#god i lvoe them they're terrible

[catgirljaneway]

Thinking about the endgame timeline where kathryn gets them home too late and tuvok's illness is too far along to be cured. Obviously Kathryn blames herself for it because that's sort of her #thing and I was thinking about that but specifically about her promise to Tuvok in caretaker.

Cause she didn't really get him back, did she?

And I bet when Kathryn visited T'pel and Tuvok's children before going to get Tuvok from the Badlands, I bet she promised the same thing to T'pel. I bet she promised to bring Tuvok back to her. Cause that's just the type of person Kathryn Janeway is.

So in the Endgame universe, when she brings back Tuvok but not really, can she bare to look T'pel in the eyes? Can she bare to face Tuvok's children knowing she broke her promise to them, that she brought them back their father but not whole, not safe, not really.

Kathryn used to be a common houseguest in Tuvok's home. (Headcanon ofc but whatever let me have this) His children grew up knowing her. T'pel once tried to teach her to cook (never again after what Kathryn did to her kitchen). They knew Mark. Kathryn attended one of Tuvok's children's Kolinhar's. But now Kathryn is never there because she doesn't believe she has that right anymore. She lost that when she failed them. So in a way Tuvok's family never really got Tuvok back, but they never really got Kathryn back either (a dear family friend).

T'pel still invites Kathryn over. Kathryn always politely declines. T'pel is just doing that because that's the kind of person T'pel is. Vulcans don't show their emotions, of course T'pel wouldn't scream at her or shun her. Kathryn wishes she would. Kathryn needs to be yelled at for this. Why is no one furious with her? For how badly she failed, for the promises she broke.

Kathryn still visits Tuvok (even if she has failed him and broke her promise, her need to be near him, her inability to be without him for too long is stronger than her guilt). In one of his better moments, on a good day when his mind is clearer, he tells her T'pel says she never accepts her invitations. Kathryn says she doesn't deserve to see his family. Tuvok tells her (in a far more vulcan way of course) that she's being dense. That he know the risks when he signed on to Star Trek, that T'pel knew the risks, that his children knew the risks. That no one blames her and he commands her to accept T'pel's invitations.

Kathryn does and as Tuvok grows worse she and T'pel grow closer and T'pel holds Kathryn while she cries because T'pel (a vulcan) doesn't cry for Tuvok, and it's fitting that someone should. Kathryn sleeps in their guest bedroom most of the time.

When Kathryn goes on her mission to change the past, do you think she talked to T'pel one last time before she went? Promised again that she would bring Tuvok back to her and this time she didn't intend to fail?

[hirokiyuu]

oh i forgot to post abt it but i recently finished ffxv + dlc with gf, thoughts and impressions under the cut (CONTAINS ALL SPOILERS)

NOCTISSSSSSSSSSSSS NOCTISSSSSSSSSSSSS MY LITTLE SACRIFICIAL LAMB OUGHHHHHHHHHHHH NOCTISSSSSSSSSH E LOVES HIS GUYS NOCTIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOCTIS....................

overall i enjoyed it. some part of it were so terrible but i enjoyed it. why did they kill luna abt five minutes after she finally became interesting and hten try to retroactively make her interesting but in Bad Ways

She Likes Pretty Flowers But Also Cool Stickers............... Wow........... She's A Person With Depth...........

ukn o how to make that actually a compelling fact AND make me believe noct+luna actually care abt each other? u have noct have a sticker collection he keeps and then he puts a sticker in each letter they write each other and hes careful to always do it. then id be compelled. instead shes most interesting healing ardyn (LMAO GOD I AM ROTATING THAT MOMENT ETERNALLY IN MY MIND) and fighting leviathan adn fighting for her life and i dont care abt her and noct except as Comrades Who Trust Each Other With Their Lives you did not sell me on this romance at all

promptis good. promnis endgame but wow imagine being prompto in lvoe w/the crown prince and hes your star and guiding light nad then he dies. lmao. god

NOCTISSSSSSSSSSSSS AUGHHHHHHHHHHH RAISED WITH LOVE AND CARE AND SPOILED AND INDULGED BC HE WAS ALWAYS GOING TO DIE SO YOUNG, HE WAS ALWAYS GOING TO CLIMB UP ON THE ALTAR AND LET THE KNIFE GO IN HIS THROAT, AUGHHHHHHHHH

fsr the original bulletpoint got deleted so im rewriting. naywaysy fave ship dynamic among boys is ignis being in Love with noctis forever by default and prom thinking ig is kind of hot that over time shifts to prom being madly in love w/his bestie and ignis finally wanting something Outside of noctis except prompto is noctis' so it doesnt matter. noctis/prom eventually that probably shifts promnis endgame. also gladio is there off to the side watching all this like Wow, Damn, I Am Not Touching Any Of this With A Ten Foot Pole,

i cant believe the dlc wasnt included in the base game. ignis goes blind and you have no context. insane to me. gf played the dlc in the order as they happened in the story thank god but oh my god if she hadnt. i wouldve been like ????????????

knowing noct was going to die since altissia and he didnt kno made my heart hurt so bad. AUGHGHGHGHGH MY LITTLE LAMBBBBBBB MY BELOVED SACRIFICE HE WENT WITH A SMILE AND A PHOTO OF HIS FRIENDS WHO HE LOVES AUGHHHHHHHHH AUGHHHHHHHHHHH NOCTISSSSSSSSSS

i like that ep ig had an alternate ending where he lives and i like that it wasnt the canon one. i wouldnt care abt noct as much if his death wasnt canon but i do like that ignis loves him So Much it changes the narrative. what if some guy in glasses was enough to un-doom you

we played w/jp voices on adn wow like..................... there were. Many Changes. man. its funny bc i tend to prefer en goro to jp goro but i definitely prefer jp prom to en. robbie daymond you keep changing these guys around

ardyn did nothing wrong. when he killed all those people in his prologue episode that was fine and valid. he wore funny hats about it even it was ok

side note how were he and aera moer compelling as a ship when they were on screen together for five minutes when lunoct could not sell me at All. i do kno why tho its bc they do a bit together and they clearly like each other and are comfy. They're Friends. meanwhile lunoct.................... man........................ sorry for being a hater but i cant see the romance of it at all

i do think a lunoct i could be sold on is them reuniting and married and very very ery slowly falling in love but thats not what we got. canon lunoct is nothingburger to me. sorry. he should kiss prompto on the lips

trying to think if i had any other major thoughts. the ending part was so horrifyingly rushed and bad but everyone's talked abt that already and the final few scenes from going to the throne room were good and that's what matters (NOCTISSSSSSSSSS NOCTISSSSSSSSSSSSSS NOCCCCCCCCCTTTTTTTTTT)

i cannot think abt the v final shot of him + luna w/o thinking abt the one final asw (the sun is shining / and hte birds are singing / and because today is the very last day / they will sing forever) and then i start weeping NOCTISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUU

truly i think noct is my fave character of this game. my selfish spoiled sacrificial lamb. being told that regis did know abt it made me ill. binding of isaac except god does not stop. tie your son to the altar and bring the knife down, and do what must be done. augh augh augh augh NOCTTTTTTT

[loftwinglullaby]

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[megatraven]

Imagine that Spiderman post but Alex and MC.

And then Alex finding MC and saving her after she was reincarnated.

yes. i lvoe that. i love it so much. i love the angst i love the pain and u know im a SLUT For reincarnation <33

let me deal you another one that's essentially me really just stealing the spiderman plot:

Alex isn't able to save MC. They try, gods above do they try, but it isn't enough, and she dies. Not even in their arms, not even after they have the chance to say goodbye, or "I love you." She dies before they have that chance. Just out of their reach.

They cradle her to themself, apologizing, over and over, wishing against everything for the chance to make it right, to save her.

But she's gone.

Alex can never fully move on from her. They always carry that regret, and that guilt with them. The what-ifs. The maybes. They always love her. And they try to be their best self, because they know its what she would want of them. That she would want them to keep going, to do and be better.

And then, one day, they're ripped away from their world, thrown into a strange parallel with nothing more than the sense that something is wrong- and they need to help fix it.

They come across themself, the one that resides in this parallel world, and Alex sees that they've still got their MC. She hasn't died yet, if it's to happen at all.

From the outside looking in, it seems like Alternate-Alex and Alternate-MC are just in the early stages of dating, and figuring out what that means.

Beyond them, though, there's a much bigger problem than what they've faced in their own world. It isn't just one half-titan causing havoc across the city and Olympus- it's a whole horde of titans. And Deukalion is with them- the Deukalion from their world, before he found himself at the gods' mercy and healing.

And, of course, their alternate self is in the thick of things... with her.

There's that terrible feeling again.

They make themself known, eventually, when the situation gets more difficult, more dangerous.

There's some theory that they have, that after the disruption of a particularly powerful overflow artifact in the alternate world, people from Alex's world got pulled into the alternate. It's hard to wrap their head around, but god shit is weird. They make do.

Alex, Alternate-Alex, and Alternate-MC work together to figure out how to stop the titans, and they have a plan that involves the rooftop of HERA.

Of course, things never go according to plan. Things take a turn for the worse almost immediately when too many titans appear right out the gate. Both versions of Alex try to get MC to leave, but she's always been too stubborn to let them alone.

Giving up on trying to make her go is their first mistake.

The second is when Deukalion, in his grief-stricken rage, throws her from the rooftop, and her Alex can't escape the throng of titans no matter how desperate they are to reach her.

But there's no third mistake. There's no hesitation now, just full-on determination to never let the past repeat itself again. Alex dives off the roof after her, and with help from their aura, they boost themself enough to catch her before she hits the ground.

And so she's there, and she's alive in their arms, and they did it. They saved her, this time. She isn't their MC, but she's still MC and she's alive because of them.

It's redemption. It's salvation.

It's knowing that their alternate self will not have to live with having failed her the same way that they had failed their own.

They set her down and they're unable to stop themself from crying, but she doesn't say anything about it. She rubs the tears away with a gentle touch before she takes their hands in hers, and tells them that they're going to get out of this okay.

And in the end, they do.

All three of them make it out okay, and Alex gets to go home. It's hard to part from MC, even if she isn't their own, but something has settled in them that makes returning to a world without her not as terrible.

After all, she's out there somewhere, in other worlds, alive and happy. They'd managed to ensure it for one such world. And in their own, they'll wait as long as it takes to see her again.

(Yeah ok i had to throw in a bit of reincarnation at the end there. sue me-)