#god emeto fuckin sucks. my mom was sick the other night (4? days ago) and i think ive eaten like two whole meals between then and now

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things that freak me the fuck out, as someone with emetophobia:

obviously gagging, vomiting, talking about it, etc

bathrooms, especially at night

movement at night (most times ive been around people throwing up has been at night)

eating

cars

roller coasters (which sucks bc theyre so fun but i cant be around people)

boats (obviously)

burping

hot flashes/cold flashes/sudden sweats

excess saliva (this one sucks bc its also a hunger sign/abt to eat sign and its like oh boy i sure am hungry! [creates saliva to help digest] oh fuck no i am not going to eat i refuse i cant do this (doesnt eat for two days)

the feeling of hunger (v similar to stomach ache which could be a throwing up sign)

exercise

anyone leaving suddenly

greasy food

sugar

the color light green--not suuuuper big deal for me but our barf bowl is a light green color and it stresses me out sometimes

large food particles suspended in liquid that is not meant to be consumed (aka like .washing dishes)

new restaurants

ginger/ginger candy--this ones fun bc ginger helps, but im so used to ginger candy being associated with throwing up that it scares me to be around sometimes. which sucks bc ginger candy fucking rules

saltine crackers--same as prev

mint--same as prev

laughing too hard/crying too hard. begging society to get rid of the phrases laughed/cried so hard i threw up pleasseeeeeeeeee i hate it here

coughing

clearing throat

brushing teeth

flossing

really just anything going in ur mouth

swallowing anything gross (food u dont like, meds, etc)

carrots and peas (childhood friend commented that u always see carrots and peas in throw up even if u havent eaten it recently. this isnt a big one for me but if i feel even a Little not good it is hard to eat)

any food ive known to be recalled (lettuce is a big one) in the past

alcohol

new meds/meds in general tbh

rice (was badly sick after eating rice. rice was unrelated but was most of what i was throwing up)

anxiety (make stomach hurt -> stomach hurt = throw up) (this ones a fun cycle)

pretty much any movie/show/media that involves eating in Any way (this is why i was so hesitant to start reading dungeon meshi--a lot of media that has food also has throwing up as a comedic effect. it does too :3 in the first like five pages :3 sobbing and crying

actually pretty much any media .throwing up is a shorthand for comedy so often i dont GET IT

this isnt even like half of it this is just what i could think of in like five minutes .this was a fun exercise