#god their fucked up beauty and the beast but mental dynamic makes me so feral

[corvid-on-the-rock]

Padme has always been, to me, the aloof princess who's relationship with war in general, in her universe, is grounded in the novelty and aesthetic of it. You see a lot of modern politicians like that, who maybe even were soldiers once and now seem to have forgotten that war is Not A Good Goal.

Imo, a good chunk of the reason she went for Anakin, and not Obi-Wan, is the drama. Ignoring for a second that Obi-Wan would never break the code like that, but also not because that's why she never had feelings for him. The flashiness, the gritty grimey 'realness', the bad boy attitude, the senseless violence and passion of Anakin was something she had never known personally. Obi-Wan always has been capable of being as violent as Anakin, but he's been tempered, he's a lot more calculated, he gets into shit, kills people, but man he almost always comes out clean. Even his death was pretty much pristine. And so was she! even after being choked out entirely, she looked pretty perfect. Her whole life and the end of it had a very curated, crafted appearance and aesthetic and that was a part of being Queen and, later, Senator Amadala that she enjoyed.

And then Mr Badass Over Here runs through, covered in sand and blood and wounds, and falls to her feet. Her personal war-dog. She doesn't want to see the horrors of war. Not that she's incapable, we've seen that she knows how to operate in the field at the very least, but that's not her wheelhouse. But it is Anakin's . He's only known violence. From slavery to being a Jedi, a man who's body count suddenly skyrocketed ag age 9. this traumatised child of a grown person who's been awestruck by her from day one? a horror of a person, the product of a lot of war? perfect! he'll worship every aspect of her (until he turns to the dark side & is "suddenly betrayed" by everyone he knows and love) and i think she knew that. Their courtship probably involved a lot of her wearing perfumes that remind him of Tattooine on purpose. She loves to see him riled up, loves the fire in his voice, *loves* the feeling of setting her dog on the enemy, never to be touched by the real violence of it. .

But the thrill she gets when being touched by the violence of him? yeah that's good shit.

listen. padme amidala is a freak, okay. ever since aotc i’ve had to listen to bullshit arguments about how awful the prequel romance is, how anakin’s a red flag, blah blah blah. that’s a smooth brain take. first of all, of course he’s a red flag. that’s the point. you think padme doesn’t know anakin is ten pounds of mommy issues in a five pound bag? you think she looked at soggy weeping anakin begging her to love him and didn’t immediately think “yes i definitely will peg him” ?? you think just because she’s a queen turned senator that she isn’t just as horny and feral as he is? anakin wasn’t even pushy about it. he was just “oh btw i’ve been obsessed with you for a decade and live in a perpetual state of emotional agony but thats okay whatever you want is fine with me haha” and padme goes “yea okay i’m into that.” two minutes after he’s assigned to be her bodyguard she gives an obligatory little “i have a bad feeling about this” and then just fucking marries him. this is a woman who wore white to a blood bath. come on.