who is that!?" She said in a sort of happy tone. I tried to get him off but he was too heavy. "Honestly, I have no clue but can you help me get him off me" she pulled on him and I pushed, finally getting up. I'm so sore I was propped up against a cabinet so my neck and back hurts.

"So what are you gonna do with him?" She asked me. "Me? I don't even know this guy! Where's everyone, where's Tom?" I asked. "Tom passed out on my bed and everyone left."

"Well where are his friends?"

"I don't know." I sighed and looked at him. I poked him again and this time he woke up.

"What's going on?" He asked, stretching.

"You are at a party and have passed out, everyone is gone, go home!" Jules said.

"Maybe we should just let him sleep here tonight on the couch." I said checking my phone. It's 3 am! "Actually I'm gonna sleep here too." I said grabbing my purse.

She nodded and left to get some blankets and spare clothes. I looked at the guy and he just stared at me.

"What?" I asked.

"Nothing, just- what's your name?"

"Y/n. What's yours?"

"Harry."

"Okay, we'll you can sleep on the floor in the living room and I'll sleep on the couch."

I told him as we made our way to the living room. He nodded and sat on the floor as Jules came back with blankets and pillows. She handed me a pair of shorts and a t-shirt. I went to the bathroom to change. When I came out Harry on the ground wrapped up like a baby. It was kinda cute honestly. Anyways I made my way to the couch, and Jules told us goodnight as she headed off to her room. Although we kissed, he acted like nothing had happened. He didn't make it awkward or mention anything about it. Maybe he doesn't remember, and it was a drunken mistake.

"So" He said sitting up. I looked towards him rubbing my eyes since I was struggling to stay awake at this point.

"Do you wanna hang out some time?"

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A/n

did not think people were actually gonna read these. I haven't written fanfics in 5 years and felt like writing some Harry fics and blurbs. I hope you enjoy them!!

#harry lewis fic #wroetoshaw #harry lewis #wroetoshaw x reader #fanfic #sidemen

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girltalkcollectives · 2 months ago

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Loving Someone Who Doesn't Love You Back

This entry is from an old relationship

Have you ever felt like you're the only one trying in a relationship? Like you're pouring your entire heart into something while they're just... there?

I'm sitting in my car right now, typing this on my phone because I can't be in my apartment. Because he's there, probably not even noticing that I left an hour ago. Probably hasn't even looked up from his game to realize I'm gone. And the worst part? I already know when I go back, I'll act like everything's fine.

It's such a specific type of heartbreak - loving someone who doesn't love you back but stays anyway. Because that's the thing: he stays. He's still here. Still says "goodnight." Still goes through the motions. But that's all they are - motions.

I keep a list in my notes app of all the signs I try to ignore:

How he takes hours to reply to my texts but I can see him active online.

The fact that he hasn't said "I love you" in months, just replies "you too" when I say it.

How he only wants to see me when it's convenient for him.

The way he talks about his future without mentioning me in it.

You know what the worst part is? I'm not even angry at him. I'm angry at myself. For staying. For making excuses. For thinking maybe if I love him hard enough, he'll start loving me back. For becoming the kind of person who checks their boyfriend's likes on Instagram at 3am, looking for signs of what I already know.

Tonight he asked what I wanted for dinner like everything was normal. Like I hadn't spent the whole day crying in my car because he forgot my birthday. Like he hadn't introduced me as his "friend" at last week's party. Like I haven't been dying inside every time he pulls away when I try to hold his hand in public.

My best friend keeps asking why I stay. I wish I had a better answer than "because I love him." But that's the whole stupid truth. I love him. I love him so much it physically hurts. I love him even though I know - I KNOW - he doesn't love me back.

Do you know how pathetic it feels to plan your whole day around someone who probably doesn't think about you at all? To get excited when they text you first, only to realize they just need something? To lie awake at night wondering what she has that you don't? (Because there's always a "she" - the one they like on every post, the one they talk about a little too much, the one they light up around in a way they never do with you.)

The dumbest part is that I keep waiting for some big dramatic moment. Like maybe one day it'll get so bad that leaving will feel like the only option. But it's not big dramatic moments. It's small things. It's a thousand paper cuts of indifference.

It's the way he doesn't ask about my day.

It's the half-hearted hugs.

It's the "maybe next time" when I suggest doing something together.

It's the way he can go weeks without seeing me and it doesn't bother him at all.

It's how he never puts his phone down when we're together.

It's the fact that I can't remember the last time he was excited to see me.

My mom always said you should be with someone who loves you as much as you love them. I used to think that was just something people say. Now I understand. Now I know exactly what she meant. Because this? This isn't it.

But here's the really messed up part - I'm still hoping things will change. Still analyzing every tiny gesture for signs that maybe he's starting to feel something real. Still trying to be the perfect girlfriend, like if I just try hard enough, he'll suddenly realize he loves me too.

I know how this ends. I've read this story before. I'm not stupid. I know he's never going to wake up one day and suddenly love me the way I love him. I know I deserve better than someone who makes me feel like an option.

But knowing you deserve better and actually leaving are two very different things.

So here I am, sitting in my car, writing this post. And in a few minutes, I'll go back upstairs. He won't ask where I've been. I won't tell him I've been crying. We'll go to sleep on opposite sides of the bed, and tomorrow we'll wake up and do it all again.

Because sometimes the hardest part isn't loving someone who doesn't love you back.

It's knowing they don't love you back and staying anyway.

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bellysoupset · 9 months ago

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For the mini-fic, could I ask for tight loud belly gurgles with sick Jon and Leo? (If Luke and Bell were there too would be super fun, but whatever works for the scenario, I love me some sick Jon).✨️💙 @writing-whump

Making the most out of my little weekend at the cabin scenery!

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"C'mere," Leo chuckled, grabbing the back of Jonah's sweater and tugging on it with all his force, causing the other man to let out an strangled, offended noise as he fell down on the big cushion Leo was sitting on as well.

They were all outside the cabin, sitting around the fire pit. It was a chilly night, after a full Saturday of activities and Leo was more than a little tipsy, happily pressing his lips to Jon's cheek when the other man let out a scoff and grumbled about him stretching his sweater.

"So you're going to specialize in entertainment?" Luke asked, eyebrows raised and Leo was reminded he was actually holding a conversation to begin with.

"Not entertainment," Leo yawned, downing the rest of the wine in his mug — yes, mug, much to Jonah's horror —, "intellectual property law. Everything surrounding things people have created and must be protected-"

"That's really cool," Vince praised, looking genuinely impressed, "so authors and stuff?"

"As well as brands, artists..." Leo shrugged, then let out a surprised chuckle when he felt Jonah all but collapse against his side, completely giving up on the conversation.

He looked away from their friends — Bella was sprawled on the grass, only her head resting on Luke's lap. Leo was pretty sure Wendy had fallen asleep against Vince's bicep, the poor girl was worn after having just recovered from strep and driving 4 hours on top of a hospital shift — to Jon.

Jonah looked almost as tired as Wendy, but unlike her slack, peaceful face, Jon had pained lines around his mouth.

"You alright?" Leo whispered, trailing a hand up his boyfriend's back and frowning, tuning out the others.

Jonah started to nod, but then he shook his head, sitting up straight, "I'm going to bed," he announced.

"Already?" Bella pouted, wide awake, "it's only 9, old man."

"I overdid on the wine, I'm sleepy," Jonah cleared up, then waved Leo off when he went to stand up as well, "no, stay, I'm just gonna sleep it off-" he yawned again and then walked back inside.

Leo sighed, not happy to be dismissed, but also not wanting to go in just yet either. It was a really nice night, just chilly enough for the bonfire and so there were no mosquitos, with the stars dotting the sky.

They talked for another hour or so, Leo sliding down the daybed cushion until he was practically fully lying down, talking about work — Luke was particularly interested —, about Bella's new RPG campaign-

"I really cannot wrap my head around you playing table top RPG. Like those kids from Stranger Things?" Leo frowned.

"I'm not a loser boy and it's not the 80s, so no," Bella scoffed, "I'll have you know I'm a super hot barbarian."

"Of course you are," Vince teased her lightly, "I need you to help me run a campaign with my thirteen year olds."

"Are you on some contest for coolest teacher?" Bella poked fun at him, "damn, buy the kids ice cream while you're at that-"

Leo laughed at them, turning his head towards the large cabin up the hill and frowning as he realized the room he guessed was his and Jon's still had the lights on.

"Y'all, I think I'm going inside," Leo decided and heard a chorus of Goodnight Leo as he walked away.

True to what he expected, Jonah was still awake. The lights were on and he was lying on top of the blankets, in his pajamas, an arm thrown over his face in order to block the light out.

"Sleepy, uh?" Leo asked, stumbling inside and grabbing on the doorway to steady himself. He hadn't felt just how sloshed he was while sitting down, but standing it was painfully obvious.

"I am sleepy," Jonah groaned, "but my stomach won't let me sleep."

"Aww angel, what's wrong with your tummy?" Leo cooed, closing the door and crawling on the bed, immediately grabbing the silk shirt of Jon's pjs and pushing it up to his chin.

Drunk, he didn't bother biting down a dreamy sigh at Jon's exposed midriff. Despite Leo's teasing about him abandoning gym, that wasn't exactly true. He no longer exercised every day like Leo still did and he no longer weight lifted, but he did still go in once a week, for the aerobics. On top of that, Jon had joined Bell's boxing class.

His stomach, that once had a hard six pack that was akin to Leo's, now was soft, a little squishy, and tonight it was bloated and round.

"What are yoOU DOING?!" Jonah squealed, as Leo didn't think twice before leaning in as if to kiss his belly, but instead opted for biting it, "Leo!"

"Your tummy is cute," he smiled, pressing a kiss to where he had just bit and slumping across the bed, half his body resting on Jonah's thighs and trapping him in place, "you're cute."

"You're drunk," Jonah groaned, blowing out a little queasy burp, "and it's not cute, I feel really gross."

Leo trailed his fingers up the middle of his boyfriend's belly, as if they were walking. Even bloated by the wine and soft by the lack of exercise, there was still a concave line there, marking the quadrants of his abs.

Once he almost reached Jonah's chest, Leo opened his hand flat against the other man's skin, rubbing a soft circle there, "help- Oh ow," the blonde raised his eyebrows when his touch caused a gurgle to ripple through Jon's tummy, emitting a whine.

Jon brought a fist to his mouth and burped into it, making a face at the taste, "ew."

"Let me know if I'm making it worse," Leo mumbled, looking away from his face and focusing his whole attention on his boyfriend's belly. He continued the gentle, strong circular rubs on his upper stomach, until the gurgles died down and then moved his hands down, searching for another tight spot. As soon as he touched Jon's belly button, the other man darted a hand up and cupped his mouth, letting out a wet, sickly belch.

His tummy gurgled and whined, vibrating under Leo's touch, "sounds so upset..." Leo whispered, mesmerized, then digging his thumb on Jon's side and rubbing little circles from the side towards the navel.

"Gentle, you're gonna make me puke," Jon groaned, as his belly whined again, "Leo..."

"Sorry, sorry," Leo eased up the pressure, before slightly lowered on the bed and planting an elbow on the mattress, supporting his head with his free hand. He leaned in and kissed Jon's softer under tummy, right where his pajama' pants met it. This close he could feel and hear the constant gurgling and whining coming from the sickly organ, "you poor thing-"

"Yeah, you sound very sorry about it," Jonah scoffed, but didn't push him back, "you don't think it's disgusting?"

"Your tummy?" Leo blinked owlishly at him, bewildered, "no?!"

"But it's making all sorts of gross noises..." Jonah's cheeks turned dark with a blush and Leo let out a scoff, moving again and then resting his cheek against the other man's belly, now hearing very clearly every upset gurgle.

"I think it's super cute," he clarified, "hell, I never think any part of you is gross, Jon."

"Aren't you a romantic," Jonah scoffed, but even without looking up Leo could hear the relief in his voice. He reached in without thinking, starting to pet Leo's hair, not telling him to move, "the pressure is helping, don't move."

"Okay," Leo whispered, closing his eyes and allowing the little symphony of gurgles to lull him to sleep.

#mywriting #sickfic #queasy #upset stomach #upset tummy #intox #jonah banks #i am living on 2 hrs of sleep so this is probably riddled with typos #if you see one no you didnt (i'll fix it later)

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