#given the literal mental break i had a few days ago tho i mean i think i deserve to relax a little. let me draw the depressed scrunglies ok

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Asks/prompts about hinny:

I’m forever a sucker for the Weasleys finding out about them dating and what their reactions might be - when do you think each family member found out and how did it go?

Have a lovely day xx

oh i loooooove this question!!!

okay so i think ron 100% tells the twins straight away, just like ginny had with him and lavender, and they’re ofc thrilled. they definitely would’ve given harry shit and teased ginny about her life long crush returning her affections lmao - but given that they were broken up by the time they saw the twins again, i think fred and george were more sensitive about it. they hated how down ginny was after the breakup, and treaded lightly with their teasing during that time. i think george would’ve resumed the teasing a few years after the war, when he was in a slightly better place mentally. but he loved harry like a brother, and knew how happy he made ginny and vice versa. and he knew fred felt the exact same way :’)

i feel like percy wouldn’t have known anything about harry and ginny dating, but he would’ve been very business like in his approval of their coupling. saying ‘so pleased to have you as part of the family, harry’ in his pompous but still warm manner. he definitely felt mostly guilty about the way he had treated harry (and his family, but in terms of politics, he really did throw harry to the dogs) and is overly polite in his company, to try and make up for his past behaviour. he thinks they’re well matched if a little chaotic.

i LOVE the headcanon that bill literally assumed harry and ginny were already together during the christmas break in harry’s sixth year. he noticed the way harry’s eyes lit up whenever she spoke, caught him staring at her several times, ginny’s playful (but totally platonic…) teasing and touching of harry. she bullied the boy into helping her make all the paper chains, like bill definitely thought this boy is WHIPPED. and when he asks ron and ron’s all WHAT no they are NOT dating are you CRAZY bill’s like wtf ok. so he’s not at all surprised when he finds out that they did in fact get together. obviously bill approves, knowing how deeply and unabashedly they love each other, he thinks it will last.

charlie found out around the same time bill did, and he was happy for them. but didn’t really have an opinion either way, because he was often still in romania or other parts of europe working. he thinks harry‘a a good lad tho, and knows he’s basically part of the family anyway so it works out pretty nicely

now with ron, we see a lot of his reaction in the books anyway, but i 100% think ron was supportive of the relationship, i mean he literally tells ginny she should choose someone better next time and nods at harry??? like he may have been protective but he ultimately knew harry was a good guy, and that if he could trust anyone to take care of his sister and be a good partner for her, it would be him. i also think contrary to other peoples’ opinions, he isn’t like jealous nor does he feel like he’s been replaced by ginny in harry’s life. they’re BESTFRIENDS. nothing is ever going to change that - he knows this. and you can bet he was not at all unhappy about the newfound alone time he was getting with hermione :)) he was their biggest supporter (maybe second biggest - behind hermione ofc). and despite the initial shock of the common room kiss, i think he’s very much, yeah i called it years ago, it was bound to happen. and now i have another brother!!! it’s so so wholesome. and you just know ginny, ron and harry get on as a trio anyway. two of his favourite ppl together, ofc he’s happy.

now arthur and molly!!!!!! i wish we got to see more of their reactions tbh. i think arthur, like bill, probably thought they were already together during that christmas break, but never mentioned it to anyone except molly. who dismissed it at first, saying ginny got over her little crush ages ago, but she keeps a close eye on them after that, and definitely starts to see what arthur’s seeing. when ginny writes home telling them that her and harry are in fact seeing each other, molly weeps tears of pure delight. he’s basically a son to her anyway, and she couldn’t be more pleased that they’ve found happiness together. but she definitely is a bit nervous about how close now TWO of her children are to harry bc he’s a target, and bc he always lands himself in sticky situations (she doesn’t blame him ofc) but she worries non stop because he is so brave, selfless and stubborn and so are her children, and she’s well aware that they all seem to encourage each other’s somewhat reckless impulses (see, ron and harry flying a car to hogwarts, all three rushing to the ministry as a bunch of teens to fight death eaters etc). after the war, she is just happy for them tho. and despite being initially strict about hermione and ginny staying in their room, and ron and harry staying in theirs, she definitely starts to look the other way, when she spots harry creeping down the hallway in the early hours of the morning to sneak into her daughter’s room. he freezes when he sees her, clamming up, incredibly embarrassed, but she merely smiles and nods in the direction of the ginny’s room as if to say, well, go on then, because she too knows what it is to struggle through many a sleepless night worrying about loved ones, suffering trauma and loss, and needing to be close to the one you love the most. and arthur feels the same way. and he’s thrilled that now he’ll have even more opportunities to badger harry about how washing machines work, and why muggles dress up as witches and monsters on halloween.

what can i say, harry and ginny are a very, very loved couple. by the weasley family, and a lot of others too. they’re just too precious.

i hope you have a wonderful day too, and thank you for this ask! 🤍

[thank-you-for-the-vampire-money]

DESPERATE PRAYERS

This is for @caplansteverogers writing disney challenge! <3 I am SO EXCITED!

A/N: I got inspired!  My prompt was the song “GOD help the outcasts” From Hunchback of Notre Dame

Preserum!Steve x plussize!reader

Word count: 1316

Summary: With the recent death of his mother, Steve feels so alone.  He desperately prays for someone to understand and love him like his mother did.

Warnings: this whole thing deals with Christianity and Catholicism, if you have a problem with that this is no the fic for you.  Death, sadness, description of chronic and mental illness, suicidal thoughts and depression, fucked up society.  Again, it’s dark, guys.

(GIFs not mine)

The sound of the alarm clock went off, nearly giving Steve a heart attack.  Almost in a literal sense.  Steve groaned, trying to get up, but fuck his back hurt so badly!  Steve loved sleeping.  It was the closest to death he could get.  But once he woke up, he hated it.  His back would ache, making it hard to breathe, sometimes it would get so bad, the first thing he would do in the morning, was try and stop his asthma attack.  For once, he was lucky and didn’t have to struggle to stay alive that morning.

“c’mon , punk, we both gotta get up,” Bucky yawned, chucking a pillow at Steve’s face

“If you care to remember, Buck, I don’t have a job,” he huffed, trying his best to stretch

“Yeah, but it’s Sunday, I’ve got errands to run and you’ve got 8am Mass,” Buck reminded, grabbing his towel to go shower, “and I found your Rosary!  You left it on the porch,”

A wave of relief washed over Steve as he heard that.  He had a panic attack the other day when he couldn’t find it, nearly landed him in the hospital… again.  His mother had given that to him for his 18th birthday a couple months ago.  She had it specially made for him.  It was the most precious and prized possession he had… the only he had left of his mother other than a few pictures.

Sarah also gave Steve her wedding ring, in hopes that he could give it to the love of his life.  He scoffed at the idea of someone loving him enough to marry him.

Steve walked down the street, pulling his hat down father over his ears and his scarf over his nose.  Why did New York have to be so fucking cold?!

He did his best to ignore all the hateful posters hung around the streets.  For the most part, he was able to ignore the stupid sterilization and euthanasia posters, but there was one, hung in the window of the building right across his church.

Some people were born to be a burden to others

That one always hurt him.  Maybe it wasn’t something he could fix, or work himself out of… maybe he truly was just a burden.

He was always causing his mother stress; she worked all day then had to take care of him all night.  And there was Buck… Bucky was always getting him out of trouble, making him work all day, taking up his time, resources… Buck can’t even go out a full night with him there.

Steve knelt at the altar, clutching his Rosary in his fists, his knuckles turning white.  He recited the prayers he had so diligently emerized, tears running down his face.  Very rarely had he ever prayed so hard.  He had only ever done this when he first found out about why his father was no longer with him, when he met Bucky, and when his mother had died...

“Lead all s-souls.. I-into… into hea-heaven… especial-ly tho-ose who nee-ed thy m-mercy..” Steve quivered, one word away from breaking down.  Holding back his heaving tears was irritating his lungs and the bad feeling in his heart made his chest hurt.  Keeling made his back hurt and his nerves were getting to him as his hands shook.

With a loud cry of hurt, he fell to his face in reverence.  “Please, I know you’re up there and I hope you’ll listen to someone like me…” Steve cried, his face turning red as he started hiccuping and wheezing.  “I’ve been told my whole life I was worthless, that I should kill myself… Ever since I was barely in kindergarten I was told that.  My mother was told to get rid of me, to abandon me and live her life… But she never did.

“She was the only one who loved me and she told me you loved me too… so I’m begging you, please… please please please… I just need someone like her in my life again… someone who will love and understand me…”.

Steve was sobbing and crying to hard he had given himself an asthma attack.  He was gasping and gagging, but nothing was entering his lungs.  He panicked, dropping his Rosary to frantically search through his pockets for one of his special cigarettes.  He found one, but- “SHIT!” he gasped, finding that he had left his lighter back at the apartment.

After a minute, he began to feel faint, lying down on the floor as he accepted his doom.  His already horrible vision went dark as he felt himself slipping.  He reached over, he was going to die, he was going to die holding the memory of his mother.  He couldn’t even feel his fingers (not that he could in any other circumstance), let alone the beads.

“C’mon, c’mon…” a soft, muffled voice called, sitting him up and placing the cigarette by his lips.  Was this an angel?  Was he gonna wake up dead?

The soft glow of a lighter caught his attention as the cigarette was being lit for him.  He exhaled whatever little air was in his lungs, took the deepest breath he could.  He held it for a few seconds until his vision cleared… sort of.  Then he exhaled through his nose.  

Well… he wasn’t dead… he wasn’t sure if he was thankful or upset about that.

“Are you okay?” the lady who helped him asked.

Well he may not have died, but he was definitely saved by an angel.  She was tall, her figure full, bigger than other girls.  But her smile accentuated by rosy, round cheeks, was much kinder than those other girls’ too.  Her hands were careful and gentle as they touched him, holding his hand gently as he tried to get his breathing right.

He nodded softly, taking another breath from the cigarette.  “You saved my life…” he gasped, his face flushing.  He wasn’t sure if he was turning red because of the pretty girl who was willing to save his life… or the fact that he just went two minutes without oxygen.

“Yeah?” she hummed, “why wouldn’t I?”

“Well, I mean… I would figure no one would want to save save a crazy asthmatic,” he sniffed, wiping the tear stains off his cheeks, “it would be one less flaw in the gene pool,”

“Maybe someone would want to save a crazy asthmatic… if they were one too,” she smiled, helping sit up against the wall to support his back.

“Y-you’re… you’re asthmatic too?” he asked, looking up at her

She nodded with a kind smile on her face.  “And even if I wasn’t, I would still save you; you’re a human being with worth,” she said, standing up to get the Rosary he had dropped.

“I’m not worth anything…” he sighed, pulling his knees to his chest, starting to cry again.

“DON’T SAY THAT!” she shouted at him, “you are a living, breathing human being, with a heart and soul… you are priceless,”.

“How can you say that, you don’t even know me,” he countered, looking up at her.  He almost felt angry.  Was thing some cruel joke?  Was she going to make a sick punchline about this?

“I don’t have to know you.  I can love a human for who they are…” she said, sitting back down with him.  “I’m (Y/N), by the way,” she smiled, holding out her hand.

“Steven,” Steve smiled back, wiping away his last tear as he shook her outstretched hands.

“Oof!  You’re hands are cold!” (Y/N) giggled

“Sorry… there always like that,” Steve blushed in embarrassment.

“If you’re hands are this cold, you must be miserable out in the November air,” she hummed, seeing the snow build up on the stained glass windows, “do you want me to walk you home?”

Steve smiled brightly.  “Yeah… yeah, I’d love that,”

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@paranoid-borderline-insane @buckyshattergirl @bitchy-tacos @httpmcrvel

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Pietro Maximoff x Plus size reader Comfort. Smutty

-Just a little trigger warning there is talk of mental illness in this one. Panic attacks and drug use and such. All my ladies who have anxiety like me through your hands in the air lol p>

The last 48 hours had been a blur, and you found yourself trying to sort out your thoughts as you sat in the lab with both Bruce and Tony. You knew they were just trying to figure everything out themselves, but their exclusive science talk made you even more anxious then you already were, had you balling your hands into fists in order to keep yourself, your emotions…your power… at bay. You didn’t understand the dictionary grade terms they kept using. You weren’t a fucking rocket scientist . “I’m sorry did you just say molecular combustion? That sounds a lot like I’m fucking fucked” you demand, your voice cracking a little bit because you hadn’t been this scared of yourself in a really long time. “No,Y/N, there will only continue to be combustion as long as you let the acceleration get out of hand. If you can learn to control it, everything should be fine” you caught that should at the end of Bruce’s statement. Like it wasn’t a concrete deal yet. “And what if I can’t? Learn to control it?” What if you kept blowing things up?…Killing people? You’d be useless on missions because instead of the team focusing on the threat from whatever bad guy was the flavor of the week, they’d be focusing on the threat that you might blow some on up instead of freeze them. “Well then your previous statement about being fucked will be pretty accurate” Tony’s blunt with you, not in a mean manner, but a serious one. You can tell he’s worried, like the rest of them. You just nod as you process, or at least try to, the information they’re giving you. It was along to take in. Somehow, your powers were advancing, morphing and growing. Growing up a mutant, you’d known your could freeze things since a pretty early age. And no, not like in ice. Like you could literally freeze molecules. Molecular immobilization, but for some reason on the last mission when you’d tried to freeze a bus full of civilians that’s breaks were out instead of it stopping in time, it blew up. Injuring nine people. And killing two. “You were able to get control of your freezing, you’ll be able to get this under control too. It will just take some time and practice” Tony’s voice is too soft, like he’s softening you for a blow. You know what it is. “Until then I’m benched, huh?” Him and Bruce share a look and he nods. “I’m sorry kid, it’s just too dangerous. For everybody. Including you” You weren’t mad at their conclusion. They still had more tests to run, find out why your body was revolting against you. You were a liability. One that had cost people their lives and you knew that wasn’t just going away. You’d have to face the music for what you’d done, Avenger or not. And music there was. Every News station from CNN to the Today Show was discussing your mistake. Dissecting it. Were the Avengers really heros? Were mutants safe to be around the public? It made you sick, your panic disorder spinning out of control, eating you alive. Crippling you. Bruce had given you a pre rioting of Valliume and encouraged you to pop one every few hours, take the edge off until he could figure out how exactly to “help” you. Even under the drug induced haze you were still scared. Terrified that you’d accidentally use your power. It was like second nature to you. Like catching or throwing. You reacted with your power, you didn’t know how to be…without freezing. Which is why you had to isolate yourself, at least for a little while. Not even Steve, the super soldier, could live through you blowing something up next to his head. You know they just want to help, to check in on you and make sure you’re okay because some how this rag tag group had become your second family but everytime one of them tried to approach you over the next few days, you shrugged them off as fast as you could. Wether it was Nat coming to your room or Sam who you’d ran into in the kitchens, your stomach dropped and fear enveloped you at the idea of hurting them. Of course; Wanda and Pietro didn’t listen. Didn’t head your reclusive warnings. You loved the twins as much as they annoyed the living fucking life out of you. You’d gotten close with Wanda after the whole Ultron/Sokovia thing half a year ago, you guys were the same age and the “witch” had a gentleness about her that you’d bonded with. And of course there was no bonding with one, without the other tagging along. Pietro was your friend too, you guessed. Even though he was annoying and hyper active and constantly hitting on you in a way that was far from suave. He made you laugh, and vice versa. There was no lack of laughter when you two were around eachother. Wanda was sat at the end of your bed as you leaned against the headboard, a re-run of Keeping Up with the Kardashians playing on the flat screen. You’d taken one of the pills earlier and were starting do feel it, your eyelids heavy and mind calmed as Wanda talks to you about everything. And nothing. Just wanting to be there for you. “Could you imagine growing up with all of that money?” She clicks her tongue looking at the tv. You smile lazily “Hmm, I wish. I’d go on an endless vacation” “I’d fix my teeth” Wanda laughs and you can’t help but laugh too. “Shut up! Your teeth are fine!…I’d get my nose done. And maybe a lil lipo, I’d make sure my ass stayed fat tho” You replied and she snorts, taking another bite from the bowl of ice cream you two were sharing. “Give some ass to the less fortunate, like me” her accented voice makes you grin. “What are we talking about, hmm?” Your door is opened and closed so fast you can’t even see it as Pietro comes in and shoots a look at the tv “Huh, asses? At least you guys’ are real” You pull your legs up a little as he comes to sit on your bed with you guys, right next to Wanda towards the edge. He doesn’t let you stay scrunched up though, he grabs your legs and pulls them so that your calves in his rest in his lap and your reclining back comfortably. You’re scantily dressed, an oversized heather tee and a pair of barley there spankie shorts, your chubby legs on display. If you were sober, you might have been more self conscious. “Get comfortable, princesza” Pietro advises as he himself relaxes, leaning against the wall. Between the feeling of him lightly and rhythmically stroking your thigh and the sound of him and Wanda arguing softly in Sokovian over who was the hottest Kardashian-Jenner your soon lulled into a deep dreamless sleep. You wake up, hours later. Still feeling a little hazy but clearer. The room is dark, the large windows pitch black, the only light coming from the TV. You sit up, eyes scanning. Wanda’s not there anymore. How long had you been asleep for? You go to grab your phone and sit up too fast. Your head spins something fierce. “Hey, Y/N, are you okay?” A deep silken voice asks from beside you. You hadn’t realized that Pietro was still in the room, now laying next to you on your bed. His hands were behind his head as though he had been relaxing but his icy eyes looked concerned. “Yeah” you let your head fall back into your pillow “I’m okay. I’m just a little out of it. How log have I been out?” “Five episodes of the Fresh Prince of Bel Air” he answers his tone playful and you roll your eyes “a few hours, nothing to worry about” You nod, taking him in. Maybe your still high, but the way the tv lights hit his skin makes him look luminescent. Makes his skin look translucent and his eyelashes leave giant shadows on his cheekbones. You tear your eyes away from ogling him. You have to. “Where’d Wanda go?” “She went to go check something it for Stark. Her, Steve and Vision” Pietro tells you nonchalantly and your can feel a little rush. “But everything okay right? Nothing major?” He must be able to hear the slight panic in your voice because he reaches over to rub your exposed forearm soothingly. “Everything’s all good, princesza. Don’t worry about it, okay? You need to stay relaxed” his words are slow, lullaby like “I stay here with you to make sure you are okay, if you want to be alone just tell me and I’ll let you-” “No” you desperately interrupt him. Being alone with your thoughts is to daunting. His eye brows raise and a small, smug little grin graces his features. “Don’t worry, Wanda told me if I left you she’d beat my ass, you’re stuck with me…I knew you liked spending time with me” You roll your eyes, but quietly, you’re relieved. What would you do without the twins? Pietros good at this whole babysitting/making sure you don’t blow anyone or anything up thing. You watch late night Nickelodeon and he has you chuckling the whole time. Usually, you pretend to hate how touchy he is. You deny him purchase on your skin but tonight you can’t get enough. Your practically purring as he runs his fingers along your arm, down your side and then back up in circuits. He does it casually, keeping his attention on the show or the conversation you two are having but he seems to get closer. Where there was once nearly a arms length of space between you on the bed, he’s now pressed against a you. His right arm against your breast as he lays in his back and you on your side. With his left, he’s still reached over, still leaving goosebumps on your skin. You can’t help it, you lean into him, he’s always so fucking warm and it’s intoxicating. You face is pressed into his shoulder and you’ve moved so that its hugging his arm comfortably. You honestly feel so serene that you could fall asleep again. Your conversation about wether or not there’s glow worms in space seems to dissipate. “Y/N?” Pietro breaks the silence, sounding almost hesitant. “Yeah?” You whisper, not opening your eyes. You can feel his though. Feel the atmosphere changing. “Are you feeling calm?” You can’t help but melt at how good he was being to you. How attentive. “I mean yeah, for the most part” You could feel your belly tightening with anticipation, feel his breathing as you gripped his arm. “You know…if you need me to help you calm down I could” Fuuuuck. It’s not what he says but how he says it. You take your bottom lip between your teeth, still not opening your eyes. Maybe a little scared to face him. A little scared of what you wanted. “How?” Your mutter into his shirt and his arm shifts, your chin no longer in his shoulder as he puts his arm under you, around you and pulls you as close as you can get. You’re resting in his chest now, his arms circling you. You bury your face in his neck. Hiding still. “Let me show you, open your eyes. Look at me?” It takes coaxing, his thumb running across your back but your raise your head, dragging your nose along his jaw, your closed mouth tickled by his dark stubble. “Y/N” He whispers as your lips reach his, only a half an inch away. Your breathing the same air. What he exhales, you inhale and your heart is pounding against your chest but not with fear. “Pietro” your voice is airy and gorgeous and that’s all it takes because then your kissing, your plump lips pressing against his over and over. Sucking. Exploring. You grab him by the side of the neck, pulling him closer, needing the kiss to deepen and he means in your open mouth, his tongue sliding in. You kiss until your heads spinning, it feels like an eternity. Pietros hands begin to wander, he can never stay still. Under your shirt, upwards. You jerk a little at the hot pads of his fingers trailing up your side, spanning over the roll on your back. “Shh” he hushes, his touches slowing “I just want to take care of you. Let me?” All you can do is nod. Take care of you he does. When he had said he knew a way to calm you down, you weren’t even thinking this was how it was going to go. With him palming your breasts and you gasping for air as he left kisses and beard rash all along your neck and chest. He wastes no time in turning you onto your back, hovering over you. When he starts to shimmy your tiny shorts down your legs you come to a bit, sobering. “Piet, I don’t have any condoms?” “That’s okay, dieta ” he coos. You’ve never heard his voice so thick with his accent before. “We’ll get to that another night. Tonight I just want to make you cum, is that okay with you?” What do you even say to that? Like fuck, oh my god. Peitro, who you had heard was the worlds most selfish lover; always in search of his own release, was telling you that all he wanted to do was make you feel good? You let out a squeak of an okay and then press your head back. He kisses your cheek, tenderly, as he navigates your now naked lower half. “No panties, huh?” “Those shorts are panties” you defend and he laughs gruff against your skin as he kisses your neck. When his palm rests against your cunt, rubbing slowly from the outside you bite your lips together and nuzzle your head against his hair pleadingly. He doesn’t tease you like you��d think he would. He knows the week you’ve had and all he wants to do is make you feel good. His fingers slip inbetween your labia , playing in the wetness. Sloshing it around before he immediately goes to your clit and begins to rub it in circles with his index, middle and ring finger. “Oh shit” you moan, because that’s what you needed. Your clit played with. “Tell me how you like it” he begs you from his place partially on-top of you his face pressed into your neck, your hair everywhere. “Faster, ugh- like that” Your lost in the feeling of him rubbing your bundle of nerves in dizzying rotations. Back and forth. Up and down. Your already so close, your hips bucking when his fingers leave your clit at superspeed, not giving you time to register before he slides two of his thick fingers inside you. You go to sit up, your body jerking and your eyes bulging but he pushes you back down. “Shh, baby” he comforts as he starts pumping them in and out of you, and it’s only a moment before you cum on his hand. Groaning and gripping his hair. He doesn’t stop though, if anything that just spurs him on. He’s exploring inside of you with his fingers, pushing on your walls, using a scissoring motion as he pumps and your head is rolling. “Fuck Peit” Your whimpers are met by him adding a third finger, then a fourth. Stretching you wide, pounding you sho hard with his digits that your body shakes with the thrusts. Your tits bouncing everytime he slams them in to. The squishing sound echoing around the room. “Fuck, fuck, FUCK oh my god” you cry as you cum again, your hands fisting whatever they can grab onto as you try to anchor yourself. You’d never…your head was spinning in circles. Your core sensitive and over stimulated. Your whole body had spasmed and was still twitching as he continued to fuck you with his hand. “Fuck your gushing” he sounds so in awe “your pussys so pretty and tight. You have such a pretty pussy” just the sound of him saying pussy with that accent… Fuck you couldn’t take anymore. Your first two orgasms had left your already stressed body exhausted. “Pietro stop, I can’t” you whine, the full feeling that came with his fingers was too much. You were almost sobbing, your pants leaving your raw throat in cries that you could barley muffle. “I’m too sensitive I can’t” “You can” he urged, his mouth traveling to yours so that he could capture your lips. “One more, princesza. Give me one more” “I can’t” you cry against his lips as his fingers begin to disappear and reappear at in inhuman speed. Vibrating inside of you. Your writhing under him, full on sobbing now. Shaking your head from side to side as tears well and leak from your squeezed shut eyes. Gripping a hand full of your hair at the scalp. He’d never seen anyone so fucking beautiful in the thows of passion. It would haunt him, the vision of you like this. When you release this time, it’s with everything in you. You release all the stress and fear, it all exits and your mouth falls open in a screech so intense it’s silent. Your mind goes white and you can’t breathe as little rivers squirt from within you. Pietros there with you for it all, whispering how beautiful you are, peppering your face with kisses for the minutes it takes for you to come back down. “Fuck Y/N, that was so beautiful. You’re so special. It’s okay, dieta You’re okay” You cling to his words as you catch your breath, your heaving chest starting to slow. You’re still crying and you don’t know why? You’ve never been an emotional person but what he had just done to you…done for you had you in tears. You wrapped your arms around his neck and hug him close. “It’s okay” he whispers, gripping you tight and rubbing you back. You bury your head into his chest, completely physically and emotionally sated and he uses one hand to pull the blankets back up around the both of you. You fall asleep in his embrace, clinging to him tightly. So… That was way more intense then I had planned for it to be. That sexy ass Sokovian does things to me, mane. Sorry it’s so long but I know you’ll enjoy it! Oh and your powers were inspired by Pipers in Charmed? You know how she has the power to freeze? Yeah like that. Well…I’m going to go take a shower to wash off the filth I feel in my soul.

😳😂

[parurushi]

(Can't add a read more bc I'm on mobile so I'm sorry for the long post) For the past few days I've stayed mostly quiet about T.O.P's scandal because honestly? I don't have the energy to get involved in fandom drama + I barely even have BB mutuals in both Twitter and tumblr anymore so I felt like I would be talking to a wall but with the news that came out this morning I sorta need to vent it out. BIG BANG has been my fabulous group and Choi Seunghyun has been basically my ideal man since 2009 and both mean so much to me. Even as my music tastes have shifted through the years their songs remain a constant in my daily life. At times I see them more as old friends rather than just the boyband I jammed to all the time and had crushes on in high school. During my almost eight years as a V.I.P I've seen them grow. They were already big back then, but not yet the number one k-pop boy group. I saw them slowly rise in Japan, and their solo releases, and in T.O.P's case I saw his debut as an actor and the praise he got for it. And of course I was there when 2011 happened. Anyone who was in the fandom back then knows it wasn't an easy year. After their much anticipated Korean comeback they were hit with their two biggest scandals up until recently. I remember the days we (the fandom) spent voting for that EMA. I think for the most part we didn't even care about the western recognition or whatever, we just wanted to show the boys they were still loved and supported. And despite all those comments claiming the group was there, they managed to come back even stronger the next year, pretty much becoming living legends in k-pop. So my first reaction when Seunghyun's scandal broke a few days ago was "lmao we've been through this and we'll do it again". But of course, it's not as simple as that. I don't consider that smoking or consuming weed is something to frown upon. And I don't wanna come across as the "oppa didn't mean it" trope that can always bend their morals when it involves their fave. My stance on the issue would be the same even with an idol I actively hated, if there were any. However, my moral stance does not determine the legal system of South Korea. I'm not gonna drop him because, in my eyes, he literally did nothing wrong. But I also wasn't just gonna expect him to be completely cleared just like that. I know he was stressed over his impending military service, but still. Especially after Jiyong's scandal in 2011 he should've thought twice what he was doing. But. What's done is done and up until hours ago my stance was basically "let's just wait until everything calms down". As any k-pop fan knows at this point, Seunghyun was taken to the hospital after being found unconscious. If the reports so far are to be trusted, it seems to have been an accidental overdose on relaxants and his life is not in danger. I can only send him all my love, support and wishes for a quick and safe recovery. I know that given the situation this means more than just the physical recovery and I honestly hope he'll receive proper mental care. I still expect him to eventually receive some sort of punishment for breaking the law but for now, the only thing I care about is his safety. But honestly, how big of a role did hate comments have in this? As an overseas fan I have to rely on cherry picked translations to get an idea of what the Korean netizens are thinking so I'm not going there. But I did see all the comments from international fans. I saw them wanting him to go straight to jail, screaming "double standards!" as they pointed out the (former) trainee involved was incarcerated. Because who cares it wasn't the trainee's first offence and as if he shouldn't get through a trial like any other person first. I saw them throwing stones at YG for handling this different than Bom's case years ago. To which I say yeah, drag YG. They deserve it for Bom (and for Taehyung among other things). But in many of the comments I saw I got the impression of "you left her alone so you should leave him alone as well". Really? And honestly, seeing that even at this moment the edgy Twitter stans are making jokes is disgusting. Not that surprising tho considering they didn't stop these past few days, let alone during past scandals. Expecting them to stay on their lane is probably too much to ask. I don't know what kind of satisfaction they get from laughing at this matter but hey, who am I to tell them what to do with their lives. You know what, fuck it. I will. With all the articles and different sources coming out its easy for misinformation to spread, and if you can't be bothered to check if what you're reading is the truth, it literally costs you nothing to shut up and save your shitty and overdone P.O.T jokes to yourself. It takes you nothing to, you know, NOT wish ill upon a celebrity you dislike or that you feel is somehow getting off easier than your faves. This is not the moment to push your Woke™ agenda on how double standards suck (they do, I know) or why you think BIG BANG is not that great. Again, I wish Choi Seunghyun a safe recovery, and I hope he will receive nothing but love and support from his family, friends, bandmates and fans. Hopefully I'll get to see him healthy and happy again after all is said and done and after the whole legal debacle is settled.

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for the valentines ask: a l l

twin u lil’ shit…..fine :P

also before we get started, at least a few of the questions’ answers are gonna involve my first ex, which automatically makes them a Very Long Fuckin Story, that i 100% Do Not Have The Spoons For so for any of those i’m just gonna put a short answer and a ***. that in mind, here we go.

1: Do you have a crush at the moment?

yeah, you, u fuckin nerd

2: Have you ever been deeply in love?

Yep! Literally right now!

3: Longest relationship you’ve ever been in?

3 wasted years***

4: Have you ever changed for someone?

yeah*** :/

5: How is your relationship with your ex?

My last ex and i are still pretty good friends (i think) (that anxiety feel when u think all ur friends hate u). The other one…….. ech***

6: Have you ever been cheated on?

…………….moving on***

7: Have you ever cheated?

fuck no, that’s a horrible thing to do to someone

8: Would you date someone who’s well known for cheating?

I suppose that depends on if it’s like, they cheated on someone I was good friends with and heard it from that person directly, or if it’s more like middle school gossip bullshit. First one probably not, second one probably.

9: What’s the most important part of a relationship?

COMMUNICATE!!!!!!!!! YOU FUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?

I am entirely too soft hearted to not be Hella Committed to ppl i’m dating

11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on “breaks”?

In principle? Sure. But I feel like a lot of the time people talk about going on “breaks”, they really mean “it’s over but we’re not gonna SAY it’s over because Reasons” which is sorta like having “It’s Complicated” as a facebook status***

12: How many people have you ever hooked up with?

Like 0. See #10

13: What’s one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?

does being in the relationship at all count***

14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?

I’m over 18, which means I don’t get an opinion on that

15: Do you believe in the phrase “age is just a number”?

Depends, do you mean in the “you’re never too old to take up a new discipline or interest” way or the “highkey pedophile” way? Actually, phrasing it like that kinda shows you my opinion, so I’m gonna just move on

16: Do you believe in “love at first sight”?

what is this straight people bullshit

17: Do you believe it’s possible to fall in love on the internet?

Maybe not over just text chat (for me at least), but it’s 20-gotdamng-17. We have voice and video and all that shit. It worked for me, at any rate

18: What do you consider a deal breaker?

If the other person is abusive or manipulative and just being around them feels unhealthy, get the fuck out.

19: How do you know it’s time to end a relationship?

See above tbh

20: Are you currently in a relationship?

anyway @twin-ace​ is a fucking nerd

21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?

Assuming it didn’t end in too much fire and brimstone, absolutely! Yknow, if the person didn’t do anything Particularly Awful™ that prompted the breakup

22: Do you think people should date their friends?

I feel like being friends is the most important part of a relationship, so if you date someone you’re already friends with, that’s a big chunk of that awkward process out of the way early. That being said, if the person you want to date doesn’t want to date you, don’t be That Person, you feel me?

23: How many relationships have you had?

3

24: Do you think love can last forever?

Thought so***. Color me skeptical but optimistic.

25: Do you believe love can conquer all things?

anyway john lennon was an abusive dickwad. moving on

26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn’t approve of?

like in a “this person seems to be having a negative affect on your mental health” didn’t approve or like a “no son of mine’ll be datin’ no (slur)s” didn’t approve. bc like, i’d consider the first one (not automatic tho) but the second one goes in the bottomless complaint box over a garbage can.

27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?

Get the fuck out*** uhhhhh probably read up on signs of emotional abuse

28: Do you think long distance relationships can work?

god i hope so

29: What do you notice first about another person?

their hair 95% of the time. i’m all about that floof

30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual?

I’m ace my guy

31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?

tbh if some people describe their mental state as a “cocktail” of mental shit, my brain is more like a Home Depot™ bucket of jungle juice

32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?

…………………….anyway***

33: Do you want to get married one day?

I mean, it’d be nice, but like. Mostly I just wanna live w/ bae and like wake up together and make breakfast together and do all sorts of other sappy gay shit, and you don’t need to be married for that.

34: What do you think about getting your partner’s name tattooed?

Not until they invent a Ctrl-Z for tattoos that doesn’t hurt worse than falling into a tree chipper

35: Could you be in a relationship without sex?

I’m ace my guy

36: Are you still a virgin?

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

37: What’s more important: Looks or personality?

throwback to the person i was highkey crushing on last year who turned out to be a trump supporter. needless to say, that ended up 100 Not Happening™

38: Do you enjoy love films?

… anyway i want death

39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses?

Do paper ones count? bc if so, yes.

40: Have you ever had a valentine?

41: What’s your imagination of a “perfect date”?

lets get sushi and fall asleep on the couch for five hours tbh

42: Have you ever read “Romeo & Juliet”?

Yeah, in 9th grade. We actually had a teacher who went out of her way to point out all the dick jokes. It was amazing. Sure tf ain’t a love story tho

43: What’s more important: Your partner or your friends?

If either tried to make me choose between them, I’d probably go with the one not forcing me to make a choice. That being said, the whole squad is chill as fuck, so that’s not a problem

44: Would you consider yourself “romantic”?

i’m such a fucking sap, squirrels in canada pull my ass out of maple trees

45: Could you imagine to date one of your current friends?

i mean highkey thats kinda what happened, so

46: Have you ever been “friendzoned”?

I mean, I’ve had unrequited love before, but I wasn’t a 50 ton steaming douchetrain about it, so I’m going with “no”

47: Which “famous couple” is your favorite?

I’m gonna be real honest here, I truly don’t get the Obsession™with relationships of people you straight up Do Not Know like they’re characters in a fuckin shoujo anime

48: What’s your favorite love song?

either Metropolis or Thunderstruck, both by Owl City.

49: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

I don’t think so? Probably not, anyway

50: If you’re single, why do you think you are?

51: Would you rather date someone who’s rich but a douchebag or someone who’s poor but a nice guy?

assuming you mean a nice guy and not a Nice Guy™I’ll go with the second option

52: Are you good at giving other people advices regarding dating/ relationships?

I’m not sure. for one thing, I don’t really give advice so much as just help people talk out what they’re lowkey already thinking. Also, so far I’ve only really had one person ask me long-term (more than a quick question) for relationship advice. over the course of a year and a half, in no particular order, he:

broke up with, and got back together with, the same person more times than I could remember

slept with basically anyone he could during the “off again” periods

punched out the guy she was cheating on him with during the “on again” periods, who was also her drug dealer

hit a (cement or brick, i don’t remember) wall hard enough to put a hole in it

get drunk and make important life decisions while drunk often enough to count as “regularly”

didn’t listen to a single fucking word of my advice during any of this or the year before all of it

needless to say, we aren’t friends anymore

......... let’s just chalk up the original question to a “maybe” and move on

53: Are you jealous of couples when you’re single?

Singles Awareness Day is annoying, pass it on

54: How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on Facebook)?

5 years ago, it was important enough to me that I made a Facebook specifically for that purpose. By the time that relationship ended, I didn’t even care enough about Facebook even existing to change it. come to think of it, the same status is probably still there.

55: Would you consider yourself “clingy”, “overly attached” or “jealous”?

i’m 100% a clingy binch and so is bae, which is like, the best combination

56: Have you ever “destroyed” a relationship?

like, by existing, or what?*** but nah, never intentionally

57: Do you think it’s silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?

... see on one hand i wanna say something trite like “suicide is never silly” but then i remember this morning i missed a 10 point homework assignment and thought about emailing my teacher “hey when i get to class can u literally murder me please, thanks in advance” for like 15 minutes

58: Are you the “dominant” or the “submissive” part in a relationship?

59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner’s birthday or your anniversary?

I mean, I’ve forgotten other stuff, but nothing like that.

60: What’s your opinion on open relationships?

not my jam, but I get why people do it. I’m fine with people doing it as long as everyone involved knows and approves.

COMMUNICATION!!!!!

61: Who’s more important: Your partner or your family?

family is a pretty broad category tbh. like, i don’t know most of my extended family, and i haven’t talked to my dad in literally a couple years, but I love my mom and grandparents.

62: How do you define “cheating”?

If you know you’re gonna have to either lie or apologize to your partner about it, and then you do it anyway, you can go fuck yourself

63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate?

I personally don’t have an issue with it, but I’d talk it out with your partner.

COMMUNICATE!!!!!

64: Do you think Valentine’s Day is overrated?

Happy Capitalism Day™ Everybody

65: Would you consider yourself a “cuddler”?

I’ll cuddle with literally any person i know who is willing to cuddle my cuddly ass. what kinda fuckin question…….

[deathdab4cutie]

do all the questions for the valetnines thing

1: Do you have a crush at the moment? ew yes

2: Have you ever been deeply in love? yeah

3: Longest relationship you’ve ever been in? a few months

4: Have you ever changed for someone? unfortunatley

5: How is your relationship with your ex? we don’t talk

6: Have you ever been cheated on? don’t think so

7: Have you ever cheated? never. fuck cheaters they deserve to rot

8: Would you date someone who’s well known for cheating? nope

9: What’s the most important part of a relationship? communication

10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? serious probs but how would i know haha

11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on “breaks”? it’s up to both people, but i think yes

12: How many people have you ever hooked up with? okay so so many people define hook up differently. if you say you “hooked up” i assume u did something sexual, not just a kiss. so, no i’ve never fucked someone i wasn’t dating

13: What’s one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship? yikes i think i just falling for someone i hadn’t known a super long time

14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex? 16? ig lol

15: Do you believe in the phrase “age is just a number”? no bc that’s just something said to try to excuse pedophilia

16: Do you believe in “love at first sight”? attraction at first sight, but not love

17: Do you believe it’s possible to fall in love on the internet? yes

18: What do you consider a deal breaker? cheating, abuse (if you notice it) thats all i can think of rn

19: How do you know it’s time to end a relationship? when you no longer love them or there’re more cons than pros

20: Are you currently in a relationship? lol no why would i be

21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends? it takes time to get over it, but yes

22: Do you think people should date their friends? yes, you should not date someone you wouldn’t consider a friend

23: How many relationships have you had? 1 lmao i suck

24: Do you think love can last forever? yeah

25: Do you believe love can conquer all things? no

26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn’t approve of? eh that’s a complicated question. if they gave me legit reasons as to why, i might. i would if i agreed with their reasoning and i just didn’t notice what turns them off myself before. but if it was something dumb like “why aren’t they in college” or “why do they smoke?” who cares

27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be? don’t let it cossume your life. all things come to an end

28: Do you think long distance relationships can work? lmao yeah

29: What do you notice first about another person? eyes i think?

30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual? bi ig idk i like people

31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness? i’m bipolar.. so no

32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship? no

33: Do you want to get married one day? eh i’m not writing about this rant here

34: What do you think about getting your partner’s name tattooed? YIKES i would never do that. do what u want ig but i would never

35: Could you be in a relationship without sex? i think so yeah that’s not the only thing that matters

36: Are you still a virgin? no

37: What’s more important: Looks or personality? personality this is a dumb question

38: Do you enjoy love films? EW NO i hate them i literally ranted about this to my friend a few days ago

39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses? nah

40: Have you ever had a valentine? i don’t think so

41: What’s your imagination of a “perfect date”? just spending time w the person ig. doesn’t rly matter 

42: Have you ever read “Romeo & Juliet”? yeah. overrated imo

43: What’s more important: Your partner or your friends? friends holy shit

44: Would you consider yourself “romantic”? no

45: Could you imagine to date one of your current friends? yeah a few. i like one of my friends actualy lmao

46: Have you ever been “friendzoned”? i hate that word but technically yes

47: Which “famous couple” is your favorite? dont have one

48: What’s your favorite love song? ew i don;t have one. friends by ed sheeran is good

49: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? i don’t think so?

50: If you’re single, why do you think you are? who knows idrc that much tho i have good friends

51: Would you rather date someone who’s rich but a douchebag or someone who’s poor but a nice guy? poor but nice guy duh it’s like titanic who’s gonna save u when the ship sinks?? jack dawson oc

52: Are you good at giving other people advices regarding dating/ relationships? probs not but i do my best

53: Are you jealous of couples when you’re single? no

54: How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on Facebook)? i mean i think people should know. the 1 time i dated someone i wanted the world to know bc i liked them a real lot. so personally it’s probs important

55: Would you consider yourself “clingy”, “overly attached” or “jealous”? honestly no but i can see others thinking i’m clingy. so in reality i probably am

56: Have you ever “destroyed” a relationship? i don’t think so? i hope not yikes

57: Do you think it’s silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart? no. you shouldn’t do it, but i can understand why people would consider it

58: Are you the “dominant” or the “submissive” part in a relationship? yikes

59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner’s birthday or your anniversary? no

60: What’s your opinion on open relationships? eh i wouldnt want one myself but idc what others do as long as no one gets hurt

61: Who’s more important: Your partner or your family? family

62: How do you define “cheating”? being dishonest with your partner about what you did with someone else sexually or romantically while you were in that current relationship

63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate? idc i hate porn tho. nasty shit

64: Do you think Valentine’s Day is overrated? eh kinda

65: Would you consider yourself a “cuddler”? yikes