#god i have so many thoughts about fwb megop

[orionspaxes]

Thinking about sort of bitter past lovers au megop getting into an angsty fuckbuddy relationship post-war.

Megs propositions OP and he isnt exactly expecting OP to take him up on it but he does. And hes so surprised and horny but also the yearning. Bc hes missed him so bad but he'll never acknowledge that, not even to himself. They fumble through that first time, unfamiliar with each other in that way, after all its been millions of years since they were together, and for so long any kind of touch between them was only meant to hurt.

Or maybe they fall into it, and move like theyve done it a hundred times now, seamless, natural, just like on a battlefield, but on this front theyre fighting with their own selves, because what the hell are they doing. They know better now. Megatron definitely knows better now. And theyre apprehensive about getting hurt again but they loved each other so goddamned much once, and its like all of it comes rushing back—i've missed you, primus i've missed you—but they wont actually say that, in fact they dont say anything at all. Their apprehensiveness over getting hurt again like last time bleeds into their actions and they keep their distance, they wont talk, theyre just burning off charge, is all.

But they'll keep on coming back to each other even when the hurt creeps up in their spark, that they get to touch but only to a certain extent, that they get to be this close physically yet so far away in everything else. Until they reach a point where/realize that all that apprehensiveness didnt do them any good, because now theyre stuck, and theyre not giving it up but they wont move it further either bc now they believe the other really is just there in a purely 'i got charge to burn and ur conveniently available' kinda thing.

And just. Ugh. Angsty mutual pining megop.