#god 15 is so stupid flawed but it's also so damn special and beautiful in a way I don't even know how they managed

[aberooski]

I realized this back when I last replayed the game a few months ago, but I cannot believe it took me 7 years to realize that camping and caravans in FF15 was them bringing back using tents and cabins on the overworld to recover your stats like in the old games 🤦‍♀️

[dreamypeaches]

let’s hear it for the boy | jj maybank x reader

summary: you take on the role of jj’s hype woman as his insecurities begin to overwhelm him.

warnings: alcohol use, cursing, allusions to sex

word count: 2k

a/n: i listened to this song (let’s hear it for the boys by deniece williams) on the way to work the other day and couldn’t stop thinking about how much it applies to jj. so here’s this tooth rotting fluff fic. i threw another parks and rec reference in. idk what it is but jj and his girl give me subtle april and andy vibes. enjoy :)

This was not the first time you had ended up like this with JJ. Curled up on his bed in the Chateau, holding him close as he complained about his dad or the Kooks or just life in the Outer Banks. Tonight was different though. JJ had fallen deeper into his thoughts than ever before, picking out every one of his flaws and insecurities and laying them out bare for you.

You listened with a frown on your face as your boyfriend continued to shit on himself. Usually you would stay quiet, inserting kind words here and there, but letting him vent to you until he was finished or he fell asleep. Tonight, however, you had to interrupt when JJ took it too far.

“I’m such a piece of shit, Y/N, why are you even with me? You should just fucking leave, I’m sure you would be a lot happier.”

“Hey!” You nearly shouted, causing JJ to jump from your arms and turning to look at you with wide eyes. You sat up on your knees, taking JJ’s face in your hands and forcing him to look at you. You’d had enough. Tonight, you were going to tell this magnificent boy in front of you just how amazing he is.

“I love you, JJ! I’m not going anywhere! You are the most amazing person I have ever met!”

JJ’s eyes softened slightly at the words, but right now is insecurity was louder than your voice.

“You shouldn’t be with a guy like me. I’m going to hurt you, Y/N. I’m going to say something I don’t mean and fuck it all up because that’s just who I am. I’m just a dirty Pogue from the Cut.”

You released his head and shook your own.

“JJ, you can’t really believe that.” You spoke. Words of encouragement and adoration tumbled from your lips as you began to discuss exactly why JJ was the best man in the world.

He ain't got much to say

But he loves me, loves me, loves me

I know that he loves me anyway

JJ always had a way with words. He could lie his way out of any situation and charm himself into another one. Hell, he had found a way to charm you into his life. But when he finally had you, he started falling for you hard. The words suddenly became stuck in his throat, all the love and emotions he felt for you falling to the wayside. It frustrated him, not being able to find the words to tell you how much he loved you. You knew though.

With you, JJ didn’t have a way with words, he had a way of making you feel loved with just a single touch. The way he held you close to him at a Kegger, his hand in yours helping you onto the Pogue, the passionate kisses and bruising grip on your hips as he pounded into you. He didn’t have to say it. You knew he loved you, beyond a doubt.

And maybe he don't dress fine

But I don't really mind

'Cause every time he pulls me near

I just wanna cheer

Your sister was getting married, and all the Pogues were invited. Standing in your bridesmaids dress by your parents at the entrance to the venue, you saw the familiar orange van pull up and the door slide open. John B jumped out with Sarah, wearing a nice shirt and pants that his girlfriend surely picked out for him. Pope was next, and you recognized the suit he was wearing as the same one he wore to his scholarship interview. In a beautiful, but simple sundress, Kiara popped out behind Pope. Trailing behind them, your eyes softened at your boyfriend, who wore the only button up shirt he owned with a pair of khaki cargo shorts, his usual black boots, and his signature red hat sitting backward on his head. You felt your mother tense up beside you, leaning over to whisper in your ear, “What on earth is JJ wearing?”

You ignored your mom, too busy grinning at your approaching boyfriend. His grin was just as wide, scooping you up in his arms and kissing you hard.

“Hello my beautiful girlfriend!”

“Hi my interestingly dressed boyfriend.” He put you down, stepping back and looking down at himself before meeting your eyes.

“What’s wrong with my outfit?” He questioned with a furrowed brow. You giggled and pulled him back to you, shaking your head.

“Nothing, baby, you look amazing,” You said truthfully.

“Damn right I do.”

Let's hear it for the boy

Let's give the boy a hand

Let's hear it for my baby

JJ buried his face in your chest as you spoke. You ran your finger though his hair, feeling him groan as you finish talking about the wedding.

“God, that fit was so terrible.”

“Yeah, it was, but it was also super adorable, just like you.”

He groaned again making you giggle.

“Do remember what happened at the reception though?” You asked. He shook his head and peeked up at you. A small smile on your face, you recount the night with stars in your eyes.

You know you gotta understand

Maybe he's no Romeo

But he's my loving one-man show

Let's hear it for the boy

JJ held you close on his lap as you sat with the rest of the Pogues. You watched your sister dancing with her new wife, a small smile on your face. Kiara poked you, stealing your attention away.

“So, when are you two gonna tie the knot?” She asked, wiggling her eyebrows. The hands on your thighs tightened their grip and you turned to look at JJ. He had a drunken smirk on his face as he gazed down at you.

“What do you say, sunshine? Wanna get married? Wedding sex is always amazing, imagine what it’s like when your the one getting married,” He said, winking.

You scoffed, turning back around and getting up from his lap.

“How romantic, J,” You say before walking off toward the bar. Kie slapped the back of JJ’s head, giving him a look that said What the hell?

JJ sighs and stands, following after you.

“Baby…” JJ stands before you as you take your drink from the bartender, not meeting his eyes. He grips your hip with one hand, the other gently taking your chin and tilting it up. You sigh and push his arm away.

“It’s fine, JJ, I know you were just joking.”

“What makes you say that?”

You freeze looking back at him, stomach fluttering at the sincere look on his face. Taking your hand, he pulls you closer, brushing your hair behind your ear and resting his palm on your cheek.

“I want to marry you, sunshine, more than anything. I’m sorry for the shit proposal, but I’ll make it up you.”

You grin up at him.

“Promise?”

He leans down, lips ghosting over yours.

“Promise.”

JJ was on his side now, head propped up on his hand. He was smiling down at you as he remembered the night with you.

“I still haven’t made it up to you.”

“Oh you have, a million times over.”

My baby may not be rich

He's watching every dime

But he loves me, loves me, loves me

We always have a real good time

Dates with JJ were always special. He pulled out all the stops, using whatever tips or extra cash he had made that week to get you a special dinner or a gift. Some weeks were less successful than others, and this was one of them. Most of his money had gone to his bike, which was in the shop. But his empty wallet wasn’t going to stop him from showing his girlfriend a good time.

You grinned as you pulled up to the Chateau, seeing your boyfriend waiting for you near the dock. You hopped out of your car and raced down to him, jumping into his arms. After a long kiss, you rest your forehead on his.

“How was your day?” You ask.

“Better now that I have you, sunshine.”

He sets you down and takes your hand, leading you down the dock to the HMS Pogue. A blanket is laid out in the back with some pillows scattered around, along with a cooler with two wine glasses sitting on top of it. JJ helps you into the boat, kissing your hand before releasing it and moving to start the boat.

The colors of the sunset are painting the sky in beautiful oranges, purples, and pinks by the time JJ stops the boat and throws down the anchor. He joins you on the blanket, opening up the cooler and pulling out a bottle of wine, a carton of strawberries, and a jar of Nutella. As he popped open the bottle and poured the wine into the glass, you shook your head at him.

“J, you’ve really out done yourself.”

He grins, handing you your glass.

“Yeah, well, wait till you taste the wine. It was like twelve bucks at the gas station.”

“I think we can agree that all wine tastes the same, and if you spend more than $15 on wine, then you are very stupid.”

JJ raised his glass with a wink, “I’ll drink to that.”

You spend the rest of the night cuddling on the Pogue, eating strawberries and getting wine drunk, watching as the colorful sky faded into a dark, sparkling one. As you got ready to head back to shore, you pulled JJ in for a passionate kiss.

“How did I get so lucky?” You questioned.

“Nah, sunshine, I’m the lucky one.”

And maybe he sings off-key

But that's all right by me, yeah

A karaoke machine, some cheap liquor, and a very drunk JJ Maybank was an amazing combination. Being just as drunk, if not drunker, you couldn’t stop your laughter as the love of your life terribly sang Dear Maria, Count Me In at the top of his lungs. He fell into your lap, face scrunched together at the intensity with which he was singing. You clapped louder than any of the other Pogues, who were just as far gone as you, as JJ sang the final words. He dropped his head dramatically, looking up quickly to sweep his hair out of his face without touching it. As JJ took your hand, pulling you up for a duet, you silently thanked Kie’s parents for cleaning out their basement and not throwing away the shitty karaoke machine from Kiara’s 11th birthday.

'Cause what he does, he does so well

Makes me wanna yell

Let's hear it for the boy

“I love you, J. You’re the greatest person in the whole fucking universe, aliens included. You’re the best friend and the best boyfriend a girl could ask for. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you differently.”

You rolled over to straddle JJ, taking his head in your hands.

Let's give the boy a hand

Let's hear it for my baby

“I love you, JJ Maybank. I will scream it from the rooftops because everyone needs to know that I am dating the most amazing man I have ever known. But right now, I want just you to hear it. You’re amazing, JJ Maybank.”

You kiss his cheek.

“You’re the funniest guy.”

You kiss the other cheek.

“You have great music taste, but a terrible singer.”

You kiss an eyelid,

“You plan the most amazing dates.”

then the other.

“You make me feel loved.”

A kiss on the forehead.

“Cherished.”

A kiss on the chin.

“Adored.”

You dive in for an intense and hungry kiss, soon pulling away to look deep into his crystal blue eyes.

“Loved.” You whisper. His arms wrap around your back, pulling you close to bury hie head in your chest. You feel tears begin to soak your shirt as he trails kisses across the exposed skin of your collarbone.

“God, I love you so much, sunshine. You’re my whole fucking world.”

He pulls you down for another kiss, rolling you over onto your back. His hands wander your body as he prepares to make you feel as good as you make him.

Let's hear it for the boy

Let's hear it for my man

Let's hear it for my baby

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[mrstajym]

It takes a lot of courage to admit to your mistakes, for the past 15 years of being together, we actually rarely had time to date I mean when we started yes siguro every weekend 😂 but when responsibilities came medyo nabawasan. This is not because we do not want to but maybe because there was too much in our plate.

This night was extra special because after almost a month of not talking we had the night to ourselves. Not to argue or to take blames but to actually face truth. He admitted everything and so I accepted and decided to move on from pain. While he admitted his mistakes I had time to really reflect on flaws and advantage I had as a woman. I was able to address my frustrations to my husband and literally explain how mad I was for his betrayal.

Actually, It’s not easy accepting betrayal. But only a few could attest how much our relationship has been through to be broken just like that. 15 years over a distraction of pure lust? I don’t think so.

I am actually at a point where I learned to accept that not all women have self control and self respect. Well maybe because as a person I was never the type to get deceived by a man who is married. I had my share of stupidity before but i was always single😂 never did I have to cheat or lie to partners. Sabi ko nga sa husband ko maybe this is why galit na galit ako because I never knew people like them existed. At least not the same kind. Maybe it is because ako I never want to be in a situation that I will be confronted by another woman for stealing her man. Damn NO! I know my place and ung shame of being humiliated. No thank you🙂. But again, Thats me. I can fight and be hard sometimes may also be unreasonable but never defending the wrong side.

After talking and after that time apart. We both forgave each other and decided to erase the wounds in the past. Go take a better path, enjoy our marriage and parenting, we both realized how lucky we are for being blessed having a daughter who is so smart,beautiful and God fearing. Out of all our imperfections we did a good job raising her. And for that alone We are blessed.

Our relationship was never perfect but I never regret staying in it. Because I know for a fact that I love my husband and when I love I give it my all, I do not do trial and error, I do not replace just like that. I mean at least I can say that I spent 15 years in a relationship being faithful. He may have his flaws but wala eh I chose to love someone like him, so it goes with it.

In the end what’s important is AKO. What have I done in this relationship? I am not perfect of course but at least my husband can face anyone saying. My wife is true and faithful, Choice na niya kung siya ganun din😂 but ako that probably is something to be proud about.. Even if there were times I felt like revenge was an option I never gave into it. At least now that my family is finally healing I can look straight into my man and say without hesitation I stayed true to my word even when there was no reason to. I can say I love you without looking like a fraud. I stayed not because I had no option but simply because I loved him and our family. Leaving him at his worst was never an option because I was never the person to give up on a relationship just because things was not going right for me. Truth is I am happy that in those 15 years I stayed strong. If maybe for that our relationship remains unbreakable.

Not the typical love story because there was so much pain. But something I can share to my daughter, Not the best example but probably be her reason to strive better and be an improved version of me hahaha. Regardless of how my story went. I can still explain to my daughter what honesty and faithfulness is about by the time she chooses her man and get married. I can explain to her about life circumstances without skipping parts of my life. That to me is the best outcome of being me.

Where are we now? I promised my husband that I will no longer be bothered by the past or whoever involved because they are of no use and worthless as he says.

Right now, we are focusing on the love we have for each other, accepting imperfections and mistakes and moving on to a whole new chapter.

[taylorsstarlight89]

Lover Thoughts!

Hey guys in this post I’m gonna talk about each song on @taylorswift album Lover. I’ll talk about my thoughts on each song and give you my favorite lyric/line so let’s begin.

1. I forgot that you existed:

GOOOORRRRLLLLLL this song is so chill and I love it so much. It’s a beautiful song about how someone made her feel put down and how in the end she came out stronger and “forgot” the person existed ( Brb sending it to my ex as we speak lol)

“ I forgot that you existed It isn't love, it isn't hate, it's just indifference”

Also the way she says indifference is so satisfying

2.Cruel Summer

This song is so good that in my opinion it’s a contender for the next single. I love the lyrics and she talks about how she dosent want to keep secrets in the relationship just to keep it going.

“Devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes and if I bleed, you'll be the last to know”

Yes girl yes

3.Lover

THE CUTEST LOVE SONG IN THE HISTORY OF LOVE SONGS!! Any swiftie obviously knows how beautiful this song truly is. Since I’ve been here since 2006 this song hits different for me. I’ve been through every era with Taylor, heard all the songs of heartbreak and while she’s had love songs before none of them where like this. This is a love song in which you can tell how truly in love and happy she is and that warms my heart because I love this woman and only ever want to her to be happy and know how special she is.

“My heart's been borrowed and yours has been blue All's well that ends well to end up with you Swear to be overdramatic and true to my lover”

4. The Man

GO TF OFF QUEEN. This song really speaks for itself and honestly I don’t need to say much about it. The overall story of this song being that if she were a man people would treat her with respect instead of tearing her down and that’s a topic that all of us ladies can relate too. Also there’s THAT lyric

“If I was out flashing my dollars I'd be a bitch, not a baller” GOO OFFFF

5.The Archer

Holy shit, this song is stunning. This song could mean a number of things to someone but overall is a beautiful story about how someone could stay and love Taylor for the incredible person she is even when she’s had people say bad things about her for so long

“All the king's horses, all the king's men couldn't put me together again 'cause all of my enemies started out friends help me hold onto you”

6. I Think He Knows

A cute song about how you don’t have to tell the person you love about how you feel and how they make you feel because you share such a connection that they already know. A beautiful song really.

“He'd better lock it down or I won't stick around 'Cause good ones never wait”

7. Miss Americana & The Heartbreak Prince

MY FAVORITE SONG!!! This whole song is like a movie. There’s just too much in this song for me to even begin talking about what it means but it’s my favorite and I truly hope Taylor makes it a single because a music video would be perfect

“The whole school is rolling fake dice you play stupid games, you win stupid prizes”

8. Paper Rings

A beautiful song. I love how she talks about going from stalking him on the internet to knowing all about him and completely being in love also I completely lost my shit when she said dirty dreams

“I'm with you even if it makes me blue which takes me back To the color that we painted your brother's wall Honey, without all the exes, fights, and flaws We wouldn't be standing here so tall”

9. Cornelia Street

I knew this woman could write some beautiful songs but this takes the cake. It’s so beautiful and it flows so well. It’s about falling for someone and not waiting to lose them because if you do you would never be able to do what you once did with them again...in this case it would be walking down Cornelia Street.

“Windows flung right open, autumn air jacket 'round my shoulders is yours We bless the rains on Cornelia Street memorize the creaks in the floor Back when we were card sharks, playing games”

10. Death by a thousand cuts

Honestly I don’t even know where to begain with this one. Essentially it’s about how not being with someone is like a death by a thousand cuts....obviously. This is probably one of the songs that I can relate too because I’m a single pringle but it’s a beautiful song (they all are tbh)

“And what once was ours is no one's now I see you everywhere, the only thing we share Is this small town”

11. London Boy

GIRL! This is a fun/ cute song about loving her London boy and basically how she loves London in general. Also hi Idris Elba

“But something happened, I heard him laughing I saw the dimples first and then I heard the accent They say home is where the heart is But that's not where mine lives”

12. Soon You’ll Get Better Ft. The Dixie Chicks

This song. This song literally hurt to listen to. Not only can you hear the love Taylor has for her mom you can also hear the pain and desperation for the person you love to get better. I sat in the car for 15 minutes crying to this song because of how much I can relate. 6 years ago on March 12th, 2013 I lost my grandmother to lung cancer and it completely broke me because she was my best friend and my favorite person to talk to. My feelings towards my memaw are no different then Taylor’s for her mom. This song is so personal to her and her family and I want to take this moment to thank them for sharing this song with us.

“And I hate to make this all about me But who am I supposed to talk to? What am I supposed to do If there's no you? This won't go back to normal, if it ever was It's been years of hoping, and I keep saying it because Cause I have to”

13. False God

Sex this song is about sex and if it’s not then I’m dumb. I love this song and honestly I wasn’t expecting this one i mean I was shocked af when she said the alter is my hips

“I know heaven's a thing I go there when you touch me, honey Hell is when I fight with you”

14. You need to calm down.

An LGBTQ+ ANTHEM! a bop literally a bop. If I had a dime for every time I told someone they needed to calm down I’d be rich. An upbeat song about telling someone to chill out and stop being a hater

“You are somebody that I don't know But you're takin' shots at me like it's Patrón And I'm just like, damn, it's 7 AM”

15. Afterglow

Wow that’s literally all I can say about this. I love this and if I could pick a holy trinity this would be in it. Basically it’s a song about hurting someone (BTD is SHOOOOOK) and admitting that you’re in the wrong

“Why'd I have to break what I love so much?”

16. ME! Ft Brendon Urie

WOW! P!ATD is one of my favorite bands so when Taylor announced that Brendon was in this song I lost my shit! This is a fun upbeat song!

“I know that I'm a handful, baby, uh” because same

17. It’s nice to have a friend

Highkey I don’t even know how to describe this it’s cute but also could be used in a scary movie 😳 lol I love you Taylor I swear

“Light pink sky, up on the roof Sun sinks down, no curfew”

18. Daylight

😭😭😭😭 wow I love this one. Hearing this song makes me so happy because Taylor is happy and honestly that’s all I can say about this. It’s absolutely beautiful

“Step into the daylight and let it go”

Well thats my thoughts about this album. I love it some much and I want to dedicate this post to my beautiful angel, my Memaw. Miss her always

[indiff3r3nt-minds]

1.) because you stayed up till 4 am, in the cold January wind, just to stay in range of wifi, just to talk to me, like there was never going to be another opportunity. 2.) the first time you brought me a cup of coffee from your ‘second mom’s’ kitchen, you made it exactly perfect; and i realized that maybe I was not as hard to please as people made me seem to be. 3.) the first time your hands touched me, they were so gentle, with my fragile skin, and so warm when intertwined in my tiny, baby hands; I’d never believed in soulmates or whatever, but God, in that moment, I could have been convinced otherwise. 4.) you connected with my son, the second time you saw him, he let you hold him without fuss, and even fell asleep to the beat of your heart…you’ll never know that when I went home, I cried my eyes out because I was so happy that someone was able to love him the way I saw you did, in your eyes…I also cried because I couldn’t understand why my son’s own father, couldn’t even text to set up arrangements for him to see him; you showed me then and there that good men still exist. 5.) you always save me at LEAST half of your food, and even when I say “i’m not hungry” you make sure that I’ve eaten something everyday, and when you don’t get a response you make me eat anything to nourish my body; for whatever reason, my eating habits were something you were and are still determined to change-that’s a first, with anyone besides piper. 6.) when I was hurled over in pain, and couldn’t stand up or barely walk because of my stomach, you immediately dropped everything we needed to do, and rushed me to the ER…and even though you hate hospitals, and you had a to-do list that evening, you cancelled all your plans and sat with me in that hospital for 6 hours, and yelled at nurses and doctors for not giving me pain medicine when I was obviously in excruciating pain; after they finally caved and gave me some, my body was numb and we laughed the whole night at my “drugged up” sub-conscious, who was constantly spilling secrets about her feelings. 7.) i like the little smirk you do, when you’re trying very hard not to smile big because of all my stupidity, but nothing beats the warmth I feel in my heart when you finally bust out that beautiful, open, teeth showing smile; I may not see it often, but god it makes the wait so much more worth it. 8.) The little tangents you start to drift onto, during late night conversations. I may not always understand what you’re talking about, but it’s so damn nice to see the spark in your eyes when you’re talking about things you are passionate about; I wish you could see yourself through my eyes, because then you’d understand why you are so damn special to me. 9.) You never lied. You never had to. We were always straight up with one another, and could tell each other just about anything; And even when I misunderstood, or didn’t hear right, and had an attitude, demanding the truth, you never once yelled, or barked back, or even made up excuses, or tried to reason with me; you calmly walked me through what you were saying and made sure I understood every single part, and then never wanted an apology afterwards. 10.) You made me feel beautiful. You were always staring at me, when I wasn’t looking, or engrossed in conversation or my phone, you never wanted to take your eyes off me, I never understood why, but that didn’t matter to you, you did. You knew why, and you loved to see all of my perfection and flaws together, mixed in perfect harmony to make up this person that I’ve become…I was on display for you to discover; you found me in my most vulnerable form and didn’t flinch when I opened up about my past, you invited all of it in, and kissed every scar with a promise of never having to experience those things again. 11.) Your arms were like coming home…when I was wrapped up in your squeeze, I was never afraid, and never alone, because I was more than confident that you would never purposely hurt me. I began to accept that maybe, I could fall in love with you; Mamaw died, on our third or fourth day hanging out, and all you did was sit quietly, wrapped in a blanket with me, arms around my body, and my head on your shoulder, while I cried. In that moment, I couldn’t have imagined any other person who could’ve made me feel safe to open up, and made me feel like I was safe to talk about things. You didn’t judge me when I had mascara and eyeliner all over my shirt, your shirt, the blankets and the couch..you just kept telling me it was okay, and for the first time ever, I actually believed you that it would be. 12.) You spoke through music, which was frustrating but sexy at the same time…The look on your face when you played was so beautiful, I didn’t want you to ever stop! You used to put Colton on your lap, and let him pick at the guitar strings without getting angry, you just kept on playing, even if he messed you up. You used to get onto me for apologizing for my son’s curiosity, and it was made clear that he didn’t annoy you, but made you happy to be around; in the shower that night, I cried tears of joy because you accepted this whole chaotic world that comes with me. 13.) You did absolutely anything to make me happy. Literally, anything, I name it, you would do it, if it meant that I was happy; for Ash’s prom, I was her date, but you got dressed up just to take lame, corny, cliche photos with me, even though it was such a crazy request, you did it anyway without complaining; prom was kinda overrated, and we left after an hour, but we went, and showed off our dresses, and made fools of ourselves on the dance floor, and that night I got to sleep next to you again, for the first time in a long time. 14.) You always kiss my forehead. All the damn time, and it’s so sweet and new, I love it; I finally felt like maybe I was more than just a one night stand to someone after all; you made this all feel so damn natural, I had no idea what to do with myself…thank you for showing me how love should look. 15.) For whatever reason, I have no clue why still, but whatever reason, you refuse to let me get into trouble with the law, or anyone, but especially the law. You are so selfless, and quick to take the blame, or remove me from a situation before someone gets hit, so that I can stay out here; you’ve told me I could hit you if I needed to, but I refuse to hurt you in the way I hurt the people I despise. 16.) Your long hair is so nice to run my fingers through, when it comes time to lay down for bed. You look so at peace when I catch each strand in my fingers, and comb…it’s adorable to see you smiling in your sleep. 17.) Even after I told you about how damaged my heart was, you still wanted it, and took it in your possession, and nursed it back to normal, slowly, with each tender kiss, and conversation we had; you are so lovely, I can’t believe you’d want me. It’s still an insecurity of mine today.. 18.) I will go through withdrawals of you if you’re gone for too long, that week without you, was lonely, dark and cold, and I had no idea where to go from there…I immediately began to beat myself up for reacting the way that I did, and convinced myself you weren’t coming back this time, and pretended not to care; the second I saw you around town, I broke down and immediately began the cycle of “should I call?” or “should I wait?” I decided to try to find you. And now here we are. 19.) My eyes are usually so full of sadness, a pretty green, but pain possesses them, you always did the most to make me laugh to bring back their shine. We’d talk all night and all day, until informed that days had passed when it felt like hours; forever was not going to be enough time to listen to your jokes, and everything weighing on your heart. 20.) last but certainly not least, “I love you”… You were going to the neighborhood gas station, and you’d kissed me goodbye, and those three little words, just fluttered out of your mouth. You immediately turned beet red, and I could feel myself not breathing. You’d been gone for a bit, and I sat with those three words, dancing around my skull like one of Colton’s toys. When you returned, you sat down and you were stiff, almost worried, when I leaned over to your ear, and whispered back “I heart you too” You cocked your head at me weird, and I said “I love you too…” and then there was that beautiful smile I don’t see too often, but it’s better than winning the lottery every time I see it; I had no idea what was going to happen from then on out, but I wasn’t afraid to find out anymore…I wasn’t sure of much but I did know that I was in love with you, and that I was always at home, when I was with you…I loved you, I fucking loved you…and for the first time ever, I believed you when you said you loved me too.

20 Reasons How I fell in love with you// 20 reasons why i’m never giving up 4-26-17