#glitchedmuses

[shineborn]

"Are you from Ikea, because I want to bang my toe against you without knowing how to pronounce your name." That one was good, right? @glitchedmuses//for frank? because u also said i could.

[abandonedbyheaven]

@glitchedmuses​ ::                   ↳ ❛ We playing nothing but Usher. All Usher, all the time. ❜ from bobo.

no. no way. it won’t happen. there isn’t a chance in hell of it happening. he’s pretty, but dear fuck is he irritating. forever is a long time for both of them, and she’s squinting up at the man like he grew a second head. actually, she’d rather see that than put up with his poor music taste. 

“ you remember that time i told you that ‘ eating fifteen eggs is entirely healthy ’ was stupid? i take it back. this is definitely the stupidest thing you’ve ever let slip from your pretty little mouth, and i’m not amused. ” meg glares. “ you’re an actual dumbass, and i don’t want to be seen with you in public, del rey. ”

[heartvess]

he says it so casually, like his ex-wife doesn’t want her head on a platter. it’s fine, right? doesn’t entirely matter which way you slice it. he’s hers as much as she’s his. she even loves him, for whatever it’s worth. he earns himself a happy little smile, feet definitely in his lap, because he didn’t tell her she can’t (and never does. whipped). so, maybe she’s a little insecure about them. about relationships in general. blame joseph. she does.

“ you say that now, but what if you change your mind, hm?  ” she muses, looking up from the book in her lap. “ i’m not that special, you know. but- i love you anyway, stupid lumbersnack man. ”

@glitchedmuses​ :: ❛ You got me, okay? and I’m not going anywhere. ❜ - bobo

[pulchratormentum]

" no. we're lost. and it's your fault, you fucking moron. and it's only my fault for trusting you. " duck, henry. she has knives, and your head looks mighty nice to launch one. " you're right, let's pretend you know exactly where we are. because you know everything. right? dick. " she sits, she knows where to go. she isn't telling him that.

@glitchedmuses:: for henry. { lines:: 4 . relationship:: enemies but the love each other. song:: into the thick of it - the backyardigans. }

[heartvess]

she wants to believe him. she wants to find that trust so easily; to let him wrap her in his arms. she can’t bring herself to. she can’t bring herself to let him love her or care about her. nothing’s changed, has it? nothing ever changes. she understands now where they stand. was he ever happy? was she? and it’s in that moment the reality of it all sets in. two, nearly three, children, years of dinners and affection, and for what? she never wanted to be his entire world. she only wanted to be a part of it, but it wasn’t good enough was it? she wasn’t good enough.

ocean eyes lift, red rimmed and so tired. she isn’t sure she believes him. she isn’t sure she trusts him. how can she? “ i give you my honor. i give you my hand and heart, with the faith that you, above all others will be my partner. i give you my patience, my love, and my strength when your own fail you. i give you a part of myself, and though you don't own me, know that i am yours. from this day forward. i vow to be your partner in every venture to take, always by your side, from this day forward. i will not lie or decieve you, as you’ve promised to never deceive me. that this life, with you, will be safe, and happy, and loving. ”

oh, shit. she’s quoting wedding vows at you, buddy. she’s quoting her vows to you. 

“ i understand it meant nothing to you. that your desire to see andrew ryan fall was so all consuming that even i, your wife, couldn’t show you that there was more to existence than having things you didn’t need to begin with. i grieved you. our children grieved you. ” she murmurs, but she isn’t moving. she doesn’t need to. “ and my hope for you is that you find that fulfillment that i couldn’t give you, but i won’t let myself fall back into you like you didn’t hurt me. i won’t let you decide that you value me or whatever this is. because while you say you won’t leave, there will always be another andrew. there will be another person you’ll be blinded by, and all over again, you’ll forget those words you’re giving me right now. ”

so, she stands up. she’s pulling herself together. if you want her back, you’ll have to do better than that.

@glitchedmuses​ ::  ❛ You got me, okay? and I’m not going anywhere. ❜ - frank ( the wheel said atlas. so you got atlas. )

[heartvess]

look at this whole character study, courtesy of @glitchedmuses​:

glitchedmuses asked: 1, 4, 9, 12, 16, 18, 28, 29, 37, 49 (oop)

1.  does your muse like her name? has she ever thought of changing it/goes by a nickname?

she isn’t the biggest fan of her given name. mostly because it’s so long. from what she understands, her dad wanted to call her dena marie, which he does, but her mother didn’t like just dena. she tends to change her name when she gets married by shortening it, or she goes by nicknames. her nicknames include:

dena, maddie, dee, mads, or any variation of the sort.

4.  has your muse ever struggled with their relationship to womanhood and femininity?

yes and no. it depends on who raises her for the most part. it’s very rare she’s raised by her biological parents, and because she is a girl, she’s had to deal with the fact that when she is taken from her father, it’s because he doesn’t have room or the means for a little girl. it’s led to some resentment for not being a boy, full on crisis on her part when she is left to her own devices, and more often than not, she doesn’t deal well with her gender, femininity, and being a woman in general due to the fact it’s very rare for her to have a mom to guide her through those struggles. it’s easier for her as an adult and copious amounts of therapy teaching her that womanhood and feeling feminine isn’t wrong. that coupled with miriam steinman who taught her that she could be a woman and still be one of the boys (since that’s all her dad has).

now, she’s very feminine and very much in tune with her woman side. there’s nothing anyone can do to take it from her.

9.  how is her relationship with her father?

this depends on the father you’re talking about and the father in question. 

john; it’s very complicated. in no verse was she born in america and constantly in contact with him. she loves her father, but she knows she isn’t dean, or sam, or adam, or henry. she’s always been an independent person, and she doesn’t ask for help if she can get away with it. she loves him, but she doesn’t entirely trust that his people permanence is all that great. she’s more like him than she’s willing to admit, too. so, they butt heads a lot.

sander; is probably her favorite person on earth, and she will kill/be killed for him. if she isn’t with john, she’s with sander, so he provided the security she didn’t get from her father. she knows she isn’t actually his, but she wouldn’t be half of the woman she is now without him and his jewish dad guilt.

12. does she tend to surround herself with women or men more?  is there a particular reason for one or the other?

she tends to avoid as many people as possible. it started as a language barrier and seeming much older than she was. if there is a large host of people in her life, it’s pretty evenly mixed. it depends on who is raising her and her daily life in childhood. if she’s raised by john, it’s mostly the people she’s met in school. if sander raises her, it’s the whole neighborhood of kids. all of those friendships are the ones she has in adulthood. mostly josh steinman. that’s her bestie.

16. if your muse is queer in any way, talk about how that impacts their view on womanhood?

mm, yes. dena is a bisexual dumpster fire, and we love her so much. so, in terms of womanhood, it’s helped the identity crisis, but it’s given her an appreciation of femininity. for a girl who can hear or see something once and repeat it verbatim, she knows she lacks the confidence that most of her partners of the female variety have and there’s a hint of envy behind it. nothing that would define her on a personality level. she will forever question her own womanhood due to trauma. nothing really changes that.

18. was she raised in a progressive or sexist household? was it more neutral?

if she’s with either of her fathers, progressive. neither said she couldn’t do something because she was a girl, and neither used her gender as a means to put her down. 

if she’s with her grandfather, very sexist. gerald believed women should be seen and not heard, that a woman’s place was in the kitchen, etc. he isn’t a good man and most of her trauma comes from him. it’s fine.

28. is there a female figure from history, or current times, she looks up to?

again, it’s going to depend on the verse, but if you ask her, she’s going to tell you miriam steinman. why? because that’s the closest thing to a mama she has. you can take that gift to earth from her cold, dead hands. 

29. does she prefer to be perceived as cute or sexy? does she not want to be viewed on an attraction basis at all?

it depends on who is doing the perceiving. she hates being called cute. by anyone. ever. but if she’s built a relationship on her body, she’s going to use it entirely. if she hasn’t, she would rather not be viewed at all? she likes to blend in and disappear whenever possible. being the cute or sexy one in town doesn’t do anything for that skill she has. 

37. how do they view motherhood?

motherhood terrifies her. she’s a mother in most verses, but she’s also french. so, from an american sense, it probably seems like she doesn’t take as much active involvement with her kids. it isn’t true, she knows she’s raising little humans and they need to be independent, but she has no clue what she’s doing on the daily. most of her kids: frankie, simon, rj, vera etc. are NOT planned, and she has no sense of surety, even if the father/her have been together for years. she thinks the best mothers are the ones who can say they listened to their child, they gave them everything they need, and if she can swing a want, she will. but no. motherhood terrifies her. leave her alone. it’s also the one thing she feels she’s ever done right in her life. 

49.  if your muse dates men, what is their process of vetting them?  do they have a checklist of things to look for to decide whether or not they’re safe?  any kind of tests or questions they use to make a judgement.

there’s a process? this is about to get real questionable. dena has a habit, if the relationship isn’t one from youth, to date dangerous, older men. a cannibal? did that. loves him. a drug dealer? hot. yes. a demon? spicy. the only judgement she uses is how well they can rail her into next week. that’s it. sex is the test. why? because her grandfather lowkey traumatized her into believing laying on her back is all she’ll ever be good at. that or she’s already in sex work. she has no plan. she decides on a whim. if they tried the woo-ing thing, she’d think they were insane.

[heartvess]

let it be said said, and documented, that she will forever be a sore spot for her. it’s not his fault; nothing he can do about her general distaste for his ex-wife. it isn’t like she expected any of this to be easy for anyone involved. she shows up when she feels like it and disappears just as quickly, if luck is on their side. the need to make him miserable always runs her will to live, and maddie isn’t sure there’s anything in this world that will stop her. it’s fine, bobo. no one is blaming you.

it’s not going to work out the way he wants it to, and she can see the outcome a mile away. poor little miss earp is feeling a type of way, and it doesn’t matter that they live together. maddie is too tired to deal with her breaking in and bitching about how much he loves her. so, she just won’t do it. not today. she can find a place to be that isn’t here. “ i think i should go. ” she breathes, squinting at willa and her antics. it’s fine. she just doesn’t want to put up with her. 

@glitchedmuses​;  ✮ = generated line of text into whatever this is.

[heartvessimp]

@glitchedmuses

[heartvess]

“ well this is horrifying ” - demon!frank / glitchedmuses

she pauses, turning to look up at him. he knew what he signed up for when he made his merry home with his wife. still, it's a little concerning that he can just walk right into the demon no-no room. the damn thing is living on blood magic alone, and unless he's got a super secret power she doesn't know about, he shouldn't be in here. " jesus, fuck. frank, how- "

" i don't even want to ask how you got in here. " she's herding him as best as she can being a full foot shorter than him. henry can deal with the demon strung up like a christmas display. once she has him mostly out, arms fold across her middle. " you didn't see anything. got it? " dena, that's ominous, and he is your husband. please, stop. and as soon as she's turning to go back to where she started, a little curly-haired, shark-grinning boy comes screaming past; naked and yelling about trains. isn't being a hunter, a wife, and a mother fun?

[heartvess]

“ that’s the greatest thing to steal  :  a man’s joy ” - frank / glitchedmuses

easy for him to say. she loves him. she does, but he isn't the one who woke up in vegas with a whole grown ass demon in her bed. that was her piss poor choice. fireball is not her friend. either way, he isn't exactly into the idea of divorcing her. though she isn't opposed to causing a scene about it. he isn't so bad, even if he and their son are absolute nightmares for fun.

" is it? " she breathes, looking up at him, because she is vertically challenged and clearly has an overgrown egg kink. " i wasn't aware i've ever stole anything from you. apart from sanity and the occasional orgasm. " and she says it like she doesn't love him; like they haven't found a way to make it work. it's her, him, and their little abomination that she's more than happy to take someone out at the knees over.

" i love you. now, stop being so soft with me. i'll stab you on principle. " she won't. he knows she won't, but fuck if she doesn't want to put a little fear in the big scary crossroads demon.

[pulchratormentum]

they've been at this for years; finding comfort in each other when they definitely shouldn't have been. her life is a literal joke at this point. a nightmare of all the gifted kid burnout one could display in one sitting. it isn't healthy, at this point; how co-dependently independent the two of them are. expect, easier said than done, kids. so, she doesn't ignore him when he texts her to come over; never anything more. he's hardly friendly on his best days. and if she's dragging her feet because she knows it's time to stop? well, who is there to tell her off about it. no one. and so she knocks. she knocks because the idea of being without him is worse than considering that he could hurt feelings she genuinely doesn't know how to show. worse than telling him, ' hey, so yeah in the middle of being a quick fuck, i kinda fell in love with you. '

" you realize we can't keep doing this, right? at some point, i can't call you. you can't text me. it has to end. " she murmurs. there's no way she's telling him she wants more from him. he wouldn't give it to her, anyway. would he?

@glitchedmuses { lines:: 13 . relationship:: fwb but neither will admit they want more . song:: nightmare - halsey. }

[mvncesa]

@glitchedmuses