#god i actually haven't posted about it in forever whoops

[kradogsrats]

Hi ks just found your page cuz numpty reblogged

So I wanted to read your fanfics and stuff but it's all sorted by newest on tumblr so is there a way to read your whole stories in order?

Maybe thers a way but idk its like 2am I shouldave slept

aaaaa ha ha um I assume you're most interested in the Ouroboros AU stuff since it was that Rayla that numpty reblogged, unfortunately that's just scraps I've written here and there out of order... I do plan to formally write it and I have a rough outline and everything, but I'm prioritizing my other AU right now since it's shorter and has a definitive end point

The bits of written-out fic, after the original concept outline, would be loosely in order as:

Servant of Katolis (full re-write in progress because I hate everything about it omg cringing rn)

Proprioception (also to be heavily rewritten due to canon shifts)

Matriculation

Rote Memorization

Callum's Dream

Ghost

If you want to see all the random Ouroboros stuff, including other art and me just kinda flailing around, it has its own tag.

... also I just realized I should probably put my AO3 in my pinned post, so gonna do that, rip me lmao.

[utopiastri]

Fic Writer Interview!!!

tagged by @1425fivefive (forever ago, whoops!) and @miamimaiden

(this was such a funny ask game bc i did mostly end up discussing my F1 fics but I also have a Number of musicals fics on my ao3 so those do also crop up in my answers lmao)

How many works do you have on AO3?

10 in total!!! 4 F1 fics so far though

What's your total AO3 word count?

62,635 apparently (mostly being driven by one of those aforementioned musicals fics lmao)

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

who actually texts people this much (3,076) (again. the musicals fic)

you must like me for me (646)

tell me 'bout the first time you saw me (508)

you're always on my team (464)

and i'll learn how to fly (253)

ok other than the obvious outlier at the top, i'm thrilled that my four F1 fics are the ones that have made it into the top 5 because they are undeniably the ones i'm proudest of right now

insane to me how many people have liked you're always on my team!!! i was a little nervous about posting my first chaptered fic in a while and i'm so happy it got such a lovely reception

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

yes!!! oh my god i love responding to comments as much as i love leaving comments myself!!!

the only thing with this is that i do find myself forgetting to actually put time aside in my day to do it!!! so sometimes, about two weeks after i read a comment and internally squealed about it, i'll go "oh FUCK i didn't reply that comment" and sprint to my laptop

so, uh, if you've ever received a late comment reply from me? now you know why lmao

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

oh god um. none of them? i guess the one abandoned fic on my ao3 account (a she-ra fic from 2018 lmao) has the angstiest ending by virtue of the fic not being finished and no resolution being reached lmao

but genuinely i don't think i could ever write a fic with an angsty ending!!! i think at best i could plot an angty ending??? or maybe write a drabble or something??? but honestly, i really struggle reading angsty endings so it would be a rogue move to write one lmao

What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

ooooooo excellent question

honestly any of my finished F1 fics probably work but i think i'll go with you must like me for me! truly one of my favourite brands of happy ending is a reciprocated love confession and (not to spoil the fic lmao) that might be one of my favourite ones i've ever done!

Do you write crossovers?

nope!!!

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

oooo once upon a time i received a comment on that musicals fic, who actually texts people this much, that was fairly harsh on the writing??? the worst part was enough time had passed since i'd written the fic and i'd honestly reached the part of the writing cycle where i hated everything about it so i almost agreed with the commenter lmao

even today, i think the critique was accurate! but perhaps not a polite/kind thing to comment on someone's fic lmao

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

i'm trying to!!! i haven't posted any yet

i am terrible at describing things (including like. physical movement) so, so far, any smut i've attempted to write has been fairly dialogue-heavy!!! but honestly that's generally my taste in smut so i think this tracks

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

nope!

Have you ever had a fic translated?

that musicals texting fic has been translated somewhere on the internet! one of my friends in uni dug it up lmao

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

never co-written before! i am a huge fan of brainstorming fics with my friends though! either their fics or mine - i just love the collaboration of it all!!!

What's your all-time favorite ship?

god this is difficult!!! my taste in ships moves around all the time to be honest

ok for F1, it's fairly easy - landoscar do unfortunately possess my entire heart and there is very little i can do about that lmao

other than that? i do have to mention how much i still adore the les mis pairing enjolras/grantaire because i did spend a good portion of my teenage years thinking about them and only them lmao

and i spent many a year in steve/bucky from the mcu hell so i guess it's important that that goes on here too!

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

so many!!! in particular though, i would love to one day finish the first ever landoscar fic i ever worked on (the idea was that oscar and lando are friends with benefits but, through miscommunication shenanigans, have somehow never kissed lmao)

i think i'd just really enjoy the full circle moment of getting to finish that first wip!

What are your writing strengths?

dialogue!!! dialogue my beloved! my favourite thing i have ever written is the unreciprocated love confession scene in you must like me for me - writing a dramatic not-argument/discussion was just so tailored to my strengths of writing dialogue and not much else lmao

there's a reason i'm having so much fun with you're always on my team! and it's because what is a texting fic if not a fic made only of dialogue!!!

What are your writing weaknesses?

description!!!!!! tell me 'bout the first time you saw me was a delight to write but truly i don't know if i could do a first meeting fic again because trying to work out how a stranger would describe oscar piastri was a NIGHTMARE

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

as someone who can only speak english, i simply don't have a good enough understanding of any other language to do it without defaulting to like. terrible google translate

i think it can be fun to read though!!! it depends what effect the author is going for tbh

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

...glee (i wasn't even that into glee!!! my two best friends at the time were though so i wrote a couple things i thought they'd enjoy lmao)

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

galex!!! i don't know if i could do it but i really really want to one day - if only because my girlfriend's sister adores them and i think it would be fun to write something for her!

although i have also been pondering gax a lot with @jusst-you-race!!! so maybe i should throw gax in here too

What's your favorite fic you've written?

you must like me for me undoubtedly. it's the most complete fic i think i've ever written in that there's a clear plot with a clear resolution and, as i said earlier, that unreciprocated love confession/first kiss scene is genuinely my favourite thing i have written of anything ever!!!

it was also the first fic i'd posted in nearly 6 years!!! and i'm so glad i felt happy enough with it to share it because i've just had the most wonderful time in this fandom since doing so!!!

i cannot for the life of me remember who has done this so no pressure tagging @ipleadbritney and @jusst-you-race and anyone else who wants to do this!!!

[doctortonytchopper]

I can't find that post I made forever ago about the escalation from ep 60 to ep 160 of one piece bc ??? tumblr eated it but I must say I do applaud them sidestepping the usual fate of like "made this season's Big Bad too big too early and now they're fucked with how to escalate the situation", like supernatural had that problem BAD. But all in all they haven't really had to like, one up the enemy from having the raw power of god bc 1. Chaos and 2. just finding creative other obstacles each new Big Bad throws luffys way specifically, besides trying to literally just say "well all of these guys are much stronger than god"

Some of my favorites so far:

Whoops I was accidentally chasing this guys shadow instead of the guy actually (side flavor of Oh Fuck He Just Ate Ten Thousand Ghosts and also Oh No The Sun)

Too far away

Made of lava (hard to punch)

Too far away and tangled by strings

Snot

Petplay™️

He Is Underwater

Encased in ball bearing

When He's Too Close I Cannot Breathe (Although truley it is I who was killed by this villain due to evil laugh too annoying...had to skip half an arc)

Fast and hard and speaks via parrot

Lust queen soo pissed that Luffy's aroace

Ultra Poison™️

Too far away 3: picked up and carried away by a giant

I Am Tired

The list fuckin goes on and I'm only up to just past dressrosa

[lqtraintracks]

This isn't for the ask game, so feel free to answer whenever (or not at all) but! What was your favorite scene of Bolts to write? Was there any scene you KNEW would be in there when you started writing, or any that surprised you when you began to write them?

Okay I'm going to finally learn how to put text under a cut, because SPOILERS AHOY! If you haven't read Bolts yet but plan to, please don't read this post? I'm sorry! It's just... it's better if you don't know some stuff going in. <3

So here we go, spoilers under the cut:

It's really hard to pick a favorite scene. I do have a favorite moment, which is sort of weird because it's the angstiest one in my opinion, but that's why it's my favorite. I don't think I do angst all that well, or I didn't before learning how to in this story. And so I'm sort of desperately proud of this moment in chapter 13:

Harry sighs, his own gaze wandering over the surface of Draco’s desk. He hears a shout from outside the window, half startled from a tired reverie, and he walks to the sill, peers out—and sees what had Draco transfixed.

The gasp he makes when he realises is small enough to nearly be inaudible. It’s a new cut… to only be thinking of this now. When did it occur to Draco? Right away? A few days into it? Harry watches them out the window, whooping and diving on their brooms and thinks, When was it that Draco realised he could no longer fly?

I wrote that bit and then just sat here and sobbed. I just cried and cried and cried.

And there WAS a scene I knew would be in it when I started practically! I worked this story for ten chapters to get to, I'm not kidding, ONE LINE. I spent so long getting it in just the place for the scene in the Prefect's bathroom (though the actual location was a late stroke of inspiration) and Harry's line, when Draco had been about to jack him off, or get close to it, and then felt ashamed that he'd gotten so close to doing something that might have a life-altering affect on him, so that he joked it off, or tried to-- "I only wanted to toy with you a bit, Potter," to then have Harry meet him in that dangerous space of yearning and say: "Toy with me then." GOD, I had that moment in my head forever and I was just rabid to get there, you know?

But then all the stuff after that scene... sort of shaped itself after I'd written it, so a lot of it was a surprise to me too. Not the resolution of Sam's and Draco's magic; I knew where I was going with that. But I had to figure out Harry's. And all the small details of their relationship after that... I only got to those in the writing itself. When Harry comes to Draco's and they have that shower? Man, that was news to me! But Draco began undressing, and he said, "I like you wet," and I was like holy shit, yes, let's escalate this! And it gave me the in I needed to see how Draco's curse went into effect, because I hadn't seen how it was going to go up to that point, only that it had to happen. How they were together, emotionally bare, because of the almost-sex, gave me the answer, and I was like, OH. Oh, it's the love, isn't it? Which was a wonderful thing to realize. And then the next piece came after that. I did know it was going to happen after the indoor forest. I had that forest in mind from the beginning as well. But I didn't know why it happened then until I was in that part of their relationship with them.

Gosh, thank you SO MUCH for this Ask, Starry! It is a complete joy to get to finally talk about this story. <3

[luwupercal]

Which Warhammer characters qualify as "Poor little Meow Meows"?

within the primarchs: Lorgar pretty often (him digging angron out of debris and getting burnt to shit for it in Betrayer is top notch poor little meow meow as are the first four or so chapters of First Heretic), Angron but only when he's coming down from a rage and only with my personal mind's eye view of what that entails (him lying face down in the dirt like Yamcha mildly hyperventilating mostly), Konrad if he ever cries (or shows vulnerability to that extent; the dad hallucination might count, I haven't actually read the book it's from), Fulgrim but only post-daemon posession and only whenever he's super sad so basically Fulgrim only in the Imperfect short story, if they ever showed Lion Eljonson feeling a singular emotion he'd be it, Mortarion like nearly all the time, Magnus whenever things are going wrong for him (supercharged poor little meow meow that makes you the most popular individual character of the franchise sans your dad who's nearly the protagonist, whoop whoop!) ("SANS YOUR DAD" LOL), Perturabo probably has some moments, Rogal Dorn only in Flight of the Eisenstein when he punches a wall & literally nowhere else.

within the horus heresy but not primarchs: Garviel Loken very deeply all the time forever, Junior Aximand whenever he's written with an actual character (low-key but it's there), Lucius is like a strange meow meow-adjacent being that isn't quite, a lot of remembrancers (Karkasy, Delafour, D'Angelos, i've entirely forgotten the remembrancers from ATS but at least one of them should qualify, etc. yes serena d'angelos is a poor little meow meow it's like Lucy from elfen lied), uhhh god i'm struggling to recall names. There's more definitely

outside the horus heresy: Oleander Koh, i'm gonna be controversial and put down Ciaphas Cain, probably a bunch of drukhari but I'm not knowledgeable enough about them to quantify, every single meek little chaos cult growing in an imperial planet is a poor little meow meow entity (PLMME, pronounced "plummy") (but not tyranid cults), Obyron by the end of Severed (Zahndrekh starts out as a poor little meow meow but idk if he stays there by the end of Severed. maybe), the Deceiver has Lucius's thing of similar but not quite (i'm gonna call this being a "birthday boy" because the vibe is perfectly like the "ohhh i'm just a little 5'8 little birthday boy" tweet), all my soldiers are poor little meow meow swhenever i play dawn of war (i am very bad at it), i don't know anything about t'au but i feel like the ethereal caste all have 5'8 little birthday boy energy, i'm like just under 3/4ths of the way through the first Fabius Bile book but all of bile's filthy assistants (Tzimiskes, Saqqara, Arrian) all have some to a lot poor little meow meow energy (i think it's part of being an apothecary, the medical profession is VERY conductive to poor little meow meowism, only Bile escapes it through sheer emperor factkinning) (oleander is still at the top of the meow meow chart), if I ever wrote mr Lord Commander Dante Bloodangels i'd make him a poor little meow meow but i doubt he is in canon, a lot of word bearers probably, and Abaddon but only when a specific person i know writes him, nobody else

[protectivemuses-archived]

SHIPPING  INFO !! ANSWER  THE  FOLLOWING  FOR  YOUR  MUSE  SO  PEOPLE  KNOW  HOW  SHIPPING  WORKS  ON  YOUR  BLOG.

WHAT  IS  YOUR  OTP  FOR  YOUR  CHARACTER?

Mikey;Takemikey or MikeyKen (It's a tie tbh)

Takemichi; Takemikey

Chifuyu; Bajifuyu

Kazutora; BajiKazuFuyu (Fuck it, the trio has a soft spot in my heart and I can't pick. Sue me.)

Mitsuya; DrakenxMitsuya or MitsuYuzu (This one just depends on the chemistry of muses tbh)

Koko; KokoInui

Sanzu; SanzuMikey

Shinichiro; ShinxWakasa

Wakasa; ^

Izana; KakuchoxIzana

WHAT  ARE  YOU  WILLING  TO  WRITE  WHEN  IT  COMES  TO  SHIPPING ?

Honestly, I'm a sucker for ships. I'll write majority of stuff, and haven't really found anything I won't write just yet, so I'm open to at least hearing out ideas! As far as prompts, there's very few angst prompts that I am on the fence on but again, just hit me up and I'll probably be open to give it a shot.

HOW  LARGE  DOES  THE  AGE  GAP  HAVE  TO  BE  TO  MAKE  IT  UNCOMFORTABLE ?

Nothing over twelve years. My parents were twelve years apart so an age gap isn't super odd to me. It's weird at times depending on the situation but I've also grown to ship Wakasa and Senju and they're Eleven years apart I believe so I mean, I can't judge much on an age gap.

ARE  YOU  SELECTIVE  WHEN  SHIPPING ?

Not really. I can usually work my muse to fit with the partner but sometimes muses just don't click and that's about the only time I get picky. I do prefer some interaction before at least so that adds in some to being selective but not too much still.

HOW  FAR  DO  STEAMY  MOMENTS  HAVE  TO  GO  BEFORE  THEY  ARE  CONSIDERED  NSFW ?

Once clothes are coming off, then we can move on to Discord or TimeSkip it. Clothes on are still sort of nsfw but at least if they get walked in on, it's easier to cover.

WHO  ARE  OTHER  CHARACTERS  YOU  SHIP  YOUR  CHARACTER  WITH ?

I'm a multishipper. Literally, if you have cute fanart or Headcanons for a ship, I'll probably get roped in way too easily. So just take this as you will.

DOES  ONE  HAVE  TO  ASK  TO  SHIP  WITH  YOU ?

Not directly, necessarily. I'd like to say yes simply because I'm an idiot and oblivious to flirting so I'd like to be certain that if your character is winking as a flirt, that's actually the case and not just my muse taking it wrong. Though again, I'd like there to be some interaction beforehand unless just discussed in advance. But if it's a shipping meme or something, that's a little different.

ARE  YOU  SHIP  OBSESSED  OR  SHIP  MORE-OR-LESS ?

Gimme all the ships. I'm down.

ARE  YOU  MULTISHIP ?

Yes. Very much so. Every muse is different and I love seeing the different behaviors and habits by each muse.

WHAT  IS  YOUR  FAVOURITE  SHIP  IN  YOUR  CURRENT  FANDOM ?

Oh God, that would take forever. Uh, most of them are above honestly.

FINALLY,  HOW  DOES  ONE  SHIP  WITH  YOU ?

You can honestly just send me "Hey, can we ship [Ship]?" And I'll be down to figure something out to make it work.

Tagged  by: I stole this @captivemuses though they posted it a while ago, so whoops. Not sorry

[themarauderstheoutsidersandpeggy]

Hi hi hi!!! I was wondering if you could do a head cannon about going to see Hamilton with Peter?? I've recently become so obsessed but I haven't been able to see it yet ❤❤❤❤❤

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oKAY I SAW IT IT WAS AMAZING FJKAADGNAJLDFNJBAJGAJLFDF

I know every word to the entire damn musical

First of all, I hope you know that he’s going to sing along

Because such talent cannot be wasted

But I’m pretty sure that if you’re human you’ll sing along too so it’s okay

You guys find your seats and you know what you’re in the worst section but that doesn’t mATTER

You’re just kind of freaking out inside bc holy crap Peter are you seeing what I’m seeing its tHe SeT

the lights dim and you two actually scream out loud

But so does everyone else so you’re not alone lmao

When the opening notes start to play not only are you crying but you’re also violently stomping along to the beat

I think I got whiplash from the amount of times I thrashed around in my seat when I went

And don’t even get me started on Peter’s awful rap skills

He tries so hard but he just can’t

And it’s the funniest thing

At one point his voice cracks and you’re not only crying of happiness but now of laughter

When Aaron Burr, Sir comes on, you are so ready man

You’re holding hands and chanting the lyrics ahahaha

“nEW yOrk CiTy”

“pArDon MEEEEEE”

um excuse me you guys absolutely chants along in you’ll be back

Such a good song omg

Also (big time skip) when That Would Be Enough comes on

You two

are

skooketh

truly shaken

He looks into your eyes while its going on smh I’m soft

GUNS AND SHIPS JKADNFLJADFM

He tries so hard but can’t make it but you don’t blame him bc it’s the fastest rap on Broadway

Also you’re like breathless bc how tf does he rap that fAST ARGGHHHH

The Battle Of Yorktown is an experience

Peter screams the cuss words as loud as possible bc this is his only chance

Okay the cabinet battles are the best omg

You and Peter always take the same person in each so one of you is Hamilton and the other is Jefferson and you do it live too omg

It’s the purest thing 

And during Say No To This Peter puts his hand on your tHIGH

FBHDALNFKADBJFLAN

Tease

During the Reynolds Pamphlet you both echo the main lines and blend in with the background dialogue

I’m not sure who cries more during burn, you or him

But you’re both hugging each other and sobbing 

When the hamilson dies you are counting in french and then break out into tears halfway through

“Un deux trois quatre cinq six sept huit….. Sept huit.. OH MY GOD FBHKFJNKFAJDNF I NEED CLOSURE”

^look at me being all french I didn’t even have to look that up bc i sPEAK FRENCH 

At one point during Best of Wives and Best of Women you slide over into his arms and you’re still there when the play ends lmao

And during The World Was Wide Enough you feel him shaking fjadkndaf

Also during Who Lives, Who Dies, Who Tells Your Story you fall out of your chair

Whoops

When the lights go up and the actors and actresses bow you two lose your actual voices

You’re screaming and clapping so loud aaaa

And you are treated to a signed program by your man :’)

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[unsettledink]

Oh man I wasn't tagged but the memories hit me so I rambled a little whoops. (Okay I rambled a lot and went off on tangents, whatever.)

8/19/19

It was an accident.

It was ALL an accident.

There was a theater near me that said it was playing Into the Spiderverse, I assumed as one of the random non new releases it sometimes had. I'd been mad about missing it, so great!

The website was wrong. They were playing Far From Home. I hadn't planned on seeing that; despite seeing all but one MCU movie in theater since Iron Man 2, I left the theater mad after Infinity War and wasn't giving them another chance. But ugh I'd already driven forty minutes and fuck it, I'll just watch.

And then Quentin Beck said "Hi Honey" like an asshole and looked at Peter like he wanted to devour him. RIP me. It was the last week they were playing it and I went three times.

So I'm busy reading every last Peter/Quentin fic I can find (so few) and read @learned-foot's "What is Real?" series, which also had Starker. I liked their style, so as per usual I go to check out the rest of their work.

I'm sure, sometime back when Homecoming came out, I must have read a couple. It's the sort of thing I would have tried, but didn't stick. This time, it stuck. Next thing I know I am reading everything and WRITING again for the first time in 2+ years.

Spite writing, of course, because while I liked Starker, I wasn't getting what I wanted from the fandom. For whatever reason, the prevailing fanon takes were very different than mine. Not all of them, but enough, and once you've back buttoned out of a couple dozen fics in one day... You know how they like to say 'well if you want to read it, write it!' (which I think is pretty shitty but ANYWAY)? I did.

(When I wasn't writing Peter/Quentin of course, where I was having much better luck with the hivemind.)

And fast! God, I say the movie for the first time on July 19th -

started writing Later for Later on July 28th, posted it on July 31st (because I want sex drugged Peter to still have super strength gdi! I want Tony to be utterly guilt ridden, not secretly pining for Peter all along! I want them to not end up together because of it!)

started writing Better Than on August 1st, posted it on August 25th (because as fun as pwp and handwaving the inherent issues in them getting together are, I wanted a fic that convinced me it could work. And in trying to figure out how it might, I ended up writing the damn thing)

started writing Smart, Not Clever August 15th, posted it on August 19th (because I needed a break from Better Than lol and hadn't actually touched the ship I loved more, Peter/Quentin!)

It was so much fun to actually write again, damn. Life was pretty shitty but at least I had that.

Writing Starker gave me something else though, something even better than writing. It pushed me to reconnect with old friends.

I hadn't written in so long that I desperately wanted someone to look over things, and who else would I ask first but my old writing buddies from several fandoms ago? It didn't matter that by this point we were managing a 'hi' once a year or so; when I asked for help, they were right there. Which was a whole... I had a great group of fandom friends years ago. We drifted, and I really struggled with that loss. I've never managed to remake something like that (I have a godawful time making friends to start with) and could not get over it. Being able to be like 'hey, we haven't talked in years, but...' and see that connection wasn't something completely lost forever messed with my brain in a good way.

(And like, because I asked an old friend to read 14k of Starker sex pollen smut, I ended up moving to a different state and getting a new job and living in a house they own. What even. What even.)

If you made it to the end, here! My ticket from that fateful day lol.

Do you remember exactly WHEN

you got into Starker???

I don’t mean shipping, or Marvel, in general.  I mean STARKER.  When exactly did it happen?  And why?

I’m MOSTLY looking at YOU @mrstarksbaby and YOU angel @cutepandaprincess

(But I’m also curious about YOU @sinditia and @starker-sorbet and @cagestark

and @katiebug9​ and @starkerprince​…