#good to reblog and interact yes pls give me pets

[mechabass]

pov: you found a weird red winged guy outside. he threatened you with a sword but decided he liked u and now you are on a date. epic win

[catinasink]

Introduction

included below: what yall can refer to me as, what my posts are about, and ao3 fics. also i tend to use the queue for posts tagged schoolposting btw :) if you found this through my writing: i will attempt to update at least once every two weeks! please give this a read before following :3 send an ask if you want to be added to my taglist lols

side blog: @catinasink-writes

most recent edit: 01/22/24

name:

catinasink, or cat (no capitalization)

pronouns:

they/it ?? perhaps?? trying those out

age:

minor

labels:

agender neptunic/lesbian aroacespec (cupioromantic or grayromantic, some flavor of ace)

what are my posts about:

i tend to reblog a lot of stuff on my for you page, but i'm also in the marauders fandom and sometimes i post pictures of my cats, and also offer up updates on my writing, also genshin impact

can you tag me/ask me questions/etc:

yes! i would love that

pets:

two cats: kim and shego <3 theyre both girls

likes:

reading, writing, cats, marauders, music

DNI:

MAPs/pedophiles, queerphobes, bigots, the usual ig, also if you're over 25 i would prefer if you didnt interact with me

timezone shit:

the united states, PST

preferences for terms:

pls dont capitalize my name, pls dont formally address me

nono terms: guy, bro, girl, sis, gal, man, etc. (basically pretty much all gendered terms)

ok terms: bbg as long as you dont type it out as babygirl, any petnames are fine

i might call myself a girl or a boy as a joke. dont take this as permission to call me that, pls and thank you x

other random shit:

i would appreciate the use of tone tags if you feel like your words are too vague :>, also asks are open for just about anything

am between slytherin and ravenclaw, however lean more towards slytherin

am INTP-T if you care abt that

Scorpio sun, Sagittarius moon, Scorpio rising (I believe), as well as pandora sun, lily moon, and regulus rising

will post about my classes outside of school, which include: art, aikido, ballroom dance, math, and russian

i speak english n russian

tags:

ramblies/vents/non-reblogs that dont fall into any other categories: #cat's rambles

cat photos/posts mentioning my cat: #cat's cat

fic updates (more of my writing is on my sideblog): #cat's writing

my asks: #cat's asks

my wonderful friend @this-is-me-lolol: #basil my beloved &lt;3

posts i make at school (usually queued): #cat's schoolposting

music related posts: #cat's lyricposting

dear anon: #cat's dear anon

blender anon: #cat's blender anon

dreamscape nexus: #Dreamscape Nexus

Ao3 details

my account

i've got a good feeling that we could be something

rated T

the Selection but rosestarkillerchaser

features the Blacks as the Schreaves

the Order as the rebellion

rosestarkillerchaser, emmarlily, wolfstar

unfinished

watching pixar on a school night

rated T

a texting fic for the marauders 5th year and skittles 4th year

modern au w magic

rosestarkillerchaser, emmarpanlily/sunkeeperflowerseer, wolfstar

background benjy/peter + nobleflower + frank

slowburn

unfinished

they're so pretty it hurts (i'm not talking about boys, i'm talking about girls)

rated T

oneshot about marlene

in the universe of wpoasn

features slavic marlene!! bc that is my love >>

also ace marlene!

2.7k words

finished (oneshot)

dear angel lacy, eyes white as daisies

rated T

in the universe of wpoasn

noblesea (molly and alice) focused

has noblesea, nobleflower, and fralice (polyam alice)

slowburn

unfinished

[yenabeans]

this is for my previous reblog doing the Baldur's Gate 3 Companion!Tav Ask List 👀👀👀

this was so fun to write, I highly encourage giving it a try with your beloved tavs/durges. I'd like to see what this would look like with my completely separate evil durge Melantha, but this is Kate's

I did every one for my girl because I had time to spare, that was fun and challenging. Not completely accurate to my AU, but still fun nonetheless to wonder what would happen if she was in that timeline. Enjooooy ⏬️⏬️

if you want me to elaborate on any, pls let me knowwwww I love talking about Kate.

for notes going in, she's paired with Astarion and Raphael

General

1. Where can your Tav be recruited?  Are they first encountered on the Nautiloid, or in the Nautiloid crash region?  Or are they not recruitable until a later act?

A. Her first appearance would be in Act 1 when Raphael teleports the PC to the House of Hope. She wouldn't interact with the PC, but she could probably be seen eating at the table or watching from afar in the inner balcony. She would later be recruitable in Act 3 in Sharess' Caress only if the PC accepts Raphael's deal.

2. Do the other companions have special comments or reactions upon recruiting your Tav?

A. They would most likely be wary and more on the untrustworthy side of her in the beginning given her devilish background. Given that though, they wouldn't help but feel an overpowering charm come from her that compells them to trust and listen to her.

3. Does your Tav have any comments or advice when you recruit other companions?

A. She's good at reading people (and their minds) so she would give her honest opinion based on wether the companion would be helpful or a hindrance.

She's wary of Shadowheart. Keeps her distance from Lae'zel. Has respect for Karlach and Wyll, and enjoys conversations with Gale. She adores Halsin and isn't too fond of Minthara.

4. What sort of general actions raise or lower their approval?

A. This will be a long one. Despite her history of being in the hells and around Raphael, she's actually pretty good aligned, to an extent. She'd sacrifice 1000+ people to save one animal any day of the week, so she's no saint. But usually, she'll try to do her best to help all she can, so good deeds will gain her approval. But above all else, how animals/creatures are treated dictates how she thinks. Pet a cat? 5 approval easy. Help an animal in need? +10 every time. The same is 10x worse if actions are taken against animals. Any help to a person who has a history of harming animals/nature, she'll disapprove of (or worse). Even if said history happened a long time ago. Other things she would disapprove of are being blatantly rude for no reason, especially to people who are genuinely kind (like Alfira for example).

5. Are there any instances where your Tav can permanently leave the party, depending on player character actions?

A. Like I touched on in the last question, animal treatment is her biggest thing. If the PC were to cause any harm to an animal themselves, she would permanently leave or even start combat considering how bad the action was. Yes she would get Raphael involved, enjoy that fight

6. Do they have any secrets that can be revealed?  What are the prerequisites for this secret coming to light?

A. She has a pretty dark past, and unironically, her back is full of scars and brands that she keeps hidden away as well. She wouldn't openly talk about her past to anyone unless they were romantically involved, so unless that happens, it is unlikely.

Other than that, she has some pretty insane powers given to her from Raphael/the crown. But she wouldn't use them unless absolutely necessary, say the party is about to be obliterated. She would swoop in and save the party before then

7. Do they have their own personal quest that spans the course of the game?  Can it take different branching paths depending on the choices the Player Character makes?

A. Honestly, probably not too much since most of her time is spent in Avernus/the rest of Baator. In my AU, the Crown of Karsus is already in their possession so it doesn't really align with the BG3 timeline. Unless it's changed in this case and the crown was stolen from her and Raphael rather than Mephistopheles and the deal is for the PC to return the crown to the rightful owners 👀 Help her finish taking over Baator and maybe you'll get rewarded handsomely.

8. What do they say when the Player Character asks them to stay in camp?  How about when the Player Character asks them to come adventuring again?

A. Staying: "Wonderful, I will be with Scratch and the Owlbear if you need me. If I am no where to be found, call my name and I will find you."

if she's not with the animals, she's back in Avernus tending to Raphael lmao

Joining (space in party): "My flames are yours. Lead the way."

Joining (no space): "Your group is too crowded. My wings need space to stretch, so lose someone already."

9. Does your Tav have any escalating conflicts with one of the other companions, like Lae’zel and Shadowheart’s knife-fight?

A. She would keep to herself and mind her business as long as everyone respected nature. If they want to kill each other, she would silently watch from afar. In my AU she's also paired with Astarion so she'd be in his tent minding her business. (and about him and the previous animal quarrels, she makes sure he only feeds on her or enemies. or the companions, whatever baby wants)

10. Are there any unique NPCs associated with your Tav that can show up during the course of the game?

A. She deeply respects Halsin to no surprise. They have never physically met before, but they have spoken together through his meditations or her telepathy. And through the animal's gossip. She was deeply elated to finally meet him and the grove she heard so much about. Raphael is another obvious one. He would pop in from time to time to check on her and get updates. Her and Haarlep have a fun potential interaction with the PC *wink*

11. Are there any moments in the game that trigger unique dialogue for your character? (Like Gale’s anecdote about the barfight after you save the goblin prisoner) 

A. She would probably have some dialogue in the circus, especially with the caged displacer beast and dinosaur. I also think she would help the party talk down Nessa from the fight with Yurgir and get the eagles to give back the nest without the unnecessary killing. Pretty much anything animal related, she's there.

Story Specific

1. How does your Tav advise the player character when it comes to the Dream Visitor?

A. Much to Raphael's influence she would stress not to trust them and be very wary that they do not have the players best interest at heart. Trust in her and Raphael, they are your saviours.

2. How do they advise the player character on Raphael?

A. During the first interaction in the HoH, she would just sit there watching the player silently grinning, no doubt. Later in Act 3, if the deal is accepted, Raphael offers her to the player to aid them along (and to keep an eye on them. Korrilla needs a break sometimes)

She would sing his praises and urge them to trust in what he says. If the Player fully intends to take his deal, great. She'll play along and help. If the player intends to break into the house and break the contract, she'll be there waiting.

3. How do they react to Astarion biting the Player Character?

A. She keeps a close eye on things to make sure the player doesn't attack him. If the Player is drained and perishes, she'll express her disappointment in the spawn and prompty revive them before Raphael has a chance to know what happened.

4. How do they react to the Player Character letting Abdirak whip them?

A. She would probably keep her distance, since seeing that would potentially bring up some bad memories. But her best friend is an incubus and her lover is Raphael so she's pretty unphased to the sight by now.

5. How do they react to the Player Character taking their first tadpole power?

A. She would be fascinated and would enjoy watching the new powers in action. She would comment on how it must feel to have so many worms crawling around in their brain. (she is not tadpoled)

6. Will they stay with the Player Character regardless of siding with the goblins or the tieflings, or is it possible for them to leave the party permanently?

A. Hmmm she's not recruitable until Act 3, but she is definitely watching them from the beginning, so it would definitely have a big impact.

Siding with the tieflings would obviously be the correct path to get her recruitable. I think if the grove was betrayed, she would throw a Mephistopheles sized fit and most likely talk Raphael into killing them, but since that's not a plausible game choice, it would probably continue how the game is without her. But the later interaction with Haarlep would only result in a fight, as she would be there. (this is touched on in a later question)

7. What can they be found doing at the tiefling/goblin party?

A. Like Korrilla, she would be there keeping an eye on things. She would make sure the animals are tended to and being well taken care of after the battle.

8. Do they have comments on who the Player Character chooses to spend the night with? 

A. this is tricky with Astarion since he wouldn't really be a romance option with my AU. If the Player sought him out, she would definitely be listening in to hear his response.

Lae'zel she would joke not to get too crazy and kill each other

She thinks a night with Gale would be full of magic and an unforgettable experience

A night with Shadowheart would be interesting. She senses a lot is locked behind her facade, many deep conversations would be told one day.

She believes anyone would be lucky to be with a gentleman like Wyll, he's devoted, sweet, not to mention the dancing.

Her and Karlach would have an interesting relationship. Rocky at first, for sure, given Karlach's hatred for the hells and devils. but I think they would be good friends after some conversations. Kate would be happy for Karlach finally having someone to hold and care for her.

9. Do they have unique dialogue if the Player Character lets them die when they steal the Blood of Lathander?

A. No, but I think Raphael would show up and chew the player out which is hilarious

10. How do they react if the PC licks the dead spider in the Gauntlet of Shar?

A. name any creature of the material plane or Baator and she will communicate and be best friends with it, but nearly any bug or insect and she will run away screaming. She is shuttering and judging the PC greatly from afar.

11. What do they say if the PC tries to force them to go up on stage with Dribbles the Clown?

A. She has prior history with circuses so she will have no trouble going up and entertaining! Until they try to kill her, of course.

12. Is it possible for your Tav to be kidnapped and replaced by Orin?  How is Orin's deception revealed?  How do they react to the PC rescuing them in the Temple of Bhaal?

A. I think that would be really interesting to write about, but I don't think Raphael would ever allow that to happen. If for some super off chance it did happen, Orin's deception would most likely be broken by her mannerisms, she's very dog like in how she acts/stands idle, etc. Always tilting her head/ears in directions of noises. Alerts to squirrels/small animals passing. Her ears and nose also wiggle a lot, and her tongue has a mind of its own. She will pant if overheated. The tail is always wagging. I could go on

13. How do they react to the PC either allowing Astarion to ascend or convincing him to spare the 7000 spawn?

A. Again, this interferes with my timeline in the AU. They were alone when facing Cazador. Plus, Stari becomes a full vampire without ascending in mine 👀. based on the game, though, if the PC was there and they had control, she would be relieved to see him stay a spawn and incredibly proud. But would be intimidated/greatly upset to see him ascend and take Cazador's place and would probably leave him.

14. How does Tav react to the PC becoming a mind flayer?  Can they offer to become one themselves?  Does their reaction change if they’re romanced?

A. She wouldn't treat them any differently, appearances change just as hers did when she used the crown for the first time. She would defend them against Raphael's disgust.

She would not offer to become one, as Astarion and Raphael would both probably leave her lmao.

If the PC did enter a romance with her, she would still love them the same and would be open to the joys of the new appendages. But she would greatly miss their old self. Hopefully, Haarlep could help with that.

15. How do they react when the Dark Urge first reveals their amnesia and murderous thoughts to them?

A. She is no stranger to dark thoughts, her mind is her greatest enemy. Her thoughts are not of bloodlust but they always convince her that she is incable of being loved, ugly, not good enough etc. She knows it is not the same as their thoughts so she can't understand how exactly they feel, but she greatly sympathises with them.

16. How do they react to the Dark Urge killing Alfira?

A. She's heartbroken, honestly. She had high hopes and respect for the bard. She is furious at first for the murder, but (depending on the durge) learns to accept that their thoughts were too loud. However, if the durge acts upon their urges with pride, she is less to forgive, and the disapproval would be piling up.

17. If romanced, how do they react to the Dark Urge trying to kill them in Act 2?

A. More similar to Astarion's reaction. Her urge is to help. She'll likely use some magic to restrict their movements until their mind has quietened down. She would remain by their side, gently talking and trying different grounding methods with them.

Romance

1. Is your Tav a romanceable character?  Are there any specific requirements to romancing them?

A. It would probably be a quick fling or just another method for her to use to secure the contract in getting the crown back. Though, the more the player shows respect for nature, the harder she will fall.

2. Does your Tav need to be flirted with to start the romance, or will they approach the PC themselves if approval is high enough?

A. She will not make the first move, no matter how high approval is. She is in relationships already, so she only uses her charm if it's necessary. The PC would have to provoke the first move.

3. Are they a polyamorous or a monogamous option?

A. She is polyamorous

4. Do they have a special romance scene at the tiefling/goblin party?

A. Nope, since she's just there to spy at that moment.

5. Does the romance have different branching paths, or just one route to take?

A. If the romance did get serious, the PC probably has the option to stay in the palace in Baldur's Gate or they could take up residence in the House of Hope in Avernus. Or they could travel to and from like Astarion does.

6. How do they react to the player character breaking up with them, or choosing another character over them?

A. She would be a bit surprised to be broken up with honestly. She always has people flaunting over her, never breaking off from her. She would be curious to the reason why but respect the decision in the end.

The same goes for choosing someone over her. Though, her mind will tell her she wasn't good enough and that she shouldn't be surprised no matter the reason given.

7. What questions can Zethino ask the PC about Tav in the Love Test? 

going all out in this one

Question 1. Out of all the creatures in the realms who were or still are, which are her favourites?

Answer 1 (wrong): oh, that's easy. Humans

Response: Is that supposed to be a joke? Please tell me that is a joke.

Answer 2 (correct): she seemed pretty fond of the hyenas and cattle.

Response: You are quite perceptive. I adore those creatures very much. Though best to adore them separately for safety reasons.

Answer 3 (correct): she favours and cares for all creatures, no matter where they are from. Or how dangerous..

Response: I could not think of a better answer than that. You know me perfectly well, it seems.

Question 2. In the time a battle arises, what position would she take?

Answer 1 (wrong): She hides in the back while we do the hard work.

Response: Hilarious truly, who was it that saved your arse last time again?

Answer 2 (medium): The frontlines, she does most of the fighting for us.

Response: Sweet as that is, it is hardly fair or true. Everyone does their equal part when the time arises.

Answer 3 (correct): If she can't talk the battle down, she plays both offence and defence. Whatever part we need.

Response: You flatterer. It is an honour to fight alongside you when the time comes.

Question 3. Behind all power and authority, there is vulnerability. What does Kate fear most?

Answer 1 (wrong): the day that devil will betray and kill her.

Response: You are projecting, darling. Raphael does not stand a chance against me.

Answer 2 (correct, but disapproves): Seeing an animal get brutally killed would shut her down pretty quick.

Response: Are you serious? Yes..but did you have to be so blunt about it? You have no idea the pictures you just put in my head for the next week.

Answer 3 (correct): Seeing harm come to anyone she holds dear.

Response: That would destroy me. That is why I will protect the ones I love with everything I have until the day I die.

8. If they’re poly, do they have a reaction to the PC engaging in a relationship with Halsin?

A. She is allllll for it. Just please invite her. Please

9. How do they react if the PC has sex with Mizora? The Emperor?  Haarlep?

A. Mizora: she would be disappointed. Are you really choosing another devil over her??? She would joke about it more than anything though, no big deal

Emperor: don't worry, sign a contract with her and she'll keep this a secret from Raphael. Do you really want to sit through that lecture?

Haarlep: oh Haarlep, I've been waiting for this one. It depends on the choices the PC has made. Sooo:

Betrayed grove: sorry, no play time with Haarlep. They are both awaiting your arrival into the boudoir to kill you.

Accepted deal, here to break contract: she is all for indulging, have your fun with Haarlep, she'll even join if you wish. But make no mistake, she will gladly join Raphael when it's time to kill you.

No deal, here to steal hammer: pretty much the same as if you accepted the deal, but with different dialogue as Kate would not have been recruitable this path.

-Bonus- Accepted deal, not here to break contract, just here for a good time: she'll laugh at your ambition, breaking into her home and all. As long as you don't touch anything besides her and Haarlep, she'll gladly keep this little escapade a secret from Raphael. (she has her fingers crossed, though, but you don't know that)

10. Will they join in with the PC and the Drow Twins, or no?

A. Respectfully no. She'll let the PC have their fun with them but she will use the time to get some work done in the Devil's Den.

11. What are Tav’s plans for the future?  Do they propose to the PC, or is marriage not something they’re interested in?

A. If the romance develops into something real and the contract is fulfilled, marriage is totally an option. Raphael might even allow them a room in the House of Hope as they take over the hells.

12. Free space! Share anything from your companion!Tav au!

A. quick summary of my AU timelinethe way my timeline works is that Astarion got tadpoled and escaped from Cazador. but instead of waiting on the beach, he fled and ran as far as he could until he ran into Kate. He just wanted her blood at first but it developed into real feelings which terrified him. After opening up to each other, they set out to Baldur's Gate to confront Cazador. Before that though they knew they had to figure out what Astarion's scars said when -poof- they meet Raphael for the first time. They take care of Yurgir, Raph gives them the answers and they set off to the city. All is well until the devil realises he can't get that annoying mutt off his mind so he follows them and watches their journey as she frees Astarion, he makes his move, bang bong boom now they're all in love. Kate managed to sneak off to Cania with the help of Haarlep to weasel her way in to get Mephistopheles to hand over the crown. what can I say her charisma is like 30 or something lmaooooo

a lot of details were left out but that's the basic basic gist. a lot of its probably not accurate to real dnd lore especially around her relationships with some of the archdevils but it's my world. this was so fun to write, I've never actually written her story like this before

Bonus: might throw in some greetings based on approval 👀

Low Approval Greetings:

"what in the hells do you want."

"to what do I owe the displeasure?"

if she didn't speak, she would just begin to grab her sword and glare until they spoke

Medium Approval Greetings:

"Raphael is over there, please go see him instead"

"speak plainly"

"hm?"

High Approval Greetings:

"oh, hello. Can I help you with something?"

"there you are, yes?"

"come to chat, have you?"

Exceptional Approval Greetings:

"oh, I was hoping I would get to see you today"

"you cleared my clouds away. What can I do?"

"you always make me smile, please speak to me"

Romanced Greetings:

"hello, you. come to me"

"I am most delighted to see your face. Now let me hear your voice"

"say the word, and I am yours, my love"

[cuddlex-xbug3]

hi! I go by Heza. I'm 21, a switch and use they/she pronouns

I do be very queer :D (pan, ace, poly, nb)

yes I'm autistic, have ocd, anxiety and depression lol so I'll find it hard to interact with people but I'm open to messages, just may take me a while to gather courage to respond <3 will be more active in reblogs/tags

Likes:

- most pet names i.e darling, pet, love etc but 'girl' (eg. good girl) can vary, other gendered terms I'm generally okay with, ask if you're unsure <3

- I'm into dnd, kpop, movies/tv, music, multitude of fandoms, animals, reading, fantasy etc etc so those are easy conversation starters :)

- ✨affection✨ gimme it pls and thank u

- thighs 0_0

- soft things

- squishy muscles

- people taller than me (not a hard thing to be :D)

- affectionate biting, did I mention affection??

pls respect timezone differences and mental blocks when interacting with me 💜

✨bdsm test results, kinks and dni will be down below✨

Kinks:

praise

biting

collaring

✨kinks will be updated in the future when I feel more comfortable with sharing them <3✨

oral fixation

powerplay

bondage

body worshipping (giving)

degradation

== Results from bdsmtest.org ==

100% Non-monogamist

95% Voyeur

89% Rigger

87% Switch

83% Rope bunny

79% Experimentalist

75% Submissive

72% Dominant

70% Owner

69% Brat

68% Masochist

61% Brat tamer

59% Slave

59% Sadist

56% Pet

56% Degradee

55% Vanilla

51% Degrader

44% Master/Mistress

42% Daddy/Mommy

36% Primal (Prey)

31% Primal (Hunter)

31% Exhibitionist

0% Ageplayer

0% Boy/Girl

‼️ DO NOT INTERACT ‼️ if you are: racist, transphobic, homophobic, ableist; if you sexualise eating disorders, sexualise minors, are a minor or are just looking for a f*ck. please do not send unsolicited pics of any kind. if I feel uncomfortable I will block you.

[imo-chan-imagines]

Hi! I first wanna say I love your writing❤ honestly amazing😻 I was wondering though if you would write a scenario for streamer Kenma and his s/o having a onlyfans account together or a phub account and maybe whatever that entails👀 idk this idea has been sitting in my mind for over a week and I thought maybe I'd share lol. Anyways thanks for your time! Bye! <3

Kitten | Haikyuu!! Drabble

Kenma × fem!reader

Warnings: 18+, smut, teasing, light begging, overstimming you because it looks so cute on you 🥺, cute little outfit with cat ears uwu, fingering, unprotected sex hehe, creampie, bit of a praise kink, cockwarming if you squint, multiple orgasms, recording, voyeurism/exhibitionism, pet name (kitten), OnlyFans, timeskip, manga career spoiler, drabble, request

A/N: Thank you so much for your praise ♡ I love this idea! I would definitely be open to doing some headcanons for it if anyone wants to send that in. And I know this is, like, Haikyuu fandom heresy, but I don't actually simp for Kenma. So I found this just a little bit harder to write, and I'm sorry if it sucks 😭 But I really tried! I hope you like it, Anon 😖🙏

I just realised you didn't specify fem reader, but that's what I wrote it as. I hope that's okay??? Oh, and reblogs are very seggsy this season, pls indulge me, peeps 😗

⚠️ 18+ CONTENT! MINORS: PLEASE DO NOT INTERACT ⚠️

"Is that good, kitten? You like that?" Kenma asks, the pads of his fingers encircling the puffy pearl your clit.

You're sat on his lap at his gaming desk in a little skirt that's pulled up over your stomach, your legs spread wide apart over his thighs, exposing your drooling cunt to the camera fixed in front of you.

"Uh-huh," you hum, biting your lip as your hips move a little on their own, reebly rubbing against the bulge in his sweatpants, soaking the light grey fabric. "F-Feels good."

"You want more?" he asks, his fingers still at work, splaying and exploring your folds.

"Yes, p-please," you nod. The cat ears on top of your head brush against his neck as your head pushes back against his chest.

With a self-satisfied smile, he brings his other hand round your waist and curls his hand underneath you, slowly inserting his finger inside your entrance with ease. Your arousal coats his finger as he slowly pumps his digit in and out, curling it round catch the spot that makes you flutter.

Your eyes are screwed shut as light moans and whimpers falls from your lips, your hips working into him, sucking his finger deeper inside you.

He chuckles to himself. "You want another, kitten?"

"Mmhm," you hum. "Yes, please. I-I want another inside me."

"So nice and polite today, kitten," he muses, aligning his second finger with your entrance and easing it in.

It only makes your hips move harder, faster, until you're desperately fucking yourself into his fingers. The tension rises in your body, your walls clenching harder around his fingers. He feels it too, and doesn't stop.

"You wanna cum, kitten? Is that it? You wanna cum on my fingers?" he says softly as you're slopping onto his digits in his lap.

"Y-Yes. I wanna c-cum," you mewl, unable to control your hips anymore.

He gives you permission, and before you know what's hit you, you're cumming around his fingers, your body shuddering against his.

But instead of turning off the camera, he leaves it on. One of his hands stays on your clit, gently touching sensitive nub as he kisses and nips at your neck, while the other is wiggling down the waistband of his sweatpants.

Even with how wet you are, his touch against your clit is painful – it hurts, but it feels so good.

"T-Too much," you whimper, a teardrop glistening on your eyelashes. "Too sensitive. Please – t-too much!"

He loves the sound of your whimpering as he watches your pussy clench around nothing. It makes him even harder as he manages to pull his cock free from his boxers.

"You want it?" he asks, allowing the head to brush against your swollen pussy.

"...y-yes," you hiccup, painfully aware of your needy ache to have him inside you. "I-I want it."

"There's a good girl," he coos, lifting you up a little with his grip under your legs and aligning his cock with your entrance.

Then he slowly lets you to sink down on it, stretching your insides. All the while, he never stops playing with your clit, abusing the swollen bud as you take him inside you.

And as he finally bottoms out, the tip of his cock kissing your cervix, you feel your stomach suddenly tightening. As he waits inside you, patiently playing with your clit, you gasp, shaking as you cum for the second time.

A whimpering moan escapes your throat as you squeeze and flutter around him, your limbs going limp against him, waves of pleasure surging through your body.

"Oh, kitten. You came just from that?" he says patronisingly, silently adoring it. "Then I suppose you won't be needing any more attention."

"N-No!" you manage to pout, desperate to be properly used, and terrified he might actually leave you like that. "Please! M-More! Fuck me more!"

Kenma lets out a soft chuckle and strokes his hand across your chest, gently fondling your tits.

"You're so cute when you beg." His voice is rough as his hot breath ghosts over your ear. "But, if you want it, you're going to have to do it yourself. Fuck yourself on my cock for me, like a good, little kitten."

He doesn't have to tell you again. You roll your hips forward, sliding out of his grasp to give yourself room to move.

Your movements are slow at first, still weak from your previous orgasms. Your muscles ache. Slowly but surely, the carnal desire is builds – the one that makes you start to bounce on his cock, impaling yourself so deep and so fast.

The camera always does this to you. Knowing that it's recording, that people pay to watch it, that they get aroused from it, touch them themselves to it – cum to it, as they're thinking about being inside that sloppy, little pussy of yours. It makes you wild. Feral. So hot and desperate.

As your pussy sucks him deeper inside you, the sounds of your juices squelching around him, his restraint snaps.

He pulls you down onto his lap, holding your hips in place, and starts to thrust up into you. His cock throbs and twitches inside you at the sounds of you moaning for him.

"Fuck! Fuck – so good," he mumbles, desperately claiming you. "So good, kitten! Fuck, I'm gonna cum!"

You only whimper in response, your head blank and spinning as you're taken under by another climax, unable to move. And with your walls clenching and squeezing him so well, so prettily, it's only a matter of moments before he's cumming too, filling you with thick, warm ropes of cum.

When you open your eyes, Kenma's leaning forwards to turn off the camera, carefully holding his arm across you so you don't fall off. Cum is leaking out of you, down his cock, and onto his chair as he rests, still inside you, twitching every now an then.

He smiles, planting a kiss on the top of your head, his breaths still shuddering in his chest as he inhales.

"That's my little kitten."

© imo-chan-imagines 2021

[twinleafroyalty]

-🐶 and 🔍?-

munday no-no and yes-yes // accepting

🐶 - roleplay-related pet peeve

Okay firstly I had to pick through like five different pet peeves because I have... so many, (someone send me more of these pls...) but I think for this first one I’ll start with...

“Your character is a villain / a bully / evil / abusive, so I’m only going to roleplay/plot with your muse when I want my character to be hurt.”

I cannot stand this. 

My muses are not your personal punching bag.

Will I simplify my muses down to make them ‘do-nothing-wrong-soft-boys’? No, of course not. They aren’t good people. Palmer’s not a good person. The Brandon I run over at @jaggedpass isn’t a good person. I’m not going make them perfect people - this is roleplay, this is fiction, I’ll write them how I’d like to.

This isn’t to say that I won’t have my characters insult yours, mock yours, or hurt yours.

“My muses are not your personal punching bag" just means I don’t want my character to be constantly completely vilified, only brought up and used when someone wants something bad to happen to their muses.

It means that I don’t want other people deciding whether or not my characters are abusive, or would do something evil, even if they are villains.

Don’t come at me saying “We should write a thread where Palmer finds out Barry is gay and insults him over it until he cries”. You’re assuming that he would do that, you’re not giving me room to give my own input.

Do come to me asking questions - “What does Palmer think about other gay people?” “Would he ever be discriminatory towards another gay person?” “What would he think if he found out Barry was gay?” It leaves it open for me to give my own input so we can work together to come up with a plot.

Yes, sometimes people are rude for the sake of being rude. Sometimes villains are evil for the sake of being evil. But if you’re only approaching me when you want your muse to be hurt, and you show no interest in my muse beyond that and don’t seek out my own input on the idea, I’m going to get a bit ticked.

When that happens, my muse simply becomes a decoration for yours. Not a character with their own emotions and motivations, but merely a device for your character to be sad. It means I have to roleplay the same exact interaction over and over again, of my character being completely evil with no nuance - any attempts for me to make my character three-dimensional or dynamic are shoved aside because someone wants my muse to call them a slur again.

And yes, that’s happened to me before.

I would have people on Discord who would come into my DMs and try to make my muses discriminate against them - they would never show any interest in my characters unless my characters could do something to hurt theirs iredeemably.

“Hey, you should have Palmer say there are only two genders to my muse and mock them for being non-binary.” ...Okay but why? “BTW you can have Saturn make fun of my muse’s autism.” Why would my neurodivergent character make fun of your muse for being autistic? “Thorton should mock my muse for being gay.” Why would he?

( Of course, these are just examples, but you get the idea. )

There’s never a reason for it except to cause their muse misery.

What do I get out of my character insulting yours? 

How can I use that to advance my character? 

Do you see my character as a character, or simply a button you can press for muse angst?

🔍 - something you look for on other’s blogs

ORGANIZATION!

If I go onto your blog and it’s all personal posts that aren’t tagged with an OOC tag? I likely won’t follow! 

If there’s a bunch of reblogged gifsets and fanart with no tag to distinguish them as such? I likely won’t follow!

I follow people because I want to write with them, or because I want to read their writing, and to be blunt I generally don’t care about aesthetic posts when I’ve got a dozen of them on my dash in a row and you’re not reblogging anything I can actually interact with. If I want to interact with you and you have a good tagging system? I can filter out OOC posts if they’re excessive, I can hide aesthetic posts, I can find your ask memes tag to find memes to send in and make it easier to spur interactions.

I use tags super liberally, so if someone doesn’t want to see my little OOC posts, they can easily go and blacklist my tag, and I don’t blame them if they want to! If someone wants to send in an ask, they can look through my ask memes tag.

In summary:

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[quanxui]

tagged by @honeymeh thank you minnie! i love ur name and url <33

tagging (pls dont feel like u have to!): @fazaleas @akaashirin @volexis @silkylious @sophie-writings @lambotski @animatedarchives @applepienation @bakuushi @heartjime

preferred name. lois! but im fine with people calling me mari from marilags, that is so darned cute.

birthday. 19th november

where do you live. im still residing in my small cardboard box.

three things you're doing rn. eating breakfast, writing an essay in my head, marvelling over brown eggs (they look so pretty!)

fandoms. pjo, haikyuu, bnha, mp100, free!. im not that active with kpop fandoms anymore but i still try to keep up with svt, exo, red velvet and day6

how has the pandemic treated you. at first i thought there would be no difference from last year cause i was quarantined last year for health purposes but now im just desperate to roll around mountains, parks, and golf parks lmao. i miss my friends too. i haven't been out the house for soooo long!

a song you can't stop listening to. stay stay stay by taylor swift

recommend a movie. i love movies so im giving three! goyo: the boy general, the illusionist and mustang (it's the turkish film)

age. 19

school, uni, occupation, other. last year of hs! (if ur wondering, i stopped school last year to recover from my physical injuries!)

do you prefer heat or cold. hot/heat!! i love the sun and i enjoy food especially when it's still warm or hot!! tbh i dont enjoy ice cream that much because well, it's cold!!

name a fact others might not know about you. umm, i enjoy being put in social situations! going to/organizing meetings, organizing programs, mingling with other people to gain more connections, helping other people, working on paperworks, stepping out of my comfort zone... i love that!!

are you shy. online, yes. and...i am really shy in person but i cover that with enthusiasm and all in an effort to improve myself so i'm not really seen as shy now

preferred pronouns. she/they

pet peeves. people not closing damned doors and people not wearing a mask and a face shield

fave "-dere" type. tsundere ??

life rn. that cartoon dog surrounded by fire as he sips from his mug meme

main blog. this one!

sideblogs. @marilags @loisfics (just an archive/reblogs blog for all my old kpop fics ive salvaged around tumblr)

what you need to know before becoming my friend. im no good with chats/texts, im really dry and my head is always up in the clouds hahaha but know that despite us not interacting a lot, we're friends and i adore you!!! ✨

[huntershowl]

@alreadybrcken​​​​​ said:

8, 9, 31, 32

honesty meme | accepting

8. Name any three things about the rpc that bother you.

1) thank u for finally letting me rant about this because it’s been stewing in my mind since u brought it up a while ago. i hate when people are passive-aggressive toward their rp partners for not getting to their thread fast enough. DO NOT DO THIS. DO NOT DO THIS. it’s immature, it puts undue pressure on your partner in what’s supposed to be a fun hobby space, and it’s really shit behavior. PEOPLE WILL RUN THEIR BLOGS HOW THEY WANT TO RUN THEIR BLOGS. i’m never going to apologize for prioritizing the threads i’m most excited about – sometimes, i’m super into a particular verse, a particular pair, or whatever, and if that’s what’s most fun to write, that’s what’s most fun to write. so i’m gonna write it first. being passive aggressive toward someone is not going to make your threads suddenly more fun to write. it’s just going to make them force out a halfhearted reply because they’re nervous or feel obligated, instead of shelving it for when they’re actually feeling the thread. just. don’t do this. good lord. 2) i’ve already talked about aesthetic elitism but THAT. i absolutely understand wanting to keep to a certain aesthetic / make your blog look nice. hell, i feel you. but it becomes super obvious after a while which ones will only give a shit if your blog is also formatted the EXACT same way, just as unreadable in aesthetic. it’s a big pet peeve of mine. in general, overly inaccessible formatting – double small text, a huge and constant variety in bold, giant words, different fonts, and colors – immediately turns me off of a blog. i read a rules doc the other day and had an actual physical headache trying to do so. part of that also: I GRUMBLE ABOUT THE TINY ICON TREND SO MUCH KAJSHFKJHSF PL E A SE. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO SEE WITH MY HORRIBLE BLIND EYES WHAT TF IS GOING ON. icons are less of a big deal tho bc i don’t have to Read Them. 3) i understand reblog karma while not practicing it myself, but i fear the growing trend of “don’t reblog anything from me, ever.” it makes me super nervous and just isn’t how i do things, or have ever done things, and in a space where i’m trying to have fun i don’t want to be looking desperately through the notes of a photo post with no desc. for the source every single time a good one pops up on the dash. so i tend not to follow if that’s a part of somebody’s rules, and it seems like it’s happening more and more often lately which makes me nervous af sjkdhfsdf.

9. What is your opinion on exclusivity? Do you practice it? Why / why not?

I DIDN’T USE TO. up until very recently, i was vehemently non-exclusive, because ... like. i’ve been on tumblr rp on and off for about seven or eight years. i’m used to my favorite partners leaving without a trace, and it breaks my heart every single time. so i tried to kind of distance myself from getting so invested in rp relationships that i’d be that upset when they inevitably leave, by keeping myself open to duplicates and remaining adaptable.  but sometimes i’ll just. god. i’ll start interacting with a blog for a particular canon character and after a while, sometimes something just clicks and i don’t want to interact with other versions of that character. but even on this blog, which i’ve only had since january, i’ve already gotten burned by doing that. so i’m tentatively saying yes, i practice exclusivity, but not in an official way and not beyond a few select canon partners who i’ve got a really good and strong rp relationship with. so far you’re the only one i think? at least the only one i haven’t been afraid to slap a ‘this one’ sticker on for being exclusive. akjsdhfkf

32. Is there something you don’t know the meaning of but you haven’t asked anyone because you think it’s supposed to be general knowledge? Was there ever something you had to ask someone to explain? 

honestly i’m sure there has been – most of that stuff happened wayyyyyy long ago in my first years of rp though. but as of now, i think i’m good on colloquial knowledge

WAIT NO. WHAT TF IS SESSIONBOX

Have you ever experienced discrimination? 

on this blog so far? i have not. at least, not directly. if anyone’s been discriminatory towards me or hellhound for any reason, they’ve done it quietly enough that i haven’t noticed, but i’ve made sure to surround myself with good people so? if anyone tries they will get-a-Blocked. 

[tulpacest]

Repost, don’t reblog.

Tagged by: @ahogedetective​ , thank you so much!

Tagging: @luminaryblood​ if u haven’t! And if u have... pls link me this is my fav kind of quiz. Otherwise!! Please steal! 

Name: K/orekiyo Shing.uuji. (Sorry but,,, I’m going to be talking about some uncomfy stuff and I’d really rather it not go in the tag riuguir). 

Nicknames: Sweet/Gentle Korekiyo, Kiyo, Korey (Hagakure why...), Shitguuji, ‘shit eating worm’, ‘slug’, ‘creep show’ (I love you Miu). 

Orientation: Pansexual Panromantic (No preference.) 

Preferred pet names: I think Korekiyo would find petnames to be interesting. I... actually like that he offers the name ‘Kiyo’ on first meeting, it creates a sense of immediate familiarity between himself and his peers - exactly what he wants as an anthropologist, after all. Additionally, it means ‘Korekiyo’ is a name reserved only for his Sister - which we’ll get into later. Obviously, he doesn’t particularly like being compared to an insect or dung, and would prefer only beautiful things be associated with him. 

Relationship status: He’s currently in a fully committed romantic relationship with his own tulpa. He truly believes that his dead Sister’s spirit rests inside of him and they are continuing the loving partnership they had in life - but she does not. This is a coping mechanism born out  of impossible grief, and he does have brief moments of self-awareness. In those moments, the world feels sterile and empty. This is his reality.   

Favorite canon ship:  H E  I S  T H E  C A N O N  S H I P.   In all seriousness, I do find the relationship he has with the tulpa to be incredibly fascinating, fucked up and inherently unhealthy. The tulpa is simultaneously the only thing keeping him alive, and simultaneously destroying any development he could possibly have. He cannot overcome grief without it, he cannot overcome grief with it.  And if he just didn’t ... you know... kill people because of it, I feel that the tulpa perfectly embodies the theme of the game. A lie can sometimes be good, can sometimes even save lives - and that is what his coping mechanism is -  simply an incredibly well-fabricated lie. He’s such a fascinating and... oddly tragic character because of it. 

Favorite non-canon ships: I really like Korekiyo/Rantaro! Their interactions in the board game were incredibly sweet... Korekiyo is actually concerned with his health! He asks after him! They visit each other inbetween trips! K O R E K I Y O  H A S  A  F R I E N D ??? And I know you could read that he’s just getting close to him in order to kill his sisters... but? He was doing all of those things before he even knew Amami had sisters! 

I really... really feel like Amami is one of the very few people who would have the patience and the kindness to help Korekiyo work through the whole tulpacest situation. I... Idk, I just have this really profound image of Kiyo finally asking Rantaro if he wants to meet his Sister, and Amami is hesitant at first - like, he knows by now that... something weird is going on, but it’s okay, he trusts his friend enough to see where this is going...  And then Kiyo takes the mask down, and Amami’s heart just. Breaks as Sister says ‘hello’ to him, her lip trembling - and he finally clicks it all together and he understands. And then he rushes forwards and just wraps her in the tightest embrace, and her eyes immediately turn to glass and she just sobs because this is the first time he’s been hugged properly in years, and suddenly all that time spent hugging himself is... not enough. Bluuhhh and that’s my sickly-sweet power fantasy, eventually Amami helps Korekiyo get over the tulpa and accept death (or he supports his friend’s coping mechanism and they enter into a more complicated relationship) - either way, GOD. That’s the healthiest Kiyo ship I can think of and I Am Here For It. 

A quick note on shipping: Korekiyo is really... really difficult to ship. He firmly believes his one true love is inside of him, and he has sacrificed everything to fulfil that delusion. Unpicking it would be a long and hard process, and cheating on her is not going to be an option unless it’s like. a very very very clear one-time affair. Even then, he’s... unlikely to get completely physical with you - and falling in love is simply not an option........ at least, not right away. Any shipping I did with Kiyo would have to be delicately paced and involve a lot of plotting/threading. 

Opinion on true love: He firmly believes in it, and it is one of the only matters (asides from death) where he will suddenly start acting illogical. Anything concerning love makes him highly emotional, but he would also expose that ‘real’ love is not a physical connection, it is something that is worked on and reshaped and kneaded over time. He is extremely romantic,  to say the least, and believes that you should do anything for the one you love. 

Opinion on love at first sight: Although this is something ever present in folklore, fiction and fantasy - he believes that love takes more than a mere moment. It’s something that requires tending to - even if it begins like a hot-flash in the pan. 

How ‘romantic’ are they: Very.... Korekiyo’s appearance may imply anything but, but he is a highly romantic person. He enjoys affection, soft touches, hugs, being squeezed, giving gifts, huge gestures, romcoms, holding hands, dates... I could go on. He adores the saccharine and can be incredibly gentle when it comes to matters of love.  

Ideal physical traits: Korekiyo would struggle with this question - after all, his pet theory is that all humanity is beautiful. Beauty is alluring, and beauty is born from the soul - less so the body. However... He has an aesthetic appreciation for features similar to his own - archaic beauty, ink-brush strokes for hair, well-kept and slender. But! Tbh, radiant love overcomes any physical imperfections, his tastes bent to his heart’s desires. 

Ideal personality traits: He is particularly drawn to bright, effervescent people. Those who possess a deep, unending curiosity - who possess wit and good humour, intelligence and grace. There are many traits that he admires - just as there are many roles in this great kabuki play of life. However, above all else... A thirst for life. If your character displays a drive to survive against all odds, a ‘fuck you’ attitude to death - then his heart sings. Bravery in the face of impossible odds, an unwavering heart, hope blossoming amongst  the tangled thorns of despair... cliche, yes, but traits he finds incredibly attractive.  Additionally, he really enjoys being approached by someone else. His love hotel scene begins with Saihara taking an interest in him, after all. 

Unattractive physical traits: Hmm, again... there really aren’t many. 

Unattractive personality traits: He is not fond of people who are loud-mouthed and quick to interrupt him. He really dislikes those who shut down intelligent conversation, or think of him as boring, or refuse to pay attention. He hates promises being broken, and he will blame himself for being a poor teacher if someone shows even the slightest disinterest in what he has to say.  He also dislikes those he cannot pin down easily. If he cannot assign you a role and you baffle him with layers of inconsistencies/lies, he’s... going to lose interest, fast. If, however, he can pick up some threads of your puzzle - he’ll have... so much fun deciphering you that he’ll get lose in it.  Overall, it can be difficult to predict what traits Korekiyo is going to find unattractive since he is forever fishing for your beauty... 

Ideal date: Travelling, discussing anthropology, consuming media and analysing it afterwards... but more romantic moments are appreciated, too. If it’s an activity that allows him to revel in your beauty... he’s down, lmao. 

Do they have a type? Immensely passionate, confident & bright people!  

Average relationship length: Forever...

Preferred nonsexual intimacy: Being held/holding. I mean. The boy literally hugs himself bc no one else will... he’s honestly so desperate for this kind of physical affection that it breaks my heart on some level. Please.. someone... anyone.... hug him,,,,  Outside of this, while sexual intimacy can be incredibly loving and important in a relationship, I think he values nonsexual intimacy more. I know! This sounds! Really weird! Coming from! The self-declared rope man! But! He constantly reiterates that love does not have to be ‘a physical connection’. So... honestly - beyond cuddling, his favourite thing to do to express intimacy is probably  just to talk. Talk and talk and talk. Enjoy doing things together, be in one another’s company, revel in the beautiful connection between you both  - the real meat of a relationship, you know? 

Commitment level: He’ll literally destroy himself and give up his flesh in order to let you inhabit his body if u go and die on him. And although he indulges his curiosity  in the love hotel scene... we have to remember that that is his fantasy. In the dating sim mode, he repeatedly shies away from sexual topics/intimacy (though he expresses they are normal human behaviours and he respects/is intrigued by Saihara because of them), because it would be ‘cheating’. Then again, he does claim that he tied up a whole village of women, so....

The thing is, Korekiyo’s. Well. What counts as ‘cheating’ might be a little fluid - can he indulge in Kinbaku because he’s doing it for ‘anthropological’ reasons? How far does that card stretch? He seemed to be aware that he actions with Saihara were dodgy given how much he emphasised it was a one-time affair... so, idk. GENERALLY THO I’d argue he is more committed than most, lmao. 

Opinion of public affection: He wants it, but it makes him incredibly uncomfortable. Like. Ideally he could be physical with his partner near constantly - but he’s learned that matters of love are best kept private, and with good reason. 

Past relationships: My personal headcanon is that his Sister is around a year & a half older than him, and they have been engaging in taboo acts since he was around 13. It’s... highly uncomfortable to think about, but. Yeah, so. Considering he still thinks he is in this relationship, they’ve been ‘together’ for 4-5 years. 

[syntymatitahna]

Just idk venting and ordering my thoughts don’t mind me. S pls don’t interact with this post if you’re still lurking thx (it’s sorta stressful)

In a way I find it kind of funny that billdip would be the dealbreaker ship because, yeah, Dipper was 12 for most of the series but like… He wasn’t introduced to me as a 12yo. And this former friend knows this, probably doesn’t remember though.

(I mean the point still stands that I don’t really find shipping billdip or the like to be like all that morally reprehensible anyway even if i totally understand why ppl would be uncomfy with it and they’re absolutely allowed to be and choose their company accordingly)

But yeah, she knows, maybe doesn’t remember, that I read a bunch of billdip fic before ever watching the series. I don’t think I even looked the characters up first.

Like I was hanging on IMVU and got to talking with some guy who mentioned shipping billdip, talked about it a bit and linked some aged up shipping art

And I was like “lol that seems like something I could dig”

And I guess it was a while later that I was bored enough to go looking for fic.

I didn’t watch GF until I started thinking that I really wanted to know the backstory, I believe. By that time I’d already read several fics.

So yeah. But idk. It’s true that I don’t find whatever like sebaciel shipping or something, especially morally objectionable? But also, I don’t care about ships with like preteens – I mean this in the sense of, I’m not interested in them in a way that when I hear about one I get curious. I’ve seen sebaciel and ereri and stuff like that mentioned a lot in tags in ship hate and ship posi posts due to having hanged out in the billdip tag a lot when i was actively shipping it, but i barely even know what they are… Like… Is sebaciel from that black butler show? And ereri is from snk i think? Maybe???

So i think it’s entirely possible that if I had seen GF before reading fic I wouldn’t have shipped it.

However… It’s also entirely possible that I would have shipped it even seeing the show first! I mean honestly… Bill is so fucking juvenile… And small… And not an adult human (or near-human? humanoid? organic humanoid? I’m not sure where the “too close” line goes for me but Bill’s a fucjing triangle that’s definitely far enough)… Like… It’s a bit like how I can ship Bob/Sunstreaker even tho it’s technically bestiality and if they were a human and the human’s pet instead of robots I’m pretty fucking sure shipping them wouldn’t even cross my mind lmao

But if someone else is shipping like sebaciel, my view on it is still “you do you, I don’t really care”. I just don’t give enough of a damn to really be bothered. Presuming the shippers really do have pedophilic feelings, shipping sebaciel is still the better option. So I don’t care.

Like, urrh, yes a child predator could use something like that to groom a child but not having skeevy shipping content doesn’t mean they’re out of means. It just means others might be out of less harmful outlets? I doubt all shippers who don’t age up are pedos anyway, just like not all incest shippers feel incestuous desire. (By far, probably.)

I don’t even get where in the tits the assumption that i’d involve myself with pedos even comes from like thanks for the vote of trust, seems like i really am untrustworthy because it always comes down to people being incapable of giving me the benefit of the doubt and taking things I say and reblog in good faith.

Not that it really surprises me. I know I’m unreliable so *shrug emoji*

It was the same last time, with, let’s just call him V. “I’m gonna give you the chance to explain yourself!” Fuck that, I shouldn’t have to constantly defend myself to you just because you have no faith in me. That’s not my problem. The whole situation was stressing me the fuck out. So while I could have explained, I refused to. And that was the end of that, more or less. I’m still somewhat salty about it all, clearly.

This is why I said Kitty is one of the best people I’ve had the privilege of meeting. She doesn’t make me feel like I’m friends with a fucking district attorney.

During the last year I’ve, honestly, started to think I’d like to contact V again, but I still have too much strong negative feelings about a lot of things so it’s better I don’t. Maybe in a couple years. I mean, I feel better about it all now even tho I’m still salty. So maybe in a couple years it’ll be fine. We’ll see.

I miss brainstorming with him. It was the best thing, and he got so into shipping my OCs too (or at least gave me that impression) and it’s still something that makes me feel confident in having fun with my characters even if some people would think they’re mary sues.

So yeah, uh, very mixed feelings about that lmao.

Siiiigh. Honestly the probably worst (or best?) thing is that every time this happens (a friendship breakup that wasn’t because of the other being super racist or ableist or just generally a shitty FUCK) I realise that I have in the past done the same thing that this time was the problem (for me).

With Mely I constantly hassled her about what she posted and reblogged. It wasn’t that I didn’t have faith in her, it was that she wasn’t as SJ-y as I was and it showed sometimes because she said things that I thought were just SJ 101 Things You Shouldn’t Say, Or Even Think, Really (lol). But I still hassled her constantly, which I can imagine was very stressful. It’s no wonder we drifted apart and she eventually just stopped talking with me.

And over the last few days I realised that I was very judgemental-like over one thing V liked, and it seemed to be important to him, like shipping is to me. Well… At least I’m learning.

I really should take the matter up with someone whose opinions on the thing V liked have more value than mine, really figure out where the issue lies. I can’t really think it’s inherently bad, it would wipe away too many things that seem quite harmless? Not that I think liking it is morally reprehensible anyway, just that some aspects are problematic (‘have problems’). But the way I see it it’s more the terminology than necessarily the trope itself? Like, the terminology thing seems pretty straightforward.

But yeah I should take myself by the nape and stop being a damn wuss. So what if I get a pissy response or get called a freak again. That just comes with the territory, I guess. I just kinda wish I could use a sideblog for sending asks rather than my main, because if the blogger sets the table for recreational bullies like wwc and that other blog the name of which i forgot did, i’d really rather it wasn’t my main they’d come to. This blog is too personal. Suppose that’s my mistake for making my main my personal.

Or for having an about like that.