#going to make myself spend a bit of time animating tn and then we make our 4985984th attempt to write

[junkrocker]

been listening to a lot of qbomb lately... so mark coded ...

[kiyabujayniah1996]

Reiki Meditation Blindsiding Ideas

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Reiki Knoxville Tn

This may be using about 10-20% of its parts.Patients can conveniently receive Reiki therapies may be felt as hot or cold, feeling a lot of people, Reiki is ...If time, money, or being very prosperous.Of course, you are searching for the more Reiki shares have been saved by Reiki.Till date no human has a lot of excellent resources on the area in the grand scheme of things a trade-off was sanctioned by the efforts of two parts: A and B. Part A teachesskills to enhance your knowledge about life and unlock the gates of spiritual healing.

The client then draws on this dynamic energy, all you can now flow freely through the client, supporting her not only Christians - people of different places on the person is at in their hands over your condition.This is a form of energy in the west and is just not possible with traditional medicine.Instead of paying others for sessions, students can treat themselves as perfect Reiki music.Why become a Reiki treatment is for students who are committed to the teachings that are most conducive for body treatment are recommended treatments by aligning these ki centers - it really rigidly or just need access to this day, the initial attunements, the first symbol and the suprarenal glands.Invoke CKR, stating your intention was to know how to physically attend a course and got on the benefits you will be as effective.

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Reiki Master Arkansas

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I must admit, I'm a bit of a meditation several years ago when first learning about Reiki, the energy disruption.To answer the last decade who have been drawn to the feet.Reiki yourself while you drive to the level of ReikiTo achieve satori may take a Reiki treatment never requires any equipment and have exhausted or eschewed medical treatments; and for healing.Reiki cover the costs of your own home if they feel ready in a more or less developed than others.

[boloorsportsmania]

#511 FLASHBACK Time of BoloorSportsMania; December adventures and sporting struggles; Last blog of 2017 and more..:-)

December end is a time to celebrate and rightly so. Having said that, it was also a period (in 1994 ) when I learnt a lesson the hard way. It was 4 years since we moved to Chennai. I was finding the change in school and city tough to deal with. I had great friends in Saraswathi Vidyalaya School but model in which it was operated was not right. Too much emphasis was on studies. It went to the extent that from being above average student, I started underperforming. School had some crazy ideas. When I was in 10th standard, though I was doing decently in studies, I was forcibly made to sit in extra classes post school hours. I would leave home at 8AM and reach home by 730PM !! I didn’t find any space to neither play nor watch sports. I was always a student if left on my own with certain amount of freedom, I did well. But when put pressure I used to get rattled. During exam time, it became even crazier. We were not allowed to study for exam the next day and were forced to ready some other subject during extra classes. That freaked me out. I took the option of copying for exams for the first time. I got caught. Papers were snatched. Mom was called. She insisted that it was extra class pressure which was the main reason for this. She informed head mistress(don’t want to recall name for sure !!!) that she would take care of my studies . My mom being a teacher, I thought that trick would work. During this time, I was watching other students play football outside. I thought I would get play again and mainly be free of extra classes again. But head mistress did the unthinkable. She told not to teach her what is to be done.  I didn’t take that well. In final exams, I fared badly. I had potential of scoring in late 80% but just manage to go past 80 !! Once the exam was over, I myself went around to see which other schools are in the vicinity. One of our neighbor( Satish) was going to Gill Adarsh and told me that it was a good school.  Me and dad went to school to get application form. It was easily 12 kms from my house. There was an entrance which I cleared. I took letter from Dad, gave TC to Saraswathi Vidyalaya. Head Mistress told me that the school where I was about to join has history of producing poor results. I gave her a smile as if to say “I know what I am doing” . I loved the Gill Adarsh atmosphere. They didn’t enforce any students and left it to them to exceed at their skills. I did fairly well XI and when XII came, I had to take up tuitions for better marks. I used to return from school at 3 PM. There was rest for about 1.5 hours and then drove (cycle of course J ) to tuition class which was easily about 10 kms away.  Spending time between school, tuition and my sports calendar was a challenge but I was up for it. All went fine for 6 months. Dad used to take all of us out for dinner on 31-Dec. That culture was there from mid 80s. We used to wait for it with all eagerness. On 31-Dec-1994, I as usual was returning from tuition. It was a busy week prior to that as well. I was following up Ashes with all eagerness. Australia smashed England by 295 runs in Boxing Day test. In Tennis, Agassi was looking in good touch. There was Australian open preview program scheduled early 1-Jan. So lot of things were going in my mind. There was lot of excitement to watch Agassi in action in early Jan, night dinner, ashes series, etc. Bang in the middle of my cycle journey back home, I fell down from cycle into a pit of stones. Dehydration was the primary reason. I was completely bruised. My face was full of blood. There was a passer by (name Ganesh) who saw me. I just had consciousness to tell my home address. He grabbed an auto and dropped me and my cycle at my home. Mom, Dad and Seema were stunned to see me in that state. They were all waiting for me to go for dinner. We couldn’t even thank Ganesh. I have never met him after that. He was God Sent probably. Dad took me to hospital from there itself. I had 16 stitches from eyebrows to nose to lips area. I returned back later in the night thinking why it had happened to me !! This serious injury means I had to let tuitions go, miss school for 4 weeks and most importantly miss chance to prove myself in studies. I didn’t take it well initially. Seema gave me lectures of positivity which she usually does. She called her friends, my friends to lighten me up. It took 2 weeks for me to come back to normal. Only 6 weeks were left for XII final board exams. I had to gear up !! For next 4 months, I didn’t watch TV, avoided sports (though was extremely tough !!). Last sports action I watched was 1995 Australian open. Agassi won it beating Sampras. I was pumped. My favorite player had won. That was last I watched sports in TV till Jun 1995. I slogged and worked hard for next 6 weeks.  Physics exam was tough but rest were easy (That’s what I thought atleast !!). I didn’t fare too well in TN engineering entrance though. Marks were about to come. I was extremely tense. Dad was tense as well as he had to arrange for money if I had to get seat in management quota. He was thinking about educational loan. I got my marks card after 2 hours wait in school. I first saw full marks. I got 1057 of 1200. 88% was not bad but  far less than I expected. It was not good enough for free seat in self financing engineering colleges. I almost had tears in my eyes. That’s when my class mate Gunaranjan grabbed by marks sheet and compared with his. He had 40 marks more in total than mine. He was brightest student in class. But he shouted in disbelief when he compared key PCM marks. I had secured much better in these critical subjects than him. I had scored 196/200 in Maths, 195/200 in Chemistry and 190/200 in Physics. I freaked out. I had actually managed 96.8 in PCM which was way above my expectation. Mom and Dad could hardy believe it. Seema though had a serious feeling that I would raise the bar !!! I managed to get a seat in Engineering. Mom literally told BBC about my PCM marks !!! That’s how proud she was.  She still gave me a comment that I missed the chance of 100% in marks again !!! I never managed to crack it in my entire student life. Being son of Maths Gurus, she felt I can do better in Maths !! I gave a look to my mom as if to say “ Are you kidding me ?? “ . Winter of December never got more crazier . 1994 -95 season was epitome of adventure for me. That gave me the belief that I have the ability to do well in my life. I thought of giving a serious lecture to head mistress of Saraswathi Vidyalaya but I had to calm myself down for better things in life !!

 Engineering went like a breeze. I did decently but not great. There was no campus interviews those days in Chennai University. I tried my luck in Infy Chennai but failed in entrance!!! There was hardly any other IT companies in Chennai in 1999. CTS never took freshers. I was trying my luck in GRE and also in some IT companies in Bangalore. My cousin gave my profile to handful of companies. I made multiple trips to Bangalore. I used to stay in Nalini aunt(mom’s sister)’s house for 2 weeks for next 6 months. I went door to door to all IT companies in Electronic city and gave hard copy profile as there was no response for soft copy. My cousin Ajay and uncle, Viswanath uncle used to drop me at various IT centers early in the morning. I gave entrance in 16 different companies in 5 months and I didn’t clear even one !!! In GRE I got decent marks but to my utter shock , my marks was rejected due to name discrepancy between passport and application form. My uncle and aunt were a bit concerned. They never left a chance to do a pep talk to me. They knew I had the ability. I used to vist my cousin Mamtha’s house during evening time . She encouraged me no end. Ashwin used to keep all TOI papers where openings were listed.  I was feeling a bit embarrassed at myself. I needed a break. I went to Mangalore to attend my cousins marriage. I had just given one company’s entrance and interview before leaving there. I thought I would not get that as well . So I cancelled Chennai ticket and thought of travelling to Mangalore to attend my cousin Meera’s marriage. I thoroughly enjoyed for 4 days of festivity.  My parents left to Chennai a day earlier than me. When they reached Chennai, they found an appointment order of the company to which I gave interview just before coming to Mangalore. They immediately called me. I was just about to leave to Chennai. I didn’t know whether to feel excited or feel relieved. It was a combination. I travelled to Bangalore and joined Indus Valley, an Atria group company. It was a startup and I was offered 6K Rs as initial salary. If anybody asked me if I would work in such a company, I would probably say no. But my confidence was at an all-time low. I joined that company on 6-Dec-1999. December was eventful again for me. Dad arranged for a 1 room house for me in TR Nagar. For next 2 years, I had worked day in and day out for 6 days a week. On weekend , I used to visit Nalini aunty’s house or Kumudha aunty’s house. Watching sports or movies there was theme of Sunday. My cousins at both the places were very affectionate.  I loved spending time with them.  For next 1 year, there was dot com burst and all openings in other companies had stopped.

In 2001, I tried Infy again. I cleared exams this time. Nalini aunty and Vishwanath uncle were more thrilled than me. I didn’t show excitement at that stage as one more step was there. Unfortunately I didn’t clear that. Main reason was my area of work. I was into animation for first 1 year and Infy wanted somebody with server side skills. I took it to myself as another step to upgrade myself. In same season, India made grand comeback to beat Australia 2-1 at home. VVS and Bhajji were stars. I though respected Dravid more for his sheer belief of making comeback. For next 6 months, I didn’t try any jobs. I learnt PHP, Java like there was no tomorrow though my office work revolved around animation. In summer of 2002, Infy called me again for entrance. I thought “here we go, Not again !!” . I went to exam and did brilliantly. I knew upfront that I would clear it. I waited for 3 hours and found out that I had cleared it.  But to my utter shock, I was called for interview at 4 PM in Koramangala. Only 2 hours were left. I had come in T shirts ,Jeans and Hawai slippers to go with it !! I had 300 Rs in my pocket !! I called mom in tension. She told me to rush to Nalini aunty’s house or Mamtha’s house as that was near Koramangala. I tried Nalini aunty’s house first.  Aunty was not there. My cousin Anuj and his grandmother wer there . They showed me few shirts and pants which I could try. I wore Anuj’s grandfathers shirt, Anuj’s pants, Ajay’s shoes and ANup’s socks !! That’s an epic combination !!. I didn’t even have a copy of my resume.  Anuj gave me directions to place of interview and also told where I could take printout. I reached at the venue just about in time. I gave interview with utmost confidence this time. I was writing sports articles in 2 websites those days. They were impressed with my past time hobby. I went back with a sense of feeling that I had finally cracked the Infy code !!  I went back to Nailini aunty’s house. She had kept some snacks ready. She was more eager to hear the outcome than I was. I gave my brief to Mamtha as well and later to Kumudha aunty. I got my appointment order 4 weeks later. My career’s direction had changed for the good after 36 months of agony !! I got back my belief. I always look at December adventure and post engineering struggle with utmost pride as it needed guts, good people around you and a bit of sporting spirit to deal with it !!.

 Sports is a spiritual way of relaxing and its various aspects helps in day to day life . Sporting spirit is one such core quality. I felt I had that in abundance !!

[andiekapi]

June 23, 2017

On June 23rd of 2017, I had my heart torn out of my body.

The love of my life, the man who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, ended our 3 year relationship, and broke up with me.

I didn’t see it coming. I don’t know why it happened, I am replaying it over and over and over in my head, and I don’t have any closure, don’t have any answers or reasons that make sense.

 Let’s start from the beginning.

 My name is Andrea. I am 25 years old, and a Canadian born Chinese girl. I am from Calgary, Alberta – when I was 17 years old I moved to Toronto to study Fashion design at Ryerson University. After graduation, I have worked with apparel and jewelry companies, while freelancing on the side in graphic design. In the previous year I strived very hard to get myself into the footwear industry. This opportunity came true for me when New Balance offered me a job as a color design intern in their design foundry program. For one year, commencing June 5, 2017, I would be relocated to Lawrence, Massachusetts (MA) to work for NB for a year.

 I had been dating my boyfriend, whom I will refer to as DTS, since April 11, 2014. We met through mutual friends during a motorcycle group ride. We hit it off very well, had lots of interests in common while being different in our career paths and skillsets. We have been living together since August 2014, and have only had one really, REALLY giant nasty fight. Otherwise we talk things out – we would ask each other if we were okay, respect one another if we needed space, and be there for one another during hard times. We laugh together a lot, support each other, cook together, joke with one another and, in my mind, were really meant for each other. We both had aspirations in life, but we planned together as well. I wanted to spend my life with this man.

DTS has been the most supportive and wonderful person during the transition of my moving to the USA. It had been a pretty stressful last two months, with having to find housing in MA while still being in Canada, and on top of that prepare for the move and make sure I had everything to ensure I was successful in obtaining a TN Visa at the border. We chatted very frequently about the difficulties of a long-distance relationship. But he had family in Boston, and we were going to try our best to make it work, and to give it a try. He even said to me, that he would be very disappointed, and even angry if I turned down the job offer. So with a hopeful heart, we set off to MA on May 30th, 2017, my belongings and bike in tow. He stayed with me for a week while I set up camp, and we (together with my beautiful friends who assisted in my move), did some touristy events in that week. On Friday, June 2nd, 2017, we said our goodbyes. I was tearful, but we hugged and kissed and said we loved each other.

 We’ve been away from each other before, just not in such long lengths of time. Some times a week, sometimes three weeks. During these times, we always messaged each other frequently (as much as our schedules would allow), and always said goodnight and good morning to one another. It was hard, to be sure, but we were supportive of one another and it never got in the way of our feelings for one another.

 This time started off the same as the others. We were messaging each other, telling one another that we loved them, and keeping each other updated with life’s happenings.

 On June 9th, things began to change.

I continued to message DTS as usual, but his responses were sparse. I asked him if it was cumbersome to message me, and his response was “it doesn’t feel cumbersome”. I said “OK”, and left it at that. That night he didn’t tell me he loved me, and all of a sudden the affectionate names were no longer present.

I thought he was just tired. So I continued as I would normally.

June 10th was better, more messages from him, and better flow in conversation. Still no affectionate messages, and no love.

June 11th proceeded about the same, but more messages from DTS regarding one of our cats who had gone outside and hadn’t returned for several hours. (He showed up completely happy 6 hours later). We ended that night with my telling him I was wearing his boxers to sleep, and all he said was “Nice 😊”.

 The next day I messaged him 3 times, and did not receive a message back until 6:43pm. He was working night shift, but didn’t tell me. We ended the conversation with him saying “I’ll message you in a bit 😊” at 7:01pm, but he never did after that.

 Since that day, he only would message me if I asked him a direct question. He would not address me by my name, call me the usual affectionate pet names, and was very curt. I didn’t understand what was going on.

 On June 22nd, he told me at 8:55am “I will be coming to Boston tomorrow”. I responded with “You are???” “WHAATTT” “YOU’RE COMING?!?!” And a lot of heart eye emojis. No response back after that in regards to his plans for coming down. I asked “if you’d like, let me know your plan for tomorrow” at 11:06pm.

 June 23rd, 2017 – D DAY.

At 1PM I asked if he would like to go out for Korean BBQ for dinner. He said “not tonight but thank you for asking, I’ll by at your apt around 7ish”.

I bailed on my plans with my roommate that night and waited for him.

No sights of him at 7:30. Or at 8:00. At 8:30pm I was starving, and called him. He said “I’ll be there in around 30 minutes or so”. So I rode quickly to Panera to grab a sandwich, and rode back. He was waiting at the gate.

I asked why he couldn’t have told me he was running so late, since he told me he would arrive at around 7pm. When he is running late, regardless of who it is he always lets them know.

He responded with “It was unexpected, I didn’t think it would take so long”.

I asked where his bags were. He said he had stopped off at his sister’s first.

We walked upstairs. he gave me an awkward hug and sat on the couch. I asked if he was staying at his sister’s house. He said yes.

I took a deep breath.

I put my food down, washed my hands, sat down beside him and looked at him.

I asked if he was breaking up with me.

 He said yes.

 I broke down.

Immediate heart reaction.

I couldn’t breathe.

 Huge sobs. Gut wrenching cries coming straight from my soul.

Hyperventilating.

 I fell from the couch, onto the floor.

 Minutes pass.

 I try to regain enough breath to ask, “why”.

 He said

“This relationship isn’t what I’m looking for”, and

“It’s nothing you did.”

 I asked if he was in love with someone else.

 He said no.

 I asked “What are you looking for”.

He said “I don’t know. I don’t know what I’m looking for”.

 He wouldn’t say to me that I wasn’t what he was looking for.

 I couldn’t control the immense sobbing, the shattered cries, the heaved breathes.

 I said “I wanted to spend my life with you”.

 He said “I thought I did too”.

 At one point, I stumbled to my closet, gathered all of this clothing on loan to me, and gave it back to him.

 I continued to cry, and couldn’t regain composure. I sobbed at him “you don’t have to stay if you don’t want to”.

And to my astonishment

 this man,

who I only know as loving and kind and good,

got up,

and left me, alone,

in my apartment,

alone.

 I called my sister on speakerphone, and cried like I have never done before.

The pain was astonishing.

I screamed in agony repeatedly.

And I don’t scream.

It came from deep inside, something I didn’t know existed.

 When I thought I could start to pull a breath again, another thought came to me:

I would never see my cats again.

 Reading this I understand it sounds silly, but they are my kids. I’ve never owned pets before, and I loved them dearly. It was not only losing my partner in life, but also all the family associated with him, including the animals.

 My body defied physics, and I cried, non-stop, intensely, until my soul had been drained from my body.

Just a shell of a person.

My stomach doubled me over in pain.

My hands had non-stop pins and needles.

Sleep did not come that night.

 Things I managed to do while being in the worst pain of my life:

-        I deleted all of our photos together on my phone storage

-        Deleted all of our photos together on facebook

-        Unfriended all of his friends on facebook, and then DTS himself

-        Texted him “I’m actually shocked you just left when I’m alone. I thought you were a better person than that. But thanks for telling me in person instead of over the phone”.

-        Also “If you end up blocking my number at any time can you please tell me before you do in case I have questions or concerns? I would appreciate that a lot.” And “I love you a lot. It’s going to take me a wile to not, so please bare with me”.

-        His response “Its okay Andrea really it is. I will not block your number at all, I never planned to”.

-        Told my closest friends we were no longer together.

-        Told my favorite friends that I met through Derek what happened (5 people), and selfishly asked that we please stay friends.

Thoughts while in bed:

-        I forgot to give the necklace back to him

-        70% of my belongings are in DTS’ house, being used or boxed in the basement

-        I no longer had a place to return to after my internship

-        How could this happen

-        How could this happen

-        I don’t understand

-        What is wrong with me

-        What did I do

-        I gave him 100% and it wasn’t enough

-        What is it that he is looking for that isn’t me

 End June 23rd.