#god I wanna write a fic studying and breaking down caitlyns headspace this act

[shioaoi]

Caitlyn is crumbling under the weight of it all.

It feels like the entire weight of the world is on her shoulders.

The people of Piltover are looking at her for safety and protection; the people she defied her mother to serve. The merchant houses are looking at her, expecting her to step up and be the leader of her house like her mother was, yet she and her mother never saw eye to eye, unable to agree on thing and yet so deeply loved eachother. The council is looking to her to resolve the cities conflicts, wanting her to be a part of a game she never wanted to be a part of.

She's crumbling under the hatred, the anger, the guilt.

She's the cause of all of this - because she didn't just be the daughter of house kiramman; because she had to stick her nose in places she shouldn't have; because she fell in love.

Her affection for Vi caused her to hesitate, made her not take the shot. And now she is desperate to fix things as it all slips between her fingers. She has to fix things because that is what she has to do as leader of the Kirammans, no matter the cost.

But at least she has Vi, who understands her pain, understands her part in all of this. They're together; can burden that weight together. They will set things right.

That's not how it goes though, because a single act of kindness caused a young girl to become involved.

Vi won't let another child become like her, like Jinx. Won't let someone else go through that same trauma. She has to stop this despite being willing to let Caitlyn kill her to get to Jinx.

But Caitlyn is already too far gone. She was so close to being free of it all - avenging her mother, righting the wrongs caused by her meddling. And the one who was supposed to be there, shouldering it with her, won't let it end.

It's the last straw. Vi was all she had, the one good thing to come out of all this pain and misery, the only person who didn't expect things from her because of her name and status. She should understand, why didn't she understand.

So she has to go. Caitlyn can't let this girl mess everything up. She has to rebuilt up these walls, become what her mother always wanted her to be.

Become what Piltover is expecting her to be.