#give me what i dererve

[narcissistcatt]

you're tickling me and you covered my eyes? I'm begging you to take off my blindfold since it only made me more sensitive? So take it off and force me to watch you torture me

[lluzionz]

hi can i request fem reader x diluc where reader is drunk and diluc takes her home (they live in dawn winery) so ofc since she is drunk she doesn't know its diluc carrying her back home so she goes like "diluc my beloved boyfriend i love him but i am not worthy of his love he deserves better" stuff like that yk? and he asks her abt it in the morning (hurt/comfort pls) feel free to ignore this, have a good day/night/afternoon

Hello there dear anon (hope you don't mind if I call you dear). First of all I hope you have a great day/night too. Second, you won't believe what happened. I had the same idea as you but in my scenario Diluc was the one who thought he didn't deserve y/n. Anyway, I just found this crazy and wanted you let know. Sending you my love <3

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"Unworthy of your love"

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Diluc x fem!reader

Tw: comfort

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"More please!" Y/N raised her grass to the air towards Diluc, expecting him to refill it as he did before. But he didn't make a move towards that. Instead, he took the glass off of her hand and placed it on the counter behind him, away from her reach. "Hey what are you doing? I want to drink more!" Y/N yelled at him as she crossing her arms over her chest, causing Diluc to glare at her. "You drank enough. It's time for you to go home." He scolded her. "I don't want to go home. It's not like anyone is waiting for me there anyway." She mumbled, thinking that Diluc wasn't able to hear her little comment, but he did even tho he didn't say anything. He knew that if he tried to ask her about it, she wouldn't tell him so instead, he took her glass from the counter, picked up a bottle of wine and filled her glass, giving it back to her. "Here, drink this. It's a new wine that I made and I would like to know your opinion." Y/N took the glass from his hand, electricity rushing through her entire body the moment the tip of her fingers touched his. "Sorry 'bout that!" She drunkly apologised as her cheeks took a darker shade of red from the one they already had. Diluc didn't say anything in return, just got back on serving drinks to the customers.

Hours past and the tavern was finally closed for the night. Everyone had left, well everyone except one person. Y/N. Her head was layed on her arms and her eyes were closed. "Is she sleeping?" Diluc wondered as he walked over to her, tapping her on the shoulder as he called her name. "Y/N, wake up we're closed. You need to go home." He said in a soft, low voice causing her to open her eyes. "What? Closed? I need to go home then." She said as she got up from her seat and made her way towards the door of the tavern. She was so drunk, she could barely see in front of her when suddenly, she stumbled and fell but before her body could hit the hard floor, a pear of strong hands wrapped around her body, pulling her back on her feet. "Come on, I'll take you home." He said, picking her up in his arms bride style, her arms finding their way around his neck as he started walking towards her house.

"Mr, do you know a pretty red haired guy who's name is Diluc?" Y/N suddenly asked him, causing a small gasp to escape his mouth. "Mr? Doesn't she recognice me? Also why is she calling me pretty all of a sudden?" Diluc thought to himself. He was about to ask her what she meant by that but Y/N continued to talk. "He is my beloved boyfriend or rather the man I want to be my beloved boyfriend but..." Her voice trailed off as a sob escaped her lips. "I'm not worthy of this man's love. He deserves so much better. He deserves the whole world. He dererves all the love in the world which I can't give to him. I just can't. I'm so worthless!" She cried as Diluc subconsciously tightened his grip around her body, pulling her closer to him as he tried to comfort her with his words. This seem to work as after a while, she stopped crying as her eyelashes grew heavier. She ended up falling asleep in his arms and he secretly wished to delay his arrival to her house, just so he could hold her in his arms an and show her what she really worth, without letting go of her. Ever.

Sadly his wish didn't came true as after a few minutes of walking, he arrived at her house. As silently as he could, he opened up the front door and entered her house, holding Y/N in his strong arms as she slept peacefully against him, her arms still holding on to him as if she feared he was going to leave her and she was trying to stop him from doing so. Diluc sighed as he carefully unwrapped Y/N's arms from his neck and placed her on her bed. A little whine came out from her as she felt his warm body leaving hers.

Sitting down on the bed besides her, Diluc reached out his hand and started stroking her hair as he started whispering sweet words to her, words she sadly wasn't able to hear. "Don't worry Y/N. I won't leave you. Not now I know how you feel about me and about yourself. I will always be there for you no matter what." He said, leaning over and placing a kiss on her hair. As if she understood what just happened, a faint smile made it's way across Y/N's lips as Diluc got up from his seat besided her and left her house. He planned to visit her again in the morning to check up on her but most importantly, to ask her about what she said to him while she was drunk.

The next day finally rolled around and Y/N woke up with a massive headache, unable to remember what exactly happened the night before. "Ugh my head. How much did I drink yesterday? And how did I ented up in my house? The last place I remember being is the tavern where I was drinking some of Diluc's new wine." Suddenly the memory of that strange man provoking her from falling and picking her up bride style formed on her mind. "Who was that man anyway?" She asked herself as a light knock at the door pulled her out from her thoughts. With slow steps, she walked up to the door and opened it only to find Diluc standing there, a worried look covering his beautiful, red eyes. "Diluc, what are you doing here so early in the morning?" Y/N asked him as she moved out of the way so he could come in. "I came to check up on you and also, here, take this." He said, handing her a bottle of painkillers. "You didn't have to come all the way just to check up on me and give me some painkillers." She gave him a faint smile as she took the pills from his hand. "The is another reason I came here besides the painkillers. I wanted to ask you about something you blurted out while I was caring you home."

Flashes of lasts night encounter rushed through her mind. Her smile fainted from her face as the realisation hit her like a brick. "Was Diluc the on ewho brought me home last night? Did I comfessed my feelings to the man I love but accidentaly let him know about my low self esteem?" She wondered as she slowly sat to the couch behind her. "D-Diluc, what did I say last night while you were caring me?" She asked, fearing his answer. "You said you don't deserve my love and that I deserve better." He reminded her as he sat next to her on the couch. Y/N's eyes filled with tears but she quickly blinked them away. Having someone else pointing out her low self esteem and the thoughts she had for herself really got to her. "Uh, it was actually nothing, just drunk-talk, you know." She tried to force herself to smile but nothing came out.

"People speak the biggest truths when they are drunk." Diluc commented as he moved closer to her, placing his gloved hand on her cheek, lifting her face up so he could face her. "So please Y/N. Open up to me and tell me every single feeling you held hidden for so long." He spoke in a low, soft voice causing Y/N to brole down and tell him every single thing she felt, for him and for herself. How she fell in love with him since the first time she met him, his serious but caring nature had her heart beating faster and faster everytime he was around her. But she never felt that she deserved him or his love.

"You are such a great person who deserves all the love you missed for all this years while I, I'm just a nobody who fell for you. A nobody who will make you sad and miserable if you're around. I am someone who never loved herself and probably never will. I don't deserve to be loved by anyone or love anyone. Especially you. I will hurt you if I stay by your side Diluc. I'm horrible and I don't deserve to to love you!" Tears ran like rivers down Y/N's cheeks, as Diluc stood there, starring at her crying but still beautiful face. How could she think such things for herself? Why she didn't deserve to love him? She was such a kind and lovely person so how could she think so low of herself? He was the one who didn't beserve to be loved by such a person. He was the one who was so broken and empty inside that it was a big surprise for him to find out that he had started having feelings for her.

After his father's death, Diluc thought he couldn't love anyone else so he locked all of his feelings away in his heart to never be seen again and became that grumpy man who never smiled. But then she came appeared on his life, making all of his possitive feelings come back one by one. She was so bubbly and cheerful and always had a goofd thing to say about him. She also spend a lot of her time on the tavern, keeping him company either by offering him a hand or just drinking wine while happily chatting with him.

But now, that cheerful mask had fallen off, revealing Y/N's true feelings which were dark and awful, nothing like he expected from her, the happiest person he knew and the one who managed to make him smile after so long. Without loosing any moment, Diluc wiped her tears away as he pulled her closer, giving her a kiss on the forehead. "Nothing of what you said is true Y/N. You are such a incredible person who deserves to be treated like you treat the people around you. With so much love and care that you can make even the grumpiest, most deppressed person in the world, like himself, feel happy and loved just by being around them and giving them the words of courage that you are the first one who needs to hear." His thumb stroked her cheek, wiping a tear drop away.

Y/N wanted to say something, to tell him that what he said wasn't true but hearing those beautiful words coming out of this man's mouth, really left her speechless. "Since you don't love yourself, as you said, I want to be the person who will give you what you deserve. Love. I want to be with you and give you all the love I have Y/N and even more." He said causing tears to fall down Y/N's face. Diluc loved her? He wanted to be with her and give her all the love he had? Surely this coudn't be true. Diluc couldn't actually be in love with her, could he?

"Do you really mean what you just said Diluc?" She asked him, a faint smile slowly making it's way on her lips. "Of course I do. I couldn't ask for anyone else to love me rather than you. You are the one who deserves to be called my girl, the love of my life, no one else." He said to her. "So this means I can call you my beloved boyfriend now and this time be true?" She hesitatly asked, wiping the remaining tears away from her eyes. Diluc nodded his head and a the brightest smile he had ever seen plastered on her lips as she through her arms around his body, pulling him closer to her a she connected their lips together. Perfect fit, like the perfect fit they were for each other.

[hersaint]

My thoughts on Vivienne and MC...

Their relationship is the most beautiful one I’ve ever read on Lovestruck and other similar games. I love the way their relationship was dealt with in the last few episodes in Season 2, this is the exact way I’d like it to be. When Vivienne made that guilty confession on phone, it made me wanna cry as I thought she’s gonna run away for real (tbh for the rest of the story, every second I was kinda anxious that she might suddenly disappear without saying goodbye...). I’m so glad it didn’t end up like this.

I love this soft and vulnerable Vivienne we see a lot in S2, but it doesn’t mean I love her femme fatale persona less. So at some point of S2, I was worried that, like many TV series or novels where the bad boy girl is gonna change for a good girl, Vivienne would no longer be the same Vivienne anymore if she then became all kind and soft to mc. I need her to dom my mc ahem. I feel weirdly relieved the moment when she smirked and playfully said she’d still play games with mc (but no longer like the head games she played in Paris). It’s like a perfect upgrade of Vivienne I’d ask for.

Perhaps her self-preservation mechanism is a bit extreme, when mc is the last one on earth who’d hurt her, but it’s not too hard to understand this. I understand how it works, but why? I’m intrigued by her past, what pushed her to this level of insecurity and fear? What made her feel like it’s necessary to build up all the defense and shut out feelings? It’s just sad to think about it. I guess it must have sth to do with her father and family... There’s still so much to be revealed. 

For MC, I like how she speaks up in S2. She’s no longer the little lamb maneuvered by the femme fatale. She’s more as equal as Vivienne now. But during earlier episodes, sometimes mc got on my nerves when she kept pushing Vivienne’s boundaries and threw tantrum every now and then. I can’t blame her much tho, she dererves to feel angry and frustrated, and I understand her behaviour because she expected much more from her MASSIVE crush, like most of us do.

I’m happy that mc eventually realised that she has to find out the right pace with Vivienne and respects her space. I rmb Jett said Vivienne likes freedom, so it must be overwhelming for a free spirit to feel chained and being pushed hard. I can relate to it much because I also feel suffocated whenever someone gets too attached to me even if I do like them. It’s brilliant that MC sets up her own boundaries that she wouldn’t stand Vivienne toying her heart anymore, but other than that she’s willing to take whatever Vivienne feels comfortable to give.

Patience should always be rewarded, as much as I enjoy Vivienne’s super sexy seduction, Voltage you better give us 30-heart sex scenes or some bdsm stuff next season!